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Emerging from the Cocoon, Chapter 10
It was the first time Nicole went to therapy dressed as Nicole. Dr.
Dornan had requested it.
She looked like a typical pre-teen. She wore faded jeans and a tank top,
with the straps from her training bra occasionally showing. She also
painted her nails and wore her butterfly earrings.
"You look really nice," Andrea Dornan said.
Nicole blushed. "Thank you."
Andrea asked Nicole about her nightmares. She admitted she still had
them, although they weren't as frequent.
She asked her about her friends. Nicole talked about how supportive Sara
was. She talked about Meredith, how she worried about losing her as a
friend if she found out about the real Nicole.
"Would she be a real friend if she didn't accept you for who you are?"
Andrea asked.
"No?" Nicole answered.
"I know it's a bit complicated for you to understand," Andrea said.
Nicole knew more than Dr. Dornan realized.
Andrea also asked Nicole about Sam and what she thought of him.
"I like him a lot," Nicole said. "He's very brave."
"I would think he would think the very same about you," Andrea said.
"But he lives as Sam all of the time," Nicole answered. "I don't live as
Nicole all of the time."
"How would you feel about living as Nicole all of the time?" Andrea
asked.
"I want to be Nicole all the time," Nicole said. "I am Nicole all of the
time. I just have to dress as Nicholas. I don't want to have to dress as
Nicholas. But I'm scared."
"You're scared someone is going to bully you, hurt you, like they did at
school?" Andrea asked.
"Yes," Nicole answered. She was starting to cry.
"It's okay, it's okay," Andrea said.
"Why do people have to be mean to me?" Nicole said. "Why do they want to
hurt me? Mom says it's because I'm different."
"Your mom is right," Andrea said. "I wish it was not that way, but it
is."
Andrea then asked Nicole about the bathroom incident.
"How to you feel about your body?" Andrea said.
"I hate it," Nicole said. "I hate the thing between my legs. I hate it.
I want it off."
"Have you ever tried to cut it off?" Andrea asked.
"I thought about it," Nicole said. "I couldn't do it."
"Good girl," Andrea said. "That can be very dangerous. You could kill
yourself."
Nicole nodded her head in agreement.
"Mom said I can have surgery to have it fixed," Nicole said.
"Yes, if you want to continue on that journey," Andrea said. She knew it
was a journey Nicole wanted to complete. "We will do what we can to help
you."
Andrea made Nicole take a test before the session was over. She then led
Nicole to the waiting room.
"I need to talk to your mom for a few minutes," Andrea said. "Wait out
here. It won't be too long."
"Have a seat Amanda," Andrea said.
"So, what's the verdict?," Amanda said.
"This isn't a trial," Andrea said.
"I know it isn't," Amanda said. "I guess I just want answers. I guess
I'm looking for some magical solution."
She was informed there was no magical solution.
"I had Nikki do a little test," Andrea said. "I'll have the results by
her next session."
"What will they say?" Amanda asked.
"Probably no more than we already know," Andrea said. "I had the feeling
I was talking to a 12-year-old girl in there."
"You were," Amanda said.
"Nicole has crossed the Rubicon," Andrea said. "I don't believe there
will be any going back."
"Andy, we've been friends since college," Amanda said. "My baby's a
girl. Perhaps it would be the easy way to go back. Perhaps it would be
the safe way. But Andy, I don't think going back is the right thing to
do. Is it selfish that I don't want her to go back."
"No it's not," Andrea said. "You're a mother. You want what's best for
your child."
The struggle was what road needed to be taken next.
There were a lot of things to consider, especially if Nicole lived as a
girl fulltime. At the top of the list what to do about schools.
Would the public system Nicole now attended accept her as a girl? Would
the parents? Would the other students?
Andrea suggested the private school Sam attended. She gave Amanda some
literature on the school.
"Sam isn't the only transgendered student who attends there," Andrea
said. "There are also gay and lesbian students who attend. But I know
attending another school can be difficult."
There was also just going out in general public. Would Nicole be able to
continue activities like dance? How would it impact Amber and Kayla?
The mention of hormone blockers, eventually taking female hormones.
There were a lot of issues to consider.
"There is a conference coming up for gender variant children," Andrea
said. "I know Gina is planning on taking Sam. I hear her sister is also
going and will be taking her daughter. It's for families as well as for
children. I really think it would be very beneficial for Nicole and for
you."
Andrea again handed her literature.
"I know it's a difficult road," Andrea said. "It's good she has you."
"Well, I know I'm lucky to have her, too," Amanda said. "My family is
not complete without her."
She walked out into the waiting room. Nicole was reading a magazine.
"Let's go sweetpea," Amanda said. "I'm sure the girls are having fun
with Lindsey. What do you say you and I do a mother-daughter thing."
"Sure mom, I'd love to do that," Nicole said.
Amanda called her baby sitter to make sure it was fine that she and
Nicole stayed out for a couple of hours.
They hit Starbucks for coffee. They also went to the bookstore. Nicole
picked out a couple of young adult books.
They also hit the stores to do a little shopping. Amanda bought Nicole a
couple of pairs of jeans and cute tops.
They stopped at the place where Amanda shopped for workout clothes. She
bought matching leggings and tops.
"Amber is not old enough," Amanda said. "But I think you're the right
age to go to yoga with me on Saturday mornings. I think it will really
help you."
"That would be really cool, mom!" Nicole said.
*****
"This would look really cool on you," Sara said after she pulled the
dress from the closet.
"Oh wow! That looks really nice," Nicole said.
"I'll wear this one," Sara said, pulling a matching dress from the
closet.
They were going on "a double date" with Sam and Dan. Sara's mother was
going to be the chaperone.
They were going to eat at an Italian restaurant. They were also going
skating.
"Don't you think the dresses are a bit much for skating?" Nicole teased.
"Oh no, we want to look really nice for the boys," Sara said.
She put a necklace around Nicole's neck. Nicole put one around Sara's.
They also did each other's hair and nails. Julia helped them with their
makeup.
Gina dropped Sam off.
"Wow, you look really hip, cuz!" Sara said.
Nicole looked him over.
"You do look really nice," Nicole said.
"You do, too," Sam said. "You both do."
"Why thank you!" Sara said.
The filed into Julia's SUV. Julia picked Dan up along the way.
"How has the acting been going?" Sara asked.
"We're doing High School Musical," Dan said.
Dan didn't have a lead role, but he said it was fun anyway.
"That sounds pretty cool," Nicole said.
"Nicole and I are going to be in the Nutcracker," Sara said.
"Um...I don't know about that." Nicole said, fearing her "secret" would
get out. As far as she knew, Dan didn't suspect a thing.
"You'll have to excuse Nikki," Sam said. "This is her first year in
dance. She's a little nervous."
Nice save, Sam, Nicole thought.
They stopped at Franco's Italian Grille.
"They have the best lasagna!" Sara said.
Julia tried to keep from giggling during the meal. She watched Sara and
Nicole struggle not to get anything on them before they went skating.
They were very proper, keeping napkins on their laps. They also made
sure to wipe every speck off their faces.
The skating rink turned into an adventure, at least for Nicole. She had
never gone skating, not even as Nicholas.
Sara did her best to help her.
"You're doing the robot," she said with a laugh.
Nicole had quite a few spills on the floor. She tried her best to keep
her skirt down.
"I told you wearing dresses skating wasn't a good idea," Nicole told her
friend.
"Nonsense!" Sara said. "So you're not Tara Lipinski. But we'll have you
skating in no time."
"Wow, he's really good," Nicole said.
"Sam and I were skating before we could walk," Sara said. "It's one of
the few things we have in common."
Suddenly, the D.J. called for a couple's dance.
Fear came across Nicole's face.
"Oh it will be fun," Sam said, reaching for Nicole's hand. He pulled her
up.
"You can trust me," Sam said.
He held her close. They skated a little slowly. Sam taught Nicole how to
rock and sway to the music.
The theme song to the movie Titanic came on. Nicole giggled.
"What are you laughing about," Sam said.
"Of course I trust you, Jack," she giggled.
"Spread your arms out, Rose" he told her, keeping with the Titanic
theme. He held her waist.
"I'm flying!" Nicole said, half mockingly. She had to admit it was
pretty fun.
"You two looked really good out there," Sara said.
"Why thank you!" Sam said. "You guys looked pretty good out there, too."
"Well, Sara looked pretty good out there," Dan said.
"We'll work on your skating, too," Sara said, giving him a punch.
Nicole couldn't remember the last time she had such a great time. All of
her struggles seemed so far away,
"You guys seemed like you had a really good time," Julia said on the
drive home.
"We really did, Mrs. Lewis," Nicole said.
After they dropped Dan off, Sam asked Nicole if she and her mother were
going to the conference in San Francisco.
"Mom and I've talked about it," she said. "We're probably going to go.
But we don't know for sure yet."
"I hope you go," Sam said. "It's always helped me."
"I'm going to be going," Sara said. "I think it would be really cool if
you went."
"Well, we're here," Julia said, pulling up to Nicole's house.
"Can I walk you to the door?" Sam asked.
"I would be offended if you didn't," Nicole said. She loved being
treated like a lady. She winked at Sara.
He grabbed her arm and walked her to the door.
"Nikki, would you mind if I kissed you on the cheek," Sam said.
"Last time, I was the forward one," Nicole thought.
She grinned. She blushed. She nodded.
He gave her a peck on the cheek.
Nicole noticed they had an audience. Amanda, Amber and Kayla were
looking at them through the window.
"So, sweetpea, did you have a good time?" Amanda asked as Nicole walked
through the front door.
"Oh mom, it was so much fun," Nicole said.
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"Harvard, Yale?" Amanda whispered as they were doing a yoga pose.
"Nope, to close to Boston," Nicole said.
Amanda understood. She was just proud of the grades Nicole was making,
even through the struggles at school.
"You are a very smart girl," Amanda said as they were doing a pose
Nicole thought was a crouching dog. "Maybe you'll be a Wellesly girl."
A women's college, now that was a novel idea Nicole thought.
"I think I want to stay around here," Nicole said.
Yoga turned out to be a very idea. It gave Amanda a really good chance
to bond with Nicole.
Nicole enjoyed doing the prayer pose and something called the pidgeon.
"I think ballet has really made you flexible, sweetpea," Amanda said.
"So this is Nikki," said Leah, the yoga instructor. "I wished more
mothers brought their daughters."
"It really was a good idea, mom," Nicole said.
"Nikki, I was really impressed by how well you did," Leah said. "I guess
being a dancer helped?"
"It does," Nicole said. "Madame Ruth also says yoga helps ballet, too,
especially with balance."
"You know, I'm glad we're doing this," Amanda said on the drive home.
"There are things I do with Amber and Kayla. This gives us something we
can do."
She gave Nicole a hug.
"You're in a cocoon, you know?" Amanda said. "I know you feel trapped in
your body right now. But one of these days, you're going to become the
butterfly I know you are."
Nicole smiled.
"Mom, thanks for accepting me for who I am," she said.
"I will always accept you for who you are, sweetpea," Amanda said. "So,
are you interested in going to this conference that Andy and Gina keep
telling me about?"
Nicole nodded.
"Sam says it will be fun," Nicole said. "Sara's going too, so maybe it
will be cool."
Nicole also felt it would be nice to be around other people who were
just like her.
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