"Here she comes!" Hayley squeaked excitedly as the black London taxi
pulled onto the street. Sophie fidgeted nervously in her loose dress,
forcing a smile on her face as she prepared to hold up the banner that
she and many of her friends had spent the previous evening making.
"Everybody ready?" One of the two identical ginger-haired Scottish women
asked, smiling as everyone nodded affirmatively.
"On three," the other ginger-haired Scotswoman said. "Ready? One, two,
three..."
"Welcome home!" All the assembled women cheered, making Paige shriek as
she gingerly stepped out of her taxi, accompanied by her grinning
fianc?e.
"Jeez-" Paige hissed, before giggling at the sight of all her friends.
"Worth reminding you all that I'm not used to peeing out of it yet?"
"Well I'm not hugging her then," one of Paige's sisters snorted, folding
her arms with a smug look on her face. "After you, Trish."
"You first, Nina," Trisha replied, before sharing a giggle with her twin
sister as their younger sister rolled her eyes.
"It's the one time I'm actually gonna welcome a hug from either of you,
don't waste it," Paige said, before grinning as her sisters both gave
her a gentle hug.
"Mum and dad would be down but they're busy with the guest house," Nina
explained.
"Aye, it's okay, I'll be seeing them soon enough!" Paige giggled as her
sisters and her fianc?e helped her toward her front door.
"Speech!" Anna-Jade called out, making the raven-haired girl roll her
mismatched eyes.
"We did come all this way," Abbey said with a mock pout. "And we made
you this lovely banner. Some of us even took leave..."
"Oh- fine," Paige sighed. "Thank you all for coming, it really does mean
a lot to me. I am going to be off my feet for a LONG while though, heh.
But hopefully I'll see you all soon."
"And you're all welcome to drop round anytime," Jessica said with a warm
smile. "From tomorrow onward, anyway. Someone kinda needs to get settled
in first, hehe!"
"We'll be round tomorrow, you can be sure of that!" Natalie giggled as
the Scottish girl and her family disappeared inside her flat and the
crowd started to dissipate.
Relieved to be away from the thronging crowd, Sophie let out a light
sigh as she and her two flat mates headed back to their flat. Both Amy
and Hayley had been excited by Paige's return and what it represented,
but Sophie herself felt conflicted. She was happy for Paige, of course-
she understood how hard she'd worked to earn the right to have a body
that matched how she felt inside. But while Sophie herself didn't feel
the same way, she had also worked hard in the same way over the previous
nine months- and she too had the same option open to her that Paige and
the rest of her friends had, whether she wanted it or not. And much to
Sophie's horror, over the previous three months, there had been times
when she had found herself wondering about the life that was available
to her.
In the weeks immediately following her decision to continue working on
her expose, Sophie found herself relaxing more and more, both in her job
with the airline and in her home life. Her social life also greatly
expanded- she began regularly attending the group's Sunday morning dance
lessons and went on more nights out with Amy and Hayley, including a
memorable night out in the middle of March where the trio had finished
as runners-up in a karaoke competition at the pub Rachel owned. At
times, Sophie even had to remind herself that the whole reason she was
immersed in that life was to work on her expose- but there were other
times when she was brought crashing down to reality and reminded that
her life as 'Sophie' was only temporary, and all of those times
coincided with when her friends talked about the more intimate nature of
their transitions.
Every time the topic of conversation in the flat concerned hormones or
surgery, Sophie found herself squirming and wishing that she could be
transported to literally anywhere else in the world. When they were
talking about make-up, work or clothes- even lingerie- Sophie had no
problem relaxing and joining in the conversation, but the second Amy or
Hayley brought up oestrogen, Sophie felt her chest tighten, and she knew
precisely why- because it was proof that she was a fraud. Amy and
Hayley- and Paige and Jessica, and Anna-Jade, and even Natalie, who like
Sophie was 'chemically male'- had lived their entire lives fantasising
about being women. They had worked just as hard as Sophie had to achieve
their goals and in many cases sacrificed a lot to fulfil their dreams.
Sophie, meanwhile, had stumbled across this life almost by chance. To
girls like Amy and Hayley, being a woman was almost literally a matter
of life and death- to Sophie, it often felt like little more than a
game, which filled her with a deep sense of shame- and made her wonder
where the harm would be if she chose to transition herself as well.
Sophie frequently talked through her anxieties with her counsellor,
whose advice- and staunch refusal to prescribe hormones- helped to
soothe her mind. Nonetheless, the conversations with her flat mates
continued to make her uneasy, especially as she knew that there would
come a time when she'd never have those conversations again- and that
thought horrified Sophie just as much as the thought of having the
surgery that Paige had just had...
"...SO can't wait for my SRS," Amy gushed as Sophie half-listened.
"Ugh, tell me about it," Hayley sighed. "Can't believe it took me this
long to get oestrogen, heh."
"Well you're on it now, and that's what's most important!" Amy giggled.
"Did your counsellor give you any reason why they delayed so long, or
was it- well, you know...?"
"My dad?" Hayley sighed. "That's what she told me. When she saw that I'd
made an effort to track her down but couldn't, she knew there wasn't any
reason to keep me off them any longer."
"Good," Amy said. "How about you, Soph?"
"Hmm?" Sophie replied, startled by the sudden mention of her name. "Umm,
sorry?"
"The magic medicine?" Amy teased. "Any closer to the pills yourself?"
"Oh, umm- no, not really..." Sophie awkwardly replied. "I- I'm still,
you know, deciding, heh."
"I dunno," Hayley giggled. "That dress you're wearing looks like
evidence that your decision's been made, hehe!"
"And that lipstick!" Amy teased. "And those flats, and that handbag...
trust me, Sophie, no BOY would ever have that good taste in fashion!"
"I dunno," Sophie mumbled as her cheeks began to redden. "I had two
really good teachers, though!"
"D'aww!" Amy and Hayley simultaneously cooed.
"Speaking of 'teaching'," the ginger-haired girl teased, "are you
looking forward to tomorrow?"
"A little," Sophie replied.
"I'm surprised you didn't take the opportunity in February," Hayley
says. "I actually found it really rewarding to mentor Kiera."
"Yeah," Sophie chuckled nervously. "I just- I dunno. I was still
learning the job myself, heh." And was pretending to be a stewardess
just as much as I'm pretending to be a woman, Sophie thought to herself.
"Umm, we started on the same day?" Hayley reminded the brown-haired
woman. "And we've been on flights together, you're just as good at the
job as I am. I reckon your rookie will be lucky to have you as a
mentor."
"Aww, thanks!" Sophie replied, allowing herself a girlish giggle. "Hope
my trainee agrees, heh."
"I'm sure she will," Any said with a grin. "And if she's only just
started to transition, she'll have a hell of a role model there, too!"
"Yeah!" Sophie chuckled nervously, feeling her body start to tremble
with nerves as the three women headed home.
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"Easy now," Jessica said as she, Nina and Trisha slowly lowered Paige
onto the air mattress. "Nice and slow..."
"I know how to sit down, thank you very much," Paige snorted, before
wincing as her sensitive new area pulled in an uncomfortable direction.
"Ugh, I used to, anyway..."
"You heard everything the surgeon told you," Jessica chastised her
fianc?e. "For the first few weeks you're going to need to relearn how to
do everything."
"Especially peeing!" Trisha quipped, before biting her lip and smirking
as Jessica and Paige both shot her an angry glare.
"But you've got three whole months off to do it in," Jessica said. "By
the time you go back to work you'll have forgotten what it was like to
NOT have lady parts."
"God, I hope so," Paige replied. "Just wish you were here the whole
three months..."
"So do I," Jessica sighed as she exchanged a gentle cuddle with her
fianc?e. "Gonna be even worse when it's my turn in December, heh."
"Ugh," Paige spat. "No offence Jess, but I am so NOT looking forward to
that. I mean, aye, I want you to, you know, be complete, but knowing
that you'll be at home in pain and I'll be flying off to Germany or
wherever with a bunch of stuck-up-"
"Yeah, I get it," Jessica chuckled. "Still, I'm off work the rest of the
week, and I am completely, 100% YOURS."
"D'aww," Nina cooed as she and her twin sat down on the sofa next to a
large pile of packages, all of which had Paige's name and address on
them. "Looks like these are all yours too, hehe!"
"Good," Paige giggled as she was handed the first of the packages.
"There's a few here from America too," Trisha said. "They from your
family, Jess?"
"Or Alexa and Jenny," Paige said. "God, I hope I'm well enough for their
wedding..."
"It's almost two months, you should be fine," Jessica said. "And you
will of course be well enough for the wedding in THREE months' time,
hehe!"
"If I have to drag myself up the aisle, I will," Paige replied, making
her sisters sigh happily as she exchanged a kiss with her fianc?e. "Just
about three months from now. Alana's probably not going to be happy with
me coming back from three months of sick leave only to immediately go on
honeymoon, heh."
"Her problem," Jessica said, taking her phone out of her handbag and
switching it on. "Should probably message everyone to let them know
you're home."
"Tell them to bring more presents, too!" Paige giggled as she opened yet
another 'get well soon' card. "And have you called mum and dad yet?"
"Aye, a few minutes ago, I told you!" Trisha replied.
"Yeah, yeah, alright," Paige snorted, before frowning in confusion as a
scowl spread across her fianc?e's face. "...Jess?"
"Ugh, voicemails from Alana," Jessica sighed as she clicked the button
to play the first message.
"Hi Jessica," the two women's manager's refined voice came through the
speakerphone. "We need supervisor cover to Paris today, give me a call
back when you get this."
"Umm... Aren't you on leave today?" Nina asked the blonde American
woman.
"On leave all week," Jessica replied. "There should be cover in place
though, she shouldn't need to call me..." Jessica frowned in confusion
as she played the second voicemail message.
"Jessica," Alana said in a much sterner tone than her prior message,
"call me when you get this message. We need to talk."
"She's fucking well got that right," Paige sneered. "Gonna call her?"
"I probably should," Jessica sighed, clicking the button on her phone to
return her manager's call (and switching off the speakerphone). After
two rings, the phone was answered, and Jessica braced herself for what
was coming next.
"Hello?" Alana asked.
"Hi Alana, it's Jessica," the blonde woman replied, trying her hardest
to disguise her anxiety. "You wanted to talk to me?"
"Yes," Alana replied. "We needed you to cover the Paris flight today,
why weren't you answering your phone?"
"Umm, because I'm on leave today," Jessica replied. "I wasn't down as
cover, was I?"
"No, Hannah was," Alana replied, making Jessica roll her eyes. "But she
needed the day off today, so I needed someone else to cover." Jessica
tried to control her anger as she heard the news- Hannah Marsh was one
of her fellow supervisors at the London hub, but unlike Jessica, she had
spent all of her time since being promoted ingratiating herself with
Alana to the extent that the two were rarely seen apart. As Jessica was
learning, this was paying dividends for Hannah.
"Who'd you get in the end?" Jessica asked.
"That's not important," Alana replied. "What's important is that you
weren't available to answer the phone when I called."
"I was in the hospital, my phone was switched off," Jessica retorted.
"And I've had this leave booked for months, you knew that, right?"
"Yes, but you should be prepared to put the company's needs first,"
Alana replied. "I'll be in touch, Jessica."
"Yeah, bye," Jessica said, letting out a long moan as she clicked off
her phone.
"...Thank god I don't work where you girls do," Nina said.
"You wouldn't be able to anyway," Paige said with a smug grin. "Maximum
age for a stewardess is thirty."
"Get tae-" Trisha replied with a look of pure fury. "If you still had
any nuts I'd be kicking you in them!" Paige giggled at the threat from
her sister- and the reminder of her new 'equipment'.
"It's especially worse for Trisha as she's the older one!" Nina said
with a smug grin.
"Piss off am I the older one!" Trisha snorted. "You're first
alphabetically, you're the older one!"
"It's only six minutes, I don't see why you're so defensive about it,"
Nina teased as her twin seethed and Jessica and Paige sat back and
enjoyed the show. "Is that even legal, anyway? Firing someone once they
turn thirty?"
"Ugh, it's a long story," Jessica sighed. "I'm sure Paige has told you
if before?"
"Tried to, anyway," Paige chuckled.
"You girls need a union," Trisha said. "Like, a proper trade union."
"Never gonna happen," Jessica sighed.
"Not while all the decision makers at the airline are busy brown-nosing
their superiors," Paige sighed. "Like one long, giant human centipede
with Antoine Masson at the front."
"What about Masson's daughter?" Nina asked. "Doesn't she still work for
the airline?"
"Only for another few months, before she goes to university," Paige
replied. "And things there are- well, kinda complicated..."
----------
"Can't imagine what it'd be like," Ellen mused as she and her girlfriend
shared a tall, cool strawberry milkshake at their favourite coffee shop.
"That is funny," Amelie replied with a smug grin. "I know from
experience that you know exactly what it is like to have a vagina!" The
French girl giggled as her northern lover playfully blew a few drops of
the milkshake at her through her straw.
"You know what I mean!" Ellen snorted. "Lucky her having three months
off sick though, heh! Kinda makes you jealous, I mean, us 'born as'
girls don't get that, do we?"
"Paige said to me that as we get maternity leave," Amelie shrugged.
"Which is more than three months."
"Yeah, doubt I'M going to knock you up any time soon," Ellen chuckled.
"Though it's not like I've got to focus on my career either, heh."
"Has Alana not given you a trainee again?" Amelie snorted.
"Yeah," Ellen sighed. "And no, I DON'T want you to throw your surname
around! I want to earn my way up the ladder, not buy it!"
"Some people in the company could learn from you," Amelie snorted.
"Including its owner."
"Your father's not done too bad, has he?" Ellen asked. "You've got to
have some talent to turn a billion euros into five billion, right?"
"It takes more talent to turn no euros into a billion," Amelie replied.
"But you are right that he is a good businessman. He is a less good
husband and father."
"That's another thing where I can't imagine what it'd be like," Ellen
said. "Getting anything you ever wanted."
"Trust me," Amelie growled. "There were things I wanted that I did not
get. A father who loves his wives and children more than money, to
begin."
"Yeah, that's why I said any 'thing'," Ellen sighed. "Some- well,
'things' are more important than 'things'."
"Are we talking about Paige again?" Amelie asked with a smug grin,
making Ellen snort and roll her eyes.
"Right," the northern girl sighed. "You can't tell me anymore that you
don't understand English slang!" Amelie giggled bashfully at her
girlfriend's teasing, before letting out a long sigh.
"I shall miss this," Amelie sighed. "My twelve months for the airline
have finished over a month ago."
"Doesn't mean you HAVE to leave the airline," Ellen said, before letting
out a long sigh. "Though I can't say I'd blame you. You know which uni
you'll be going to yet?"
"My father will want me to go to ?cole Normale Superieure, where my
brothers and sister went," Amelie replied. "He is a patron, it will be
free for me."
"I can request to transfer to Paris," Ellen shrugged. "I speak fluent
French, shouldn't be a problem, right?"
"And Alana will allow this?" Amelie sighed. "Or instead, Alana will be
allowed to allow this? Ugh, I think life was easier if I didn't work
with you."
"If you didn't work with me, we'd never have met," Ellen said softly.
"Trust me, life is much, much better this way!"
"...It is," Amelie giggled. "Maybe I should look at universities in
London? Maybe I already have?"
"...And you're only telling me now?" Ellen asked, rolling her eyes as
her lover giggled even louder.
"I thought I would surprise you when I was accepted," Amelie replied.
"But you were looking so unhappy I thought I would make it an early
present."
"And it's not even my birthday," Ellen giggled. "But thanks."
"De rien," Amelie whispered as she linked her fingers with her lover.
"It is nice to have someone who loves me for a reason that is not
money!"
"How d'you know I don't just love you for your money?" Ellen teased.
"Believe me, I know," Amelie giggled as she and her lover shared a long,
gentle kiss.
----------
The stewardesses who had welcomed Paige home spent the rest of the day
relaxing and musing about their own transitions- none more so than
Sophie, whose conflicted thoughts caused her to lay awake in bed
contemplating her future- or rather, what remained of her future as
'Sophie'.
The following morning, Sophie, along with her housemates, got out of bed
before dawn, expertly applied her make-up and slithered into a slinky
black pencil dress before heading westward to her place of work. There,
as usual, she exchanged her smart dress for the black blouse and blue
skirt, blazer, hat and heels that made up her uniform, but instead of
heading to an aeroplane once she was dressed, Sophie went the opposite
direction down the corridor to a small office where several nervous-
looking young women were sat. Sophie immediately recognised one of the
women, a petite blonde girl with piercing blue eyes, and sat down next
to her with a smile.
"Hi," Sophie said, trying her hardest to disguise her nerves. "I'm
Sophie, and you're Rachel, right?"
"R- right," the young woman replied. "Yeah, I- I'm, umm..."
"Really nervous?" Sophie asked softly. "No need to be, really. Okay, I
get it, the whole 'first day in a new job' thing, heh."
"Yeah," Rachel chuckled. "Especially as, you know..."
"It- it's your 'first day' in another sense?" Sophie asked, biting her
lip at the awkwardness of the question.
"Umm- no, actually," Rachel replied with a quiet giggle. "I mean, yes, I
know about the whole reputation of the airline, but I- I was born with,
you know, 'lady parts', heh."
"R- really?" Sophie asked, clearly surprised by the revelation.
"'Fraid so!" Rachel nervously chuckled. "I just always wanted to be a
flight attendant, and Soixante-Trois pay REALLY well, I speak French and
Spanish and I love visiting France and Spain so, well, yeah, really. If-
if you don't mind me asking, are- are you-"
"'Fraid so," Sophie replied with a nervous chuckle of her own. "I- I,
umm, came out about nine months ago, started working for Soixante-Trois
at about the same time."
"You're very, you know, umm, convincing..." Rachel said, before
blushing. "Sorry... I- I kinda, umm, never met a, umm, you know..."
"Never met a transgendered person before?" Sophie asked, smiling as
Rachel blushed. "It's okay. Want to know a secret?"
"W- what?" Rachel asked.
"Before I started working here..." Sophie said with a sly grin. "I'd
never met a transgendered person either, hehe!" Sophie and Rachel shared
a cheeky, girlish giggle as the rest of their colleagues arrived, and
before long, the room was hard at work as Sophie and the rest of her
more experienced colleagues instructed the trainees in the ins and outs
of working for Soixante-Trois Airlines.
After three hours of hard work, the 'class' broke for lunch, and Sophie
couldn't help but smirk at the overwhelmed look on her trainee's face as
the two of them picked at their meals.
"It's not THAT hard, honestly," Sophie said, making Rachel giggle
nervously. "It seems like a lot to take in, but you get the hang of it
very quickly."
"Ah, I remember saying THAT nine months ago!" A familiar Essex accented
voice said, making Sophie roll her eyes as the owner of the voice sat
down next to her.
"Hi Abbey," Sophie chuckled. "Rachel Lyscombe, meet Abbey Watkins, my
mentor when I started here. Abbey, meet Rachel, my trainee. Guess you
could say you're her 'grand-mentor'?"
"Oh- shut up," Abbey said with a derisive snort of laughter. "Remember
you're actually older than I am?"
"It's nice to meet you, Abbey," Rachel said, exchanging a feminine
handshake with her new friend. "How long have you been working for the
airline?"
"Just over three years," Abbey replied. "Had my ups and downs in that
time. That- that was kinda, you know, an aeroplane joke, heh."
"I got it," Rachel said with a smirk. "So, umm, you- you've worked here
for three years?"
"Yep!" Abbey replied, her smile faltering as an awkward silence
descended over the table.
"...You can ask her," Sophie said, sitting back with a smug grin as her
trainee's cheeks started to redden.
"Umm, okay..." Rachel mumbled. "Abbey, are- are you-"
"Yes, yes I am," Abbey replied with a smirk. "There's no need to be so
coy about it, you're going to be working with a lot of 'girls like us'.
Some of us will prefer not to talk about our transitions but a lot of us
will be open to any questions you might have. Though... Would I be right
in guessing that you don't, well, 'need' any questions answering?"
"...Guilty as charged!" Rachel replied with a giggle.
"Ugh, SO jealous," Abbey sighed.
"Never had anyone be jealous of me for being born before!" Rachel said.
"Well, get used to it," Abbey said. "You're going to be working with a
lot of 'girls like us'. Some of us will only be at the start of our
journey, some of us will be a bit further along and some of us will even
have taken 'the final step'. But we are all female on the inside, no
matter what the outside looks like. That's the most important thing."
"Oh- I get it, honestly," Rachel said. "I wouldn't have come to work
here if I didn't. I mean, I've watched every episode of the Angels, I
get that some people need to live their lives as a different gender,
it's just-"
"Weird meeting girls like us in the flesh?" Abbey asked.
"Weird that you're all so hot!" Rachel giggled. "Seriously, if you
hadn't explained to me, I would NEVER have been able to tell."
"Aww, thanks!" Abbey giggled as a wide, genuine grin spread across
Sophie's face.
While 'James' was unlikely to ever become a male model, he'd certainly
not been bad looking either, and had always been popular with women on
nights out or at parties. Moreover, 'James' had always been proud of his
attractiveness, and the first time that 'Sophie' had been told how
attractive she was as a woman, it had made her cringe. As time had gone
on, however, Sophie grew increasingly proud of the compliments she
received, taking it at first as proof that she was doing a good job in
her undercover role, but in recent weeks, Sophie had begun to take the
compliments in the manner they were intended- especially when they were
being given by someone as attractive as Rachel.
"Thanks," Sophie said with a grin as Rachel giggled and blushed again.
"We, umm, we should eat up, got to get back to class, heh!"
"Of course!" Abbey giggled. "I'll leave you two alone, got a trainee of
my own to whip into shape, hehe!"
"She means that metaphorically," Sophie reassured her trainee,
triggering another giggling fit.
"Well- usually, anyway," Abbey said with a wink as she finished her meal
and headed toward the corner of the small cafeteria where her trainee
was sat.
After lunch, Sophie and Rachel headed back to the classroom where the
latter spent the rest of the day learning about the company's policies
with the former's help. By the time 5pm came around, Rachel's head was
buzzing from the information she'd taken in, and she let out a long sigh
of relief as she freed herself from her tight blue uniform, as did her
mentor standing beside her.
"One day down, hundreds more to go!" Sophie teased the petite blonde
girl, who replied with a tired, nervous giggle.
"Yeah," Rachel replied. "Can't wait to get up there and, you know, do it
for real, heh."
"It's pretty daunting the first few times," Sophie advised. "But you're
definitely approaching it with the right attitude, hehe!" Rachel smiled
in response to Sophie's teasing, before nonchalantly stepping out of her
skirt and her blouse, standing before the brown-haired woman in just her
bra and thong.
Sophie mused on how comfortable Rachel looked stripping off in front of
her, as though she'd done it a hundred times before- which, Sophie
reasoned, Rachel would have done in places like school changing rooms.
What surprised Sophie the most, however, was how comfortable she herself
was. She was no stranger to being in the company of other women in
various states of undress, but she'd rationalised that as the women were
mostly transwomen, it somehow didn't 'count'. However, Sophie felt no
different being in the changing room with Rachel as she did with Amy,
Hayley or any of the other girls- which proved to her that there really
was no difference between the girls. It didn't take Sophie long to reach
the further conclusion that there wasn't any real difference between her
and the rest of the girls either...
"Like it?" Rachel asked as she did a playful twirl in the form-fitting
pencil dress she'd slithered in to whilst Sophie was lost in thought. "I
bought it especially for work, heh. Any job that gives their employees a
clothing budget is somewhere worth working for, hehe!"
"Yeah," Sophie replied as she pulled on her plain dress. "It's
definitely a perk, heh. Even if it is maybe a little, you know, odd to
have a dress code going to and from work?"
"Don't see why not," Rachel shrugged. "They want their employees to
project a professional image, right?"
"Well- yeah," Sophie conceded. "How can you tell who is an employee and
who isn't, though, once we're out of uniform? And before you say
anything, I remind you that you yourself said that 'girls like me' are
indistinguishable from 'girls like you'?"
"...Yes, and I didn't mean it like that!" Rachel said, he cheeks
reddening once again. "But, you know, well, umm..."
"I think I get what you mean," Sophie said softly. "So, umm... You
heading home now?"
"Probably," Rachel shrugged. "I still live with my parents, sad as that
sounds."
"You're only nineteen," Sophie shrugged. "I was still living with my
parents until I was 22, apart from when I was at uni in Leicester.
Nothing wrong with that."
"I guess," Sophie shrugged. "A lot of the other trainees are talking
about how they moved into their own flats, got their independence... I'd
kinda like that, you know? Be free to live life to my own rules..."
"Don't forget why a lot of the trainees need that independence," Sophie
whispered. "A lot of them don't have the option of living at home. My-
umm, myself included."
"Oh- oh, oh my god, I'm so sorry," Rachel said, grimacing as the colour
drained from her cheeks. "I completely forgot..."
"It's okay," Sophie said. "You won't make that mistake again, that's the
important thing." And god knows I made a few similar ones when I started
for the airline, Sophie thought to herself.
"Are- do, umm, do you not speak to your parents at all?" Rachel asked.
"If you don't mind me asking, I mean."
"It's... Kinda complicated," Sophie sighed as she thought of how proud
her parents were of their son- and how oblivious they were to their
'daughter'. "We should probably get out of here before it gets too
crowded in here, heh. But, umm, but before you go home, do- do you want
to get a drink somewhere? I know a pub nearby- well, okay, it's in
central London, but I reckon you'll like it?"
"Umm, sure!" Rachel replied as the two women grabbed their handbags and
headed to the nearest tube stop. "Which pub is it?"
"Well," Sophie replied with a smug grin. "You know you said you liked
the Angels...?"
Just over an hour later, Sophie and Rachel were sat at a table in the
pub managed by the trainee's namesake, giggling as they shared stories
over a small bottle of white wine.
"I can't believe I'm in the actual Angels' pub!" The petite blonde girl
gushed as she sipped her drink. "God, do NOT let me drink too many of
these tonight, hehe!"
"I wouldn't be much of a mentor if I did!" Sophie chuckled. "And it's
not really an 'Angels pub', I mean, it's owned by Joshua Benedict, and
you occasionally get Angels dropping in, but, well, yeah."
"Good enough for me," Rachel said smugly.
"It's really more of a hangout for Soixante-Trois employees- well, some,
anyway," Sophie explained. "The manager of the pub used to work for the
airline, she's engaged to a guy whose sister is in Out of Heaven, and
with Joshua owning the pub there's a lot of six degrees of Kevin Bacon
stuff going on, heh."
"And the 'Sky Angels' show they did a few years ago too," Rachel
reminded her mentor. "I know there's, like, a close-knit group from some
of the Instagram pages I follow, some of the stewardesses are close to
Jamie-Lee Burke for obvious, umm, reasons..."
"Yeah, kinda," Sophie said. "I've met her a couple of times myself but I
wouldn't say I'm a friend, but, you know, she's pretty cool."
"Well, if I come here often enough, I'm bound to run into her sooner or
later, right?" Rachel asked.
"You never know," Sophie said with a smug grin as the establishment's
manager approached the table.
"Ah, good evening Miss Connelly!" The blonde-haired manager said with a
warm smile.
"Good evening Miss-but-not-for-much-longer Harrison!" Sophie teased.
"Rachel Lyscombe, I'd like you to meet Rachel Harrison, the manager of
this fine public house. Rachel, meet Rachel, my new trainee. She just
started for the airline today."
"Ah, wondered if you'd be playing 'Obi-Wan' this time round," Rachel H
said with a grin. "Nice to meet you, Rachel, though we may need to work
out a way of referring to each other without causing confusion, hehe!"
"I don't mind being called 'Rachel L'," Rachel L replied. "There were,
like, twelve Rachels in my school year thanks to Friends, heh."
"Wish I could say I was young enough that that was where I got my name
from," Rachel H said with a chuckle. "So, how are you finding like in
the skies?"
"Not even got to the skies yet!" Rachel L replied. "Really looking
forward to it, though."
"And looking forward to meeting any Angels," Sophie teased, making the
younger woman cringe and blush.
"Come here often enough and you never know," Rachel H said with a smirk.
"I'm sure Sophie could have a word or two with Zoe as well, in case
you're ever free on Sunday mornings?"
"And don't mind squeezing your body into a pair of tights and a skin-
tight leotard?" Sophie teased.
"Are you kidding?" Rachel L laughed. "I LOVE ballet. All things girlish,
really. Took ballet lessons up until I was seventeen, still sometimes
pop in one of Krystie Fullerton's ballet exercise DVDs when I want to
work out. Always wanted to go to one of the Angels' Wednesday morning
sessions, but a Sunday morning session with you girls will do for now,
hehe!"
"We can probably arrange that," Rachel H said with a grin. "I take it
you'd have no problem dancing with women who weren't, you know, 'born
that way'?"
"I'd be working for the wrong company if I did!" Rachel L giggled. "And,
you know, I've always wanted to work for Soixante-Trois, ever since the
Sky Angels show was on, heh."
"Well, welcome to the family," Rachel H said with a smile. "Like a very
wise woman often says, you can never have too many friends!"
"Too right!" Rachel L giggled excitedly, before smiling smugly as the
door's pub opened. "Ah, looks like my ride home's here!" Sophie smiled
as the young woman stood up and made her way over to a tall, attractive
young man, greeting him with a long and obviously loving kiss.
"Hey babe," the young man said as Rachel L led him back to the table
she'd just vacated.
"Hey boo," Rachel L giggled. "Girls, I'd like you to meet Lucas, my
extremely sexy boyfriend! Lucas, this is Rachel- no, really- the manager
of the pub, and this is Sophie, my mentor at work."
"Nice to meet you both," Lucas said with a smirk. "Hope you're taking
care of my Rach?"
"Stop it," Rachel L playfully mumbled as her boyfriend wrapped his arm
around her waist.
"It's not like she needs much care," Sophie giggled. "She's a really
fast learner."
"Meh, I've got a good teacher," Rachel L shrugged. "See you tomorrow,
Soph, and nice meeting you, Rachel!"
"You too," Rachel H said with a smile as her namesake and her boyfriend
left the pub. "Well, she seems nice enough."
"Yeah, she's pretty cool," Sophie shrugged as she finished her glass of
wine.
"And I meant what I said," Rachel continued. "I'm impressed that you've
taken on a trainee in this hiring round, given that- in your own words-
you aren't 'really' a flight attendant, right?"
"Just, you know, keeping up my cover," Sophie mumbled. "Most
stewardesses take on a trainee when they've been working for 6 or 9
months, right?"
"True," Rachel replied. "Most stewardesses aren't moonlighting as
undercover journalists though. Or is that the other way round?"
"Honestly, I'm not going native," Sophie said. "Twelve months, then I'll
write up my notes, given them to you to publish, and I'm out of there.
Nine months down, three to go."
"Until you never pull on a uniform again?" Rachel asked, smiling as
Sophie nodded. "How about never pulling on a skirt again?"
"...I- umm..." Sophie replied.
"You might not be going native as a stewardess," Rachel said softly.
"Not that there's anything wrong at all with THAT, of course. You'd be
surprised how many girls only plan to work for the airline for a year or
so then go 'all the way' and transition. I think Jess and Paige might
even be on that list, and look at Paige now! From the waist up, of
course."
"I'm never doing THAT," Sophie replied.
"Nor is Natalie," Rachel reminded the brown-haired woman. "But I'm not
the one you should be talking about this with. When are you next seeing
Beverly?"
"Thursday after work," Sophie replied. "And yes, we'll have a lot to
talk about."
"Fair enough," Rachel replied. "Will Rachel L be one of those things?"
"Don't see why," Sophie shrugged. "I mean, I'll mention her, but she's
just, you know, a colleague."
"Who you're responsible for training," Rachel said. "I suppose you're
right, though."
"And it's not like I'm, you know, responsible for 'showing her how to be
a woman'," Sophie said. "I don't have to be a mentor there as she's, you
know, not transgender."
"Oh- really?" Rachel asked. "Huh, I guessed she might be 'cause of how
short she is, and what she was saying about ballet..."
"Is- is that unusual?" Sophie asked.
"A little," Rachel shrugged. "It's very rare for a transgendered girl to
have a non-trans trainee... Meh, I'm sure Alana has her reasons. You
sticking around long tonight?"
"Got to get off after this drink," Sophie replied. "No rest for us hard
working mentors, hehe!"
"Teacher's pet," Rachel teased as Sophie finished her drink, grabbed her
handbag and headed back to her flat.
A short while later, Sophie flopped onto her sofa at home, and a few
short hours after that, she was in bed, musing on the day's events.
Sophie genuinely liked her young trainee, and the feeling was obviously
mutual- and this served to make Sophie feel guilty. Guilty that she had
yet another person to lie to as she worked on her expose. Guilty that
she had another person to let down when the time finally came to leave
the airline- and 'Sophie'- behind for good. However, as Sophie's
feelings of guilt filled her, she contemplated whether or not Rachel H
had been right- whether or not she had 'gone native'.
As Sophie ran through her usual routine on the warm Thursday morning,
she mused on how 'normal' it had become. Brushing her hair, applying
make-up and pulling on women's underwear was second nature to her to the
extent that she could barely remember what 'James's morning routine had
been. Travelling to work with Amy and Hayley was far more fun than her
usual lonely morning commute had been. And she'd even grown used to
walking in heels- often, when walking in sock feet, she'd found her
heels lifting up almost as if they were compensating for not being in
heeled shoes. Sophie wondered whether or not there would be any real
harm in 'going native', until she remembered that 'James's life hadn't
been completely lonely. 'He' had a family that loved him, that cared for
him, that missed him... And would almost certainly go ballistic if they
ever found out about 'Sophie'. Sophie didn't want to ever do anything to
upset her parents- but at the same time, she never wanted to lose touch
with Amy, Hayley or any of her other friends. Sophie knew, however, that
there was no way she could have her cake and eat it- especially when it
came to the physical aspect of transitioning.
"Morning!" Sophie said with a forced smile as she sat down next to her
trainee, unconsciously smoothing her skirt underneath her as she'd done
hundreds of times before.
"Morning!" Rachel replied. "Thanks for the drink last night, I really
needed that, heh."
"You're welcome!" Sophie replied. "So... Did you go home last night or
did you spend the rest of the evening with your boyfriend?"
"Both," Rachel mumbled as her cheeks reddened. "My parents really like
Lucas so they're okay with him staying over, even though my sisters are
only 10 and 13."
"That's not THAT young," Sophie retorted.
"My parents would probably disagree," Rachel said with a playful roll of
her eyes. "They're okay with me having regular sex since I was seventeen
but flying by myself to a different country? HELL no. They don't even
like it when Nicki or Lizzie go on school trips."
"Harsh," Sophie said.
"Can't wait to see their reaction when they find out that the dress code
mandates thongs and stockings instead of tights," Rachel said with a
giggle.
"I bet they wouldn't react as badly as my parents would," Sophie
retorted, making the blonde girl blush again.
"Ah- yeah, sorry..." Rachel cringed. "I mean, it is REALLY easy to
forget that you're- well, you know?"
"Thanks," Sophie said with a genuine grin. "And I know a few of the
girls at this company who reacted badly to the whole 'stockings' thing,
let alone their parents."
"Meh, I can see the reasoning behind it," Rachel shrugged. "I mean,
these skirts are SO tight and you really don't want a VPL, and when I
was at school my legs were so skinny that 'tights' really kinda didn't
live up to their name, heh." Sophie smirked as their manager arrived to
begin the day's 'lessons', though internally, she was conflicted- as
much as she liked Rachel, with the attitude she had, she probably
wouldn't be a good fit for the tutu project, which was going to lead to
yet more conflict for Sophie...
After three hours of hard work, the 'teachers' allowed the trainees and
their mentors to head for lunch, where Sophie again chuckled at the
frazzled look on her trainee's face.
"And I thought yesterday was tough," Rachel chuckled as she nibbled at
her flatbread and hummus.
"You will get the hang of it, honestly," Sophie reassured the blonde
girl. "After a while, it'll become second nature. And god knows I should
know a thing or two about THAT, heh."
"Yeah," Rachel chuckled. "I suppose I'll get the hang of it soon enough.
I mean, this IS my dream job and has been for, like, years, heh, but
actually doing it is kinda, you know, a lot of really hard work?"
Another thing I know a thing or two about, Sophie thought to herself as
she pictured her future journalism career.
"If you enjoy, it's not really hard work," Sophie advised, wondering
whether by 'enjoyed' she meant the writing part of her work, or the
'being a woman' part.
"True!" Rachel giggled. "Hope my parents see it that way, you know,
respect the fact that I work hard at the job, I'm good at it, that sort
of thing?"
"I'm sure they will," Sophie said softly as she wondered the same thing
about her own parents, causing her mind to race.
Virtually everything Rachel had said had resonated in some way with
Sophie, from her love of her job, her need to adapt quickly to new
situations to, most of all, the hope that her parents will accept her
for who she is. Sophie had already made plans to see her parents on the
Saturday, taking advantage of a rare weekend when she wasn't working,
but Rachel's tales had added an extra dimension to the visit. Sophie's
parents would inevitably ask how her life and her career were going, and
Sophie would inevitably have to lie to them once again and feel guilty
for doing so. However, no one was forcing Sophie to lie to her parents-
and she wondered what would happen if she was to tell them the truth...
After lunch, Sophie, Rachel and the rest of the 'class' sat through more
induction and interactive learning programs, until eventually, 5pm
rolled around and the stewardesses headed back to the locker room to
change into their street clothes. Before she could even leave the
'classroom', however, Sophie was intercepted by her manager, who had a
concerned look on her face.
"Sophie, have you got a sec?" Alana asked, putting the young woman's
nerves on edge.
"Umm, sure..." Sophie replied. "I've got an appointment with my
counsellor this evening though."
"Oh, well I won't keep you long," Alana said. "I just wanted to talk to
you about Rachel."
"My trainee or my cousin?" Sophie asked cautiously.
"Actually, kinda both," Alana replied. "I'm not going to stop you from
going to see your cousin at her pub, but we would prefer it if you
didn't take, well, 'new' Rachel there."
"Umm, okay," Sophie replied. "Rachel's an adult though, she can make her
own choices, can't she?"
"Oh, absolutely," Alana said. "If she wants to hang out there, it's her
choice, but we believe it'd be in her best interests not to do so."
"Okay..." Sophie said. "May- may I ask why?"
"We see a bright future for Rachel in the company," Alana replied. "She
has all the qualities we look for in a model employee, and we believe
she'll make an ideal supervisor, and eventually, manager."
"...She's only been working here for two days!" Sophie said, trying to
suppress a snort of laughter.
"Nonetheless, she's someone we want to 'nurture'," Alana said. "Given
the way your cousin left the airline, you can appreciate how we'd prefer
it if they didn't interact." Sophie smiled and nodded and allowed
herself an internal grin- this information was news to her, which meant
extra material for her expose- which meant that she'd need extra time to
write it, which meant she'd need to spend even more time as 'Sophie'...
"I see," Sophie said stoically.
"There's no need to be jealous," Alana said with a chuckle. "If we
weren't very happy with your performance we wouldn't have selected you
to mentor Rachel. You've got a good future with the company too, Sophie,
but we can already tell that Rachel will be something special."
"Yeah, it's okay, I get it," Sophie said. "I'll let her- well, both
Rachels know, heh. I, umm, kinda need to head off now..."
"Sure," Alana shrugged. "Thanks for stopping behind, and good luck with
your counsellor!"
"Thanks," Sophie said as she headed back to the locker room, thinking
about what her manager had said- both that she was showing clear
favouritism to Sophie's new friend, but also that she considered Sophie
herself to be one of her best workers. If Alana only knew why Sophie was
REALLY working for the company, she'd undoubtedly change her mind- but
once again, Sophie wondered whether or not Rachel H had been right and
she had started to 'go native'...
A short while later, Sophie walked up the stairs of the posh clinic in
central London where she'd been going for the previous several months,
entering the office of one of her few confidantes with a tired smile on
her face.
"Good afternoon, Sophie," Dr Phillips said with a smile. "Good day at
work?"
"Not bad," Sophie replied. "Not actually been flying anywhere this week,
we've got a group of new hires at work and I've been assigned to mentor
one of them."
"Ah," Dr Phillips said. "A few of your colleagues that I've spoken to
have mentioned they've been mentors in the past, I think it's every
February, May, August and November, right?"
"Yep," Sophie replied. "To avoid the really busy months, well, apart
from August. Bet most of the colleagues you spoke to weren't working
undercover for the airline, though."
"I bet most of them weren't," Dr Phillips conceded. "This is obviously
troubling you, Sophie- is it the fact that you feel you're deceiving an
employer who's rewarding you for good performance?"
"Partly," Sophie sighed. "My manager even took me to one side today to
compliment me on how well I've been doing."
"You said 'partly'," Dr Phillips said. "May I ask what the other part of
your worry is?"
"...That I'm 'going native'," Sophie sighed. "Truth be told, it's not
that bad a job. Sure, the customers can be a real pain, the dress code
is idiotic, the owner is a massive misogynist and management- well, I
actually learned something new about them just an hour ago that'll
probably shock you, heh. But it's not the worst place I've ever worked,
and the pay is REALLY good too."
"And as we've discussed before on numerous occasions," Dr Phillips said,
"it's not just in the job that you're worried about 'going native', are
you?"
"Every day that goes past, I feel more and more comfortable as a woman,"
Sophie sighed. "It's like this is natural for me now, and- and I can't
imagine what my life would be like without it. The clothes are
unimportant, they don't matter at all, same goes for the hair and the
make-up and all that stuff, but the friends I've made, I- I don't want
to let them go. I've had more fun in 9 months as 'Sophie' than I ever
did in 23 years as 'James'."
"It's perfectly natural to feel this way," Dr Phillips said softly. "And
nothing to feel ashamed about."
"I don't feel ashamed," Sophie said firmly. "I may have done before, but
I don't anymore. But..."
"Go on," Dr Phillips said.
"My- my parents probably will be ashamed," Sophie sighed. "My trainee's
copped a lot of criticism from her parents just for wanting to work as a
stewardess, and she's, you know, not even transgendered."
"Parental pressure can be a terrible thing," Dr Phillips advises.
"You've met my daughter, right?"
"Who, Sarah?" Sophie asked. "A couple of times, yeah."
"I'll tell you a story in confidence," Dr Phillips said, taking a deep
breath. "Growing up, Sarah always felt pressure to go into medicine when
she was an older. My brother and my sister are both doctors as well-
surgeons, rather than psychiatrists- and as I'm the only one of us to
have had a child, Sarah felt the pressure to go into the 'family
business'."
"Isn't she studying fashion design?" Sophie asked.
"She is," Dr Phillips replied. "And about to graduate with a distinction
and start a Master's degree in it next year. And I couldn't be happier
or prouder of her. But when she was fourteen, she'd convinced herself
that I'd be terribly disappointed in her if she studied anything other
than medicine or psychiatry at university."
"Did- did you ever say anything to her that made her think that?" Sophie
asked.
"Never," Dr Phillips replied. "This 'parental pressure' was all in her
head. She eventually realised this, the fact that I actually did some
modelling for her for her final year's assignment might have helped!"
"Heh," Sophie chuckled. "Rachel- my trainee- has said that she actually
has had her parents, you know, 'talk to her' though,"
"I wasn't necessarily talking about Rachel," Dr Phillips said softly.
"...Ah," Sophie whispered.
"I'm not going to tell you that changing your gender isn't a much bigger
deal than changing your job," Dr Phillips advised. "Even if it is- or
rather, was- on a temporary basis and you aren't taking any physical
steps to transition. But you're not the first person to have built up
their parents' rejection in their head to the point where they're almost
afraid to speak to them at all."
"I don't need to come out, though," Sophie retorted. "I'm not going to
be 'Sophie' forever."
"Even though- to use your own words- you couldn't imagine your life
without 'Sophie' in it?" Dr Phillips asked, silencing the young woman
sat opposite her.
"...Yeah, I did say that," Sophie croaked. "But I'm not going to, you
know, 'physically' transition. I saw Paige coming home after her
operation and- no. That's not for me. I like being 'James' too much.
Ugh, yes, as well as being 'Sophie'."
"And there's nothing wrong with that either," Dr Phillips said
reassuringly. "Not every transgendered person has SRS, some don't even
start HRT. It doesn't mean you can't successfully be a woman if you want
to be. You just may have to work at it a little harder than other girls,
that's all. But I know for a fact that you're not afraid of hard work."
"True," Sophie shrugged.
"That's a quality any decent parent would be proud of," Dr Phillips
said. "Regardless of whether their child was male or female, or wearing
trousers or a skirt."
"I suppose," Sophie sighed.
"Of course, if you're still not comfortable with the idea of coming out
to your parents, that's entirely up to you," Dr Phillips said. "I can't
force you to come out, or even recommend, I can only offer advice, and
support. If you want me to be there in person when you come out, or if
you want me to make my office available-"
"No- thanks, that's okay," Sophie interrupted. "No offence but they'd
probably be doubly disappointed if they knew I was seeing a shrink."
"There's no shame in asking for help through your problems," Dr Phillips
said softly. "That's a lesson a lot of people could stand to learn. When
are you next seeing your parents?"
"Saturday, actually," Sophie chuckled. "'Cause I'm not working this
weekend... Figured I'd, you know, take advantage and drop in to see
them."
"And are you thinking about telling them about 'Sophie'?" Dr Phillips
asked.
"I think about that every time I see them," Sophie sighed. "But you're
right, I can't go on being Sophie indefinitely while keeping them in the
dark."
"And you do want to go on being Sophie indefinitely?" Dr Phillips asked,
once again silencing the young woman.
"...I want to have that choice," Sophie replied. "Of course, then I'll
have to explain to Amy and Hayley why I'm not transitioning, not taking
HRT..."
"One step at a time," Dr Phillips said. "There's no sense fretting about
steps 2 and 3 when you haven't taken step 1 yet. And I think you'll find
Amy and Hayley may be more understanding than you think."
"You're right," Sophie chuckled. "About everything. As usual."
"I just do what I can," Dr Phillips said with a smile.
Forty-five minutes later, after covering topics including Sophie's work,
her life at home with Amy and Hayley and her progress on the expose,
Sophie stood up, smoothed out her dress and shook her counsellor's hand,
before breathing a long sigh of relief.
"Thanks, as always," Sophie said with a tired chuckle.
"You're welcome, as always!" Dr Phillips replied. "I know sessions like
this can be uncomfortable but we have made a lot of good progress over
the last nine months. And I do believe we'll still be seeing each other
long after your 'project' has run its course."
"Yeah, I think so too," Sophie said.
"We will find a way you can live your life however you want, whenever
you want," Dr Phillips reassured the young woman. "Contrary to popular
belief, there's nothing wrong with wanting to have your cake and eat it.
But we've talked long enough today, I think!"
"Yeah, thanks again for agreeing to an evening meeting," Sophie said
with a genuine smile.
"Most of the people I help have full time jobs, I need to work around
that," Dr Phillips shrugged. "What have you got planned for the rest of
the evening?"
"Sleeping!" Sophie giggled. "Been so busy this week, heh. Just one day
to go, though."
"That's one way of looking at it, heh!" Dr Phillips chuckled.
"Have you got anything exciting planned?" Sophie asked.
"My gentleman friend's coming up from Brighton for the evening," Dr
Phillips replied with a wide grin. "Just because I'm now the wrong side
of fifty, it doesn't mean I can't take my own advice about having my
cake and eating it!"
"Heh, true!" Sophie chuckled. "See you next week." Sophie smiled as she
waved goodbye to the middle-aged counsellor before heading back to her
flat, which she found empty thanks to her flat mates being on later
flights. Sophie took advantage of the silence to muse on what she'd
learned from her meeting with her counsellor, as well as things she
already knew- that she had the support of her friends, and that she
could always rely on them should the worst happen when speaking to her
family. She also mused on one thing that she'd said without having
realised it- that she'd never again be able to live her life without
'Sophie' being a part of it. And the more she mused on this fact, the
more content she felt...
"Hello, Obi-Wan!" Amy said as she walked through the front door,
startling Sophie and derailing her train of thought.
"We disturb you?" Hayley asked as she followed the ginger-haired girl
into the flat.
"Umm- no, just, umm, enjoying the silence, heh!" Sophie chuckled.
"And god knows we hardly get any of THAT!" Amy giggled. "'Fraid we're
going to be noisy for a bit, if you don't mind?"
"No, I've had enough silence for today!" Sophie giggled.
"Good girl!" Hayley cheered as she headed toward the kitchenette,
emerging seconds later with a bottle of wine and three glasses.
"So then..." Amy asked. "How's the 'padawan' coming along?"
"She's doing fine," Sophie replied, biting her lip as she remembered
what she was told by Alana as she left the airport.
"But...?" Amy asked.
"I think Sophie's just surprised by someone as extremely girly as you
using a Star Wars reference," Hayley teased, making Sophie blush and Amy
roll her eyes.
"What?" The ginger girl protested. "I can't be a sexy, sultry woman AND
like Star Wars?"
"Just as long as I don't ever see you in a gold bikini," Hayley said,
rolling her eyes as a smug grin spread across Amy's face.
"No promises," Amy said, before turning back to Sophie. "But I'm
guessing you weren't talking about that though, right?"
"Yeah, kinda," Sophie grimaced. "It- umm, it's kinda awkward... Not sure
it's something I should be telling you, really."
"Is- is it personal?" Hayley asked. "I mean, you already told us that
Rachel was, you know, 'not trans', is it something to do with that?"
"I really hope not," Sophie replied, before letting out a long sigh.
"Okay... I'm going to need you both to swear that you won't tell ANYONE
about this, okay?"
"Of course," Amy said as she and Hayley both nodded.
"Alana, she-" Sophie grimaced. "She kinda talked to me, she said that
Rachel is basically being groomed for management even before she
started."
"Is- is that it?" Amy asked, confusing the brown-haired woman. "Ugh,
Soph, trust me, that sort of shit happens ALL the time."
"Wha- really?" Sophie asked.
"From what I've heard this last year, sure," Amy replied. "You know
Annabelle, the American girl who lives with Abbey and Anna-Jade? She
told me once that she was being 'groomed' the same way, given
advancement opportunities before everyone else... I'm guessing it's
because of Masson wanting to expand to America and he saw her as the
'face' of that expansion but it made her really uncomfortable."
"How did Annabelle find out?" Sophie asked.
"Think it was her ex-boyfriend who let it slip," Amy replied. "The pilot
guy, the one who's about 95% grease?"
"The one who's Masson's nephew?" Hayley asked.
"That's him," Amy confirmed. "Anyway, I don't know the whole story, but
from what I understand, he offered her a leg up if she offered him a leg
ov-"
"Yes, yes, message understood," Sophie chuckled as her journalistic
instincts began to tingle. "And this sort of thing happens all the
time?"
"It's not like it only happens at Soixante-Trois," Amy replied. "And it
is Masson's company, he kinda should have the final say in things."
"Well- I guess," Sophie shrugged.
"And can we please not talk about work anymore?" Hayley moaned. "Paris
today AND tomorrow is more than I can deal with!"
"Still bad, then?" Sophie asked.
"I- what part of 'change the subject' didn't you understand?" Hayley
said with an exasperated snort of laughter that made Sophie blush.
"Sorry..." Sophie moaned. "Kinda difficult to avoid the topic when we
all work together though, isn't it?"
"Meh, I guess," Hayley shrugged. "If Ellen still lived here we could
pester her about how things are going with Amelie, I guess."
"Depressing all three of us single ladies?" Amy asked.
"And given who Amelie's father is, it still qualifies as talk of work,"
Sophie reminded her flat mate.
"...Okay, you've got me there," Hayley chuckled. "Guess we'll just have
to talk about, I dunno, clothes, make-up, celebrities?"
"Now you're talking!" Amy giggled excitedly.
"But before we do," Sophie said, making the other two women playfully
jeer her, "we do have room for a fourth person in this flat, don't we?"
"Why, got anyone in mind?" Amy asked.
"My trainee at work," Sophie said. "Yes, yes, I know we talked about not
discussing work, but I'm only talking about her, you know,
'individually'. She's nineteen, still lives with her parents and from
what I understand, they're kinda controlling so she could really use her
freedom."
"We'll think about it," Amy said. "We'll meet her, have a couple of
drinks, but if you don't mind sharing the room, I don't see why not."
"And she wouldn't mind sharing with three transgendered girls?" Hayley
asked.
"Who better to give her fashion and make-up tips than us?" Sophie
replied, earning cheers and giggles from her two friends. "I reckon
she'd be up for it if you two are."
"We'll definitely think about it," Hayley said. "Though she should
consider herself lucky that she's able to live with her parents at all,
transgendered or not." Sophie grimaced as she was brought right back to
the topic she'd spent what felt like forever discussing with her
counsellor- a topic she wasn't keen to revisit with her friends. The
main reason Sophie was so uneager to discuss her parents was the fact
that she'd once again have to lie to her friends- telling them how she
hadn't spoken to them in months, when in fact, she would be seeing them
with the subsequent 48 hours.
"...Topic change?" Sophie asked, smiling as her friends both nodded
sympathetically.
"Reckon Rachel might fit in here, actually," Amy said. "We've got two
brunettes and a redhead, we need a blonde to, you know, 'complete the
set'."
"I could always dye my hair blonde, if it helps?" Hayley offered, making
her flat mates giggle into their wine. "Gentlemen prefer blondes, don't
they?"
"I wouldn't know," Amy replied. "I've neither been blonde OR a
gentleman, hehe!" Sophie relaxed back onto the sofa as she and her
friends gossiped long into the evening, the topic of conversation
varying wildly but never touching on two of the three most fraught
things In Sophie's life- work and family. However, the third of those
topics- the 'physical' nature of transitioning- cropped up repeatedly
throughout the evening, and each time it did, Sophie felt more and more
uncomfortable- and not just because she had to lie to her friends'
faces.
Sophie had a lot on her mind as she settled down to bed that night, even
though she'd spent most of the evening writing her thoughts down, not
just for her expose or her next session with Dr Phillips, but for her
own benefit as well. Writing down her thoughts had helped to calm Sophie
down ever since she was a young boy, and had helped immensely since the
start of her life as 'Sophie'. As she looked back at her old diary
entries, however, Sophie couldn't help but notice that her attitude to
her new life was a lot more negative in the beginning- and, more
alarmingly, even her writing style seemed to have become more feminine
over the previous few months...
The following morning, Sophie walked into Heathrow Airport, outwardly
prepared for whatever her working day may bring but internally still
conflicted by the many things she'd learned over the previous few days.
Nonetheless, she was determined not to let it affect her work- as Alana
had said, she was one of the airline's hardest workers.
Meanwhile, Amy took advantage of her rest day and headed toward her
nearest tube stop, armed with a 2 litre bottle of Irn Bru. A short while
later, she was stood outside the flat where she'd welcomed her Scottish
friend home three days earlier, but as she approached the front door,
she was startled by the sound of raised voices coming from within the
flat. Mere seconds later, Jessica emerged from the flat with a scowl on
her fully made-up face and a smart, form-fitting dress covering her
body.
"Hey Amy," Jessica sighed as she hurried past, tying her long blonde
hair into a tight ponytail.
"H- hey Jess," Amy replied. "Umm, where- where are you going?"
"Well, apparently I'm going to Berlin," Jessica spat.
"I thought you had the whole week off?" Amy asked.
"So did I!" Jessica shouted as she disappeared down the hall, leaving
the ginger haired girl confused and flustered as she knocked on the
front door.
"Yes? What?" An angry Scottish voice yelled from within the flat, making
Amy jump back in surprise.
"Umm, it- it's Amy," the ginger girl replied. "Paige? You okay?"
"I'm fine," Paige sighed. "Door's open, come on in." Amy smiled
sympathetically as she walked into the flat and saw Paige laid on an
airbed in the middle of the room, her face scrubbed clean of make-up but
looking no less pretty than normal.
"Hey..." Amy said softly, sitting down on the plush sofa opposite the
Scottish girl. "Did- did I interrupt something?"
"YOU didn't," Paige scoffed. "Jess- she- she got called in. AGAIN. Said
no other supervisors were available... Ugh."
"Kinda makes you want to not be promoted even despite the extra pay,"
Amy scoffed. "Don't they, you know, write the rotas around annual leave?
Even supervisors'? Hell, even around Alana's leave, didn't she have,
like, three holidays last year?"
"Ugh, no offence Ames, but she's the LAST person I want to talk about
right now," Paige spat. "That fight you heard was- well, Jess didn't
want to go in, obviously, but she didn't want to lose her job, or even
her promotion either... Still reckon we're getting punished for our
'association' with Rachel. And Zoe and Natalie, maybe."
"Yeah..." Amy grimaced, remembering how she defended the company to her
friends the previous evening. "Would Alana REALLY hold a grudge like
that?"
"Oh yes," Paige replied. "Actually told Jess to her face to be overly
critical of Natalie when she found out that Nat's sister was shagging
Masson's daughter, thinking it'd break the two of them up."
"I remember hearing about that," Amy said with a tired chuckle. "Doesn't
sound any more legal six months later, heh."
"Aye," Paige snorted.
"Will- will you and Jess be, you know, okay?" Amy asked. "That sounded
like a nasty fight..."
"Ugh, we'll be okay, it's not like we were shouting at each other,"
Paige replied. "When we're angry, we just up the volume a bit. Som