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My name was Robert (Bobby) Preston but now it is Bobbi Preston, and here is my story At the tender age of 9 my mother was diagnosed with cancer, at that time nobody explained this to me - not that I would have understood or what that all meant anyway or what was going to happen. Prior to this, my life was very much like many children. My dad had always taken me to my swim lessons and Boy Scouts. Mom always took care of the school stuff along with my emotional needs. Dad was never very good at that kind of stuff. But slowly, as mom was getting sicker and coupled with some treatments, she could not be there for me in the same way she was before, and when she was at home I think I knew to just not bother her and be with her. I have never been a stellar student basically a C average. And except for swimming, I didn't (couldn't) play any sports. I was useless when it came to baseball and not interested in running up and down a field to play soccer. If I was born in a litter of dogs, I would have been the runt of the litter. It was only 3 months past my 12th birthday when mom passed away. It was a sad and emotional time for me. Mom was always in my corner, my cheerleader. I was devasted, my world as I knew it came crashing down on me in more was then the passing of my mom. Dad always had a couple of drinks a day, which was just normal for me to see. I noticed that he really started to drink more just before mom died. Then more again after the funeral. I knew he was missing a lot of work, sometimes still in bed when I got home from school. I was not only scared for him but for me as well. Shortly before the first Christmas after mom died, I was placed in a foster home. It seemed that Dad was drinking himself to death. I haven't seen or heard from him since. I have no idea where he is living, or if he is still alive. Looking back, I am more sympathetic towards him now. As I can only imagine through my life experiences what he must have felt like and although not happy with his drinking - I get it that was his way to lessen the pain for him. Two plus decades later, I guess I could search for him, but I do not feel any need to do this and I have made my peace around that. I was lucky to live in the same community and go to the same school. Unlike horror stories I have heard, the several foster homes where I lived, the people were nice to me. But at 18, I was out on my own. Although not ready to be. There was no one. I kept to myself at school, no real friends and just managed to get by. There was a girl in several of my classes, she also seemed to be a loner as well. We would chat every now and then, oh how I felt the need to have this friendship. Julie is very bright and confident. She often reminded me of my mom. Someone you could talk to and trust. As far as I knew Julie never dated, and I was lacking self-confidence to even consider asking her out on a date. Julie and I went to the same college, her interest was chemistry, and I was directionless. I didn't see her that much at college and so we just grew apart. After a dismal first semester I checked out of school to find a job. Since I had no work skills, and my only motivation was to eat and live indoors I had to take what was offered to me. My first job was with a printing company. I packed boxes with finished material and piled them on skids. It was backbreaking boring work, but I was very thankful I had work and a pay cheque. I was lucky to find a small apartment on the second floor of a house. There wasn't much money left at the end of the week for anything fun, but I could pay the rent and eat wisely. It was a challenge, but my needs were simple, and my wants were few. Fortunately for me I found a local thrift store where I could buy the clothes that I needed. They were not in style (whatever that means) but they were clean, not damaged and they fit me. After 6 months I was trained to run a machine, this was good because I also made a little more money and the work also became a bit more interesting. This experience taught me that if I wanted to be happy in life, I had to find something to work towards. I also decided to take a few night-school courses as I was now ready to broaden my horizon. It felt good to be at night school. I enjoyed the classes I took and really focused on them. My marks were far better than when I was in college full time. I still really didn't connect with anyone at school, which was ok, as I did enjoy my own company. It was about a year and a bit after that I applied to a new job. The work would be different to what I have been doing and I felt up to the challenge. I was going to work in a small office as a clerk - some customer telephone work along with spreadsheets and filing when required. I was going to be making a bit more money along with health benefits. I couldn't believe my luck, and I was very grateful. While in the grocery store picking up a few items for dinner and suddenly there she was - Julie! It was great to see her. She looked fantastic. We talked for a bit, and then I got the up nerve and asked if she wanted to meet up for a coffee that evening, and she agreed. At the Coffee House we got all caught up and by all appearances Julie was doing very well. She got her degree in biochemistry at college and is now working in a research lab analyzing samples while working on her master's degree. Her hope was to get her master's and move up within the company. She had just recently moved back into town as that is where her job is. As she talked and told me what was going on it seemed to me that her schedule was crazy busy, but she had the horsepower to do it. She asked me how things are, and I told her about my new job that I'm starting in a week and am very excited and nervous about. She had asked what kinds of activities is there to do around here for fun. I said there are a few things to do, one of my favorite activities is at a small lake not far from here with a great beach, hiking is great lots of decent spots - some very challenging and others easier. I asked if she was interested in going to the beach next Sunday and she said that she would love to go. Wow what else could go right here, I'm so looking forward to this. Sheepishly I asked if she could pick me up and drive as I currently do not own a car. She agreed and I gave her my address to pick me up on Sunday. What a week, Friday was my last day at the old job, and Monday I start my new job. Sunday we are off to the lake. I had packed a picnic lunch for us along with a few bottles of water. Julie picked me up at 10 and we were off to the beach. As we neared the lake, I said this is certainly faster than when I ride my bike! What a great day, the weather was perfect, and the water was warm. The beach was not as busy as I thought it would be and we both really enjoyed ourselves. We chatted about days gone by and days yet to come. Sun tanned on the beach, read, swam I think I dozed off for a bit. We left around 4 - time flies when you are having fun. As we got closer to my apartment there was a lot of commotion going on. Police cars and several fire trucks had their lights flashing. As we neared, I was able to see what was going on. The action was at my place! We parked as close as we were allowed and as we walked closer to the scene I just stopped and stood there while gazing at where the house was, I was in shock. I couldn't believe my eyes. The entire back half of the house was destroyed - the part where I lived. I flagged down a cop and told him that I lived there and asked what happened. He wasn't sure what happened at this point but as I could already see, the house was destroyed along with the garage and will probably have to be demolished. I didn't realize that I was crying. Everything I owned was gone - except for a bathing suit, muscle shirt, towel, flip flops and small cooler. My wallet, ID, clothes, shoes, bike. Were gone. All of it. Everything. Ashes. Julie consoled me but I was oblivious to that. I was in a fog. Just when I thought everything was looking up.... After some time I finally turned to Julie in tears and said what am I going to do now? I have nothing. I have nowhere to live. In her kindness and confident way, she said that I could stay at her place as she had a sofa that I could use. She was a very sincere about the offer and I thanked her for this. When she felt I had had enough we left and went to her place. After a couple of hours, I started thinking again. In a moment of new panic, I realized that I start my new job tomorrow, but I don't have any clothes, I don't have any money. I had withdrawn the rent and my weekly spending money on Friday, but it all has turned to ash now. Julie thought for a moment and said this is what we are going to do. It was like mom was here with me. As a sense of calm overcame me Julie explained what is going to happen. She said it's too late to go shopping and that she didn't have much spare cash that she could lend me, but she had an idea. Look I have some clothes that I'm sure would fit you and are not too feminine that you can wear. I didn't know if I should thank her or cry again. In my daze I must have thanked her because the next minute we are in her bedroom going through her closet She pulled out a pair of slacks a blouse and a pair of underwear. The next thing she found were a pair of shoes. They had a small heal and they fit me. So, I tried everything on, and all the items fit. The shoes felt funny with no socks, so she gave my pantyhose. This felt weird on so many levels. Because the pants were a bit short on me the pantyhose would show, and my leg hair would poke out. Julie the fixer, solved the problem. She gave me a cream hair remover and told me to put it on my legs - from my toes to my crotch. Then sent me to the bathroom. I put it on, and boy did it stink. She said use the plastic razor looking thing and that will take the hair off. Please wipe off the hair and put it in the toilet. I did as I was told. After that I got into the tub to bathe. She shocked me when she just walked in and dumped some bubble bath in the tub, then told me to just soak and relax. When I got out of the tub, I felt so good and smelled nice as well. We had a bite of dinner, chatted for a bit and I made up the sofa and fell asleep. When I woke up Julie was already dressed and was making us protein shakes. She had also put together our lunches. She told me to hop in the shower to get ready. She also handed me a razor and said I must shave my arm pits. I had given her a look because then she said if you want to use deodorant and not smell on your first day and I don't want to see hair on it. No problem was my reply along with a thank you. So, a quick shower and then started to get dress. The panties felt a little tight, luckily, I'm not the big down there, but I got them on. By the time I was putting on the pantyhose I couldn't believe the sensations I was experiencing. Any slight movement with my legs made me excited, When I was fully dressed, and I looked in the mirror I was shocked. It was obvious that I was wearing female clothes, but I was ever so grateful that I didn't have to wear my bathing suit to go to work! The shoes with the heel presented a bit of a challenge, but I was quick to get over that. Off to the first day at work with some apprehension. My first task was to sit with the Leslie - the HR rep. She gave me some forms to complete and asked for some ID to copy for my file and I told her what had happened yesterday. She felt a sense of true loss for me and was ever so kind and offered to assist me in getting my IDs replaced. I greatly appreciated the help. I didn't notice then, but my work pass card name was spelt Bobbi - not Bobby. The rest of the day was spent in various training sessions and telling my story a couple of times. Leslie came to me later in the day and said that she had printed off some forms for my ID replacements. She said I can fill these out at home tonight and bring them back to work tomorrow. Another load taken off my mind. That evening I got back to the apartment first. So, I cleaned the kitchen, bathroom, vacuumed and started to prepare a lite dinner when Julie came in. She was very pleased that I did this and thanked me. I in turned thank her very much for helping me out. I told her about my day, and she told me about hers. I couldn't get over the feeling of calm. I started to say that I will start to look for a place soon and she said we will discuss that later. You need to focus on your job and get your head cleared. So, after dinner we sat down with an herbal tea and Julie started asking me the questions. Name, date of birth, address etc. What I didn't know is that Julie who noticed the spelling of my name on my pass-card used the same spelling. Also, where it asked the gender she put in Female. As we were getting ready for bed, she had given me a different blouse to wear on day 2. It was a bit more feminine but better that then wearing the same shirt (blouse) two days in a row. When I got to work that morning a couple of people gave me some bags of clothes. I could have cried. They are so kind. I thanked them very much and got on with the day When I got home, I did the chores again and prepared another dinner I told Julie about the clothes, and she said that I was very lucky. Well let's see them she said. When I pulled them out to look, I don't know who was surprised more - Julie or me. They were all women's clothes. I didn't know what to say. Julie just said let's try them on and see what works. So, I did. Almost everything fit perfect. The few items that did not I donated to my local thrift shop. I was going to put the dresses in that bag as well, but Julie said that would be rude you will have to wear them at least once. There must have been a look on my face and then Julie was very clear. Your new co-workers are trying to help you out as am I and the least you could do is acknowledge and show them that you appreciate everything they have and probably will do for you. I felt ashamed and I apologized to Julie. She suggested that on Saturday I should wear one of the dresses and we will see how that works out. The rest of that week went very well. I was getting more comfortable not only in my new job but my new clothes. On Saturday morning Julie said I need to cream the hair off my chest as well, not that there is much but when I put the dress on, she said no one wants to see hair sticking out. When I asked where we were going, she said an adventure. We were off to the mall. So off to Willowcliff Mall, I had never been there before. All the clothes that I own (owned) came from other stores. As we walked from the parking lot to the mall there was a slight breeze which drove me wild, it is hard to express what I was felling, but it felt fantastic. Julie said that we are going to her hairdressers to get our hair done. My hair was longish, but I didn't think I really needed it cut. I said to Julie that I don't get paid for 2 weeks, perhaps we should wait until then. She said no, we are going to have a fun weekend. I was introduced to Kathy who would be taking care of me today. Kathy had laid down the salon chair and started combing my eyebrows. This I thought was very strange, she then had a couple pieces of thread and then told me that she was going to clean up my brows. This was very uncomfortable, and she could tell. So, she stopped and put some cream on them then started again. Without being able to glance in the mirror, we went off to the shampoo station. This was the first time since I was a kid that someone washed my hair. What a wonderful experience. Kathy was a talker, and we just gabbed all the time. When the hair washing cycle ended it was over to the cutting station. This is when I noticed my eyebrows. They were in a very feminine shape, I thought I was going to explode down below, luckily, I didn't as I didn't want to make a mess and have to explain anything. A bob haircut was on the agenda. As she was cutting the more feminine, I was looking. It is amazing that a simple haircut and eyebrow shaping made me look more and more like a real woman. I had internal mixed emotions about all of this. As much as this excited and thrilled me it scared me as well. Where would this all end? I also did not want to hurt Julie's feelings as she was so very king in helping me out. Speaking of Julie, she came over just as Kathy was finishing up. She was jubilant with the results. Upon final inspection Kathy had suggested to pierce my ears and Julie thought this would be the icing on the cake. Kathy must have known this was going to happen because it seemed that everything was ready to go, and I didn't even have to say yes - or no. So, 2 shots in each ear and there were 4 new gold studs in my ears. Kathy went over the care procedures while Julie paid and then we were off. We had a light lunch then walk the mall for a bit then off to get some groceries and home. I couldn't thank Julie enough for her help and the gift at the salon. I felt incredible. Although hard to believe that standing in a dress with a girlie haircut, earrings and eyebrows that took it all over the top I felt amazing. The rest of the weekend was spent cleaning, preparing a few meals, reading and a couple of neighborhood walks. Much better than the last weekend. Monday morning's routine was the same, Julie was up and ready for work made us lunch and a morning protein shake. While I showered and got dressed for work. I made certain to choose an item that was given to me by a coworker. Julie gave her nod of approval. Monday morning at work, Leslie had stopped by my desk and complimented me on my hair and the outfit I was wearing. I blushed and then she asked if I got the forms done. I said they are right here, and I was going to take them to the post office after work. She said that she would courier them out for me today so they would get them sooner. I got my final pay on Thursday, and I asked Julie how much I owe her for rent, food and last week's salon trip. She gave me a figure for rent and food, but the salon trip is on her. Once again, thank you Julie. I said that I would like to do something special for her on the weekend and it would be my treat. She said that sounds like fun and that she has the perfect idea. Saturday morning came and I put on another summer dress and off to the mall we go. Julie decided that we need our nails done. What did I know about nails? Julie said to the clinician that I was to get Bio Gel nails with a nude polish. Oh my, if I thought that I was going to explode last Saturday when I saw my eyebrows. watching them sanding down my nails and glue extensions on was an experience that I could never have imagined! The glued-on nails were huge - the nail technician must have seen the face I made and told me not to worry as the will be trimmed back, which she did next. Gel was then applied to one hand then in a UV dryer and the same process with the other hand then back several times. Finally, a coat of nude (tan) polish went on. My nails were very shiny and much longer than when I came in. I wondered how am I going to work with these things? Next Julie said that I should get myself a bag to carry my stuff in - little did I know that by a bag she meant a purse. What a selection of purses. We were able to find a bag - purse that seemed the most practical to me. It was not huge, it wasn't shiny, and it didn't have a lot of bling on it. The following week went very well again. I was really into my work and my co-workers were lovely to work with. Except for compliments on my hair, eyebrows and nails they never said anything about my clothing choices. Since it would be some time before I could save up some money for men's clothes I felt, for the very first time in my life - comfortable. By Friday my replacement birth certificate and social insurance card showed up. I also got a letter from the license bureau to come in for a photo and they would then send me my new card as well. Monday after work I stopped by the Department of Motor Vehicles to get my photo taken. I was somewhat reluctant, as how I was dressed but I needed my license. After the photo was taken the attendant asked me a couple of confirmation questions and then ask me to sign the form. My new license should be sent in a couple of days. The following Tuesday I got my new license in the mail. I was so happy that all my ID's are back, my job is going great, and I am enjoying living with Julie. What could go wrong? As I was putting my license in my purse, I was looking at the photo and thought that I really looked like a woman, then my eye caught my name - spelt just like my work pass Bobbi and under sex I was listed as F (female). Oh no, now what? That evening I talked to Julie about my driver's license. Julie asked me how do I really feel, deep down. I was taken back for a moment but said that I really feel comfortable with me as how I am presenting myself. She said that you have told me that your work is going well, people are treating you with respect. No one has ever talked about your particular style. You seem to me to be comfortable and confident with the clothes you are wearing and the person who you are - kind, gentle, and patient. Great qualities to have. I finally admitted to Julie that this is all very confusing for me and I'm afraid to say that I feel great enjoyment living like this. Upon reflection as well, who else do I have to prove anything to and why can't I just accept and be content with everything and maybe be true to myself? On Saturday Julie and I went on a nice drive to the mall in the next town to pick up some items she ordered. It truly was a spectacular day and when we arrived at the mall, she said we really should have gone to the beach today, there won't be many days like this left. I said it's too bad that we didn't pack our bathing suits and she said that she needs a new one anyway and that I should also get a new one piece. Although by this time I have become accustomed to and enjoy wearing female clothes I must have expressed a hesitation. Julie said, that no one will notice you wearing a one piece suit, in fact you may get more notice if you don't. I must admit that this was very exciting to me and off into the mall we went. After we picked up her item, we went looking for bathing suits and the shop assistant immediately took us both over to the women's suits and said if you need any help, please give me a call and the change rooms are just over there, pointing to them. Julie found a nice suit for me to look at. It was yellow with open sides. This looks great, but how am I going to hide my "stuff" pointing to my groin and missing stuff pointing to my breasts. She took my hand and we walked into the change room together and she said let's see this on you. At first, I was hesitant as, I thought as soon as I strip, I may get an erection, although lately they have been few and far between. So I stripped, and she commented on my clean smooth privates but never stared and watched me put the suit on. It fit like a glove and upon glancing in the mirror I felt it looked great. She said look at your groin, the padding in the suit mushes everything together and you can't see or suspect anything. As I looked more closely, and she was right you could not tell if there was anything out of the ordinary there. We also got a beach bag and towels then headed for the beach. We were there for hours, in and out of the water, laying down tanning, reading playing games on the phone. What a great day. As we were driving home Julie asked me more about our conversation last night and if I have had any more thoughts on where to go from here - if I wanted it to go anywhere from here. I want to be completely honest and candid with you so I said that I feel better now than ever before in my life. I am truly loving my job and my coworkers, and I am especially grateful for how wonderful and generous you have been with me. As for where this is going, I'm certain that I will never be able to afford any future "enhancements." I thought this may be a good time to also bring up our living arrangements. So I said that I am so grateful for her helping me out these last few months and I think that I should start looking for my own place so her life could hat back to normal. She, said to me that she had hoped for me to stay. Then went on to tell me that she is currently asexual and although has no interest in any sexual relationships, she so very much enjoys my company and wishes that I would consider staying. I said I would love to stay as I am really enjoying our time together as well. My only concern is sleeping on the couch. As I'm starting to experience some physical discomfort sleeping on the couch, and you have no room for a second bed. Would you be interested in an apartment with 2 bedrooms? She said that she loves her apartment, and the price is right, but perhaps there is an alternative arrangement we can come up with. But first off, I think we need to make you a doctor's appointment to make sure there is nothing else going on. She asked me the name of my doctor. I said my doctor retired a few years ago and never really needed one, so I guess I will have to see if I can find one. She said at the clinic they work through are taking on patients, would you like me to ask and book you an appointment? I agreed and thanked her again. After a few minutes of driving Julie said I will let you share my bed with me under certain conditions. First off I am currently not interested in sex of any sort, although I do and would enjoy cuddling. So, if you agreed to speak to the doctor, when I get you an appointment would you consider asking them for medication that would stop you from getting aroused? I know this sounds freaky but I just don't want to go down that road now. Please give this some thought. I pondered this for a few moments and thought it may not be a bad idea, getting an erection in nylons is somewhat uncomfortable. After a few minutes I said I would talk to the doctor and see what they say. We smiled at one another and continued chatting on the way home. That night I slept again on the couch until I could see a doctor When I got out of the shower in the morning I really got some sun at the beach yesterday. I looked somewhat comical, tan lines going up high on my hips, a big oval on each side and this rather large white spot in the middle. When I showed Julie this she thought it rather funny as well. Monday morning came and our usual routine was in full effect. Julie made our protein shakes and lunch (I do dinner and clean every day). She called me at work and said she could get me an appointment after work today. Then proceeded to tell me where the office is and I said it's about a 15 minute walk and I will be there. She said that I am seeing Dr Wright at 5:30 and she will meet there and drive home. I got to the clinic at 5:15 and filled out all kinds of paperwork. For the first time I actually tick the off the female gender box, which felt truly freeing. I had just wrapped up the paperwork when Julie walked in. When I was called I got up but Julie stayed behind, I asked to her to come in with me. She agreed and off we went. Dr Wright came in several minutes later and her and Julie chatted briefly before the conversation turned to me. She asked me several questions and then without judgment asked how long I have been wearing feminine clothes. I guess she caught me slightly off guard as Julie picked up the story from there. When she was done I thanked her and Dr Wright asked me to hop up on the table. She performed a complete physical examination with Julie in the room, which I never really thought was out of the ordinary. Once she was done she took some blood and asked if there was anything else. I said this is a bit embarrassing, but is there medication that would stop me from getting aroused? Without batting an eye she said there are several different medications and said I will prescribe them for you. So with prescriptions in hand, we went to the pharmacy at the clinic and got my medication. When we got home, I took my medicine, prepared dinner and cleaned the bathroom. After supper we had tea and read for a few hours. I started to get my sheets and pillow when Julie said I didn't have to sleep on the couch anymore. Julie was finished in the bathroom first and as I was getting ready to brush my teeth I saw her take off her robe and got into bed naked. I only was surprised as I didn't think anyone ever slept in the buff. She looked gorgeous, and I was somewhat surprised that I didn't get an erection. It seems that the medication had started to kicked in. When I was finished and getting ready to climb into bed she said I have to tell you that I sleep naked and there are lots of reasons to do so yourself, such as being a bit cooler, and not getting all twisted up in pj's, but only if you feel up to it. I pondered it for only a second and stripped off my underwear and climbed into bed. Julie turn to face me and said this is very nice then leaned over a gave my a kiss then rolled back over and went to sleep. My mind was racing for a bit but then calmed down and finally fell into a deep sleep. In the morning Julie had my smoothie and lunch made and my meds ready to take. We chatted then headed off to work. Thursday morning was a complete surprise to me Julie had prepared a birthday festival for me. I hadn't celebrated my birthday in a long time as I really didn't have anyone to share it with. I was overwhelmed and started to cry she gave me a hug which made me feel so much better. She handed me a card to open and it was very lovely, inside was a gift card for a skin clinic. She said to me that this was for laser hair removal - only if I really wanted it, if not she would replace it with something else. This is a new laser hair removal method and after 2 visits 100% hair removal is guaranteed. As we carried on chatting, she brought the subject of gift card up. "I wasn't sure if you wanted this and please feel free to say if you're not interested in going through this. I said my mind is a mix up emotions, but I believe all for the good. I do feel overwhelmed, like this is a dream but a very good dream. When I look in the mirror, I see a very confident young woman looking back at me. This may sound weird but I'm feeling like this is who I've always needed to be, and I want to thank you so very deeply for guiding me down this road and yes, I am looking forward to the treatment. Julie booked the appointment for me for the following Saturday and 4 weeks after that for the second round. When Saturday came we went together to the spa. Julie had booked herself a massage will I was getting my treatment done. The technician came by with a few forms for me to fill out and asked if there were any areas that I wanted hair left on. I was a bit shocked, and Julie just said from the neck down all can go including the face - when she was done she looked at me for agreement and I nodded yes. When we got into the room the technician gave me 2 pills to swallow. She said this was a new procedure which helps make this permanent in only 2 visits. She was very careful in putting my hair up under a cap. She said we are almost ready and then explained the procedure. She said that when she leaves the room I am to take everything off and stand inside this tube like thing and to spread eagle my feet then put on the special googles so that my eybrow's and lashes don't disappear, then reach up to the top bar and rest my hands on them. Last but not least place these 2 small nose plus gently in my nostrils and put the scuba breathing thing in my mouth. Once I am prepared I am to push the big green button. Once you push the button I will come on the over the speaker to walk you through this. The process takes 3 minutes for the spray and 9 minutes of light followed by a shower if warm soapy water and rinse. The spray will capture everywhere that is not covered and the intense light will feel very warm. I did as she said, got all my coverings on, the plugs in my nose and the mouthpiece in then hit the green button. She immediately starting talk and told me that no response was necessary and if there was a problem then reach out to hit the green button, then everything would stop, and 3 beeps tells me it is safe to take off my gear. The procedure went as planned although there seemed to be a lot of spray - everywhere! I felt the spray stop and then the lights came on, even with my eyes covered I noticed how bright and warm they were. When it was finished, she came on over the speaker and said that I can remove all the protective gear. It was almost therapeutic I felt fully refreshed. Of course, I couldn't tell if it worked or not because most of my hair was already razored off. After I got dressed, she met me at the counter and said that I had to be here for my final appointment in 4 weeks otherwise there would be no guarantee of the future results. Julie and I met up after our appointments and decided on treating ourselves to lunch. She asked all about the process. When I was done, she said this was one of the projects her company worked on and went on to explain to me how this all works. So the pills I took attach the medication to the hair follicle (root), the spray is an acting agent to penetrate the hair follicle from the outside and the intense light targets the follicle for highly effective destruction. Hair grows in 4 week, cycles so that is why there is a second appointment to catch any new growth hair. We wondered through the mall then went to get our groceries and home. We rested most of Sunday, spent time reading and went for a stroll through the park. Fall was coming you could feel it in the air. Julie said I know this is none of my business and please tell me so, but have you been noticing any changes to your body? I said I don't mind sharing and glad you have asked. I've been noticing that my areola's seemed to have increased in diameter and seem to be a bit darker, but not completely sure, as I see them every day. They are also feeling a bit tender as well. My testicles have shrunk, and my penis is also retracting into my body and for a few weeks now I have to sit and pee. If you are interested, I could show you - only if you like. Julie said that she really wants to be on this journey with me. So, I stripped everything off and stood there turning around every now and then. She said that she could also see a budging of my hips and a little extra cushion on my rear. There are the beginnings of some breast tissue happening. It appears that your testicles have disappeared completely leaving a bit of your ball sack behind and your penis head is only barley poking out During dinner I talked more about my feelings. I said that this is the best thing that has ever happened to me, I feel so very comfortable with myself and have gain so much confidence with you walking beside me on this journey. I went silent for a moment and Julie asked what's going on. I looked into her eyes and said I really want to be a woman now in all ways possible, but I think that they may never happen as I've done a little internet digging and it is very expensive. Julie said that maybe she can help a bit. I said I can't ask you for financial help with this it is just way to much for me to even consider She said, oh I know, but there may be another way. My company does all kinds of genetic research and are always looking for volunteers. Now, as always this may not work but I will check into it. In our internal news magazine, there is a plan to gear up for 4th stage genetic testing - which means on humans and they will be looking for people who fit a criteria. Now I don't know what the criteria is but I can definitely look into this for you - if you like. I was thrilled beyond belief even though I really didn't know what this testing is even about. When we got into bed, Julie rolled over to my side and we hugged and cuddled together then drifted off to sleep. The next few weeks flew by and it was time for my final hair removal appointment. I really didn't give this much thought over the month but I never had to shave once. I did notice a few stray hairs on my legs but that was it. Julie and I headed to the spa, she got another massage and I had me second and final treatment. It all went really well and I am so glad that I received this gift. After a couple of months had rolled by without any word from clinical trial people, I got this letter in the mail for an initial appointment! I was over the moon excited and scared all at the same time and couldn't wait to share this with Julie. I called them right away and an appointment was made for this upcoming Tuesday afternoon. I must have been so over the top that Julie finally said we need to do something to get your mind off of this for a few hours this weekend . Why don't we go down to the community indoor pool tomorrow for a swim. It was fascinating for me, in retrospect as we just walked into the women's change room and took my clothes off and swimsuit on without thinking anything about it as if I have done this my entire life. The swim calmed me down and was finally able to relax that Saturday evening. Sunday I was still feeling fantastic, but more in a calm way. Julie and I did a few chores and went out for a hike near the reservoir. The cool fresh air cleared my head even more. When we got home, I made us tea and we sat and talked, well I talked Julie and as usual listen very carefully to me and offered wisdom and perspective. She didn't know what was being tested and that hopefully on Tuesday they would give you some idea as to the parameters of the trial. I don't want to wish my life away, but I wish tomorrow was Tuesday, she chuckled at that and assured me that Tuesday will come. With that we went back to reading and sipping tea. It was tough to focus at work on Tuesday, but as Julie told me it would come, and here it is. My manger asked me if everything is all right because I seemed a bit distracted today. I said that I have an appointment this afternoon after work that I am looking forward to. This seemed to concern her a bit as she asked me into her office a little while later. She said to me that she hopes that I am not leaving. I said oh, nothing like that I love working here. I did tell her what I was going to be looking into. She was very supportive and said does anyone else know and I said that I haven't shared this with anyone else. She offered her assistance to me if needed during this time and wished me luck. Julie picked me up so that we could be there on time, which we were. After we got checked in there was only a few minutes wait and then we were called into the doctor's office. We made introductions and got down to business. The doctor went on about the clinical trail they were working on. The essence of the trials were DNA replacement enhancement therapy - DNARET. From what I understood is that if you wanted a part of your body to be altered with no surgery, then you would select the area and describe what changes you would want. Then they would take a sample of my DNA and alter those particular features. She asked me if there was anything specific that I was looking for, and I turned to Julie and she said that I would ultimately like to be a complete women while I nodded in agreement. She then asked how long I have been on hormone therapy and dressing the part. I said it will be a year in July. She then asked to disrobe and lay on the table. After a few minutes I could get down and get dressed. She said that they will need to take some blood work and perform a couple of other pre-qualifying test to see if I would be a suitable candidate and that she would speak with the test overseers with the results and get back to me. One of the procedures that also performed was need a digital generation of my body. So not unlike the machine that I use for the hair removal, this time I got into the machine without goggles, eye and hair protection and the unit spray a liquid on me then once that was done I was to do a series of movements, walking, sitting, arms up, down swinging, head nodding, turning etc. After that of to the shower and back out to see the doctor again. This same procedure I would have to repeat at 6 and 15 weeks then a few months after that. My head was still on the clouds and Julie asked how would the process work and would I need to be off work etc. So the doctor, without going into technical terms told us how this works. They get a DNA sample from me, then recode the changes. In my case - if accepted as I like then can be somewhat enhanced by me. For example, if I wanted to change my eye colour I could request that, or a change in hair color or curly hair. Also to some extent bust size, although there are other genetic factors that can contribute to that so, there is no guarantee as to a final size. If accepted then we can discuss all those things later, but please remember that due to the study parameters and our guidelines some requests may not be allowed. On our way home, Julie and I stopped for Italian take out and when home to eat. We talked about this for a while and Julie explained what she knew (more theoretical than fact) as to how she thinks this works. Six weeks later I got a call from the clinic to come back in for a follow up appointment. Of course, Julie accompanied me. When we got in the doctor said that I was accepted into the trial and now the work begins. Once again my head is giddy with excitement and Julie was there to answer questions and guide me through. There were a stack of forms that I had to sign, one of which was for Julie to be listed as my next of kin and power of attorney. We were sent home with a form packet containing "options" that I could ask for. Which sounds more like buying a car then having a medical procedure. That evening Julie and I went over the list of options. I was satisfied with my hair texture and color along with my eyes. As for bust size, Julie asked me what I would want. I said I have thought about this and I am thinking no more than a B cup, she thought that would look perfect and we went on to a few other minor details and that was the form complete. Julie said that she would drop it off in the morning on her way into work. Three weeks later I get a call for another appointment. We showed up and got in right away for the doctor. The doctor said that the test overseers agreed to the changes that I had requested on the forms and that there will be bi-weekly appointments over the next 10 weeks, which should not take more than 45 minutes then there will need to be a 2 hour appointment in week 6 and another 2 hour appointment in week 12. There will also be a log book for you to fill out everyday and you will need to bring that with you at every appointment. I asked the doctor if they need another DNA sample and she said no, as they have some and have already programed the first dose and if I was ready she would inject it now! Well, I said lets get on with it. She had me lower my undies and gave the shot in my derriere. We do this here because of the fat tissues and the medication absorbs more slowly and therefore more effective. You will have to wait now for 30 minutes before you leave. If you feel anything strange or un-well, please let me know asap. Once you go, here is an emergency phone number to call if you start to really feel dizzy, nauseous or sick to your stomach. When the time was up, I felt fine and we went home. We had supper, cleaned up and spent the evening reading A little while laster Julie couldn't stand it anymore - well how are you feeling?? I said, that I don't feel any different than before the shot, perhaps it takes a day or two to hit me. With that we headed for bed on off to dreamland. The next 2 weeks went by, and I got my second shot and while we were waiting the assistant and I went over the log book entries. Since I didn't feel off at all during that time and my wait time was up we left for home. The following two week appointment came and there were no issues and no changes. I asked when I could start to see changes and the technician said that changes happen immediately but since this process is DNA based unlike TV or trash novels physical developments do not just appear overnight. At the 3rd dose (6th week) which was a longer appointment I was again in the room with the spray. When I came out the technician showed me the computer modeling. The spray "water" was a special fluid that the computer picks up which essentially digitizes (maps) my entire body. When the overlaid the first measurements with todays results there were significant (their words not mine) changes to certain body areas. There changes to my hips slightly wider (but unnoticeable to Julie and my eyes), a slight change to my brow and some slight breast changes. The tech had said that after the 4th shot is when you will actually sense the change more. She was right. The week after the 4th shot, I really could feel a difference in my breasts and definitely felt the changes in my hips. It was during this week that Julie, upon close inspection said that what was left of my scrotum has completely disappeared and it appears that my vagina was developing very nicely. Once I was finished the last shot, I had to come back on the 12th week for another computer scan and an ultrasound. The results of the scan were beyond what or where I thought I would be. I couldn't really notice the changes but when I saw the digital scans the changes were amazing. The doctor performed an ultrasound on my stomach and said to me to look at the screen. I asked what I was looking at and she said this is your uterus and reproductive organs growing. I was shocked, as I never thought that this would happen. The doctor said that I should be prepared for a menstrual cycle within the next month or two. Then asked if Julie and I lived together and said that there is every indication you will get a period when Julie gets hers as this tends to happen in these situations. My mind was in a haze around all of this - I had no idea that I would become a full and natural woman - it was all so hard to take in. Three months later I got my first period and now looking forward to the rest of my life.... Thank you for taking the time to read this first story of mine, I would enjoy all feedback.