"Urgh..."I groan as I'm awoken from a blissful slumber by a loud
knocking on my front door. "Stop fucking banging..." I grab my phone to
check the clock, only to roll my eyes when I discover that it's gone
11am. Fortunately, today is Wednesday, meaning I'm not at uni today,
but that also means that none of my friends are either, as I discover
when Ophelia (who has obviously already been up for ages) opens the
door.
"Helloooo!" Katie giggles loud enough for me to hear in my bedroom.
"Flying solo today then, Ophelia?"
"If by 'flying solo' you mean 'am I the only person awake in the
apartment', then yes," my BFF replies, making me groan as I know what's
inevitably going to happen next.
Sure enough, twenty seconds later, Katie and Lauren burst into my
bedroom, each bashing a saucepan with a ladle and sporting a wide,
sadistic grin on their faces.
"Up and at 'em!" The two young women each yell, their giggles only
intensifying when I try to pull my sheets over my head.
"Ugh, leave me alone," I pout. "I'm a uni student! I need my lie ins!"
"Huh, do you see any other uni students in this room, Miss Henderson?"
Lauren asks.
"I believe I do, Miss Burnett!" Katie replies, before banging the
saucepan next to my head yet again.
"Okay, okay! Fuck!" I yell, throwing back the sheets and pulling on a
dressing gown over my long pink t-shirt. "I'm going to get you back for
this, I swear."
"Oh stop pouting," Katie giggles. "And put on some clothes."
"Oh- seriously?" I snort. "The way you two are dressed?"
"What's wrong with the way we're dressed?" Lauren pouts, placing her
hands on her hips- which, like the rest of her (and Katie's) legs, are
encased in pink tights, while their torsos are covered in skin-tight
black leotards with only flimsy see-through skirts to preserve their
modesty.
"You look like you're four," I say, earning face gasps of shock from
both girls.
"Well I never," Lauren tuts. "And how, pray tell, are we supposed to
look, having just come from a ballet class?"
"They have changing rooms there, don't they?" I retort.
"I know what the problem is," Katie giggles as she sits down on my bed
and ties a pair of shiny satin dance shoes to her feet. "Jealousy that
she can't do this!" I roll my eyes as Katie stands up and- while
grabbing onto my chest of drawers for balance- balances on the tips of
her toes on one foot while stretching her other foot high above her
head.
"...Never mind Jacinta, I'M jealous I can't do that!" Lauren laughs.
"Stupid curvy body..."
"Yeah, my body's pretty 'stupid' too," I say, instantly lowering the
mood in the room.
"...To be fair, though, so was Nikki's, and I think she can do a
vertical split en pointe now too," Katie says.
"Make me even MORE jealous," Lauren giggles. "And make me jealous of a
gorgeous, girly 5' 10" goddess with plenty of her own curves too!" I
blush at my friend's teasing, but a smile creeps across my face as I
head into the bathroom and the two women don't let up on their playful
compliments.
"And you've had a place held open for you at the ballet class for weeks
now," Katie reminds me. "You could be stretching your leg behind your
head within weeks if you wanted..."
"Yeah, well 'a space' isn't 'two spaces'," I reply, earning happy sighs
from my friends.
"Oh Jacelia, you're breaking my heart..." The two young women sing,
making me roll my eyes as I jump under the shower and try to wash away
my tiredness.
When I emerge, my friends have headed through to the flat's tiny living
room, leaving me free to get dressed in a plain grey hoodie, black
tights and a knee-length black denim skirt, but the second I enter the
living room, the teasing resumes.
"FINALLY," Lauren says with a very loud, very fake-sounding sigh.
"Good AFTERNOON," Katie giggles.
"It's 11:48am, it's not the afternoon," I feebly retort as I crash onto
my sofa. "And besides, aren't students supposed to spend all day in
bed?"
"I had always thought that that stereotype only applied to teenagers,"
Ophelia says with a smug grin on her magenta-coloured lips.
"And I see three teenagers in this room," Katie says, before giggling
and picking up one of the birthday cards on the TV cabinet- one with a
large '20' on the front. "But Miss Hanley is not one of them!"
"...Fine," I say, before letting out a giggle. "Okay, just let me get
my laptop then we'll get started." The other girls smile as they dive
into their coursework, while I think back to the events of my birthday
eight days ago- and the many celebrations that happened in the weeks
beforehand too.
First was Ophelia's 19th birthday, a week before Christmas- which
happily coincided with the end of our first semester of university,
meaning that all the girls were more than in a mood to celebrate. Even
though dad and I had tried to make her 18th birthday extra-special, it
was nothing compared to her 19th for one very good reason- or rather,
several very good reasons, each of whom donned their most elaborate
make-up and tightest corsets and invaded our flat to treat the birthday
girl like the princess she deserves to be. After the madness of that
party, Ophelia (and I for that matter) were almost relieved to head
back down to Brighton to spend Christmas with dad, but we were back in
London for the New Year, and for Katie's 19th a short while afterward.
As good as those parties were from a personal perspective, though, the
one held last Tuesday for my 20th was easily the best of the lot.
There was no special 'theme' or costume for the party- everyone simply
came in their sexiest clothes- but for the duration of the night, I was
treated like royalty. I received more gifts- and better gifts- than I
ever had before, had far more attention lavished on me than I'm used
to, and was even treated to an impromptu 'home makeover' from my
friends in the morning, but the best thing about the party was
definitely that I got to spend it with an amazing group of people who
have quickly become true friends of mine. And also my dad, who came up
for the party, stayed overnight and wouldn't shut up about the untidy
state of our flat.
One thing's for certain, though- as much as we may tease each other
(and it is a LOT), I know that in Katie and Lauren- and, for that
matter, Nikki and Sarah- I have a group of friends I'll always be close
to, even if we do go our separate ways after university. Even though
Ophelia and I are outsiders to this group, we're just as much 'members'
as the other girls, and slowly, but surely, we're integrating into the
famous 'Angel family' with the likes of Jamie-Lee Burke and others. Of
course, as nice as the fame is, it's the genuine friendship that's more
important, but getting my face on a few of the Angels' Instagram posts
certainly doesn't hurt!
...But even despite all the parties, all the fame and all the
friendship, there's one thing I still don't have in my life- the ever-
elusive 'Prince Charming'. I've been on date after date over the last
few months, but none of them so much as ended in a, well, 'fumble', let
alone any penetration, and certainly not anything long-term. The fact
that most of my nights out are with the university's LGBT society
probably doesn't help, either. Most of the men in the society are gay
and believe they're complimenting me when they say they're not
interested in me (and in a way, I suppose they are complimenting me),
whilst I obviously have no interest in any of the women in the society
(though a few of them have shown interest in me- which is also
complimentary in a way!).
Fortunately, I'll always have Ophelia in my life- who is of course
still as single as I am- but it's hard not to feel unloved and
unwanted, especially considering what date is just around the corner...
"So..." Katie teases her blushing best friend. "Decided on your dress
for Sunday yet?"
"Not yet," Lauren mumbles.
"Maybe you should just skip the dress and have a private 'dinner' at
home in just a teddy," Katie teases, giggling as Lauren gives her a
playful shove. "Retaliate all you want, I KNOW you've done that in the
past with Michael!"
"Says the girl whose third date- and we all know what that means- with
her current boyfriend just so happens to fall on the 14th of February?"
Lauren retorts, making the freckled girl roll her eyes.
"So I've got needs?" Katie shrugs. "Been months since I split from
Neil, there's only so long you can run a washing machine for..."
"...And now you know why we don't live together," Lauren sighs.
"...Which make of washing machine do you prefer?" Ophelia asks, making
both myself and Lauren cringe.
"Don't tell me you've only had that one two months and you've already
knackered it?" Lauren asks.
"It's in surprisingly good condition," I reply. "Given that very little
of what Ophelia wears is actually machine-washable.
"I've gone through countless pairs of rubber gloves since Christmas,"
Ophelia interjects, making the three of us cringe yet again.
"Hand washing things, I hope," Katie chuckles.
"Emphasis on the word 'things'," I say, biting my lip as Ophelia rolls
her eyes- while she's almost as used to the teasing as I am, she is
still the same shy young woman who spent the first part of her life
being emotionally beaten down by her family, and sometimes I wonder
whether or not I take the teasing TOO far...
"The same 'things' you have asked me to make for you on countless
occasions?" Ophelia asks, making me roll my eyes (and breathe a quiet
sigh of relief) as Katie and Lauren have a quick giggle at my expense.
"How many of them need washing, how many of them need cleaning, and how
many of them need polishing?" Katie asks with a wicked grin on her
freckled face.
"How many of them do you clean in the dishwasher?" Lauren asks, causing
all of us- even Ophelia- to burst into a fit of giggles.
"Ah, knew she wasn't so above it all," Katie says, giggling even more
as my BFF rolls her eyes. "Miss 'Category four'..."
"I assure you that everything I am wearing today is category one,"
Ophelia retorts. "Even the corset. And the nipple clamps." I almost
drop my laptop- as do Katie and Lauren- at Ophelia's deadpan
revelation, only to sigh and roll my eyes when a wide grin spreads
across my BFF's face.
"It'd be a bit rich for us to complain, given that we're STILL wearing
category two," Lauren says, adjusting the neckline of her tight
leotard.
"My undies on Sunday will DEFINITELY be category four, though!" Katie
says with a twinkle in her eye, making me sigh as the conversation
again returns to the topic I'd hoped to avoid. "...What's up, Jacinta?"
"I- I think I know what the problem is," Lauren mumbles. "All-, umm,
you know, 'all dressed up and nowhere to go'?"
"More like 'all dressed up and no one to do'," I sigh.
"Oh- Jacinta..." Katie sighs, leaning across to give me a hug. "You
seriously don't have anyone you can ask?"
"My dad," I snort, making my friends roll their eyes. "Seriously. And-
ugh, this'll sound silly..."
"No, go on," Katie urges.
"...I kinda want someone to ask me, you know?" I sigh. "Cinderella
didn't propose to Prince Charming, did she?"
"Normally I'd be all 'girl power' here, but under the circumstances I
think you deserve a 'pass' on this one," Katie says.
"Aren't there plenty of guys in the LGBT society you go to?" Lauren
asks.
"...GAY guys," I say, sighing as Lauren blushes deeply at her faux pas.
"Sorry, sorry," Lauren grimaces.
"Is- is that, you know, a, umm, a compliment?" Katie asks. "You know,
the point where gay guys, umm, stop being attracted..."
"Gay guys stopped being attracted to me the second I put on lipstick
and a skirt," I chuckle. "And it kinda is, maybe when I'm in a 'girl
power' mode, but when I'm in a 'for god's sake someone get me a man'
mode, not as much. And this time of year is worst of all."
"There's BOUND to be a guy out there for you somewhere," Lauren says,
before blushing again at her poor choice of words. "Okay. There are
MILLIONS of guys who'd happily date you. You're 5' 10", slender but
curvy, you've got a really cute face-"
"And a great rack," Katie interjects, earning a frown from her best
friend. "What? She has."
"Most of which isn't flesh and blood," I snort. "Well, not yet, anyway.
Almost a year and a half on oestrogen and it's getting there, though. I
doubt THOSE are the parts of my anatomy guys would be fixated on,
though."
"I hope by that you mean they'll be focussed on your great arse," Katie
says, before letting out a long sigh. "Jacinta- me and Lauren are going
to get you a Valentine's date."
"We are?" Lauren asks, before smiling confidently. "That's right, we
are. For both of you, in fact." My BFF- who has remained quiet as
always throughout the discussion- suddenly looks up with a look of
shock on her face.
"Umm, I- I don't need a date, thanks," Ophelia says, her affected posh
accent slipping and her regular working-class Brighton accent poking
through, meaning this must have REALLY shocked her...
"We're not going to throw you into bed with a footballer or someone
like that," Katie says. "It's funny, all your talk of washing machines
and, well, 'category four', I've never seen you even look at a guy. Or
a girl, if that's what you'd prefer..."
"I do 'prefer' men," Ophelia says. "But I- ugh."
"I think we should drop this topic," Lauren says softly, earning a
silent 'thank you' from my BFF. "But you know, I reckon there IS
someone out there for you too, Ophelia. Your own 'Prince Charming', you
know?"
"He would have to considerably more than 'charming' to be my 'prince',"
Ophelia says, her smile returning as the other girls- myself included-
giggle at her joke.
"When you say 'more' do you mean length or width?" Katie asks, before
grimacing and glancing in my direction. "Eesh, sorry Jacinta, I-"
"Seriously, don't worry about it," I chuckle. "Sometimes I even forget,
heh."
"Yeah, but-" Katie argues.
"No buts!" I interrupt. "How about this: from now on, no more being
oversensitive about things like penises or vaginas. We're all friends
in this room, and more importantly, we're all girls. So if you want to
make a dick joke, you go right ahead, because as far as everyone's
concerned, I don't want one, and the sooner I lose it, the better,
deal?"
"...Deal!" Katie says, grinning widely at my outburst.
"Deal!" Lauren giggles. "...On that topic, though, you know Nikki's
going, well, 'inside' in a few months, right?"
"...And jealous again," I say. "Well, envious, anyway. Is 'vagina envy'
a real thing?"
"Nikki's booked in with one of the best surgeons in London, I'LL
probably be envious of it," Katie giggles. "And I'm not going to take
that back, because if dick jokes are on the table, then so are hoohah
jokes."
"Though if everybody could please keep their genitals OFF the table,
I'd be much happier," Ophelia interjects, making the four of us giggle
as we get down to work on our university projects.
Our friends- who are still inexplicably wearing their ballet leotards-
depart early in the afternoon, and as they go, I feel a twinge of
sadness, closely followed by a pang of jealousy at the thought of their
upcoming Valentine's dates. However, I know the girls well enough to
know that their offer to get dates for myself and Ophelia is not an
empty gesture, and it wouldn't surprise me if they'd started looking
for guys for us the second they left our flat. It's obvious, however,
that my BFF isn't quite as comfortable with the idea as I am.
"Fancy a cup of tea?" I ask my BFF as she continues her sketching.
"Please," Ophelia replies, not looking up from her work.
"You- you alright?" I ask my friend, who simply sighs in response.
"A better question would be whether or not you are alright," Ophelia
replies. "With all this talk of Valentine's Day..."
"I'm fine, honestly," I say. "I mean sure, I'm dateless, but I'm not
the only one, am I? Plenty other people out there who'll be single on
Valentine's Day, unwanted... Unloved..." I feel tears trickle down each
cheek, and within seconds, my BFF has wrapped me in a tight hug as I
quietly weep onto her shoulder.
"It's okay, it's okay," Ophelia whispers as she holds me. "Let it
out..."
"I mean five months, for fuck's sake!" I wail. "Five months! You'd have
thought that SOMEONE would have noticed me by now, said hi, maybe told
me I was cute..."
"You ARE cute," Ophelia insists.
"You're straight, your opinion doesn't count," I retort, leading to an
awkward pause that breaks when we both break down in a fit of
uncontrollable giggles. "Ugh, damn hormones..."
"What you just said," Ophelia says with a smirk, wiping a tear away
from her own eye.
"Seriously, are you okay?" I ask Ophelia as we sit down next to each
other on our sofa. "I know you're not the most boy-hungry person in the
world, heh. Or even on this sofa, come to think of it..."
"As with everything in my life, the situation is complicated," Ophelia
sighs. "You know the situation regarding my family. I am the only one
of my sisters to have remained a virgin at the age of fourteen, and the
only one to have not been a mother at the age of seventeen."
"...Sounds to me like you've already 'won', then," I say.
"Then why does it not feel that way?" Ophelia sighs. "For the first
time in my life, I have a group of real friends, and all of them are
either engaged, like Nikki and Sarah, in a long-term relationship like
Lauren, or boy-hungry like Katie or-"
"Or me," I interrupt. "I- I'm not going to apologise for having a sex
drive..."
"Nor should you," Ophelia says. "And it is not like I don't appreciate
that sex can be an enjoyable thing."
"Our washing machine can attest to that," I say, making my BFF roll her
eyes.
"It's the thought of, well..." Ophelia says hesitantly.
"Doing it with someone you don't like?" I ask, sighing as Ophelia nods.
"Nothing wrong with having some standards, everybody does."
"Everybody apart from my mother and my sisters," Ophelia snorts. "I- I
don't want to end up like them, that's the problem."
"Trust me, you won't," I say, giving my friend's hand a gentle squeeze.
"Like I said, you've already 'won'. You are so unalike your sisters I
still wonder whether or not you were adopted, heh."
"I highly doubt anyone would have ever allowed Theresa Lowe to adopt a
child," Ophelia says, making me snort with laughter. "But thank you
anyway."
"And you yourself have said you wouldn't rule out getting together with
the right guy," I say. "Provided he IS the right guy for you. And I'm
sure you know that there's only one way to find him- he's not just
going to drop into your lap..."
"Yes, yes," Ophelia sighs. "Very well, if Katie and Lauren wish to find
us Valentine's dates, then I will allow them."
"Excelle-" I begin, only to be immediately cut off.
"But," Ophelia says, raising one of her long, slender fingers. "But.
They find dates for US. I am doing this for you, not for myself, so I
shall only go on a 'double date' with you and the man they find for
you."
"Can't think of a better way to spend a Valentine's Day," I say, making
my BFF smirk. "Though if it does end up with my getting laid, you're
sleeping on the sofa, okay?"
"We have single beds and I wear a corset to sleep and have an extra-
thick memory foam mattress," Ophelia retorts, before gesturing to our
(admittedly double-sized) sofa bed. "YOU'RE sleeping on the sofa."
"...Okay, fine," I say with mock protest, before bursting into a fit of
giggles that my 'sister' happily shares with me.
We spend the rest of the evening watching TV and concentrating on our
coursework, but as I head to bed, I can't help but wonder what kind of
guy Katie and Lauren will set me up with. Will he be tall or short?
Will he be blonde or dark-haired? Might he even be ginger? And most
importantly of all, will he be okay with the idea of dating a
transgendered girl? I trust that Katie and Lauren wouldn't knowingly
set me up with a bigot, but there's always the possibility that someone
might lie to them in order to get close to me to 'teach me a lesson' or
something ridiculous like that...
Fortunately, despite my anxiety (and, in fairness, excitement) about my
potential impending date, I'm able to sleep through the night, and when
my alarm wakes me and my BFF the following morning, I let out a tired
yawn as I swing my slender, hairless legs out of bed... Before
suppressing a giggle at the sight of Ophelia in the middle of her
complicated morning routine.
I've often mused that my own morning routine- whilst far more intricate
than 'Jason's ever was- is surprisingly straightforward for a girl.
Pee, shower, blow-dry and brush hair (which I always wear loose to save
extra time), apply make-up, pull on underwear and get dressed in the
outfit I chose the night before. Even including the time it takes to
make breakfast, eat breakfast and brush my teeth, some days I can be
ready and out of the house in under half an hour.
Ophelia, on the other hand, requires a LOT more time than me. Her hair
is even longer than mine, so like me, she ties it back to sleep- but
rather than tie it into a loose ponytail, she styles it into an
elaborate high bun atop her head, fixed in place with countless bobby
pins, all of which she needs to remove before her hair can be washed.
Removing her 'pyjamas' is also a performance- while I wear a very
comfortable long vest and boy shorts set, in winter- which it is now-
Ophelia sleeps in a pair of thick woollen tights and a long-sleeved
skin-tight leotard with sewn-in mittens. Pulling on and removing these
clothes takes long enough at the best of times, but Ophelia then wraps
a tight corset around her waist that takes ten minutes to lace up and
ten minutes to unlace every morning (Ophelia's explained to me she
can't simply unclasp the corset as that risks damaging it). Ophelia
then spends four times as long as I do in the shower- unsurprisingly,
she's become very obsessive about how she smells after growing up where
she did- before applying a layer of pale make-up so thick that hardly
any of the actual skin on her face shows through. Her underwear is also
much more intricate than mine- a frivolously tiny lacy push-up bra and
G-string set and a pair of intricately patterned suspender tights- and
then comes the task of lacing her into her corset for the day,
something I help her with as if I don't, it can take her up to half an
hour by herself. Buttoning her into her dress is a relatively
straightforward task, but tying her petticoats around her waist isn't,
helping her fasten the numerous delicate clasps of her extra-high-
heeled shoes isn't either and helping her with her numerous accessories
and jewellery CERTAINLY isn't.
However, when the procedure is eventually complete, I always have a
smile on my face- my BFF looks on the outside, as always, like the
truly unique personality that she is on the inside. I, on the other
hand, am happy just to look on the outside like the girl I am on the
inside, in my very plain black tights, dark blue turtleneck and short
pleated skirt.
"Ready?" I ask my teal-haired BFF.
"As always," Ophelia replies with a smirk, before grabbing her
elaborately-decorated handbag and her (obviously) vintage overcoat and
following me out of the door and to the nearest tube station.
A short while later, Ophelia and I arrive at the front entrance of the
London College of Fashion, where we're greeted by our friends,
including the one we didn't see yesterday- whose absence hadn't gone
unnoticed.
"Morning, stranger!" I tease Sarah, who response with a half-sigh,
half-giggle.
"Yes, yes, okay," The brown-haired nineteen year old woman sighs,
sounding more tired than usual, almost like she's in some kind of pain.
"Sorry I couldn't make it yesterday, I was too busy babysitting Nikki's
sister, need a little bit of extra pocket money."
"And how much exactly was your trust fund again?" Lauren asks, earning
an eye roll in response.
"Not enough to live off," Sarah retorts. "Not enough to avoid having to
take out the same stupidly big student loan as the rest of you."
"Not enough to make Mr. Corbyn not see seem like a really, really good
idea?" Katie teases, making me and Ophelia- both of us having voted
Labour in last year's election- smirk.
"When hell freezes over and he promises not to bankrupt our business,
yes," Sarah retorts. "Enough politics! This is the London College of
FASHION, not the London College of Politics!"
"Is there a London College of Politics?" I ask.
"Never heard of student unions?" Lauren asks with a snort of laughter.
"EVERY college is the college of politics!"
"But we love them anyway, right?" I ask, giggling as my friends all
respond with an enthusiastic cheer, before we go our separate ways-
Sarah, Lauren and Ophelia heading to their class while Katie
accompanies me to ours.
After being introduced to our topic for the day, our class is broken up
into groups to discuss the matter at hand, and fortunately, Katie and I
are placed into the same work group, giving me the perfect opportunity
to grill my friend about the promise she made yesterday.
"Soo..." I say as Katie and I pore over our reading material.
"So...?" Katie replies.
"I- I figure it might be a LITTLE short notice," I say, "but last
night, you did say you'd be trying to find dates for me and Ophelia..."
"Oh- yep, we're working on it!" Katie says with a smug grin. "Trust in
your fairy godmothers, we'll get you someone."
"Me AND Ophelia," I say. "We've decided we want a double date on
Valentine's Day."
"...Could be trickier," Katie says. "Both finding a guy willing to
double date on V Day and, well, finding a guy suitable for Ophelia." I
bite my lip at my friend's response- whilst what she says is true-
Ophelia herself would probably agree with it- she could at least have
worded it differently. And it's not just Ophelia that she's implying
something about...
"...Are you saying that I'm easy, then?" I retort, smirking as Katie
sighs and shakes her head. "Do you even know what my type is?"
"Male?" Katie replies, making me roll my eyes. "With a working dick?
And need I remind you, by your own words, I'm not supposed to feel bad
about making jokes like that anymore?"
"...Fine, you're not THAT far wrong," I say, making the two of us
almost bend double with giggles, which earns us both a stern stare from
our tutor! "About both of us, actually."
"Nothing wrong with NOT jumping onto the nearest available dick," Katie
shrugs. "Sometimes think there are things we could all learn from
Ophelia. Well, apart from how to breathe when your lungs are crushed
down to the size of golf balls, anyway."
"Yeah," I chuckle. "Thing is, though... I don't, you know, want to
leave Ophelia all by herself, you know? Especially on Valentine's Day
of all days. I know she wouldn't have much of a problem of it, she's
not, well, as needy and desperate as I am, but, you know? We do this
together or not at all."
"D'aww," Katie coos at my impassioned speech. "REALLY want to set you
up with each other now..."
"Yeah, well, the lack of a working dick is kinda a turn-off," I say,
making Katie giggle yet again. "But, you know? Sisters, that sort of
thing?"
"I get it, really I do," Katie says. "So cool that you've got, like, a
proper best of the best friend like that."
"You've got Lauren," I shrug.
"Yeah..." Katie says. "Only known her a couple of years, though, and we
both had, you know, best friends from school. Lauren would probably
still be closer to Dannii than me if Dannii hadn't been, well... Yeah."
"I still haven't met her," I say. "Not properly anyway. Get the feeling
I'm not missing much."
"You really aren't," Katie snorts. "Point I'm trying to make is that
you and Ophelia really have something special, given how close you are.
'Course, Nikki and Sarah ARE closer, but- well, yeah."
"Kinda hard to get any 'closer' than 'inside the other person'," I say,
causing another fit of giggles than earns me and Katie another stern
stare from our tutor. "Think we should probably actually do some work
now."
"Probably," Katie says. "And don't worry about the V Day date. Your
fairy godmothers have everything in hand!"
"Thanks," I whisper with a smile as I turn back to my reading.
I try to immerse myself in my reading for the rest of the morning, but
I'm only able to devote so much attention to my books before my mind
again wanders to thoughts of Sunday, what my date will be like- by
which I mean both the person I'll be dating and the actual date itself-
what we'll be eating, where we'll be going and, most importantly of
all, what I'll be wearing...
Naturally, my 'distraction' only increases when Katie and I head to
lunch to discover not three, but four friends waiting for us- my fellow
transgendered girl has arrived and is, much to everyone's amusement,
sat on her fianc?e's lap with her head resting on her shoulder.
"That looks comfortable," Katie says with a sarcastic snort of
laughter.
"It is," Nikki purrs.
"Think she was talking to me babe," Sarah replies, causing Nikki to
pout- which, of course, results in a long, gentle kiss between the two
women.
"Ahh, SO cute," I sigh as Katie and I grab chairs for ourselves- and,
much to Nikki's dismay (and Sarah's relief), one for our 'guest'.
"I assume the two of you have planned something particular special for
Valentine's Day?" Ophelia asks, frowning in confusion as 'Snikki' reply
with awkward giggles. "Have- have I said something inappropriate?"
"We- we're not exactly big V-Day fans," Sarah explains. "I always seem
to get sick, or, well, 'external factors' always try to ruin it..."
"This year's going to especially suck," Nikki sighs, giving her fianc?e
an extra-tight cuddle.
"Yep," Sarah sighs. "Guess who got a call from the hospital yesterday,
telling her that she's having her wisdom teeth out tomorrow?"
"Oh- seriously?" Lauren moans. "Kept that quiet. Um, pun NOT
intended..."
"They've been giving me grief for weeks," Sarah sighs. "Typical that
they'd finally be dealt with now of all days."
"Wow," I whisper. "Suddenly don't feel so bad about my own hideous V-
Day history."
"Or my non-existent history on that day," Ophelia says softly.
"Fortunately, this year's WILL be better," Katie says. "You have our
patented Henderson-Burnett guarantee!"
"What, you two getting dates for Jacelia for V-Day?" Sarah asks,
perking up a little.
"That's the plan!" Lauren giggles.
"Jacinta would NOT stop pestering me about it throughout the morning
class..." Katie mock-sighs, giggling as I give her a playful shove.
"Fortunately, Ophelia was a little- well, okay, a LOT quieter about
it," Lauren teases.
"Hence why this is the first I'm hearing about it, then," Sarah
mumbles.
"My apologies," Ophelia says quietly.
"Oh- I'm not having a go, honestly," Sarah says. "Can't all be as,
well, 'public' about our love lives..." Sarah giggles as her fianc?e
wraps her arms around her and gives her a long kiss on her cheek.
"I don't think ANYONE could be as public about their love lives," Katie
snorts, causing another kiss between 'Snikki' as the table giggles once
again.
"We won't expect the same from you, don't worry," Lauren reassures my
BFF. "Obviously though, we'll expect a post-mortem of the dates."
"Hopefully not a 'blow by blow' description," I say, making Lauren
laugh so hard she almost chokes on her food.
"Not sure we should be talking like this in front of Ophelia," Katie
teases, making my BFF blush.
"I am fully aware what a blowjob is," Ophelia says, before grinning
widely as she greedily tucks into her sausage and mash.
"Why do I get the feeling there's so much we DON'T know about you?"
Lauren muses. "About either of you, for that matter."
"I am sure that there is just as much that we do not know about you,"
Ophelia replies, making the black-haired girl smile.
"Touch?," Lauren retorts. "Maybe we should make, I dunno, a resolution
or something to get to know each other better?"
"Think you're a month too late for that!" Nikki giggles.
"Nah, never too late to make new friends," I say. "Or grow closer to
the ones we already have. EXCEPT when it comes to intimate details of
love lives! There are some things I simply do not need to know!"
"Agreed!" Katie giggles. "And like I said in class, don't worry about
the 'big day'. Lauren and I will find you suitable guys, we promise."
"And I know a few male models at Heavenly Talent," Nikki interjects.
"Can ask them if they'd want their contact details passed on."
"Male models?" I ask. "Hell yes, please!"
"Ladies and gentlemen, Miss Jacinta 'High Standards' Hanley!" Katie
teases, giggling as I give her a playful shove.
The rest of lunch passes by in a haze of giggles punctuated by very
occasional eating- just like most of our lunches at university,
especially when all six of us are present. After lunch, Katie and I
spend the rest of the day in the library until the end of the uni day
just after 3pm, but for me, the day isn't over just yet, as after I bid
farewell to my freckled friend, I head to the nearest tube stop and hop
on a train that whisks me away to a small office in Islington. Once at
the office, I take a seat in the waiting room, before being called
through to the office of Dr Lisa Deakin- the gender identity counsellor
I've been seeing ever since my relocation to London.
"Hi Jacinta!" The forty-year old woman says with a smile as I sit down
on her comfortable sofa. "How have the last couple of weeks been?"
"Okay," I say, taking a deep breath. "Uni's going alright, dad seems
happy, so does Ophelia."
"Ah, we go over this every session," Dr Deakin chuckles. "How are YOU
feeling, Jacinta?"
"...I'm okay," I confess, blushing slightly at having been 'caught out'
and hoping futilely that I'm not 'caught' any further. "Really, I am.
Okay, maybe not PERFECT..."
"Tell me what's on your mind," Dr Deakin says, making me internally
sigh- I've never been the most 'guarded' person in the world, unlike
Ophelia, and Dr Deakin IS a trained counsellor, so I basically have
zero chance of hiding anything. Especially something like this...
"It- it's Sunday," I say. "This Sunday coming."
"Ah, Valentine's Day," Dr Deakin says with a sympathetic smile. "Yeah,
I remember being twenty and single and thinking that V-Day was NOT
fun."
"Seriously not fun," I laugh. "Especially as all my friends have got
plans, or boyfriends, or even fianc?es, heh."
"It's important to remember that it IS only one day a year," Dr Deakin
advises. "On the 15th of February everyone will be back at work or
university regardless of their relationship status."
"I know," I say. "And in fairness... My friends ARE setting me up with
a guy for, well, Sunday..."
"Okay," Dr Deakin said. "Obviously I'm not going to recommend you don't
go on a date, even though Valentine's Day isn't the date I'd pick for a
FIRST date, but there's no real harm in it, as long as you make sure
that you don't expect too much from it."
"I know, I know," I sigh. "I'm not expecting to get married by the
summer or anything, heh. But I can at least be optimistic, right?"
"There's a fine between optimism and overconfidence," Dr Deakin reminds
me. "As long as you're realistic, there's no need to be pessimistic. So
tell me, what's this young man like?"
"Umm..." I say hesitantly. "I haven't- I haven't actually met him
yet..."
"Ah," Dr Deakin says quietly. "Well, as I've just told you my usual
policy about first dates on Valentine's Day, you can probably guess how
I feel about blind dates on Valentine's Day."
"Probably," I say, trying to suppress a sigh.
"Jacinta," Dr Deakin says, not even bothering to suppress her sigh.
"Your transition is still at a delicate stage, even after eighteen
months your body- and more importantly, your brain- is still adapting
to the hormones that are changing it."
"I know," I mumble.
"And, of course, your body has barely had time to get over the flood of
testosterone it had been subjected to," Dr Deakin says. "There are
reasons we have to tread very carefully when prescribing HRT to people
as young as you."
"You - you're not going to-" I stammer.
"No," Dr Deakin says. "There's no reason I can see to ever take you off
HRT. Everything I've seen shows that this is 100% the correct course
for you- umm, pun not intended, of course. But your emotions ARE still
in turmoil, and what you've told me about your relationship
anxieties... I want you to be cautious, Jacinta. Don't go into this
date expecting to be in a relationship on the 15th."
"I won't, I promise," I say.
"I believe that you believe that," Dr Deakin says. "But one of the most
common topics we cover in these sessions is your need for
companionship- for want of a better way of putting it, your need for
love."
"...Sometimes, maybe," I mumble.
"What concerns me the most is that you seem to be jumping into this
date with both feet," Dr Deakin says. "It's not uncommon to feel a need
to be with someone when you've been single for a while, but you ARE
only twenty. Try not to forget that, Jacinta."
"I'm also the only single twenty year old I know," I retort.
"Then maybe you need to expand your circle of friends," Dr Deakin says
bluntly. "Not that there's anything wrong with the friends you have, of
course. Especially your transgendered friend Nikki- having someone you
can relate to, someone with whom you can compare experiences is a
definite positive."
"Experiences other than being single," I laugh. "She's one of the
engaged ones, and she's only eighteen."
"She was lucky," Dr Deakin shrugs. "Even you know how unbelievably rare
it is to be with someone at that age who you'll spend the rest of your
life with. And even many engagements or marriages between people that
young don't last long."
"Would that apply to any relationship I start, then?" I ask.
"Probably," Dr Deakin says, her tone growing blunter with every
response to my questions. "Prince Charming isn't going to just fall out
of the air, Jacinta. There's no reason to be pessimistic. But try not
to let yourself get carried away in the moment- especially when you
have so much in your life already. Your uni work, your friends..."
"I know," I say. "I- I guess it's just a bit of fun. And it IS only one
day a year, heh."
"That's more like it," Dr Deakin says, prompting a smile from both of
us.
Naturally, though, when I arrive home, my only thoughts are on the
upcoming date, and while Dr Deakin's words of caution are ringing in my
ears, it doesn't take long for me to start feeling optimistic again-
especially when I hear the unmistakable sound of Ophelia's sewing
machine coming from our bedroom. She doesn't have any outstanding
practical projects, meaning that she's making clothes for her own
personal use, which she only does when there's a special occasion
coming up- and it doesn't take a genius to jump to the end of this
particular chain of logic.
"Hope you're making a dress for me too for Sunday!" I yell, giggling as
the sewing machine abruptly stops.
"...Remind me to inform Katie and Lauren that two of us already know
each other EXTREMELY well," Ophelia replies, making me giggle even
louder. "And yes, yes I am making you a dress. Unfortunately I will
have neither the time nor the materials to make either of us any
lingerie, and certainly not any matching shoes."
"Oh, I'm sure the dresses will be worth it!" I laugh. "What you want
for dinner?"
"Just a sandwich, please," Ophelia says as the noise of the sewing
machine resumes. "I intend to work late on the dresses."
"Don't you have a written assignment to do as well?" I ask.
"I have time in which to complete that," Ophelia replies.
"And a problem- that totally ISN'T your fault- that means you need to
take extra time on it," I retort, wincing as the sewing machine stops
once again. "...I'll get your sandwich. Be in there in a bit."
Naturally, once I've made Ophelia her sandwich (which I make sure is
very well-stuffed and garnished with greens so that she gets the proper
nourishment), her sewing machine is going once again, and when I enter
our bedroom, it's not a surprise to find that it's in full-on 'workshop
mode', with swathes of fabric covering almost every surface. What's
most exciting, though, is the dress that's hanging from my wardrobe
door.
The dress is extremely short- coming to almost mid-thigh on the wearer-
so low-cut that it'll be a miracle if any of the wearer's breasts
remain in it for more than four seconds, and made of a stretchy dark
purple fabric with royal blue thread throughout that will hug and
accentuate the wearer's curves beautifully. Easily the best thing about
the dress, though, is that it's designed for a taller girl- a girl of
almost 5' 10"- and a girl with a wider waist than Ophelia's, and
there's only one girl I know who fits that description.
"This-" I say as I gently stroke the soft, smooth fabric of the dress.
"This is- Wow. Thank you so, SO much!"
"I was making it anyway, before I found out about the date," Ophelia
says with a smirk. "I thought it would be very... Exciting. For both
yourself and your date!"
"Mission accomplished!" I say with an excited squeak. "Can- can I try
it on now?"
"I am not happy with some of the stitching," Ophelia says. "Perhaps
tomorrow or Saturday. Of course, it will be completed long before
Sunday evening!"
"SO amazing," I whisper.
"As will my dress," Ophelia says as she checks the stitching on the
latest length of fabric she'd just sewn.
"You're making a new dress for the date?" I ask. "Would've thought
you'd alter an old one..."
"I will confess," Ophelia says, "I am actually starting to look forward
to the date, and the possibilities that it might bring."
"Oh my god, really?" I squeak, biting my lip as my BFF's blushing
cheeks start to shine through her thick pale make-up.
"The main reason I am looking forward to the date is the opportunity to
make a new dress," Ophelia explains. "I have had several ideas in my
mind that I have wanted to make a reality."
"All dressed up and finally somewhere to go?" I tease.
"Something like that," Ophelia whispers. "I never thought I would go on
a proper 'date' like this, certainly not when I was younger."
"There's someone out there for everyone," I shrug. "Every woman
deserves romance, regardless of what they look like on the outside. And
yes, that 'outside' comment applies to both of us, heh."
"I was thinking more along the lines of what my family considers to be
a 'date'," Ophelia says quietly.
"...Guessing there's not much romance involved in THAT?" I mumble.
"You guess correctly," Ophelia whispers, biting her lip as she
continues her work.
"Well one thing's for damned sure," I say, gently sitting down next to
my BFF. "Out of all the Lowe sisters, you're the only one any of the
guys from university would even look at!" As the words leave my mouth,
I cringe at my inadvertent implication. "Ehh... Damned by faint
praise... Sorry."
"I know what you mean," Ophelia says with a smile. "We ARE apparently
psychically linked, aren't we?"
"Do you know what I'm thinking right now?" I ask.
"I don't need to read your mind to know THAT," Ophelia retorts. "And I
will have it finished and adjusted as soon as possible, I promise."
"You're the best," I say with a giggle. "Now make sure you eat!"
"Yes, yes, I will," Ophelia says, before a smug grin creeps across her
face. "And yes, I am. One thing is for certain, though."
"Oh?" I ask.
"With all the effort I am putting into our dresses," Ophelia says, "the
men will have a LOT to live up to!" I giggle as I leave my BFF to her
work, which she continues until long after 9pm, only stopping when the
time comes to begin her lengthy 'getting ready for bed' routine.
Naturally, with my date dress hanging on the wardrobe door mere inches
away from my face, I don't get much sleep, but when I wake up, I'm
still buzzing with excitement about Sunday- especially as there's only
one weekday left before the big day, and Friday afternoons are always
designated as 'private study' time anyway. Today, however, 'private
study' is probably going to take on a slightly different meaning than
the one our lecturers intended- and from the looks on Katie and
Lauren's faces when we arrive at university, it's clear that they're of
the same mind as me and Ophelia.
"Hey girlies!" Katie squeaks, greeting me with a tight hug and Ophelia
with a slightly gentler one. "Only two days to go to the big day... And
to answer your inevitable question, yes, I may have heard from Miss
Thomas that she may have found two EXTREMELY good looking guys for the
two of you for Sunday..."
"Oh?" I ask, barely suppressing an excited giggle. "Do we get to see
these hunks before flinging ourselves at them?"
"Depends on how quick you plan to fling yourself at them on Sunday,"
Lauren says with a smug grin. "We've got pictures of them, don't worry.
Will show you during lunch. Or rather, after lunch..."
"What, you mean during the time when we'll be hard at work in the
library?" I ask, prompting all four of us- Ophelia included- to break
down in a fit of giggles. "You had the same idea as us, then?"
"Need a new dress for the date," Katie shrugs. "They don't just appear
out of thin air, do they?"
"You could always just wear thin air on the date..." Lauren teases,
giggling as her BFF gives her a playful shove. "But yeah, same goes for
me, need a new dress as I didn't have the time to make one, what with
all our assignments, heh."
"Fortunately, I HAVE had the time," Ophelia says with a smug grin,
earning gasps of excitement from our friends.
"Oh, PLEASE tell me you have photos of them!" Lauren gasps. "Your other
designs have been SO gorgeous..."
"Please tell me you've got enough spare fabric and time to make me
one!" Katie giggles, making my BFF blush.
"Unfortunately, I have only had the time to make dresses for myself and
Jacinta," Ophelia says, biting her lip at the sighs of disappointment
from our friends. "However I would be more than happy to make you
dresses-"
"It's okay, it's okay," Lauren giggles. "Got Sarah to lean on if I want
free clothes. Well, once she gets better, anyway..."
"Ah, she already in hospital?" I ask.
"Yeah," Lauren sighs.
"We should do something to help cheer her up," Ophelia says, making me
grin- twelve months ago, she'd have been the last person to suggest
that. "Such as a party, or some kind of gathering."
"Yeah," Katie says with a smile. "Yeah, that'd be nice. Well, once she
feels a bit better anyway, I remember having my wisdoms out, that was
NOT fun. She won't be able to drink for weeks either..."
"Fortunately, though, we will on Sunday," Lauren says, raising the mood
once again. "Which brings me back to this afternoon- in addition to new
dresses, we'll also need new shoes..."
"Ah, my kryptonite," Katie giggles.
"Ditto!" I giggle. "Kinda gonna need some, umm..." My voice trails off
as I realise that what I'm about to suggest is intimate in every sense
of the word- and despite our newfound 'openness', possibly even TOO
intimate.
"...Go on," Katie teases.
"I kinda..." I say, desperately trying to stop my cheeks from flushing.
"Need new... Lingerie?" Despite my best efforts, my face turns redder
than a tomato as my friend's jaws drop and they look at me with a
mixture of surprise and excitement on their faces.
"...Oh. My. God," Katie gasps. "I- I haven't been to Ann Summers in
AGES!"
"I- umm, I mean, we- we've never been at all," I mumble, my
embarrassment fading.
"Oh my god, we are SO taking you there after lunch!" Lauren says,
looking almost giddy with excitement herself. "Do- do you remember that
time we took Snikki there last June?"
"What, just before Dannii's birthday?" Katie asks. "Yes. THAT will take
some forgetting, hehe!"
"Share the joke," I say to my freckled friend, who gasps and blushes at
her own overenthusiasm.
"Oh- sorry, sorry," Katie says, flapping her hands excitedly. "It's
just- last time we went there with Nikki and Sarah, they-"
"They may have been a little bit shocked by what they found inside that
shop," Lauren says, barely suppressing a giggle. "Sarah because of her
middle-class upbringing, Nikki- well, you know. You of all people
should know, heh."
"That didn't stop them from spending a LOT of money in there though!"
Katie says with a devilish twinkle in her eye. "So I hope you've saved
plenty of your student loan, heh!"
"Oh- yeah, trust me!" I giggle. "Got a reasonable idea of what goes on
in THAT shop, hehe!" I giggle. "Ophelia and I never went to the one in
Brighton, though."
"I..." Ophelia begins hesitantly. "That is to say, my family, including
myself, even though I had nothing to do with the incident in
question..."
"Go on..." Katie says, smirking at Ophelia's obvious discomfort.
"Umm..." My BFF mumbles, clearly embarrassed by the story.
"Oh come on, you can't leave us hanging like that!" Lauren protests-
and despite my usual protective attitude toward my BFF, I'm as eager as
Katie and Lauren for Ophelia to finish her story- leaving me feeling a
little guilty...
"...Maybe finish this later?" I suggest, earning a silent 'thank you'
from my BFF.
"No, I can finish the story now," Ophelia says, taking as deep a breath
as her torturously tight corset will allow. "My- my sisters were caught
shoplifting from Ann Summers, my mother caused a scene when she went to
collect them, and the whole family was banned as a result."
"Yikes!" I involuntarily say, making my cheeks redden once again.
"You didn't know about this?" Katie asks. "Maybe you're not THAT close
after all..."
"It is hardly something of which I am proud," Ophelia mumbles.
"I- I'm sorry," I sigh. "But I have to know- which sisters? It- it
wasn't Candice, was it?"
"No," Ophelia whispers. "It was Kylie and Sharon."
"Both older," I explain to Katie and Lauren.
"Though they were 15 and 13 at the time," Ophelia says, almost making
Katie and I double over with laughter as we head toward our first
class.
"God..." Katie says once we're out of earshot of Lauren and Ophelia.
"You- you know Nikki's been on the Jeremy Kyle Show, right?"
"Yeah, I actually remember watching it," I say. "And no, there's no way
you'd get Ophelia on that show in a million years!"
"I was about to say," Katie says with a snort of laughter. "The rest of
her family sounds like the only people in the country too lower-class
even for Jeremy Kyle!"
"Having met Ophelia's family," I retort. "...You're right. Thank god
Ophelia's the 'white sheep', heh!"
"More like 'only sheep'," Katie says. "In a family of, I dunno,
crocodiles or something..."
"Not the best comparison," I say. "Ophelia's mother doesn't have nearly
enough teeth to be a crocodile!" The two of us giggle happily as we
head toward our first- and only- class of the day.
After a very, very quick lunch, the four of us pack our books into our
bags, grab our coats (it's February- it's not warm outside) and take
the tube to the centre of London and its many, many clothing stores.
Ophelia and I have been living in London for almost five months now,
but we've never been on any 'big' shopping trips, just the occasional
visit here or there to a new charity or second-hand store that my BFF
has had her eyes on. Today, however, will be different, as evidenced by
the excited grins on Katie & Lauren's faces when they lead us into a
small but very posh independent clothing store that neither Ophelia nor
I have ever heard of.
"Now THIS is one of my favourite shops," Katie says with a smug grin.
"Maybe a bit pricier than the likes of Primark but the quality is
GREAT, the designs are really cool and the owner-"
"Is standing right behind you," an older woman's voice says, making
Katie smirk and roll her eyes.
"Girlies, meet Denise Du Pont," Katie says, making me smirk with
confusion- Denise's accent is probably even stronger London than
Katie's. "Denise, you already know Lauren, I'd like you to meet Jacinta
Hanley, who's on the same course as me, and Ophelia Love, who's on the
same course as Lauren."
"A pleasure," Denise says, exchanging air kisses with me and my BFF.
"So, let me guess- big dates on Sunday, new dresses needed?"
"Kinda obvious, right?" Katie giggles. "I still get my staff discount,
right?"
"Don't push it," Denise retorts, before heading off to greet another
customer who's just entered the store.
"You've worked here before?" I ask as I peruse the racks of gorgeous
dresses, smiling at the feel of the various different fabrics running
through my fingers.
"Kinda," Katie says. "I did some freelance work for Denise over the
summer. Probably more valuable is that I kinda abused my connections a
bit, sent a couple of the Angels her way, let her get publicity shots
of them trying on dresses and shopping in here, that sort of thing. Now
THAT won me a lot of brownie points, hehe!"
"Can imagine!" I giggle. "Ah, shouldn't get TOO distracted by these
dresses when I know I've got a gorgeous one waiting for me at home..."
"You'll have a second date, won't you?" Katie shrugs, a devilish grin
creeping across her face. Rather than say anything in response, I grab
a beautiful-looking strapless dress with a fitted bodice and a long,
flowing skirt and head to the nearest changing room, emerging a few
seconds later to wolf whistles from my friends.
"Aww, that fits you SO well," Lauren sighs as I lift my hair to let the
girls examine the back of the dress. "So lucky, being 5' 10"..." I bite
my lip, and from the sound- or lack of sound- of the awkward silence
behind me, I'm probably not the only one...
"...Remembering WHY I'm 5' 10", anyway," I mumble.
"...Just makes you a 5' 10" GIRL," Katie says smugly. "Now get that
dress off, it's my turn!" I giggle as I return to the changing rooms
and exchange my dress for the skirt and top I wore to university, but
my giggle fades when I see Lauren looking at a nearby rack of skirts
with a guilty look on her face.
"Hey, umm, Lauren," I mumble.
"Hey Jacinta," Lauren whispers. "I- umm, sorry about, umm, you know..."
"Honestly, I'm the one who should be sorry," I sigh. "Me saying 'don't
be afraid to make jokes' then saying 'oh everyone knows I'm only 5' 10"
because I'm transgender'... Yeah. So don't worry about it. Honestly. If
I have to say this a thousand times."
"Thanks," Lauren says, giving me a quick hug.
"And for what it's worth, I am TOTALLY jealous of your curves!" I say,
making the black-haired girl giggle appreciatively. "Who wants to be a
tall stick insect anyway?"
"You'd be surprised," Lauren says with a derisive snort of laughter.
"Tall and curvy, though, now THAT's the perfect body!"
"Are you saying my body is perfect?" I ask, giggling as my friend
starts to blush.
"I know I'd kill for it," Lauren shrugs. "Regardless of, well, 'add-
ons'. Doesn't make it any less girly or gorgeous. ESPECIALLY in that
dress, hehe!"
"You should see the one Ophelia made for me!" I whisper with a wink.
"Well we're not going to see anything while SOMEONE hogs the changing
room!" Lauren says loudly, earning a loud sigh from inside the changing
room.
"Ta-dah!" Katie beams a few moments later as she emerges from the
changing room wearing a very daring long-sleeved dress made of
translucent dark red fabric with a built-in black leotard underneath
and a high slit up one side. "Worth the wait?"
"Now THAT is an 'Angel' dress, hehe!" I giggle as Katie does a twirl,
causing the light, floaty skirt of the dress to billow around her legs.
"It's also ?110, sadly," Katie sighs. "But it shows just how amazing
Denise's designs are."
"Not that I'm jealous, or anything..." Lauren says with a mock pout-
but behind her, I can see that my BFF's pout might be more serious than
Lauren's.
"Seen anything you like the look of, Ophelia?" I ask, earning a
typically enigmatic look in response.
"A few items have taken my interest," My BFF replies. "Will you be
buying that dress, Jacinta?"
"For ?35? Probably!" I giggle as I gently examine the strapless gown
I'm still holding in my arms. "...Though of course, your dress is the
one I REALLY want."
"Of course," Ophelia says with an obviously forced smile that makes me
sigh.
"I mean it," I say. "No need to be, you know, jealous... I'm a twenty
year old girl in a dress shop, obviously I'm going to be a little bit
excited!"
"I am not jealous," Ophelia says, before her face falls into a frown.
"Okay. Maybe I AM jealous. But not of the thought that I might 'lose'
you."
"Then- then what's up?" I ask.
"These designs," Ophelia explains. "They are far ahead of my own. FAR
ahead. I would not blame you for wanting to wear that dress instead..."
"No- no," I say. "YOU'RE the designer whose clothes I like the most.
The BEST. Denise- she's a professional, you know? Been at this ages, by
the time you've been designing for as long as she has, I'm sure you'll
be a million times better."
"Perhaps," Ophelia shrugs. "Even though Lauren and Sarah are also
better than me too..."
"I wouldn't sa-" I begin, before being abruptly cut-off by an
unexpected voice.
"Forgive me for eavesdropping," Denise says, making me cringe as I
realise that she's likely heard every word I've said- many of which
weren't very complimentary of her...
"Umm, hi!" I say with an overenthusiastic smile. "I LOVE this dress!
Where do I pay?"
"Just a second," Denise says, before turning to Ophelia with a smile on
her face. "Did you say that you were a designer yourself?"
"Yes..." Ophelia hesitantly replies. "This- this dress is one of my
designs." I start to smirk as Ophelia does a slow twirl in her home-
made dress, showing off the intricate pleats sewn into the knee-length
skirt. "As is the corset I am wearing underneath."
"Very interesting," Denise says. "So you make underwear too?"
"When I have the time," Ophelia replies. "I find it is often more
difficult than making regular clothing, because-"
"Because it needs to fit a lot more snugly," Denise finishes my BFF's
sentence for her. "Unless you use a lycra material anyway, but then you
don't get as much flexibility with the design- pun unintended, heh."
"Precisely," Ophelia says, her lips quickly turning upward into a wide
grin. "Especially a corset, which must be custom-measured to the
wearer's size."
"I've never actually designed a corset before," Denise says. "I'd be
interested in any tips you might have. In fact... I'd be interested in
seeing your portfolio."
"I- I would be happy to show it, hehe!" Ophelia replies- and it should
go without saying that her giggle was EXTREMELY uncharacteristic of
her.
"You girls have Wednesday free from university, don't you?" Denise
asks. "Drop back next week, I'll take a look. Who knows, I may even
feature some of your designs in the shop!"
"R- really?" Ophelia asks.
"Don't have time to design ALL of this by myself!" Denise giggles. "I
feature independent designers all the time. Sold a dress that Lauren
and her friend made only yesterday, in fact. Though that one in your
arms is all mine, heh!"
"I- I'm flattered," I giggle as I examine the dress once again.
"That's why it's slightly less expensive than the other items," Denise
says. "No commission. So if you've got your ?28 on you, I can get that
checked out now if you'd like."
"But- but the tag says-" I say.
"20% employee discount," Denise shrugs, making me frown with confusion.
"But- but I don't work here-" I stammer.
"Let me show you something," Denise says, leading me toward a side wall
of her shop. "You've seen all the boards around the store, right? Of
famous customers?"
"Yes..." I reply.
"Take a look at this one," Denise says, showing me the board, which has
a faint sky blue and pink border. "Recognise any faces?"
"Is- is that Nikki?" I ask as I look at a picture of a dark-haired girl
wearing a very short, very tight dark mauve cocktail dress.
"It is indeed," Denise says. "And the girl next to her is Steph Abbott,
from Out of Heaven. Above her is Jamie-Lee Burke, to the side of her is
a model called Kelly Watson who I reckon will be a very big deal before
too long." Needless to say, the significance of these names isn't lost
on me.
"...You overheard me talking to Lauren, too?" I mumble.
"I hear everything that goes on in this shop," Denise says with a warm
grin. "I'd love to see your picture on this board. Call it a 'modelling
job', hence qualifying you for an employee discount!"
"...I dunno," I mumble.
"Okay, okay, I know most models get paid more than ?7 per job, heh!"
Denise says. "And trust me, you are more than beautiful enough to go on
this board."
"I- I'm just not, you know, comfortable being... Singled out," I
grimace. "I mean, I- I just want to be a girl, you know? Without
anything going in front of the word 'girl'."
"And that's what you are," Denise says. "I understand that you might be
concerned that I'm singling out transgendered girls, but the truth is,
I see myself more as promoting them. You, sorry. How many girls do you
suppose are living the lives they want because of the example set by
Jamie-Lee Burke, or by Steph Abbott? How many girls gained the courage
to come forward?"
"...I dunno," I shrug. "Bound to be a few, I guess."
"And what if there were girls who live the life they always wanted to
lead because they followed the example of Jacinta Hanley?" Denise asks,
making me smile.
Half an hour later- after trying on countless more dresses, of course-
the four of us walk out of the shop each carrying a fancy bag that
contains an even fancier garment- even Ophelia, who found a maxi skirt
she intends to alter and wear in summer. Naturally, even though all of
us now have sizeable holes in our bank balances, we all have wide grins
on our faces- and my grin is probably widest of all, thanks to the new
friend I made and the new opportunity I never expected to have a mere
sixty minutes ago. Naturally, I obliged Denise's request for a
photograph, and even got a couple of extra copies to take home with me
(one of which I'm definitely planning to frame and send to my dad). As
the four of us head to our next destination, there's only one thing on
my mind...
"So, Katie," I ask my freckled friend. "Know any other small business
owners in need of a girly and gorgeous 5' 10" model?"
"...Maybe," Katie teases.
"First, though, we NEED new shoes!" Lauren giggles with an almost
ravenous look on her face.
"Ahh... We are SO a bunch of stereotypes," Katie giggles. "You are
right though, we DO need new shoes. This shop's going to be a high
street chain shop, I'm afraid, don't know any independent shoe makers.
What it DOES have, though, is two large floors filled with footwear of
every imaginable type!"
"And despite your sickeningly sexy 5' 10" frame," Lauren says, "you are
NOT going on that date wearing a heel lower than three inches!"
"And even then, you'll still be shorter than the guy Nikki's lined up
for you!" Katie giggles.
"You'll not get any argument from me!" I say in an excited squeak as we
head toward our next destination. "About the shoes OR the guy!"
Naturally, the four of us spend the next hour trying on countless pairs
of shoes before we eventually settle on the pairs that we'll be wearing
to our date. Whilst we don't get the personal treatment we got at
Denise's shop, that doesn't stop us from having fun- especially when
Ophelia tries on a pair of extra=high platform shoes and we spend
almost twenty minutes trying to outdo each other with increasingly high
heel heights! I eventually settle on a pair of dark pumps with a 4"
extra-narrow stiletto heel and a closed toe (due to the shortness of my
dress, I'll need to wear tights with it), though I also pick up a pair
of cute ballet flats for everyday use and a pair of reduced-price
thigh-high boots that almost seemed to be screaming at me to buy them
from the second I laid eyes on them- and that I immediately change into
once I've bought them!
"Well then," Lauren says, taking a long, hard look at my leather-clad
legs as we leave the shop. "You're definitely dressed appropriately for
the last stop on our shopping trip, hehe!"
"I am so excited about this!" I giggle. "It's hard to believe that a
shop like this even exists, hehe!"