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I have mixed feelings about posting this. When I'd nearly finished
writing this story I found an obscure interview from the 90's where
John Norman asked people not to write Gorean fan fiction, although I
can't find a more recent update on his opinions.
In my defence this is fan fiction of fan fiction, as Albedo's "Agents
of Gor" on Fictionmania was one of the inspirations to me in first
writing and posting my own autobiography. But let me know what you
think.
Daughter of Gor - Part 1
By Olga Turlovna
1 - In which men talk business with Priest Kings
"And why is it that a man of Urth is needed to serve the Priest Kings?"
I ask, leaning forward attentively. "Yes, I am from the caste that
Goreans would call the warriors, but so are many of your allies. You
have a mission on my home world, perhaps?"
Urth is their name for the Earth, my home, for I am no longer on the
Earth. This world is Gor, the Counter Earth, a dangerous planet but a
beautiful one.
I've visited several times and each time I'm here it feels like my
senses awaken and I come truly alive. The air is so fresh it is like
perfume. Colours seem brighter. The mountains I can see from the
window, here in the region called the Sardar, are so breathtaking they
would shame the CGI enhanced views in the Lord of the Rings.
Terrain is not the world's only beauty. There is the sound of pouring
liquid as, from her place by my thigh, a girl fills my wine cup.
"Not every task can be completed by a Gorean warrior," the Priest King
named Misk replies in his manner of speech, "and this is an unusual
mission where only someone of your... background... might serve."
Priest Kings are the godlike rulers of this world. Non-human, they are
part of an ancient insect-like race that live for thousands of years.
There is an almost palpable aura of timeless wisdom emanating from this
one, Misk.
The two other men in the room, the two humans, are watching me with
curiosity. A man of Urth, I am almost as novel to them as they are to
me.
Each time I'm here I have to remind myself I'm not in a planet-wide
Disneyland, themed around the Roman era. The short sword propped
against my low chair is a very real weapon. In this world where honour
means everything to men, it pays not to mock.
The girl stands, and moves gracefully to the man at my left.
She kneels silently next to him, and silently fills his cup as she did
with mine. For a moment the sun catches on a steel collar that fits
tightly around her throat. I see a glint from the metal.
Her feet and shapely legs are bare, the single garment she wears only
covering down to her upper thighs.
Personally I'm finding it hard not to stare - she is unusually
beautiful and such a girl would be a striking sight back home, but it
is interesting to note the other two men barely look at her. A sight
such as this is commonplace here.
"It is a mission on Urth, then?" I ask. Misk's reply seems to confirm
the reason for my presence.
"The mission is on Gor," the elder of the two men answers without
elaborating.
"Rorius here, is of the warriors," the Priest King explains,
introducing the speaker. I see a bulky, gruff, patriarchal man with a
face like a granite wall. As he studies me silently, he gives me the
impression he is someone I wouldn't want to cross.
"And Telisio, also a warrior, is part of Rorius house," Misk continues,
indicating the second man, who nods to me once.
Telisio is younger, handsome with a playboy, swashbuckler air about
him. He looks as if he'd be the more fun of these two to get drunk
with, but there is something less trustworthy in his manner.
"These two men will defend you and bear the greatest risk to life in
the mission," Misk explains. "By the time you leave the Sardar, death
is not likely to be your fate."
"We serve the Priest Kings to death if necessary, stranger," Rorius
confirms, managing to imply that I might not be as worthy.
I recall that the Gorean word for "stranger" and "enemy" are the same,
and I judge it an appropriate point to introduce myself.
"I am Aurius," I say, "Aurius of London. On Urth I too am a warrior. I
have risked my life in combat missions before."
My background as a warrior - Special Forces in fact, is entirely true,
but the title is not. "Aurius" is not how I'm known on Earth.
My real name is Arran, but when I first visited Gor and discovered that
the Goreans mishear it as the feminine Erin, I modified it to a more
Latin version.
Gor is not a good planet to be mistaken for a female. Where on Earth
the sexes strive to be treated in the same way, on Gor they base much
of their culture around sexual inequalities, celebrating the physical
superiority of men and male dominance over female.
Being from a more enlightened world, I know I should revile this
barbaric sexism. And yet I am a hypocrite - proven by the way I can't
take my eyes from the girl.
Far away from Earth in a sunlit, airy room, high in the Sardar
Mountains, the role of three men is talking business with a Priest
King. The female's role is to serve us wine, moving to kneel gracefully
by the third man while I watch her.
She has a pretty face, oval with the darker colouring often seen in
Hispanic women on my home world. I was raised to treat women with
respect, but each time I try to concentrate on the conversation I find
myself watching her again.
Her simple clothing is insufficient even to wrap completely round her
sides, so I can see a broad vertical stripe of her soft bare skin from
her thigh to under her arm. Particularly drawing the eye is the part of
her luscious, pert breast visible to me. I'd just have to slip my hand
under that fabric to access her.
She senses my gaze and I see her breathing quicken slightly, but she
makes no objection. Yet again I force myself to concentrate on the
men's conversation.
"Have you heard of a man named Kurtz of Ar?" Misk asks me.
I laugh.
"Kurtz? Who on Gor hasn't?" I admit. "He is reputed to be one of the
greatest warriors of our age. A natural charismatic leader, inspiring
incredible loyalty to his men. A fighter - brutal, but a strategic
genius. A warrior poet. A lover of women."
"What is less commonly known, is that Kurtz of Ar was once in the
service of the Priest Kings."
I nod, and then I catch on.
"Once, you say?"
"Once," Misk repeats. "Kurtz's last mission for us was to secure a
location in the jungles of Schendi against our ancient enemies, the
Kurii"
Hearing the name of the Priest Kings enemy spoken aloud, the bear-like
Kurii, makes me start. It is a forbidden word. The Priest Kings and the
Kurii, the other alien species found on Gor, have been warring for
generations, but their battle is fought in secrecy from most of the
human population, who view Priest Kings as gods.
Only a privileged few men such as myself are recruited to represent
mankind in the service of beings on either side of this conflict.
It should be noted that it is the Priest Kings who keep human
technology on Gor locked in the pre-gunpowder era. The Kurii have no
interest in human progress, regarding us as nothing more than a food
source.
"Kurtz's mission was to secure one of the Kurii landing points used for
bringing troops, agents and slaves into Gor, and return that point to
our use," Misk continues.
"It is a strategic location between the Nyoka and Kamba rivers, from
where he could control all the traffic into Lake Ushindi. But when he
arrived, something happened."
"Kurtz seized the fortified compound, but he and his men failed to
return to the Sardar. Instead he claimed the right of ruler and
chieftain out of there - what Goreans call an Ubar, and his men who
were also believed loyal to the Priest Kings, remained with him."
I try to recall the geography of that region. A vast lake, Lake
Ushindi, lies centrally in the jungle. Two rivers, the Nyoka and Kamba,
drain to the west downstream to the sea, known as Thassa in the Gorean
language.
Another river goes upstream from the lake, the river Cartius. The point
on the lake between the two rivers would indeed control the traffic,
but at the price of enduring oppressive heat and humidity; swamps;
poisonous animals and insects; and disease.
"The jungles are an inhospitable place to rule," I comment. "Why does
he stay?"
"That is what we need to know. It appears to be for the pleasures of
power. His men raid the surrounding area, capturing goods, treasures,
and taking captives as slaves. He displays his superiority over others
with impunity."
"As well as capturing women in transit up and down the rivers, they
also take women from the tribal groups in the jungle. Fresh captures
are marked with the four-petal brand of the brandius flower - Kurtz's
symbol."
The brandius plant can be dried to make a narcotic. It is addictive and
enticing, yet poisonous. It is a strange plant to choose as one's
motif.
"By the time the women are passed on to the markets, the slaves are
said to be exquisitely trained. A girl marked with the brandius will
command a high price on the auction blocks of Gor."
That seems an irrelevant fact for my task, which I think I understand
now.
"My mission is to infiltrate Kurtz's group, as a spy? Investigate for
the involvement of the Kur?"
The electronic translator used by the Priest King does not convey
emotion, but I nearly sense entertainment at my ignorance.
"Not exactly," is the answer.
"We've tried this approach several times. They are always able to
quickly detect our agents, and Kurtz's men defend him loyally."
He pauses, and in the same emotionless tone says, "Parts of our agents'
bodies are returned to the Sardar as a message - limbs, heads,
genitals. The treatment is barbaric. We will send no more men to the
jungle."
I feel a chill at the word "genitals," imagining the brutality behind
these acts and the terror of the victims as they meet their fate.
If my purpose isn't to act as a spy, then again I am puzzled about the
nature of my mission. My parents raised me to be an agent of the Priest
Kings.
As a child in London I was schooled in a second language no-one else
could speak. I was trained to fight, with an emphasis on hand to hand
fighting and combat with medieval weapons.
Only when I turned eighteen, not long before my parents" death, did
they tell me of Gor - a world who's language I spoke fluently. At first
I thought they were deluded, until I first saw the world for real. But
several years in the army still don't explain why I am required over
these two native warriors. There is nothing unusual about Aurius of
London except for my hair, which is an exceptionally rare dark red
colour.
"The only strangers to enter the compound are women," Misk says, "and
they pass through the gates in the chains of captivity."
Setting aside the mystery of my role for now, I make further
suggestions.
"A female spy could permit herself to be captured and observe from the
inside," I say, "and then purchased on the block to report her
discoveries."
The one called Rorius interrupts, replying scathingly to me.
"You speak of a mission where the girl departs knowing she's destined
for slavery. No free female with honour would accept such a task, and
slaves are not to be trusted with such a task."
"There are brave women on Gor," I counter. "And women of Gor serve the
Priest Kings too, like this one here."
Kneeling between us, facing into the circle, the girl gives a little
start at being mentioned, but does not speak. She is being discussed by
the men rather than addressed directly, and she knows better than to
reply.
To a Gorean, this girl's status is instantly obvious, declared by the
collar of steel locked around her neck. She is kajira, owned, a slave.
Her clothing - a simple and scanty outfit made of one wide strip of
cloth worn over the head like a poncho, would also only ever be worn by
a slave. Goreans call this a camisk - it is worn by slaves across the
planet.
It is fastened with a tie around her waist. Despite being humiliatingly
revealing, the girl has secured hers tightly, so rather than hanging
loosely the camisk hugs her figure, accenting the swell of her breasts
and her feminine hips.
Slavery is an abhorrent practice to the people of Urth, and yet the
girl does not seem unhappy with her state. The opposite seems to be
true - she radiates a beautiful serenity. I feel a flash of desire at
the sight of such a woman. You'd never see a creature like her at home.
"Infiltration by women has also been tried," Misk continues, "and it
has failed. Whether we send a female agent that's free or a kajira,
Kurtz seems to inspire a devotion and submission in her that is
unusually profound."
"Our girls leave the compound loyal to him, even defending him to the
point of torture, and we find nothing but superficial information from
them. Priest Kings will not mistreat those who have been brave for us,
so we will not interrogate these girls and their reports are useless."
"You do not torture them enough," the one called Rorius states bluntly.
I smile to see he's got his arms folded, flexing his biceps. When
you're built like me you get used to this alpha male thing, with guys
trying to intimidate each other. I'm not going to rise to it. I could
break him if I wanted to, but I'd rather relax and watch the girl.
I wonder if this woman in the room with us is one of those agents that
were sent to Kurtz, but her thigh is marked with the most common Gorean
slave brand, a curling letter "k" that denotes "kajira', the female
expression of the word for slave in the Gorean language. She doesn't
wear Kurtz" personal brand.
"From our studies in your species, we think it is perhaps that the
problem stems from the nature of woman," Misk says.
"Research on your own planet matched that of Gor, and found that most
females have elements of coercion in their fantasies. They say it is a
powerful image to be conquered by the strong, handsome, warrior, and
Kurtz represents all of these. It is possible that women cannot resist
bending to his will."
I glance across to the girl. Is she breathing more quickly?
Gorean slave positions are formal and deliberate, and this girl kneels
with her thighs apart, a posture indicating a girl who has been opened,
what they call "red silk." In Earth parlance, we would say she is not a
virgin. Slave women are not even permitted to keep that information
private from strangers.
Slaves are not permitted undergarments, so with her thighs apart, all
I'd have to do is lower my head to see a view that would be considered
obscene on Urth. I wonder what it would be like to lay with her.
She really is very beautiful, with her dark eyes demurely lowered,
peering from under those long lashes.
Hiding the diversion of my thoughts, I smile ruefully.
"Your situation seems hopeless, then," I tell Misk. "You can't send a
male agent to investigate Kurtz's compound, because his team will find
them out and kill them immediately. And you can't send a female agent,
because women seem to turn into his willing slaves as soon as they're
in his presence."
"Not quite hopeless - we have one last option," Misk says. "We could
send a female body with the mind of a man, in the hope his inherently
masculine nature would resist the force of Kurtz's charisma."
The suggestion comes so out the blue that I scoff, laughing out loud.
Misk discusses science fiction. And there is a more immediate problem
with the suggestion.
"Even if you could do that, no Gorean man alive would swap places with
a woman," I scorn. "Gor is a world for men to enjoy and for women to be
enjoyed."
"Yes," he agrees slowly. "It is only the men from Urth who envy the
lives of women."
I understand then why I have been brought to the Sardar.
2 - I learn more of the Priest Kings' Technology
The room doesn't look much like a laboratory. There are no bubbling
flasks, no gadgets and no computers. Recalling the occasions of my
watching movies at home on Urth, I am reminded more of the sleeping
chambers from Alien.
The Priest King is showing me a horizontal tube made of a clear
material, the correct size to hold a human being. I can see the device
is designed to be sealed, airtight, and it has pipes feeding into the
ends. Their function is to feed in nutrients and chemicals to effect
the change, and remove waste.
"In human beings, your sex is determined by the form of the sperm,
before you're even an embryo," Misk is explaining.
"So to turn you into a female we would have to amend your DNA, and then
trigger a complete rebuild of your body, cell by cell, leaving only
your brain intact. Such a process will take time - perhaps one Gorean
month."
"It sounds dangerous," I say dubiously.
The loss of one more human being would be unimportant in the endless
conflict between Priest Kings and Kurii where so many have given their
lives. The Priest Kings could have simply forced me to participate,
male slaves dragging me to the tube like a human sacrifice to the
altar.
Such cruelty is not their nature, however. Instead I am being shown the
laboratory where I will be transformed.
If I accept, that is.
"The process is not without risk," Misk confirms, "being difficult to
sustain organic matter through such trauma, although as your human body
is much simpler than ours the task is made easier. This technology was
first designed for the healing of Priest Kings. Your chance of survival
is perhaps... seventy percent."
He continues, "That level of danger makes it too risky to reverse the
process after the mission. You would live out your life as a female."
"Will I live looking like a man with female attributes?" I ask. "Gender
switching is not unknown on my world, but it is a combination of
physical surgery to reshape the bone structure and treatment with
hormones."
"You will be biologically female in every way, indistinguishable from a
human developed from a female embryo, then grown to a girl child," Misk
answers.
"The only masculine element that will remain is your brain, containing
your original personality and your memories."
The magnitude of the potential change is too much to contemplate, so I
avoid thinking and keeping talking.
"What will I look like?" I ask, trying to joke. "If I'm going to be a
girl I do not wish to be ugly."
"That is not in our interest either," Misk agrees emotionlessly,
"because only the most desirable of women are likely to be personally
selected to serve Kurtz. Luckily, here we have an advantage over nature
because we can make further amendments to your DNA."
"The Priest Kings have studied and understood the physical attributes
in a female which the men of Gor find pleasing. We will engineer you to
have the long legs, the big breasts and the facial features found in
the women that men prize most highly."
There is a pause and he confirms, "Every effort must be made to make
you irresitable to human males, if you are to gain the attention of
Kurtz himself."
I nod. I am free to nod, free to question, free to think. At the moment
I am a free man. I have lived and experienced life as a man. I have
known the pleasures of women. It is being proposed that I will become
the pleasurable woman.
"Your red hair is unusual, especially for those lands near the jungle
where the women normally have darker colouring, and this would also add
to your auction value," he continues.
"The hair colour, we shall retain. Finally we shall regenerate a
younger body than your current one, so you are at the most desirable
age - a young adult."
He actually said "auction." We are emotionlessly discussing how I would
be sold at slave auction, no different to an object or a cow.
I look to the rest of our group for comment or support.
Still accompanying me on the laboratory tour are the two other men, and
the girl. They are mostly silent, but I sense their eyes are on me
constantly, waiting for the moment when I come to my senses and reject
the entire proposal.
I must appear more alien than the Priest King to them for having failed
to decline already.
Misk's mission would change me forever into a female, giving up all the
benefits of being a man in a man's world. It would be unthinkable to a
Gorean male to accept the drop in social status resulting from a gender
change.
But this man of Urth, he goes even further. They can see is
contemplating a task so demeaning it makes him even more
incomprehensible to them - becoming a female and willingly walking into
slavery.
And yet here the man of Urth stands, debating the surrender of every
last part of his masculinity and his dignity. What feeble creatures
Urth men must be.
Our group discussed the mission in more detail before commencing the
tour.
The proposed plan is that wearing my new vulnerable body I would be
transported close to the Schendi jungle and then travel through the
territories patrolled by Kurtz's men. They are likely to capture such
tempting live bait, in the event of which I will save my life by
submitting in the manner of women.
Accompanying me safely to the jungle will have to be Rorius and
Telisio. Once I'm female I'll be unable to travel alone and without a
protective escort. The two men will abandon me at the point of capture
and attempt to escape with their lives.
If Kurtz's men accept my submission, I would be taken into his
compound, as a slave. No one in our discussion expresses that as a
desirable woman in this situation, I am likely to be raped, but we all
know that would be a probable fate.
Female captives also need to be checked for hidden weapons as well,
which is achieved on Gor by the simple method of stripping the
prisoner. So as a prize to be exhibited, I would probably march into
Kurtz's compound naked.
I know all this, and yet, the man of Urth has still to refuse. Waiting
for the inevitable rejection, the two men of Gor watch me.
Once enslaved, I am likely to be branded. Even if I survive the mission
to get back to my reward on Urth, my female self will never wear a
bikini. It would be a humiliating conversation explaining a brandius
scar at the poolside. But that is the least of my worries.
The horror looming in front of me is suffering the training and
treatment of a slave girl, as has been the fate of Kurtz's other
captives. It is at this point that the previous female agents have
broken, submitting deeply to his will. The thin hope of the mission is
that my remaining shreds of masculine nature will give me the strength
to maintain some sense of my former identity.
Inside the compound, I will be expected to act on my own initiative on
behalf of the Priest Kings. Ideally I am to return Kurtz to the service
of the Sardar, but if he is forever lost my orders are to take
appropriate steps.
For my whole life I've been preparing to serve the Priest Kings, but
now I have a mission it's the last thing I could have wanted - serving
the sexual pleasures of Kurtz and his men as they see fit, solely to
find out if he's loyal or traitor.
I look out the window of the laboratory, and my heart catches at the
magnificence of the mountains. This is such a breathtakingly beautiful
world, though. Do I not owe it to Gor to sacrifice myself to save it?
While I ponder, I continue to think about the future that might lie
before me.
Inside Kurtz" compound, the captivity phase of my mission may be of
some months" duration.
Once my owners are satisfied or tired of my presence, they will send me
to stand on one of the auction blocks to be sold. Agents of the Priest
Kings will be watching the slave markets across Gor armed with my
description - an unusually beautiful girl with dark red hair, marked
with a brandius flower.
Only then will I be re-purchased and returned to the Sardar Mountains.
If I have been well trained, I am likely to be expensive.
There is much that can go wrong. Even if I survive the transformation
process, there will be plenty of other stages where I could be killed.
I might be accidentally killed in the raid by Kurtz men. Slave girls
are sometimes put to death as a punishment for failing to satisfy their
masters. And yet, the man of Urth is still contemplating this
dishonour.
"What will happen to me after the mission?" I ask. "I can't return to
my former life on Urth, looking like a young woman."
"Suitable arrangements will be made to reward financially reward you
and re-integrate you into society, whether you chose to remain on Gor
as a female, or return to Urth," Misk says. "But no, you won't be able
to return to your former existence."
My future destination is not a difficult choice. I am hardly likely to
choose remaining on Gor as a female. There are two roles for Gorean
women - the Free Woman, robed and veiled like the Arabian women on
Urth, repressed and shut away in their families" houses; or the slave
girl, a piece of property to serve as her owners wish.
But the life of a beautiful woman on Earth might be a desirable reward.
I visualise myself as a supermodel, lying on a tropical beach. The idea
my beauty attracting someone rich is not even completely abhorrent to
me. There is so much I need to consider.
"After my transition, would I leave immediately on the mission?"
"No," states Misk. "When you are revived, you will need some time to
learn to move in your new body. You must have the natural grace and
demeanour as if you've always been a woman. You must conduct yourself
as would a woman in Gorean culture. Tala here will serve you until you
leave the Sardar, training you to behave as a female."
The slave girl nods her head in acceptance. I know she will do her very
best, both because she serves the Priest Kings, and because she is
slave. That is how I learn her name - "Tala'. It is a pretty name.
I study Tala again, the direction of the conversation giving me
opportunity to watch her.
What might it be like to live as such a creature? I feel pity, and
desire, and jealousy, and hunger, and fear, for her experience of the
world. Would it be wondrous, or horrific?
She is beautiful, but the Kurii would view her flesh as nothing more
than a delicacy. Does she not deserve my courage?
It is the sight of Tala that resolves me.
"My answer is yes."
It is out before I know it. I surprise myself, but not as much as I
surprise the two men whose mouths hang slack.
Some kind of emotion is building in me, and I know I have to say it
again before I change my mind, so I do.
"Yes, I accept the mission," I repeat, more firmly.
The laboratory is silent. Even Tala looks astonished. The men's
expressions show part respect for my courage, part contempt that I walk
so willingly into slavery.
After almost an ehn, a Gorean minute has elapsed, I feel obliged to
speak.
"Do we begin immediately?" I ask.
"We will need some time to prepare," Misk answers hesitantly, as if not
even the Priest King was expecting me to accept.
"The process will begin tomorrow. Tonight you may reflect on your
decision. You may change your mind tomorrow if you wish, and Priest
Kings will accept this."
"What will I be named?" I ask suddenly. "I can't be called Aurius."
It's a ridiculous question, but it is important to me. Someone's name
means everything to them. I remember that slaves often have their names
removed.
The two Gorean men confer, but it is Tala who asks for permission to
speak.
"Aurore is a name from my region, Masters," she says softly, "and is a
little like Aurius'.
We all feel it - a sense of rightness.
"Yes, that is a good name - Aurore," says Telisio, looking at me
appraisingly and repeating the name as if tasting it.
The matter is settled. Tomorrow I will become Aurore of the Sardar.
3 - The pleasures of a Man's life
I have been meandering the corridors of the Nest, carrying a flagon of
spiced wine. I am drunk. I am very drunk. If my body's cells will be
replaced tomorrow, my hangover will leave with them, so I might as well
enjoy myself.
Loudly I sing the songs of my homeland - Beatles, Springsteen. No one
interrupts me.
I reach the door of my own quarters. It is unlocked - there is no need
for security inside the Nest, so I enter. Inside, a small oil lamp has
been lit, and emits a warm, pleasing yellow glow that casts flickering
shadows.
A sound alerts me that my room is already occupied.
I look to the source and see my sleeping area. The girl, Tala, lies in
my furs.
I understand immediately.
I have been gifted with one final night of male pleasure, like a groom
before his wedding. It is the lamp of love that shines off Tala's skin.
She lies there with only her torso covered by the fur - hiding an area
from thigh to under her arms.
Approaching closer to her bare legs I see a steel bracelet is locked
around her bare left ankle. From it runs a long chain, ending in a
floor ring at the foot of the bed. There is plenty of slack - Tala can
move almost entirely about the room, and yet she is chained, and she
cannot leave.
It is not untypical to secure slaves for the night in this manner. Even
the most trusted will be left in some restraint, so they never forget
they are slaves. This is Tala's fate. She has been left shackled in a
man's room, so he may do with her as he wishes.
My heart has started beating more quickly. I am that man.
I have the morality of a man of Earth, and when I see her there in my
furs I intend to respect Tala as a sentient female. I know she will not
have been asked her consent to lie with me. But then she sits up and
the fur covering slips to her waist, bearing her breasts, and my will
dissolves.
Priest Kings, this kajira has a nice body.
I now see bare skin right down to where her thigh joins her hip. She
must be naked under the fur coverings.
Her flesh calls out for my touch. Desire ignites in me, but also a
moment of doubt. Could the Priest Kings really be able to dress me in a
body as beautiful as hers?
"Master," Tala says humbly, "let me please you."
I hesitate.
"Do you want this?" I ask her. If ever in my life I've been handed a
"sure thing" this is it, but the Urth man in my nature just can't take
her without some sign of consent from the girl.
"Please Master," Tala says, and that's enough answer for my libido to
overcome any moral objections.
Decisive, I pull back the fur to leave her completely exposed to me.
She gasps, but makes no attempt to cover herself.
I feel a primal link to men through time, wanting to make love to the
female, wanting to possess her.
My blood starts to rise.
It only takes me a moment to slip from my simple Gorean tunic.
Meanwhile Tala moves sensuously on the furs, positioning herself with
one arm above her head and her right knee drawn up. She is breathing
heavily.
This arousal in women is known to Goreans as "slave heat'.
I climb onto my furs, towering over her, dominant.
With my blood pounding I run my hands freely over her body. As I run my
palms over her breasts she arches her back to press herself more
completely into me and groans softly. I am reminded that soon I will
have breasts, just as she does.
My desire is too urgent to hold back for long, so gently I part her
thighs, before mounting her and swiftly spearing into her depths. She
is not faking her own arousal, and I penetrate her easily. The shadow
from lamplight copies our movements - the male silhouette thrusting
dominantly over the passive female.
Throughout our coupling I experience a double awareness, thinking part
as the man having sex with a beautiful girl, and in part imagining
myself as the girl.
This sense is especially intense when I grip her thigh and feel the
scarred flesh where she's been branded. I've never had this experience
before during lovemaking, and the reason is known to me.
It may be only a little time before I also am in her position,
desperate to please, and a master's touch reminds me of the mark on my
own thigh.
I can see Tala is trying to be as pleasurable as she possibly can be,
timing her movements to match mine, and moving her body to keep the
most contact. But what arouses me more than her subservience is seeing
the desire in Tala, the fulfilment her own body craves from mine.
This is a woman truly abandoning herself to her inner slave. Perhaps
some of the Gorean beliefs about the nature of the female are true.
When the end comes, the moment is exquisite, and I can see from her
closed eyes and tensed body that the girl gains almost as much pleasure
as I do.
Afterwards I am not tired, so I lie on my back, the nude girl draped
across me.
Tenderly I caress her bare back, tracing lines down her spine from the
collar at the nape of her neck to the cleft of her buttocks. She has
such beautiful round, feminine buttocks.
Now the male drive for possession and sating of desire has been
satisfied, I can feel protective and tender towards her. I wish to try
and understand her life, so I start to speak.
"How many men have you been with, Tala?"
Her body stiffens for a moment as she thinks, and then she admits, "I
don't know, Master. Too many to remember easily."
I feel pity for her at this.
"Do you hate us, hate men, for making you do this?"
That question seems to puzzle her, and she lifts her head.
"Can this girl ask why it should matter to Master?"
I consider telling the truth.
A Gorean man would consider what has just happened between us a
completely natural act, with nothing reprehensible. But a man from
Earth schooled in modern feminist lore would define what just happened
as "exploitation of the vulnerable party in an unequal power
distribution relationship'.
I need her to absolve my conscience, but I reply with another question.
"When I too am a woman, will you resent me for using you like this?"
Tala's laugh is warm and rich, without malice.
"The men of Urth think so differently," she marvels, amused. "Tala will
not resent the Master when the Master becomes the Mistress. Tala is not
vindictive."
"Serving as a woman can be very pleasurable - Master won't understand
until he experiences it for himself, but it is true. In slavery there
is the freedom to express one self completely. There is no shame for
the slave in yielding to pleasure, because the slave has no other
choice."
I must seem unconvinced, because she adds, "I was trapped as a free
woman. I was of the scribes, but my tasks were unfulfilling. My life
was empty and without purpose. I would not return to it, even if I were
set free."
"How did you become a slave?" I ask.
She smiles again.
"A tarnsman - one of those exceptional men who rides the giant
predatory birds, snatched me from one of the towers in my city. It was
very romantic really - he risked his life, just because he wanted to
capture a female for his own."
"I was his first - a rite of passage into manhood. In front of the
people of his house, I was stripped and collared. It was one of the
most intense moments of my life. I will never forget it."
Tarnsmen are riders of eagle-like creatures. It takes a powerful alpha-
male to tame one of the creatures enough to fly it. I can imagine the
experience of capture by one such as him being overwhelming.
"I think he had some affection for me," Tala says. "When eventually I
was to be sold on, he made sure I was traded to a merchant that trained
and sold the highest quality slaves. The next man who bought me from
the merchant was an agent of the Priest Kings. I don't not what made
him choose me over the other girls for sale, but that's what happened."
"In a sack, I was transported here, to the Sardar."
Gently I caress the sweet curves of her rump.
"And you really wouldn't want to be free again?" I ask.
"My current status seems right to me," she says. "I am meant to be a
slave, and please others. Other women might not be the same, but I have
been taught that it is my nature, and pleasure comes from accepting and
fulfilling one's nature."
To prove her point she moves her body against me, and it is the blatant
animal movement of a slave girl attempting to arouse her master.
My blood starts to rise again.
I kiss her once, tenderly, and then with my superior strength I easily
flip her onto her back. Quickly I'm on top of her, straddling her and
showering her with more kisses.
"Then please me, slave," I command in a gentle voice, and we lose
ourselves in the flickering light of the lamp.
(HERE)
4 - Aurius makes a final visit to the laboratory
"We Priest Kings offer you a last opportunity to change your mind,"
Misk says to me.
I shake my head.
"I do what is needed to serve," I reply boldly.
"Then remove your clothing," Misk requests. "There must be no other
matter in the tube."
I comply, undressing as quickly as I'd done with Tala the night before.
For the first time since we've met she wears more than me - standing in
the laboratory in her short slave's camisk, whereas I am nude.
Between my legs I am aware of the weight of a penis that last night
penetrated her. Last night it was the focus of my masculine power. This
morning it hangs limp and useless against my dark red pubic hair.
I asked Tala to accompany me until the end of my time as Aurius,
craving the presence of someone who felt an emotional connection to me.
I feel the touch of her hand for a moment, and know she made the
contact deliberately. My heart fills with protective affection towards
this wonderful girl.
This morning I awoke as she humbly prepared a simple breakfast of bread
and water. The long chain still ran from Tala's ankle bracelet to the
foot of my bed.
I did not have the key - the person who left her there had to release
her, a slave master who arrived later in the morning.
Eating was a pointless activity for me - my stomach was about to be
rebuilt, but I was hungry and I ate more to relieve the monster
headache that pierced my skull.
My head still pounds like it is being squeezed between the jaws of a
thalarion, and I feel nauseous.
Death today might not be such a bad thing.
Of the Gorean men, only Telisio is present in the laboratory. I have a
fine muscular body and I'm in excellent physical shape, but all the
same it is humiliating standing here nude.
Being publically naked is not a good thing for either gender in this
society. Except for when lovemaking, clothing is an indicator of
status.
It will not matter after today.
I take one last look at my male body - the wide musculature on my
thighs; my narrow hips; my strong hands; my powerful arms; my large
feet; and I mentally say goodbye to it all.
I lift my hand to my face and touch the familiar contours - stubble; a
heavy brow; and a broad chin.
Male slaves, also dressed in more than me even though they only wear
loincloths, are preparing the apparatus.
They mutely manoeuvre a glass bottle of a pale pink chemical into
position, connecting it to the clear tube with a narrow pipe.
Pink for a girl, perhaps?
I am nervous. The odds are in my favour 70%, Misk had said, but all the
same - I might meet my death in that cylinder.
"The liquid is highly oxygenated," Misk tells me. "You will be able to
breathe the fluid when the tube is full. It will keep your cells alive,
even when only your brain remains. They can take oxygen and nutrients
directly from the liquid."
"Then the active components in the fluid will re-write your human DNA,
to transform you into a female."
"I have to breathe that in?" I ask.
The liquid slops around in the container. It will feel like drowning
when I inhale it.
I am not anticipating this with relish. I look for distractions - any
distractions. I glace at Tala but she has tears in her eyes. She mourns
me already. Watching her won't help.
A question has occurred to me since our discussion of my mission. I ask
it now.
"I assume my new body will be sterile," I say. "It would not do for the
agent of the Priest Kings to become pregnant in Kurtz compound."
The device that transposes Misk's communications manages to convey that
I am mistaken.
"You will be fertile, as any other female might be," Misk corrects me.
"If you were sterile, it might draw attention in an examination by the
caste of physicians."
My stomach rolls at this new information. I could get knocked up?
Seriously? They tried to avoid warning me about that.
"Then before we leave the Sardar I can drink the Gorean slave wine
given to pleasure females, to prevent them becoming pregnant?"
"Negative," Misk says again. "Free women do not drink slave wine, and
it would attract attention. If you are impregnated, we shall manage the
child according to your wishes later."
I look at Tala as that news sinks in, and find myself wondering if
she's drunk that wine. If not, I might have got her pregnant last
night.
A child would be Aurius" immortal legacy in the world. It would be a
child I should be supporting, protecting, but I am abandoning the
masculine role.
I feel a sense of loss and regret for what I might be leaving behind.
But it is too late. The male slaves have already completed their
preparation and are stepping back, ready to open the valves that flood
the cylinder.
"We are ready. Please get into the tube," Misk instructs me.
"What is the active ingredient in the chemical?" Telisio asks.
He has been all but ignoring me as I stand, naked and nervous, but the
question is perhaps to create a delay and give me a little longer.
I half listen to the answers, too pumped with adrenaline for my brain
to function logically.
Misk's reply is well beyond my understanding, but Telisio nods as if
following the explanation easily. The primitive weapons available on
Gor make it easy to forget that some elements of their civilisation are
far more advanced than our world.
There is no point putting this off. Aurius of London has only one task
left for to complete.
Kneeling and then leaning forward, thrusting my butt out with a
complete loss of dignity, I crawl naked into the tube.
At my feet, the end piece is pushed into place, and I hear it being
sealed. The sounds from the laboratory abruptly mute - voices in
conversation changing to muffled murmurs.
There is an unpleasant claustrophobic sensation. I have no means of
opening the tube from the inside, so I am trapped. I am powerless.
There is no going back.
The clear sides of the tube show me a distorted vision of the
laboratory, from the level of the floor. I shift to a more comfortable
position lying on my side and look up, watching the lucky ones outside.
Several minutes pass.
Then there is the sound of a valve opening, and the pink liquid begins
to flow in - first a tiny puddle in the base of the tube that wets my
flank, then an inch, then a level climbing so a good proportion of my
body is submerged.
Where it touches me, it tingles like an abrasive kiss. When the level
reaches my genitals they react to this physical contact, and shamefully
I start to grow aroused.
The liquid starts to slop around my face. I have to turn my head to
find the gap where there is still air. I know this is futile, and I'll
inhale the liquid eventually, but my instinct for survival is too
strong. I've never been someone to accept defeat.
Then the tube is completely filled. Panic overcomes the rational and I
scrabble at the lid like an animal to try and escape.
I have held my breath, but my lungs are starting to burn. On the other
side of the clear tube, Tala is crouched down, sympathetically touching
her hand against the glass. She is speaking, perhaps urging me to
breathe in, but I cannot hear her.
The liquid fills my ears, and all I can here is the desperate pounding
of Aurius" heart.
My body betrays me. Without warning my lungs inhale, and the fluid is
everywhere. I think am choking, but after a moment of white hot terror
I realise I am not.
I begin to calm. Cautiously I expand and contract my chest a few times,
and discover I can breathe, and I can breathe almost as easily as I
could in air.
I'm alive for now, but the fluid is having a new effect. I'm starting
to grow drowsy, even though the tingling touch of the chemical is
everywhere on me now.
Fighting the urge to sleep I watch my skin starting to peel, floating
away as if I have severe eczema. There is no pain.
I make the diver's "Okay" sign, and then remember it will be
meaningless to a Gorean.
I can't resist any longer. This might be my last moment of life, but so
be it.
Giving in to sleep and letting my consciousness start to dissolve in
the liquid, I reach between my legs and cup my aroused manhood in my
hands, bidding it goodbye.
5 - Aurore of the Sardar
It is not a pleasant way to awaken. Liquid floods from the tube, and I
choke, retching to discharge the fluid from my lungs and replace it
with life giving air.
My diaphragm battles to draw in oxygen but my chest feels glued shut.
It's no good. I can't breathe.
I start to panic. I see bright light and intense colours, but
everything is out of focus.
Then I heave up another puddle of liquid, my ribcage functioning for
just enough time to take in one giant sweet gulp of life giving air,
before that action triggers more uncontrollable coughing and once more
I cannot inhale.
I become sentient about where I am, and what led me to be here. I am in
the Priest King's laboratory.
It appears I have survived. In addition, there is no need for anyone to
tell me if the transformation has been successful - I can already hear
it in the high pitch of my coughs.
I am lying on my side in the tube, but before I have time to reflect
further on my position someone lifts and tips the cylinder, making me
slide down the slick surface and spill onto the laboratory floor.
It's getting easier and easier to breathe, and I'm feeling calmer.
The noise I emit has become a series of regular moans, something
between the sound of a woman crying and the sound of her lovemaking,
instead of the strangled chokes.
"Clean her," commands the electronic voice of a Priest King. Each one
of the aliens uses these electronic voice boxes, and yet this one still
sounds like Misk.
Warm water pours over me, one bucketful and then a second, and a moment
later a third. It is clear pure water, not the slick chemical soup
where I've spent eternity. I feel purged, and the washing helps my
vision to clear.
My face is uncomfortably against the laboratory floor, resting on a
grille of holes designed to allow liquid to drain away, so I try to
push my shoulders up, lifting my upper body away from the surface.
Arm muscles that have never been used before shake, and I feel weak.
As I raise my head a thick heavy curtain falls across my face to block
my view, soaking wet, and matted into bootlace strands. I understand
this is my new hair. It's the same beautiful russet colour as it was
before, but it's much, much longer.
"We need to know that her mind has not been damaged by the process," I
hear a man say, a human voice this time.
I am able to look up and see the one called Rorius is standing and
watching me with his arms folded.
"Do you understand who you are?" says the Priest King.
I track to see the source of the sound and see that it is indeed Misk.
I try to speak.
"I am Aurius of London," I begin to say, but that is the wrong
response. I correct myself.
"I am Aurore of the Sardar."
I get my first experience of a new kind of fear when I hear my own
words, and I hesitate half way through the sentence.
Oh dear, that sounds like a sexy voice. Is it really mine?
I've awoken with a sultry, soprano drawl, Marilyn Monroe whispering
"happy birthday, Mister President'. I'm stuck with that? Priest Kings
save me, I'm gonna get eaten alive just for opening my mouth. How bad
do I look?
Glancing back down to the tiles, I see for myself.
My hands and forearms are before me, propping my upper body away from
the floor. The limbs are long and thin, forearms as slender and
delicate as my new hands.
These are woman's arms - girl's arms. No one would look at these limbs
and believe for a second I'm a male in disguise. The Priest King's
process has transformed me completely.
I now have skin that is smooth and hairless - a girl's skin.
The new female fingers I am looking at lack the grip and strength to
wield a warrior's sword, but their soft caress might be a different
defence. And my arms are so slim. Those wrists were once far too thick
for the binders designed to secure a female slave, but I note that now,
such restraints would fit me perfectly.
Don't panic, I tell myself. This is all expected - it's part of the
mission.
And then I see my breasts.
They hang down like luscious ripe fruit, the fruit that is to men,
life's sweetest temptation.
My breasts are big and full, pert with youth and inviting. They are
porn star breasts. I've never even seen a chest like this on a real
life woman, and now, for life, they are mine.
Symmetrically positioned are my big nipples, nipples that are now part
of my erogenous zones. Cooled by the liquid, they're erect. They are
big, sensitive, islands of rose pink amidst the pale skin that goes
with a typical redhead's complexion.
Oh, shit. No one will resist breasts such as these. And they're
attached to me for life. I cannot escape them.
It's not a comfortable position, staring at my boobs from half way into
a push-up, so I twist my lower body until I'm lying on my side, hip
pressing into the floor, knee slightly drawn up.
As I move I feel the weight of the new globes at my chest shifting and
swaying.
Oh, shit.
No, I'm just a soldier on mission, I tell myself. Don't panic and
assess your situation.
My raised upper body is now propped more comfortably on one arm.
This oil-painting pose accentuates the wide, childbearing hips of the
nubile woman.
Whichever way I look, I see a body that's utterly female.
Above those hips my waist is hourglass slim. Below, the uppermost of my
new exquisitely long legs is draped over the other, hiding my genitals.
My penis will be gone unless something went wrong. My pussy will be
there now.
I'm about to lift my knee and examine myself, when I hear Misk speak.
"Has it been successful?" the Priest King asks. "Does her new form look
desirable?"
There is a male chuckle. Not the shy, repressed noise of a man of Urth
- this is the deep laugh of a Gorean man, someone who was never raised
to conceal his appreciation of beauty.
There is a human male in the laboratory - the younger human male called
Telisio.
"Now there," he says staring straight at me, "is a fine looking woman."
Only then do I realise that the entire time since awakening I've been a
nude girl in the presence of men.
Quickly tell myself, "don't be embarrassed, this is just the mission'.
Soldiers often have to be naked in front of other men. It's not a big
deal. It's not even my body, really. What does it matter if these men
see it?
All the same, I have already angled my free arm across my breasts as an
instinctive effort to hide myself. I want to come to terms with this
female flesh on my own, before half of the Sardar enjoys a look.
It turns out I'm not the only one who thinks that way.
"Cover her nakedness," Rorius says, and his voice is filled with
contempt for me, as if I'm a tavern slut flaunting herself, rather than
a recovering patient waking from an operation.
So Rorius is here too.
From behind someone lays a robe over my body. There is only a brief
contact of the hand, but I can tell it's a girl. I look back with
gratitude and see the slave Tala is the final occupant of the
laboratory.
Quickly I draw the fabric around me, shrinking back into it, fastening
the tie around my new hourglass waist.
The robe is like a monk's cowl from Urth - ankle length and long
sleeved, with a loose hood for the head. It covers me almost
completely, but nowhere near as much as the robes of concealment I'll
soon be expected to wear in public.
Free women do not show their bodies under any circumstances, not on
this planet.
I can't help recalling my mission, and the purpose for the Priest Kings
bringing about this incredible transformation. While my female body is
clothed now, the next man to see me naked is likely to be my captor.
"Try to stand, Lady Aurore," Misk requests.
My new title sounds very strange to me.
Awkwardly, I comply. The robe parts as I move my ankles, and I flash
bare leg up to my knee.
Then I almost overbalance. I'm not prepared for the weight distribution
of my new body - the mass of my swinging breasts means the centre of
gravity is further forward than a muscular male upper body. It will
take me some time to learn to be graceful.
The length of Aurore's exquisite legs has not been lost on me, but all
the same on my feet, I notice the men are both now taller than I am.
The height difference gives them an air of authority.
I hold my head up and look directly at them. No-one is going to
intimidate me.
Standing in my robe, I am studied. Only my bare feet are exposed, and
my face is uncovered, but I feel self-conscious. Even Tala seems to be
appraising me as a woman.
"She is undamaged by the transformation," Misk says, discussing me as
if I'm not there. "As you deem her suitably desirable, then she is
satisfactory. When will she be ready for the next stage?"
"I suggest no more than a few days," replies Telisio. "She must have
enough time to learn to move naturally in her new body, but not enough
for her mind to start thinking as a female does."
"The men of Urth all think like females," scoffs Rorius, and I feel my
anger begin to flare.
"It must be a man in a female body that falls captive," continues
Telisio, ignoring him. "We don't know how quickly the female hormones
in her body will begin to change her behaviour. She must remain
aggressive and strong willed."
"I have only a few days?" I question in my new high voice. A few days
is not long enough to come to terms with being a woman before I am
dispatched into slavery.
But the matter appears to be agreed.
"Come, to my rooms. Let us make our plans," Misk says, and the men turn
from me, following the alien insect.
I am moving behind them when Rorius turns back to me with an expression
of displeasure, and I realise that I'm not to be included in their
group.
My anger rises further.
"Are you shutting me out of this because I'm now a woman?" I ask
incredulously. "I'm a member of this team too."
"If you're to convince as a native female of this world, you need to
start learning your new place," Rorius declares.
"He does have a slight point," Telisio interrupts, stemming the growing
argument. "What is to be done with her until we depart for the
Schendi?"
"She courts the collar," Rorius says with contempt. "If I had my way
she would be housed in the kennels with the other slaves... But I
grudgingly accept that she does need some schooling in behaviour."
Courting the collar - they describe me with the derogatory phrase for a
free woman who deliberately seeks slavery. The insult stings, because
it is true.
"Lady Aurore has not submitted," Misk says, closing the debate. "She
will be treated as would any other free woman of the house of Rorius."
"A free women in my house would not move around unveiled," Rorius says,
not pleased at my being attached to his name, and despite the
unpleasant way he says it, I must concede he is correct.
Addressing the slave girl, he instructs, "Tala, take the lady Aurore to
her new quarters. Show her how to dress with decency and how to conduct
herself. She will remain there until we send for her."
Given the risks I'm taking for the service of the Priest Kings, and the
sacrifices I'm making, I had expected to emerge from my tube to be
treated as a hero, or rather a heroine. At the very least I expected
human respect.
As Rorius finishes delivering his instructions I realise I have been
foolish in this assumption. Goreans have very fixed views of gender, so
from now on I can expect to be treated not as a hero, but as a woman.
There is much to reflect on, so I am silent as I follow camisk-clad
Tala to the women's rooms in the house of Rorius.
Aurore of the Sardar will be shut in her rooms to await orders, whereas
Tala the slave can move freely about the nest. Until there is a collar
around my neck, I am more of a captive than she is.
6 - I enter the women's quarters
On our way to my new rooms, we pass a man striding along a corridor, a
stranger to me, and he halts to stare at me blatantly.
Clutching my robe protectively around me, I blush and pick up my pace,
experiencing for the first time the appraisal of a Gorean male of a
Gorean female.
This man doesn't know me as Aurius, so his treatment of me is another
portent for the rest of my life. He shows open appreciation, as if
there is nothing wrong with a man staring at a woman. But I can see he
is also puzzled at seeing a female clad as I am.
It is true I am giving off mixed signals.
There is no collar around my neck, and yet my face is stripped, as bare
as my feet, in a fashion only a low caste peasant girl would tolerate.
The silk wrap is also tight about me, showing my figure rather than
concealing it. My outfit would be considered demure by Earth standards,
but wanton for a free woman of Gor.
I have never felt so exposed in my life.
"Lady," he says with a slight tone of questioning.
I am not walking like a lady, but trying to move as Aurius would have
done, with my feet further apart. This is wrong for my new proportions,
but I feel self conscious keeping my ankles closer together in a
feminine sashay.
We hurry past, and I can't turn to see if he's still watching me
without making my interest obvious.
There are no further encounters, but it is with some relief we reach
the safety of my new quarters.
They are entered from the rooms of Rorius, so a heavy wooden door from
his living area leads to the personal space allocated for Aurore. A
small ante-room is inside this entrance, with an archway leading to my
sleeping and robing area.
Such ante-rooms are not uncommon in Gorean architecture. They allow
males of the house to wait there as the females robes themselves.
The space I occupied as Aurius of London had a balcony with a superb
panoramic view over the canyon that the Priest Kings chose for their
nest - better than the Grand Canyon and the Angel Falls combined.
Lady Aurore's room has a narrow window like a slot, and all I can see
is a band of blue sky and some dry rocks. I comment on the loss to Tala
and she shrugs.
"You are a prize now, Mistress. A tarnsman could take you from a
balcony. These measures are for your protection."
"An enemy tarnsman? Here in the Sardar?" I ask.
"It is not unknown." Tala replies.
The wooden door to the ante-room is heavy, but there is no lock or bar
on the inside I can drop to guarantee my security.
"What happens if a man comes in?" I ask a little nervously.
"This is the women's quarters of Rorius," Tala says. "Only he is
permitted to enter, or slaves, or other free women. The outer door to
the rooms of Rorius will be guarded. That is sufficient."
I don't really want Rorius walking in on me, but apparently a Gorean
man is the master of his household. He may go where he wishes.
Tala tries to reassure me.
"When alone in their private rooms free women wear lighter robes, like
the one you have now," she says. "It is acceptable for you to be
dressed like this in your private quarters, although you should be
fully robed and veiled before any other men but Rorius, and as soon as
you exit through the door."
"This is my sanctuary, then," I say, looking around again.
There are almost no personal effects in here. I realise that is because
most of my belongings were linked to my masculinity.
Women don't wear male clothes; my former sword I could barely lift now;
and I have no need for a saddle or reins for a tarn. Everything that
was of Aurius is lost.
These quarters are furnished for feminine concerns. Dominating my new
room is a full length mirror, bolted into the wall and surrounded by a
simple wooden frame.
Being so near that mirror makes me desperate to examine myself, and to
have the chance to come to terms with my new female body alone. I
resolve that that is what I intend to do.
"Leave me for a while," I say to Tala, almost pleadingly. "I need a
moment to reflect on everything that happened."
"As you command Mistress," she says. "Tala is ordered to fetch you
clothing suitable for receiving visitors your private rooms, and the
robes of concealment to wear in public, so she will return in thirty
ehn."
Thirty ehn - the Gorean minute that is longer than the Earth one.
Tala gives a slightly curtsey to me, and says, "I humbly advise
Mistress not to leave her rooms alone from now on. You are not safe
without an escort."
It is sensible advice, but disheartening. The last night I remember, I
reeled through the Nest as drunk as a lord. Now, I can't step outside
my door.
"You're kind to me," I say gratefully, only to see her look confused.
Slaves are not kind, slaves obey, and free women do not show gratitude
to slaves. I have made a mistake.
After curtseying for a second time, Tala leaves.
I watch her depart through the ante-room, but the moment the door has
closed behind her, I reach down to my new tiny waistline.
I unfasten the robe and after opening it to bare my magnificent
breasts, I slip it back off my shoulders so it puddles at my feet.
Taking a deep breath, I step up to the mirror, and see my first full
length view of Aurore of the Sardar.
The groan I emit then sounds sexual. The Priest Kings have done their
work too well.
My mind is unchanged by the transformation, so as I stare at the naked
form the girl in the mirror I appraise her as would a heterosexual
male. She takes my breath away. Every red-blooded man on Gor will want
to possess this girl.
I know now that I am truly doomed.
My hair is the same deep red as before, almost the colour of red wine.
They have lengthened it while I was in the tube, so I can feel it brush
against the small of my back. Currently it is loose about my shoulders
and still a little damp from my soaking in the tube, so it hangs down
in perfectly straight rat's tails.
The contrast of that dark hair only makes my alabaster skin look even
more pale, skin that is utterly perfect. It is tight; a young girl's
skin, with a texture like velvet or silk.
I'm so free of moles or blemishes that I could be a marble statue.
Aurore has been crafted a supermodel's face, with a fine jawline,
delicate high cheekbones and a cute nose. My lips are full and pouting,
making me look sensuous and waiting to kiss.
I part them slightly, and see white evenly spaced teeth.
Her eyes are the same steel blue that gives me character, but they look
larger in relation to my face, and thick curving eyelashes add to the
new aura of vulnerable beauty.
If I feel doomed by possessing such a beautiful face, when I look down
at my body my heart sinks further.
Her limbs are long and slender - I have ridiculously long legs, legs
made to wrap around men or move like liquid performing the erotic
dances of slaves.
My slim wrists and ankles look, to Gorean male eyes, meant for binders
or bells. Men would say Aurore's limbs are wasted under the robes of
concealment - I have slave limbs.
Turning my knee gracefully I can see that the flesh on my right thigh,
my perfect, succulent, lithe right thigh, is clean - I try to imagine
that skin marked for life with a brand. Would it spoil the line of
flesh or enhance the beauty?
I'm not entirely sure, and that uncertainty makes me nervous.
Next, I return to examining my chest, as I'd done in the laboratory.
In my standing position, my breasts look just as pneumatic as they did
when I was on the floor.
They're unusually large in relation to my slender ribcage. Whatever
robes she wears, nothing is going to hide that Aurore has a female body
shape when she's stuck carrying th