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Part 1 of a series of questions and answers with Alexandra Moore, author
of The Dogging Diaries
I'd like to thank Matt who has been such a great friend and pen pal
throughout this entire process for putting together these questions.
Awesome job.
Away we go ...
1. It was almost a year from when you first dressed as Kristy until you
even touched another man's penis. How did you drift? What were some of
the things done that help you to drift? What would you say to help
someone through this drift stage?
Drift is real. I'm a perfect example of it. When I started on my
journey, I was adamant about "no guys." However, having lived it, I
believe for any CD or TG that is completely unrealistic. The whole tgirl
mantra of "I'm a cross dresser or I'm a tgirl but I'm not into men" is
bull shit. Every single one of us has a feeling deep down inside that
leans feminine and every time you dress or fantasize or take some
feminine action you lean or drift more in that direction. The "trap," if
I can name it, is that each action builds on the one before it. It
snowballs - and there ain't no stopping it.
For me, I drifted a lot of different ways. You see improvements in the
mirror and think you can actually pull the whole thing off. You get
compliments and it makes you work harder for more. You achieve success
with your voice or your walk. Your friends start getting into guys.
Peer pressure, if I can call it that, is a big one. If you hang with
girls who let guys touch them, sooner than later they'll be touching you
too. Another one is exploring your body as a girl rather than a boy. It
feels so good and then that snowballs into wanting more. Once you get
into toys, you're fucked, and once you start going out socially you are
too. Put them together and the girl doesn't stand a chance stopping
drift.
I don't believe you can help someone stop drifting, certainly if they
plan to continue their path as a dresser or get into transition. That
horse has left the barn.
To help someone with drift is easier. Just go at your own pace. Also,
make sure you practice, preferably a lot, simulating sex with a man.
Blowjobs are easy and don't need much explanation. Keep your teeth out
of the way and start slow without your hands. Bring your touch in a
little later and don't forget about the balls.
Sex, on the other hand needs practice. There's a lot going on in a
tgirl's bottom and the girl needs to be aware of her body and its
messages. If she shoves something up there, chances are she's going to
create a mess if she's not already prepared for what will happen. Use
enemas and toys and learn what your body can take. I have always used
larger dildos and vibes so my body was prepared for bigger cocks. If you
can handle those, you're fine to take on most guys without issue. Just
watch your diet and for heaven sakes drink white wine and lighter foods.
If you do have an issue down there, it'll be less noticeable.
2. Since you have been on hormones for 9 years now. Do you want to trade
in the vestige of your manhood to be completely woman? Do you have an
inner struggle with this because you "had to do things right from the
beginning" to be the best girl you could be?"
I'm keeping my clit. It makes me unique to a lot of men and I love that
about it. I don't need it to get my rocks off, so there's no issue for
me sexually. I am considering getting an orchiectomy, which would remove
my testicles. I've come around to the line of thinking that a clit looks
fine on a girl, but the testes are a different story. I'd put my chances
on getting that done at about ninety percent. It's a risky procedure, so
I'm still gathering information. Further, I'm great at tucking them up
inside me and I haven't had any issues yet, but as a dancer in a tgirl
club I spread my legs a lot, so not having them at all would make it
easier. Plus, I love g-strings, so the less down there the better.
3. If you thought you looked good, despite dressing down when in public,
why did you resort to CL for dates. You were going to straight clubs.
Why not just pick up guys at the bars. What was the tipping point to
make you think that CL was the way to go to achieve satisfaction? Would
you have done things differently to improve things if you had to do it
over again?
I've driven drunk too many times to count. I regret every single one of
them and I am lucky nothing bad ever happened to me or someone else.
Once I really got interested in meeting men - and I knew I was going to
have some drinks in the process - the idea of going to bars, possibly
hooking up and definitely having to drive home seemed inferior to posting
an ad, definitely hooking up and not having to leave my apartment.
Plus, let's be honest, CL sucks for dates. It's obnoxious and full of
fake people and if you're looking for Mister Right it's not the place.
This sounds so bad, but I really just wanted a living, breathing person
with a good dick who wanted to fuck me. I tried to rule out the fatties,
but I wasn't exactly picky during those times.
4. What happened to Kevin? Did you see him again? If so, did he help
reinforce the penchant desire to be in lingerie and heels when you being
carnal with a guy. Why were you so fond of him if he was only a one
night stand?
Not all one-night stands are created equal. On some of them you get more
of a girlfriend/boyfriend experience and on others it's just wham-bam.
Both have their place. Kevin was a good guy and we had a great night,
but that's what it was; just an A+ one-nighter. I've had too many to
count.
I think all of the guys reinforced the notion that lingerie and heels are
great for a woman to wear. Guys are visual. That stuff makes a girl
more desirable to them as a result. Plus, I always knew half of them
were going back to their wife or girlfriend with thoughts of my cunt
still on their dick and wondering why their chick never wore a garter and
heels while he fucked her. I got off, and still get off, on that aspect
of it. If you're OK with objectifying yourself, and I certainly am, then
do it right every time. I wouldn't be caught dead in bad lingerie or
granny panties any more than I'd take my heels off before getting
drilled. Enhance their experience and you'll enhance your own.
5. You seem to have jumped quickly to using butt plugs to get ready for
sex. How did that habit start?
I knew I wanted sex from men and I knew through experimentation that I
needed to train my body before I did it for real. I wanted to know what
the feelings were and what the messages from my body sounded like. So I
wore plugs and used vibrators to learn about myself. Practice makes
perfect.
6. Obviously you were not ugly. Did you ever figure out why nobody came
back for a "second slice" early on?
That's the CL culture I think. You post, they reply, you fuck, they
leave, that's it. Some of the guys I knew socially from the clubs did
come back for more. I had some guy friends early on that got a couple of
cracks at me. However, a transitioning tgirl isn't great girlfriend
material in my opinion. There's too much going on with the hormones and
the daily discoveries. You're at a sexual buffet. Plus, to be fair, the
stereotypical admirer - and stereotypes exist for reason - isn't exactly
a great catch.
7. Did it bother you that you were trying hard to be a woman and other
"girls" were putting in less effort but fucking more?
Sometimes. The truth is, to be hot - not passable - but truly hot, is
fucking hard work. You have so many genetic obstacles to overcome. So I
applaud any really hot tgirl because she's worked her ass off to get
where she is. We're all on our own schedule, you know? If you give a
girl a two year head start on her transition, she's going to look better
than the newbie. It's just the way it is. So those girls with the head
start appear to be putting in less effort, even though they're not.
They're just ahead compared to the new girl.
8. How did your family not notice you were a fem boy from 2002-2006? You
had shaped eyebrows, were on hormones and were dressing everyday. Were
they in denial?
I think some of them were. But you have to remember, I didn't see them
that much because of what was going on and I covered myself up pretty
good when we did get together. You can hide a lot with baggy clothes and
hats and things. Plus, hormones aren't magic. They take forever to work
and when they do it takes a while to notice the changes. People can't
tell from afar if your skin is softer or your body hair is growing
slower. Further, tgirl breasts don't come in round and full, at least
mine didn't, they're pointier and definitely smaller. If you want full
tits, you need surgery. All the hormones do is start the process and
loosen up the skin in that area to accommodate implants. As a side note,
I'd highly advise getting implants. Having tits is the best. Go as big
as you can without them looking stupid too. There's no sense getting
them if you're not going to show them off.
9. You seemed apprehensive about receiving oral. Did it do anything for
you? Have things changed to where it is something you would desire on
occasion? Or do you prefer just to give?
I'm a girl through and through and a submissive or a bottom since we're
on the subject. I love being fucked. Doing the fucking has never been
something I've been interested in. If a guy wants to go down on me, I
have a lovely pussy he is more than welcome to savor. I enjoy being
eaten out tremendously. There are few things hotter than being slightly
bent over and looking down beyond your tits to your legs and heels and
feeling a tongue working your pussy. It's glorious foreplay before
taking a cock.
10. The sex encounters seem to continually get more intense throughout
the diary. Have you hit a wall where you could not think of something
more outrageous or slutty to get that thrill? Did sex ever become boring
for you? If so,how so?
I love sex whether it's with one guy or many. There's definitely a part
of me that leans to the extreme side of it, but I thoroughly enjoyed
having sex with just one person during different stages of my transition.
A lot of times I never asked for more extreme situations, they were
simply placed in front of me. All I have ever wanted was to be hot, sexy
and desired. It felt like the more extreme I went, the more I was wanted
and put on a sexual pedestal.
The notion of a guy desiring a girl who will do it all is very real. Men
want a lady on their arm and whore in their bedroom. That's true. But
beyond that, I think guys want to be with the girl the rest of the room
wants to fuck. And if you let a guy know that you're the type of girl
who is down for that sort of thing, their desire goes through the roof.
If a guy knows he's talking to a chick that has taken on the whole team
in the past, he wants her even more. I've found that guys really, really
want a dirty girl. They may not want to marry her, but they'll stop at
almost nothing to fuck her. I've seen guys do all sorts of Alpha Male
things to win my cunt on a particular day. That type of power can be
heady if you don't handle it the right way. You need to realize they're
not doing all of those things for you, they're doing it for the
competition, the conquest and the ego. Once you learn that you're fine,
but some girls think it's all about them. Those are the ones that fall
the hardest. I know because for a time that was me. I was na?ve then
and I'm thankful I'm certainly not delusional enough anymore to buy into
that. But it's a difficult concept. Dealing with one's vanity is hyper-
advanced, Ivy League stuff for a TG in transition. A girl would be wise
to tread carefully.
More questions to cum.
xoxo
Alexandra Moore
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