"We're not objects!" Sophie chanted, backed by dozens of her friends
and colleagues. "We're not objects!"
"You go, girls!" A passer-by, a young woman in her early twenties,
said, giving the picket line a thumbs up as she walked past them and
into the vast concourse of Heathrow airport. Nevertheless, Sophie still
felt uneasy.
It wasn't due to the fact that she was stood alongside her friends
wearing a smart blouse, a straight pencil skirt and high-heeled shoes.
If anything, her clothing acted as a source of comfort to Sophie,
despite the heat of the June sun shining down on her. It wasn't even
due to the fact that in the ten days since the start of the strike,
over a third of the original strikers had crossed the picket line and
returned to work. And it wasn't even due to the fact that Sophie had
received no wages in the previous ten days, or had even the remotest
contact with management. What caused Sophie the most unease was one
simple question: 'Am I doing the right thing?'
Sophie had been incensed when she'd heard of Rachel's attack. She'd
been so riled up, so angry that she hadn't hesitated to go along with
Amelie and Ellen in blaming the airline for the attack and joining
their union. The fact that the majority of her friends and colleagues
also joined the union, and the continued silence from management seemed
to justify her anger- initially, at least.
As time went on, Sophie found her resolve wavering more and more. The
more she thought about it, the more she realised that there was very
little the airline could have done to prevent Rachel's attack. The
attacker- who had been formally charged and would stand trial in the
UK- would've found his way into the galley some way or another, even if
the doors were locked or CCTV was installed, or if she wore tights
instead of stockings, or lower heels or a skirt that was less tight.
Striking wasn't going to undo Rachel's attack. It likely wouldn't even
prevent the next one, even if the union's demands were met and security
and safety on the planes was improved. There were times when Sophie
felt that the only person who would actually benefit from the strike
was Amelie, in furthering her feud with her father.
However, whenever she felt uneasy about continuing the strike, Sophie's
resolve was bolstered by the sheer number of friends that still
supported the strike, the union, and Sophie herself. She was still one
of the girls, and the other women looked to her for leadership just as
much as they did with Ellen or Amelie. Sophie just wished she could
provide the leadership they needed- and she wished she could silence
the niggling voice in the back of her head that told her that she
didn't belong, either as a union member or as 'Sophie'.
Ten days earlier, Sophie had strode into Alana's office as a cool,
confident woman, both outwardly and inwardly. She had felt every bit as
female as Amy or Hayley, or Ellen, Amelie or Rachel- or even Alana
herself. Sophie had been confident enough to tell her boss off for
patronising not just her or her transgendered friends, but womankind as
a whole with her speech on how the dress code was 'doing her a favour'.
But that confidence quickly wavered when Sophie went from speaking to
her manager one to one to representing her union, and womankind as a
whole, to the entire world. She knew that there were people following
the strike who would never accept her or any of her transgendered
friends as women, and even worse, people who might accept Amy or
Hayley, but never Sophie herself- and Sophie was forced to concede that
had 'James' been following the strike as an outsider who had never
experienced life as 'Sophie', 'he' might have fallen into that latter
category. For the first time in a long while, Sophie began to doubt
whether or not 'Sophie' had any place in the world- or in her life...
"I'm going to get something to eat," Sophie said to the girls stood
next to her. "Any of you guys want anything?"
"Yeah, I'm going to go in a bit too," Amy replied. "But aren't you
going to stick around for the camera crew? They're going to be here any
second..."
"Yeah, I- I might not..." Sophie mumbled, grimacing as her ginger
haired flatmate groaned and rolled her eyes. "What?"
"You really don't like taking credit for your work, do you?" Amy asked,
smirking as Sophie rolled her eyes. "First the book, now this... You
have helped a lot of people, Soph. Take some pride!"
"Yeah- well, it's not really that easy," Sophie sighed. "If I appear on
TV, even local TV, there's every chance my parents will end up seeing
my- well, THIS face."
"So?" Amy shrugged. "You said your parents know all about 'Sophie',
even if they do think you're only doing it for the job, right?"
"Yeah, but-" Sophie said, before sighing. "They've never actually seen
THIS face before. Not even in photos." Sophie grimaced as her flatmate
let out another groan.
"You know they're going to have to eventually, right?" Amy asked.
"Unless you plan on going through your whole life hiding in the
shadows?"
"Yes, yes, okay!" Sophie snapped, before sighing. "Ugh, can- can we
just not talk about this right now, please?"
"Okay, I'm only trying to help," Amy said. "But you know I'm telling
the truth."
"Maybe," Sophie said. "If- when, umm, when I do, you know, tell them,
would- would y-"
"Yes, of course I'll go with you!" Amy said, a wide grin spreading
across her face as she shared a hug with her flatmate. "As long as you
DON'T tell them I'm your girlfriend."
"You wish," Sophie snorted, before sighing as a news van pulled up a
short distance away and began unloading camera equipment.
"...Go and get us some lunch," Amy said with a pretend tired chuckle.
Sophie grinned as she walked away, though deep down, she knew her
friend was right- there was no way she'd be able to hide 'Sophie' from
her parents forever. The only way would be to make 'Sophie' a thing of
the past, and that was a price she was unwilling to pay. Or at least, a
price she'd previously thought she was unwilling to pay...
Sophie returned from the nearby caf? roughly twenty minutes later with
a bag full of baguettes and salads, but her heart sank when she saw
that the camera crew were still present and speaking to her friends.
Sophie hoped that she could sneak back into the crowd without being
noticed, but as she approached, Amy and Hayley immediately waved her
over to where the news crew were stood with their cameras and their
microphones, making Sophie curse silently.
"Umm... Hi..." Sophie said, her cheeks reddening as the cameras pointed
toward her.
"Hello," the reporter said with a professional smile. "We understand
that you're one of the ringleaders of the union, is that correct?"
Sophie grimaced at the use of the word 'ringleader'- her training in
journalism meant she knew that when putting together an article,
whether in print or on camera, the choice of words is always the most
important thing. A 'leader' is a person of nobility, a person to be
admired and respected, like an army general or royalty. A 'ringleader',
however, is someone who acts in the shadows, coerces rather than
encourages, is sinister rather than noble. Two can play at this game,
Sophie thought to herself.
"I'm a spokesperson," Sophie replied stoically. You're not going to
trap me, Sophie thought defiantly.
"Do you have any comment on the continued disruption being caused by
your strike?" The reporter asked, and Sophie tried her hardest not to
smirk as she realised that the reporter clearly wanted to play a game,
but had no idea who she was playing with.
"Management's ongoing refusal to cooperate with us is disappointing,"
Sophie replied. "Our requests for better working conditions are
reasonable, and it is only with great reluctance that we take this
necessary action."
"And what do you have to say to the passengers whose journeys are being
postponed or cancelled by your strike?" The reporter asked. I didn't
realise the UK even broadcast Fox News, Sophie thought to herself as
she narrowly avoided rolling her eyes.
"I would ask them to be please be patient," Sophie replied. "We don't
want to have to take this action, but to protect the safety of our
colleagues, we must continue until management are willing to meet with
us."
"Thank you for your time," the reporter said, and while she showed no
outward emotion, Sophie knew that inside, she had to be fuming at her
replies. Sophie maintained a professional smile until the news crew had
packed away, before letting out a long sigh and staring angrily at her
friends.
"Seriously, guys?" Sophie hissed. "What did I literally just say about
not wanting to speak to reporters?"
"We're sorry, okay?" Amy replied with an exasperated sigh. "They showed
up wanting to speak to someone in charge, and as Amelie and Ellen are
in Manchester today..."
"And we- we were kinda nervous ourselves about speaking to reporters,"
Hayley mumbled. "And we know you are too, but, like, you're a
journalist, you know the right things to say..." Like I just did,
Sophie thought to herself with a grimace.
"Well- yeah, I guess," Sophie sighed. "Let's just hope my parents don't
see it, heh."
"When are you next going to see them?" Hayley asked.
"Tomorrow," Sophie replied. "Assuming Alana or the others inside there
don't decide to come out here and talk to us?"
"So... tomorrow it is, then," Amy said with a tired chuckle as Sophie
handed out their lunches, before returning to their picket line.
Sophie, Amy and Hayley remained at the picket line until mid-afternoon,
when all the women present, satisfied that their message had been
heard, dispersed and headed back to their respective homes. As she rode
the tube, however, Sophie couldn't help but fidget uncomfortably not
just because of the day's events, but because of what awaited her the
following day. This discomfort didn?t go unnoticed by her flatmates,
who both flanked Sophie on the short walk back from the tube station to
their home.
"Hey," Hayley said softly. "You okay?"
"Hmm?" Sophie replied, before shrugging. "Yeah, I guess..."
"Really, though?" Amy asked.
"...Okay, maybe not," Sophie sighed.
"Yeah..." Hayley grimaced. "We- we?re sorry about the interview, again,
we- we just thought-"
"Honestly, it?s okay," Sophie chuckled. "On this occasion I can, you
know, ?take one for the team?. And I can?t think of a better team to,
well, ?take one? for than Team ASH, hehe!"
"Depending on what you?re ?taking?," Amy teased, giggling as Sophie
rolled her eyes at her.
"Like I said before, you wish," Sophie retorted. "It- ugh. It?s my
parents I?m more concerned about. Like, you know, it?s becoming harder
and harder to keep ?Sophie? away from ?James?s parents."
"...So don?t," Amy shrugged.
"That?s not always an option, though," Hayley reminded her ginger-
haired friend, who grimaced at her own insensitivity.
"Okay, so maybe it isn?t," Amy conceded. "And- yes, I?m sorry if that
sounded a bit insensitive, but- but you know you?re only delaying the
inevitable, right? I mean- well..."
"Yeah, I know," Sophie sighed. "And I honestly do know, you know? It?s
just- ugh. I want to do this on my own terms. And I want to be prepared
in case- well, in case of the worst-case scenario."
"I get that," Amy whispered. "And we will ALWAYS support you, Soph. No
matter what, right?"
"Team ASH forever!" Hayley cheered, bringing the smile back to Sophie?s
face as the three of them returned to their apartment. As Sophie headed
to her bedroom to change, though, a wave of guilt washed over her as
she realised that however stressed out she was about her parents, her
problems were trivial compared to those of her friends.
Sophie frowned as she gazed over at the stripped, unclaimed bed in the
corner of the room that used to belong to Rachel Lyscombe, but which
hadn?t been slept in in weeks. Following her attack, Rachel had
temporarily stayed at her parents? home, but as the days went on, that
arrangement gradually became permanent. The combination of both the
attack and the disciplinary measures she?d been subjected to made
Sophie doubt that Rachel would ever return to the airline, and made
Sophie fear that Rachel might never again be a regular part of her
life. Sophie tried to put such pessimistic thoughts to the back of her
mind, but she was forced to concede that if she was in Rachel?s
position, she would likely do the same- and she could very easily have
found herself in Rachel?s position. As she removed her make-up and
changed into a comfortable long t-shirt and leggings, Sophie couldn?t
help but muse that ?James? would never have been in the position that
Rachel was- or ?Sophie? could potentially have been...
"Hey, Miss Connelly!" Amy teased as Sophie returned to the living room,
briefly putting a smile back onto the brown-haired woman?s face.
"Feeling any better?"
"Meh, maybe a little," Sophie shrugged. "Still missing Rach, though."
"Yeah, me too," Hayley sighed. "Not just ?cause it makes me the
youngest in the flat again, heh."
"She is signed off sick for at least another month," Amy said. "Doubt
she?ll be back that quick, though. Heh, doubt WE?LL be back that
quick..."
"How- how are everyone?s savings, anyway?" Sophie asked hesitantly,
dreading the answers to her question.
"Been better," Amy shrugged. "My- my child support?s due on Saturday,
though, and it is Jade's birthday later in the month too. I am seeing
her and her mother tomorrow, though, hopefully we can, you know, work
something out..."
"Yeah, I?ve got direct debits too," Hayley sighed. "And I need to get a
present for Alicia as well, it was her birthday a couple of weeks ago,
and with everything that?s been going on..."
"Yeah," Sophie whispered. "She- she?s been going into work, hasn?t
she?"
"Who, Alicia?" Hayley asked. "Yep, she joined the union, paid her dues,
but just- just went into work as normal."
"She?s always seemed a bit odd to me," Amy mused, before shrugging. "Ah
well. We were never going to get EVERYONE joining the strike."
"Yeah, true, I guess," Sophie sighed. "And I?ll be honest, I- I?m
starting to feel a bit, you know, skint..."
"I think we all are," Amy sighed. "I think that?s the plan- wait for us
to all run out of money and come back with our tails between our legs.
Then probably, I dunno, make us dress as Playboy bunnies on flights or
something."
"...That could be fun," Hayley shrugged, earning a smirk from her two
friends.
"Oh, definitely," Amy said. "For a party, or maybe a hen night, but NOT
while I?m trying to serve drinks on a plane and trying to keep horny
businessmen away from my arse." Sophie and Hayley both nodded quietly
as they contemplated the unpleasant thought.
"Well, we- we just need to stand our ground," Sophie said. "Show the
airline that we won?t be pushed around anymore, right?"
"Right!" Amy and Hayley cheered simultaneously.
"Even if I now really, really want to have a costume party where we
dress up as bunny girls," Amy chuckled. "Which we can?t really afford
right now."
"Well- when the strike ends, we can celebrate," Hayley shrugged. "And
as it was partly Amelie?s idea, she can pay for the costumes, heh! She
can afford it, right, Soph?"
"Hmm?" Sophie replied. "Oh, umm, yeah, I reckon she?d be up for it.
Dunno that I?d, you know, ?fit? a costume like that, heh."
"Oh, come on, why not?" Amy asked.
"Because it?s a strapless bodysuit that?s designed to make you spill
out of it," Sophie replied. "And I don?t have anything to, you know,
?spill?..."
"Oh, please," Amy snorted. "Firstly, there are things we can do about
that. Secondly, there are things YOU can do about it. And thirdly, who
cares? If you want to be girly, and gorgeous, and dress in a bunny
costume, why shouldn?t you?"
"Exactly," Hayley said with a smug grin. "And you enjoyed the Hooters
costumes we wore on my birthday, didn?t you?"
"...Yes," Sophie replied, blushing as her friends both giggled. "Okay,
so maybe the bunny party will be fun. I just- ugh, I dunno. Thinking
too much about seeing my parents tomorrow, if they freak out at the
thought of me wearing even this, god knows how they?d react to me in a
costume like THAT."
"Well, they definitely wouldn?t need to know about THAT," Amy said.
"Soph, you really need to get it into your head that what you wear,
what you call yourself and how you live is none of your parents?
business."
"If only it was that easy," Sophie sighed as she relaxed back into her
chair, wondering what discussion would be harder- telling her parents
about ?Sophie? or telling her friends about her growing uncertainty
about being ?Sophie?.
Before the strike, Sophie had told herself that even if she no longer
worked for the airline, ?Sophie? would still be a major part of her
life, as would her friends, both those who work or formerly worked for
the airline and the many others she?d made as ?Sophie?. She?d even
entertained the possibility for fully transitioning and making ?James?
a thing of the past. However, even after just a week away from the
airline, Sophie found that she was a lot less certain about her future.
Whether it was due to stress about the increased likelihood of her
parents finding out about ?Sophie?, she couldn?t say- all she knew was
that the thought of dressing up as a Playboy Bunny made Sophie more
nervous than excited, and she didn?t dare tell her friends that...
Meanwhile, 150 miles north-west of London, another member of Soixante-
Trois Airlines?s cabin crew tried to relax in her family home as she
and her fianc?e filled her mother in about the events of the previous
few days. However, as she spoke, Ellen grew more and more nervous- not
just about whether or not she'd have a job waiting for her when she
returned to London, but whether or not her fianc?e would have a family
waiting for her if she ever returned to Paris.
"Now then, union girls," Mrs Briggs said as she placed two mugs of hot,
sweet tea in front of her daughter and her fianc?e. "Other than the
strike, how have things been these last few weeks? Seems like ages
since you were both up here."
"Well, that's just another advantage of the strike," Ellen chuckled. "I
actually get to come back home for a bit, heh."
"But sadly, not for very long," Amelie said. "After all, our leader of
the union has responsibilities!"
"Yes, she does," Mrs Briggs said. "And I?m glad to see she?s taking
those responsibilities seriously at least some of the time! I was
starting to worry that you were taking after your older sibling a
little TOO much."
"Oh, come on, that?s hardly fair," Ellen retorted. "Natalie?s working
really hard at her degree, you can tell she?s serious about achieving
her ambition."
"Britain?s first genderfluid MP," Mrs Briggs chuckled with a proud
smile. "Well, as long as she wears a red rosette, I know I?ll vote for
her, so will plenty more."
"As shall the two of us," Amelie said with a smile.
"I didn?t know you could even vote in our elections?" Mrs Briggs asked.
"It is something I have looked at," Amelie replied. "As I am to marry a
British citizen, in Britain, I looked on the website of your government
and-"
"-And that?s probably enough politics for now!" Ellen chuckled.
"Including talking about the S-T-R-I-K-E."
"Good," Mrs Briggs said. "Because I?d like to talk about the W-E-D-D-I-
N-G instead!" The older women grinned as the two younger women both
giggled excitedly. "Did you say you wanted to get married in England,
Amelie?"
"Oui," Amelie replied. "Though it is that we would have one ceremony in
England and one in France, as did Natalie and Zoe."
"But probably England first," Ellen said, before grinning and raising
her voice as she heard the front door to the house open and close.
"Though I?m not sure who?s going to be my maid of honour yet, or if
either of my sisters are going to be bridesmaids..."
"Oh- shut up," Sasha mumbled as she entered the living room and dropped
herself into the chair furthest away from her sister.
"Hello to you too, sis," Ellen teased, smirking as her sister rolled
her eyes at her.
"Girls, don?t, not when we have company," Mrs Briggs cautioned.
"Sorry, mum," Ellen and Sasha both mumbled as Amelie grinned.
"Arguments in my family were not finished so easily," the Frenchwoman
said with a happy, yet at the same time sad smile. "My older brothers
and sister would not listen to my mother so easily as she was to them,
umm..."
"Their stepmother," Ellen whispered softly.
"That?s part of why I never remarried," Mrs Briggs said. "If any man
didn?t get along with any of you four, he?d have been out of this house
faster than one of your planes!"
"And speaking of guys," Ellen teased her younger sister, "when are we
going to meet this new fella of yours?"
"Soon, honestly," Sasha replied bashfully. "He?s still getting settled
in Manchester, don?t want to, like, ?overload? him too soon by bringing
him round here..."
"No offence taken," Mrs Briggs snorted. "And I certainly don?t mean any
offence by this either, but it will make a change for one of my
children to be in, you know, a non-LGBT relationship. Again, no offence
intended."
"Tch, straight people," Amelie dramatically scoffed, before smiling.
"It is okay. All that is important is that my future sister-in-law is
with a person, man or woman, who makes her happy. As if she is to be
unhappy, I shall have words with this man!"
"And I?ll have words with his leftovers," Ellen said as she squeezed
her fianc?e?s hand, earning grins from her mother and sister.
"Yeah, well, that?s the most important thing," Mrs Briggs said. "Being
happy. If you two are happiest together, and if Matthew is happiest
wearing a dress and calling himself ?Natalie?, and if Sasha?s happiest
with this- what?s his name, Kevin?"
"Kurt," Sasha said.
"This Kurt fella," Mrs Briggs continued, "then why should I or anyone
else stick our noses in where it doesn?t belong?"
"I can think of many people who would wish to have parents such as
you," Amelie said with a smile. "Including me."
"Well, come December, you will," Mrs Briggs said. "Tough as far as I?m
concerned, you?re already one of my girls."
"Thank you," Amelie whispered.
"So, then," Sasha asked. "What?s happening with this strike?" The young
woman giggled as the other three women in the room playfully jeered at
her, though secretly, Amelie?s thoughts were still on the friends of
hers who didn?t enjoy such a close relationship with their parents- and
there was one of her friends in particular who was in her thoughts.
Sophie sighed as she stared at her reflection in her full-length
mirror. She?d shed her casual clothes in favour of the loose shorts and
tank top that she preferred to wear to bed, her hair was hanging loose
and unkempt and her face had been scrubbed clean of make-up, allowing
the 5 o?clock shadow underneath to start to show through. As she looked
at her reflection, Sophie tried to make a note of all the things she
saw. She saw ?Sophie. She also saw ?James?. She saw a flight attendant.
She also saw a trade union activist. And a journalist. And a writer. A
woman. A man. Daughter. Son. Fake daughter. Fake son. Fake woman. Fake
man. Not a woman or a man at all, but something different- something
Sophie didn?t know the word for, and that was what frustrated her more
than anything else.
During her research for her second book, Sophie had interviewed many of
her friends who had suffered from gender identity dysphoria, listening
to their stories of how they?d look at their reflection and be
convinced that what they saw was inherently, fundamentally wrong. They
would look at the image of a man- or in some cases a woman- and see the
exact opposite of what they felt they should see. Sophie had believed
that if she truly felt transgendered, she?d be able to look in the
mirror and see the same thing, or if she was truly cisgender, she?d see
the opposite of what her friends saw. However, Sophie felt that she was
neither transgender nor cisgender, she was somewhere in-between the
two, and even though what she saw in the mirror was a mixture of man
and woman, it still looked somehow wrong to Sophie.
What frustrated Sophie the most, though, was that the more time passed,
the less certain Sophie became about her gender identity, when for all
of her friends, the opposite seemed to be true. As she drifted off,
Sophie wondered whether she would ever feel comfortable in her own skin
again...
Hayley was the first of the flat?s residents to get up the following
morning, taking care not to wake her still-sleeping roommate as she
headed through to the bathroom for a quick shower before picking out an
outfit for the day.
Even though she?d been living full-time as a woman for almost two years
and transitioning for 14 months, Hayley still felt a thrill every time
she opened her wardrobe and surveyed the treasures contained within.
When she?d first become ?Hayley?, she?d moved to London with one
suitcase and a carrier bag full of clothes and precious few other
possessions. Over the course of her employment with the airline, Hayley
hadn?t just expanded her wardrobe, or increased her jewellery or make-
up collection, but she?d made an actual home for herself. Her side of
her bedroom was covered in items deeply personal to her- photos of
happy times with her friends, mementos from the many parties and nights
out she?d been on, and a large collection of books, among many other
things. In the living room was her Xbox One X along with many games and
DVDs and even more books- all of which Hayley earned, all of which was
paid for by her wages from the airline. Which put Hayley in an
impossible position.
On the one hand, she didn?t entirely enjoy her job. The passengers were
frequently rude and disrespectful, especially those who questioned her
?real? gender. Even though she?d been taking oestrogen for fourteen
months- another thing Hayley had had to earn- there were parts of her
body she couldn't hide, such as her Adam?s apple, her 5' 9" frame, and
other parts of her anatomy she would be only too happy to see the back
of. The uniform, while exciting at first, soon became frustrating and
uncomfortable to Hayley; and as her wardrobe expanded, the excitement
provided by the uniform became less and less. And the long hours she
worked only seemed to make things worse.
On the other hand, though, Hayley earned more money in her first month
with the airline than she had doing any other job, ever. Enough to
afford her first month of rent, several shopping trips- thanks to the
airline?s generous clothing allowance- with money left over to build up
her savings, savings that were already dwindling after ten days away
from work. And the sad fact was that no matter what job she worked in,
transphobia wouldn?t be far away. Hayley hadn?t just faced harassment
at work, but on nights out, shopping trips, or even when simply walking
on the street. And worst of all, she?d faced rejection from her own
family.
When Hayley came out to her family, their immediate response was to
reject her, to throw her away like she was a piece of trash, and for
the first few months, Hayley felt like trash and believed she WAS
trash. Over the two years that followed, Hayley had slowly regained her
confidence, thanks to her counsellor, her friends, and, in no small
part, to her employer. Sure, the uniforms were impractical and
uncomfortable, and management?s policies were often draconian, but one
thing was always true- Hayley was treated exactly the same as any other
woman who worked for the airline. And that was a gift that money simply
couldn?t buy. Hayley wanted to go back to work. But at the same time,
she didn?t want to upset her friends- especially not the flatmate she?d
only just got to know before she?d been so cruelly attacked. Even
though they weren?t as close to each other as either of them were to
Amy or Sophie, Rachel was still Hayley?s friend, and the last thing
Hayley wanted to do was offend her. But at the same time, Hayley didn?t
want to be skint, either...
Hayley took a deep breath as she picked out her outfit for the day. If
she?d been on a flight, she would usually have worn a smart pencil
dress with stilettos and the mandatory underwear (or lingerie, as
Hayley secretly referred to it) and make-up. Today, however, Hayley
dressed smart, but formal. A comfortable bra and pair of briefs.
Translucent black tights. A plain-coloured long-sleeved top. A short
black pencil skirt. Ballerina flats. Modest make-up. And absolutely no
trace of a corset.
Satisfied with her look, Hayley quietly left the flat and headed to the
nearby tube station for the familiar trip to Heathrow airport. Hayley
deliberately avoided the small, but still loud picket outside the main
entrance to the airport and headed to one of the staff entrances, using
her pass to let herself in while taking a deep breath as she made the
short walk to the nondescript but still imposing door. Hayley steeled
herself before politely knocking on the door, hoping and praying that
she had the strength for the confrontation she knew was to come.
"Come in," Alana said, her expression remaining stoic as she saw Hayley
enter her room dressed in her comparatively casual attire. "Oh, hello
Hayley. Are you here representing the union?"
"Not today, no," Hayley said, sitting down and taking a deep breath. "I
wish to return to work. I am prepared to work today, in fact."
"I see," Alana said. "Under the circumstances, I shall ignore the
violation of the dress code, provided you?re, well, wearing the
appropriate underwear."
"I?m wearing a bra, a pair of briefs and a pair of tights," Hayley
replied. "That?s appropriate for a 21-year-old woman, isn?t it?"
"Hayley," Alana sighed. "It?s not that I don?t appreciate the fact that
you want to work, I do, but- but the dress code is rigid. Go home and
change, if you come back dressed appropriately, I?ll find you a
flight."
"I AM dressed appropriately," Hayley said firmly. "The dress code is
also why a lot of us are out there rather than in here or on a plane."
"That?s as maybe," Alana said. "But rules are rules."
"Rules can change," Hayley said, before frowning. "Sophie told me that
when you met with her, before the start of the strike, you told her
that girls like us- like me, her Amy and all the other transgendered
employees- should be grateful to get the chance to wear clothes like
the uniform. I hope, over the last ten days, you?ve come to realise
just how offensive that was. I don?t dress up to get some kind of
thrill out of it. Maybe at first, I did, but today, I dressed like this
because I am a woman. End of story. I used to respect the airline for
treating all of us girls the same. Was I wrong to do so?"
"...Will you go home and change into proper commuting attire or not?"
Alana asked.
"I?ll change into my uniform, but nothing else," Hayley replied.
"Then I?m afraid we have no work for you today," Alana said.
"...Fine," Hayley said. "I?ll see you when you?re willing to be
reasonable." The 21-year-old woman took a deep breath to compose
herself as she left the office, but after taking a few steps down the
corridor, she let out a long groan. She?d been able to be defiant for
now, but her savings weren?t going to last forever. Fortunately,
though, there was one person Hayley could always rely on to take her
mind off of any stress.
?Hey dad,? Hayley typed into her text messaging app. ?Looks like I was
right, I?ll be free today after all.?
A short while after Hayley left the house, her roommate rose from her
slumber and headed through to the bathroom to relieve herself and take
her own oestrogen pill. As Amy felt the hormone flow through her blood,
she mused on the choice many of her fellow women took when they started
oestrogen- the choice to never have children of their own. Oestrogen
eventually rendered all transwomen infertile, and even though there
existed the option of freezing sperm for use at a later date, it was an
expensive option. However, for many transwomen, becoming parents was a
very low priority when they began their transition. For Amy, though,
the decision had been made for her long before she even took her first
oestrogen pill.
Six years earlier, almost to the day, Amy- or as she was known at the
time, ?Andy? had become a father to a little girl named Jade, despite
the fact that they were only 17 themselves. At first, despite no longer
being in a relationship with Jade?s mother, ?Andy? had been deeply
involved in the infant?s life, working hard to provide for her and
always being there when Jade needed them. All that changed, however, on
?Andy?s 21st birthday- the day that ?Amy? came into the world.
Amy had hoped that she could just pick up from where she left off with
her daughter, that she could simply explain to the 3-year-old that her
father was now a woman and carry on with life as normal. Jade?s mother,
however, had other ideas.
For over twelve months, Amy had no access to her daughter. When she was
finally allowed to see her again, Amy was introduced as ?Auntie Amy?,
her father?s sister, and it was explained to Jade that her father had
had to move away. At first, Jade took it in her stride, and gradually
developed a bond with ?Auntie Amy?, but as the years went on, the
little girl began to miss her father- and Amy grew increasingly
desperate to tell her the truth. However, the girl's mother made it
clear to Amy that if she ever did tell Jade the truth, she would never
see her again, leaving the transwoman increasingly desperate- not least
because Jade?s sixth birthday was mere days away, and she wouldn?t be
able to spend it with her. Nonetheless, Amy was determined to enjoy the
day she did have with her daughter, and after showering and applying
her make-up, Amy pulled on a floaty knee-length sundress, followed by a
pair of strappy sandals with a 1.5" heel. Amy completed her look by
tying her long flame-coloured hair back into a smart ponytail, before
sighing at the sight of her reflection. She was undoubtedly a beautiful
woman. Over two years of oestrogen had also given her soft skin and a
slender but still curvaceous body. When combined with her comparatively
short height of 5? 4", her long, flame-coloured hair and androgynous
facial features, Amy had the look of a young woman who could easily be
the mother of a girl like Jade. She just wished that she could be
allowed to be her father, despite the circumstances...
After a short tube ride to St. Pancras station, and another train ride
south-east, Amy soon found herself in her hometown of Sittingbourne,
letting herself into her parents? home and dropping her full, heavy
carrier bags in the hallway.
"Hi!" Amy called out. "Anyone home?"
"Amy!" The young woman?s mother replied enthusiastically, opening her
arms for a hug that her daughter was only too happy to provide. "I
thought we weren?t going to see you until later?"
"Well, it?s not like I don?t have a lot of free time on my hands right
now," Amy said with a heavy sigh. "And, you know, I wanted to see you
before we go and see Jade."
"Of course," Mrs Harris whispered. "I take it those bags are all for
her?"
"Yep," Amy replied. "Even if I don?t have a lot of free money right
now..."
"I?ve been following your strike on the news," Mrs Harris said softly
as she led her daughter to the living room. "I understand why you feel
you need to do it, but lesson one of being a parent is-"
"You can?t put your own needs first anymore," Amy interrupted. "I know.
Even though it?s a fact that if I did put my own needs second, I
wouldn?t be sat here right now wearing a dress."
"Well, maybe not," Mrs Harris conceded. "Do you- do you think you?d
ever have come out if we hadn?t, well, ?pushed? you?"
"...I dunno, maybe?" Amy sighed. "I mean, now that I have, I?m never
going back. Ever. But that first step- well, yeah."
"Well it is obvious you?re so much happier, the longer you live as a
woman," Mrs Harris said. "Anybody who knows you can see that."
"It?s just a pity I can?t be a woman and a father at the same time,"
Amy sighed. "I keep thinking about how I?m eventually going to tell
Jade, how old she?ll be when I tell her, how angry she?ll be that I?ve
lied to her for so long, or even, you know, how angry she?ll be at her
mother, if she blames her for me lying to her for so long."
"You can?t keep obsessing over the worst-case scenarios," Mrs Harris
said softly. "It?s not like Jade?s stupid, after all. She?s a bright
girl for her age, I?m sure she?ll understand. If that ex-girlfriend of
yours ever lets her, anyway."
"Well- true," Amy sighed.
"Though I would have to say that, being her grandma and all!" Mrs
Harris said with a proud chuckle.
"So you?ve forgiven me for making you a grandmother at the age of 44,
then?" Amy teased, smiling as her mother rolled her eyes and sighed at
her.
"I wouldn?t trade Jade for anything," Mrs Harris replied. "Or you."
"Aww, mum..." Amy mumbled as her cheeks started to redden.
"Though your father and I are still wondering if you?re EVER going to
settle down with a nice young woman," Mrs Harris said, smirking as her
daughter rolled her eyes at her.
"I?m hardly going to settle down when I?m only 23 and my job involves
jetting all over Europe at weird hours of the morning," Amy retorted.
"Well... It did, anyway. Either way, ?settling down? isn?t really a
priority right now, you know?"
"I was engaged to your father when I was 23," Mrs Harris retorted.
"Either way, you need to have someone you can be with when times are
hard, like this strike of yours."
"I?ve got my friends," Amy shrugged. "I?ve got loads of friends,
actually."
"Especially those two girls you live with?" Mrs Harris asked.
"Well, three girls," Amy corrected her mother. "Well, okay, two girls
right now, it should be three girls, and, well, it might be three girls
again, but- ugh. Complicated situation."
"I bet," Mrs Harris said softly.
"And as well as friends..." Amy said, "I?ve always got you and dad as
well. And that?s a lot more than can be said for a lot of my friends."
"I remember you saying," Mrs Harris sighed. "I wish I could knock some
sense into some of these so-called ?parents?."
"Yep, so do I," Amy said. "Though I can think of at least one case
where the daughter also needs a little bit of sense knocking into
them..."
Sophie let out a grunt as she woke up long after her friends had left
the flat. She sighed as she padded through to the bathroom, making a
point of not shaving as she showered and removed the colourful polish
that had covered her fingernails and toenails for the previous few
days. After drying her hair, she returned to her bedroom, where she
examined her reflection in her mirror.
Standing before Sophie was the reflection of a young man. A skinny, not
particularly tall, androgynous young man with slicked-back shoulder-
length hair, but a man nonetheless. And yet, as ?James? examined his
reflection more closely, he couldn?t help but see ?Sophie? in every
aspect of ?his? face. Even though he was presenting as a man, he saw
?Sophie?s unquestionably feminine lips, he saw her cheekbones, her
eyebrows...
Even as James examined the rest of his body, he saw ?Sophie? in
everything. His smooth, hairless skin. His narrowed waist and
comparatively widened hips. Even his chest, while otherwise flat,
seemed to have ?Sophie?s? shape to it. The only part of his body that
was unquestionably not ?Sophie?s? was hidden away under ?James?s?
underwear- and even there, James wasn't 100% sure.
The previous evening, ?Sophie? had looked into her mirror and hadn?t
known what she?d seen. However, when ?James? looked into the same
mirror, he was just as confused. All of the ?mask? had been stripped
away- the clothes, the hair, the make-up, everything- and yet what was
left wasn?t 100% ?James?, just as what he saw the previous evening
wasn?t 100% ?Sophie?. What she saw in the mirror was still a mixture of
?man? and ?woman?- and it still looked wrong to James.
The young man frowned as he pulled an old pair of jeans and a plain t-
shirt out of one of his drawers- the only drawer than contained any of
?James?s? clothes- before slipping on a pair of old walking boots-
?James?s? only remaining footwear- and making a mental note NOT to grab
a handbag as he left the flat.
As he walked through the streets of London to the nearby tube station,
James mused as always on how anonymous he was. Despite his longer than
usual hair (for a man, anyway), no one looked at him twice. He was a
young man with light stubble wearing casual clothes- nothing out of the
ordinary. And yet, James felt even more uneasy than when he made the
same journey as ?Sophie?. Sure, ?Sophie? attracted some disapproving
looks from those who thought they saw a boy underneath all the make-up,
and from those men who either didn't see any trace of 'James' or didn't
care if they did, but ?Sophie? always took those incidents as proof
that she was, indeed, a woman after all. As ?James? walked through
London, he didn?t know what he was...
"Hi, it?s me," James called out as he let himself into his parents?
home, consciously forcing himself to use his supposed ?natural? voice
rather than ?Sophie?s? softer tones.
"Hello James!" The young man?s father said with a smile as he greeted
his son with a firm, manly handshake. "How have things been recently?"
"Meh, the same as usual, I guess," James shrugged. "Well, apart from,
well, you know..."
"Yes," Mr Connolly mumbled as he led his son through to the living
room. "Well, at least you?re dressed properly today."
"...I was thinking more about the strike?" James said. "I mean, you
have been following it on the news, haven?t you?"
"Bits of it," Mr Connolly replied. "Whenever it comes on the news we
tend not to watch, in case we- in case we see..."
"Me?" James asked.
"The girl you?re pretending to be," Mr Connolly replied darkly. "You
know, the one good thing about this strike is that you could spend more
time as the real you, as much as time as you want, in fact."
"Well, I- I?m here, aren?t I?" James asked.
"For the first time in over a week," Mr Connolly replied. "And I get
that it?s not always easy, what with having to, well, keep up
appearances around your flatmates-"
"My friends," James interrupted.
"Well, quite," Mr Connolly mumbled. "But if they were true friends, as
you claim they are, they would understand you need to be who you really
are, wouldn?t they?" And if you were real parents, you?d understand
too, James self-pityingly thought to himself.
"Please trust that I do know what I?m doing," James whispered, his
cheeks starting to flush as his father smiled sympathetically.
"We do, of course," Mr Connolly said. "You?re your own man. But we?re
still your parents, and we do worry about you. Anyway, let?s not worry
about all THAT. Have you decided what you?re going to do for your
birthday next month? Assuming you?re back at your fake job by then,
anyway." And there?s that ?fake? word again, James thought to himself.
"Haven?t decided yet," James replied with a shrug. "It?ll depend on
shifts, and what Amy and Hayley are doing, I suppose."
"Who are Amy and Hayley?" Mr Connolly asked. "Your flatmates?"
"Umm, yeah, I?m sure I?ve told you about them before," James replied
defensively- something his father immediately picked up on as a smile
spread across the older man?s face.
"Ah, everything?s beginning to make a bit more sense now," Mr Connolly
teased. "Is there another reason you?re sticking around Amy or Hayley?
Or both, even?"
"...I don?t know what you mean?" James replied.
"Of course you don?t," Mr Connolly chuckled, before a serious look came
across his face. "These girls, they aren?t- umm, aren?t-" Like me?
James thought to himself, before his eyes widened as he suddenly
realised what his father was implying. Okay, James thought. If this?ll
make life easier, I can roll with this...
"...It?s Amy," James said, biting his lip as he immediately felt guilty
for his lie. "And she- she?s, well, post-op. So no- well, you know..."
"Ah," Mr Connolly said with a grin. "And as she?s, well..."
"Transgender?" James said.
"Well, yes," Mr Connolly mumbled. "She- umm, he? She?"
"She," James said.
"Well, she?d have no problem with you, well, pretending, right?" Mr
Connolly asked. "I mean, they?re into that sort of thing, right?"
"Let?s- can we, umm, can we change the subject, please?" James asked
awkwardly.
"Right, right," Mr Connolly chuckled. "Don?t want to talk about THAT
with your old man, I get it!"
"Yeah," James said as he finally started to relax.
"I am really looking forward to meeting this ?Amy?, though!" Mr
Connolly said as James grimaced, realising he may have just solved one
problem by creating an even bigger one...
Amy sighed heavily as she disembarked the train at St Pancras station
and made her way through the crowds. Her time with her daughter had
gone as it always had- Jade had been excited to see her grandparents
and her ?Auntie Amy?, had promised not to open her presents until her
birthday and had asked how her daddy was. And, as always, Jade?s mother
had warned Amy not to tell Jade the truth, meaning that Jade had gone
away disappointed to not have any contact with her ?daddy?, and Amy had
gone away frustrated at having to keep up the charade and frustrated
that it would likely be months before she saw her daughter again. Amy
was, however, confident that things could always improve- proof of
which was waiting for her outside a coffee shop near her flat.
"Hi Amy!" Hayley said with a grin as the ginger-haired girl approached
her table. "Dad, this is Amy, my roommate. Amy, this is Denise, my-
well, my father."
"It?s so nice to finally meet you!" Amy gushed as she exchanged air
kisses with the older transwoman. "Hayley?s talked about you a lot."
"Likewise!" Denise giggled. "I?d hoped that we?d get to meet some day.
After all, we- we do have a couple of things in common."
"Well- yeah, that?s true," Amy sighed. "And to answer your next
inevitable question, Hayley, yes, I?m okay, and so is Jade. And none
the wiser about, well, the truth."
"I?m sorry to hear that," Denise said softly.
"Well, it could be worse," Amy sighed. "I at least have a relationship
with both my parents and my daughter. There are a lot of people who
can?t, well, claim that... Sorry..."
"No, it?s okay," Denise sighed.
"Just because things aren?t perfect for us doesn?t mean you have to
pretend they are for you," Hayley said softly.
"Yeah, but I don?t need to boast about it, either," Amy sighed.
"I didn?t see it as boasting," Denise shrugged. "If anything, it?s
encouraging, you know? I?ve got one child back. If I follow your
example, I might get more."
"Well- okay, I guess," Amy chuckled. "Are- umm, if you don?t mind me
asking, anyway, are- are either of your parents still alive?"
"No," Denise whispered. "Both passed away in 2011, one year before-
well, one year ?before?."
"I?m sorry to hear that," Amy said softly.
"And I know what you want to ask but are too polite to," Denise said
softly. "And the answer is yes, I did wait until they?d passed away
before transitioning."
"I don?t know that I?d have been able to wait that long, heh," Amy
chuckled.
"As well you shouldn?t," Denise said. "No girl should, not really."
"Or boy," Hayley said quietly. "You know, if they?re going, like, the
other way?"
"Absolutely," Denise said, before grimacing. "How- how?s your friend
Rachel? Hayley told me about what happened, and- well, parental
instincts and all that..."
"Yeah," Amy whispered. "We?ve not heard from her in a while, we- we?re
kinda giving her some space, you know?"
"Understandable," Denise said.
"But she knows we?re here if she needs us," Hayley said. "Same goes for
all our friends, if they need us or we need them."
"Absolutely," Amy said. "Though I- I?m sorry if that sounds like
another boast, heh."
"No, not at all," Denise said. "As long as you don?t mind having an
older friend?"
"Mind?" Amy chuckled. "I?d insist on it, hehe! Just a pity the
airline?s too ageist to have you as a flight attendant with us, heh!"
"Well, I?d love to," Denise said, "but I kinda don?t have the right
qualifications. And I don?t speak a foreign language. And I probably
wouldn?t fit in the uniform anymore, heh. Much as I?d love to try!"
"Hehe!" Amy giggled. "What is it you currently do for a living,
Denise?"
"I?m a freelance computer programmer," Denise replied. "I also do a bit
of web design, debugging, that sort of thing."
"Ah, now THAT?s cool," Amy chuckled.
"We always had the best stuff on our home computers when we were
growing up," Hayley said. "Dad would always find these obscure programs
that were really fun to fiddle around with. I never really got the hang
of programming myself, though."
"Well, as I?ve told you many times, it?s never too late to learn,"
Denise told her daughter. "That goes for both of you, especially if
your strike goes on for much longer."
"Well, fingers crossed it won?t," Amy said as a guilty look spread
across Hayley?s face. "...Hayley? You okay?"
"Ugh, yes AND no," Hayley sighed. "I- I nearly went to work today."
"...Ah," Amy said. "Well, it?s your choice, just because you?re in the
union, it doesn?t mean you HAVE to strike."
"Yeah, but I- I kinda feel, you know, like I?m letting Rachel down..."
Hayley mumbled, tears starting to trickle from her eyes as she spoke.
"Hey, hey it?s okay," Denise whispered as she leaned in to give her
daughter a gentle hug. "You need to eat, and to eat you need to work,
right? I?m sure your friend would?ve understood."
"Definitely," Amy said softly. "God knows it?s not like I haven?t felt
the same way at times, heh. What stopped you?"
"Alana did, actually," Hayley said, chuckling and regaining her
composure. "I went in dressed like this, was told to go home and change
and, well, only did one of those things, heh."
"That?s my girl," Denise said with a proud grin. "This whole ?commuting
attire? thing sounds silly, anyway. Treating you like you?re
schoolchildren or something."
"Meh, they pay the wages, they get to set the rules," Hayley shrugged.
"And that?s why we needed the union," Amy said. "So we have at least
some say in things. But oh well. I think soon, it might be time to
start looking for other work."
"Just as long as you two stay friends," Denise said. "What you?ve got
is too special to simply throw away, you and the other girl, what was
her name again?"
"Sophie," Amy said. "And yes, we?re not planning on going our separate
ways any time soon. Well, the two of us aren?t, anyway..."
The three women spent the next hour talking about their work, their
families and their lives in general, before Denise had to depart to
catch her train back home. With the evening rush hour looming, Amy and
Hayley also decided to head home, both tired from the day?s activities
but happy at the chance to spend time with their families. Amy and
Hayley both expected their flat to be empty when they returned home,
thinking that their flatmate would?ve taken the opportunity to spend as
much time as possible with their parents. However, when they eventually
returned home, they were in for a big surprise.
"Hey you two!" Sophie giggled as she skipped over to her friends and
greeted them each with a gentle hug. "Good day today?"
"Umm, yeah, not bad thanks," Amy replied. "You?"
"Meh, it was okay," Sophie shrugged. "Happy to be home now, heh!"
"How did things go with your parents?" Hayley asked, grimacing as
Sophie paused and her smile faded.
"...Okay, I guess," Sophie shrugged, grimacing herself as she gazed at
Amy. "But like I said, I?m happier to be home now."
"Yep, I can kinda tell," Amy said. "You started dinner, or shall we get
a Deliveroo?"
"Meh, it?s Friday, don?t think any of us can be arsed to cook," Sophie
replied.
"Though it?s not like any of us are flush with cash either," Hayley
reminded her friend.
"I- I?ll pay," Sophie offered. "I did have my eye on a couple of new
swimsuits, but I suppose I can live with just one, heh!"
"If you?re sure?" Hayley asked.
"?Course I am," Sophie giggled. "Besides, it?s not like I ever actually
go to the beach, heh."
"Well- okay then," Amy said as a look of concern spread across her
face. "Seriously though Sophie, are you okay? You seemed all, you know,
stressed yesterday, and now you?re, well-"
"?Me??" Sophie asked. "Honestly, I?m good. Guess I was just stressed
out about my parents, that?s all."
"Well- if you?re sure that?s all," Amy said.
"Positive," Sophie said with a smile, even though inside, she felt
guilty about having to lie to her friends.
By the time she?d left her parents? house, Sophie?s mind had been
scrambled. She?d weaved such a web of lies for her parents that she
hadn?t known what to believe herself- whether she was really ?James?,
but pretending to be ?Sophie? to keep up appearances for her flatmates,
or whether she was really ?Sophie? and pretending to be ?James? for her
parents? sake, or a mixture of the two- and even then, Sophie had no
idea what the mixture was. All she knew was that a few minutes after
she?d left her parents? home, it was like a weight had been lifted from
her shoulders. She?d rushed home and immediately shaved off not just
the stubble on her face, but any and all unsightly body hair, before
applying a light layer of make-up and changing into a soft cotton tank
top and a new skater skirt she?d bought the previous month. As she
looked at her reflection in her mirror, Sophie mused on how little
things had changed from the morning or the night before- she saw
?Sophie?, but she still saw traces of ?James? peering through the make-
up. The difference, however, was that it didn?t seem wrong to Sophie-
on the contrary, as she looked at her reflection, for the first time in
a long while, everything seemed right, but that still frustrated
Sophie.
She knew that the conflict with her parents was the source of her
stress. She knew that anxiety about the meeting was what caused her
inner conflict, and putting the meeting behind her was what caused the
stress to seemingly instantly disappear. She was bigendered, both male
and female, and she?d long since come to terms with that, as had her
friends. Sophie just wished it could?ve been just as easy with her
family- and that she could?ve explained things to them without
inadvertently making life even more awkward for herself...
"Do you know when you?re going to go and see your parents next?" Amy
asked Sophie as the three women sat down to eat their meal.
"Dunno yet," Sophie replied. "Do you guys know yet when you?ll next see
your families?"
"Not yet," Hayley replied. "If by ?family? you mean ?father?, anyway."
"Ah- yeah, sorry..." Sophie grimaced.
"Meh, it?s not like you two have it so much easier than I do," Hayley
shrugged.
"True, but we do all have each other," Amy said with a grin as Sophie
started to fidget. "I?m guessing you?re no closer to sorting things out
with your parents though, am I right, Soph?"
"Well- yes and no," Sophie mumbled in reply.
"Meh, well, next time you see them, if you want help finally sorting
things out with them, our offer?s always on the table, right?" Amy
asked, making Sophie smile as Hayley nodded in agreement.
"Thanks," Sophie said. "Though, umm, about that..."
"...Yes?" Amy asked.
"I, umm, well, my- my father kinda- kinda jumped to a conclusion
today," Sophie said.
"Right...?" Amy asked as Hayley started to snigger.
"He- he assumed that the only reason I?m, well, staying as Sophie is-
is because I- I said I had a girlfriend," Sophie said, her cheeks
reddening as Hayley burst into fits of laughter and a deep frown spread
across Amy?s face.
"...You said I was your girlfriend, didn?t you?" Amy asked in a clipped
voice, her frown deepening as Sophie nodded.
"I- I?m sorry, okay?" Sophie sighed. "I- I just kinda panicked, and-"
"Thanks," Amy sighed as Hayley?s laughter intensified.
"Oh, come on," Hayley said. "It?s perfect, right? Now you two actually
have an excuse, right? Amy and Sophie sitting in a tree, F-U-C-"
"K-Y-O-U," Amy interrupted. "...Okay, fine, I can go along with it just
once, as long as you do set them straight next time you see them,
okay?"
"I kinda- kinda also said that you were post-op," Sophie mumbled, her
cheeks reddening as Hayley roared with laughter again.
"Oh great," Amy sighed. "So in addition to fawning over you, I?m going
to have to cross my legs the whole time as well?"
"Sorry..." Sophie mumbled.
"No-ugh, no, it?s okay..." Amy sighed. "Coming out is the hardest thing
to do, and just ?cause your circumstances are- well, not the same as
either of us two, it doesn?t mean you?ll have it any easier. But you do
know that the more you lie to your parents, the harder you?ll make
everything, right?"
"Yes, yes I know," Sophie moaned.
"And it?s kinda odd, you know?" Hayley mused. "And- and I really don?t
mean this in a bad way, but- but you?re so proactive when it comes to
things like the book, or the union, but you?re so- well, you really
struggle when it comes to your personal life, you know?"
"It?s always hardest when something affects you personally," Amy said.
"Makes me wonder, you know?" Sophie asked. "If I handled things with
the airline and the book so easily, was- was I ever truly one of the
girls?"
"Yes," Amy replied without hesitation.
"Absolutely," Hayley said, smiling as a solitary tear formed in the
corner of Sophie?s eye.
"Thanks, you guys," Sophie whispered.
"We are Team ASH," Amy said confidently. "And that?ll never change. No
matter how many times you tell your parents that we?re having it off."
"Well- thanks," Sophie chuckled.
"Speaking of ?the girls?," Hayley said, "it?s just gone 6 o?clock, want
to put on the news to see if we?re on it again?"
"Sure," Amy shrugged, switching on the television and relaxing back
onto the sofa with her two flatmates.
About fifteen minutes later, though, the three women received a shock
when one of their colleagues appeared on screen- the last person the
trio expected to appear.
"My name is Rachel Lyscombe," the young blonde woman said in a shaky
voice. "And I worked for Soixante-Trois Airlines up until I- I was
attacked by a passenger during a flight."
"Thank you for agreeing to sit down with us," the interviewer, who was
also a young woman, said softly. "I understand this cannot be an easy
thing to talk about."
"No," Rachel whispered. "But now is the time to talk about it."
"Wow," Amy whispered as she remained transfixed by the television. "I
would NEVER be that brave."
"Can you tell us about the company?s reaction during the following few
days?" The interviewer asked.
"They just wanted to sweep it under the carpet," Rachel replied. "I get
that I?m not allowed to name my attacker for legal reasons, but he was
a big client of the airline?s, and they seemed more upset at his arrest
than they did my attack."
"And I understand you were subject to disciplinary action yourself in
the days following the attack, is that correct?" The interviewer asked.
"That?s right," Rachel replied. "While I was off work, recovering from
the- the attack, they called me in to serve me with a written warning
for violating the airline?s dress code."
"Kaboom," Sophie said, earning confused frowns from her flatmates as
the interview continued.
"Why have you chosen to break your silence now?" The interviewer asked.
"Because I don?t want anyone else to have to go through what I went
through," Rachel replied, her voice quivering with emotion. "The strike
isn?t about money. It?s about keeping the airline?s employees safe,
which is something they seem to have no interest in."
"We contacted Soixante-Trois Airlines, but they have so far declined to
comment on the interview," the news anchor said before moving onto the
next article, leaving the three flatmates in stunned silence.
"...?Kaboom??" Amy asked. "Really?"
"That interview will end the strike in our favour," Sophie said
confidently. "Trust me on that."
"I?ll ask how in a bit," Amy said, "but given we work for an airline,
?kaboom? really isn?t a sound we want to hear!"
"Ah- fair enough," Sophie chuckled. "...And to answer your next
question, it?s a question of demographics."
"Okay then..." Hayley said uncertainly.
"It?s a simple and sad fact," Sophie explained, "that people care more
about what happens to others when it happens to people who look like
them. A lot of people who?ve opposed the strike see the airline as ?the
transgender airline?, and since they?re not transgender, they simply
don?t care. Seeing a blonde, blue eyed, young middle-class cisgender
woman as a victim? THAT will play on people?s emotions, guaranteed.
It?s one of the first things you learn about journalism- how to
manipulate people?s emotions."
"...Why do I feel that the whole ?trans pride movement? has just been
set back, like, fifty years?" Amy asked with a sad frown.
"Probably because we weren?t that far ?forward? to begin with," Hayley
sighed. "But you?ve got to admit, Sophie IS right."
"Oh, I?m not denying that," Amy said. "I?m not THAT divorced from
reality. It?s just- ugh. Some days, you know? It feels like we?re NEVER
going to be accepted."
"Yeah, I know what that feels like," Sophie sighed sadly, smiling as
Amy gave her a gentle hug. "But, you know? At least we?re going to win
THIS fight, at least."
"WE are," Hayley said with a smile as she joined in the hug. "We- we
should call Rachel as well, see how she is... That can?t have been
pleasant for her."
"And just ?cause she?s cisgender and we?re not, it doesn?t mean we
shouldn?t care about her," Amy said firmly.
"Absolutely," Sophie said as Hayley took out her phone and dialled
their friend?s number, before switching the phone onto speakerphone and
placing it on the coffee table.
"Hi Hayley!" The youthful voice of Rachel Lyscombe said, answering the
phone after just 2 rings. "I take it you were watching, then?"
"Hi, yeah, we were," Hayley replied. "I?m here with Amy and Sophie,
you?re on speaker, is that okay?"
"Of course it is!" Rachel chuckled. "You know it?s always great to talk
to all of you, I have been missing the flat a bit."
"Do- do you think you?ll be moving back in?" Sophie asked hesitantly.
"I... doubt it," Rachel replied with a sigh. "Especially as I?m almost
certainly going to be out of a job. No way are the airline going to
take me back after THAT interview. I doubt I?ll even want to go back."
"That?s perfectly understandable," Amy said softly. "Though we will
miss you a lot."
"Really a lot," Sophie said softly.
"Well, you?ll get your bedroom back at least, right?" Rachel said in a
teasing voice that earned a sad chuckle from Sophie.
"Anyway," Amy said, "we were all thinking how br-"
"Don?t- please don?t say ?brave?," Rachel interrupted. "?Cause if you
think of me as ?brave? then you?re thinking of me as a victim, and I
absolutely, ABSOLUTELY do not want to be a victim. Ever."
"...Sorry," Amy mumbled.
"Apology accepted," Rachel said softly. "What girls like you do,
fighting every day to be the ?real you?? THAT?s brave."
"Well- I guess..." Sophie mumbled as she remembered her meeting with
her parents, and how ?brave? was the last thing she felt.
"But really, you girls don?t need to worry about me," Rachel said. "I?m
probably going to see if I can get into uni in September on clearing,
I?ve got a pretty good English A-level so, well, yeah. I?ll probably
still live at home, though."
"Sensible," Amy said.
"Not really," Rachel retorted. "If I stay in London it?ll make it
easier for me to go on nights out with you girls, hehe! Assuming I?m
invited, of course?"
"Consider yourself permanently invited," Sophie said warmly. "You and
Lucas."
"Yeah, we- we?re kinda on a bit of a break right now," Rachel said with
a sad sigh. "After- well, ?after?, I- I?m kinda detoxing from men for a
bit."
"Sensible again," Amy said softly. "To change the subject again,
though, Sophie, she- she kinda thinks you might have just ended the
strike. In our favour, like."
"I?d be lying if I said that wasn?t part of the plan," Rachel said
softly. "But the real reason I did the interview is that I- I just
didn?t want to be silent anymore. I mean, yes, I don?t want to be the
?face of sexual assault? either, but I- ugh, I dunno. I just couldn?t
carry on the way things were, I just had to do SOMETHING."
"Well, either way, you?ve got infinite respect from us for it," Sophie
said. "And if you ever need anything, we?re just a phone call away."
"Thanks," Rachel said.
"Have you spoken to Ellen or Amelie yet?" Amy asked.
"Not yet," Rachel replied. "I?ll probably have a voicemail waiting for
me when this call ends, heh. Probably have loads waiting for me."
"We won?t tie up your line any longer, then," Hayley said. "Take care
of yourself, Rach. Remember, we?re here whenever you need us."
"24/7," Sophie confirmed.
"Thanks," Rachel whispered. "I?ll talk to you all later. Stay strong."
"You too," Hayley said as she ended the call, before all three women
relaxed back onto the sofa. "...Okay then, I think we?d better leave
our phones switched on, we might get a phone call tomorrow morning,
heh!"
"Or even tonight," Sophie mused as she prayed that Rachel?s example
would finally end the stalemate caused by the strike.
The three women went to bed later that evening having not received any
phone calls, but the following morning at just after 7am, Sophie was
woken from her sleep by her phone ringing, and when she saw the caller
ID, a wide smile spread across her face.
"Hello?" Sophie asked as she answered the phone, trying her hardest not
to sound weak or tired.
"Hi Sophie, it?s Gemma from work," the woman on the other end of the
line replied. "Would you be able to come in for a meeting at 9am
today?"
"I can be there," Sophie replied, her smile widening as the call ended
and she got out of bed, quietly padding through to the shower in case
her flatmates hadn?t received the same invitation.
45 minutes later, Sophie was showered, dressed and ready for the
morning ahead of her. Anticipating what the meeting might entail,
Sophie had dressed professionally in a smart knee-length black pencil
skirt- but not a tight one. She wore shoes with a heel, but a 3" thick
heel rather than a 4" stiletto. She wore a smart, pressed white blouse,
modest make-up and minimal jewellery, and underneath her clothing she
wore a plain black bra and briefs set- her bra enhancing what she
didn't have and her briefs tucking away what she did have without any
of the usual discomfort caused by the usual underwear mandated by the
airline. And she felt just as feminine, just as beautiful and just as
confident as she did when wearing her uniform- more so, in fact. When
Sophie gazed in her mirror on her way out of her bedroom, she didn?t
see a conflicted young woman, or even worse, a conflicted young man-
she saw herself. Sophie AND James, but mostly Sophie- the same woman
who her friends and colleagues trusted and loved, and who, deep in her
heart, truly was one of the girls. Sophie just wished she could be as
confident all of the time...
"Hey Sophie!" Ellen said in her distinctive Manchester accent as Sophie
approached her outside the airline?s staff entrance. "You got the call
too, then?"
"Yep," Sophie replied. "Hopefully NOW they?ll be in a mood to talk."
"Fingers crossed," Ellen whispered.
"Did- did Amelie see the interview, then?" Sophie asked.
"Yep," Ellen replied, making Sophie fidget as she carefully thought
about how to word her next question.
"And is- is she hoping the strike will end too?" Sophie asked, biting
her lip as Ellen frowned.
"...She hopes her father will start treating us a little better," Ellen
replied. "?Cause she doesn?t work for the airline herself anymore, she
isn?t as- well, as dependent on things, even if her dad is paying for
our flat and- well, yeah..."
"Yeah, I?d rather not get in the middle of a family argument," Sophie
sighed.
"Not much choice when I AM family, heh," Ellen replied. "Now come on,
let?s see what Alana has to say, whether she?s finally going to see
sense or if she?s going to TREBLE down on things."
"Oh- for god?s sake, still?" Sophie moaned as her friend and colleague
grinned wickedly.
"Oh, come on, it?s been a great year for English football," Ellen
retorted. "City win the domestic TREBLE, Liverpool and Spurs reach the
Champions League final, Arsenal and Chelsea reach the Europa League
final, and United get to remember how they used to be a good team
twenty years ago."
"Yes, yes, okay..." Sophie moaned, though secretly, she was glad for
the distraction- every step that took her closer to her manager?s
office made her legs tremble more and more...
Sophie?s nerves didn?t get any better when she entered her manager?s
office to discover that Alana was not there- in her place was another
young woman in her mid-thirties, and alongside her was a very familiar
middle-aged man with a stern expression on his face.
"G- good morning," Sophie said nervously. "Bonjour, Monsieur Masson."
"Bonjour," M. Masson replied in a stoic voice. "Bonjour, Ellen."
"Bonjour, beau-p?re," Ellen said, trying not to grin as the older man
fidgeted.
"Thank you both for coming in at short notice," the young woman sat in
Alana?s seat said in a light French accent. "My name is Yvette Ferrand,
and I work in conflict resolution and negotiations for Soixante-Trois
Industries. Monsieur Masson has asked me to speak on behalf of himself
and the company to resolve the situation and return you and your union
to work as soon as possible."
"Are you willing to listen to our demands?" Ellen asked, trying not to
flinch under the stare of her billionaire future father-in-law.
"We are, and we believe we have reached a compromise," Yvette replied.
"First, your demands about the dress code. As I am sure you are aware,
the dress code was designed to convey a professional image and evoke
memories of air travel in the 1960s, when Soixante-Trois Industries was
founded. However, we accept that the practicality of the uniform can be
bad. As such, we shall be permitting lower heels on flights, but no
lower than 5 centimetres. There shall also be no restrictions on
underwear, beyond that hosiery must be worn on flights at all times.
Whether that is stockings or pantyhose is for the individual choice of
the flight attendant. We shall also be re-fitting all uniforms over the
next few months so as to allow freer movement."
"...This is acceptable," Ellen said. "About the commuting attire-"
"With the commuting attire," Yvette interrupted, "you will be expected
to look smart on the way into work, as you shall be representing the
airline. However, the relaxing of the uniform dress code shall apply to
the commuting attire. The only way we would be willing to remove the
commuting attire dress code would be to also remove the clothing
allowance from your wages."
"I think I can sell this to the union," Ellen said. "Have you read our
demands about security on aircraft?" Or in other words, Sophie thought
to herself, did you see Rachel?s interview last night?
"We have," Yvette replied. "Additional CCTV will be installed on all of
our aircraft over the following few months. All complaints of
unacceptable passenger behaviour shall be taken seriously, and those
found to be repeat or serious offenders shall receive permanent bans
from our aircraft, regardless of how much income they bring. You must
understand that these changes cannot come overnight. It takes time to
install CCTV, and it takes time to alter uniforms. But we are committed
to ensuring that Soixante-Trois Airlines is a positive place to work
for all of our employees. ALL of them." Bollocks, Sophie thought to
herself. You just don?t want any more negative publicity after the
interview. However, Sophie was forced to concede that regardless of how
or why it was achieved, it was still a win nonetheless.
"I believe I can sell all of these improvements to the union," Ellen
said. "We shall vote tonight, and if the vote is passed, we can be back
at work as early as tomorrow."
"This is good news," Yvette said with a smile. "I believe this
addresses all of your concerns. I shall let you speak to your friends.
If you have your phones with you I shall give you my contact number. I
shall be contactable all day, please call me when you have made a
decision."
"We will," Ellen said softly as she and Sophie rose from their chairs.
However, there was one further thing that was troubling Sophie.
"Where-" Sophie asked hesitantly. "Umm, if you don?t mind me asking,
where- where is Alana? I know she doesn?t normally work weekends, but-"
"She is no longer employed by Soixante-Trois Industries," M. Masson
replied bluntly, making Sophie start to tremble.
"I- I?m sorry?" Sophie asked softly.
"She has had her employment terminated," M. Masson said. "For her
failure to manage the situation." Bullshit, Sophie thought to herself.
You needed a scapegoat. Sophie?s insides started to churn as she
realised that her actions had just cost a woman her livelihood.
"I- I see," Sophie whispered.
"A replacement will be in place by the end of the week," M. Masson
clarified. "Now you may leave." Sophie bit her lip as she and Ellen
silently left the office, before letting out a long, pained sigh once
they were out of earshot of the office.
"What?s the problem?" Ellen asked. "That was a major win!"
"Yeah, but we just cost Alana her job," Sophie sighed.
"So?" Ellen shrugged, anger slowly seeping into her voice. "She were a
crap manager, Soph. Had her nose stuck so far up Masson?s arse she
couldn?t see or didn?t care what was happening to the rest of us! Not
that the next one?ll be any better, but at least now that we?re a
proper union, she?ll take us seriously, you know?"
"Well, yeah, but still..." Sophie moaned.
"Can?t make an omelette without breaking some eggs," Ellen said
bluntly. "And rather Alana than Rachel again, right?"
"Well- yeah..." Sophie said. "And, well, maybe the new manager will
actually give me some shifts, heh."
"That?s more like it!" Ellen giggled as she and Sophie left the
airport, though deep down inside, Sophie felt more uncomfortable than
ever. As she travelled home, though, Sophie realised that her
discomfort stemmed not from costing her manager her job, but costing a
fellow woman her job. All of a sudden, despite her stress, ?James? felt
further away than ever... And yet Sophie knew that all it would take
was the mere mention of her parents for all that to change.
That night, the union voted to accept the airline?s compromise, and the
vast majority of the airline?s flight attendants, including Amy and
Hayley, returned to work the following day, with Sophie?s first shift
back being the following Tuesday. Sophie couldn?t help but smile as she
pushed her trolley up and down the plane?s cabin, her feet no longer
aching in her more sensible shoes, her waist unconstrained and her legs
encased in a pair of black tights that still felt comfortable despite
the heat- and Sophie still felt beautiful and effortlessly feminine
despite the comparatively relaxed dress code.
The following Friday, the new manager of the airline?s London hub was
announced, and virtually every stewardess employed by the airline
breathed a sigh of relief when the manager was revealed to be none
other than Marie Renou, who many of the stewardesses had met at the
wedding of Natalie and Zoe- Marie's younger sister. The airline's
employees were almost unanimously confident that Marie would be more
concerned with their wellbeing then her predecessor was, and were eager
to work with someone some of them even considered to be a friend.
However, while Sophie was confident that Marie would at least be a more
understanding manager than Alana, she was also nervous about what the
future would bring. After all, she was still writing her second book,
which would undoubtedly bring her into conflict with the airline?s
management, Marie included- even though she contributed to Sophie?s
first book. And while things had improved at the airline, Sophie was no
closer to resolving the issues with her parents- just as Amy was no
closer to resolving the issues with her daughter, and Rachel's
employment with the airline had ended for good.
However, one of the women living in the flat received a glimmer of hope
when she returned home from her flight to Berlin and switched her phone
back on to find a voicemail waiting for her.
"Hi Harry," the voice of Hayley?s older sister Lucy said. "I saw you on
the news the other week and just wanted to say hi and see how you were.
Call me when you get this if you want to chat." Hayley smiled as she
listened to the voicemail over and over. It wasn?t perfect- Lucy had
used Hayley?s deadname, after all- but it was a step in the right
direction, and proof to Hayley that maybe, just maybe, things were
going to get better after all. Hayley just hoped that her friends could
feel the same sense of optimism that she did...