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Aaron Starts Out By Jeanie Bernard I didn't get many chances to go outside dressed in my favorite skirts, panties and heels, but I often did dress in the privacy of my room. I really liked makeup as well because just a little made me look so girlish I could hardly believe it. Shaving all the hair off my body was thrilling, too - the smoothness of my legs and underarms made me feel very feminine when I wanted and I had very light hair so it wasn't much trouble. I could appreciate the trouble women went though each day. I sometimes trimmed and shaped my pubic hair into a little heart to make it as pretty as I could. My cock protruding from the middle of it was another question... I liked girls certainly, and when I thought about it figured if the rare opportunity struck I would just have to explain it in whatever way came to mind at the time. Heaven knows the opportunity hadn't come often. I had friends and went to school and did mostly normal things. I didn't care for sports much, but mostly my friends didn't go for that stuff much anyway. This was the nineties and for Aaron and his closest buddies had really long hair and of course they smoked pot when they could get it. We were stoners, I guess, though we only thought about the Sixties in a bored sort of way. School was secondary and the world was everything. Even so, I was kind of shy. I had never told even my best friend of my fave hobby although we actually had done a little of it together several years earlier. We had done it rather innocently for fun then sort of forgot about it. I didn't quite forget about it altogether. My friend Jack didn't have sisters and his father was at home, so I figured he just wasn't probably into it, so I didn't talk about it. So things went along for most of the spring and into the summer. Jack began to go out with a girl that went to a different school. This was new to us and I was thrilled for Jack but, I was very shy (or I thought I was) so I was very nervous about the whole thing. Mary was her name and she never did anything to make me nervous. Just me. I suppose I was a little jealous of both of them. And I delivered newspapers. I went door to door trying to collect money. On this particular evening things were going about like usual with a bit less than half of the customers coming up with money or even opening their doors. I knocked on apt 209 while I wondered if this person I had never seen would even answer. As luck would have it the door opened to reveal a man with a friendly expression and a generous smile who said, looking me up and down slowly, "The paper, huh? I guess you got me! Come on in. We'll see what we can find." "Oh, the bill is $5.97. I can take a check if you want." I was glad to come in with the prospect of actually getting paid. I found the friendly man somewhat intriguing as well. This was the still the seventies and a young hippie type expected to find interesting new friends around any corner; even a shy one like me. The man said his name was William and told me I could sit down at the table while he looked for money. The table was near the entry in this medium sized apt that Aaron guessed was one bedroom. He was intrigued by the apts he saw every day from the outside, but could only glimpse from the door. Down the street were apts used by a nearby University for dorm space. Aaron liked collecting there. Pretty often he would knock on a door and be greeted by a gorgeous woman with very little clothes on - or better several women. So far he hadn't done more than seen these, but tried to get more familiar in the building. Also the students tended to pay for their newspapers, sometimes supporting the other customers in the neighborhood. Returning from the other room, William sat down and asked if Aaron would like something to drink: a beer, a glass of wine or water? "No thanks" replied Aaron. He was thinking that it would probably be good to get to as many doors as possible. And this man seemed like he was dragging his feet. Old story. William seemed very interested and asked more questions. "Have you been delivering here for long? I haven't seen you!" "I've been doing this for about 4 months, but I think you only started getting the paper about 3 weeks ago." William smiled and said, "Yeah, I stopped the paper for a while because it was building up - did you know the last paper boy? He was younger than you." "No, I never met him," I replied. "It's really hard to get most of the people on the route to pay up. I have to keep going back over and over." Maybe this would elicit a little sympathy! I should have expected something was coming. William leaned forward and said, "How would you like to make twenty dollars?" He saw me instantly become confused... "You won't have to do anything! It'll be easy." "W-what do I have to do?" I said, sounding dumber than dirt. I had a thought that I should excuse myself, but that little bit of wisdom lost out. Too many fantasies and too many days and nights of being shy. "Well, you have such beautiful long red hair and a nice young face, I was hoping you might take off your clothes and let me just look at you for a while. That's all." I felt every feeling I've ever felt come rushing in all at once. My voice squeaked out, "I, I , um, ok." The twenty dollars had left my thoughts with those words. I was frozen in place and the light seemed to dim. This was exciting and I had had this kind of excitement alone so often, the thought of being with someone, and someone who was doing the leading such as it was; this was very exciting and I knew I wasn't going to leave. He pushed his chair back and rose. "Come in here - it'll be better. More room and more comfortable. Well, come on... you don't have to be worried." He walked around me and looked back. "Are you petrified? Or just getting warmed up? You can leave if you want." He smiled and waved his arms. This broke the spell. I got up and went into the living room and stood on a small rug. There was a large window in front of us with blinds half closed, giving the effect of openness without (much) public display. I looked at William. I could see he was trying to be low key to keep me from freaking out. At least, this is what I imagined. "Well? The clothes! Let me see you!" He said turning his finger around, like a pirouette. I wore a tee shirt and jeans. And I wasn't wearing any underpants. I sometimes wore panties that I had collected over time, but I had some strange notion that one of the girls in the student apts might invite me in sometime, so I didn't' where such things when I was collecting for newspapers. I threw off my tee shirt quickly and undid my pants, wanting to do it before I changed my mind. I had a raging hard on, but William didn't say anything. Somehow the mood got me and I slowed down. I felt a sensation of femininity welling up, not surprisingly. I moved my hips a little like a half attempt at a striptease, and the pants slid down my legs to the floor. I think I nearly fainted with erotic emotion. Stronger than any I had ever felt alone; and I was trembling and breathing like a long distance runner. "Oh, ho!" William exclaimed and smiled. "I think you like this! Don't you? And what is this?" He moved a little closer, still several feet away. I think he was trying to keep me comfortable enough to get used to the situation that he wanted to build. He pointed at my crotch, "You shaved!" It wasn't until that moment that I remembered that I had shaved. Everything, leaving the heart shaped pubic bush. I was momentarily stunned. I had never been 'caught' before and for a moment that was all I could think - I was caught! William saw my panic. "I like it. I like it a lot! Don't worry - it's a surprise, is all. I didn't think you were into anything like this. I think it's pretty cute! So you're a girlie boy. Take your hands away and let me see." So I slowly lowered my hands as my cock rose from the small heart shaped mound of hair. I was naked and hairless except for my long red hair on top and a little pubic decoration. I was beside myself, trembling and not able to think of anything except that every second was a new burst of erotic wildness. "You're so thin!" said William. "What do you like? Do you like drag? I knew you were gay!" William was sitting now on a stiff chair in front of me just about 3 feet away. Close enough to reach me, but far enough to keep from making me feel crowded. "I can't believe I'm standing here naked!" I said trembling. I was absurdly trying not to giggle like a crazy fool. "It's really ok; I'm not going to do anything to you! Do you want to leave?" "Uh, no," I said, feeling oddly safe and wishing this man would do something. But, I didn't really have the faintest idea of what I wanted him to do. I thought about his question. "I don't really think I'm gay..." This seemed a little ironic. "I mean I really like girls. I like them so much that I sometimes wish I was one and I dress up like a girl. But I only fantasize about boys as a girl, but I don't find them attractive, really." William was staring at my cock bouncing slightly with my rapid heartbeat. "Oh you just don't know what you want. Turn around. So I can look at you while you move." I turned and nearly fell, spreading my legs to gain my balance and feeling terribly clumsy. I was turning and thinking about being feminine and put my hands out in a girlie sort of way with my fingers spread. William saw that (I was hoping)? "I have some clothes here that my sister left. And some makeup, too, if you like. I can just about imagine you being pretty. Would you like to dress in a dress and put on some makeup?" I couldn't tell if he was trying to, but this man was pushing some major buttons that I had been working on for a long time. I stood in front of him breathing like there was no air. "Yes. I - I guess so." I breathed out. I put my hands down clasping my thighs. "Sure" Said William. "First, call me Billy." And he sat there smiling at me in a thirty-fiveish sort of way. "Ok, Billy." I showed him, and I tried to smile, but I was blushing in a terrible way. I managed to sway a little to ease my own tension. "What clothes did she leave?" "Some kind of dress and some other stuff. Some lingerie, I suppose. I don't do drag, much, except occasionally some makeup. Wait. Can I touch you? You don't have to!" He spoke very quickly. "I- I - ok." I was stunned a bit and I stood there as he reached forward. He put his hands gently on my hips. He was standing now, having risen from the chair. I didn't have the faintest idea of anything as deep as being seduced. He moved his right hand and gently wrapped it around my cock as his left hand went 'round to hold my buttock. I thought I would faint. I hadn't felt anything as intense as this simple touch in my life. I think that that was the moment I was hooked and Billy did nothing to relieve me. He moved his hand on my cock and said, "Do you like this?" I couldn't' talk; I just breathed and stood staring. I didn't move away. He started squeezing me harder and moving his hand, jerking me off! I was crazy! My eyes closed and I came like I had never come before. And now he took me in his mouth and took all my come with out spilling any! And he looked up and kept rubbing me and pulling. He said, smiling and in a raspy voice, "Are you ok? Talk to me." It took some time before I could get out, "My God! Maybe I should leave." This was my stratagem for surviving very strong emotional events, especially when they involved another person. Escape! "What? You don't have to go now. It really is ok! Your life isn't over! Let's get you dressed and see what we see then, hmm?" I felt Billy's hands gently rubbing my buttocks. He stood and put his hand on my shoulder and turned me toward the bedroom. Billy was doing a fair job of moving me past my emotional quaking to realize that the usual guilt that I experienced after bringing myself off wasn't really taking hold. Someone else was drawing my attention out of myself and realizing this was as amazing (nearly) as this whole scene. Normally I went more or less through a routine where I would "get girlie" and dress and do more and more in the direction of feminizing myself: full dress and makeup with numerous reapplications of make-up and changing the few outfits I had (I had several because of a number of daring thefts, but only a few things of my own acquired legitimately). Then I might attempt some journeys out in various states of fem dress, tight jeans, bra and panties with loose shirts. At night I had on a few occasions snuck out fully decked in my fave skirt and heels! Shaving of course, with taping of male organs back and out of the way. Sometimes I might do these sorts of things for days, building fantasies of "going full time" and dating men and going out clubbing, taking the hormones I had read about at the library. Inevitably my straight life would intervene, but usually that was started with reaching a point of masturbating to climax with the most extreme fantasies of castration and sex change and all sorts of wild scenes. Somehow this nearly always led to intense feelings of shame and guilt, like I was letting - someone down -myself, my mom, my friends, but I could never put my finger on it and just thinking about it made the whole thing seem silly - and unreal. What was being hurt by my getting girly? This wasn't destroying the course of my life, but expanding it in ways that everyone should do. I often worked past the guilt to be able to continue to be "en femme" for days and through many orgasms. This was the most satisfying time. When I felt that I could really do it. I was so shy. "Here in this closet." Pointing to one side of his closet, he also went to a drawer and began pulling clothes out and onto a large bed. There was a flamingo in the corner of the room. I was still naked and just a little dazed. "Go ahead, I have make-up in the bathroom. Hey, I should call Tammy! She's a tranny just like you, only she doesn't get attracted to other trannies - but you're so young and pink." I blushed. And I rushed as I found some of the things were really nice. There was pleated dress (I wasn't NEED TO RESEARCH styles names), and a sort of sundress. I was thrilled at that. There were some matching very light lacy panties and bra and there were a couple of skirts and some lacy blouses. "I think these will fit! Can I?" I was trying to stay ahead of the panic and I was beginning to like the feeling. "Of course! Isn't that what I said? You are so young!" I pulled on the panties and was glad that I had just had an orgasm and my cock was not engorged, but I new that was going to happen momentarily - and I left the rest of the thought for later. "You really like all this girly stuff don't you!" I had this cute lace bra that must have been an 'A' cup on and was reaching for the gingham sundress. Picking it up and holding it to me, I turned to Billy and said with a big grin on my face, "I love it! I think I hate boy clothes!" I was feeling more relaxed, thanks to Billy, I suppose and I just stared at him for a moment. He said, "Go ahead - put on your dress! Then you can put on some makeup. I'll be right back... He left the room and I think he headed for the kitchen. Now I felt really fem and was standing alone in a stranger's room in a great sundress. My head was in a whirl. I went to the bath and found the makeup stash as quick as I could! There were several shades of lipstick as well as eye-liner, blush, shadow. In short, I was in heaven! In a few moments I was able to look fairly pretty. The finishing touch was a light red lipstick, and I was all the way into it. I wanted to show off to Billy and his being gay seemed to make it much easier. I don't think I noticed at the time how I was getting past the stream of new "experiences; I just felt like I was beginning to have more fun than I could remember. I came out of the bathroom as Billy entered the bedroom. "I called Tammy - she said she would come over in a while. I told her we didn't have a plan, b- Well, look at you! You are pretty!" And he moved to me and swept his arm around me in a grand way. I actually leaned back on his arm behind me. "My dear girl!" And we stood up, smiling. "Let's go out. We can walk down the street and get a drink. I'll buy." Oh, my God! Go out? I was feeling suddenly over my head again. "What about your friend?" "You're such a scaredy! We'll leave her a note. Don't worry - you look fine. Here look in the mirror; that ought to make you feel better. I stepped to the mirror on the bedroom door, and into the mule sandals that were there. I knew I looked good, but it looked like me to me and that was the scarey part. I wanted to be daring and get the thrill. I had been here for all of 40 or 50 minutes and I had taken off my clothes, I'd had an orgasm in a strange man's hand and now I'm wearing a bra and panties under a pretty yellow sundress. Every few seconds all this was hitting me in the chest like cops breaking down the door! "You see." Billy stepped in behind me and put his hands on my waist. The contrast almost made me faint. I backed into him and leaned. "Mmm, that's nice, isn't it?" He lifted my hand to his crotch and added another layer to my thrill. I could feel his cock in his pants moving and getting hard! I licked my lips and looked at Billy in the mirror. I couldn't believe this was happening; I was breathing very hard now. He said, "Suck my cock, boy. Do it now!" I felt like it was an out-of-body experience. I turned, but it seemed like I was someone else. I couldn't have stopped if I had wanted to. I faced Billy and reached for the draw string on his loose casual pants. I just had to stroke his cock through the fabric again. "Just kneel down and suck on it! You're gonna love it! You know you are." he said. I kneeled as he pushed his pants down. And I was face to face with my first cock! It was huge! Billy said, "You know you've always wanted to, so go ahead. Suck my cock!" I reached up and put my hand around it. Boy, was it big... I was breathing harder than I had ever been in my life. I let the world spin away and just stared at Billy's cock inches from my face. I put my other hand on Billy's leg. Billy said, "Wow, I'm getting hot, too!" I just jumped on to it with my mouth, feeling it go in, moving my lips over it. It filled my mouth and it was warm. My hands on his legs, then on the base of his huge cock. I sucked it in and out, out just long enough to open my eyes and look at what I was doing. I thought I would faint. I was feeling that a lot that day. It was overwhelming, the sensation of sucking and the image of kneeling in front of this man, his cock in my mouth. I was thrilled. I kept on it, slurping and licking, hugging his legs, feeling the hair on them under my hands. It was better than I had imagined it (over and over). Big and thick, I felt his cock in my south licking my tongue over the sensitive underside and sliding out to the tip. I gently held and squeezed his balls and sucked in and out. He started moaning and moving it in and out He put his hand on the back of my head pushing me onto him. I started hugging his legs and I was thinking about him coming in my mouth and I wanted that to happen. It was not like the stories: 'Now I'm a cocksucker,' but I knew that later... He started pushing harder so I started sucking harder and his cock got harder and even larger! Then it happened! I felt the warm gush at the back of my throat and kept moving him in and out (he was doing the work!) and I started swallowing and sucking. A thing that all babies know how to do. Billy put his hands on my shoulders, said, "Wow. That was really good! You're really good!" I sucked a little more and he didn't hurry to get out of my mouth. I could feel his cock losing its rigidity and I opened my eyes and just looked at his pubic hair and kept gently sucking. It was tender in a way. He made to step back and I pulled off and looked up and smiled at him smiling down at me. My god! What a turn on, kneeling in front of this man. I was still shaking, but somehow I was calmer than I had been. "You didn't spill a drop," as he helped me up. Then he leaned in and kissed me right on the mouth! I wasn't expecting that and I just stood there as he pushed his tongue into my mouth. It was really big! I put my arms around his neck and sucked some more. He pulled away and said, "Where did you learn to do that?" "Um, it was all in my imagination. I never got to do it before. I mean I've kissed a girl." And I wondered what would Julie think of this! I think I was trying to keep myself in the moment by blurting out, "And I like it." A big smile formed on my face to match Billy's. "I'd like some of that myself," a voice behind me said very suddenly. So I jumped and jumped into Billy's arms. He smiled. "This is Joey, Erin. He's harmless, unless you're an asshole, then he's kind of hard!" and he laughed. Joey said, "You're a smartass! And who is your new girlfriend?" I blushed a little and beamed a little. But Joey came over quickly and actually put his hand on my butt and started rubbing! I didn't know what to do; my head was starting to swim again. Billy said, "You'll like it, too! This little girl likes to party more than she thought she did, don't you, Erin?" I just stood there thinking that he was right and feeling like I was trapped. The taste of cum was still in my mouth as these two men stood on either side of me, one with his hand on my ass and the other with his arm around my waist. I was feeling a little more comfortable, but I was still shaking terribly. Should I just run for the door? My other clothes were in the bedroom and by now I didn't want to give up the ones that I was wearing.... Joey reached for my skirt putting his hand on my hardening cock and I just laid my head on Billy's chest and spread my legs a little. "I knew you had a surprise in here, "he said as he proceeded to rub my cock up and down through my new sundress. I think Joey and Billy kissed each other. "Wow, I like the way you warm up so fast, said Billy as I just let my self melt into this enactment of a thousand masturbatory wet dreams. I couldn't stop now that I had gotten to trust this stranger that was doing so much to me. Things that I had only dreamed of until today. I didn't even care what time it was. "Well, is it my turn little darlin', asked Joey. He took his hand off my crotch and laid my hand on the front of his pants. It was just as huge as Billy's or bigger.... I felt Billy gently press on my shoulders as I knelt down in front of Joey. All I could think of was, 'Here we go again.' I had a silly grin on my face. Joey butted me in the face with his hidden cock and I actually giggled! He undid his belt and I reached up to unzip his fly. Joey didn't have any underpants on either! I had noticed that about Billy and Billy was still behind me, but he had lifted my skirt and now he pulled down my panties and started to touch my hole as he rubbed and generally man-handled my butt. And there it was an inch from my nose. Joey's cock wasn't hard completely so it flopped a little, but it was bigger than Billy. And it was lovely! I didn't feel the same was when Billy's cock was in my face - it was just big and strange - but, this was so straight and I just suddenly felt an attraction. I guess because it wasn't all red and veiny, but fleshy and the head was so graceful. I put my hand around it. "Go on, you'll like my cock, too, girl." And he thrust it at me as I caught it between my lips. I just closed my eyes and took it in as far as I could. I swallowed and it went to the back of my throat! I swallowed again and some part of my mind was wondering that I could get it that far in - was that how a "deep throat" was done? Joey moaned. And Billy pushed a wet finger into my ass! I almost screamed, but I couldn't so I moaned and Joey moaned and said "Do that again!" And Billy pushed again and then pulled his finger out. He must have had some sort of lubricant because he quickly returned with two fingers which he wiggled, sending me into a kind of frenzy. I had used a lot of dildo things in there including an actual dildo so I wasn't completely a virgin, but I had never had another person's fingers touching me there! I was getting so excited that these two men could have done anything they wanted. Joey's cock was soooo big and I liked it more and more as I licked and sucked it hard. The sight of his pubic hair and cock so close was making me want to suck harder. I reached under and took his balls in my hand. I had to lean on the other hand with Billy's fingers in my ass. Ohhhh. I never imagined. My mind was a ball of fog.. "Ok, now you are going to get what you really wanted," I heard Billy say, but it didn't make any sense until I felt something new in my ass. Billy was starting to push his cock into me! "Mmmm-mmm!!" I was frantic. Some reflex made me want to say no; I let Joey's cock fall and turned to look at Billy. I must have looked scared, he said, "Don't worry little girl, I'll be as gentle as you want." He stroked my back and butt, like a caress and I turned back to Joey's huge thing. I was still worried, but I loved having this huge cock in my mouth and I wanted it in my mouth now. I was sucking away like a calf and half in a state of ecstasy mixed with shock. Billy's cock made it's way in and it hurt a little like it always does. He pushed farther and farther. I couldn't breath. "Mmmmmmm-mmmmm. Billy started to pull it out again just a little then in just a little. He really was being gentle as he increased it a bit each time until the head pushed past the sphincter. Oh, my god, then he pushed and pushed until I though I was going to split! I had used a dildo that large only a few times because I afraid of damaging myself, but I wasn't worried about that now.... And Joey pulled his cock out of my mouth. "Look at your face! Billy you should see this! Ha, ha." He grabbed my chin and directed me back to his cock as Billy moaned and pulled part way out and back in - starting slowly to fuck me for real. It was a dream world as Joey's cockpressed on the back of my throat and my cock was so hard I thought it would burst - strange that I thought of how much a girl would like to have my cock in her just then. And Rick leaned over as he thrust into me and reached under and wrapped his hand around my cock! Oh! I came in huge spasms like I had barely imagined and those spasms must have caused me to ssqueeze all my muscles, because Billy moaned loudly, "Oh, yes!!" and pushed in harder and faster and I knew he was coming inside me. I sucked as hard as I could on Joey's pulsing, rock hard cock. It was all so intense as my mind flashed through day-dream after day dream, these feeding my anticipation and reward with these two men inside of me. Billy continued to push into me, but slower. And again it was apparent that the two of them were kissing over my back. That seemed as unattractive as it ever did even while I fucked and sucked both of them! Then Billy pulled out. Oh I didn't want him to stop! "Oh!" I said. But, he stood as Joey pulled out of my mouth. "Joey's going fuck you now." They switched ends as Billy said, "Here. You clean me up now." And Joey had his hands on my hips before I could really react to that, pushing his cock into my now very open hole. "Oh," I exclaimed again, pushing back on this new cock sliding into me. I was faint and Billy's semi-hard cock was in front of me, wet and throbbing. I started licking and took it in my mouth. It tasted like it had been in my rectum, but that just made it more exciting. Joey's cock was bigger than Billy's and Billy's was pretty big! It was all I could do to keep taking it in - so to speak! He pushed and I pushed. Joey groaned, said, "You have such a beautiful, fuckable ass! I know you like this as much as me." He was breathing hard, "She likes to suck, too, doesn't she?" I sucked and licked Billy's cock like I couldn't get enough. I knew that holding his balls and using my tongue hard along the bottom of his cock would feel good, because I liked to do that to myself. "He's got talent - more than 20 dollars worth. Then Joey reached under and put his hand around my penis which had hardened again beyond anything I'd ever felt. It was electric and I came and came and still Joey's cock filled me, pounding and pulling and pounding in again. And he pushed faster until I thought he would rip me. I let go of Billy's cock and cried out as he came in my ass with that huge cock pushing in and out! Then he stopped and just pushed in a deeply as he could and pulled with his hands on my hips. "Oh, you did like that! He's kinda' big, isn't he?" I took Billy's cock in my mouth again and slid it in and out as hard as I could - I wanted him to cum in my mouth. He took my head with both hands and pushed my mouth on and off his penis harder and harder. I was getting worried that I would choke, but I swallowed as fast as I could and his cock went deeper into my throat! I was feeling every inch as it went in and out over my tongue. I opened my eyes and looked up just as he started to ejaculate. He moaned and pulled my hair and pushed his cock deep into my thoat, cum gushing! I was in a state of - I don't know what! I just sucked and stared at his pubic hair in front of me as he shot his load. I guess if was only 15 or twenty seconds, but it seemed like a lot longer as I held his cock in my mouth taking every drop and feeling every sensation. Joey had pulled out of me a minute earlier. I realized he had been locking lips with Billy over my head, but I had been too dazed to notice at the time. I was still dazed. He brought a towel "We should get you cleaned up and get you out of here. The night is young and you need to shake it off. It seemed like I had been there for hours and hours, but really it was slightly less than 2 hours! I could barely stand as my dress dropped back down my legs. "You, you want me to leave?" I sounded mindless - and I was at that point. It was like I couldn't understand what he was saying to me. "Nah, you should go with us to Mr. P's! You could use a glass of wine. And I could use a couple of shots!" said Joey. I saw Billy wink, he said, "We'll introduce you to some of our friends-" The door opened and a tall woman walked into the room. I say tall, but whe was my height, we were both wearing heels. She looked surprised and Billy said, "Oh, oh, here's the cops!" and laughed. "I'm Tammy and I can see I'm too late!" "Oh, geez!" said Joey. "Are you gonna take our new girl here under your wing and away from us?" I was smiling at their fussing. It was obvious that they were friends and I thought they were kidding around. Tammy came over to me and said, "Look me in the eye." I was still in a euphoric haze. Tammy continued, "I see they got you. Was it fun - you're so young. I was, too. But you have to realize - as much fun as you just had - You just got raped, big time. You didn'nt have any say in any of it, did you? Did you?" I just stared for a moment, then shook my head. "But, I didn't run! It felt soo, sooo..." "You probably couldn't have run if you tried. I could see it in your face as soon as I walked in that this is very new for you - these guys are rapists! Very gentle, very generous rapists. You need to get out of here right now, before you become something you can't get back from. I know it felt good, but you need to go and fit this into your life, so you'll still have a life - don't let this sink you, you'll have more fun that way." Tammy hugged me! And she gave me her phone number and to ld me to wait several days before calling - if I wanted. Then she pushed me toward the door! All these people want me to go out in broad daylight in a dress! "My clothes! They're in the bedroom." "I know when I'm licked," said Billy. He darted into the bedroom and brought my clothes. As he folded them, "You really are good; some boy is going to be thrilled! But, don't be afraid to come around here if you want." He handed me my clothes and a twenty dollar bill! "For the newspaper" and winked. Than he reached over and gave me a kiss on the lips. I was not really getting out of my daze, but could see that I could escape, and wasn't sure what I really wanted. "Billy! Stop that. Out, you! Go home and think about it." And then I was in the hallway walking to the elevator. The door slammed shut. I thought I heard laughter, but there was a man standing at the elevator and it was all I could do to stand there calmly as he looked at me and said "Hi." I said, "Hi" as the elevator door opened and two women suddenly stepped out, looking at me. I could see their eyes move down to look at my clothes and sandals. They just smiled and kept going. I realized that all these people just saw a young woman getting on an elevator. Whew!