"Everyone's staring at me again," Jessica moaned, relaxing back into her
chair.
"Staring at US," Paige said. "And let them stare. Nothing they can do
about it, they can hardly throw us off the plane now, can they?"
"God knows there are people who'd want to," Jessica replied. "America
may have legalized gay marriage, but that doesn't mean everyone in
America agrees with the Supreme Court."
"It's still the land of the free," Paige retorted. "And I for one am
glad to be going back there. Will be nice to see it before Donald Fart
gets his hands on it, anyway..." Jessica giggled and straightened her
sheer black pantyhose underneath her slender black skirt, before
gripping her armrests for support as the vast jet plane thundered down
the runway at Heathrow Airport, bearing the American girl back to her
homeland for the first time in ten months.
Natalie smirked as she rummaged through her jewellery box, carefully
examining every ostentatious earring she came across before returning it
to the box, infuriating her lover more and more with every passing
second.
"Mon dieu," Zoe moaned as she tied her hair into a playful updo. "You're
going to the cinema, no one will be able to see your earrings anyway!"
"We're going with celebrities," Natalie retorted. "That means that
there'll be paparazzi there, and that means that EVERYONE will see my
earrings. I need to make just the right impression..."
"You're wearing a short, low-cut dress and fishnet stockings in the
middle of winter," Zoe chuckled. "Impression made!"
"And 6 inch platform stilettos," Natalie reminded her lover.
"Opportunities like this don't come along every day..." Natalie laughed
as she pulled a pair of long silver earrings from her jewellery box and
pushed them into her earlobes, giggling happily at the feeling of the
mental gently brushing her neck and making a soft rustling sound with
every step she took.
"Gorgeous and girly," Zoe giggled as Natalie did an elegant twirl for
her. "Want to borrow my lipstick?"
"You know I do," Natalie said with a smile, taking Zoe's still-warm
lipstick and applying layer after layer of it to her own mouth. "Mmm...
second hand kisses!"
"Now how about a first hand kiss?" Zoe giggled, kissing Natalie deeply
and letting their blood-red lipstick mingle.
"We'll have to leave it at one," Natalie sighed. "Don't want 'him'
getting excited, not when I'm wearing a cache. Now come on, Luke
Skywalker awaits!" Zoe giggled as she followed Natalie down to the
flat's living room, where their flatmate Annabelle was waiting for them,
herself dressed in an elegant knee-length grey dress, sheer black
stockings and stiletto heels just as high as Natalie's. Not long later,
the three women found themselves outside a small cinema in Highbury
where they were greeted by a small gaggle of paparazzi, and the
disapproving face of their supervisor.
"Very... Ostentatious, Natalie," Rachel sighed as Natalie pulled several
effeminate poses for the photographers, who obliged her by taking
pictures of her even though the Mancunian girl wasn't the person they
were really interested in.
"So," Natalie said, ignoring Rachel's thinly-veiled insult. "Are the
Angels here yet?"
"Some of them, yes," Rachel replied. "Annabelle, you're looking very
elegant tonight!"
"Thanks, honey," Annabelle said in a quiet voice as she coolly strode
past Rachel into the cinema.
"Zoe... Hi," Rachel said, barely making eye contact with the French girl
as they stepped out of the cold and into the warmth of the cinema's
foyer. Once inside, Natalie and Zoe made a beeline for the refreshments
table, where the French girl surprised her lover by letting out a long,
exhausted sigh.
"...Hope you're not going to be yawning all through the movie," Natalie
laughed. "If you do, try to synchronise it with whenever Chewbacca's
talking, that way no one will notice."
"Funny woman," Zoe retorted. "It's- it's Rachel. We're not even at work
and still she's bossing us around... It's like, ever since she moved to
London she went from good boss to boss from hell!"
"Don't let her wind you up," Natalie said. "You're exhausted because
you're treading on eggshells because of that stupid written warning.
It'll be gone in a few weeks, so try to relax. Especially here, when
there's nothing Rachel can do."
"Yeah, I guess," Zoe sighed. "There are a lot of kids here- like, kids
less than sixteen years..."
"Must be the Angels' younger brothers and sisters," Natalie shrugged.
"Wish I'd known in advance, I'd have tried to cadge tickets for my
sisters, they'd have loved something like this."
"Hey girlies!" Anna-Jade laughed as she approached Natalie and Zoe from
behind, startling the young couple. "Can you believe all the names that
are here? I've, like, spent the last 20 minutes chatting to Mary Carter,
talking about growing up in Northern Ireland..."
"Cool," Zoe chuckled. "Hey... is she the best friend of Krystie
Fullerton?"
"I think so," Anna-Jade shrugged. "Think I've seen her here too, why?"
"No reason," Zoe mumbled as she grabbed her refreshments and disappeared
into the crowd.
"Odd," Anna-Jade said.
"She's been like that for a while," Natalie sighed. "Ever since we moved
to London. Dunno if she's just missing France."
"You and I both know it's tough living in a country where they speak a
foreign language," Anna-Jade sighed. "Though she at least has the
advantage of not having to live as a 'foreign gender'!"
"Really?" Natalie giggled. "Over a year on hormones and you still
consider being female to be 'foreign'?"
"Not anymore!" Anna-Jade said with an excited laugh. "God, it's so weird
to look around at all these celebrities knowing that in a few months'
time, we'll be celebrities ourselves..."
"Bit of an exaggeration," Natalie chuckled. "One, it's just a crappy
fly-on-the-wall show; two, there's no guarantee anyone will even watch
it, and three- most importantly- we all know who the REAL stars of that
show will be."
"Ah, the happy couple," Anna-Jade laughed. "Reckon they'll have landed
in America by now?"
"Should've done," Natalie said as her thoughts turned to her friends,
who had indeed just touched down at Baltimore-Washington International
Airport.
"God, feels so good to stretch my legs," Paige moaned as she stepped out
into the airport's crowded terminal.
"Every flight we do you always complain that your feet are killing you
at the end," Jessica teased.
"Hence why I'm wearing my flats!" Paige giggled as she showed Jessica
the small footwear at the end of her nylon-covered legs. "Miracles might
happen soon and we'll be allowed to wear them when on a flight..."
"That WILL take a miracle," Jessica sighed as she drank down the sight
of Paige discreetly adjusting her trademark black tights underneath her
loose, knee-length black dress. It had been ten months since the
Scottish girl had started taking oestrogen, and Jessica found that she
had difficulty remembering the girl that Paige used to be, the girl with
whom Jessica fell in love. The Scottish girl's waist was now so narrow
that she could get away with not wearing a corset at work, whilst her
hips had widened and her chest swollen to give her the type of feminine
figure any young woman would die for. Her alabaster skin had softened,
and even though Jessica knew it was impossible, even Paige's bone
structure seemed to have become more feminine, especially her teardrop-
shaped face. Every part of Paige's body made Jessica lustful... And also
envious.
Despite the fact that they had both felt transgender 'urges' from a
young age, and despite the fact that they both starting living and
working as a woman full-time, Jessica had yet to start hormone
replacement therapy, and every day that Paige became more feminine was a
day that Jessica felt like she was being left behind. The main obstacle
in Jessica's mind that was preventing her from starting to transition
was, and always been, her relationship with her parents. Jessica had
returned to America in the hope of reconciling with her parents and if
not getting their blessing to transition, at least getting their
acknowledgement that she was an independent woman who was capable of
making her own decisions- and, of course, their love.
"When are your parents picking us up?" Paige asked her lover as they
took a seat in one of the airport's many eateries.
"Umm, first thing tomorrow morning," Jessica said as she was snapped out
of her deep thought. "Gonna be a hell of a thing, them showing up and
seeing me like this..."
"They need to know that the son they thought they had is gone," Paige
said, gently squeezing her lover's hand. "They have a daughter now. It's
up to them to accept it. After what happened in November, they know that
they can't afford to lose you."
"I know, I know," Jessica sighed. "Let's- let's check into our hotel,
okay?"
"Okay," Paige whispered, boldly linking her fingers with Jessica's as
they walked through the airport.
"Okay," Natalie announced, a wide grin plastered on her face as she
exited the London cinema. "I wouldn't say that was the best film of all
time, but it's certainly in the top one."
"I liked the woman whose head looked like a walnut," Annabelle said
quietly as she looked around for her other flatmate. "Honey, where's
your girlfriend gone?" With a confused look on her face, Natalie looked
around for Zoe, momentarily panicking before spotting her casually
chatting with another, younger dark-haired girl.
"Hey! Zo!" Natalie called, immediately summoning the French girl and her
new friend.
"Hey, Natalie!" Zoe chuckled, giving her lover a long kiss on her lips.
"Natalie, Annabelle, I'd like you to meet Nikki, she's been giving me a
few tips on how to 'pass' as a woman!"
"Umm, hi Nikki," Natalie said, exchanging air kisses with the young
woman. "It's kind of you to help Zoe to 'pass', but, um... You DO know
that she's genetically female, right?"
"Uh- really?" Nikki replied, causing Zoe to blush with embarrassment.
"Doesn't mean I don't need 'tips'," Zoe mumbled.
"Uh, yeah, it kinda does!" Natalie sighed, escorting Zoe and Annabelle
away from their new friend and toward their waiting taxi.
"Zoe, honey," Annabelle asked, confusion etched on her young face.
"Why... Why would you be jealous of us T-girls?"
"Ugh," Zoe spat. "It's... Never mind, it's silly..."
"Do- do you wish you were a man?" Annabelle asked.
"Ugh, no way!" Zoe retorted. "I ADORE being a girl. I just... Envy you
girls and your 'adventure'."
"Trust me, honey," Annabelle replied, "if anyone should be envious it's
us, of you."
"You'd be saying that ten times louder if you knew how flexible she is,"
Natalie laughed, making Zoe glare at her. "I'm not wrong, though. You've
been given by birth something every one of us would kill for. We'd
happily give up the 'adventure' just to be, well, you."
"Even you, Miss 'I don't need hormones'?" Zoe asked her lover.
"I'm wearing a dress, aren't I?" Natalie asked. "I'm wearing stockings,
make-up, you referred to me as 'Miss'... Besides, I happen to know for a
fact your obsession with us T-girls only came about as a coping
mechanism when at work."
"That's not-" Zoe retorted, before sighing. "That's most ENTIRELY true.
But... It is mostly true."
"Oh honey," Annabelle cooed. "You still having problems at work?"
"...Bits of it," Zoe said. "But I have a feeling everything should be
okay soon." Zoe joined in her friends' smiles as the black taxi ferried
the three women back to their modest flat, though her smile was more due
to the fact that she knew something that Natalie and Annabelle didn't.
Paige laid awake in her comfortable hotel bed, cursing her jet lag as
the first traces of dawn began to filter through the window. She'd been
excited to return to America- a place she'd always loved- but was
mindful of how hers & Jessica's earlier holiday had ended, and that
whilst they'd get the chance to sightsee, the holiday was more about the
American girl than it was about her.
"Mmph," Jessica moaned as she stirred, her tired voice betraying the
masculinity she tried so desperately to hide. "Paige? What time is it?"
"6:30," Paige replied. "Or, as my body likes to call it, 11:30..."
"It's only five hours, you'll adjust soon," Jessica moaned, taking
several deep breaths to try to shake the 'boy' out of her voice. "My
folks will be here just after 9, try to get back to sleep.
"Isn't it already your brother's birthday, though?" Paige asked. "He'll
be up opening his presents, surely he'd want a phone call from his big
sister?"
"He's eighteen and it's Christmas in two days," Jessica retorted.
"...And I don't really want to talk to him until I've had the chance to
talk to mom and dad first, don't want them to feel I'm 'going behind
their backs' again." Paige sighed as she gave Jessica a tight cuddle,
making the American girl smile as she felt two small, soft mounds of
flesh press into her back.
"Just think," Paige whispered. "You might be coming home- well, back to
England- with two of these yourself..."
"Only if everything goes perfectly, which it won't," Jessica snorted.
"And only if I choose to stay in America for ten months!" Paige and
Jessica giggled, before sharing a long, lazy kiss.
"If..." Jessica whispered. "If I do, you know, 'take the first step',
it'll mean that our sex life will be VERY different, you know that,
right?"
"Aye," Paige replied. "But that just means that it'll be the same for
you that it currently is for me, right?"
"More like the same for you that it currently is for me," Jessica
chuckled. "Especially when it comes to 'receipt'..."
"I can get used to 'non-organic' sex," Paige laughed, giving Jessica
another kiss. "Especially if it's you that's 'giving'! Speaking of
which, it IS Christmas in two days, the season for 'giving'..."
"Oh give me a break, I only just woke up," Jessica moaned.
"And you want me to get more sleep," Paige retorted. "And we are on
holiday..." Jessica rolled her eyes at Paige's advances, before giggling
as the Scottish girl pulled the sheets over their heads and turned out
the lights, their hands soon exploring each other's most sensitive
areas...
"...Our stewardesses for this flight are Carly," Rachel said, smiling as
the tiny English girl bobbed a curtsey for the plane's passengers.
"Amy... And Zoe." Rachel's smile slipped briefly as Zoe bobbed a curtsey
much clumsier than either Carly's or Amy's, before standing with her
knees noticeably apart. "Flight time to Berlin will be one hour and
fifty minutes, thank you for choosing to fly with Soixante-Trois
Airlines, and we hope you enjoy your flight!" Rachel rebalanced her blue
pillbox hat before sitting down next to Zoe and shooting the French girl
a highly disapproving look.
"Every. Single. Flight," Rachel hissed just loud enough for Zoe to hear.
"Need I remind you that your written warning hasn't expired yet? And the
way you're going, it never will!"
"I don't know what you could possibly be talking about," Zoe retorted.
"This- this juvenile obsession with pretending to be transgendered,"
Rachel whispered. "You're standing like a slouch when you and I both
know you're a classically trained ballerina, you've probably got the
best posture of anyone who works for the company!"
"I haven't danced in months," Zoe shrugged.
"Bollocks," Rachel snorted. "I saw your Facebook page, you're giving
lessons to Natalie and Paige in your free time."
"Language?" Zoe retorted, further infuriating her supervisor.
"You want to talk about being offended?" Rachel asked. "How do you think
Jessica or Paige feel about what you're doing? I'm sure they think it's
hilarious that you're trivialising them like this!"
"I'm not 'trivialising' anyone?" Zoe hissed, before closing her eyes and
silently cursing as the 'fasten seatbelts' light extinguished and the
four stewardesses retreated to the rear compartment of the plane.
"You're staying in the kitchen this flight," Rachel told Zoe. "For your
own good!"
"Fine," Zoe replied, straightening her tight skirt before removing her
hat and jacket and preparing the passengers' refreshments for the
flight.
"How do I look?" Jessica asked Paige as she finished applying her
favourite scarlet lipstick to her mouth.
"They invented the word 'beautiful' just for you," Paige said, kissing
Jessica deeply and giggling as their lipsticks began to mingle together.
Reluctantly, Jessica broke away from the kiss and admired her reflection
in the hotel room's full-length mirror. Her face was immaculately made-
up and framed by her shoulder-length, platinum blonde hair, and her
girdle and padded bra had given her a figure just as feminine as
Paige's- or even a 'natural' girl. On top of her 'figure', she wore a
tight red turtleneck sweater, a short, tight black miniskirt, nearly
opaque black tights and a pair of low-heeled ankle booties. Jessica
looked just like any other 23 year old woman, and yet she still felt
uneasy. Her parents would undoubtedly see the man she was underneath,
the boy they raised- and Jessica had her doubts that her parents would
ever be able to look past that boy.
Even though she would never admit it, Jessica was also intimidated by
Paige's presence, and how effortlessly she seemed to slip into the
female role. In contrast to Jessica's overtly feminine look, Paige was
dressed much more relaxedly, in a pair of tight, butt hugging jeans, a
long-sleeved, low-cut black top and black ballerina flats. Paige wasn't
even wearing as much make-up as Jessica, and yet the American girl still
felt she looked more feminine, especially when Paige flashed her
trademark toothy grin.
"Ready?" Paige asked, linking her slender fingers with Jessica's.
"No," Jessica moaned, earning a sad sigh from her lover. "But it's now
or never... I just got a text from mom, she's waiting downstairs."
"Remember- I'll always love you, no matter what," Paige whispered to
Jessica, sharing another quick kiss with her before the couple grabbed
their suitcases and headed downstairs. Jessica's breath caught in her
mouth as she spotted her mother sitting in the foyer waiting for her.
The middle-aged woman didn't look angry, or anxious, or even happy that
her oldest child was back on home soil for the first time in almost a
year. Her face betrayed no emotion, but Jessica knew her well enough to
know that she was just anxious as she was- even if there was no way that
the older woman would ever show it. Jessica attempted to control her
breathing as she approached her mother, but she was still on the verge
of hyperventilating and her knees almost buckled in terror as the older
woman caught sight of her daughter and cautiously approached her.
"Hi... Mom," Jessica said in her now-natural 'female voice', catching
the older woman by surprise.
"Hello, Paige," Mrs. Tyler said, before turning her attention to her
daughter. "Hello... Jessica. It's good to finally meet, um, 'you'."
Nervously, Mrs. Tyler held out her arms, prompting Jessica to do the
same, and soon, the two women had embraced each other in a gentle,
uneasy hug.
"How are Aaron and Hayley?" Jessica asked. "Is- is Aaron enjoying his
birthday?"
"Yep," Mrs. Tyler laughed. "All of his relatives spoiled him rotten.
It's an important birthday, his eighteenth, he's finally becoming a
man..." Jessica paused as her mother trailed off- even if it hadn't been
intended as such, what Mrs. Tyler said HAD come across as a slight at
Jessica's expense, and the transgendered girl had no idea how to respond
to it.
"Is he going out with his friends tonight?" Paige asked, attempting to
defuse the tension. "Or at the weekend?"
"Most of his friends have gone away for the festive season," Mrs. Tyler
responded, thankful for the question. "He'll be going to a party with
his friends over New Year's."
"Don't forget that the drinking age here is 21, not 18," Jessica said,
making Paige giggle.
"Aye, I remember that from my last visit," the only-just-turned 21 year
old Scottish woman replied.
"Your brother and sister are eager to see you both," Mrs. Tyler said.
"They tell me you've been keeping in touch over Facebook?"
"Yeah," Jessica said. "Though it's still going to be strange seeing
them- well, 'as Jessica'..."
"There's still time to change," Mrs. Tyler said in a gentle voice. "Go
in as 'Jesse', then change to 'Jessica' later, if you want?"
"No," Jessica said firmly. "This is who I am now. This is who I was
always meant to be." The American girl winced at a look of pure
disappointment flashed across her mother's face, but no more words were
said as the couple got into Mrs. Tyler's car, and soon the three women
were making their way back to Jessica's childhood home.
Zoe breathed a sigh of relief as the aeroplane touched down in Berlin,
and forced a smile on her face as she waved goodbye to the passengers as
they disembarked. When she turned back into the plane to perform her
post-flight checks, however, her smile disappeared as she saw Rachel
scowling at her.
"I stayed in the kitchen," Zoe snorted. "Like a good little woman.
Happy?"
"I'm not going to be happy until you start taking this job seriously,"
Rachel said in a dark voice.
"I do take this job seriously," Zoe shrugged. "It's just you that I
don't take seriously." Zoe winced as the words involuntarily left her
mouth, though as she heard the blonde-haired supervisor gasp she allowed
herself a mischievous grin.
"Zoe!" Rachel snapped. "I am your supervisor!"
"And don't you know it?" Zoe retorted, her smirk widening as Amy and
Carly watched on in horror.
"Do you even want to keep this job?" Rachel asked, her anger reaching
boiling point.
"Seeing as I'm starting a new job in January, I could take or leave it,"
Zoe shrugged.
"You- you what?" Rachel asked. "Why is this the first I'm hearing about
this?"
"Because let's face it," Zoe laughed. "As much as you may yell 'I am
your supervisor', you're not actually that important, are you?"
"You are on thin ice, Zoe," Rachel hissed. "Thin ice!"
"It's not that I dislike you as a person," Zoe said. "I'm sure if we met
socially we'd get on great, but you get those gold buttons on your
blazer and you turn into a nightmare, not just at work, but at home as
well. The way you swanned around the celebrities last night... It made
me cringe. And I'm not the only one. Zoe had hoped that Rachel would
take some time to reflect on the home truths that she was hearing, but
much to the French girl's dismay, Rachel only got angrier and angrier.
"When we get back to London," Rachel snarled, "you, me and a manager are
going to have a talk."
"Looking forward to it already," Zoe laughed as Rachel disappeared into
the plane's first-class section.
"Zoe..." Carly whispered as she approached the French girl. "Why are you
doing this?"
"What 'this'?" Zoe asked. "Irritating Rachel, quitting the job,
pretending to be trans?"
"All of it," Carly asked. "I mean, okay, you've got a new job, but- why
take this job in the first place if you hate it so much?"
"...Because of my sister," Zoe sighed. "She's six years older than me
and she always made the job seem so glamorous, so exciting, get to visit
new and exotic places... Here I am, stuck in Berlin on a cold afternoon
wearing a stupid corset, a stupid tight skirt and these stupid heels..."
"Yeah, the uniform sucks, you don't need to tell me," Carly replied.
"I tried to put myself in the mind of the trans girls," Zoe explained.
"How it'd be a dream for them to be able to work in a uniform like this.
Tried to 'appreciate' it like they do... Like a coping mechanism. I
think I got a bit too much 'into it', though, just playfully teasing
customers at first, but after every flight that blonde witch..."
"Whoa," Carly laughed. "A bit harsh?"
"...Maybe," Zoe sighed. "I don't WANT to hate her, but- ugh. I'll just
be happier when I never have to wear this uniform again!"
"I'm sure there's a trans girl out there who'll 'appreciate' it more
than you do!" Carly laughed. "Where will you go, what will you do?"
"Back to my old job!" Zoe laughed. "One of the celebrities Rachel sucked
up to last night just so happens to run a dance studio specialising in
ballet, and she's expanding and looking for a new teacher to share the
workload, so..."
"Oh my god, that's so cool!" Carly gushed. "Rachel will be so jealous
that you get to work for an Angel..."
"WITH an Angel," Zoe laughed. "And yes... That's something else I'm
looking forward to telling her when we get back to London!"
"Aaron?" Mrs. Tyler asked as she walked through her front door. "Hayley?
You home?"
"Hi mom," Hayley- Jessica's fifteen year old sister- said, before
gasping at the sight of the person she'd known for her whole life as her
brother. "Hi Jessica!"
"Hi Hayley!" Jessica said, giving her younger sister a tight hug.
"You look-" Hayley stammered. "You look- wow!"
"Thanks!" Jessica giggled. "I LOVE your dress!" Hayley giggled as she
did a twirl in her smart, knee-length dress, but Jessica could see in
the teenager's eyes that her presence was making her uneasy.
"Where's Aaron?" Mrs. Tyler asked.
"Yeah, where is the birthday boy?" Jessica asked, wincing as she saw the
effect her 'female voice' had on Hayley.
"Picking up Lizzie," Hayley sighed. "He said he'd be back soon."
"Lizzie's his new girlfriend, right?" Jessica asked.
"Yes," Mrs. Tyler replied. "As you would know if you came back home
more often!"
"Hey, I'm here now, aren't I?" Jessica replied, making her mother and
sister smile. "Is dad here?"
"He's at work," Mrs. Tyler replied. "He'll be back later today. You two
should go and get unpacked..."
"I'll give you a hand," Hayley offered, helping Jessica and Paige carry
their suitcases up the stairs to Jessica's childhood bedroom. Jessica
winced as she entered the bedroom where she grew up- unlike her bedroom
in London, or her old bedroom in Paris, there wasn't a trace of
femininity anywhere in the room. The room wasn't masculine- her small
bookshelf was filled with her old childhood books about geography and
American history, and the posters on her wall were of beautiful
landscapes, rather than cars or sports stars.
"So, Hayley," Paige asked, breaking the awkward silence that filled the
room as the three women packed away the couple's clothes. "Jess tells me
that you're in tenth grade now, is that right?"
"Yeah," Hayley replied, leading to another awkward silence.
"Hayley-" Jessica whispered, only to be interrupted by the teenager.
"Jess," Hayley said. "Wh- why did- I mean- just- why?"
"Why are you asking 'why'?" Jessica asked. "You've seen photos of
'Jessica' on Facebook for the last ten months, you could've asked me
'why' anytime since then."
"That was different," Hayley mumbled. "This is, you know, 'in the
flesh', seeing you like that... It- it just seems wrong, you know?"
"You want to know 'why'?" Jessica asked, anger seeping into her voice.
"Imagine waking up every morning and feeling an urge, a 'pull' that's
tearing you apart. You know your life must take one direction, but
everyone else says you have to take another, but no matter how hard you
try, you can't shake the feeling that the direction you've chosen is
wrong."
"It was the same for me," Paige interjected as she linked fingers with
her American lover. "Every morning I'd go to school, or to work, and it-
it was like an insult, like the world was deliberately tormenting me by
making me a boy when everyone else got to be a girl."
"So... It's like, an addiction?" Hayley asked, making Paige sigh while
Jessica rolled her eyes.
"It's not an addiction," Jessica said. "It's not a fetish, either."
"I never said it was," Hayley said defensively. "But, well, you know how
people, the public, I mean, view crossdressers..."
"I'm not a-" Jessica snapped, before taking a deep breath. "Like I said,
this isn't a fetish. This isn't something I'm doing just for fun. It's
something I'm doing because it's the only way my life feels, well,
'right'."
"The way I see it," Paige said, "I'm not a boy pretending to be a girl,
I'm a girl who used to pretend to be a boy."
"So... You've not had any regrets since you 'changed'?" Hayley asked.
"None," Paige said confidently.
"...Jess?" Hayley asked.
"None," Jessica said, though both Paige and Hayley could tell
immediately that the American girl wasn't being entirely truthful.
"Well... No regrets in myself. The only regret is what happened with you
guys, with family. And this- what we're doing now- isn't helping."
Jessica felt guilty about 'telling off' her younger sister, but the
whole reason she'd returned to America was to reconcile with her family-
and she refused to compromise.
"...Sorry," Hayley mumbled. Jessica sighed and smiled happily, before
giving Hayley a tight, sisterly hug.
"And are you really telling me you never wanted a big sister when you
were younger?" Jessica asked, making the fifteen year old girl laugh.
"Well... Yeah, all the time," Hayley chuckled.
"I've got two," Paige laughed. "Trust me, you're not missing out!" The
three young women all chuckled as they finished unpacking and headed
down the stairs into the living room, where Jessica's nerves once again
got the better of her as she saw her brother and his girlfriend sat on
the couch. Jessica winced as Aaron's eyes went wide at the sight of her,
and her nerves only increased as the young man stood up and slowly
approached her.
"Welcome home, sis," Aaron said, giving Jessica a cautious, but genuine,
hug.
"Th- thanks," Jessica whispered. "Um, happy birthday, Aaron!"
"Thanks," the eighteen year old boy replied. "Jess, this is Lizzie, my
girlfriend, Lizzie, this is Jessica... My sister."
"Hi," Lizzie said with a broad grin. "Aaron talks so much about you,
it's nice to finally meet you!"
"All good things, I hope?" Jessica giggled as she gave Lizzie a quick
hug. "Aaron, you remember Paige, right?"
"Of course!" Aaron laughed as he gave Paige a hug. "Lizzie, this is my
sister's partner Paige, who has the single best accent in the world!"
"Bit of an exaggeration," Paige said in her thick Glaswegian accent,
making the room laugh as she gave Lizzie a girlish hug.
"Not going to ask me 'why'?" Jessica asked her brother as she sat down,
causing Hayley to cringe.
"It's none of my business," Aaron shrugged. "You've got to live your
life the way you want. I'd rather have a sister than no sibling at all."
"Hey!" Hayley snorted. "TWO sisters?" Jessica smiled as the room erupted
into laughter once again- even though her initial coming out to her
brother and sister in February had been successful, it had also been
whilst she was dressed as 'Jesse'. Telling her siblings that she was
transgendered was a very different prospect from shoving it in their
faces, but it had gone better than Jessica had dared hope. However,
there was one member of Jessica's family to whom she hadn't yet
'presented' herself- her father, who would return home from work soon,
and would undoubtedly be surprised by the sight of his firstborn son sat
on his couch wearing a short skirt...
Despite herself, Zoe actually felt nervous as the aeroplane touched down
at London's Heathrow airport. Following her confrontation with Rachel in
Berlin, Zoe had again found herself relegated to the kitchen for the
flight home, but she was confident that it would be the last time she
would ever set foot on an aeroplane as anything other than a paying
passenger.
"Don't bother with the post-flight checks," Rachel said to Zoe in a dark
voice after the last passenger had disembarked. "Go to the office and
wait for me there."
"Yes ma'am," Zoe sarcastically responded, earning disapproving looks
from not just Rachel, but Carly and Amy as well. Zoe made a point of
holding her head high as she strode through the corridors of the airport
until she reached the small office that had been reserved for the use of
Soixante-Trois Airlines's senior management- one of whom was waiting
inside for her.
"Hello Zoe," Alana- Zoe and Rachel's manager- said in a dark voice as
Zoe entered the office and sat down, smoothing her tight blue skirt
underneath her. An awkward silence followed, as Alana typed out a letter
on her laptop.
"I'm not leaving this office with a job, am I?" Zoe asked.
"We have to wait for Rachel," Alana replied. "I'd prefer not to speak
off the record."
"If it saves you any time," Zoe said, "I'm quite happy to just quit
now."
"I thought your new job doesn't start until the second week in January?"
Alana asked. "Seems like a waste when this is something we can work
through, we can put you on flights where you have no customer contact, I
can shuffle the roster and keep you and Rachel on separate flights if
you think that might help?"
"Is it really worth it?" Zoe asked, before taking a deep breath as
Rachel walked through the door and sat down next to Alana.
"Now that we're all here," Alana said in a formal voice, "we'll get
started. Zoe, I've had it brought to my attention that in recent weeks,
your behaviour has been below the standard expected of a Soixante-Trois
stewardess, and that you have had more than one falling out with a
superior." Zoe frowned as Rachel smirked at Alana's use of the word
'superior', but she reminded herself that Rachel's 'superiority'
wouldn't last much longer- and the sooner it ended, the happier Zoe
would be.
"I'll ask again," Zoe said in as calm a voice as she could manage. "Am I
leaving this office with a job?"
"We need to review all the available material before making a decision,"
Rachel said.
"You need to perform a character assassination before firing me," Zoe
snorted, her voice darkening. "I'll save you the bother. Let me know
where I can turn in my ID."
"Whoa, Zoe, let's not be hasty," Alana said, clearly shocked by Zoe's
actions. "We weren't definitely going to dismiss you, we were going to
let you put your point of view across, let us know if there was anything
we could do in your last few weeks working for us. Also, we need to
consider the documentary as well- you're in a lot of the footage that's
already been filmed."
"I appreciate that," Zoe said, "but my mind is made up."
"In that case," Alana sighed, "thank you for your fourteen months of
service." Zoe smiled as the three women stood up and she shook both
Rachel's and Alana's hand, before her now-former supervisor escorted her
out of the office.
"I'll take your ID and uniform," Rachel said, her voice filed not with
anger, but with disappointment. "You know, you could've been a great
stewardess, if only you'd taken the job seriously."
"Oh, I take the job seriously, it's the company that I don't," Zoe
chuckled. "Antoine Masson is a misogynistic, transphobic pervert whose
mind is stuck in the sixties."
"Be careful what you're saying," Rachel cautioned.
"What are you going to do, fucking fire me?" Zoe laughed. "We wear
uniforms that make it virtually impossible to do our job, all because
Masson believes women are only good for being ogled at. Why else do you
think he keeps slime like Jacques Lacroix on the payroll? How many other
companies do you know that hold an annual beauty pageant?"
"That you participated in!" Rachel reminded the French girl.
"Only as an excuse to dance on stage," Zoe retorted as she stepped into
the locker room and stripped off her uniform for the last time, sighing
happily as she loosened her corset. "I'm surprised Masson doesn't make
us- sorry, YOU- dress up as playboy bunnies on flights."
"Do you need a lift home?" Rachel asked Zoe, having lost the strength to
argue with the French girl.
"Please," Zoe said, before sighing. "Rachel... I would've liked us to be
friends. Maybe now that you AREN'T my superior, you might be able to
actually treat me as an equal?"
"...Let's just get you home," Rachel sighed as the two women, having
changed into their formal pencil dresses, strode through the crowded
airport. "Have you told your sister about your new job yet?"
"She's next on the list," Zoe sighed, wondering how her sister will
react to the news that she'd thrown away what was, very early on, a
promising career...
Jessica took several deep, nervous breaths as she heard the unmistakable
hum of her father's BMW pull up in the driveway, only calming down as
Paige gave her hand a gentle squeeze.
"It'll be okay," Paige whispered. "He knows what to expect, he's seen
the photographs of you, it WON'T be a shock to him."
"Nonetheless, I'd best go talk to him," Jessica's mother said, leaving
the living room in silence.
"He WILL be okay about it," Aaron reassured his new sister. "There's
nothing he can do about it either way, is there?"
"Other than disown me," Jessica moaned. "Or disinherit me, or kick me
out on the street..."
"If he was going to do any of those things, he wouldn't have let you in
the house in the first place," Hayley said, before wincing at her choice
of words. "Umm, well, um, you know what I mean..."
"Thanks, Hayley," Jessica whispered, before standing up and smoothing
her skirt as her parents walked into the room. "Hi dad! It's me, um,
Jessica..."
"Hello, Jess- Jessica," Mr. Tyler said in a stoic voice as he cautiously
approached the young woman, before giving her a gentle handshake and
sitting down next to his wife. "Did you have a good flight from London?"
"Umm, yes..." Jessica said, taken aback by her father's lack of
reaction. "Dad, is- isn't there- isn't there anything you want to say to
me? Or ask me?"
"...Are you still enjoying your job?" Mr. Tyler asked after a brief
pause.
"Well, um, yes," Jessica replied. "They're expanding the London hub to
cover Eastern Europe in May, so with luck I'll be covering all three
routes..."
"Good," Mr. Tyler said, forcing a proud smile onto his face. "I'm glad
you're making a success of your career. Aaron, have you told your bro...
have you told Jess- Jessica yet about your college application yet?"
"I've, um, been accepted to NYU," Aaron said, making both Jessica and
Paige gasp excitedly. "Majoring in American History."
"We're taking a trip up to New York tomorrow to celebrate," Mrs. Tyler
said. "The two of you are welcome to join us, of course."
"New York? Yes please!" Paige said excitedly, making the room giggle.
"Paige is a bit of an America fangirl," Jessica explained. "She lives in
one of the most scenic places in the world but she's obsessed with
bright lights and big cities, heh."
"You see one blade of grass, you've seen them all," Paige laughed. "But
Times Square, the Empire State Building, Central Park..."
"Trafalgar Square, the Shard, Hyde Park?" Lizzie asked, before blushing.
"Sorry, sorry... I'm kinda a Britain fangirl, I lived in London for a
year when I was eight, I've always wanted to go back for a vacation, see
how much it's changed, how much has stayed the same."
"If we ever have any space at the apartment, you're welcome to stay with
us," Jessica offered, her smile widening as the atmosphere in the room
started to relax.
"She means 'the flat'," Paige said, prompting another mass chuckle as
the family whiled away the evening with talk of work, university and
school.
Zoe kicked off her heels the second she returned to the apartment and
sighed loudly as she unzipped her dress, unclipped her stockings and
collapsed heavily onto the apartment's sofa. Even though she had a new
job to start the following month, she was now officially unemployed...
And she was not looking forward to breaking the news to her sister.
After taking a deep breath, Zoe reached into her bag for her phone and
dialled the number for the Parisian flat where she used to live, smiling
as it was answered after the second ring.
"Guten Abend Zoe!" Marie chuckled. "How was Berlin?"
"Cold, grey and German," Zoe laughed. "Marie..." Zoe paused, leading to
an awkward silence.
"...Zoe...?" Marie asked with a chuckle. "What's up? Getting sick of
London and want to come back to Paris? Can't say I blame you. It's a
pity you'll be at work tomorrow and the 25th, this will be the first
Christmas we'll spend apart."
"Yeah, that's the thing," Zoe said with a grimace. "I, um, kinda...
Kinda won't be at work."
"Umm, how on Earth did you swing that?" Marie asked.
"...By quitting," Zoe said, leading to a long pause. "Umm... Marie?"
"You QUIT!?" Marie yelled. "What- who- what the fuck, Zoe!?"
"I've got another job," Zoe said. "I'm going to be teaching ballet
again, here in London. It's what I love doing, it's what I'm good at."
"Does it pay as well as Soixante-Trois?" Marie asked.
"Well... No," Zoe answered. "But it's not far off, maybe a 15% pay drop,
20% at most."
"And that's enough to make you abandon a promising career?" Marie
snorted.
"Just because you're good at it, it doesn't mean that I will be!" Zoe
snapped. "I've had this damned written warning hanging over my head for
a year now, I've had Rachel constantly breathing down my neck... Let's
face it, I was a terrible stewardess."
"You weren't terrible," Marie said, before letting out a long sigh. "If
this is what you really want..."
"It is," Zoe said, her voice suddenly turning meek. "Marie, I- I really
need your support. Please."
"...You're a fool for throwing away such a great opportunity," Marie
sighed.
"I'll take that as a 'no', then," Zoe sighed. "Joyeux Noel, Marie." Zoe
clicked off her phone and tossed it back in her bag, before letting out
a long, frustrated yell. The smile only returned to her face fifteen
minutes later when Natalie entered the apartment and, upon seeing Zoe's
state of undress, immediately kicked off her own heels, unzipped her
tight pencil dress and unclipped her stockings.
"So, are we going for a 'can't be arsed' dress code tonight?" Natalie
giggled as she gave Zoe a quick kiss. "Because if I untie the cache sex,
the way you look now, it's kinda gonna show through the dress!"
"Then untie it," Zoe said, stepping out of her dress and her stockings
and roughly shoving her lover into their bedroom.
"Umm, okay," Natalie laughed. "Sex before dinner... I could get used to
this!"
"Good," Zoe said, forcing her tongue down Natalie's throat as she
hastily pulled the clingy dress off of the English girl's body.
Thirty minutes later, both women laid in bed panting heavily, their
make-up smeared and their naked bodies covered in a fine sheen of sweat.
"Yeah," Natalie gasped. "I could DEFINITELY get used to this! I can't be
arsed to cook, Annabelle won't be back for hours, let's just get a
takeaway. Hope you're hungry!"
"Ravenous," Zoe said with a wicked grin on her lips as she grabbed
Natalie's wrist, preventing her from reaching for her phone. Zoe wrapped
her arms around Natalie's neck and kissed her deeply, her tongue
exploring every corner of Natalie's mouth as the Englishwoman feebly
tried to resist.
"Ugh, anymore and I'm going to be asleep until the New Year," Natalie
laughed, unwrapping Zoe's arms from around her. "We need to save our
energy, we both have work tomorrow!"
"Nope," Zoe said with a lustful smile as she kissed Natalie again.
"Um, what?" Natalie asked. "What do you mean, 'nope'?"
"I am officially unemployed," Zoe said, her smile changing from
'lustful' to 'smug'. "You and I are no longer colleagues."
"Um, uh- Seriously?" Natalie asked. "How did this happen? What happened?
Are you okay?"
"Relax!" Zoe giggled. "I've got a new job, I start it in January. I'm
going to be teaching ballet again, this time at Krystie Fullerton's new
school."
"Wh- when did that happen?" Natalie asked.
"A couple of weeks ago," Zoe said. "I introduced myself to her after we
moved to London, we got talking, turns out I'm WAY more qualified than
her, she was expanding, needed an additional teacher... It just fit. So
I handed in my notice, and today we decided to cut my notice period
short."
"Why am I only hearing about this now?" Natalie asked, barely
restraining her anger.
"...I thought you'd be happy for me," Zoe said.
"I AM," Natalie sighed. "Zoe, I love you, I really do, but- but- you
only ever think about yourself!"
"So I'm selfish, am I?" Zoe hissed.
"No- I didn't mean-" Natalie stammered.
"Well I'll be selfLESS for once and let you sleep in the bed alone
tonight!" Zoe snapped, grabbing her suitcase and packing it full of
clothes.
"Wait- Zoe!" Natalie yelled. "What are you doing? Where do you think
you're going?"
"Home!" Zoe yelled, pulling on a pair of tight jeans, a baggy sweater
and her favourite long brown boots. "Goodbye, MATTHEW!" Natalie bit her
lip to prevent her from yelling at Zoe as the French girl left the
apartment, before sighing heavily. Natalie had noticed how, over the
last few weeks, Zoe had become more and more 'erratic', but she never
imagined that she'd simply abandon her job, and she was deeply hurt by
Zoe's use of her birth name. However, despite herself, Natalie still
loved the young Frenchwoman, and spent the whole night pining for her
return...
As Christmas Eve dawned on either side of the Atlantic, none of the
employees (and former employees) or Soixante-Trois Airlines were feeling
particularly festive. Even Paige and Jessica were feeling tense, despite
the latter girl's reconciliation with her family the previous day. The
American girl sighed as her alarm clock woke her from a fitful sleep-
though she was unsurprised to find Paige already awake and getting
dressed.
"Ah, good to see that they're back," Jessica giggled as Paige pulled a
pair of opaque black tights up her legs.
"Just felt like a break from them yesterday," Paige laughed, before
pulling on a smart burgundy turtleneck sweater and a knee-length black
pencil skirt.
"A break from black nylons?" Jessica giggled. "Are you sure you're the
real Paige Robertson?"
"In the flesh," Paige laughed, giving Jessica a soft kiss. "Ready for
today? Our big family outing to the Big Apple..."
"Ugh, don't remind me," Jessica moaned.
"Oh come on," Paige said, sitting Jessica up and giving her a gentle
cuddle. "Your family ARE making an effort, you know? It could've been
much, much worse- I mean, just look at Anna-Jade, the way her quote-
unquote family have treated her."
"I know, I know," Jessica sighed.
"You- you're not having second thoughts, are you?" Paige asked. "About
transitioning?"
"I didn't," Jessica confessed, "right up until I saw dad yesterday. The
look in his eyes, it- Ugh, never mind. Come on, let's get ready, don't
want to keep the family waiting..."
"No, tell me, please," Paige said. "This should be a happy time,
especially for you."
"I just- I just missing their son," Jessica sighed. "I had a good life
here, as Jesse. Coming back, it just reminds me of everything I've given
up to be Jessica. My dad and I used to do loads of things together- we
used to go fishing, go to ball games, hell, it was even him who taught
me to drive. I had so many good memories as Jesse... Why d'you think I
wanted to spend Christmas with your parents, in Scotland?"
"It's not exactly been easy for me either," Paige said. "Okay, I had
more support from my family, I'll grant you that, but I had loads of
great memories as 'Paul'. When I was younger my dad would take me to
Ibrox every month, he taught me to play golf... And you know what?
There's no reason I can't do any of those things now that I'm wearing a
skirt. There's no reason you can't make new, even happier memories with
your dad either."
"You're right," Jessica said, a genuine smile creeping across her face.
"Got to get ready first, though!" Paige watched with a proud smile as
Jessica dressed for the day in a pair of cute patterned tights, followed
by a short, long-sleeved navy blue dress that perfectly complemented her
shoulder-length blonde hair and deep blue eyes.
"Beautiful," Paige said, giving Jessica a kiss just before the American
girl finished her look by, as always, applying a liberal layer of bright
red lipstick. The two women were greeted in the family living room by
wide smiles from Jessica's parents and siblings- even though her
father's smile looked very forced.
"Good morning, you two!" Mrs. Tyler beamed. "Hope you're ready for your
big New York adventure!"
"I have literally dreamed about this," Paige giggled.
"Good," Mr. Tyler said. "Aaron and I will take a look around the campus-
well, the outside of it, anyway- whilst you four girls enjoy the sights
and sounds!" Jessica forced a smile onto her face as her father led her
brother into one car, whilst she, Paige and Hayley got into her mother's
car. Jessica COULD make new memories with her father as his daughter...
or his father could simply turn all of his attention his one remaining
male offspring instead.
The sound of her mobile phone ringing startled Anna-Jade, distracting
her from the television programme she was watching and causing her to
nearly fumble the phone as she rushed to answer it.
"Hello?" The Irishwoman asked.
"Hi, Anna-Jade? It's Alana," the unmistakable voice of Anna-Jade's
manager replied. "Everyone who was due in today has come in, so we won't
be needing you today after all. Thanks for agreeing to be on standby
though, especially today of all days- hope you have a great Christmas
Eve!"
"Thanks," Anna-Jade replied with a smile. "Will do!" Anna-Jade's smile
faded, however, as she clicked off her phone. With Rachel at work and
Jessica and Paige in America, she had the entire flat to herself, which
just served to remind her of how alone she was- and that it would be the
second Christmas in a row that she was estranged from her parents. Anna-
Jade hesitated before putting her phone away- every part of her wanted
to sit back and enjoy her Christmas Eve, as Alana had advised, but an
even larger part of her wanted to try, once again, to call her parents,
to finally reconcile with them. She'd seen Jessica's Facebook photos
detailing her 'Christmas miracle', but every time she dared to believe
that the same could happen for her, another part of her brain reminded
her that her parents wouldn't even acknowledge her existence. Every time
Anna-Jade had called her parents, the phone had been cruelly slammed
down, leaving the Irishwoman feeling worse than ever.
Anna-Jade agonised for several minutes over whether or not to call her
parents, before finally deciding that if she didn't, she always be
troubled by the possibility of what would happen. With her manicured
thumb trembling, she dialled the number for her childhood home in
Londonderry, and let out a small gasp as the phone was answered after
the second ring.
"Hello?" The unmistakable voice of Anna-Jade's father asked.
"Hi dad," Anna-Jade said in a small, timid voice. "Merry Chri-"
"Don't ever call this number again!" Mr. Houghton yelled, before loudly
slamming the phone down, leaving Anna-Jade sat on the sofa in a state of
shock.
"...Stmas..." Anna-Jade whispered, her body shaking with raw emotion.
"Merry fucking Christmas you fat, bigoted, bastarding bollocks,
shitfaced worthless lump of fucking old-fashioned closed-minded fucking
twat!" Anna-Jade hurled her phone onto a nearby cushion, before hurling
herself onto the sofa, tears flowing freely from her eyes as she
struggled to control her scrambled emotions.
"God, get a grip, Anna-Jade," the Irishwoman whispered to herself as she
finally got her tears under control. "You're 26, for Christ's sake,
you're a woman, not a girl... And most DEFINITELY not a man or a boy!"
Anna-Jade stared at her slender body, clad in its tight grey bodysuit,
dark translucent tights and short denim skirt, and smiled. Everything
about the clothes she wore felt right. Her long, scarlet fingernails
felt right. Her cascading ginger hair felt right. And most of all, the
oestrogen that had flooded her body for over a year felt not just right,
but perfect. Anna-Jade wasn't just passable, she was cute- possibly even
beautiful. She'd never had any trouble catching the attention of single
men, even if her 'status' kept her love life to a minimum. And yet, her
parents refused to accept her, refused to believe that was she was doing
was good for her in any way, shape or form.
A beep from Anna-Jade's phone brought the Irishwoman's attention back to
reality. For a brief second, she dared to believe that it was a
voicemail from her parents, apologising for what they said and wishing
her a merry Christmas.
"Don't be so fucking stupid," Anna-Jade whispered to herself as she
peered at the notification, which was from Facebook, and read 'Mary
Carter sent you a friend request'. "Who the fuck's Mary Carter?" Anna-
Jade racked her brains, trying to think of anyone she knew by that name,
before suddenly realising exactly who 'Mary Carter' was- and more
importantly, how famous she was, especially in her native Northern
Ireland.
"Oh sh-" Anna-Jade gasped. "YOU'RE sending ME a request?" Hastily, Anna-
Jade opened her Facebook app and accepted the friend request, before
spending the next five minutes agonising over what message to send to
the famous young woman.
'Hi,' Anna-Jade ultimately typed, grimacing at the simplicity of the
message as she sent it.
'Hiya,' Mary almost immediately replied with a smiling emoticon. 'Was
great to meet a fellow Ulster girl the other night!'
'Likewise,' Anna-Jade replied with a smiley of her own.
'Not at work today then?' Mary asked. 'Not jetting to anywhere sunny and
glamorous?'
'I'm off to Dublin tomorrow if that counts,' Anna-Jade replied, giggling
as she earned a sticking-out tongue smiley in response. 'Take it you're
not wowing and crowds on any red carpets today then?'
'Lol no,' Mary replied. 'Just watching hubby play with our daughter.'
'You're not spending Christmas at home, then?' Anna-Jade asked.
'I've lived in London for five years,' Mary replied. 'This really is
home now. Besides, hubby's parents all live in London, and it's not like
I don't get back to Belfast at other times of the year. How about you,
you say you're from Derry, right?'
'Yeah,' Anna-Jade replied. 'But me and my parents... You know I'm trans,
right?'
'Rachel did tell me, yes,' Mary typed. 'And it doesn't matter to me one
way or the other.' Anna-Jade smiled, and conveyed her happiness with a
smiley, before typing her next message.
'It does matter to my parents, though,' Anna-Jade typed with a loud
sigh. 'I haven't spoken to them since I came out, they refuse to
acknowledge that I'm their child.'
'Oh, I'm so sorry,' Mary replied. 'People who abandon their offspring
like that don't deserve to be parents. If Kristina-Leigh told me that
she wanted to be a boy I wouldn't hate her, I'd give her a big hug and
praise her for being so brave.'
'In fairness, it's not like I'm a little kid,' Anna-Jade typed. 'I'm 27
next month, most people I know who are my age have families of their
own.'
'Still though, you shouldn't be alone at Christmas, of all times,' Mary
typed. 'Do you have any other family, any brothers or sisters?'
'One older brother, one younger sister,' Anna-Jade replied. 'Neither of
them have spoken to me since I came out either.'
'Your younger sister's name wouldn't be Michelle by any chance, would
it?' Mary typed, making Anna-Jade recoil in shock.
'Umm... How on Earth did you know that?' Anna-Jade typed.
'Lol,' Mary replied with a smiley. 'Used to know a girl called Michelle
Houghton from Derry, back when I was doing gymnastics competitions. Me
and you may have even met before!'
'Heh,' Anna-Jade replied. 'Yeah, she all but spat in my face after I
came out. Doubt she'd be willing to see me again.'
'You never know until you ask,' Mary typed. 'I've actually got her on my
friends list, I'll have a word, see if I can't 're-introduce' the two of
you.'
'Really, there's no need to go to any trouble on my behalf,' Anna-Jade
typed.
'It's fine,' Mary typed with a smiley. 'Always got told as a kid that a
good deed is better than any physical present. Leave it with me- I'll
message you back when I hear anything.'
'Thanks,' Anna-Jade typed. 'Merry Christmas!' The flame-haired
Irishwoman smiled as she set her phone back down beside her, before
laying back on the sofa and taking a deep breath. Her encounter with her
parents had taught her not to get her hopes up, but she couldn't help
but feel that she may have a family Christmas after all...
"How may I help you, miss?" Rachel asked, forcing a professional smile
on her face as she attended to her passenger, who simply stared at her
uncomprehendingly.
"Excuse-moi?" Zoe asked, internally giggling as she saw Rachel's
frustration increase. "Je suis d?sol?, je ne parle pas Anglais."
"Comment puis-je vous aider, mademoiselle?," Rachel asked, imperceptibly
biting her lip.
"Caf? au lait, s'il vous plait," Zoe requested, grinning as her former
supervisor placed the rich, hot beverage on her tray table.
"Ce sera tout, mademoiselle?," Rachel asked.
"Oui, oui," Zoe said, dismissing Rachel with a wave. The ticket for the
flight to Paris may have cost more than twice that of a budget airline,
but to Zoe, the opportunity to have Rachel wait on her hand and foot was
worth every penny.
After the plane landed at Paris's Charles de Gaulle airport- which had
been Zoe's 'second home' for so long, Zoe disembarked along with the
other passengers, pausing briefly to mouth 'sorry' to Rachel as she
walked past her.
After collecting her suitcase, Zoe headed to the tram stop, the same one
she'd used to travel home every day for over a year, and soon found
herself stood outside her old home. After taking a deep breath, Zoe
knocked on the door, and smiled as she was greeted by the disapproving
face of her sister.
"Come on in," Marie sighed, giving her sister a tight hug. "'Miss
Unemployed'..."
"Temporarily unemployed," Zoe corrected the older woman. "I should have
done this a long time ago, back when I was first having trouble at
work..."
"Back when you didn't have another job to go to?" Marie asked, making
Zoe snort dismissively as she collapsed onto the apartment's plush sofa.
"And are leotards and pointe shoes really that much better than tight
skirts and high heels?"
"Infinitely better," Zoe laughed.
"How long will you be in Paris?" Marie asked.
"Don't know," Zoe sighed. "Might see if I can get a flight down to Nice,
would be nice to spend Christmas with mum and dad, even if I won't get
there in time for le R?veillon..."
"Wait, you're not going back to London?" Marie asked. "What- have you
and Natalie had a falling out?"
"Ugh..." Zoe moaned, slumping down and resting her head on the back of
the sofa. "I- I kinda destroy everything I touch..." Marie sighed and
gave her younger sister another tight hug, before handing her the
apartment's phone.
"Call her," Marie urged Zoe. "You don't destroy everything you touch,
you just... Crack it a little. Nothing that can't be repaired by saying
'I'm sorry'." Zoe sighed as she took the phone from Marie and dialled
the number for her London home.
"Hello?" Natalie's voice answered.
"Hi Nat," Zoe answered in English.
"Zoe," Natalie sighed happily. "Thank god, where are you?"
"...In Paris," Zoe mumbled. "Nat, I just wanted to say I'm so-"
"Wait, what," Natalie said, interrupting the young Frenchwoman. "Paris?
What the hell are you doing there?"
"I- I just needed to get away," Zoe said, recoiling from Natalie's
anger. "I'm so sorry, so sorry I said what I did, Natalie, Natalie,
Natalie."
"That doesn't make what you said suck any less," Natalie replied. "Nor
does it excuse you skipping the country."
"France is my home!" Zoe pleaded. "Where else in England would I have
gone?"
"...Fine," Natalie sighed. "Do you know when you'll be back?"
"Not until after Christmas," Zoe said, wincing as Natalie groaned
disapprovingly.
"Fine, I'll just leave all your presents under the tree until February,
or whenever you feel like returning," Natalie sighed. "Nice to know you
take this relationship seriously."
"I do take it seriously!" Zoe pleaded.
"I'll believe you when you tell that to me face to face," Natalie
sighed. "See you after Christmas, Zoe." Zoe shed a solitary tear as
Natalie ended the call, before curling up into a ball on the sofa and
moaning softly. Marie was wrong- her relationship with Natalie was much,
much more than simply 'cracked'- and it was all Zoe's fault.
"This is so cool," Hayley gushed as the beautician coated her
fingernails with the same deep red colour as Jessica's, Paige's and her
mother's fingernails.
"Actually enjoying having an older sister, then?" Jessica asked the
fifteen year old girl.
"A soon-to-be-famous older sister, too?" Paige teased.
"I guess," Hayley sighed, making Jessica frown. "Though you always used
to hate reality TV?"
"Oh, trust me, she still does," Paige said, giggling as Jessica groaned.
"It..." Hayley said, before sighing. "I just don't want to be known at
school as the sister of a transsexual. You know what school's like, the
assholes there will cling onto ANYTHING..."
"Aye, it's no different in Britain," Paige sighed sympathetically.
"I can't be something I'm not," Jessica said in a quiet yet defiant
voice. "I'm sorry if this causes trouble for you, I really am, but- but
you have to understand what it's like for me."
"I know, I know," Hayley sighed. "Just- you never gave any hint of it
when we were growing up."
"I learned to hide my emotions," Jessica said, bringing a look of shame
to her mother's face.
"You always kid seem kinda... distant," Hayley whispered. "Like, there
was a part of your life you didn't want anyone to see. Guess we're all
seeing it now, heh!"
"Jessica," Mrs. Tyler said in a small, timid voice. "Were- were you
really that unhappy when you were a b- when you were a child?"
"I wasn't miserable, as such," Jessica shrugged. "But I was never truly
happy, never truly content... I always had this nagging feeling at the
back of my mind, always knew there was something wrong. And then I
figured out what was wrong... And that just made it worse."
"I wish you'd told us sooner," Jessica's mother sighed.
"After the way you reacted in February?" Jessica asked. "Would it have
made a difference?"
"What's important is that everything's out in the open now," Paige
interjected. "If you ever need to speak to anyone, I can give you my
parents' phone number-"
"I know how to handle my own daughter, thank you," Mrs. Tyler said,
silencing the Scottish girl.
"But does dad?" Jessica asked, frowning as Mrs. Tyler remained silent,
unable to answer her daughter. "He hasn't said five words to me since
I've been back home."
"He... He took it pretty hard," Hayley whispered as the four women (and
their fresh manicures) stepped out into the cold New York air.
"You know, you were nearly named Calvin junior, after your dad?" Mrs.
Tyler said. "When he learned that you'd changed, you'd rejected being a
man... It was like you were rejecting him."
"That was never my intention," Jessica whispered. "This is my life, not
his. I love him just as much as his daughter as I did as his son. I
just... I just don't feel that the feeling's mutual."
"It IS your life," Mrs. Tyler said. "But your father and I spent almost
two decades of our lives raising you. At first, it felt- it felt like
you were throwing that back in our faces."
"I'd never, ever do that!" Jessica retorted, tears welling in her eyes.
"I'll happily tell anyone who'll listen that I had a good childhood, a
GREAT childhood, and you two were great parents, just- I wish I'd been
your daughter rather than your son. This isn't a decision I've taken
lightly, I've literally been agonising over it for the past five years-"
"Then why haven't you started hormone pills?" Hayley asked, silencing
her older sister. "If you were that committed, like you say you are,
then why haven't you started taking oestrogen, like Paige?"
"Because..." Jessica said, before closing her eyes and silently cursing.
"Because I needed to know that I had your support. That I had your
approval... that I had your love."
"You'll ALWAYS have that," Mrs. Tyler said, embracing her daughter. "You
don't need our approval. You've proved that you're a strong, smart
independent woman. As for support... I promise that, male or female,
you'll always have a home under our roof."
"...Thank you," Jessica w