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Chapter Seventeen Of course nothing runs smoothly in our home. Lauren and Alecia were determined to get Josh and I together. They kept on and on at me to call him. I ignored all their requests and filed him away in the history folder never to be reopened. Christmas was racing around and things were crazy at work. We were flat out trying to fill orders for the end of year orders. I was thrown a reprieve which allowed me to escape Alecia and Lauren. I had to fly out for three days to meet with some prospective customers. We packaged up some samples and I prepared to hit the road. The one outstanding item was a Christmas party. I did what all good bosses do and delegated it to Siobhan and Maddy to organise. I gave them carte blanche to organise something spectacular for the end of the year wind up. By the time I got home Siobhan and Maddy had it all arranged. On my first day back in the office I asked Maddy for details. She giggled and refused apparently it was going to be a surprise. The party was arranged for this Friday night. It was formal so everyone was notified they were expected to dress up accordingly. Siobhan had organised for photographers and reporters to be present. She took every opportunity to publicise it. She wanted to announce to the world that not only were we here but we were a success. As the party approached Alecia and Lauren were spending hours out shopping looking for just the right dress. They tried to drag me with them but I was however flat out trying to get the last minute Christmas orders dispatched and getting deliveries finalised. Their shopping expeditions were at least a relief for me. They seemed to have shelved their plans of trying to get Josh and me together. It was weird it had gone from being the primary topic of conversation to not being mentioned at all. It made me a little uncomfortable. It was so unlike Lauren to give up so easy. Candy mentioned that she would like to make something special for me. I told her I would find something in my wardrobe at home. I mean I have literally hundreds of dresses now thanks to Alecia's generosity. I was a little nervous though. I did want to look my best. I asked her if she would do my makeup instead. She replied that she had already organised for me to go to her old salon. She had sold the salon to another transgender woman named Zoe, I had met her a few times and she did seem nice. Candy had organised for me to go in Friday afternoon for a full beauty treatment. The day arrived and I still didn't even know where we were going, all I knew was there was a limo picking us up at seven. The afternoon went so fast, Zoe is such an engaging character, she filled the afternoon with laughter and conversation there wasn't a dull moment, and she did a wonderful job. She styled my hair in the short pixie cut which I love, she finished my makeup and even I was astounded at how sexy she made me look and feel. I had brought a nice off the shoulder little black dress which was low cut enough to show of my boobs but not look to slutty. I was about to get dressed when Candy burst in carrying a dress bag yelling at the top of her voice. "Stop the party." Her eyes ran up and down my body. "Shit sweetie you look gorgeous, I couldn't have done better myself." Zoe and Candy kissed. "Right." She said looking at me. "Let's get you dressed". Candy pulled the dress out of the cellophane bag, it was gorgeous, and it was yellow my favourite colour. It was silk and fit me like a glove. It was cut low at the back which went down in a V to just above my arse. The bodice was low cut as well and showed of plenty of cleavage. The dress fell to the floor and it flowed so sexily, the fabric seemed to mould to my body and showed of my butt. She finished off the ensemble with a pair of silver sequined open toed strappy stilettoes that were so tall my feet ached and I hadn't even put them on. "Ah what we do for fashion." She sighed. We sat down and had a drink as Candy pulled out her own dress and got changed. She went with a sequined pale blue dress that suited her eyes, she has such beautiful baby blues and the dress looked spectacular. We were so busy patting ourselves on the back we didn't hear the Limo turn up. The tooting horn signalled its arrival, so we rushed out. Siobhan and Maddy and her date were already waiting excitedly inside for us, so we jumped in and scooted off to the ball. Siobhan looked amazing and so sexy. She wore another of Candy's wonderful designs. It was a deep red taffeta ball gown that flowed sensuously over her shapely body like water cascading over a waterfall. Maddy, well what can you say about Maddy, she is so gorgeous. She had chosen a simple black flowing gown that showed of every curve of her body and holy moly she had plenty of those. I was amazed at her date though. She was attractive without being stunning. Stupid I know but I expected her date to be an absolute knockout. She did however exude a certain understated sexiness. Maddy did the introductions and we hit the road. We drank champagne and laughed all the way. Now this is how I always imagined a girl's night out to go. As the limo pulled over to the curb my night came crashing down around me when I realised where we were. We had pulled up outside Brent's wine bar. As we climbed out I found myself standing there mouth gaping thinking, 'What the fuck.' Siobhan saw my look of horror and came over putting her arm around me. "What's the matter babe?" "What the hell are we doing here?" I hissed angrily. Siobhan looked at me with a confused hurt look on her face. "I'm sorry Kelli I thought you liked this place? I talked to Lauren and Alecia and they recommended it they told me this was one of your favourite haunts?" "Scheming bitches," I muttered quietly. I bit my tongue, and patted Siobhan reassuringly. "I am sorry Siobhan this isn't your fault." The girls know I hate the guy who owns this place. Fuck I am so angry right now. I thought Siobhan was going to cry. "Kelli I am so sorry I should have asked you, but Lauren said not to tell you so it would be a surprise." I took a deep breath. Inside my mind was screaming Fuuuuuuuuucccckkkk. "Forget it Siobhan. I am going to make the best of a bad situation, and I'm not going to give them the satisfaction of knowing I am upset." Siobhan hugged me. "Thanks babe, next time I will ask." "No that's OK. I am just going to have to suck it up." We walked in together and I managed to keep my head held high. I failed miserably at keeping my emotions undercover though. The moment I saw Alecia who was already inside I felt my anger bubble to the surface. She was sitting at a table reserved for us in the corner closest to the stage. Brent was waiting to welcome us in and he came straight in for a full hug and kiss but I turned away holding him at arm's length. He looked a little hurt but led us over to the table. Alecia looked gorgeous as usual and she jumped up out of her chair and tried to kiss and hug me, but I held out my hands and fended her off as well. She looked strangely hurt and tried to come back for a kiss but I shook my head. She looked bemused and mumbled. "Kelli what's the matter?" I moved straight past her leaving her standing there looking lost. Siobhan was organising the seating so I made sure that Siobhan, Candy, Maddy and her date were all seated together across from us; and Karla and Jerry were seated next us, so at least that meant Lauren was going to have to sit down the other end of the table and I wouldn't have to put up with her. Alecia was trying to get Candy and Siobhan to move. I heard her ask Siobhan if she could change so that Lauren could sit with us. I shushed her with a dismissive wave of my hand. "The arrangements are fine just the way they are Alecia." She grabbed my arm pulling me close obviously hurting and whispered brusquely. "Babes what the hell is wrong with you tonight? Where will Lauren sit?" I pointed to the other end. She looked hurt. "Don't you want all of us to sit together?" "Actually Alecia I don't fucking care where she sits." Alecia shook her head. "Jesus Kelli what's the problem, why are you being so mean?" I was confused. Surely she couldn't be that stupid? I was trying to keep a lid on my anger and keep my voice down so the others didn't hear. "Why the hell do you think Alecia? Whose fucking idea was it to use this fucking shit hole for our party?" She looked down at the table with a sly grin. "Fuck, chill out babes. Is that what this is all about? Jesus Kelli it was just a joke. We thought you had got past all that crap, plus Brent could really use the business." "Fuck Brent," I spat out bitterly. Alecia was just shaking her head. "Fuck you can be so childish sometimes, so fucking juvenile." I was trying to figure out why Lauren wasn't there. I expected her and Alecia would have travelled together. Siobhan, Candy and I were talking quietly, and Alecia was sitting fuming quietly ignoring me when Lauren walked in. She looked absolutely stunning as always, a picture of grace, elegance and oh so stylish. The shock for me however was in who was with her. She had Josh on her arm, or more to the point she was on Josh's arm. They walked in as bold as brass looking like a loving couple. The room went deathly silent, you could have heard the proverbial pin drop. They stood behind us looking at the seating, wondering where to sit. Alecia stood up and whispered into Laurens ear, I didn't hear what Alecia said but I did hear Laurens curse. "Oh for fuck sake, childish little shit." They turned and walked down the table where Josh showed her into her chair then hunted around for one for himself. At least he had the decency to stay out of my way and not speak to me. I was completely stunned. Never in a thousand years did I expect that. Lauren took the opportunity to give me her most contemptuous look. "Hi baby." She trilled in her sexiest voice as she gave me a big wave. I refused to even acknowledge her presence. I carried on talking to Candy as she tried to engage me with her greeting. Lauren repeated louder this time, "Hello Kelli." I looked down the table at her and I saw the mocking challenging expression on her face. Karla and Jerry who were seated between us looked totally uncomfortable. It didn't take long before Karla started waving her finger ferociously in Laurens face obviously giving her a lecture. That got a few titters from other tables. Waiters started delivering bottles of champagne and drinks to the table, slowly but slowly conversation and laughter overtook the deafening silence and things progressed on course. The waiters turned up to take food orders and as the entrees started to turn up I thought I better get the speeches out of the way. I was going out of my way to keep the bitterness out of my voice as I thanked everyone for their efforts in getting us to where we were and I thanked everybody for having the foresight and confidence in seeing this through. I made special mention of Candy, Siobhan and Karla, completely ignoring Lauren or Alecia's input. We all ate what was a great dinner Unfortunately the food was magnificent. I wanted to find something wrong with it but couldn't fault it. Brent kept hanging around me and Candy he was trying his sleazy best to break into our conversation. As much as I was trying to keep a lid on it, when he asked me to dance it was the last straw. I signalled him to lean down next to me, as he did I whispered harshly. "Fuck off you little cunt!" he recoiled staring at me with a hurt look on his face. He leaned over and asked Candy for a dance instead and she happily scooted off with him. The evening was sailing along and Siobhan never once left my side. She stuck to me like glue. I noticed that Candy and Brent were still out on the dancefloor and they were dancing very intimately. That amused me. 'Hah the stupid prick is in for a shock tonight.' I could picture the look on his face when he went in for a feel. Fuck was he going to get a shock! Alecia tried to talk to me but I was as mad at her as I was at Lauren. She knew what was happening and she didn't stop it or even try to warn me. It was bad enough that she was party to setting up the venue but to let Lauren bring Josh was just cruel. I couldn't believe she would do it. In the end she stood up leaving me sitting there stewing and she went and asked Maddy to dance. Siobhan grabbed my hand and announced that she would love to dance as well. She led me out onto the dancefloor and we started to circulate. She held me tightly her head resting on top of my shoulder, with a giggle she whispered conspiratorially. "Look how close Brent and Candy are dancing?" I laughed along with her. "Yeah man he is in for a hell of a fright tonight." I pulled her even tighter against me. We danced until the band took a break. As we reached the table I noticed Alecia was still out on the dancefloor with Maddy and they were in a tight embrace supposedly dancing. They didn't even realise the music had stopped. Lauren and Karla were in deep discussions and Karla was visibly angry. She held Laurens hand tightly and she was obviously following up her earlier lecture. She looked like an angry mother scolding her daughter. Laurens face was red and she looked embarrassed and guilty. Candy came down and we all laughed watching Alecia and Maddy. Siobhan was still hanging on to my arm for dear life. She whispered. "Wow they look like they are enjoying that." As we were talking I noticed Lauren had escaped Karla's lecture and was on the dancefloor with Josh and they were locked in a very intimate dance. They were leaving nothing to the imagination. I could see almost everybody was staring at me. Watching to see my reaction. Even Maddy and Alecia were watching. Alecia and Maddy separated and walked back to the table. She came and sat beside me. Siobhan took the opportunity to grab Maddy and the pair of them disappeared out onto the dancefloor. Alecia again tried to get me to talk to her but it was too late for me. The mere sound of her voice pissed me off. "Fuck off Alecia you have ruined my evening. I don't want to even talk to you." She was starting to get angry with me as well. "Oh don't be such a drama queen, Christ it was just a joke. Why don't you put your bitchy attitude away and just relax and enjoy the night." I gave her a frosty glare. "You have ruined any chance of that. Why the fuck is Josh here?" She turned her head without answering. "Fuck Alecia this was supposed to be our night. I wanted this to be the biggest night of the year. I wanted to share that with the two people I love most in the world but you have wrecked that." She peered into my eyes with what looked a mixture of guilt and anger. I could feel the waterworks were about to burst. I threw back my chair. "I think I am going to leave." She grabbed my arm. "I am sorry babes. The venue was just a joke. We didn't think it through I suppose, really we didn't expect you to get upset. We thought you would see the funny side of it." She took a big gulp of her wine. "The reason Lauren invited Josh was so you could at least spend some time with him." I was fighting back tears. "Why? Why I told you I am not interested." She tried to grab my hand. "Babes you aren't being honest and every time we tried to get you to see him you fobbed us off. We thought this would be a great opportunity for you to spend time with him. You know dance talk and just have some fun. Babes the night is still young. We haven't even had a dance together yet." "Alecia I don't want anything to do with you tonight." I picked up my purse and walked out. The moment I got home I decided I wasn't going to go through a night of fighting so I jumped into the spare room. I was home and in bed for ages before I slipped into a restless sleep. I was roused from those murky depths when I heard voices downstairs. I recognised Alecia's giggly drunken voice but there were others as well. I pulled the blankets up high to try and keep the noise out. There was giggling and laughter, I could hear glasses clinking and then the music kicked in. Ah fuck it was going to be one of those nights. I pulled the blankets up over my head and tried to ignore the racket downstairs. It seemed like I had just drifted off back to sleep when Alecia was pounding on the door. "Babes we are going to bed. Don't hide in there." I screamed, "Fuck of Alecia." "No babes don't be like that. Don't hide in there." She kept banging on the door until I got up and went to talk to her. She was hammered, she could barely stand up. As I opened the door her arms fell on my shoulders and she grabbed me and tried to kiss me. Before she could say anything I heard voices from our room. She saw me looking towards our room. She grabbed my hand and dragged me towards the noises. "Come on babes this is going to be awesome." As we barged in through the door Alecia cried out, "Whoo hoo." And dived onto the bed where Lauren was on her back with Josh between her legs fucking her for all he was worth. Her eyes were closed and her head was thrown back. The room was filled with the sound of flesh slapping on wet flesh. Alecia pulled Laurens head until they were kissing. Lauren looked up staring at me with a big smile and said. "Josh move over baby make some room for Kelli." He moved back and Lauren climbed up onto all fours. He snuggled up behind her. As he slipped his cock into her again she cried out, "Ooooohhhh fuck go gentle baby your cock is much bigger than I am used to." As she said it she looked me in the eye and smiled. As she moaned he slid in and out of her slushy hole in a slow motion fuck. She moaned softly. "Ooooohhhh fuck that's it lover, yeah just like that." Alecia wriggled round until Laurens head was buried in her pussy. Alecia giggled. "Ooooohhhh fuck oh that feels so good. Come on Kelli don't just stand there perving join in." I turned and literally ran down the stairs pulling on my clothes as I went. I headed straight to my apartment and locked myself in my bedroom and cried like I had never cried before. Fuck the pair of them the crazy fucking bitches. I paced and stomped, I cursed and swore. What the fuck was that all about? I had to take a couple of sleeping tablets to get to sleep. When I finally did doze of it was a deep dark sleep. The next morning it was late when I woke. My head was still fuzzy from the sleeping tablets. As the day started to unfold Siobhan called and asked how I was feeling this morning? I apologised for running of and leaving her at the party. She shushed me. 'Its OK honey I just hope everything went OK at home." Just then it got too much and I broke into tears and spilled out what had happened. Within half an hour there was a loud banging on my door. It was Siobhan and Candy. Candy had a bottle of tequila and she waved it under my nose. Hair of the dog sweetie." Right at that moment my phone rang, it was Alecia. "Babes I am so sorry about last night. It was all just a mistake. We weren't thinking god I am sorry please forgive me. Jesus are you alright?" She was crying her eyes out. "Kelli please you have to forgive me. You have to know I would never hurt you intentionally. You have to believe me I am so sorry." "Fuck off Alecia I am sick and tired of you apologising to me. What the hell did you think would happen? You fuck that stupid dumb prick in our bed. What the fuck were you thinking! You couldn't have hurt me more if you tried." She was sobbing. "Please Kelli let me explain. We wanted you to join in. It was supposed to be fun." "Alecia, you're no better than that other scheming fucking slut bitch. You fucked over our friendship last night Alecia and I will never forgive you." "Babes if you let your mind go you would see the possibilities. There's no need for name calling, I wasn't being mean to you." "Fuck off Alecia. Right now I hate the pair of you. You're nothing but a cheap slut just like your friend. That's it for me Alecia you are no longer my friend. I never want to speak to you again. Whatever happens stay away from me." I was screaming and crying. I threw my phone angrily at the wall smashing it to a million pieces. Candy dragged me out onto the balcony where Siobhan was waiting with the tequila. We spent the rest of the night getting shitfaced. Candy's smiling face was pissing me off. I couldn't help it I had to know. "OK bitch spill what happened with Brent?" She smiled conspiratorially. "Are you sure you want to know?" She had a huge smile on her face. "We spent the night together Kelli and it was awesome." I couldn't hold it back I giggled. "Really? Awesome seems pretty strong." She nodded her head vigorously. "Baby he is amazing and god he is hung. God I think I am in love." I was not sure how to ask but I forced myself. "He didn't freak out when he found out you know, you have well you know the same plumbing?" She laughed loudly. "Sweetie no he didn't mind in fact he loved it. Baby he sucks a mean cock." Now it was my turn to choke on my drink. "Ooooohhhh shit too much information Candy, too much information." Candy and Siobhan both rolled around laughing at my discomfort. After Candy left Siobhan stayed and we danced and kissed the night away. As the kissing intensified and her hands were roaming all over my body she tried to lift my dress up over my head I grabbed her arms. "No Siobhan don't do that we need to stop this isn't right." she looked at me with a mixture of confusion and frustration. "Kelli please don't hold back I want this." I felt my pulse slow down and a wave of reality consumed me. "Siobhan I want this even more than you but I cant. Right now I am angry and that's no basis to start a new relationship." She hugged me again and this time the kiss was warm and friendly. We slept together on the day bed out on the patio snuggled together under the duvet. In the morning it was bliss waking up beside Siobhan. Her hot body was wrapped around me. I tried to sneak away but she snickered. "No babe just stay with me." I hugged her again and we drifted back to sleep. As we sat down to breakfast later she got serious. "Babe what are you going to do?" "I don't know but I am definitely finished with the pair of them. That is for sure." She shrugged. "Don't go off half-cocked hon. Take your time. Think clearly." I nodded in agreement. As we talked Siobhan's phone rang. It turned out to be Alecia. Candy had told her about me smashing my phone. She passed it to me. Alecia cried. "Kelli please don't hang up. We need to talk babes. Give me a chance to explain properly." "Alecia I have only one thing to say to you and that is fuck off and never talk to me again." I disconnected the call and Siobhan looked supportively at me. "Are you OK hon?" I nodded. "Yeah I will get over it." Over the next couple of days I got calls and visits from everybody. Karla was furious. Monday morning I went into work and the first order of the day was to ring my solicitor to discuss divorce. Even although I had already finalised the divorce papers and had Lauren served I had to start the whole process again. I organised for her to be served at work straight away. The solicitor advised it wouldn't happen until Thursday at the earliest if indeed she could get it organised before the holidays started. Siobhan, Candy and Maddy spent the day in and out of my office making sure I was never by myself. It all came to a head after lunch Thursday when Maddy walked into my office. "I think she has been served. She has rung at least ten times in the last half hour." I nodded. "I don't want to talk to either of them Maddy." She hugged me. "Sure will boss. But what if they turn up?" "Good point Maddy, I might work from home this afternoon." I may not have had to put up with them but I didn't get much done. The rest of the day and evening disappeared in a haze of self-pity and whiskey. The morning came all too quickly and it was daylight when I woke. Fuck man did I have a hangover. I was sitting down in the caf? having coffee I had barely sorted out my new phone when it went off. It was Alecia. "Don't hang up Kelli please can we talk, we need to sort this out. I am sorry about what happened Kelli it was a mistake and we realise that now and I can only guess at how much you must be hurting. But it's done now do you really think divorce is the answer?" "Alecia the last time we spoke I said I don't want to speak to you again and I mean it." I hung up and turned my phone to silent. It was the last week before we closed for Christmas and it was flat out. I left Maddy with strict instructions not to let either Lauren or Alecia in. I knew it wouldn't work, but I had to try. Wednesday lunchtime Alecia turned up I could see her standing at Maddy's desk talking to her, she was agitated I could see that by her hand gestures. What surprised me was the hug they shared. It was more than intimate. Maddy came in and locked the door behind her. "Kelli I think you need to talk to Alecia. She is in tears out there and she refuses to leave." "Yeah OK Maddy show her in, but you are on notice you had instructions." She smiled. "Sorry boss." Alecia came in and sat down across my desk and forced a smile. "How are you doing babes?" "Alecia I did say I didn't want to talk to you, let's cut to the chase what do you want?" "Kelli I just need to explain the other night. Babes we were drunk. We just thought that once you saw us all together you would put aside your fears." She tried to smile but failed. "Babes we just thought once it was right in front of you and definitely happening. We hoped you would see how much fun it could be and just dive in." I sat behind my desk just staring blankly at her. "Kelli please I am begging you to reconsider the divorce Lauren is a mess. C'mon babes I know you are hurting but we can fix this. Let me make it up to you." "Alecia I am not interested OK. Just like always you think you know what's best for me. Well the truth is you don't. You are just a couple of cheap sluts who never cared about me." I saw the look on her face change instantly. "Kelli I know you are hurting but there's no need for that." I could see she was trying to remain calm but her anger was overflowing and she hissed, "I think Lauren is right you are a coward! We all know you wanted Josh you are just scared. Scared that you will like it and scared about what people will say." "Alecia I think you need to leave immediately before I say something we will both regret." She stood up and I could see the anguish on her face. "Babes I have something special planned for the three of us. Please I need you to put aside all your anger. Please babes I am begging you. Please babes you are going to love it. Please I beg you. This is something super special and I promise you it will fix everything. Just give me a chance." I scowled. "Oh yeah, will I love it as much as I did Friday night?" She turned and stormed out of the office. Christmas was rushing towards us, work was finally winding down. Siobhan helped me clean up at the office and we were the last to leave. We ended up going back to my place and we were sitting out on the balcony. During the night I must have got a hundred messages or calls from Alecia and Lauren. I ignored them for a while before I just turned my phone off. I pulled out my airbed and we crashed cuddled together watching the sun go down. At some point we both fell asleep. When I woke it was amazing to wake with her wrapped around me, her body was wedged against me so tight I couldn't move. I desperately wanted to pee but each time I went to move she hugged me tighter with her legs. I was forced to lay there and admire her beautiful delicate features. Every human being is different, and Siobhan was completely different from either Lauren or Alecia. I guess I didn't have a lot to compare to in all honesty, but where Lauren is petite and boyish of figure and Alecia is tall and buxom Siobhan is athletic, toned muscled and her hips are slim but like high tensile steel. With the heat of her body radiating through the thin fabric I was getting a hard on. Siobhan I'm sure was awake and was teasing me because as my cock hardened she moved her hips to rub against it, she wriggled and writhed. Fuck I was hard a rock and I could see the edges of a smile forming in the corners of her mouth. "Hhhhmmmmm," she whispered. "Is that for me?" I pushed her away playfully. "What do you think you bloody tease?" She looked at me more seriously. "What if it wasn't a tease baby? What if it was foreplay?" "Siobhan, there is nothing I would love more than to spend the day making love to you for the rest of the day, but you know how tangled my personal life is right now." She just hugged me tighter. "Siobhan before I commit to another relationship I need to close the door on this one. Honey If Lauren agrees the divorce could be final in no time at all." We talked for a while and decided maybe a bike ride would clear our heads. I got a taxi over to our old place to pick up my bike. I was gearing up for a fight but when I got there the place was empty. There were no dirty breakfast dishes or anything. I took the opportunity to pack up all my stuff. I gave Siobhan a call and explained what I was doing. It would be too late for a ride by the time I would be finished. I hired a van to pack it all in and took everything over to the apartment. Then I dropped off the van and went back and got my bike. Siobhan rocked up just as I was putting the bike away. She stayed the night again. She was fast becoming my rock. I found out from Karla that Alecia had taken Lauren and Josh on a sea cruise. Christmas was going to be a bust this year that's for sure. We had a quiet final day at work before closing for the holiday break. I decided to finish early and give the crew a couple of extra days off. Everyone had worked so hard that they deserved it. We finished up with an afternoon tea cakes, drinks and hugs. There were also presents for everyone, which caused lots of smiles and hugs. It was a great way to finish up what had been an amazing year. We ended with kisses all around with everyone vanishing in different directions. Siobhan was again the last to leave. "Kelli do you want to come back to my place?" I hugged her. "No not tonight hon. I think I need to clear my head. Perhaps we could catch up tomorrow if you don't have anything planned." She smiled. "Nothing planned that I couldn't put off for you." I went home to my empty apartment. Christmas was going to suck. A dark moody fog settled in over me. I was stuck, what the hell to do? Do I just stay home? The next morning Siobhan called as we talked it was obvious she was angry about something. "Kelli I need you to promise me you aren't going back to Lauren again." I was shocked and stuck for a response. "Kelli every time she does something horrendous to you, you go back cap in hand. Please swear to me that whatever happens you wont give in. Have some self-respect." She gulped. "Baby I couldn't live with it if you went back again and we had to work together." I was a little pissed at her lack of faith on me. "Siobhan I understand yhay my history isn't so good on this but I have already told you I am not going back. I have been weak in the past I know that. I was hoping you would have more faith in me." She was about to respond but I felt let down by her lack of trust. I hung up I was left with this sense that Siobhan was angry. No not angry maybe frustrated was a better description. Maybe this wasn't the best time to try and start a proper relationship with her. We needed to be on solid ground. I decided to get away by myself. I packed up some clothes into a back pack and headed off up the coast on the bike. Fuck it's so much harder as a girl. In the old days it would have been a couple of T-shirts and some jeans, job done. Now I was thinking, how am I going to fit it all in? My makeup alone took up half the bag. The ride was magnificent the skies were clear the only thing spoiling it was the holiday traffic. Still once I was away from the city it cleared and I was able to nail it. I found a hotel and settled in for the night. I purposely left my phone turned off for the whole trip. Ten days later and I was back at home. I rolled into the apartment feeling refreshed and revitalised. No more Mr nice guy. The world could get fucked. I had the weekend to get ready for work Monday morning. I turned my phone back on and there were a myriad of messages and missed calls. There were plenty from Siobhan, a couple from Candy and even a couple from Alecia. I decided to check hers. All were pleading with me to call. I decided. Yep a fresh start let's take the bull by the horns. I called her. She answered on the first ring. "Oh god Kellie thank god. Where are you?" "I'm at home Alecia, just took a few days off." "Babes where is all your stuff? All of your clothes everything is gone." "That's because I no longer live there." "Oh fuck this has gone far enough its fucking ridiculous. Look I know things have got a little messed up but why can't we just try to sort things out like we always do." "Alecia we can meet if that's what you want, but honestly I don't see the point." "Babes why don't you come around and we could have a nice dinner like old times and just start over you know sort of like a computer reset." "Alecia you don't seem to understand how much you hurt me. This may not seem serious to you but you have to understand. For me it's the end. I am never setting foot in that house again. If you want we could meet somewhere else." "We could come around to your place," she whined. "No Alecia you aren't welcome here any longer." I heard her suck in a deep breath. "Kelli you are making this more difficult than it has to be. Just come home." "Alecia listen to me. You desecrated my home. I said I am not coming back and I meant it." "What about your bike, it's still here." "No that's not mine that's Laurens she can do what she wants with it. I have taken everything I want. The rest is yours. By the way I left all of the jewellery and stuff you brought me in a box in the garage." She spat out angrily, "Oh for fuck sake Kelli I brought those things for you they are gifts." "Keep them sell them I don't care Alecia. Look do you want to meet or not?" "Yes of course what about the restaurant down from your apartment?" "Yes OK give me a call when you get there." I got the call about an hour later. I wandered down and there they were sitting at a corner table. They both got up to give me a hug as I walked in but I waved them away dismissively. We sat down and a waitress came for our order. We sat staring across at each other. Alecia started, "Kelli we want to apologise for the way things happened. Believe me it wasn't supposed to go that way. We never meant to hurt you." Lauren sighed. "Baby please, this could be the most amazing experience of all our lives. You are missing out on something incredible." Alecia interrupted her. "Babes she is right this could be the start of something special." I grinned. "All I want is the divorce sorted." Lauren cried, "Baby please we can make this work. Don't you understand? Just like when Alecia moved in. Having Josh there could be so much fun." I leaned over the table. "Listen carefully the pair of you. I think you are just a couple of conniving scheming bitches. You have manipulated me for the last time. I don't want anything to do with you. All I want is the divorce. We will all have to work together in the future so I want to find some way for us to at least do that, but that is it." Laurens expression had changed I could see the anger overflowing she snarled bitterly. "You are a childish little prick I can see we are wasting our time here. You are too scared to try something just because it's fucking different. Well good riddance to you, you fucking little wimp." Even Alecia looked shocked with her. She tried to intervene. "Lauren please......" "No fuck him baby, he wants to behave like a fucking chicken shit then we will treat him like one. You can have your fucking divorce you snivelling little bitch." I stood up using the table as support. "Goodbye Lauren. With everything we have been through I had hoped we could at least part as friends but it looks like even that's not possible." Monday morning was hard work. I hadn't slept much my mind was a swirling mix of emotions that I couldn't decipher. There was a mountain of work piled up on my desk. Candy wandered in looking bright eyed and bushy tailed with stories of her and Brent's holiday. For all my fears Brent certainly seemed to have pushed all the right buttons with her. Maddy though was very reserved and Siobhan looked completely disinterested and ignored me completely. I tried to catch her and talk but every time I did she always managed to find another issue that needed her immediate attention. That carried on for the rest of the week and I was completely at a loss. I could see Siobhan and Maddy at her desk out in front of my office every day. They talked and laughed but the moment I walked out Siobhan would disappear and Maddy would bury her head in some mystical document she was editing. Often they would disappear together hand in hand and be gone for up to an hour at a time. Every day I became more and more unsettled. Siobhan simply refused to even talk to me. After our Friday morning prestart session I asked her to stay behind. "Siobhan what's the matter? Something is bothering you, Have I done something to piss you off?? She looked stressed. ?Yes Kelli actually I am pissed off. I am angry as hell at you. Why didn?t you call me or answer any of my calls? You just disappeared, no phone call no message. Fuck I called and called, but you just ignored them all.? I explained about my trip to try and clear my head. She frowned and I could see her hands tighten into fists as she sneered at me. ?I thought you had gone back to Lauren. I mean what was I supposed to think? That?s what you always do Isn?t it?? She burst into tears and ran out of my office. To say I was stunned is an understatement. I walked out to Maddy?s desk. ?Do you know what that was all about?? She looked at me and I could see she was close to crying herself, but she shrugged her shoulders non-committedly. I stumbled back none the wiser into my office and slammed the door. That?s sort of how things went for the next week or so. I wanted to talk to her but I was afraid of what the outcome would be. We seemed to have even lost our friends status. I started to take more notice of what was going on around the place to see if I could get to the bottom of it. I noticed Maddy was spending a lot of time on her mobile. If she wasn?t talking she was texting. She like Siobhan and I had a company phone. I decided that was one thing I could check and at least it was somewhere to start. It was time to play detective. I requested the phone records and as I scrolled through the files there were two numbers on Maddy?s phone that recurred time and time again at all times of the day and night. The records were plain she called Siobhan and the one that worried me the most Alecia. What the fuck was she calling her for? As I thought about it I recalled the Christmas party and how close her and Alecia had been. Fuck had she been sucked into that den of inequity? But the other thing was Siobhan. She called her late at night and the calls went for hours. Something was a foot. There was obviously something going on between Siobhan and Maddy. But what, that was the question. The next day when they went for their walk I waited until they were out of sight and I followed them. They went out into the carpark and out to the little covered patio area we built for workers to have lunch outside. I hung around by the cars and watched as they slipped into each other?s arms and kissed and snogged up a storm. It was passionate. This wasn?t two friends together this was lovers. I turned and walked back to my office. I called Siobhan into my office later after everyone had left. She walked in hesitantly like a naughty student called into the headmaster?s office. ?OK Siobhan so you and Maddy are in a relationship of some sort, is that right?? She looked down at the floor uncomfortable with the question. ?I?m sorry Kelli. I thought you had gone back to Lauren. I was angry and I thought you didn?t want me anymore. Maddy called when I couldn?t get in touch with you and we went out for a drink and well you know one thing led to another. At first it was just a bit of fun, but it has become more than that I really like her.? ?OK I get it Siobhan. I waited too long. I am sorry I didn?t tell you about the trip.? ?Kelli I spent hours and hours on the phone trying to find out where you were. When I couldn?t get hold of you I got angry. Maddy was wonderful. She nursed me through my pain. I really wanted to wait for you and I know I should have but I thought you had folded again and it annoyed the hell out of me. Fuck hon you are so frustrating. I just had this horrid premonition that you had given up again. Yes you pissed me off.? What could I say she was right of course. ?Yeah I understand. but surely we can still be friends. Do you have to ignore me the way you have been.? ?I am sorry Kelli I just feel so embarrassed. I feel like I let you down.? ?Babe you didn?t let me down There?s no need to be embarrassed. You are my best friend and I don?t want to lose that.? ?Are you sure? I want to be friends as well but won?t seeing us together be hard for you?? ?You are right it?s going to be a bitter pill to swallow but I would rather have that than what?s been happening. You are treating me like a leper. I will get over it but only if you talk to me.? We sealed the meeting with a hug and kiss. Fuck it seemed like the whole world was against me at the moment. Still it was my own fault. If I had just talked to her she would have understood. I couldn?t blame her for falling under Maddy?s spell. Fuck she is fucking gorgeous. I think I was just jealous it wasn?t me. The weekend was upon us and Saturday morning was here bright and beautiful. I gave Siobhan a call trying to build on our chat yesterday. ?Hey hon I was wondering whether you would like to go for a ride today?? I could hear giggling and rustling. ?Um no not today Kelli, but what about tomorrow?? I sighed. ?No that?s OK hon sorry to interrupt.? She was about to say something but I hung up. Monday morning my first point of call was Maddy. As usual she got in early and she had coffee for both of us. I called her in to my office. She looked pensive and uncomfortable which is so unlike her. She is usually so bubbly and bright. ?Maddy I know you and Siobhan are in a relationship so let?s not beat about the bush. I am OK with it.? She smiled. ?Oh thank god I thought you would be angry.? ?No I am not upset about that. I hope it works out for the both of you. Is it serious?? She grinned. ?Well it?s not like we are getting married tomorrow serious or anything, but we get on well and I like her and I think she likes me.? ?That?s good, but it makes what I have to say now more important. Maddy I like Siobhan a lot as well.? I lowered my voice into a hiss. ?Maddy if you ever hurt her in any way I will make your life miserable understand.? She was stunned and didn?t know what to say. ?I would never hurt her boss. Not intentionally.? ?That?s good. I don?t want to be harsh Maddy I just know that she wears her heart on her sleeve and if you don?t look after her she will get hurt.? Everybody else had started to stream in and things warmed up a little. Damn it now I had got off side with Maddy. The looks she was giving me made me well aware that I was no longer numero uno in her eyes. I got a call from Karla soon after the meeting. ?Kelli Lauren has called me and she wants me to represent her in your divorce. I have to say I don?t want to but I thought you might prefer to deal with me rather than some shark.? I laughed loudly. ?Karla I am happy for you to represent her, so long as you charge her an arm and a leg. Make her pay.? She laughed as well. You know I can?t do that. As much as her actions have disgusted me, she is still my friend. I am sorry Kelli but I still love her like my sister. Shit we were closer than sisters.? I sighed deeply. ?Yeah I wouldn?t have expected anything less.? The world moves in mysterious ways. Everybody I loved seemed to walk away and leave me. The divorce turned out to be easier than I thought it would. Lauren didn?t even contest. It was a simple division of property and then a two month waiting period. I was prepared to walk away from the house but Lauren wanted to sell it and split the profits. One evening I got home from work and a courier was dropping off a pile of boxes. I signed for them and it turned out to be all the gifts Alecia had brought for me. There must have been thirty grands worth of stuff. As I was packing away the boxes a tow truck arrived with the 996.They unloaded it and handed me a letter. I wheeled the bike into a corner. Thankfully a couple of the apartments were empty so there were some free car spaces. The boxes I packed up in my personal space in the lock up storage area of the garage. My life seemed pretty empty I have to admit I was struggling. I had gone from living with and having sex with two of the sexiest women that ever drew breath, and another one who was busting her arse to become my lover. Then boom; now I was living by myself with nothing to keep me warm at night but my dignity. Now every day I had to watch Maddy and Siobhan cosying up to each other as lovers do. At least they were happy. Fuck I was starting to wonder whether I had done the right thing in walking away. Maybe Josh wouldn?t have been so bad? At least I would have somebody. Weeks drifted by and my life seemed hollow and meaningless. There didn?t seem to be any rhyme or reason for anything. I hoped that if the universe did indeed favour the honourable it would work out in the end. Siobhan although more like her old self still seemed unnerved and uncomfortable with something that that was weighing her down but she wouldn?t share with me. There was definitely one thing I couldn?t talk to her about and that was Lauren. She hated her with a vengeance and more to the point she was frustrated with me because all I wanted was to forget the whole thing. On the other hand Lauren and Alecia seemed happy enough in their own skin which hurt. They had stopped calling or messaging me. Apparently Josh had moved in and was living there with them and they seemed to be having fun playing house. Life just has a way of piling shit on top of shit and it took another twist. Maddy rushed into my office early one morning slamming down the morning paper on my desk. ?Kelli you might want to read this.? I leaned back in my chair and glanced over the headlines. There on the second page was an expos? piece about the CEO of the Water Corp and a local lawyer who were having an affair. It went into how the Water Corp had selected the lawyers firm to act on their behalf and detailed the amount of money that the law firm had pulled in. The piece went into detail concerning Laurens firm being given inside information and preferential treatment. Fucking hell the shit had definitely hit the fan. Lauren was going to be in big trouble and I guess so would Alecia. I wondered who had given them all the information. There were photographs of both Lauren and Alecia. As I read on there was more. Josh?s firm had been given a contract for the design of the new water treatment plant design. The article went on to reveal that Josh the lead architect on the project was in a sexual relationship with both women. That brought a big smile to my face. I know it was petty but I felt a little glimmer of joy. I tried several times during the day to get hold of either Lauren or Alecia but they weren?t answering there phones. I was getting nervous. I tried to talk to Karla about it but she was tied up in a case. The next day my world exploded in a flurry of flailing arms and flying doors. Alecia came barging into my office flinging the door wide open. She was furious her eyes were bulging as she screamed wildly at me. Maddy came running in behind her but I chased her out closing the door behind her. ?You fucking malicious vindictive little cunt. You, you, you.... spiteful little weasel. How dare you do this? Fuck how could you do it. Don?t you have any fucking compassion?? I didn?t respond and if anything it seemed to make her angrier. ?Well I hope you are happy. You have destroyed Lauren and Josh?s careers. They are fucked. Jesus I thought you loved Lauren. I never would have believed you were capable of something this low.? She was fuming. Alecia was leaning over my desk. Tears were flowing down her cheeks. ?Why Kelli? Just tell me why? Do you hate us that much.? ?Alecia it wasn?t me. I would never do something like that. You know I wouldn?t.? ?Bullshit you fucking lying little shit. Don?t tell me you?re not capable of this.? ?I am sorry that you think so little of me Alecia but it wasn?t me.? ?Fuck you, you cunt. You walked away from Lauren and me just because of Josh. You don?t care who you hurt.? This was getting ridiculous. ?Alecia don?t be stupid. I walked away because you both cheated on me. You had sex with another man. In our bed no less! What the hell did you think I was going to do?? She sagged and collapsed in a chair like a deflated balloon. ?Kelli it was just a bit of fun. Fuck it?s just sex. You could have been right there with us and you would have bloody enjoyed it if you weren?t such a fucking pussy.? ?Oh get over yourself you stupid cow. You have ignored the most important part I didn?t want to have sex with him.? ?But you didn?t have to leave or walk away. You didn?t have to run away and leave us. I had those cruise tickets booked for months. It was supposed to be a special treat for the three of us.? ?Well you got to enjoy it with the big cocked lover didn?t you.? ?Fuck you Kelli you can be a real bitch. I didn?t want him to go. I wanted you. We planned this wonderful sexy romantic cruise and you abandoned us. You know Lauren has never recovered. She cries all the time. She still loves you. Even after this stunt.? ?Alecia I had nothing to do with it. I only found out when Maddy brought me the paper. Ask her if you don?t believe me.? Alecia was broken. She was bawling her eyes out. I picked up a tissue and walked over kneeling beside her and cuddled her as I wiped her eyes. ?I am sorry Alecia but I don?t know who is behind this. All I can say is it?s not me.? She sobbed. ?There?s no proof you know. I didn?t give them the contracts because of our relationship. I did it because they were the best or the cheapest. I have all of the documents and quotes. There was lots of people involved in the decision making process it wasn?t just me. It just doesn?t look good in the media and it doesn?t sit well with the corporation. I will keep my job I suppose but it?s not going to be good when I want to move on.? I smiled as I patted her shoulder reassuringly. ?If there?s no proof then surely Lauren and Josh should be OK as well? ?You know it?s never as simple as that. Lauren isn?t getting the sack either but she definitely won?t be making partner now. She is well and truly on the outer.? ?Alecia I would never stoop to that.? She threw her arms around my neck and hugged me tight. ?Kelli I have missed you so much. Why did you leave me?? ?Alecia we have been through this. You know why.? She sighed. ?I am sorry Kelli I really am. God we didn?t mean to hurt you. We wanted to create something bigger and make it better. We just wanted you to realise you could be so much more. We wanted you to understand what it truly is to be a woman. Christ look at me I have been a lesbian my whole life but because of the love I have for you and Lauren I decided to at least try. I was prepared to look outside the box. Believe it or not I discovered something about myself. I am actually bisexual. Babes I will be honest I enjoy being with Josh. Lauren saw it. She knew after she saw you and I together, she just knew. She knew my history and she realised I was just scared. She knew once you and I got comfortable that anything was possible. Sometimes I think she knows me better than I know myself. Kelli don?t you see babes it could be exactly the same for you if you would just let go and try.? ?I am glad you feel that way Alecia, I really am. I am glad that Josh is fulfilling your needs. But I don?t feel like I am missing out on anything.? I was getting tired of this going round and round. ?Alecia I am sorry for what happened. I hope that you are able to sort it out, but I don?t know how I can help?? She hugged me again. ?I am sorry I was just so angry. You are the only person I could think of who could give them that information. It has to be someone who knows our story. That?s what hurts it has to be one of our friends.? Eventually I was able to calm her down and send her on her way. Fuck what a day. But it wasn?t over, it got worse. Later that night just as I was about to climb into bed Alecia phoned screaming frantically. Lauren was in hospital. She had taken an overdose of sleeping pills and was in the intensive care unit. I didn?t wait I jumped in my car and raced over to the hospital. Alecia and unfortunately Josh were sitting by her bedside Alecia was holding her hand. Alecia jumped up and wrapped me in a hug. ?Thanks for coming babes. She is sleeping the doctors say she will be fine.? ?What the fuck happened?? Alecia was distraught. ?I don?t know. When we got home we found her unconscious. All we know is that she took an overdose of sleeping pills we found an empty pill bottle lying beside her on the bed.? She sobbed. ?She tried to kill herself. There was no note or anything.? ?So what?s behind it? Was it the bloody article?? She held my arm resting her head on my shoulder. ?Yes I suppose so. That was the probably the final straw but she has been depressed ever since you left.? I shook my head in disbelief. ?Fuck I thought you guys were doing OK.? She pushed me away. ?Kelli you are a moron sometimes. Jeez she has been impossible ever since you left. She is moody and bad tempered she has been driving me fucking crazy. I flopped in the chair. ?You two have been here for a while if you want to go and get a drink or something I will sit with her.? I didn?t want Josh to be there while I was there. I didn?t want him to see me cry. They peeked at each other and Alecia nodded. ?Thanks babes, yes if it?s OK we will go and get something to eat.? Josh was standing beside her and he peeked hopefully at me and whispered. ?Thanks Kelli.? I just turned my head and ignored him. Alecia moaned. ?Kelli don?t be cruel babes. This isn?t the place he was just being polite.? I picked up Laurens hand and held it. Her skin was cold and clammy. Alecia and Josh walked out. I sat with her for ages I talked to her, I cried, I told her I loved her. About ten O?clock Alecia came back and yes she brought Josh. They pulled in chairs and we all sat there together watching her sleep. Alecia eventually muttered. ?Kelli we are going to go. We both have to get up early in the morning.? I nodded in agreement and stood to embrace her. She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me tight. ?I love you Kelli. Babes why don?t you come home with us? You shouldn?t be alone tonight.? I snickered. ?You are joking aren?t you?? Wistfully she mumbled, ?Babes I just don?t want you to be alone.? ?I will survive Alecia.? As I released her I smiled. ?Have a good night Alecia.? She gritted her teeth tightly before muttering. ?Are you going home?? I nodded. ?Yes soon.? She turned and walked out with Josh?s hand trapped in hers. Fuck all the hurt came back. I had managed to put it all behind me up until now. But seeing them together brought it all back. That slimy little bastard was going to be sleeping with her tonight. I sat back down and grabbed hold of Laurens hand. Nurses came and went checking on her. They offered to find me a bed but I explained I wasn?t leaving her side. I fell asleep at some point. I was roused from my dreams when Lauren snatched at my hand and I heard her cry, ?Michael.? I squeezed her hand tightly. ?I am here baby. I am here.? As she opened her eyes I could see confusion. ?Michael where are you?? I kissed her hand. ?I?m here baby. I am right here.? Her blank look said it all she didn?t recognise me as she drifted off back to sleep. I drifted of back to sleep myself and when I awoke my back was killing me and as I stretched out I could see Laurens eyes open and staring at me. When she saw I was awake she smiled. ?Hi baby, what happened?? I stood up and stretched out properly. ?I don?t know Lauren you tell me.? She was lost and obviously didn?t know what was going on. I pulled my chair up close to her and she leaned down and kissed me. We sat like that just staring into each other?s eyes. She started to tear up. ?I am sorry Baby, I have fucked everything up.? I didn?t know what to say. ?No it?s all going to be OK. Just rest and get better.? ?No Kelli I will never be better. Not without you by my side my life means nothing without you.? I patted her hand and calmed her down. ?I am sorry I ruined your life Michael. You gave me everything and I spoiled it. God I love you so much.? I laughed. ?Baby I love you as well you know that.? You haven?t ruined my life I am just sorry that we haven?t been talking.? Just then the nurse came in to check up on her and chased me away while she ran her tests. I went and got a couple of coffees and I managed to find some fruit for her. When I got back she was sitting up and when she saw the coffee her face transformed into a big beaming smile. We sat on the bed and she snuggled up against me as we drank our coffee. I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and hugged her. ?Lauren it?s going to work out. Just wait and see it?s all going to work out. Have faith.? She sniffled. ?Faith. Faith in what?? I kissed her cheek. ?The universe Karma.? She broke down again and the tears were rolling. ?Don?t you see Kelli I told lies, I cheated. I fucked up your life. If Karma is real then I am fucked.? I smiled. ?You are going to be OK. You have Alecia and Josh. You know how much Alecia loves you.? ?I don?t care about that I know she loves me and I love her as well. All I care about is you and I. I want you back in my life. Don?t you understand, that?s all I ever wanted.? ?Lauren that?s not right and you know it. If you loved me then why is it that its Alecia and Josh that share your bed?? ?I know its weird baby but I love Alecia you know our history. It?s just different with you. You were my rock. You were my forever love. I hate my life without you in it.? I frowned. ?Sorry but that just doesn?t float.? ?Baby I know you won?t believe me but when we first met Josh at the bar that night I saw a look in your eye. That first look when you recognised him. I just instantly knew you were interested. I just knew it And I could see it turned you on and that excited me.? I scowled. ?But I never showed any interest.? ?Yes you did baby. We all saw it. Candy, Alecia even Siobhan saw it. You are interested but you?re scared of what we would think. You?re so worried about being judged you pretended not to like him.? Alecia walked around the door followed by Josh at just that moment and they both came in for hugs. I moved away and let them have some space. I went for a walk out in the garden. As I was walking around my phone rang. It was Lauren wanting me to go back to her room. As I walked in Alecia walked over and hugged me. ?Thank you for staying the night, I knew you would. Josh and I are going for a walk so you two can talk some more.? With that Josh and Alecia kissed Lauren and disappeared. She smiled. ?Can we still talk baby?? I nodded. ?Yes of course.? She sucked in a deep breath and bit her lip. ?Kelli the night of the party Alecia and I thought if we could just get you and Josh together and talk. To just spend some time together it would be all right. We just wanted to get you to open up. But at the party you were so bitter and angry. The moment we walked in I could see it. You weren?t going to even open your mind enough to consider it and it frustrated me and then I got angry.? She took a sip of water as she dug up another dose of courage. ?Then later when we got home and oh god. I don?t know baby we had been drinking all night and that continued when we got home. I was so drunk I lost sense of what was really happening. It all seemed so surreal it was like my fantasy was finally going to happen. I managed to convince myself that once it was happening right in front of you it would all just happen.? As she sipped her drink she sighed. ?But baby I saw that look in your eye. I didn?t mean it you know I just said it to excite you.? The moment I said it I knew I had fucked up but it was too late.? I was biting my tongue trying not to say something that would make the situation worse. She kept talking. ?Baby I have come to realise I have feelings for him. The longer we have stayed together the stronger those feelings became. Soon I felt myself falling in love with him.? Now that was hard to listen to. ?So you love him?? ?Yes I know it?s fucked up. I know it must be hard for you to hear this but yes I have real feelings for him.? I shrugged my shoulders. ?Then I guess that?s all there is to it. I am glad you have been able to move on.? She barked, ?Oh fuck Michael don?t be so stubborn. Listen to what I am saying. Stop being so hard headed nothing is black and white. Christ you frustrate the shit out of me. You won?t even be honest with yourself let alone me. This isn?t about moving on. What I have come to realise is that it?s possible to have feelings for more than one person. It?s possible to love more than one person.? She had a wild look in her eye. ?Baby I do love both Alecia and Josh but it?s not like the love I have for you. Our love is forever.? We sat in silence for a few minutes before she picked up my hand. ?Kelli I love you even when I am with Josh all I think about is you being there with us. I know it?s twisted and sounds ridiculous but I want you to be with us. I have had this dream and fantasy that you, Alecia Josh and I could live together just like you and I did with Alecia.? I was shaking my head but she carried on. ?Don?t you see how amazing that could be? The four of us all living together. God it makes me all tingly when I think about it.? I stood up and paced around. Trying to figure out what to say. She hunched her shoulders. ?Kelli it hurt me when you refused to even consider it. You didn?t even think about it for a minute. It made me angry and frustrated that you thought so little of me that you wouldn?t even try. I explained to you how I felt and you just cast it aside like yesterday?s news. It was like you didn?t even care how I felt. I know it?s silly but that?s how I felt. Fuck Kelli even Josh has been open enough to try.? Now she had my interest. ?Try what Lauren?? ?We picked up a guy at a club and took him home with us. Josh was brave enough to make love with him. If you weren?t such a wuss you could have been there as well.? I laughed almost hysterically before remembering where I was. ?The queer little cunt. Fuck me I would never have thought he was a fucking poofter.? Lauren was horrified. ?Oh my god you bigoted intolerant closed minded fucking Arsehole. Just because he is prepared to try something doesn?t mean you can say mean things about him. He is braver than you and what?s more he loved it.? I realised what I had said was stupid and inappropriate. Fuck our business is staffed almost entirely by gender fluid or gay people. I couldn?t believe I said it. She snarled, ?So is that how you feel about Alecia and me? Are we fucking queers as well? Is that it; are we just filth because we are the same sex and love each other?? I was back peddling. ?No Lauren I never felt like that and you know it.? ?OK then arsehole if it?s OK for Alecia and Me why is it wrong for Josh or you?? ?Lauren I can?t answer that, it?s different. I know it?s a clich? but for women it seems more natural, acceptable.? ?God Kelli I never realised what a bigoted shit you really are. I always thought it was just because you were scared. In reality you are just a fucking homophobe.? She shook her head forcefully. ?I can?t believe you could be so cruel.? ?Lauren don?t you realise we are different. I love you more than anything. That love doesn?t allow for other people. I am sorry but I could never live like that.? She waved her finger at me violently. ?No Kelli that?s not true. Candy saw it in you straight away and I have seen it myself. Fuck I remember watching you tease the fuck out of those construction workers at the factory. You loved it. And the way you looked at Josh yes we all saw it you have feelings for him, you are curious. I know you. It?s exactly the same reason you won?t come out and tell everyone you are Trans. You are so scared of what other people think that you won?t let go.? I was getting pissed off. ?Look Lauren if you are feeling OK I am going to leave. I don?t want to argue with you here. I will come and see you tomorrow or when you are feeling better.? She pulled me in by the head and we kissed, it wasn?t just a friendly comforting kiss but a hot passionate tonsil tickling wrestle. As I pulled away my heart was racing and my breathing was ragged. God even now she knows exactly how to excite me. I could feel my cock hardening as our lips glided apart. She smiled at me and nodded. ?Yes you still feel it, just like me don?t try to deny these feelings Kelli.? I walked away more confused than ever. I still had those same feelings for her. God damn it just a simple kiss and I could barely breathe. Fuck her why couldn?t I move on. When I arrived at work the next morning Siobhan was waiting in my office. She had brought coffee for both of us. As I walked in she stood and walked up and kissed me, her arms circling my head. As we sat down I could see tears welling up in her eyes. As we sipped our coffee she leaned across my desk. ?I am sorry Kelli. I didn?t know she would do that.? I was confused. ?What do you mean? I don?t understand?? ?It was me honey. I am the one that ratted out Lauren and Alecia.? I choked on my coffee spraying my desk with coffee flavoured spittle. ?I am sorry Kelli but I hated what they did to you. They were so mean to you. The pair of them are evil and I was angry. I was angry at them but I was more angry with you. How could you let them walk all over you like that?? I felt flustered and embarrassed. ?You are right I do love Lauren. Love for me means forgiveness. Just because she has acted badly doesn?t change the fact I still have feelings for her.? She sighed deeply so you still love her even after all that has happened?? ?Yes I can?t deny that I still have feelings for her. Siobhan I am not taking her back, but I do still have feelings and I always will.? She was shaking her head and bit her lip thoughtfully. ?As I said I am sorry. Shit I didn?t think she would try to kill herself.? I wiped up the coffee. ?God I never thought you could be so vindictive Siobhan.? ?I know I am not proud either. I regret it now but you didn?t seem to be doing anything about it and I wanted to get back at them. It wasn?t right that they disrespected you in front of everyone. They were the malicious ones.? ?Two wrongs don?t make a right baby. Shit why did you do it?? She threw her arms in the air and hissed angrily. ?Because I love you that?s why. I fucking love you and it hurt like hell watching them shit all over you day after fucking day. Watching you just take it pissed me off I could see how upset you were. They were behaving like bitches. It wasn?t right. So I figured if you weren?t going to act then I fucking would.? I flopped back. ?But I thought you were in love with Maddy?? The tears were flowing and she was obviously hurting. ?Kelli I love you I always have. I watched the love you shared with Lauren from the outside and it amazed me. I have never experienced or even seen love like that before and I guess I was jealous. I wanted you to feel that way about me.? My frustration overflowed and I gasped. ?But what about Maddy?? Her head turned away no longer able to look at me. ?I didn?t want to be your second choice. I wanted you to love me the way you love her.? ?Siobhan you didn?t answer my question.? She sighed with a resigned sad look on her face. ?Maddy is gorgeous and sexy and I yes I do like her. But she is way out of my league she doesn?t love me. It?s fun and she is a bloody sex maniac but no she doesn?t love me and really I don?t feel that way about her either. It?s just fun she is in a whole different league to me when we are out together everyone looks at her and goes wow. Nobody even looks at me. For all intents and purposes I don?t even exist.? ?So what is happening between you?? I don?t know Kelli. I get the feeling she is already seeing someone else. Which is OK I mean we never made any commitments to each other. She is free to do that.? ?If that?s the case what happens next?? She shrugged her shoulders. ?I don?t know.? It sounded final, like a death knell. We sat for a while just thinking I suppose. We acknowledged each other but we were in our own separate little worlds. ?I still don?t understand why you did it.? ?I just wanted them to suffer the way I saw you suffer every day.? She turned her head away. ?Do you want me to resign? I will if that?s what you want.? I was horrified. ?God no don?t be stupid. I am not happy with your actions but resignation won?t fix it.? ?Then what do you want me to do?? ?I think for the time being we just try to keep a lid on it. There?s nothing to be gained from telling Lauren.? That night as I lay in bed tossing and turning the phone rang. It was Lauren and she wanted to talk. She talked about everything and nothing. ?Where?s Alecia and Josh?? She giggled. ?They are in bed.? ?So why aren?t you with them? I thought he was the bee?s knees?? She sighed. ?I don?t know baby, since the other day all I can think about is you and me and lately things have been weird between Alecia and I. She has been distant and moody. It?s like there is something she wants to say but can?t or won?t. I have tried to get her to open up but she just closes up more. Kelli I think It is you. She is lost without you here with us. When you left it really hurt her she hated taking Josh on the cruise. That cruise was just for you. It was supposed to be your gift. She wanted to share that with you.? ?So what you are saying is things aren?t all sunshine and roses?? That drew a haughty sigh from her. ?No everything is fine I just think Alecia misses you.? ?Lauren you have to sort out your own problems now.? ?I know but, baby we are meant to be together forever. You can?t tell me you don?t feel it. I know you do. It was in the kiss the other day.? ?Lauren I have never denied that I love you.? ?Baby if that?s the case then why not come home? We both want you to be with us. We both love you.? I laughed. ?Do you Lauren? I have heard you say it a lot. You say it over and over. I am sure in your own way you probably do, but you chose Josh. You knew how I felt about him but decided to do it anyway. I am sorry Lauren as much as I love you I would never contemplate living there while he is there. Kick Josh out and then call me.? I could hear her breathing but she didn?t talk for a very long minute. ?Kelli this is what I meant the other day. Baby you seem so strong and so powerful when it comes to work. You are totally fearless. Yet when it comes to us you are a complete coward, you won?t even try.? ?I don?t know how many times I have to say it, but I will try again. I AM NOT INTO MEN!? ?Baby Josh told me that when he kissed you that you were into it as much as he was. He felt there was real chemistry between you. So what changed?? ?I have told you, Josh was just an experiment. Yes I kissed him, but that?s all we did.? ?Did you enjoy the kiss?? I didn?t want to answer this because I knew she wouldn?t be able to leave it alone. ?Yes Lauren I enjoyed the kiss, but I realised that it wasn?t what I wanted.? She giggled. ?Did you get hard? Did it excite you?? Now it was my turn to hold the phone unspeaking. I sighed. ?Yes Lauren I enjoyed it and yes it excited me.? ?If that?s the case baby what is the problem? Why won?t you even try? Haven?t you ever thought maybe I should just do it?? ?Lauren he never cared about me. All he wanted was you.? She started to cry. ?Babe that wasn?t his fault it was mine. I told him you were into it. He thought we were all going to be together.? ?Oh my god don?t be ridiculous Lauren. He knew damned well at the party that I wasn?t happy. He knew and decided to ignore my feelings. From the moment he met you all he wanted was you.? ?No babe you have got it all wrong. He was worried about why you were ignoring him. He wanted to leave and give it all away but I convinced him that once we got home away from prying eyes you would let the real Kelli out. He really likes you baby. He feels really bad about what happened.? ?Say what you like Lauren but I will never change my mind about him.? We talked and talked long into the early hours of the morning and it was so nice to talk to her without yelling and screaming. I woke in the morning feeling exhausted. I was barely in the door of my office carrying coffee for everyone when Maddy walked in as well. I wasn?t sure what to say. After Siobhan?s revelations I felt a little uneasy. She looked at me and threw her arms around my neck and kissed me. Nothing was said for ages we just hugged. Siobhan walked in while we were still cuddling followed closely by Candy. We all ended up in a huge group hug.