Operation Rescue: In Plain Sight
ElrodW
A young man, feeling totally unwanted by his family, runs away. He
needs to find a way to survive, and eventually, he stumbles into an Op
Rescue clinic.
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Prologue
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Pete buried his head in his pillow to muffle the sound of his screams.
Frustration was overwhelming him; the dispute with his parents was all-
too-familiar, and all-to-frequent. It always ended the same, too - he
managed to be in trouble for something he hadn't done, and was being
punished unjustly.
He heard the door open, but he didn't bother to look. He could tell by
the sound of the shoes on the floor that it was his mother.
"Peter," she said softly, but still sternly. When he didn't reply, she
crossed her arms. "Peter Louis Franklin, you look at me when I talk to
you."
Pete turned angrily and glared at her. His cheeks were moist from his
tears, and he was angry at himself for such a childish display of
emotion. He'd been crying like a little kid, not like the fifteen-and-
a-half year old he was. "Why?" he snarled.
"Don't you take that tone with me, young man!" his mom replied angrily.
"You're the one who is in trouble. Unless you want to make it worse."
Pete's eyes were narrow, and his nostrils were flared and his jaw
clenched. "I didn't do it! It was Chuck and ...."
"Stop it! Quit trying to blame your brother and sister for your
actions!" Mom walked to the bed and held out her hand. "Just for that
outburst, give me your cell phone."
If looks could have killed, Pete's angry glare would have struck his mom
down where she stood. Instead of arguing, which was just as futile as
every other time, he pulled his cell phone from his jeans pocket and
slapped it in his mom's hand.
"You're grounded for two weeks," Mom stated firmly. "Maybe you can put
some effort into getting your grades up, like your brother and sister,
while you've got time on your hands." She paused, and she saw his angry
stare. "And you don't need to bother coming down for dinner tonight,
either, if you can't be civil!"
"Whatever," Pete snapped. Very deliberately, he turned from his mom and
flopped on his side on his bed, facing away from her in an obvious
display of contempt. He imagined that he could feel his mother's gaze
on his neck, burning with her ire at him. After a few silent seconds,
his mom strode from the room, closing it firmly and noisily behind her.
"Stupid fucking assholes!" Pete muttered to himself. "Never listen to a
fucking thing I say! It's always my fucking fault!" Mocking her voice,
he vented his feelings at how he knew his parents felt. "Precious
little Maggie and Chuck can't do any fucking thing wrong, can they?"
He lay on his side, listening to the noise filtering in through the
closed door and walls. He could hear his mother setting the table,
preparing for dinner - without him. He cursed aloud some more, not
caring if his comments were overheard. As he fumed about his current
plight, he couldn't help but think back of all the past incidents. The
mental review seemed to get longer and longer every month. Starting
from his earliest memories, he'd been tormented by his siblings, and his
mom and dad had nothing but punishment and harsh words for him, while
they showered Maggie and Chuck with endless praise. He could do no
right, and they could do no wrong in his parents' eyes. He couldn't
remember even _one_ single incident when he'd been praised - only
derided, scolded, spanked, belted, and punished. His eyes stung with
tears at the bitter memories which seemed to be his only constant
companion.
Eventually, he wearied of swearing at the situation. He could smell the
meatloaf, which caused his stomach to rumble, and it made him realize
that he hadn't eaten anything since school lunch several hours ago. He
sat up and gingerly crossed the room to his desk, to his school backpack
sitting on a chair. Glancing at the door, fearful that someone would
come in and catch him and confiscate his snack, he rifled through one of
the side compartments and pulled out two candy bars. He tore one open
and began to devour it, taking the edge off his hunger.
Suddenly, he stopped, a half-chewed bite still in his mouth. Random
thoughts had suddenly coalesced, and he knew what he had to do. He put
the unopened candy bar on his desk, and began to remove the books and
other content from his backpack. Padding softly across the floor, he
picked some underwear and socks from his dresser, and then took some
clothes from his closet. These he stuffed into his backpack. Pete
reached up to his bookshelf, and took down a fat novel. He opened it
and pulled out a pile of cash from the hollow pocket between the covers.
Within a few more minutes, he'd gathered everything that he thought he
might need, and then he closed the backpack and slung it over his
shoulder.
Carefully, to avoid making any unwanted noise, he opened his window and
climbed outside. He pulled it shut behind himself, not really knowing
why, except that it might buy him a few more seconds to get away if, for
some odd reason, his parents happened to come to his room and discovered
his absence.
Pete was grateful for the early dusk; the dim light covered his
movements as he trotted across the neighbors' yards. He glanced,
frightened, over his shoulder periodically, certain that he'd been
discovered and was being pursued. Eventually, he reached a lightly
wooded area bordering the subdivision he lived in, and he ducked into
the more substantial concealment of the trees and shrubs.
Feeling slightly safer from discovery, Pete sat down on a fallen tree
and contemplated his options. He had to get out of town, lest his so-
called family hunt him down and have him returned to his hellish life,
where he could continue as the scapegoat for everything that his
siblings did, and be an outlet for his parents' anger and frustration.
He didn't have a lot of alternatives. The thought of hitch-hiking was
downright scary; there had been several recent stories of hitch-hikers
being molested, beaten, and in one case, killed. There was no passenger
train service. That left the airport and the bus. Pete frowned to
himself. If he went to the airport, there would be records and security
everywhere, and his parents could easily track him down. On top of
that, cheap airfares had to be purchased weeks in advance, and even
then, he wasn't sure he had enough money. Plus there was the distance
he needed to travel to get there. More of a chance for his parents, or
the police, to find him.
That left walking or taking a bus to leave the city, or going
underground and hiding. He opted for the bus. Instinctively, he
reached in his pocket for his phone, only to curse when he found
nothing. His mom had taken it away, he remembered. Like most teens, he
hadn't realized how much he'd come to rely on his phone, and he realized
that didn't know how to navigate around the city, or to find
destinations, without it. He sighed heavily, but then Pete had another
thought. If he used his phone, or even had it on, his parents would
have been able to find him with tracking software. He often cursed the
electronic leash they had forced him to install as a condition of having
a phone, but now, he chuckled ironically. The first thing they'd do
would be to use the software to try to find him, only to discover that
his phone was still at home because it had been confiscated, and they
had no way to track him.
**********
Pete curled up under the picnic table, his spare clothes beneath him to
protect against the cold concrete, and on top of him to give him warmth
from the cool night air. He'd found some waste food in a dumpster
behind a Taco Bell restaurant, and though it hadn't been what he wanted,
he forced himself to eat. He needed to earn some more money so he could
get a bus ticket.
As he huddled, half-sleeping, he saw the headlights of a car turning
into the park. Pete was suddenly awake, and he bolted upright.
Quickly, he grabbed his spare clothes and backpack, crawled from under
the table, and scrambled to some bushes. He watched nervously as a
police car, on a routine security patrol of the park, drove slowly past
where he'd been just moments before.
For a brief moment as he hid in the bushes, Pete considered giving up,
and at least have a warm bed for the night. As soon as that thought
intruded, though, he remembered what he'd put up with, and his resolve
firmed. He knew now that he was in a struggle to survive without
compromising some of his ideals and beliefs.
After the police car had passed, he crawled back under the table and
spread his clothing back out. As he settled back in for what he knew
would be long night, he realized that he didn't have what he really
needed. He began to wish that he'd stayed in Boy Scouts, and learned
more survival and camping skills.
That thought gave him an idea. He could get a hold of his friend Ed,
and learn more about what he needed to know. But he'd have to be
careful; he wasn't absolutely certain that Ed wouldn't tell his parents
out of concern for his safety. And he didn't have his cell phone, so
getting in touch with Ed was going to be tricky.
As he lay awake, wanting to fall back asleep, he started to form a plan.
He'd go meet Ed just after Ed's scout meeting. That would be safe from
Ed's parents, and from his - it would be one place they'd never think to
look for him. Then he could talk to Ed in private, and get any tips or
hints he could. He could also go to the library and find out about
simple survival skills. Ed had talked about finding food in the wild,
too. Maybe he could find a way to gather food, or catch some small
animals, and not have to rely on others, or dumpster-diving, or becoming
a gay prostitute, to satisfy his hunger. Content that he had a plan, he
drifted off to a cold, fitful sleep.
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Chapter 1
Suzie looked up from her computer when the door chime sounded. It had
been a slow morning at the clinic. There weren't very many appointments
scheduled, so the sound was unexpected. A young man, wearing scruffy
clothes, and with scraggly, unkempt hair, was standing just inside the
door, looking around nervously. Suzie's first impression was that he
was lost, and she instantly thought about calling security. For some
reason, though, she didn't.
The newcomer looked to be a kid, short and wiry, and maybe eighteen. He
didn't seem to be a threat. She wondered why he was at the clinic.
"May I help you?" she asked in her best, friendliest voice.
The boy - for he was only a boy -looked alarmed, even frightened. "Uh,
I was ... uh ... looking for a ... job," he stammered nervously.
"Are you here to ask about our program?" Suzie asked. She was rather
certain that the boy knew nothing of what the clinic did - if he was
even old enough.
The boy seemed to calm down a little. "Uh, yeah. I saw one of your
fliers ... in the paper, and I wondered if I could get a job."
Suzie laughed. "It's more than just a job to us," she joked. "I have
to ask a couple of questions first, before we can go any further." She
gestured to the empty chair in front of her desk. "Please, have a
seat."
The boy glanced nervously over his shoulder, out the door, and then
eased himself into the chair. "Uh, okay." He couldn't help but notice
that the receptionist was pregnant.
Suzie gasped at the boy's appearance. He was thin, almost emaciated,
and dirty. His clothes were old, with threadbare spots and a few small
tears. In his eyes was a hunted look, like he was on the run from
something. "Name and age," she prompted. "And if you have an ID, I'll
need to see it."
The boy winced. "Uh, Pete," he mumbled. "Pete Franklin. I'm
eighteen."
"Do you have any ID? Drivers' license? Social security card?"
Pete pulled a worn wallet from his pocket, and pulled out a worn plastic
card. Suzie looked at it, and then at Pete, and then back at the card.
"This is ... expired," she said, her brow wrinkled with concern. "Do
you have anything more current?"
Pete shook his head. "No. Just my learner's permit." He sounded and
looked nervous at having to provide her details.
"Okay." Suzie jotted down a few notes from the permit, and then handed
it back to the boy. "It's surprising that someone your age doesn't have
a drivers' license," she commented casually.
Pete visibly stiffened at the comment. "I ... never got my license," he
said. "Things ... happened ... before I could get it."
Suzie's eyebrows rose at his unusual statement. "I'll need to see your
Social Security card. We have to run a background check on all our
applicants. She saw him tense at the comment, and wondered what she was
going to find when she did run a check. "Don't worry. It's just
routine, unless you've got some criminal history," she added.
"No. I've stayed out of trouble." He still sounded defensive, but
proud of being able to say that.
"Okay. I need you to go over to one of the computers over there," she
gestured toward a few small cubicles on one wall of the reception area,
"and fill out a questionnaire." She smiled. "It's pretty long, and
_very_ personal. You need to answer all questions honestly. We have to
screen our candidates pretty thoroughly."
"Uh, what kind of job openings do you have?" Pete was curious why she
warned him about an intrusive questionnaire.
"We work to save babies who would otherwise be aborted," Suzie
explained, absently rubbing her swollen, pregnant tummy. "Our employees
are called Adoption Facilitators."
Pete wrinkled his brow. "I don't understand."
"Do you know what we do?" Suzie asked with a curious smile.
Pete shook his head. "From your ad, I figured it's some kind of pro-
life thing."
"You could say that." Suzie pointed toward the computers. "And we
always need Adoption Facilitators. So if you would please fill out a
questionnaire ...?"
Pete realized that he wasn't going to get any more information from this
receptionist. She probably didn't know a lot, anyway. His first was
that she seemed like a typical dumb blonde secretary. He plodded to one
of the cubicles and sat down at the computer.
Suzie noted the disdainful look in his eyes. She chuckled to herself.
He had no way of knowing that he'd already passed the first hurdle, that
she'd already done the first-level of assessment of his fitness to join
the program. Far from being a dumb blonde, Suzie was well on her way to
getting her master's degree so she could become a counselor, and from
the moment Pete had walked through the door, she'd been studying his
every action and word. While he was busy at the computer, Suzie typed a
quick memo to the office director. When she finished that task, she
began to intently search records on the Internet, to find out more about
the prospective client.
Over an hour later, a very puzzled Pete leaned back from the keyboard.
The questionnaire had been more than a little intrusive and personal.
He stood and shuffled back to Suzie's desk, glancing warily out the
door, and around the reception room. Two very pregnant ladies were
reading magazines as they sat, waiting for who-knows-what. One glanced
up at him, and she gave him a very pleasant smile. Pete felt a little
suspicious of her pleasant demeanor.
"I'm finished," he informed Suzie.
Suzie smiled at him. "Please have a seat, and our director will be with
you in a few minutes." She had watched him as he filled out the form;
whenever the door opened, he seemed quite startled, and glanced
nervously at any who came or left the clinic. He definitely had the
look of a hunted animal.
He sat down where he could see both the clinic entrance and the doors to
the rear, behind Suzie's reception desk. He rifled through the pile of
magazines, but was put off by the titles and topics he saw - all
fashion, home d?cor, and pregnancy, so he just leaned back, trying to
look like he was resting.
Up to that point, the only clients that Pete had seen were women. But
when the door chimed again, a man walked in. Pete gasped; the man
looked so effeminate that it was a startling reminder of the encounters
with some of the more extreme gay hookers who had tried to get him to
work for their pimps. The newcomer wore his hair in a style that was
more feminine than androgynous, and he wore makeup and had his nails
done. His clothes were very feminine, but he was still, clearly, a man.
A man trying to look like a woman, but a man nonetheless.
"Good morning, Emily," Suzie greeted the newcomer cheerfully. "Are you
here for your checkup?"
Emily, the newcomer, nodded. "Tina wants one more check before I can
have my transfer." Her voice was between masculine and feminine - and
trying for the latter.
"Go on back, then. You know the way." Suzie turned back to the
computer, noting the reaction from Pete.
Pete frowned. This clinic had started as a mystery, and was getting
more enigmatic - scarier - by the second. Suzie had never explained
exactly what they did, and now he was starting to wonder what he was
getting himself into. The hunger in his stomach, though, a near
constant reminder of his state of existence, pushed away those doubts.
"Would you like a little snack while you're waiting?" Suzie asked
pleasantly.
Pete realized that she was watching him. "Uh, yes, please," he mumbled.
"If it's not too much trouble." He revised his opinion of her. She was
far from a dumb blonde. In fact, he realized belatedly, she'd probably
been studying and evaluating him from the moment he'd entered. He
swallowed nervously; had he blown it already by acting like she was an
airhead secretary? He fought the urge to run from the office. Only the
promise of respite from his nearly-overpowering hunger kept him in his
seat.
Suzie left her desk and walked into what, from Pete's angle, was just an
alcove. In a few moments, she was back with a bottle of juice, a fruit-
salad wrapped in plastic, and a plastic fork. "Here you are," she said
as she handed the snack to Pete.
She watched as he ate, gathering still more data on the prospective
client. He looked around nervously, and then dug into the food. She
could see that he was trying desperately to eat slowly, in a dignified
manner, but his hunger was visibly overwhelming, and he was eating like
he hadn't eaten in days. In mere moments, he put the empty food
containers into the trash. "Thank you," he said. For the first time,
he seemed to let his guard down - just a bit.
A few moments later, Suzie came over to where Pete was sitting.
"Something came up, and our director is quite busy. She said I should
take you to get your physical, and then we'll set up a follow-up
appointment after she has a chance to review your test results."
Pete nodded nervously and stood. As they walked down the hall, Pete
glanced at Suzie. "I promise that I won't fail any drug tests," he said
with conviction. "I've never done any drugs."
Suzie wondered why he had volunteered that information. She strongly
suspected that he feared she was pre-judging him, and had expected that
someone who looked like a runaway teen _would_ abuse drugs - or worse.
With the training she was taking, and from other clients, Suzie knew
what life on the streets could be like. She decided to not reply to his
comment.
"And I've never done anything else," Pete added defensively, answering
the question that he was certain Suzie wanted to ask.
It was a short walk to the nurse's station, which was a large, high,
circular counter with work desk space on the inside of the circle. It
was split in two with a gap on either side for accessing the work area,
situated at an enlarged intersection of two hallways. Suzie walked to
the counter. "Hi, Beth," she said to interrupt one of the two nurses at
the station.
The older nurse, dressed in light magenta scrubs, looked up at Suzie.
"Yes?"
"I've got a prospective host, and I need to get a complete physical for
him." She handed a thin folder to Beth. Pete realized that she'd been
collecting data on him while he'd been taking the test. He was
trembling slightly with fear, wondering what was in the folder, and with
whom it would be shared.
Beth took the folder, opened it on her desk, and glanced at her
computer. "Tina should be available in a few minutes. She just got out
of surgery, and she wanted to grab a bite."
Pete studied Beth carefully as she scanned whatever data Suzie had put
in the folder. She was older than Suzie - perhaps forty or forty-five.
She had a delightful, cheerful face, and she wore her hair in a short
style that complemented her facial shape nicely. Her hazel eyes
sparkled with joy. She stood, and as she extended her hand in greeting,
he saw that she was a bit shorter than average, and just a bit more
plump than Suzie. By no means was she fat, though. "Nice to meet you,
Peter," she said with certainty.
Pete looked at her hand for a moment, before he tentatively extended his
own hand to shake. He was surprised by the strength of her grip. "I go
by Pete," he said stiffly, correcting her.
"I'm sorry. Pete it is, then." She glanced down at her computer.
"While we're waiting for the doctor, we can start some of the routine
parts of the physical." She stood, picked up a portable computer, and
walked between the semi-circular desks toward one of the hallways.
"Good luck, Pete." With a smile, Suzie turned and walked back toward
the reception area.
"Step on the scale, please," Beth directed Pete. Obediently, he
complied. "One hundred twenty two pounds. Okay," she said as she
jotted the information into the computer. "Do you know your height?"
"No, ma'am," Pete said softly.
"Ah, ah, ah! We aren't formal around here! You can call me Beth." She
winked at him. "It sounds a lot younger than ma'am." From Suzie's
brief notes, she was aware of now nervous, even paranoid, the boy was,
and she turned on her charm to calm him as best as she could.
"Okay, ... Beth," Pete agreed. It was plain that calling adults by
their first names was a struggle for him.
"Stand against the wall right there," Beth indicated a spot on the wall
with markings going up the wall, demarked with their inch measurements,
"with your heels touching the wall." As Pete complied, Beth read and
marked down his height. "Five foot, eight inches," she told him as she
input the data. "You're not a large boy, are you?"
Pete shook his head, an angry frown on his face. "_They_ always made
fun of me for being a skinny runt, too!" he said bitterly.
"I wasn't making fun of you," Beth said quickly to clarify. She hadn't
expected the reaction that she'd just received. "Your friends?" she
asked.
"Them, too." There was no hiding the venom in his voice toward whomever
he was referring.
Beth handed Pete a cup. "Go in the restroom, and give a urine sample.
Put your name on the lid, and put the cup in the metal box." While he
was busy, Beth couldn't help but wonder what had emotionally hurt this
boy so badly that he was so bitter and had a look of both rejection and
anger in his eyes. And fear. There was no mistaking fear in his
expression. He was terrified of ... something.
After he finished in the restroom, Beth took him to an examining room,
and collected routine data associated with a physical, like blood
pressure, respiration, and temperature. When she prepared a needle to
take a blood sample, she saw him pale. "I take it you don't like
needles?" Beth asked.
Pete shook his head. "They make me think of ... all the junkies ... out
there."
"This shouldn't hurt much. Just look at the chart on the wall, and
it'll be done before you know it." As she collected the blood sample,
she kept chatting, mostly to keep him from being nervous. As they
talked, Beth began to like Pete. He was a quiet, reserved, frightened
boy, but she suspected that there was an inner core of strength and
determination. She got the distinct impression that he was being very
careful to not expose his feelings or emotions to anybody. She couldn't
help but wonder why.
**********
"Okay, let's have a look at you," Dr. Tina Martelli said as she put down
the tablet computer.
Pete shifted nervously on the examining table; he was clad in only the
gown Beth had given him, and he was not used to having a female doctor
examine him. "Uh ...," he stammered nervously.
"I know this is embarrassing, but I'm a doctor," Tina scolded him
lightly. She was startled at his reaction - her words seemed to have
hit him with the power of a gunshot. "I'm a professional. I promise I
won't hurt you."
Pete was only slightly mollified. "Okay," he grudgingly replied.
"By the way, I'm Dr. Tina Martelli, but you can call me Tina." Tina put
her stethoscope earpieces in her ears, and held the instrument against
her hand to warm it up. After a moment, she placed it on his back.
"Deep breath." She listened for a moment, and then moved the
stethoscope to his other side. "Again." She placed it on his chest,
and had him repeat the deep breaths. "Hold your breath," she directed
as she placed it over his heart. After a moment, she let it drop and
pulled the earpieces out. "Your lungs and heart sound healthy. Did
Beth already get the EKG?"
"Yeah," Pete answered. He wasn't getting any less nervous. "And a
chest X-ray, and she drew a lot of blood."
Tina began to probe him physically, feeling his adenoids, then down his
neck. "Okay, now comes the embarrassing parts," she said with a smile.
"You need to stand up so I can check you for hernias. You _do_ know how
I do that, don't you?"
"Uh, no," Pete admitted. He looked more than a little scared.
"I have to feel alongside your scrotum," Tina explained clinically. She
pulled on exam gloves. "Don't be nervous, or embarrassed; it's a
standard part of a physical. Everyone - at least the men and boys - get
this exam." She placed her fingers and pressed. "Turn your head and
cough." When Pete complied, she moved to the other side. "Okay,
again."
Pete was blushing at the very personal intrusion. His complexion turned
scarlet when she had him bend over for a prostate exam.
"Okay, the worst part is over," Tina said professionally. "Please take
off the gown so I can examine you." She quickly examined his body,
looking for deformities, including of his genitals. She felt his
muscles and ribs, noting that some ribs were showing a little bit,
evidence of an inadequate diet. "Okay, you can put the gown back on."
While he did so, she made some notes in her computer. She turned back
to Pete. "Okay, now we'll check your range of motion and reflexes." He
followed her instructions in bending, squatting, and moving his body as
she directed. Finally, she had him sit back down.
"You're a little on the thin side," Tina observed. "How is your diet?"
Pete shrugged. "Okay, I guess."
"Three meals a day, whole grains, fruits and vegetables, limited fat and
red meat?"
"Uh, not really," Pete answered, looking down. He realized how far his
diet differed from what Tina had suggested - and the discussion of diet
made his hungry stomach rumble.
"What do you eat?"
"Uh, some fruits, when I can. Same for vegetables. A lot of meat, I
guess. And once in a while, I get some canned food."
"Snacks? Junk food?"
Pete shook his head. "I don't know how long it's been since I've had a
candy bar," he admitted.
"Any vitamins or other supplements?" Pete shook his head. Tina scowled
at his response. "I'll know more when we look at your blood chemistry,
but I'm a little concerned about your nutrition. Your body mass index
is very low for a young man your age."
"You're making fun of me being small and skinny, too," Pete snapped.
"No, no, no!" Tina reacted quickly. The boy was _very_ sensitive about
his size. His reaction indicated that he'd probably been teased
severely about it when he was younger.
"What are all the tests about?" Pete asked cautiously. "Are you looking
for drugs or alcohol?"
Tina nodded. "Partly. We're also doing screening for various
antibodies, looking at the blood chemistry, and looking at your hormone
levels." She saw his concerned expression. "It's part of our standard
physical." Inwardly, she wasn't so confident. He definitely had
symptoms of malnutrition. She wondered just what his diet had been.
**********
"Have a nice day, Pete," Suzie called after Pete as he walked toward the
clinic door.
Pete glanced over his shoulder and nodded. "You, too," he said, but his
voice lacked conviction or warmth. He stopped at the door and looked
outside, carefully looking around the clinic entrance, before he pushed
the door open and stepped into the street.
Behind him, Suzie sat at her desk, wondering. She should have
discouraged him as soon as his ID check had revealed his status as a
runaway. He was too much of a risk. She chided herself - if she ever
wanted to be a counselor, she'd need to not only recognize problems, but
act on them.
Outside the clinic, Pete trudged slowly down the sidewalk, wondering
what to do next. From the angle of the sun, he could tell that it was
late - his watch had quit working long ago, and the chill of an autumn
evening was starting to come. Damn, but he should have brought a
jacket, he chided himself. He had a ways to go to get back 'home' - and
one of the neighborhoods wasn't exactly good.
Pete walked quickly, his hands in his pockets, looking down to hide his
face. From the corner of his eye, he saw a police cruiser driving past,
and he shuddered. Had the clinic ratted on him, and now the police were
searching again? He forced himself to stay calm. Bolting from the
scene would be suspicious - if the cops hadn't seen him yet, they would.
After several nerve-wracking seconds, the police car was out of sight,
and Pete focused on his tasks.
His first stop was a fast-food restaurant. He knew that the pickings
would be slim; waste food was easiest to find after nine, but by then,
it would be very dark and chilly, and he'd be competing with the other
homeless people who dumpster-dived for food. Absently, he rubbed his
rib, the one he was certain had been broken more than a year ago in a
major scuffle about territorial rights to a dumpster.
Pete felt lucky to find a half-eaten cheeseburger, which he wolfed down.
He was still very hungry, so he altered his course toward a church,
where he knew they had a food collection basket. If he was lucky, there
wouldn't be any parishioners around, and he could 'liberate' a can or
two of food.
Unfortunately for Pete, the church was bustling with people, and with
his stomach growling angrily, he set course for 'home'. There were two
more restaurants along the way; one Thai, which he hated but would eat
because he was too hungry, and the other a chicken place. Maybe he'd
get lucky.
Pete had rationalized that taking food from food donation boxes and
clothing from goodwill pick up spots was okay, because he was, after
all, poor and homeless - the type for whom the goods were intended
anyway. Beyond that, though, he tried not to steal - and certainly not
to shoplift. He knew of a couple of runaway teens who'd been caught
shoplifting, and the police had reunited them with their families.
Besides, that was blatantly stealing, and Pete couldn't bring himself to
do that. As a consequence, he had to buy some supplies, and his money
supply had slowly dwindled, despite his best efforts to not buy
anything.
For a brief moment, Pete thought about going to the library again. It
was warm, and he could hide in a cubicle while he surfed the internet.
But it would close, and he was afraid of getting caught napping again.
_That_ had been a close one; for some reason, the library staff had
called the police to remove him rather than simply awakening him. Pete
had barely gotten away, ducking out the emergency exit and diving into
the trash bin. He shuddered to think of going through that ordeal
again. No, the library was for early mornings, so he wouldn't risk
falling asleep around closing time again.
Pete turned toward the edge of town. It was time to get back to his
hut, so he'd be safe for the night. He knew the neighborhood he was
traversing.
"Hi, Petey," a voice called out from the top of a staircase in front of
an old brick building.
Pete was startled, but only just. He knew this neighborhood pretty
well, and many of the people in it. "Oh, hi, Vern."
The young man - or boy, depending on perspective - pranced down the
stairs. "How'th it going?" Vern clutched Pete's arm in a friendly,
affectionate gesture.
Pete shrugged. He'd gotten used to Vern over time. At first, Vern's
dress, his walk, and his lisp bugged the hell out of Pete. Vern didn't
walk, he minced about, swinging his hips as he walked on his high-heeled
boots - which barely qualified as men's shoes. His jeans were stylish
and tight, like a woman's, and he wore a frilly silk blouse. Vern's
hair was almost stereotypically gay, and with three studs in each ear
and a large ball stud in his tongue forcing him to lisp, there was no
way he'd ever be mistaken for a manly boy, even if one ignored his eye
shadow and lip gloss. "It's okay."
Vern giggled. "I doubt it. It'th getting cool again, and you're
homeleth. I know it'th going to be a long, cold winter."
Pete tried not to be angry. Vern wasn't responsible for what he'd
become - a gay hooker. It was Luis, his pimp, who, over time, had made
Vern into a caricature of a sissy gay boy, just like he'd 'persuaded'
other kids to be what would make him the most money. Pete shuddered at
the thought of being pushed down that path. It steeled his resolve.
"Tell Luis I said no."
"Oh, come on," Vern pleaded, leaning his head onto Pete's shoulder like
a lovesick girl. "You know it'th going to be cold, and you'd have a
warm bed and regular mealth. And," Vern looked at Pete longingly, "we
could alwayth cuddle on cold nighth to keep warm." Vern made no secret
of the fact that he had a crush on Pete.
"No," Pete said again, more firmly. He contemplated running - again. A
few times, he'd been scared when Luis and a few of his crew - gay boys
and men, girls, and young women, had closed in around him. He feared
that he'd be kidnapped and forced into a life of sexual servitude, and
end up like Vern. While Luis had some more macho gay prostitutes
working for him, Pete knew that, given his size, he'd be pushed down the
same path as Vern.
"I had to athk," Vern said sweetly. "Even if you don't work, if it
getth too cold thome night, you can alwayth come by and cuddle with me
to thtay warm." Vern released Pete's arm and sashayed back to his
staircase. He stopped to blow a kiss over his shoulder at Pete.
Pete shuddered inwardly as he continued his journey. Several times over
the years, when it had been freezing cold, and he was desperately
hungry, he'd almost given in. One time, he'd found himself walking,
wrapped in a blanket, through the frosty late night air, toward this
spot, to Luis and Vern and all the others. He'd caught himself - that
time - but he wondered how much longer he could hold out. He had almost
no money left. Food was hit-or-miss.
When he got to the wooded area, Pete glanced around himself nervously.
This was when it got dangerous. This was a known location for marijuana
growers, hiding their plants among the trees and bushes and shrubs of
the large woods. They were very territorial and quite dangerous,
especially in the very early morning and late evening hours, when people
were shadows moving among the trees. They had a tendency to shoot first
in defense of their valuable plants, and it was getting more perilous
every month.
Pete sighed with relief when he closed the 'door' behind himself in his
hut. The first thing he did was to grab a sweater and pull it on, and
then wrap a blanket around himself for further insulation from the
rapidly-falling temperature. A tiny candle, stored under his bed, was
lit, providing a bit of flickering illumination - enough that it didn't
seem like he was in a cave. The tiny bit of heat given off by the
candle, coupled with the insulating layer of dead foliage, helped keep
the hut livable - barely.
Sleep was fitful to Pete that evening, and the next two. He was out of
options. He could work for Luis - and probably end up a sissified gay
hooker like Vern, or he could work for the clinic in their mysterious
job. While he didn't object to gay people or their lifestyle - he had
known a few kids in school who were gay, and he got along with them, and
Vern was a nice-enough guy, even if he was annoyingly affectionate -
Pete didn't want to get into the prostitution business. From what he'd
seen and heard over time, it was a brutal business; hookers were only
useful to the pimps as long as they made money, and to make money, they
had to do whatever a customer might want. It could get dangerous, too.
He'd heard of a few prostitutes who'd met an untimely demise, through
violence of customers, pimps, and rivals, or through drug overdoses.
And there was the police record - if he were arrested, his name would be
advertised, especially since the city started the 'shame the hookers and
johns' campaign a year earlier. That, in turn, would bring _them_.
The clinic was a mystery. Adoption facilitator. What the hell was
that? The staff seemed nice, but Pete had encountered too many people
who'd been nice or charming at first, and only later had revealed their
true motives or personalities. He didn't trust them. And the guy who'd
come in - he seemed more gay than Vern. What was the business all
about?
It all came down to his options. He couldn't continue existing like he
was. Food was scarce, it was cold, and the drug dealers had made the
area too dangerous. Worst of all, he'd accidentally broken his knife,
his prized possession, a couple of months ago. He'd learned, over the
years, that a good survival knife was essential to living the way he
did. Every reference he'd consulted for living in the wilderness had
emphasized the importance of a good knife. Without it, he couldn't cut
tinder to start a small fire. He had nothing to strike against the
flint to start a fire. He couldn't skin and cut up rabbits and other
small animals he trapped. Worse, he had nothing with which to defend
himself. The loss of the knife had been a devastating blow to Pete, and
he didn't have enough money to replace it. At the time, he knew it was
bad. Now, with winter approaching, he realized just _how_ bad the loss
was.
Worst, though, was the increasing danger from the pot growers. While it
might be safer during the winter season, spring would bring planting
season, and renewed hazards. Last season, two groups had fought over
the woods. If that happened again, Pete could easily find himself
caught in the crossfire. Even more ominously, Pete knew that if he was
caught, he was disposable; the growers would think nothing of making a
homeless runaway 'disappear'.
Pete was faced with a cold, brutal winter, with inadequate food and
supplies, followed by three seasons of threat from the criminal element,
again with meager rations. While he'd survived for almost two and a
half years in his hut, he'd slowly come to the conclusion that he
couldn't go on much longer where he was.
Pete had three choices. The first - turning himself in and returning
home - he discounted even as the thought formed. He'd rather die than
stoop to that. Working for Luis - that was an option, but it was
fraught with peril. Because prostitution was illegal, they wouldn't
directly turn him over to his family. But the odds weren't good. Death
or disease were frequent outcomes, and if, by chance, he survived, he
knew that by twenty-five or thirty, he'd be discarded as being too old
and unattractive. That left the clinic. He didn't like the uncertainty
of not knowing precisely what they would have him do. Adoption
Facilitator. It sounded important, and the pay was more than
reasonable. But ... what the hell was the job? And the commitment was
long - at least eight months, the receptionist had told him. What if it
didn't work? What if they checked directly with the police department?
There were too many 'what ifs'.
He huddled in his 'home', fighting off the brisk autumn air and the
constant hunger, trying to figure out which option was better. He kept
coming back to the clinic, and the mysterious job of being an Adoption
Facilitator. He had an appointment in two days with the director.
Based on her reaction, he realized that the receptionist didn't really
expect him to keep it.
**********
"Mister Franklin?" The voice belonged to a woman who was impeccably
dressed, standing in a doorway. She was in her mid-thirties, and her
shoulder-length brown hair was quite attractively layered and styled,
with modest highlights. Her jewelry wasn't ostentatious, but modest and
professional, while also very feminine. She stepped forward as Pete
stood, and she extended her hand. "I'm Doctor Rachel McKnight, director
of this center."
Pete felt a little fear. He was intimidated by her professional
credentials and demeanor. "I'm Pete Franklin, ma'am," he said, his
cracking voice betraying his nervousness.
Rachel picked up on his unease. "Don't be nervous. We don't bite," she
laughed. "And I think you've already been told that we're very informal
around here. Please call me Rachel." Her eyes twinkled with warmth.
"Let's go back to my office and chat."
"Okay." Pete sounded very hesitant as he followed Rachel back to her
office.
He had no sooner sat down than Rachel began with a very pointed
question. "Why did you run away?" she asked bluntly.
Pete's eyes narrowed suddenly. "Are you going to tell someone that I'm
here?" he asked. He looked near panic at the prospect, and ready to
bolt from the clinic if need be.
Rachel shook her head, a slight smile on her face. "We verified you're
over eighteen, which is a requirement for the program. You're not a
minor, so we don't need to tell anyone you were here. We _can't_, in
fact. There are patient privacy rules, you know."
"Oh." He was relieved at her reassurance, but only just.
"Why did you run away?" she said, reiterating her question.
Pete stared at her for a moment, weighing whether he wanted to trust
her. "I ... I couldn't stay," he said softly. "They didn't want me.
They _hated_ me."
In his brief statement, Rachel read volumes about his emotional state
and motivations. He was a small, frightened young man who'd been living
on the street for a long time. His words were confirming what the
psychological profile test had told her. "By 'they', I assume you mean
your family?" She saw the tiniest of nods. "Your parents?" He tried
not to betray the reasons, but his eyes gave away his secret. "Was it
... abuse?"
Pete shook his head. Her words had stirred memories, and the corners of
his eyes began to moisten at those unpleasant memories. "No!" he
answered sharply. "They just hated me. They ... made my life hell,
because they didn't ... love me." He was fighting a losing battle to
contain his anger at what they'd done to him over the years. "How ...
how did you know? That I ran away, I mean."
"It wasn't hard to find out," Rachel said with a smile. She noted from
the tone of his answer that there probably _was_ abuse of some form.
"We did a background check on you." She saw the startled look on Pete's
face. "Don't worry. It's standard procedure, and the law says that it
has to remain confidential." Pete breathed a little easier at her
assurance. "We had to see if you had any criminal record, or anything
else that would be ... disqualifying."
"Oh."
"According to the reports," Rachel glanced at her computer monitor, "you
ran away almost two and a half years ago."
"Does that mean ... you don't want me?" Pete asked warily. His voice
echoed with pain and rejection.
Rachel realized that he felt, in many ways, like the babies they worked
so hard to save were - unloved and unwanted. She fought back a strong
sense of compassion for the boy. She couldn't let her emotions
interfere with the job she was doing, which was to rescue the babies,
not a runaway boy. "That doesn't mean anything of the sort. We will
judge your fitness for the program entirely on your psychological test
scores and physical exam results." She smiled. "You'd be surprised at
some of the ... interesting stories that some of our clients have told.
We take pride in the fact that, in helping babies, we give a second
chance to a lot of deserving people who are down on their luck."
Pete seemed wary. "Okay," he said, acknowledging her words, but not
fully accepting the underlying message.
"Why do you want to work with us?"
Pete shrugged. "I need to earn some money."
"That's a pretty honest answer," Rachel laughed. She got serious again.
"Do you know what we do?"
"The adoption facilitator thing - is it like clerical stuff?"
Rachel smiled. "Not quite. But we'll get back to that in a bit. I'd
like to talk to you about what you've been doing while you've been
living on the street. How you've survived, and so forth."
Pete's became stone-faced. "You got the reports," he said icily.
Rachel knew she'd hit a nerve. That was okay - she had to know more
about what made this kid tick. A lot more. "I got reports that cover
since your eighteenth birthday. Juvenile records are sealed, you know."
"Oh."
"A lot of runaways end up in ... bad situations," Rachel tried to be
diplomatic. "It's hard for a teenager to make money, unless they turn
to certain trades - like sex or drugs."
Pete frowned, his eyes flashing with anger. "I've never done drugs!" he
snarled. "And I've never been ... involved in prostitution." He
shuddered involuntarily at the thought.
From his almost unseen reaction, Rachel had uncovered another detail she
needed to know. "I wasn't implying ...."
"Yes, you were," Pete rebutted sharply. He angrily glared at her for a
moment, but then he looked down, ashamed of his angry reaction to a
legitimate question, and continued. "Sometimes ... it got so tough that
I was tempted. When it was so cold, and I was so hungry ...." He
looked up, his eyes steely again, as if he were chiding himself for
letting his guard down. "But I never did!"
"Because of the work we do, I have to know," Rachel said, trying to calm
the boy. "Now, let's talk about what we do."
"It's some kind of adoption thing," Pete offered with hesitation,
"right?"
Rachel laughed. "Kind of. How do you feel about abortion?"
Pete shrugged, but continued to eye Rachel with an untrusting gaze. "I
hadn't really thought about it. It's not like it's something I'd have
to worry about, is it?"
"Interesting way to look at it," Rachel observed. "Our foundation was
set up to provide an alternative to abortion."
"Like ... helping people adopt babies instead of abortions, right?" Pete
speculated.
"Very good. The problem is that some pregnant girls and women don't
want to carry the baby to term, though."
Pete frowned. "So ... how can you help _them_?" he asked, puzzled.
"Two very gifted researchers discovered a way to transfer a baby from
one mother to another before the baby is born. Kind of like an organ
transplant," she added when she saw Pete's confusion.
"Oh. So that's what your clinic does? Helps arrange those things?"
"In a nutshell, yes."
"So what would _I_ be doing then - since I'm not a girl? Paperwork
stuff?"
Rachel smiled. "Not quite." She glanced at her computer. "I see, from
your questionnaire, that you're rather ambivalent about sex." Pete
blushed and looked down. "You aren't gay, but your sexual identity is
rather neutral."
"What does this have to do with ...?" Pete demanded angrily, clearly
upset by the direction the conversation had turned. It seemed to be
getting too close to Vern and his gay image and lifestyle.
"The service we provide," Rachel continued as if he hadn't said
anything, "is to provide host wombs for unwanted babies, so they can be
delivered into the world and adopted by loving families that _do_ want
them."
"But I still don't get ...." Pete's eyes slowly widened, as he began to
put the pieces together. "The guy who came in last time I was here ....
Are you saying that ...?" He scooted to the edge of his chair, his
hands on the arms, ready to dash from the room.
"When we don't have enough women who volunteer, we allow men to
participate in this wonderful life-saving experience," Rachel spoke
almost reverently. "But to do that, men need to have certain ...
adaptations."
"Surgery? To make them into women?" Pete asked, astonished. "But ... I
thought that sex surgery didn't ...."
"Didn't you ever learn about cloned organs? Our founders were the ones
who invented that process." She saw a light of recognition in his eyes.
"We use a tissue sample to grow new parts so our male volunteers are
qualified to carry the babies."
She expected to see a look of shock in Pete's eyes, and even panic at
her suggestion. She was disappointed. The expression he had was almost
like visibly watching his mental gears turn. His mind was racing.
Never in his life had he been a macho individual. He was smaller, and
quieter, and much less physical than most boys his age. He had no
strong attachment to his sex. "How ... how far do the changes go? How
... completely female ... are the men who work for you?"
"Did you take biology before you dropped out?"
"No."
"Then consider this a biology lesson." Rachel smiled again. "A baby
develops and grows in a uterus, or womb. To have the proper hormones
for a baby to develop, it is necessary to have ovaries. Fallopian tubes
are optional, but since the whole thing develops as a unit like it would
in a baby, we seldom leave them out. That's actually more trouble," she
explained unnecessarily. "And then a baby needs a birth canal to be
born ...."
"A ... birth canal?" Pete asked. Fear had crept back into his voice.
"A vagina," Rachel said without emotion. "So essentially, everything
down below is female."
"Oh." Pete blushed bright red, and he visibly tensed. "What else? The
... guy ... I saw earlier looked like he was - really changing all
over."
Rachel noted that Pete seemed more intrigued by a full change than
nervous. "That doesn't scare you?"
Pete shook his head. "You're the one who said my sexual identity was,
um, neutral." He lowered his head and blushed. "I'm ... er, that is,
I've never ... um ...."
She noted his hesitancy and embarrassment at admitting, without saying
as much, that he was a virgin. Having run away at fifteen had robbed
him of social interactions, including the time to explore his sexuality.
She decided not to push that angle - not yet, anyway. Pete was being
very careful with his choice of words, and he was hiding his emotions.
"It's up to the client. One thing that does happen is that men in the
program develop breasts."
Pete flinched. "Why?"
"Biology," Rachel said with a smile. "To carry a baby, a woman's system
is flooded with female hormones, estrogen and progesterone, so she'll be
prepared to nurse the baby. They're the same hormones that cause a
girl's breasts to develop. Does _that_ scare you?"
"So, if I understand, I'll have all my ... stuff ... replaced by girl
parts, and then I'll grow ... boobs, too?" Pete was trembling with fear
at the implications of Rachel's explanation. "What part of me
_wouldn't_ be female?"
"Face, hair, name. Your general body shape. But it's all temporary.
At the conclusion of the contract, we restore your body." Rachel was
expecting Pete to bolt for the door, but he didn't. Was he out of
choices? For homeless kids on the street, there weren't many options.
But it was also possible that he saw such a radical change as a way to
hide. She was curious what he'd run away from that could make him
accept such a significant change to hide himself.
"Oh. Okay." Pete suppressed a shudder coursing down his spine. It
would be hard - being a young, pregnant, and homeless girl. It would be
a big change - to go from being a boy to being a girl. But the
alternatives ....
"Pete," Rachel said, suddenly sounding very warm and full of empathy,
"if you're accepted, you and I are going to spend a lot of time
together. Counseling is mandatory, especially for men in the program.
This is a huge step in a person's life. It's not to be taken lightly,
either by you or by us."
"Oh," Pete mumbled.
Rachel decided to pass on further discussion of his question - at least
for the moment. "Do you know what it's like for a pregnant woman?"
Pete shook his head.
"A pregnant woman will have a swollen belly, swollen ankles, painful
breasts, sore back, a kicking baby that makes you have to urinate
frequently, cramps, possibly throwing up every morning from morning
sickness, strange food cravings, and hormones that make your moods shift
faster than you can think. Then, when she's had enough of that, she
starts labor, with contractions, pain, and the unpleasantness of
childbirth. Does that frighten you?" She watched his reaction.
Pete gulped, and then nodded feebly. "Yeah. A little."
"Good. It's supposed to," Rachel said with a smile. She gazed at him
for several seconds, trying to read any emotions that his expressions
would betray. He showed none, however. " So let's talk a little about
you. What do you like? What don't you like?"
"Why?" He sounded suspicious - again.
"I need to get to know you," Rachel replied, "before I can judge whether
this program is for you or not."
**********
"Okay," Rachel said, looking around the conference room. "We're in
agreement that Hailey Kingston is not a good candidate?" She watched as
her staff physicians, including Dr. Tina, shook their heads. The two
other counselors on staff also shook their heads. She glanced at the
receptionist who was taking notes. "Please mark her application as
unsuitable, and set up an appointment with her as soon as possible so I
can talk with her, okay?" The girl nodded. "Okay, what else?"
"The last packet is Mister Franklin."
Rachel winced visibly. "Okay." She sighed. It was plain that she
didn't want to deal with this particular application packet. "Tina?"
Dr. Tina Martelli, head surgeon, glanced around. "Physically, he's a
good candidate. He's young, and his physical test results are all
acceptable."
"Isn't he the skinny kid?" one of the other doctors asked.
Tina nodded. "His BMI is just under 20. He's under desirable weight,
but not unhealthily so." She frowned. "He shows signs of malnutrition,
so I'm concerned about that."
"Serious?"
Tina shook her head. "Nothing some healthy food and a multivitamin
wouldn't fix." She glanced at her computer. "His hormones are within
range, except his testosterone is on the low end." She glanced up.
"I'm not surprised, given his nutritional state." She looked back at
the computer. "No STDs. No detectable drugs, alcohol, or nicotine.
He's negative on all the diseases we screen for."
Rachel frowned. "Is he physically acceptable?"
Tina nodded. "Yes. He's in pretty good shape for a runaway - except
for an abscessed tooth that'll need to be taken care of."
One of the counselors chimed in, "If I remember right, didn't his
psychological tests show some serious trust issues?"
Beth felt a need to speak up. "He's a scared, emotionally abused kid
who had to run away from home to survive. For someone who's lived on
the streets for over two years, he's remarkably clean from drugs and
STDs."
Rachel shot Beth a warning look. She sounded like she was advocating in
favor of Pete, which was against her rules. "I'm not sure we want to
take a chance with him," she said.
"Haven't we had other clients who were from similar backgrounds?" Tina
asked rhetorically.
Rachel shook her head. "Yes, but there's something Mister Franklin was
hiding from me during our interview, and it left me with a very bad
feeling."
"How long will it take to grow new organs for him?" Beth asked. The
question was also rhetorical; everyone knew that it took a minimum of
four weeks with the rapid growth procedures and drugs the foundation
used. "Why can't we take him in - provisionally - and do some further
evaluations on him during that time?"
Rachel glanced around the room, and saw nods of approval at the proposed
arrangement. Until he committed, the danger to a baby was non-existent,
and the cost of growing the cloned female organs for Pete was only a
miniscule fraction of the cost of the entire host pregnancy. "Do you
agree with that recommendation?" She saw hesitant nods around the room.
"Okay, we'll do it that way. Let's get back to work." She sat back as
her staff started to file out of the room. "Beth, one moment, please."
Beth seemed to be expecting Rachel's words. She hadn't started moving
from her chair. The two waited until everyone was out of the conference
room.
"You know you're not supposed to advocate for potential clients," Rachel
reminded her in a reproving tone.
Beth nodded. "I know. It's just that he's a nice kid when you talk to
him. He's been through a lot, and he wants to have someone accept him."
"Did he tell you?" Rachel asked, trying not to sound critical. Even
though she was the head counselor, she _did_ value the inputs of her
staff, and she made a point to listen to their input about patients.
"Not in so many words. But I ... I don't know how to describe it. I
just know he's a very hurt boy that needs a chance." Beth shook her
head. "Once you get past his fear, he reminds me so much of ...," her
voice cracked, "of Michael."
Rachel put her hand gently on Beth's arm. "Beth, you know we have to be
very careful not to get emotionally involved. No matter how hard. No
matter how much they remind us of family or friends."
Beth sighed. "I know."
"We have to make sure we save our sympathy for the babies," Rachel
reminded Beth. Not for the hosts."
**********
Pete walked nervously into Rachel's office. She'd promised him that
she'd get in touch with him, but she had no way to do so, and so she'd
made him promise to return to the clinic on the following Tuesday.
Suzie had seemed quite surprised to see him
Rachel rose from her desk, strode to the door, and extended her hand in
greeting. "I'm glad you could make it."
"I told you I'd be here," Pete answered, uncertain of whether she, too,
hadn't expected him to return.
"No, I didn't mean that I'm surprised," Rachel answered with a light
laugh. "Let's sit down and talk." She gestured toward the informal
part of the office, a couple of wing chairs and a large, overstuffed
sofa.
Pete sat on the sofa, visibly luxuriating in the soft cushions. Despite
the fact that he looked physically relaxed for the first time since
she'd met him, Rachel noted that his eyes were still alert, and had the
look of being constantly on guard against unknown dangers.
"Are you curious about how the tests went?" Rachel prompted, trying to
draw some kind of reaction from Pete. She needed to get him out of his
shell, so she could understand him better.
"I figured you'd tell me one way or the other," Pete answered without
emotion.
Rachel noted that Pete was very good at hiding his feelings - except for
the visible fear and lack of trust. Those were apparently too deeply
ingrained for him to be able to conceal. She made a mental note that
she'd have to work with him on that. "Have you considered everything
that will happen to you? The surgeries, the physical and emotional
changes, the difficulty of carrying and delivering a baby?"
Pete nodded. "It's not like I have a lot else to do during my days."
He sounded a little bitter over his life situation.
"Why don't you tell me how you're living right now?" Rachel prompted.
Pete's face showed a little surprise. He'd expected a discussion over
whether he was accepted or not, not about himself and his living
arrangements. "I guess I just live," he answered.
"Where? In a homeless shelter?"
"No. Most of those places are full of drugs and alcohol. And hookers -
both straight and gay." He shuddered involuntarily as he spoke,
obviously repulsed by the thought that he might end up like them - an
addicted prostitute. "I built myself a little hut in the woods, by
Mayfield Park." He smiled, but even his proud smile was overshadowed by
his caution. "It's pretty well hidden. If you didn't know what it was,
you could walk right past it and never see."
Rachel's eyes widened at his revelation. "How ...?" She was too
befuddled to speak for a moment. "If you don't mind my saying so, you
don't exactly come across as someone who's lived in a hut in the woods
for two years."
"I did my best," Pete said. He wasn't going to give up any secrets if
he didn't have to.
"How about your hygiene and diet? Those had to be challenges, but you
don't seem to have any problems in those areas."
"I ... guess I learned to take care of myself," Pete started to explain,
again, giving no specifics.
Rachel cut him off. "I want to see where you've been living," she said
firmly.
Pete's eyes widened. "Uh," he stammered, uncomfortable with the
request, "it's kind of private."
Rachel saw the warning flash in his eyes. It was more than private - it
had been his refuge for over two years. "We do this my way. We take a
field trip to your 'home', or I won't accept you in the program." She
saw Pete's eyes widen as he considered her demand. "Just so you know,
you're under medical and psychological care right now. There are very
specific laws that prevent us from sharing any of this information with
anyone else. If I were to tell anyone any of this medical information,
I could lose my license, be fined, or even go to jail." She saw him
processing the information. "Now, shall we take a field trip to see
your home?"
"But ... what if ...?" Pete didn't want to show anyone his secret
hideaway.
"Pete," Rachel interrupted him, "We're going to go see your home." She
read the lack of trust in his eyes, in his posture. She could almost
see the gears turning as he considered her request. Based on the lack
of trust highlighted in his psych profile, she expected that he'd
refuse, and leave. As seconds passed, agonizingly slowly, she
considered that there were other factors at work in his life.
"Okay," Pete finally said reluctantly.
**********
Pete hadn't been joking about how well-hidden the hut was; Rachel walked
right past the hut before she realized that Pete had stopped by one of
several piles of logs and debris. She turned, and saw him grin and
disappear into the pile.
Nervously, Rachel followed him, and found herself standing in the
entrance of his shelter. She could barely see anything; it was very
dark inside. She carefully stepped into the hut, ducking to avoid
hitting her head on the low ceiling.
It took a few seconds, but her eyes adjusted to the dim light. Her jaw
dropped as she looked around. On one side of the shelter was a crude,
home-made bedframe, constructed from logs, on which sat a mattress with
a couple of what appeared to be wool blankets piled haphazardly on one
end.
"This ... is where you live?" Rachel asked, astonished. "How do you
keep dry in the rain?"
Pete sat down on the edge of the bed. "I found some plastic sheeting at
a construction site, so I used it to line the roof. It doesn't leak at
all."
"How about heat? How do you stay warm?" She sat down next to Pete to
avoid getting a crick in her neck from stooping.
"There's a lot of brush on top, and it's good insulation," Pete replied.
"Except on the coldest nights, it's comfortable."
Rachel noted a coupl