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Margaret Jeanette?s Sperm Count [Revised] With an alternative ending by Samantha Jay ? I like Margaret?s stories immensely, but I feel unsatisfied with some of her endings. As an author I write mainly for myself so I write the endings I want and I suspect that Margaret probably did too. When I read this story an alternative ending suggested itself, now I would normally ask the author?s permission to change a story, but since Margaret tragically died early February I am unable to do that. Instead I have written the ending I came up with and I hope that Margaret?s fans will not get upset. This is still Margaret?s story. It?s her idea and plot. I do not take any credit for it, without the story I wouldn?t have dreamed up the ending. Thank you Margaret for all the enjoyment your stories gave, and still give, to me. I hope you are now at peace. Samantha Jay Toby and Linda Taylor had a good marriage. In the five years they had been married his business had taken off and he was very successful in the consulting field. He had ten full-time employees and he treated them well. They were on their way home from the doctor's office. For five years they had been trying to have children with no success. The doctor had done some tests to see if he could figure out why they couldn't have children. Linda said, "I sure hope the doctor comes up with something. Maybe we are just trying to hard. Maybe I'm like Sharon Smith and just too nervous to conceive. If that is the problem all the doctor has to do is put me on some medication like he did her. She got pregnant two months later." Toby agreed with his wife saying, "I'm sure it is just something small. Let's wait and see. Remember there's always adoption." Linda said, "I don't want to adopt. I want my own child. Adoption is out of the question!" They got home and were relaxing before eating their evening meal. Toby watched his lovely wife eat and thought about how much he was in love with her. He thought about when they first met. He knew that she was the girl for him. The following Wednesday afternoon they were at he doctor's office for the results of the tests. The doctor sat behind his desk looking very serious. He was trying to think of how to tell them what the tests discovered. Finally he said, "The tests revealed a problem. This is not easy, as I know how bad you want to have children. I would love to tell you it is something minor but I can't. The tests showed that Toby is sterile. His sperm is dead. I am very sorry to be the one to tell you this. As bad as you want children I suggest you adopt." Linda said, "No, no adoption. I want my own children. Are you sure there is no mistake? Could they have read the test wrong?" The doctor told them there was no mistake. They left depressed. In the car on the way home Linda processed what the doctor had said. She thought about Toby being sterile. She was angry with that. She knew he was as surprised as she was but it still angered her. The ride home was very quiet. All evening Linda didn't say anything. At bedtime he tried to get her aroused. She didn't respond. He tried everything he knew touching her soft spots hoping to get her over this. Finally he gave up. He said, "Honey, we have to talk about it. You can't hold it in. Tell me what I can do to help you get over it and I'll do it." She said angrily, "I thought I married a man. You can't even get me pregnant. You are not much of a man if you can't even get a woman pregnant, are you?" He said, "I'm sorry about that. I didn't know. I'll do whatever you want to help you get over this. Just tell me what you want!" She looked at him with an icy look that shook him to the bone. She got up and went to her dresser. She came back and threw a pair of yellow lace-trimmed panties at him. She said, "Put them on. You aren't much of a man. You should be wearing panties. Put them on, NOW!" He took off his pyjama bottoms and put them on. He thought, she should get over this quickly, so meanwhile I'll do what she wants. He was going to put his bottoms back on and she told him to leave them off, that they were for men. He got back in bed and was surprised when she ran her hand down in his crotch. She felt his hardness. She said, "I see you like wearing them. I'll get you more tomorrow. You can't be stretching mine out. Now go to sleep." He slept fitfully but arose at seven as always. He was going to take the panties off but decided to leave them on. He got dressed and went to make the morning coffee. He was enjoying a cup when Linda came in. She didn't say good morning like she always did before. She poured herself a cup and sat down. He said good morning to her, and asked what she had to do that day. He tried to get her to open up. He wanted to help her realize it wasn't the end of the world. She said, "I have some running to do and this afternoon I am playing tennis with Mary Berg. Did you keep the panties on?" ?Yes, I did.? "Good, you can wear panties from now on. A man wears jockey shorts and we both know you are not much of a man, don't we?" He said, "It's a medical condition, not something I did or didn't do. The doctor explained that it is something that happens and that it doesn't make me less of a man." Linda said, "Not to him but I have a lot of thinking to do about it. When we married I thought I was getting a man who would give me a family. How do you expect to do that when you are sterile?" He said, "You know I can't but it isn't because I don't want to. You have to think about adopting, it is our only chance to have children." She responded, "You don't listen do you? I told you I don't want to adopt. I want my own children." He knew it was useless to continue the conversation so he finished his coffee and left for work. She sat there and stewed some more about the fact that she couldn't get pregnant, at least by him. She wondered how she could punish him for his condition. She thought about how unfair life is sometimes. Finally she got up and went to do her running. Toby couldn't concentrate at all. He was at wit's end. He wondered if there was to be a way to make Linda see that this isn't the end of the world. He thought about calling the doctor to see if there was any possibility of waking up his sperm. He decided if there was the doctor would have told them about it. Meanwhile Linda was checking out with a dozen pairs of panties. The salesclerk told her they had a special on bras if she was interested. She thought about it for a minute then declined the offer. She did some grocery shopping before returning home. When she got home she put the groceries away then took the panties and removed his men's shorts and replaced them with the panties. They were the most feminine ones she could find. She knew he would be embarrassed with them but she was determined to make him remember he was sterile. That afternoon she was no match for Mary. She couldn't keep her mind on her game. She lost in straight sets. Mary asked what was bothering her but she said it wasn't anything she wanted to talk about. That night when Toby came home he went to kiss her on the cheek. As soon as she felt his lips she turned her head. He was flustered. They ate in silence and the whole evening was the same. The next morning Toby found the panties in his drawer. He looked for a plain pair but couldn't find any. Finally he took a dark blue pair and put them on. They were satin and felt nice against his skin. He finished dressing and went for breakfast. At work that day he was horny all day. It distracted him from doing his work. He finally called it a day mid-afternoon. He surprised Linda being home so early. He was horny and tried to get her to go to bed. She told him it was useless and that all he could do is shoot blanks. He left her and went into the bathroom. She came in about three minutes later and caught him masturbating. She told him he was useless using that useless thing. She left and when he came out she was nowhere to be found. A half hour later she came in from the garage. She said she was shopping and got something for him. He immediately thought she got him a gift and was getting over it. He was shocked when she told him to drop his pants. She pulled his panties down and started to fasten something on him. Before he realized what was happening she was locking the small padlock. She told him his tool was useless so there was no reason for him to use it in any way except to go to the toilet. She told him he would have to sit to go and he would have to wipe himself when he was done. He was mortified that she had done that. He couldn't believe she had locked a chastity device on him. As they ate supper Toby thought about what to do. This was getting out of control. He had to do something but he wasn't sure how to approach Linda. He thought about maybe telling her to find a man to get her pregnant but gave it up. He couldn't bring himself to suggest that. After supper he went to the toilet and was downhearted to have to wipe himself after going. He was totally embarrassed. The next day was Friday, usually a slow day. It was slower than usual for Toby. Everyone was talking about the company picnic tomorrow. He was glad everyone was looking forward to the picnic. The picnic was always a high spot for the summer. People looked forward to it. When he got home he asked Linda, "I have something to ask you. Do you think you can put aside the happenings of this week for the picnic tomorrow?" Linda asked, "Do you mean pretend it didn't happen? Pretend you are still a total man?" He replied, "All I am asking is that you try to forget about that. The picnic is the highlight of the summer. I would like to enjoy it, not have to worry about you and what you are going through. The employees are sharp and they will pick up any problems between us." Linda said, "I'll think about it. I won't promise anything but I will try to see if I can put it behind me for one day. Is that all right?" He told her it was all right and felt better now that he had at least addressed that part of a problem with her. He didn't want to push his luck and try to get everything back to where it was. He figured that after the picnic might be the perfect time to have a real talk to her. The next morning Toby was up and feeling good. He was looking forward to the picnic and the weather was perfect. When Linda got up he said good morning to her and shrugged off that she didn't answer. She wasn't a morning person so he didn't expect much from her in the way of conversation. After breakfast he went to the bedroom to get dressed. He looked all over for his jockey shorts. He couldn't find them. He decided to ask Linda where they were. When he asked she told him she threw them out. He asked her to remove the chastity belt. She told him it wasn't hurting anything, that he could leave it on. He got dressed and wasn't real happy that Linda had thrown out his jockey shorts and it hurt him that she wouldn't remove the chastity belt. He was surprised when Linda appeared in a new shorts outfit. She looked beautiful. It lifted his spirits some to see her looking so good. They arrived at the picnic and Toby mixed with the employees. He looked and saw Linda talking to Sue Stratton. He knew Sue was active in the feminist movement, but was a good employee, being his secretary. Linda asked Sue how things were going. Sue told her that she was doing great. Then Sue said she knew a lot about body language and that Linda's body language told her that Linda was upset. She told Linda that she could talk to her about anything in confidence. Linda debated with herself for a minute then decided to confide in Sue. She said, "It's just that we got some horrible news this week. I don't know how else to put it." Sue told her talking about it would help. Linda told her about Toby being sterile. She told her she didn't see him as a complete man anymore. She said she didn't know what to do. Sue said, "If he isn't a real man maybe you should put him in dresses. When you get home dress him up completely. Then see how you feel about him. If you see him still as your husband then you have to let him be the man he is but if you see him as something else then you have to follow up differently. Don't worry, you won't be the first wife to feminize her husband. If I can help in any way let me know." Linda said, "I don't think any of my clothes will fit him and I am not sure what to buy for him." Sue said, "You tell me what size clothes he wears and I'll get all of what you need. I can get about four dresses and all the fixings for you." Linda asked how much this would cost and Sue told her she could get the best for under five hundred dollars. Linda told her to wait while she wrote out a check for her to get the stuff. Sue told her she could drop off the clothes that night but Linda asked if she could do it tomorrow morning about ten. Linda said Toby always goes golfing on Sunday mornings and will be gone until about noon. Sue said it would be fine and that she would see her tomorrow morning at ten. The picnic was a success and they headed home in the middle of the afternoon. Toby was happy that the picnic had been an overwhelming hit with everyone. Of course the bonus checks he handed out helped. They arrived home and Linda went to lay down for a nap. This was unusual for her but Toby attributed it to the rigors of the picnic and the warm weather. When she got up she said very little. Toby tried to talk to her but she wouldn't listen, telling him some other time. That night they went to bed each of them unsatisfied at how things were. The next morning he got up and ate a quick breakfast and left for golf before she was up. Linda got up at half past eight and was surprised to see Toby had all ready gone. She had a leisurely breakfast and was reading the paper when the doorbell rang. At first she was surprised, then remembered that Sue was coming over. She let Sue in. Sue was carrying all sorts of packages. Sue went back out and returned with several garment bags over her shoulder. Sue was bubbling over all that she had gotten. She opened the first garment bag and showed Linda four dresses in different styles. Then she opened some of he packages and showed Linda bras, each a different dark colour and three slips, two black and a red one. She showed Linda some jewellery she had gotten for him. There were necklace, earring and bracelet sets and an assortment of rings. Then giggling she said, "After I had gotten all of this I still had money left so I thought what would really show him that he wasn't a real man and I thought of this." She slowly removed two outfits from a garment bag. They were French maid outfits complete with many-tiered petticoats. Then she showed Linda the shoes. The lowest heel was four inches and they were in black, white and red. Sue said, "I don't think you want to start him as a maid but if I know anything you will have him in the maids outfits before too long. Are you going to have him wear these clothes at home or all the time?" Linda said, "I haven't really thought about it. I'll have to see how things go before I make a decision." Sue said, "Could you do me a favour and have me over when he is fully dressed. I hate to miss something like that." Linda said she would have her over and they started to get the clothes into the spare bedroom closet and dresser. When Linda came in with all of his panties Sue was amazed to see how feminine they were. She asked if he was wearing them all ready and Linda told her he was. When they had everything put away they sat down for a cup of tea. Sue told her if she ever needed to talk all she had to do is call. Sue gave her her home phone and her cell phone numbers. After Sue left Linda wondered if she really wanted to dress Toby up. She knew he loved her and would do anything for her, but he was useless when it came to making that baby she so desperately wanted. She didn't know what to do. She was angry that he was out enjoying himself while she was so miserable. She reasoned that if he were really a man he would be there with her and suffering with her. She decided to make a quick run to get something. She was home in twenty-five minutes and glad to see he wasn't there yet. He came in all smiles. He had just hit his best game ever. He was on a roll. When he went to kiss Linda she said he needed a shower, that he had body odour. He went to undress and when he went into the bathroom to take his shower Linda was there. She told him she wanted to try something and that he should stand very still. Then she rubbed some lotion all over his body and told him to allow fifteen minutes for it to soak in before taking his shower. In the shower he was shocked to see all of his body hair come off. He didn't know what was going on. He didn't like the feeling of nakedness his body now had. When he came out of the shower Linda was there to rub a floral scented lotion all over him. When he went to tell her about the body hair she told him to be quiet and let her take control for a while. He enjoyed the feeling of her rubbing him all over but wondered at the smell of the flowery lotion. She led him into the bedroom. He didn't see his clothes on the bed where he had left them. He figured Linda had thrown them into the wash. Linda looked angry again and he didn't know why. She said, "I have decided that there are going to be some changes around here. I have locked the closet and you do not have access to any of your men's clothes. That is not a problem because you are not much of a man anyway! I have decided that if I sleep with a man I want to sleep with a real man who can give me what I really want. You can sleep in the spare bedroom. We might as well go in there as that is where your new clothes are." She led him into the spare bedroom and told him to put his panties on. She helped him slide nylons up his legs then took a garter belt out and fastened it around his waist threading the garters through the legs of his panties and hooking them. He was in shock at what she was doing to him. She held breast forms against his chest and marked them then applied adhesive to them and attached them. She told him they needed support and helped him get a bra on. She noticed it was very tight but she didn't care. She then handed him a padded girdle to put on. She was smiling when she saw how hard it was for him to get it on. When he finally had it on she held a slip over his head and let it fall over his body. She was pleased to see how far his chest stuck out in the slip. Then she helped him into the pink dress with lots of lace trim and a ruffle around the bottom. She buttoned the small buttons in back. She knew he wouldn't be able to unbutton it himself. Then she got the heels. She picked the white pair as they were the only ones with a four-inch heel and she thought he would have to get used to that before going higher. She had him walk around the room. She was surprised when he didn't have much trouble walking in them. She thought, he is a natural walking in them, his hips swaying in an enticing manner that would certainly cause men to look at him. Then she had him sit down at the vanity. She applied eye shadow and foundation to him. Then a little blush and eye liner and mascara. As she was doing his lips she noticed for the first time he had full lips that a lot of women would die for. Then she went and got the dark brunette wig and placed it on his head. The curly wig came down to the middle of his back. When she was done adjusting it, it looked real on him. She turned him so he could see himself I the mirror. His jaw dropped. There was a complete look of surprise. Finally he got his voice back saying, "Linda this is going too far! You have lost it! Wake up and get me out of all of this!" Linda said, "No, you wake up! You are not much of a man! You can't even make a baby in a woman! So you can stay that way until I decide different. If you want to leave you can leave now. But you are going to wear what you have on now. Do you want to leave?" He seriously considered just that then decided that he wouldn't know where to go so he told her he didn't want to leave. She told him this was now his bedroom and opened the closet door to reveal the dresses hanging there and a nightgown hanging on the door. She told him to wipe the make-up off his face and redo it until he had it down pat. She left and he did what she said. It took him two hours to get his face looking presentable. When he finally went by Linda she told him he looked pretty. He sat down and read the Sunday paper. When he was done Linda told him to put it with the recycles as she was done with it. She said it was time to eat and he could either make something or they could go out to eat. He decided to make something and went into the kitchen. Soon he had a pork chop supper made. He was an excellent cook and Linda appreciated his expertise in the kitchen. As she was eating Linda said, "You don't look like a Toby. What do you want to be called?" He said, "I still want to be called Toby. You may have me in a dress but my name is Toby, it has always been Toby and will stay Toby." Linda said, "If you ever expect me to get over this you better co- operate. Now, what name do you want to be called?" He couldn't think of any name, so she said, "If you can't give me a name to call you I'll pick one." He told her fine, to go ahead and pick one. She picked Theresa. She told him his name was now Theresa. She was all smiles as she called him Theresa. She told him that way he could keep his old initials instead of Toby Aaron Taylor he was now Theresa Anne Taylor. She asked him what his name was. He said, "Toby, I told you I am Toby." She said, "You are Theresa and the sooner you answer to it the better it will be. Now, you better tell me your new name is Theresa or I will be very mad and you don't want that, do you?" He could tell by the tone of her voice that he had better go along with her so he told her his name was Theresa. She was again all smiles. They finished supper and he was told to clean up. Linda went into the living room and resumed reading a book. She couldn't get into the book. She kept thinking about how easy it had been to get him in a dress. She vowed to herself to keep him there, as he wasn't much of a man anyway. That night they went to bed in their separate rooms. He heard her call Theresa. He went to her room. Linda said, "I'm horny. I need some relief. This day has put me on edge. I need satisfaction and I need it now." ?And what do I use?? ?Your tongue,? Linda said. ?No way,? he said and walked out. Linda was livid, but he didn?t care. He called her at seven and when he asked for the key to the closet to get dressed she told him he had plenty of clothes in his closet in his room. He said all he saw there was dresses and he needed one of his suits for work. Linda told him to put the blue dress on and she would think about maybe unlocking the closet. He went and put the blue dress on. As they were eating breakfast Linda looked at the blue dress he was wearing. She noticed how nice the three rows of lace running up and down each side of the centre stood out. When he was done eating he asked for the key to the closet. She told him he could keep the dress on, as it looked so good on him. He said, "I can't go to work in a dress. I won't go to work in a dress! Now, give me the key to the closet." She said, "You own the company and you can wear whatever you want. I think you look very nice in that dress and I am telling you that you are going to wear it today. So go do your make up so you can get to work." He said, "I am not going to work in a dress Now, I am begging you to give me the key to the closet so I can change." She said, "There is no way I am gong to give you the key so just make up your mind that you are going to wear that dress today." He defiantly said, "Then I am not going to work today. I will call and give them the instructions for today." Linda said, "No, I'll go in your place. I think I can handle it. I remember everything from when we started and things were going good with the business. It'll be good to get my hands back into the business." He knew he was beat and just sat quietly. Linda told him to do his make-up and as long as he was home all day he could clean the living room. She swept out of the house and he was all alone. He went and did his make-up and started to clean the living room. Linda walked into work and announced that Toby had decided to take a vacation. She told everyone she would be in charge while he was gone. Several employees thought it was strange as he always gave them instructions before he was absent for even a day, but didn't say anything. Linda went into the office and started to look over the papers on the desk. Soon, Sue came in and asked her how everything went with Toby. Linda said, "Well, he is wearing the blue dress today. I told him to clean the living room today. That will at least give him something to do. It went a lot easier than I thought it would. I thought he would balk at everything all the way but he was like in a trance for most of it. By the time he started to complain it was too late. I feel better but there is still some anger left. I don't know if that will ever go away." Sue said, "Well, to be honest maybe you getting involved here will help. It will get your mind off of the problem and give you a new outlook." Linda said, "I sure hope so. I don't know what else I can do to show him how bad I feel that we can never have children." Sue said, "You can make yourself president of this company. That will show him he is dependent on you for everything. Then you will have him exactly where you want him." Linda said, "You are a sly one, but you have a great idea there. How do I do that?" Sue said she could draw up a paper making her president and all she had to do was get him to sign it. She suggested she have him sign a quitclaim deed for the house also, then he would have absolutely nothing left. Linda told her to draw up the papers. Sue left and Linda sat there relishing the thought of how she would be in absolute control of everything. Right after lunch Linda met with a Mr. Ferguson who had a small company that manufactured electronic boards. He wanted to expand his business and needed their expertise. By the time he left he had retained their services. Linda told him he would be hearing from them by the end of the week. He was very happy, as he had expected it to take a month or more. Just before quitting time Sue came in with the two papers for him to sign. She told Linda to have him sign them, then she would sign them as a witness tomorrow morning. Linda was ecstatic. She couldn't wait to get home. She arrived home was surprised that he had done such a good job in the living room and had also cleaned the kitchen. He had supper ready and she sat down to eat. She told him about the new client, and that he was handsome and personable. She said she had a couple of papers that needed his signature. He said no problem, and that he was glad they had gotten a new client. After supper he cleaned up while she read the evening paper. He went in and started to read the paper. She came and told him to sign the two papers. He for some unknown reason didn't trust her, so he signed them as Theresa Anne Taylor. He felt glad when she didn't look at them but stuffed them into a briefcase. He wondered where she had gotten it. Before she went to bed she told him to wear the red dress tomorrow. He went to his room and fell asleep right away. The next morning he fixed his make-up then proceeded to get dressed. He put on all the red underwear and when it was time to put on the dress he thought he would never get it on. It was so tight he knew he wasn't going to get it on over his head. He tried stepping into it and finally got it on. It had a zipper in front that was covered with a flap of material. It was tight all over. His chest stuck out like enormous melons. It was tight in the rear end and around the knees. The bottom was so tight all he could do is take very short steps. He put the matching red shoes on. They had six-inch heels and it was next to impossible to walk in them. It took him almost fifteen minutes to get to the kitchen. He got his usual cup of coffee and thought the dress would split when he sat down. He was just getting up to get another cup when Linda walked in. She smiled when she saw the difficulty he was having walking. She said, "In that outfit you would make a good hooker. Maybe we should make that your job, now that you are unemployed. What do you think? Do you think you would make a good hooker?" He asked, "What do you mean, unemployed?" Linda said, "Well the one paper you signed last night named me as president of the company. So now you are out of a job. You can make a good hooker, you know." He said, "Why didn't you tell me what those papers were? Are you so set on punishing me for something that happened that I had no control over that you are trying to take everything?" Linda said with a smirk on her face, "I am not trying to take anything more. I already have everything. The other paper you signed was a quitclaim deed for this house. You are now totally dependent on me for everything. It's not my fault you didn't read the papers before you signed them." He sat quietly as she told him to clean the bedrooms and change the bed clothes in both rooms. She told him could do the wash also. She knew he would have trouble navigating the steps to do the wash but thought it serves him right. She left for work. He sat there sipping his coffee. He thought about how mad she would be when she saw how he signed those papers. She must think he is a fool to accept anything she did in her current state of mind. He had to go to the toilet. The skirt was so hard to get over his rear that almost wet himself before he got it up. He started to change the bed clothes. It was near impossible to walk in the dress and shoes but he managed. It took much longer than he thought to finish the bedrooms. When he went to go downstairs he managed two steps and fell. He felt something break and then lapsed into unconsciousness. When Linda got home from work she was surprised not to smell supper. She thought she would have to tell Theresa off, but all thoughts of telling him off vanished when she saw him at the bottom of the stairs. Grabbing the phone she dialled nine one one. The police and paramedics arrived in minutes. The police took photos of the stairs and of Toby whilst the paramedics, worried about aggravating any spinal damage, used a spinal board to immobilise Toby?s back. ?Why are you taking photos?? Linda asked one of the officers. ?We have to determine whether it was an accident or a deliberate act,? the officer replied. ?It was an accident. Toby was home alone.? ?We still have to take photos and investigate it,? the officer said. With Toby safely in the ambulance the paramedics raced to the hospital. Linda had to wait for the police to finish their work, then she locked up and followed on later. When she got there she was shown into a waiting area. She was only there for a few minutes when a doctor came out with an update. ?Mrs Taylor, your husband is having some scans at the moment, but can you tell me why he was wearing that skirt, shoes and that device around his genitals?? ?Well, it?s like this,? Linda paused to gather her thoughts and to find the best way to explain what she had done. ?We have been trying to have children but I was unable to conceive. We discovered that Toby is infertile and I got angry and decided that as he wasn?t able to perform like a man that he would dress like a woman.? ?So you are, in effect, punishing him for a medical condition that he has no control over?? the doctor asked. ?Not really.? ?Yes really, have you ever tried to walk in shoes with a heel that high or wearing a skirt that restricts leg movement that much?? ?No,? Linda replied. ?Well it?s bad enough when worn by themselves, but when you put them together you are asking for trouble. It was an accident waiting to happen.? ?I have tripped many times wearing high heels,? Linda said. ?You may have, but did you fall down a flight of stairs? As I have said Toby is undergoing scans at present and as soon as I have the results I will let you know.? The doctor went back to the ward and Linda thought about what she had been told. It was an hour later when a female police officer approached Linda. ?Linda Taylor?? she asked. ?Yes,? Linda replied. ?Mrs Taylor, we have investigated your husband?s accident and we have decided to talk to the DA about possible attempted manslaughter charges.? ?You can?t be serious?? ?We are, Mrs Taylor. The combination of the hobble skirt and the high heels makes us believe some premeditation at work. It will be upto the DA to decide whether we proceed or not.? The police officer left a stunned Linda. She was at a loss as to why anyone would think she would try to kill Toby. A little time later the doctor reappeared. ?I have the results of the scans. Toby has a fractured skull, two of the vertebrae in his spine are broken, he has a broken wrist, multiple bruises and his penis is damaged. Until he regains consciousness we will not know if he has any brain damage or paralysis.? Linda collapsed and started to sob uncontrollably. ?Why? Why did it happen? Why did I let it happen? What ever was I thinking?? Linda looked at the doctor and, through her tears, asked, ?What?s going to happen to him?? ?Best case, he will make a full recovery. Worst case, twenty four by seven caring, but I think it will be somewhere in between. I think the fact he couldn?t get you pregnant will be the least of your problems. He will need a lot of support for the foreseeable future. You have got to decide whether you can give him that support or whether your anger will get the better of you.? ?I won?t let that happen.? ?But it?s happened once, how can you be sure it won?t happen again. This time it?s not about him being sterile, this time it?s about the possibility of him being confined to a wheelchair for the rest of his life. Will you be able to deal with his anger, with his despair or with his sense of loss, because they will all exist. If he is paralysed, and I fear there is a very high chance of that being the case, then he will have to deal with going from able bodied to disabled and he may not be able to adjust. Will you be able to adjust?? ?Yes.? ?You sure, you didn?t when you found out about Toby?s infertility. You punished him and if Toby is paralysed, it will be due to that punishment.? ?Doctor, I admit that I let my emotions rule my head. I took it out on Toby and he didn?t deserve it. I also know that if Toby is paralysed then it will be my fault and I will have to live with that, but I really do love him and I promise to care for him no matter what.? ?I?m glad to hear it. I?ll keep you updated.? Linda was left alone with her thoughts. She decided that she didn?t like herself very much over how she had treated Toby. She knew that he wouldn?t have acted like she did if it was she that couldn?t conceive. She also couldn?t believe she?d listened to Sue. After half an hour the doctor came back out. ?Toby?s awake. The good news is that he hasn?t got any brain damage; the bad news is that he?s paralysed from the waist down. The broken vertebrae have damaged some nerves. We think it?s probably temporary, but it could be a couple of weeks or a couple of years or more before he?s fully recovered. He?s asking for you.? Linda was shown into Toby?s room. ?Darling, I?m so, so sorry. I know nothing I can say or do will change what has happened, but you have to believe me that I would never intentionally hurt you,? Linda said. Toby looked up at her and said, ?That?s not true. You humiliated me and being humiliated hurts. When you put me into the spare room that made me think you didn?t love me and that hurt. When you talked about sleeping with other men, that hurt. So you see I don?t believe you about not wanting to hurt me.? ?I didn?t think that was hurting you.? ?That?s the problem. You didn?t think. Okay, so I?m infertile, but did that warrant you putting me in a chastity belt or dresses?? Linda started to cry as she realised that Toby was right. ?I think you realise that it will be harder for you than for me as you will be constantly reminded of what you have caused. The irony is that although I foiled your attempt at making me dependant on you by taking ownership of the house and the company, I still end up dependant upon you.? ?That was Sue?s idea, just like dressing you in woman?s clothes. I know I was angry, but you would never have done what I did. You would never have put a chastity belt on me. You would have comforted me, cared for me and loved me. I did none of those things, instead I?ve paralysed you.? ?It was an accident Linda.? ?But I caused it.? ?It was my decision to climb the stairs.? ?But I told you to change the bed clothes.? ?Linda, will you stop trying to find reasons why you are to blame. It was an accident, it wasn?t your fault.? Linda said, ?Why are you being nice to me? I?ve humiliated you, I?ve abused you, I?ve tried to take everything from you and I?ve made you do things that I wouldn?t do and still you don?t get angry with me.? ?What would getting angry accomplish? I?m not into retribution even if I was capable of it, which I am not. It was anger that got me into this position and you know that I love you and wouldn?t hurt you.? ?I know that and I know that I don?t deserve your love, but I hope you believe me when I say that I am sorry for what I have done.? ?I believe you when you say that you are sorry.? ?I was so focused on having my own children that I lost all sense of reason when we were told that you were infertile and what with Sue giving me those ideas and working on my anger I?m afraid I took it all out on you. Again all I can say is that I am sorry for all that I have done and I will try and find a way to make it up to you.? ?I notice that you haven?t asked for forgiveness.? ?I don?t deserve it so I won?t ask for it,? Linda said. ?You go home, get some rest and come back after work tomorrow,? Toby said. ?I don?t want to leave you,? Linda said. ?I know, but you still have a company to run.? ?It?s not my company.? ?It?s our company and I want you to run it for both of us,? Toby said. Linda nodded and kissed him on the lips, then said as she left the room, ?I?ll see you tomorrow.? As he watched her leave Toby knew that he didn?t have to punish his wife as she would do that herself. After a fitful nights sleep Linda drove into work. She knew that she would have to tell the staff and decided to do that at the morning meeting. Sue came into the office and asked, ?What have you got him wearing today. You got him in the maid?s uniform yet?? ?He?s in hospital, Sue. He had an accident.? ?Serves him right, if he was a man he wouldn?t have been in the position to have an accident.? ?Sue, we?ve put him in hospital. We?ve paralysed him.? ?What do you mean we?? ?He fell down stairs wearing those high heels and tight skirt you bought and I made him wear.? ?If he was a man he wouldn?t have been made to wear them and he wouldn?t have fallen down stairs. So it was nothing we?ve done,? Sue said. ?Sue, it?s our fault. If I hadn?t over reacted, if I hadn?t listened to you, if I hadn?t made him wear dresses, if I hadn?t humiliated him and if I hadn?t forced him to do all those things then he wouldn?t be paralysed.? ?Linda, it?s not our fault that he?s not man enough to get you pregnant. Would a real man allow himself to be put in a dress? I think not.? ?Why do you hate him?? ?Where did that come from?? Sue asked. ?I?ve just realised that when I told you he was infertile you didn?t commiserate, you suggested putting him in dresses and you aren?t taking some responsibility over his accident. That makes me believe you hate him.? ?I don?t hate him. I?ll admit I don?t like him, but that?s because he?s a man.? ?So you got back at him because he?s a man?? ?I suppose so.? ?Why?? ?Because he?s a man. Because he?s in a position of control. Because he doesn?t know what we women have to go through. Because he believes himself superior to women. Because he thinks he?s god?s gift to women.? ?Toby isn?t like that.? ?All men are like that. How do you know Toby didn?t make a pass at me.? Linda thought for awhile and then said, ?Sue I haven?t got any reason to fire you, but I really don?t want you working for us anymore. I don?t think I can work with you anymore. If you can?t take responsibility for what we?ve done to Toby, then will you take responsibility for any future actions you may take that go wrong? I don?t think you will. So I would like you to leave by mutual agreement. I will give you two months pay and any references you need.? Sue agreed and went to clear her desk. Ten minutes later Linda went into the meeting room and addressed the staff. ?I have three announcements to make. The first is that Toby had an accident yesterday and, unfortunately, is now confined to a wheelchair.? There were gasps from the assembled group. Linda continued, ?Second, by mutual agreement Sue Stratton has left our employment which means thirdly I would like Helen to become Toby and my secretary. That?s if you want to Helen?? ?I?d love to, but why did Sue leave?? Helen asked. ?I?ll answer that later, now I know that we have a busy time ahead of us. Toby and I have to find a new place to live, somewhere that will be wheelchair friendly. We have to make the office accessible for him as well. Joan, can you take care of that and let me, or Helen, know what we will have to do and how much it will cost.? Joan nodded and Linda continued, ?I will be busy with Toby for the foreseeable future and I hope you will all pitch in and keep the company running. Now Helen asked why Sue left. Let me begin by saying that I have made a very, very big mistake. I let anger rule my head and I did things to Toby that I should never have done and I know he wouldn?t have done to me. One of those things caused Toby to fall down the stairs at home and has put him in a wheelchair. I am not proud of what I have done and I know that I could have lost Toby. He is the single most important person in my life and until yesterday I didn?t realise it. Thankfully Toby still loves me and wants me in his life and I am going to do everything in my power to make up for what I have done. I don?t deserve him and I?ve resolved never to hurt him again. Now back to Sue. I?ve discovered that she may not own up to any mistakes she may make and I decided that that could have detrimental effects on the company, so I?ve asked her to leave.? Linda paused, looked round the room and added, ?It will be a difficult few months, mainly for me, and I know that you all wish Toby the best for the future. If there aren?t any questions then I declare the meeting closed.? The staff came over to Linda as they left to wish for Toby a quick recovery. Helen held back and spoke to Linda after everyone had left. ?You didn?t have to tell us you know.? ?I know, but I couldn?t have said anything about Sue without admitting to my mistakes. Now I will be spending a lot of time with Toby at the hospital so will you be okay here?? ?Yes, I?ve stood in for Sue when she was off and anything I can?t handle I?ll pass on to you. Now you get back to Toby and let him know we are all there for him.? ?I will and thanks Helen.? Linda left and was soon outside Toby?s hospital room, she knocked the door and waited for Toby to answer. Once inside Toby asked, ?Why did you knock?? ?Darling, lately I haven?t respected you. From now on that will change. I realised last night that you are the most important person in my life and I also realised how close I came to losing you. I have asked Sue to leave and have promoted Helen. I have told the staff that I goofed up and that I won?t again. They all send you their wishes for a quick recovery. Will you believe me when I say that I will never hurt you again?? ?I believe you, but why did you ask Sue to leave?? ?She didn?t accept that she may have made a mistake and I couldn?t trust that she wouldn?t admit to any future mistakes. Also every time I saw her she would always remind me that listening to her could have disastrous results.? ?I see, does that mean you would try to get rid of me for the same reason?? ?Never! Everytime I look at you I am reminded about my stupidity, of letting my anger getting the best of me and how I almost lost you. But mostly I am reminded of just how much I love you. Now I am going to get the office made wheelchair accessible and I?ll get some details about houses that you can get into and around.? She went over to him and kissed him on the lips. Toby knew she wouldn?t go off the rails again and that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her. Toby had regular physio sessions to keep his leg muscles working and to try and heal the nerves in his back and after two and half years was able to get around on crutches. The signs are that in a year or so he will be fully recovered. Linda never forgot how close she came to losing him. End In every story there is usually a point where a decision needs to be made. It?s a fork in the road, if you like. I thought that the decision point in this story was when Toby walked down the stairs. I felt that having Toby fall and be paralysed would make Linda come to her senses and realise what she had done and how close she had come to losing him. Vickie Tern reminded me that Margaret?s stories usually had an upbeat and happy ending and that this story was like that, but my ending didn?t really end upbeat. I reread both versions and had to agree with Vickie, so I made the ending more upbeat. I am not saying that my ending is better, just a different direction at the fork. I am not trying to take any credit for this story and I would have loved to have been able to send it to Margaret. I hope that anyone reading my ending will not take it the wrong way. ?Samantha Jay