It was a Friday Nite
By Ms. Jenny Ann
The following story is based on a dinner date that really happened, some
of the things that I report may be real or what I wish had happened.
This story was written by me and may not be sold. It maybe downloaded
or shared for free sites only.
It was a Friday night, Jane and I were going out to dinner. When we got
to the restaurant and were seated, the waitress came over and asked,
"Would you ladies like something to drink?"
I said, "I would like some sweet tea."
Jane replied that she would like some too. She then turned to me and
said, "Why did you not correct the waitress when she said you ladies?"
I told her that I know that sometimes because my hair is if a woman's
and that I am small for a man I am often called a lady, miss or even
madam. I am referred to as a woman so much that it is just easier to
let people believe whatever they want and respond to them as they have
decided. She then went into a rage saying that I shaved my face so that
the waitress would think I was a woman. I told her that I was not
trying to make myself more feminine I just felt like shaving.
After diner on the way to drop off Jane she was still upset, she went
into another rage saying that she never heard me tell the waitress that
I was really a man she went on to say that by not telling the waitress,
I was really trying to pass myself off as a woman. She was still upset
when I pulled into the driveway a t her house. I tried to speak but I
could not find the words.
I started let the hair on my face grow out. I thought that by doing
this Jane would not be so mad. It seems to work as she did not appear
to be as upset. I however was beginning to get very uncomfortable when
I thought about her opinion concerning my shaving of my face. I started
to think what if I was to really try to make myself more feminine.
After all Jane believed that just by shaving I was trying to pass myself
off as a woman.
A list of what I would need to do to really make myself more feminine is
what is called for.
1. Removal of all hair on face as well as body, shaving is one way, but
waxing would be better.
2. Clothing, shoes, a purse and fake tits.
3. A trip to beauty pallor to have ears pierced, brow arch and nails.
4. Make-up and help to apply.
I know what I need to do.
I started to get what I would need over the next two weeks. I started
on #2 on my list. I went to the shoe store, I knew that I would need
high heels. I asked the clerk if she could help me.
She came over and said, "I would be glad to help you, what would you
like?"
I said, "I am looking for a pair of open-toed, ankle strap platform high
heels."
She said, "Yes, we have what you want, what color and size?"
I replied black and I have no idea what size I wear. She replied we
will just have to size your feet. She got her foot sizer and told me
that I wear a size 7 lady's shoe. She said, "I'll be right back with
what you need."
When she returned she had two pair of heels for me to look over. The
first pair was a 4-inch-thick heel with only 1-inch platform, the second
pair had a 5.5-inch slender heel and a platform of 1.5 inch. I said, "I
liked the higher pair of high heels better than the lower pair of high
heels."
She helped me put on the heels, then asked me if have ever tried to walk
in high heels. I replied no, I don't even know if I can stand in these
heels. She told me she would help me stand and to walk over to the
mirror. I almost fell, but she kept me from falling and helped me over
to the mirror.
I said, "Wow, I really like these, I feel taller."
She said, "You should you're almost 6 inches taller."
I turned the get a better look at the side view and almost fell again, I
asked her, "Does it get easier to stand and walk in high heels?"
She replied, "The only way to get better is to wear the heels as much as
you can, practice is the only way to get better at wearing heels. Wear
them around the house, put them on when you get home and wear them till
you go to bed. Do this every day and you will get better at standing,
walking and sitting. If you going to wear slacks you can wear knee-high
hose or panty-hose, but you should wear panty-hose with a dress or
skirt."
I thanked her for her help and paid $25 for the heels, $2.50 for a pack
of 3 knee-highs and $2.95 for a pair of panty-hose.
As I was driving home I realized that it would take time and money to
finish my list. Well, I really could use the time to practice walking
in my new high heels. I like the sound of that my new high heels!
Usually, on Monday night I would go over to Jane's house but not
tonight. I called Jane and told her that I felt tired from work and
just wanted to spend the night at home resting. Now, I could not wait
to get home and put my heels on and spend the night learning to walk.
When I got home I put my new shoes in my room and went to the kitchen to
say hi to Scott. Scott is my best friend from high school, we shared
the top floor of a house, each having a bedroom to ourselves. I started
to grow my hair out when I was 16 and in the tenth grade. At the end of
the school year my hair was just to the collar of a tee-shirt. However,
by the end of summer, my hair was down to the middle of my back. Scott
made a comment about how long my hair had grown over the summer and that
it WAS longer than most of the girls at school. He asked me if having
long hair made some people think I was a girl? I replied that towards
the end of summer more people have started to say that to me, at first,
I would get mad, then I realized that they were right and if I did not
like the truth I would have to cut my hair short to look more like a
boy. So, I accept that to some people my long hair makes them think
that I am a girl.
Scott said, "Why not cut your hair?"
I said, "I do not want to cut my hair, if by having my hair as long as a
girl means that I look like a girl, I would rather look like a girl with
long hair then cut it!"
Looking back at how this really started, I am amazed that it took this
long for my hair to be a major issue with Jane, that's what it really
comes down to, my willingness to look like a woman with long hair,
rather than cut it short and look more like a man.
Four years later, I am now 20 years old and I am about to put on my new
high heel shoes, try to walk to the kitchen and tell Scott that I am
going to do what Jane has accused me of, trying to be more feminine with
my appearance to pass myself off as a woman. It went better than I
thought it would, Scott laughed and replied just if you don't try
anything with me. I told him not to worry, all I want to do is show
Jane how much more I would have to do to be feminine enough to pass for
a woman. Scott asked me how feminine would I be willing to be? I told
him head to toe.
It could have gone a lot worse, but in the end my best friend was still
my best friend. I spent the rest of the night trying to get better at
walking, sitting and standing in my heels. On my last trip from the
kitchen down the hallway to my bedroom and I did not have to keep myself
from falling and made it to the bed. Ok, it was 12 trips over 3 hours
and it was the first time I did not have an issue with balance, but
still I am making improvement, this was after all my first time in high
heels.
Monday night, 3 days until payday I know money will be tight. I looked
down at my feet inside my high heels and thought that they looked good,
but I knew that they would look great if I were to paint my toe nails
with a nice red color of nail polish I could not wait for payday. I
would be willing to do without lunch to buy some nail polish, I planned
to stop at the store on the way home from work Tuesday. I went to bed
eager to have the next day at work go by very fast, stop at the store to
buy the nail polish and paint my toe nails.
The next day at work seems to be longer, but I knew that the wait would
be worth it. At last it's quitting time, I got into my car with my next
stop the 5&10 store. After arriving at the store, I made my way to the
cosmetic area. I started to look at the nail polish, there were a lot
of reds, I finally decided to by a ruby red. I selected that color
because it was on sale with matching lipstick, I got lucky on that deal.
I thought that I would go to the lady's department and look at what they
had to offer. I remembered that when Jane would drag me to shops with
her, she would look at a lot of stuff and then not buy anything. If she
could do that, then so could I. I could look and get the prices of
anything that I liked and come back on payday. As I was browsing
through the dresses I heard the saleslady say, "may I help you, miss?"
As I turned to look at her, she said, "When I saw you from your back, I
thought you were a woman your hair is very long, sorry."
I said, "I get that a lot, and I know that from my backside I do look
like I could be a woman, so it's ok."
She asked do you see anything you like.
I replied yes there are a couple of dresses that I like but I really
don't know the right size to get. Think fast I thought to myself, then
said, "My girlfriend and I, we are about the same height, we can wear
each other's jeans and I heard her say her bra size 34-b. Does that
help?"
She thought for a moment then said, "I think that if I take your waist
and hip size, and then combine those two with her bra size, we should be
able to arrive at a close dress size."
I said, "Wow, you are good let's do it."
My hips were 36 inches and my waist were 28 inches, with Jane's bra
size, she said, "I believe that a size 5-6 dress would fit, I have
another idea and we could be more accurate about the size if you are
interested."
I asked, "What would that be?"
She said, "If I measure your chest, and you are the same as your
girlfriend, you could wear a bra with foam breasts then you could try on
the dresses, and really see if they would fit. That is if your size is
a match, do you want to try?"
I thought what a great idea, if my size is the same as Jane's size, then
I get to try on dresses. If not, I would find out what size bra I would
need to buy. So, I said, "That sounds fine to me."
I found out that my bra size would be the same. We looked at the two
dresses that I liked and found out that one of them was too big. The
other one was the right size, so the saleslady grabbed it and a 34-b bra
with a package foam breasts. We went to the changing room, where she
helped me into the bra, then inserted the foam breasts and after I
stepped into the dress she zipped me up. As I looked at myself in the
mirror I could not help but think that I would look good when I finished
my list. The saleslady said, "That dress looks good on you, it fits you
well, so it should look fine on your girlfriend and fit her as well."
As I looked at the dress in the mirror it was a very purple floral print
with three-quarter sleeve and came down to four inches above the knee, I
really did not want to take it off, but I knew I would have to and hope
that it would still be here on payday. I told her that I was worried
that when I got paid on Thursday this dress would be gone. She replied
that the store had layaway and for $3 she could hold it for me. I told
her that would be great. I took the dress off and handed it to her with
$3 to put it on layaway. I gave her my name and told her to be sure
that it did not get lost. As I was about to take the bra off she said,
"I forgot that I was not supposed to open the foam breast and I can't
put them back opened, could you pay for them?"
She told me they cost $5. I replied that I could not pay for them and
put the dress on layaway. She thought and then came up with suggestion
I was not quite ready for, leave the bra and foam breast on under my
shirt and I pay for them when I returned to pick up the dress. I put my
shirt on and she told me wait in the changing room for her. I put my
jeans on tied my boots and look at the breasts on my chest and thought
how I can I leave this room, I looked like a woman with too much facial
hair. When she came back she had a disposal razor and a wash cloth she
told me that she was sorry to make me leave wearing the bra and foam
breasts, but she would get in trouble for the open package, but if you
shave your face you should have no problem. I thanked her for the razor
and shaved my face.
I grabbed the bag with my nail polish and lipstick, turned to leave and
thanked her for all her help. She said, ?No problem, I make you leave
looking more like a woman than when you came in, so thank you for
keeping me out of trouble. If you need any more help just ask.?
I said, ?There is something you could help me with. If I were to wear
make-up, let?s say to look better as a woman, for example, if I wanted
to out to dinner in the dress I picked out and look sexy, what would I
need. I have ruby red lipstick and nail polish that I bought, I was
going to give it to Jane, but now I think I need it more.?
She said, ?Cosmetics department here we go.? When we got to the
cosmetics she said, ?I would recommend honey beige base, medium power
compact, light rose blush, black brow liner, black mascara, violet trio
eye shadow and jet-black liquid eye liner.?
I said, ?Thank you, $35-40 is quite a lot of money.?
She explained that most buy women buy make-up a little at a time, but
all the time. You would have to acquire your make-up, at once. In the
future you would be able to buy what you need a little at a time. She
then asked me if the dress was really for me. After all the help she
gave me I did not want to lie to her, so I told her that the dress was
for me. She wanted to know why I decided that I would buy a dress. I
told her about how Jane accused me of something I really did not do, I
told her all about it and then told her about my list. She asked when I
planned to complete my list. I told her in almost two weeks on a
Saturday. She said, ?If you need help with your make-up I would be glad
to help you.?
I said, ?I know I will need help with putting on make-up, I want to look
my best but if I were to do it by myself I would more than likely end up
looking like a clown!?
She gave me her name, Gina Thompson and phone number, and then said, ?I
can give you that sexy look you want.?
I said, ?I will call you to arrange the time and place.?
I went home to do my toe nails with ruby red nail polish and more
practice in my heels.
After parking the car, I grabbed the little shopping bag and went
upstairs to the apartment that I shared with Scott. Scott was home and
meet me as I got to the top of the stairs. I was about to say hi, when
Scott said, ?You really plan on turning yourself into a woman.?
?What made you say that?" I asked.
He said, ?Look down at your chest, I mean your breasts.?
I looked down and said, ?I forgot that I was wearing them, all I was
thinking about was that I could not wait to do my toe nails. I told him
about my experience at the store and why I was wearing them.?
He said, ?Okay, I understand why you felt like you had no choice and had
to wear them out of the store. But, that you forgot that you were
wearing them is amazing.?
I said, ?I stopped to buy a pack of smokes, did not think twice when the
man at the store called me miss when he handed me my change, I just
thought that he judged me by my long hair. I guess that?s when I
forgot, I mean I am so used to being thought of as a woman. Well,
having tits like a woman, even if they are fake is something that I
thought I would not forget. However, I must have thought that having
tits was normal. I am going to my room and do my toe nails.?
Scott said, ?Have fun.?
I went to my bedroom, looked at the mirror and saw my tits sticking out
and I knew that I could grow to like having them, I did not want to take
them off, so I did not. I took my boots and socks off, was about to
start applying ruby red nail polish to my toe nails and thought it would
be better if I took my jeans off first as not to smudge the nail color
before it was dry. It would be better to slow down and think, instead
of rushing and still having to wait for the polish to dry wearing dirty
work jeans. I took my jeans off and looked at my legs and thought that
there are 10 days until I plan on waxing my body hair off, but I could
shave my legs and enough hair would grow back. I wanted to see my legs
hairless in panty-hose with ruby red toe nails in my high heels. I put
my bath robe on over my tee-shirt enlarged by my tits and went to the
bath room to shave my legs. I took me awhile to shave my legs, having
never done it before, slowly and very careful as not to cut myself. I
was, however, quite pleased with the result. I went back to my bed room
and painted my toe nails it took awhile for the polish to dry enough for
me to put on the panty-hose. That was a lot of fun, one would not think
that they would stretch so much, but they did. I wished that I had a
dress or skirt to wear, because I did not want to cover my legs with
pants. I remembered that I had an old pair of jeans that had the knees
almost ripped off, so I turned them into hot pants, very short to show
off as much leg as I could. I put on my heels and looked at my handy
work in the mirror. I really liked the changes I have made. I was
about to start my heel walking practice, when I remembered that both my
ears are pierced.
The summer I turned 18 I got a job racking balls, at a pool hall at the
nearby beach town of Carolina Beach, I found an ear ring at a friend?s
place and asked did you lose an ear ring? She said, ?The ear ring you
found is the mate to the one I lost, do want it??
I said, ?I?ll take it. I have wanted to pierce an ear, do you have any
rubbing alcohol??
She said, ?Yes, I?ll go get it.?
I cleaned the ear ring with the alcohol and the front and back of my
left ear lobe. I placed the wire hook to the front of my ear lobe and
shoved it through with a fair amount of pain, I heard a pop as it went
through the front it was followed by a pop as it passed through the back
of the ear lobe hooking the wire to itself I saw a nice little silver
cross hanging from my ear. After the hole healed, I found out that the
ear I had done earlier, was a clue for gay guys to let them know that
you are also gay. I took the ear ring out and shoved it through the
other ear. That is how I ended up with both of my ears pierced.
Jane never liked it when I would wear a pair of ear rings saying that it
was too feminine, and I would remove them to make her happy. I don?t
care about her happiness right now, my happiness is all that matters. I
put the most feminine ear rings that I had into both ears looked at my
new self in the mirror and thought not bad if I do say so myself. The
more I feminine I become, the more feminine I want to be, I knew I would
not really be happy until I have done everything on my list. Not much
else I can do but wait, I could paint my finger nails and put on
lipstick. I did my finger nails and applied lipstick to my lips, I lit
a smoke and was quite pleased to see the red lip prints on the filter.
I walked to the kitchen and got a soda from the fridge. Sitting down on
a chair at the table, I realized that I had crossed my legs at the knees
just as a woman would and it was the most natural thing I have ever
done. I finished my smoke and soda, returning to heel practice I went
down the hall back to my bedroom. 2 round trips latter, I stopped in
the bedroom long enough to light a smoke, I looked down at the red
lipstick on the filter as I held I it between my ruby red finger nails
and thought that is the way it should be, when I realized that I did not
have any nail polish remover. I knew that I could not wear the polish
at work. I could stop on the way to work in the morning and get some,
but what if they did not have any at my normal stop. It would mean
showing up at work with ruby red nails I was not ready for that to
happen or I could drive out of the way to find some and be late not good
either. 2 of the 3 outcomes were not good, I finished my smoke, sat on
the bed thinking of what could go wrong in the morning, looked to see
what time it was 8:30 pm, still early. There is a store not more than 2
blocks away and they don?t close until 11:00pm, I could walk there and
back in less than 10 minutes. I grabbed a $5 bill out of my billfold,
stuck it into my pocket, I turned to the mirror, touched up my lipstick
and left the bedroom.
I crossed the hallway went to the top of the stairs, put my smoke in my
left hand grabbed hold of the handrail with my right hand and went down
the stairs for the first time, when I reached the bottom, I was glad
that there was a handrail if not I would have fallen down the stairs.
Going down the stairs was a lot harder than walking the hallway, but I
did make it. I went out the door and started to make my way to the
store, I did not have to wait at the corner of my street, as it is a
side street, however, when I got to sixteenth street I had to wait at
the corner for the traffic to clear. While I was waiting the driver of
one of the cars that went past me honked his horn and another whistled
at me. I crossed the street and made my way to the store. When I got
there a man held the door open for me, I found the nail polish remover
and got a soda from the cooler and went to pay for them I asked the
store clerk, ?How much for this and a pack of eve menthol 120s??
He said, ?$5.29 tax included.?
I said, ?I?m a quarter short, so I guess I?ll have to get my smokes on
the way to work in the morning.?
He was about to put them back when a voice said, ?don?t worry about it,
I?ve got you covered.? It was from the man that held the door open for
me. I thanked him for his help. I asked the clerk for some matches and
he informed me that he was out of free matches. I turned to leave, and
my nice man came to my aid again and gave me a new lighter. I thanked
him again and went towards the door and he opened it for me. I stopped
and was opening the pack of smokes, just as I put a smoke to my lips my
nice man had his lighter in his hand and said, ?May I offer you a lite.?
I said, ?Yes, thank you.? He told me his name was Tom and inquired if I
needed a ride and asked me my name. I told him that I did not need a
ride, I paused I guess he was waiting for me to give him my name, little
did he know at that moment I did not have a woman?s name to give him, I
heard the name I would be known as, while he heard it I said, ?My name
is Jenny.? He told me that he often comes to this store and perhaps we
would see each other again. I told him that we more than likely would
as I lived nearby. With that we exchanged good-byes and I walked back
home.
I made it home and very carefully went up the stairs upon reaching the
top landing I saw Scott and he said, ?I thought I heard you leave, but I
did not hear your car start up.?
I said, ?I went to the store, I decided I could use the practice in my
heels, if you want to talk. I?ll be in the kitchen in a couple of
minutes.?
I went to the bathroom got some tissue and headed towards the kitchen.
Scott was waiting when I got there. As I was trying to take the nail
polish off my finger nails and having a hard time with process Scott
said, ?My girlfriend uses cotton balls to do that job.?
I said, ?Thank you for that useful bit of info, I?ll have to pick some
up, in the meantime, could you bring me the whole roll of tissue.?
Scott returned with the roll and I ended up using more than I thought I
would need. We talked for a while, I told him about my walk to the
store, meeting Tom and how nice he was and that I decided that my name
while I was dressed as a woman would be Jenny.
Scott said, ?Jenny is a nice name, by the way Tom was flirting with
you.?
I said, ?Wow, I wasn?t trying that hard to be a woman, I just wanted to
make sure I did not act like a man.?
Scott said, ?You need to be careful, it seems that it doesn?t take much
for you to come across as a woman, now that I think about it you never
have been a real macho type.?
I said, ?I know what you mean, at least I think I do, I never have felt
that macho I guess I have always known that I had to cover for my lack
of masculinity I hid behind the image of an easy going, laid-back long-
haired hippie. Remove that persona and I have to admit I am much more
like a woman then I ever thought I could be or that I would admit to
being.?
Scott said, ?You?re right, take away that hippie persona and what?s left
is an impression of that girl with long hair, she has grown-up into a
woman and you are that woman and her name is Jenny.?
I said, ?Still my friend, even if the concept for my list is so that I
can give myself a reason to be the woman I now know myself to be.?
Scott said, ?Don?t understand, but I don?t have to understand. I will
be your friend always but just your friend.?
I asked Scott, ?Do you see a light bulb on over my head, you know like
in the cartoons when an idea pops into their head??
Scott replied, ?No, I do not see a light bulb, life?s not a cartoon.
However, I can tell that there is a real difference in the way that you
see yourself.?
Time for me to go to bed I got up from the table turned to Scott told
him thanks for the talk and went to my room. As I sat on the bed
removing my heels, took the ear rings out of my ears looked down at the
fake tits on my chest and had to admit that I liked wearing them. I
finished undressing being careful not to let my tits fall to the floor
and put them with my bra in the top drawer. I went to bed with mixed
feelings, it took a long time to fall asleep, I kept coming back to the
same thought have I been trying to hide from myself.
Morning came, and I felt that I had just fallen to sleep. I went to the
bathroom, I thought about shaving my face and decided not to shave. It
would be better to have some hair on my face the next time that I go out
with Jane. I looked down at my legs and I realized that I could not
take my pants off in front of Jane without her knowing that I had shaved
my legs, I had some time to think of something I hope it?s good. I went
back to my bedroom and got dressed for work.
I got to work checked my rubber-tire roller out, water, oil and fuel
levels are alright. I saw the foreman and asked him where I needed to go
and roll. He said, ?Take the right side of the road, you will see Edward
when you get there. Lisa is waiting for you down there also, you were
on time but try to get here at 10 till 7 a.m., you know you have to
check-out your roller.?
I said, ?Sorry, I did not look at the gas indicator in my car until this
morning and I needed to stop and get some or I would have run out. I
guess I will need to check it on the way home from now on or leave the
house earlier.?
Bob laughed then said, ?You better check it on the way home, I don?t see
you getting up earlier.?
I agreed and went to find Edward and Lisa. The road project was 7.5
miles long with 3 inter-changes, in total 6 on ramps and 6 off ramps. I
found them 4 miles down the road. Edward was busy in his motor-grader,
so I said, ?Good-morning Lisa, how much roadway today??
Lisa replied, ?If you been here on time you would know, we are to do .5
mile today.?
I said, ?I know, Bob told me 10 till 7 a.m. is starting time.? I went on
to explain why I was later than normal and that Bob had laughed at my
reason.
Lisa said, ?I think I know why Bob laughed at your reason.? She laughed
herself.
I could not stand it I had to ask, ?Why or what made my reason so funny
that you both laughed at it??
She said, ?Not checking the gas gauge is something that is normally done
by a woman. You do recall, 2 weeks ago, you ran out of gas on your way
home, with that in mind it seems that you are as normal as a woman when
it comes down to checking the gas gauge in her car. Now do you see why
Bob laughed??
At first, I could not believe it, I am as normal as a woman when it
comes to checking the gas gauge in my car. I cannot let the truth upset
me after all it is my truth. So, I said, ?I guess that is funny, I am
as normal as any woman went it comes to the gas in my car.?
Few minutes later Edward was finished, Lisa and I started our rolling.
I would start by making 3 passes on the road, going over from left to
the right. Then Lisa would use her roller which had one big metal wheel
in the front with two big rubber wheels in the rear where the engine was
located, the front wheel vibrated to help compact the dirt. 9 passes to
cover the roadway and we had to make 3 complete trips from the left to
the right. That means 2.5 miles forward and 2 miles in reverse at the
top speed for this job of 5 miles an hour. Halfway thru the first trip
Edward would check to see if the road drying as it should, if it was
then 5 miles per hour would be fine, if not then down to 3 miles per
hour. We were lucky today speed would be 5 miles per hour, we should be
done by lunch and have the state inspector check it out after lunch, if
it went well we would move on to the next section, if not it would need
to be ripped-up, bladed-over and rerolled.
We stopped for lunch I rode with Bob, I found out early that if you rode
with Bob. Lunch was over when he felt like going back, on most days you
could have a few extra minutes. I sat with Lisa, I always sit with her
it was like being with an older sister, it felt right, I was more at
ease with her then with the guys. Judy our waitress came over to our
table and said, ?know what you want today.?
I said, ?I?ll have a grilled cheese and a glass of sweet tea.?
Lisa said, ?That sounds good, I?ll have the same.? Then she laughed.
Judy asked, ?What?s so funny??
Lisa smiled and said, ?If you have a few minutes I?ll tell you.?
Judy said, ?I?ll be back, as soon as I turn your orders in.?
Judy returned in less than 1 minute sat down and said, ?What is so
funny??
Lisa proceeded to tell her about my conversation with Bob this morning
after she had heard she laughed, they both did. Judy then turned to me
and was about to say something, when the bell from the kitchen rang out,
Judy got up and returned with our orders. After she gave us our
sandwiches, she sat down turned to me and said, ?There is nothing wrong
with your normal, for the other guys at the table over there it might be
a problem, but for you it just seems right. It just never came up
before, you chose to sit with Lisa, the only other woman on the job
site.?
I thanked her, not knowing what else to say I ate my lunch. Judy got up
and went back to work. After we finished our lunch, Judy came back to
clear our plates and asked us if we would like our tea to go. We said,
?Yes, thank you.?
She came back with our tea. Lisa said, ?Watch my tea while I go to the
ladies.?
I said, ?I will be glad to watch it for you.?
Judy sat down as Lisa got up and said, ?If you need to talk, I stay at
the motel next door room 6. It?s not every day that you find out that
the you have been trying so hard to be is a mask, a cover for the you
that others seem to see through, if they know what they are looking
for.?
I said, ?It would be nice to talk to someone, could I come by after work
today??
Judy said, ?That would be okay, I?ll see you after work.?
Lisa came back to the table and Bob was ready to go. We went back to
work and I kept hearing the words that Judy had said, ?The only other
woman on the job site.? At the time she said them I looked at Lisa and
she smiled with a look that seem to say that she knew more about me then
I knew myself. I could not wait to get back to work and ask her about a
few things thing that I had to know. When we got back to the section it
had been approved, Edward was working on the next section.
Lisa and I were going to have about 45 minutes of down time, now would
be a good time for some questions. I said, ?Lisa, there are a few
things I need to know. Do you mind if I ask you about them??
She said, ?Go ahead, I?ll try my best to help.?
I gathered my thoughts and said, ?first, when Judy told me I was the
other woman on the job site you smiled at me like you already knew that,
second, would you be surprised to know that from the time I was 17 I
wanted people to think I was a girl with long hair rather than cutting
it short and have them know I was a boy.?
Lisa smiled and said, ?A woman knows a woman when she sees one, I?m not
talking about male and female that is really about reproduction. Boys
normally grow up wanting to be like other boys and they become men, you
wanted to be like a girl. You tried to look more like a girl by growing
your hair long like a girl. I know both your ears are pierced and at
times your finger nails are long as a woman would grow them. There are
signs if you know what to look for and no I would not be surprised.?
I said, ?Thank-you very much for being so honest, Edward is coming over
I am not ready to put up a billboard so could you keep that just between
us.?
Lisa said, ?I have enjoyed you being the other woman on the job site
even if you did not know that you were, what the men don?t know won?t
hurt them.?
I told her thanks just as Edward told us the next section was ready to
roll. We rolled that section of road the rest of the day. After we
were done for the day I went to my car and there was a note left by Bob,
it read: check your gas gauge on the way home, Bob. I left work and
went to the Leland motor inn, next to the caf? and parked my car in
front of room #6. I knocked on the door, I heard footsteps the door
opened, and Judy said, ?I?m glad you came by to see me.? She stood
aside, and I entered the room, I looked around, just right for one. To
the right along the back wall was a rack to hang clothes from with a
shelf above it, in front of it and in between the front window was a
small round table and 2 chairs, next to the window a small fridge,
beside that a dresser across from it the bed the head board was at the
rear wall with a nightstand in the other corner from the clothes rack
the 8? by 6? room with the door closed must be the bathroom, made sense
wouldn?t want the first thing someone to see be your bathroom.
I said, ?This is a nice little room.?
Judy replied, ?Yes, it is small but big enough for one. So, have had
time to think about what I said to you at lunch.?
I told her about my talk with Lisa, her observations of, I guess you
could say my inner woman. Judy asked, ?Does it bother you if people
think you are a woman??
I said, ?No, I know that to some people I look more like a woman than a
man, it?s a truth I have come to accept. Long hair like a woman, I?m
short and my body size is more like a woman, the longer my hair got the
more times people would think I was a woman.?
Judy said, ?If you knew that you would start to look more like a girl,
why grow your hair long like a girl??
I said, ?My father lost the bet.?
She said, ?He lost what bet??
I went on to explain about the bet. My father retired from the army in
1970, we came back to the states from Germany and move to Wilmington,
Nc. My father and I often fought over the length of my hair, we had a
real fight coming to blows outside the post barber shop, I gave up when
I realized: my hair would grow back. My father?s army buddies told him
how stick the hair rules for boys at schools in Nc. We got to Nc around
the first of June and through the summer I kept seeing some boys with
longer hair, I thought they must have new hair rules. The high school
where I would start the 10th grade was 4.5 miles away, we did not have a
car. While we were walking I came up with the bet, if I had to cut my
hair for school not only would I cut it, but also, I would join the Jr.
ROTC. I could see my father he was thinking, what if you don?t have to
cut it?
I told him if I did not have to cut it, I would be the boss of my hair,
he could ask me to cut it, but I would have the right to say no. He just
knew from his friends that he was going to win the bet, he agreed to the
bet. When we got to the high school and we were going through the
enrollment, he was about to sign me up for Jr ROTC when I said, ?just
one minute, dad I need to ask about the school?s hair rules.? You
should have seen the look on by father?s face when he learned that he
had just lost the bet and that I would be the boss of my hair. I turned
to my father looked him in the eyes and said, ?You lose, I win.? On the
way home, my father was upset that he lost the bet, but to his credit he
was a man of his word, he always told me that your word was the only
thing that no one could take from me, I could only give it and when you
give it you keep it.? He kept his word, he kept asking me to cut it,
but when I told him no he would drop it. He never gave up asking, gone
were the days when over my hair he would say, ?You will do as I say, or
you will move out, my house my rules.?
Judy said, ?A bet, your life changed when you won that bet. Knowing
what you now know, would you make the same bet??
I said, ?I believe I would, I know that I have an important choice to
make soon, and I am almost ready to make it.?
Judy said, ?I can see that you seem to be happier, now that we have had
a chance to talk. Do you have a plan??
I told her about Jane and the list. I went on to tell her that I had
started on the list. She went to the little fridge and brought me a
coke and said, ?Tell me more, I really would like to know you better.?
I said, ?Okay, I really feel good to talking to you, you don?t put me
down for not being a real man.? I told her about the shoe, the 5&10
stores about the bra and foam breasts, how I got ready for my heel
training, my first attempt at passing as woman when I went to the store
and meeting Tom.
She went over to the clothes rack and got a skirt handed it to me and
said, ?Take your shoes and socks off and put the skirt on, you can use
the bathroom to change, I want to see you in that skirt.?
I went to the bathroom with the skirt I my hand, I did as she requested
and returned to the main room wearing the skirt with my socks in my
boots and jeans folded. She said, ?I like what I see, you will look
great when you finish your list. I love that color of polish on your toe
nails it suits you. Only one thing I don?t like, the stubble on your
legs and face. When do you plan on waxing yourself??
I said, ?I plan to wax the Friday, after next Friday. Why do you want
to know??
Judy said, ?At the rate your hair grows you only need 3 days of growth,
I will give you a razor to use, shave your face and legs.?
I told her how upset Jane gets when she sees me with my face shaved.
She said, ?You don?t really think that she will admit she was wrong, do
you.?
I said, ?No, she will more than likely says that she was right.?
Judy said, ?Why be worried about how she feels about your shaving of
your face, it is after all your face.?
I said, ?You are right, I know that Jane and I will likely break-up, I
just wanted her to see me as a complete woman, head to toe and know that
she helped me to be all the woman I could be and not end it on her
terms.?
Judy said, ?I?ll make you a deal, you shave for me now and I will help
you with your upcoming wax job. You will have 3 days? worth of stubble
on your face, so, Jane should have no reason to be mad.?
I said, ?You?ve got a deal.? I went to the bathroom and shaved. When I
was done I returned to the main room.
Judy said, ?Now that?s more like it! You can have the skirt, it?s too
small for me. I would like you to wear it when you leave.?
I said, ?I know I very new to the world of women?s fashions, but I don?t
think it goes well with my boots.?
Judy said, ?You are right, your feet are much smaller than mine, none of
my shoes would fit. I do have something that would be better than your
boots.? She got a small pair of flip-flops, these will show off your
toe nails. She was right, they looked great. I sat at the table and
crossed my legs just like a woman. I lit a smoke and finished the coke,
I thanked Judy for guiding me on this new path directing me towards my
determined goal. I grabbed my boots and jeans, went to the car and
drove home.
I got home, went up the stairs and into my room, I was not thinking to
clearly, I forgot my boots, socks and jeans in the car. I went to the
mirror and took a good look at myself, the bright ruby red polish on my
toe nails and the skirt that Judy gave me, I knew that I was becoming
more comfortable with being dressed as a woman out in public. After all
I did stop on the way home, to buy some cotton balls for easy removal of
the ruby red nail polish I was going to apply to my finger nails. I
traded the flip-flops for panty-hose and high heels, took off my tee-
shirt and put on my bra filling it with the foam breasts covering them
with a clean tee-shirt, I put on my ear rings and did my finger nails
with ruby red polish finishing with matching lipstick. Back to the
mirror, I really like myself more as a woman, only partway with my list
and I feel like I have been waiting all my life certain that the
reflection in the mirror is the appearance that I want to see, not only
for myself, but for everybody that notices me: perceives a woman.
I grabbed the pack of eve menthol 120?s from the dresser drawer, put one
of the smokes to my lips and lit it. It doesn?t make any sense to buy
one brand of smokes for work and around Jane and buy another brand for
the rest of the time. The benefit from one brand would be less
expenditure of cash, it would be worth considering. I thought about
going down to the car and getting my work boots, but they would still be
there in the morning. I decided to leave them in the car, I would wear
my heels to work and change into my work boots when I got to work. I
would be beneficial to extend my heel training to driving my car,
besides I could pick my dress up from the 5&10 store wearing my heels,
I?m sure that Tina would like to see me in them. Tina was right about
high heels, the more you wear them the better you get in them, I now
have no problem wearing high heels around the house, the stairs are
still a challenge, tonight will be spent going down the stairs and back
up them. At least 3 trips, down and up then a break will be in order.
After the third trip I went to the kitchen to take a break.
Scott was there and said, ?Here?s something I thought I would never hear
myself say to you. That skirt looks nice on you. Want some soup??
I said, ?Thank-you, and I will have some soup.? I sat down at the table
to have some soup. I told Scott about my day and the insight that both
Lisa and Judy shared about my inner woman.
Scott said, ?The other woman on the job site, wow, all this time and
they just now tell you. Maybe, they thought that you knew and did not
want to make it an issue.?
I said, ?That could be it or they were waiting for me to as people say:
wake-up and smell the coffee.? We both laughed at that. After we
finished our soup, I got up to return to my stair training.
Scott asked, ?If you would like to get a little break in between your
down and up, I was going for a walk around the block, you could join
me.?
I said, ?That?s a great idea, you don?t mind being seen with me, you
know out in public.?
He replied, ?You look enough like a woman, so I don?t see a problem.
It?s okay for you to let that inner woman out in public, soon your outer
and inner woman will be one, when that happens will be able to split one
back in two. Think about that, ready to go for our walk, Jenny.?
I said, ?You remembered my name, let?s go on our walk.? We made our way
down the stairs out the door and started to make our way around the
block. We talked mostly about nothing, not all conversations are deep
and profound. Making our way back to the house, up the stairs, I went
to my room to get the nail polish remover and cotton balls and went to
the kitchen. I had already cleaned the nails on my left hand when Scott
entered the kitchen.
He said, ?I see you have gotten wise and got cotton balls.?
I said, ?It is much quicker and easier with the cotton balls, so, thank-
you for the tip.?
He said, ?Glad to be of some help to you, I don?t think I have any more
tips though. Have you thought about our earlier conversation??
I replied, ?Yes, I have to admit that I am not sure I could make the
split. My preference would be to be Jenny for the rest of my life,
however, I can?t rush into a new life as a woman without planning for it
thoroughly.?
He said, ?Think it through and do what you feel will be best for
yourself. The choice you make should make you happy.?
I said, ?Make a choice based on happiness, wouldn?t want to go thru life
with a bad case of the what ifs. I?m going to bed, see you Tomorrow.?
I made my way to my bedroom and got ready for bed. Tomorrow was going
to be a big day for me, at least after work would be a huge change in my
outlook on life.
Thursday morning here at last, the last 2 days seems to have taken a
week. I started to get my clothes for the day ready jeans, underwear, a
blue tee-shirt, socks and my work boots. Where are my boots? I put on
my bathrobe and started to look around for them, in the wardrobe, under
the bed, around the bed and in the kitchen-no, no, and no. I started
the coffee maker, it seems that I beat Scott to the kitchen this
morning. It was on my way to the bathroom when I realized where my
boots are, I left them in the car. On my way back to my bedroom I
stopped in the kitchen, made myself a cup of coffee and took it with me.
I lit a smoke and a couple of sips of coffee, I remembered my plan from
last night, all of it. I decided to add to the plan, I would also be
taking my nail polish with matching lipstick, bra and foam breasts, ear
rings and the blue jean skirt. No need for the socks or the underwear I
would be wearing panty-hose instead under my jeans. I got dressed in my
work clothes, put my high heels on, lit a smoke and went to the kitchen
to get a coffee refill. I sat down at the table to finish my smoke and
drink my coffee. I heard Scott before I saw him he said, ?I don?t
think you should be wearing high heels to work.?
I laughed then said, ?Good morning to you too. By the way, my boots are
in the car. Could you grab me a bag from the third down on the right
side of the sink, I need it for my change of clothes for after work.?
As Scott handed me the bag, he said, ?Here you go one bag, high heels
and a change of clothes for after work. Wait, I?ve got it you pick up
your dress today.?
I thanked him for the bag finished my smoke and coffee and headed to my
room. I carefully packed my change of clothes with extras. I drove to
work, it was different driving with high heels on, not as difficult as
the stairs but challenging in its own manner. I was glad I would be
able to practice my driving with heels on. I made it to work earlier
than normal, the best spots went fast, I would have to park with my car
in the sun on most days, but not today. My car would be in the shade
all day, I was worried that the heat from the sun would melt my
lipstick. I traded my heels for work boots and went to do the morning
check of my rubber-tire roller. It was one-half quart of oil low, the
water was fine, and it could use some fuel.
I took stock of my smokes for the day, I always seem to run low, close
to out on Thursdays. Only 3 left from the pack that everybody has seen
me smoke, I did bring 12 in the open pack of eve menthol 120?s and a
full pack of eves. I had left the eve?s in the car, so, I needed to get
the open pack for sure I grabbed them and made my way back to my
machine. The service truck was there when I got back, I told him what
it needed, he checked it out himself, he did that all the time to me.
Everybody started to arrive, and the place was soon roaring with the
sound of the large road equipment. I saw Lisa and went over to say good
morning to her. We were chitchatting when Bob said, ?enough morning
gossip, both of you need to come over here, I want to say this only
once. ?Lisa and I looked at each other speculating to ourselves, did we
do something wrong or does he want us to do something. When we got
close Bob continued, ?first great job on the sub-soil, I ordered the
road stone which they must mix to order, based on your work. Now for
the bad news, there will be a 3-hour delay in the stone arriving today,
you know that the stone must be work within 48 hours of delivery, half
the stone will be here today and the other half Tomorrow. There will
not be time to finish unless we work till dark today or if you could
work a half day on Saturday.?
I said, ?Lisa and I will be deliberating over by our rollers, give us a
couple of minutes, please.?
Bob said, ?I?ll be over in 5 minutes.?
Lisa and I walked over to our rollers, I turned to her and said,
?Please, if there is any way that we could work Saturday morning, I
really need to pick up my dress after work today, I told Tina I would be
by to get it, please!?
Lisa looked at me and smiled saying, ?On one condition, I get to come
with you.?
When Bob came over I said, ?Lisa and I will work Saturday morning, we
have made plans for after work and it is too late to change them.?
Bob said, ?Okay, starting time will be 0600, don?t be late. Edward will
be in charge on Saturday. He knows what your section will be until the
stone arrives today, he is at the far end of the job, go see him.?
7 miles at 15mph, we will be there in about 35 minutes, I turned to Lisa
and said, ?Thank-you for agreeing to work on Saturday.?
We left the equipment yard and started to go down the road to meet up
with Edward. He was on the other side of the roadway, working on the
on-ramp, he waved to us to go over to him. When we got over to him, he
said, ?Go over these 7 runs per trip, do 5 trips then go over to the
other side and I should have it ready for you.?
We nodded affirmation and I asked him, ?Do you have any water??
He said, ?No, but I will have some brought here. Start your runs we
need to finish these 2 ramps by the time the stone gets here.?
He left to go to the other side of the roadway and Lisa and I began our
job. Around 30 minutes later George showed up with the water, I was
glad to see him as it can get hot, very quickly in Nc, near the end of
May. George told me to keep up with the water cooler and to tell Edward
if we would need any more water. I waved Lisa over to take a water
break. I said, ?At lunch, I need to ask Judy if it would be alright
with her, to use her room after work. I have brought a change of
clothes with me and I would like to pick my dress up, as a woman.?
Lisa said, ?She should not be bothered, after all, we both feel like big
sisters to you, so if we can help our little sister, we will. Edward is
looking at us, we better get back to work.? We did not stop again,
until we were done with the ramp and moved over to the other side. We
took a quick break for water and went right back to work. The stone
arrived at 1100 and we had 2 runs left, to finish this ramp. Edward
came over and said, ?not bad, finish this up then drive your rollers to
the equipment lot and go to lunch.? 10 minutes later we were on our way
to lunch. I drove us to lunch, Lisa noticed my heels on the floor board
of the back seat but did not say anything at the time.
We sat down in Judy?s section, she took our orders and returned with
them. I asked her, ?Would it be alright if I came over, after work to
change my clothes, before I pick my item up, at the 5&10 store. Lisa
will be joining me, is that okay??
Judy said, ?No problem, however, I will be joining the both of you.?
Then she smiled and winked at me.
Lisa smiled as she softly said, ?What fun it will be your first girl?s
night out!? I thought to myself, how lucky am I to have women that want
to be my big sisters. We finished lunch and returned to work.
When we work stone, Lisa starts first then I follow. A lot of other
things go on to get to that point, I?ll tell you later about that. Lisa
and I, both could hardly wait for quitting time to get here. At last it
was quitting time Lisa told tony, he was the man that gave her a ride to
and from work, that I would be giving her a ride home today as we have
something we had planned to do. I drove us to Judy?s room and Lisa
said, ?I?ll take your heels and bag in for you, I was going to tell you
at lunch that think these heels are hot!? I thanked her and knocked on
the door.
Judy opened the door and said, ?Come on in, I?ve been looking forward to
this, since you asked to come by at lunch.?
Lisa smiled and said, ?First ladies night out, should be fun for our
little sister. Look at these.? She held up my heels for Judy to see.
Judy said, ?I like those heels, you do have good taste in high heels,
and what do you need to do??
I said, ?I would like to use your bathroom and shave and change into
what I have to wear. Do you have a blouse I could lend me, one that
would go with that jean skirt you gave me.??
Judy said, ?Yes and yes I do have a blouse that would go very well with
that skirt and I hate to admit it, but it doesn?t fit me to well any
more, I like to think that it has shrank, well I may have gained a
little weight.?
Judy handed me a nice multi-colored blouse, I thanked her and went to
the bathroom with my bag and heels. When I came out, they both agreed
that I looked much better than when I got here. I walked over to the
table, crossed my legs and thanked them for the compliment. Lisa asked,
?If I had anything else with me to use.?
I put my ruby red nail polish and lipstick on the table and said, ?just
this. ?Lisa grabbed the nail polish saying, ?I want to do your nails,?
and started to shake the bottle. Judy must have felt left out and went
to the bathroom returned and sat down at the table.
After Lisa had finished my nails, Judy said, ?I?m going to shape your
eye brows, not thin them that I will do later.?
I said, ?Okay, I trust you.? When she was done I looked at what she had
done, they were much better than before. I put my lipstick on, lit a
smoke and walked over to the full-length mirror, I liked what I saw. I
walked back to the table and thanked both. I grabbed my boots, jeans
and tee-shirt and put them in the bag, I picked up my nail polish and
lipstick and said, ?My name is Jenny and I am so thankful for big
sisters like you two, I really need a purse.?
Lisa and Judy both said, ?No doubt, Jenny is definitely a woman and she
wants a purse.?
Judy said, ?Let?s go and get that dress, you do realize that you will
have to model it for us.?
I said, ?It will be my pleasure.? I grabbed my bag and we got into my
car, the next stop would be the 5&10 store. When we got there, I was
lucky to find a parking space near the front door. We made our way to
the lady?s department, I saw Tina, I waited for her to be done with the
customer she was helping. When she was done she came up to us and said,
?How may I help you ladies??
I looked at her and said, ?I here to pick up a dress that I put on
layaway, it was Monday when you helped me.?
She looked lost for a moment the said, ?Girl, you had me fooled, I could
not place you, you were by yourself and all I saw at first was 3 women
in the lady?s department, I thought I would remember you. You were
going to come by today. I?ll go get your dress.?
Lisa looked at Judy then me and said, ?Did you see what just happened,
do you need any more proof. Your confirmation is Tina thought that you
were just another woman. Do the math as they say: 1 woman + 2 women =
3 women.?
I said, ?I know you?re right, look here comes Tina with my dress, I
promise we will go into greater detailed comprehensive total look at
where I am at and where I am going, but for now I just want to put on my
dress.?
Judy said, ?Lisa, give Jenny a little more time, I am sure she will
arrive at the same place that we are total womanhood.?
Tina said, ?You 2 ladies wait over here, I?ll help Jenny into this dress
and send her out to model it for you.? Tina said, ?come over here Jenny,
we?ll use changing room 1.? I went to the room that she had said to go
to. She complimented me on my outfit, I told her that I got it from
Judy.
I got out of my outfit and into my dress, I said to Tina, ?Somehow, it
seems to look better today.?
She replied, ?You?re what makes it look better, you?re more woman than
you were Monday, now go show your friends.? I went out of the changing
room to where Lisa and Judy were waiting. I walked to them and I hoped
that they thought that it looked as good as I thought. They agreed that
both the dress and I looked great! I introduced Lisa as a co-worker and
Judy as the waitress from the caf? and that they both were like my big
sisters.
Tina said, ?Glad to meet you both, it seems that Jenny has more
confidence in herself as a woman, you both are doing a great job as big
sister.?
I told Tina to cut the tag off the dress as I would wear it when I left.
I said, ?I did not want to take it off Monday, tonight, I don?t have
to.? We all laughed at that. I told Tina not to forget to add the
charge for the bra and foam breasts, she winked at me.
Tina said, ?The dress, minus layaway and the other two items, the total
will be $37.50, anything else I can do for you today.?
I said, ?A purse or make-up, I don?t think I can afford both right now,
I am trying to make up my mind.?
Judy said, ?I can help you with that choice, I have a purse that would
look great with that dress and your heels, so now let?s look at the
make-up.?
I said, ?Thank-you, Judy I would be lost without you and Lisa.? I
started to reach to my back pocket when Lisa handed me my wallet, I
thanked her and paid Tina. Cosmetic area would be the next stop. When
we arrived at the cosmetic area I tried real hard to think of what Tina
had told me about make-up on Monday.
Lisa said, ?Okay, Jenny picks out what you think you need.? I went
around putting what I could remember, base, compact, blush, mascara, eye
brow pencil, eye shadow and eye liner, I hope I got the right shades.
?I?m impressed, only one thing that you don?t have, lip liner for that
hot and sexy look, this one will be fine, it will go with color and
shades that you picked out, said Lisa as she placed it in the make-up
basket. I paid $38.79 for the make-up and we went back to Judy?s room.
When we got there, Judy said, ?Bring in your make-up, Lisa and I will
give you a quick tutorial. Simple and quick, just your basic face, you
know everyday type of face.?
I grabbed my last pack of eve menthol 120?s and my make-up, I love the
sound of that my make-up and went into Judy?s room. I went to the table
and sat down, opened my pack of smokes and lit one. Judy said, ?Jenny,
that?s a good choice, but it is a brand that mostly women smoke. Let me
see the make-up.? Judy did my base and compact powder and Lisa did my
mascara and blush. I looked at my face and I was quite pleased with
what they called an everyday face, something still looked a little off,
I wasn?t quite to the there is a woman in the mirror.
Lisa picked up on my distress and knew what to say, ?It?s your eye
brows, once they are thinner and arched, you will have a face any woman
would be proud of having.?
Judy got the purse from the dresser and I started to put some of the
make-up in one part of the purse, when I got to the compact I opened it
and did a touch-up to my lips with my lipstick. Lisa said, ?You do that
like it?s what you have done for years, more natural, instinctive. It?s
time for me to go and you?re my ride.?
I said, ?Okay, let me get my stuff and I?ll meet you at the car.? Lisa
left to meet me at the car I started to gather up my stuff and Judy
stopped me. I?m coming with you, so, you will be back here you can get
it then. I did put my smokes in my slightly used purse and we went to
the car. The ride to Lisa?s place only took a few minutes, I didn?t
know that she lived so close by. I told Lisa I was very grateful that
we would work on Saturday, I really like this dress.
She said, ?I see why you did not want to take a chance that it would be
put back, it?s a very nice dress. See you in the morning.?
I started to drive back to Judy?s room, I was about to turn into the
parking lot she said, ?keep going, let?s go get something to eat, we can
go through the drive-thru at Hardee?s it?s just a left at the stop light
and 3 blocks on the right. We ordered 2 burgers, 2 fries and 2 cokes
and were on our way. In no time we were back at her room. We went
inside sat at the table to eat and to talk. I told her about Scott?s
theory of my inner woman and the outer woman I was turning myself into,
when the two merge into one, when that happens would I be able to split
back into what I was or would I choose to remain as one woman, if my
choice was to live as a woman it would mean that I would no longer be
James, he would be my past and Jenny would be my future.
Judy said, ?Your friend seems to be able to get right down to hard truth
that I did not know how to tell your predilection is beyond question you
are mentally a woman, you could try to hide it from others or a
unification of the mind and the body. Not the same words but true to
the facts.?
I said, ?I?ve not been very good at hiding my mental identification from
you and Lisa, hold on I think I know how to try to ease my mind. I am
terrified that when I decide, who I am I kidding, I already know.?
Judy said, ?So Jenny you have made your choice. What is it??
I said, ?I am a woman, a woman in a man?s body. I have tried all my
life to hide from that truth. I can?t fake being a man much longer. I
have a plan on how to start my life as Jenny without the fear of
termination from work, but I will need your help and I will also need
help from Lisa. How does this sound, the only man at work that needs to
really see me for the woman I am inside is the one that could fire me.
If you bring up some of the things that I do that are more in line with
being a woman, maybe if you tell him if he sees me as an easy-going,
long haired hippie, take that persona away and what are you left with,
that I mind, tell him to ask Lisa, as she has spent more time around
Jamie, you could say James just doesn?t fit with what you see. Try to
plant the seed of doubt: my lack of macho. Tell him if he can see any
of what you or Lisa see, then to tell Jamie that Judy the waitress wants
to see him. What do you think could it work, one way or another in 10
days I will be Jenny, living as a woman with this job or looking for
one.?
Judy said, ?That could work, if you start to become more feminine with
your behavior, it will be easier for Bob to pick up the demeanor. I?ll
show you how to be feminine with your hand gestures and don?t uncross
your legs at the knee when you see the guys come into the caf?, you want
them to perceive your feminine traits.?
I said ?you?re right, I need to let myself be freely feminine at all
times, even when I am not at work. That means I should start to buy
only one brand of cigarettes, such as eve menthol 120?s.?
?Appropriate choice for a woman?, Judy said, ?By doing that you will be
saying that you prefer to smoke the same brand of cigarettes that woman
would choose to buy and smoke.?
I said, ?It?s time I went home, thanks for having dinner with me and I
will see you in the morning.? I got my stuff together and went to my
car. I drove home with a stop at the gas station, gas for the car and a
carton of eve menthol 120?s for me. I got home and went upstairs with
my stuff, putting my stuff in my room I went to the kitchen.
Scott said, ?You look great, that must be the dress you were talking
about and you are right it is a nice dress.?
I said, ?Thank-you, you?re not saying that just to be nice.?
He replied, ?No, you really do look good and if you did not I would tell
you.?
?I have something to tell you and would like to hear what you think, let
me get the nail polish remover,? I said as