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Fan Li was a minister who lived in China from 516BC to 442BC and served under Gou Jian, King of Yue. He wrote a famous book called "Golden Rules of Business Success" which is still in publication to this day, 2500 years later. Little known though, is another book that he wrote just a few years before his death, an interesting tale steeped in legends near his hometown, of war and beautiful women, deception and eventual retirement. So, one non-fiction work, and another clearly a fictional one, but one he claims to be a historical event. How can it be? Let us allow the master to tell us his story: Death has come for me, and I can feel it happening inside me, rotting the flesh underneath. I weary of this world, and nostalgia overpowers me when I look at anything and everything. I long for the past, and I despise the present. The very thing that has preserved me has become my prison. No. Prison is too harsh a word for this. I have enjoyed this thing too. But the day finally came when I can no longer rationalize the utterly different thing that I am inside to what I see when I look in the mirror. The time has come for me to end my time and release myself back unto the earth. But before I do what must, I have resolved to tell my tale here, in complete detail. I pray that future scholars do not edit and filter the more vulgar aspects of my tale, because such details are indeed needed to explain the things that I have seen and heard and most importantly, felt. Life is meant to be vulgar anyway. I shall begin when I turned twelve and embarked upon my first adventure, a necessary rite of passage into adulthood. It was early morning when I made my way up the side of the mountain, careful to follow the well-worn paths made by the goat herders who lived nearby. I was alone and the day was very cold. I took my father's sword with me, but it was scant protection against any bandit should they choose to attack me, for I'm not well versed in martial arts, and I'm just too small to fight a fully grown man. I took the sword because I felt assured by it, and because I could feel my father's presence. I do not know what I was supposed to do up here, all alone sans harbor in the cold and with neither food nor water. Mother was reluctant to send me away, but my uncle insisted that it would be good for my career in the future, something about having seen it in his dreams. The sun was high up in the sky and I began to feel hungry. I looked around for something to hunt, and a water source to quench my thirst and my search took me off the beaten path. I knew I was off the path, and I kept looking back at it, telling myself to never lose sight of it. And yet, it disappeared from my sight suddenly, while I was still looking at it! Now all around me was just grass and rocks, and sand, and of course, the cold wind and no path. I was not frightened, but I was very curious over how this had happened. I decided to run in one direction and hoped to intersect the path again somehow. This I did for a short while before I fell into a hole in the ground. It wasn't deep, but I hurt my left knee. I moved a little and the shaft of light from the hole above me illuminated the grazing the skin on my knee received. I was in a small cave and immediately I heard a sound. To my surprise, the sound was a young woman's voice, and she appeared from round a bend and looked at me in surprise, dropping the lantern that she held in her right hand. She was surprised to see a young boy in a cave out in the mountains, but I was awestruck by her great beauty. She was so beautiful that tears quickly welled up in my eyes, such were the feelings she drew from deep within me. No mortal woman could be so beautiful so I believed that I'd seen a fairy, especially a woman living in a cave all alone, out here in the mountains. She recovered quickly from her shock, picked the lantern up and came towards me, smiling at me, but I stood where I was, eyes wide with awe. "Are you okay, young boy?" she asked me, and I was now enthralled by her sweet crystalline voice. It was like she was singing a beautiful lullaby to me when she spoke. "Sister, are... you... real?" I asked her, stammering, and I had to force the words out of my own mouth. She smiled and I fell backwards and down onto my butt. She was even more beautiful when she smiled, sweet dimples forming upon her flawlessly fair cheeks. "Yes, I'm real, as real as you are," she replied. But she wasn't. Even in the dim lighting from the shaft of sunlight and the lantern in her hand, even though she was fully clothed, I could see that she was slim and shapely. She was not much taller than me, about 5 feet 5 inches tall, which was quite tall for a woman, so she looked very sleek. Her skin was fair, almost porcelain white, and certainly flawless, which gave a certain feeling of delicateness about her. She smelt incredibly fresh, with a mixture of scents which reminded me of nature, of flowers and mountainside herbs. The hand that held the lantern towards me was slim and petite, a thing of great beauty, each delicate finger a work of great art. I looked up at her again. She had the most beautiful face I'd ever seen, and this is still true even after I grew up and served under the King and I'm actually a very modest man otherwise, but I can compare, having seen his palace full of beautiful concubines from all over the land and beyond, the queen herself, six beautiful princesses, the consort of Prince Yue who was herself a great beauty from the South, the beautiful princesses and consorts and queens from all the other kingdoms around us. I didn't have much experience then as a twelve year old though, but I just felt like I was in the presence of divinity. "Are you a goddess?" I asked her. "No," she replied, "I'm just a normal girl." Normal? That she most certainly wasn't, even to the eyes of a twelve year old. She was divinity! "Then what are you doing here out in the wild? The nearest town is almost twenty lis from here," I asked her. "You're an intelligent boy, so I will tell you the truth before you get it out of me anyway," she said, smiling. She said she was a Princess where she came from. About two years ago, a powerful mage came and destroyed their land, and her family was scattered far and wide. She and three of her sisters ran for a long time, but the evil mage kept hunting them and eventually killed all her sisters. Now only she remained and has been staying here for the past couple of months, hiding from the evil man who was hunting her. I thought suddenly about what my uncle had said, and firmly believed now that it would be my destiny to protect a very beautiful woman and to save a kingdom and the first part of my destiny was already happening! "I'll protect you," I said firmly. She smiled and touched my chin with her soft and slim fingers. "You're so cute," she said simply, "I see no reason why I can't keep you around." I showed her my father's sword and told her a lie, that I was quite good at martial arts. She merely smiled at me. She was a very good cook. In the two days that I stayed with her, I ate heavenly dishes, the best I have ever eaten to this day, and I am one who has enjoyed the best the palace could serve the King! Sadly, the evil man found her just two days later, and even as I stood before him, brandishing my sword to protect her, the evil man laughed heartily that the whole cave seemed to shake to the sound of it. The beautiful Princess behind me ran away, leaving me to fight this evil man. I felt compelled never to let him pass. He came towards me with that large sword of his and I was sure I was dead that I closed my eyes for just a second, and that was all it took for him to pass me by and follow the Princess into the darker passages of the inner caves. I followed behind him, shouting as loud as I could, warning him against harming my beautiful Princess. The tunnels were dark and damp, completely dark and even as I stumbled my way through, I heard high pitched screams from the princess and it allowed me to follow them and not lose my way in the utter darkness. I heard a blood-curdling scream suddenly and I knew the Princess was hurt. I was amazed at how fast both the Princess and the Evil Man seemed to move ahead of me, as they were always out of sight. I saw on the ground of a small cave a trap laid by the evil man, and then I saw blood and a beautiful pair of petite female feet, cut off from the ankle down, one still wearing a tiny shoe of the softest silk that I recognized to be the Princess'. I felt the deepest rage then, and hurried as best as I could, following the trail of blood left by the stump of the Princess' legs as she ran away from her attacker, and by the occasional screams. However, by the time I came to the largest chamber of the network of caves, I saw the evil man standing behind the beautiful Princess. This chamber was well lit, as it wasn't really a cave. I could see trees high above me, and the shafts of light filtering through, along with water trickling down, and the cave echoed only this sound at this time. I looked at her and she looked at me for a short while and then I saw the sword that stuck out her chest. The evil man let her go suddenly and moved away. She stood shorter now and she stood upon her footless legs and it was amazing that she could still walk a few steps on the stumps. She staggered back and fell down suddenly, along with the sword that was still stuck in her body. I ran towards the big man and hacked at him with all my strength, but I could not inflict a single cut on his skin. It was like he was protected by some kind of magic. What was worse was the fact that he was completely ignoring me, just focused on ensuring that the Princess was dead! When all life finally left her, the evil man drew his sword from her body and finally turned his attention to me. By then, I was too tired to swing the heavy sword anymore. He merely held my father's sword with two fingers and snatched it from my weakening grasp. "Don't worry, young one, she is dead. She can't harm you anymore," he said. "Murderer!" I shouted, albeit weakly, as I was out of breath from exhaustion and I felt utter despair. "Murderer? Me? I'm a hero!" He announced. "Heroes don't kill helpless women!" I shouted, tears streaming down my cheeks. "This?" He laughed, pointing at the beautiful Princess' dead body. "Come I'll show you what this is!" He tore the Princess' dress at her back and from the knife wound behind her back, pulled out first a bushy colorful tail, and then a whole body of a rather huge fox! "This, young one, is a fox spirit. Haven't you heard of fox spirits in these parts?" he asked me, throwing the body of the large fox at me. It landed near me, its long snout full of sharp teeth near my right hand. I scrambled away from it, and then stared at it, amazed. "Maybe you haven't, so I will tell you. These fox spirits have been around for hundreds of years, maybe even thousands, and they have survived so long by feasting upon human hearts. I reckon she'd have eaten yours when you've become useless to her," he explained, "The beautiful woman you saw is an illusion, a false skin that they weave with magic to make themselves appear human and sometimes, to mingle among humans and to attract their victims. But most of these creatures are too vain and they make themselves too beautiful. That is why I find them to be the easiest targets!" I did not say anything, and continued to stare at the dead fox. "Come, young warrior," said the big man, who I knew now was not evil, "I'll lead you out of here. You shouldn't stay in such places for too long as there are other things worse than fox spirits." I took his hand, and got up and he led me all the way back to my house. Mother was pleased indeed to see me alive and my uncle did not say anything at all until the big man left us alone. And when he spoke, he told me that I would accomplish great things, because I've been visited by a God! I know it does not sound possible, this account of foxes and deities, but countless others have seen them and reported of the supernatural that exists outside of the comforts of our home. I may be twelve then but I had a good head and an honest heart, and have nothing to benefit from telling a lie or creating one and then believing it myself. Between the ages of twelve and twenty six, I spent my time learning things, first with my uncle, Mu Jun, who was adept at woodcraft and the art of divining the Will of the Heavens, and then with a travelling warrior-mage who saw the hidden 'third eye' upon my forehead that neither I nor anyone else could see. He spoke at length with my uncle about taking me to be his apprentice and my uncle asked me to follow him. I learned some martial arts from my master, and also some spells which I never used as I suspected that my master was merely a skilled magician and did not have any power at all beyond the natural world. It was while performing with this mage that we were invited to the palace to impress the King and his ministers and visiting dignitaries. There I met a man who would change my life forever - the Royal Tutor himself, Tsai Chi Cheng. He took me in and taught me everything I knew about politics, economy and warfare. Most of all, he thought me about personal sacrifice to the benefit of the country, and always, most importantly, to protect the ideals of the country. He himself had sacrificed his youth and family life in order to maintain the Kingdom of Yue, to ensure the ordinary millions of simple folk lived their lives happily. I was very diligent in my learning and was slowly taking on more important jobs, and then eventually, becoming a junior minister of education myself. I was twenty six the year the Kingdom of Wu threatened our borders. We went to war and Gou Jian , our King, was captured, imprisoned and tortured. He served King Fu Chai of Wu as a servant in his court for three years and during that time, we became a tributary to the Kingdom of Wu. King Gou Jian was released after three years and he returned beaten and humiliated. Still, he made some fresh appointments and brought in Wen Zhong and myself into the ministry and began to rebuild his Kingdom. We labored for ten years and all these while, the King lived as a peasant, eating what peasants normally ate, and sleeping on a straw mat. These actions I saw firsthand and I was deeply moved by the King's personal sacrifice. We worked hard to pay our tributes to Wu, while at the same time increasing our power. We wanted revenge but Wu was too powerful for us, and while their great general Wu Zi Xu lived, we will never be able to defeat them and be free again. One night, Wen Zhong had a dream, which from what little I learned from my uncle, I divined to be an edict from the Heavens. King Fu Chai was well known for his appetite for beautiful women, and was a sex addict. He built palaces for his concubines and fawned upon the prettiest. In his dream, Wen Zhong saw a woman of great beauty destroying the Kingdom of Wu from within. We made a plan to attack the only weakness we knew. I was sent to scour the land for beautiful women, and my inquiries led me to a young woman called Zheng Dan in a town call Ge Zhen. The first time I saw her, I was most impressed indeed, because she was very beautiful and as delicate as a flower. I fell in love with her at first sight. I felt misgivings in my heart, and for a time I wanted to run away with her, and to start a family together. I came to my senses though, and resolved to sacrifice my personal needs for the good of the country, so I brought her back to the palace and presented her to Wen Zhong. Wen Zhong took an immediate liking to her, as did every royalty and common man in court, so we felt a deep disappointment when we sent her away to the palace of the King of Wu. At the time, we were extremely weak as a kingdom, and barely existed as one, while chaos reigned. Local warlords and bandits alike wreaked havoc at our borders so we pleaded with the King of Wu to allow us to have a larger army to protect our lands. For 5 years, his answer was a strict "No!" After Zheng Dan's arrival at his palace though, King Fu Chai's answer changed, but only so slightly. This time it was still a "No!" but there was something else, an exception. The edict was simple and vulgar: "No, unless you can find me someone more beautiful than Zheng Dan, and a pleasure orifice as tight and pleasurable as hers." There! That is what I meant by the vulgarity of the times that I live in. So I plead again with future scribes and translators not to tone my writings down, and obscuring the truth in the process. "Better than Zheng Dan?" asked Wen Zhong and the other ministers. We knew immediately that the answer was as good as a "No!" then. After the intensive search the last time around, we knew there was nobody as beautiful as Zheng Dan in the land, and even if we did find one, we could never let her go, seeing how difficult it had been to send Zheng Dan away. I went home for the autumn festival and spent a few days with my mother, and sometimes I would while away my time looking outside, at the beautiful mountainside, thinking over the problems of the country. It was also during this time that I was introduced to Wen Xi, a daughter of another uncle. She was young and tall. Though she wasn't beautiful at all, she reminded me suddenly of the fox spirit up in the caves in the mountains all those years ago because of her relative height. I had an idea suddenly, though a desperate one. I told Wen Xi about the problems of the state, about personal sacrifices, and also about the fox spirit up in the mountains. I confided in her my plan, and that was for her to wear the skin of the fox spirit, become a great beauty, and bring about the fall of Wu. To my surprise, she agreed to my rather illogical and random plan. It was illogical because there were just too many things I did not know. I did not know if the skin was still there or if it was still in good condition after 22 years, I did not know if it could be won by a human, or if it needed some magical powers to pull it off. Still, I thought it was worth a try. I went up the mountains the same way, and managed to find my way to the hole in the ground where I fell so many years ago. This time I came prepared with torches and ropes. I climbed in slowly and found my way to the large chamber where the fox spirit had been killed twenty-two years ago. True enough, I found a skeleton of a large fox, and a human skin a few feet away from it. Even though I was present when the fox was killed, I still stood there awestruck for some time. It was too surreal. This belonged in a legend more than reality. I staggered to the human skin and saw that the skin was still perfect as ever, though covered with sand and dust. It looked real, like some human had their skeleton and flesh sucked out from inside them, leaving behind a deflated skin. I shivered as I bent down to pick it up and I could feel the soft smooth skin on it. Along with what clothing was left on it, the skin felt very light. I folded it and placed it into my hunting bag, and made my way back down the mountains to my home. I showed the skin to Wen Xi and frightened the hell out of her. She never saw me again, and in fact her family never contacted us ever again, even if they knew they could gain some favors from associating with a high ranking official of the palace. So there I was with the skin, with a deep and burning curiosity about it. It still looked real to me, but the hollowed-out face frightened me now. I decided to put it into a box and to give "her" a proper burial in the backyard. The days flew by and it was time for me to return to the city. We were waiting for my uncle to arrive for the sending off party but he never did. We heard that he and some of his family had been killed by bandits. I decided to stay back for a while to attend to matters and help the survivors. It was during this time that I urged my mother to return to the city with me, so that I need not worry over her safety, but she insisted upon staying in the house my father built for her, because she could always feel his presence. It was painful for me and I was extremely desperate. One night, I awoke with droplets of sweat all over my body. I could not sleep. The dream had no meaning but I knew I had to dig the skin out. I cleaned it with water and soap and was embarrassed even as I ran my hands over her soft skin. I hung the naked skin there upon the hook and was deeply attracted by the perfect round breasts. I realized suddenly that the 'wounds' the big man had inflicted when he killed the fox spirit were no longer there. Where there should have been a large hole at the front and back, there was now only perfect skin. Somehow the skin had healed itself! I had to see for myself and I took a blade and cut the skin at its back. Sure enough, within minutes, the wounds healed and the back of the skin looked perfect as ever. My heart began to beat furiously. Could such a skin really be worn? I decided that even if Wen Xi was frightened by it, surely we could find someone else who would be willing to wear it! But this idea needed confirmation. I cut the back of the skin again, this time a much longer cut. I decided to try to wear the skin myself so I stripped my own body naked, and slowly pulled the female human skin over my own skin - first the legs, and I was shocked to see my own two large feet pop out from the footless skin, the only part that had not healed. It was a contrast of smooth and rough skin, of fair and tanned skin. Yet, even as my own form filled the legs of the skin, I felt strangely attracted by the smooth hairless thighs that I had now. I shook my head when I saw my own male parts being obscured by female ones, and was not comforted despite the obvious bulge which told me my parts were still in there because the female parts looked extremely real! I pulled the rest of the skin up and over my head, as my hands made their way up the corresponding parts of the female skin, until I could feel my fingers fit in snugly into the fingers of the stretchy skin. I turned to look at a mirror and saw something which shocked me - I looked like a large man wearing a terribly stretched skin of a woman, like some gruesome insane murderer. I staggered backwards from the shock, fell backwards over a pot and knocked myself unconscious. When I awoke, I massaged the back of my head, and felt the softest hair. I pulled a strand before me and saw that it was long, fine and shiny. But that did not matter anymore for I was completely shocked. The fingers that held the strand of fine hair were slim and beautiful, and the hand fair and petite, rather than the large one I had before wearing the stretched skin. I was moving a beautiful hand that clearly belonged to a young woman! I held the hand wide before me, looked at the palm, and then at the back of the hand, and then along extremely slim wrists and lower arms all the way to the elbow - all smooth fine skin that really should belong to a young woman. "Heavens!" I spoke and stopped and held my throat. I was shocked by the softness of the skin at my throat and neck and even more shocked that my voice had changed. I sounded exactly the same as the fox spirit did all those years ago - my voice was clear and very sweet now, like an angel singing a delightful lullaby. I pushed myself up, and tried to sweep away the things at my chest by reflex, but they jiggled where they were instead of falling off, and I realized I had feelings upon those things. I stared at it for a long time, at breasts that grew out of my chest - so perfect and mesmerizing, its large nipples point out and slightly upwards. I stood up quickly and stilled my new breasts even as I looked at the mirror. The young woman that looked back at me in the mirror astounded me as she did twenty-two years ago in the caves in the mountains. I stood there, awestruck for a good while, and I saw her mouth hung upon even as my own did the same. I was clearly a woman now - an extremely beautiful woman, and she, was real again, real flesh and blood! She was naked, and there was a slight blush upon her sharp cheeks. She was very slim and yet very shapely because the fats on her body had been precisely measured and placed where they were needed by the Gods in heavens themselves, or by the vain fox spirit. Yet, I realized I was looking at myself, not at a woman, but it was difficult to believe that I stood where the young and beautiful woman in the mirror stood. I was aware suddenly that my own large form has been somehow reduced and changed to fit into the woman-sized skin that I wore now, so that her own perfect shape may emerge, except for her feet. I saw my own male large feet still protruding from where her delicate ankles ended, except that the contrast in the skin I noticed earlier had blurred somewhat. Seeing the pair of large feet did not calm me though. It still felt as if I no longer existed! My gaze fell upon the triangle of fuzz at the woman's crotch, and it was obvious from the way the crotch curved in sharply that the male bulge that I had under the skin earlier was completely gone now! I remember suddenly the eunuchs that the Royal Tutor had introduced to me. They were men, but I remembered being a little bit afraid of them, because of the way they moved and acted, and some because of their voices. I remember Ye Kan, the one who had been instructed to show me his naked crotch, so that I knew exactly how eunuchs were made. It shocked me and the imagery had stayed in my mind for a long time before happier times erased them from my head. That image returned to me presently. Ye Kan was one of the rare few to undergo complete castration, and that meant everything had been removed - the penis and both testicles. What remained was a mess of hair covering a large scar with the shape of a ball hovering above a butterfly. It stayed in my head that a man without his male parts was a eunuch. We conducted a study afterwards and found that the younger the eunuch was during his castration, the closer he resembled a woman, and some do indeed exhibit the vocal characteristics and the soft fine skin of women and even accumulate fatty tissue at their chests. So in a way, the study told us that women were men who never grew male organs. I looked up at the mirror again, and then at the crotch and I realized suddenly that even though my eyes told me I was a woman of rare beauty, my mind told me that I was a eunuch. I felt panic rise within me and I tried to get out of the skin immediately. I tried to feel for the opening at the back of the skin, but found that the cut I made earlier had healed itself, so that now all I felt was soft smooth skin at my back. I decided to cut myself out of the skin so I took a blade to make a cut behind my back, but my skin felt the cold tip of the blade and I wavered. Still, all I could think was to get out of the skin, so I pushed the blade in, cutting the skin upon my back. I screamed in pain and it was embarrassing because the voice that came out was so highly pitched! Once the blade reached the small of my back, I began to pull the skin apart, and I could feel my own male skin inside. I kept twisting, pushing and pulling until I manage to strip the female skin completely off my body. I felt no pain now, only relief. I found what I needed to at my crotch - what I had been born with - my penis and my testicles, all intact. I had not suddenly become a eunuch and it was a mighty relief indeed to know this for certainty! I thanked the Gods that I could still father children and continue our line, and do honor to my father. I stared at the skin on the floor for a long time, and was astounded by its magical properties. How did my uneven and tainted teeth become flawless white teeth? How did my gums turn pinkish and my tongue become so slim and sharp? Were there other skins like it somewhere? The fox spirit said she had three other sisters, so were they all also wearing skin such as these? I sat down on my bare ass and thought for a while. I needed to. I knew now that the skin should be used to save my country. The problem now was in finding the right woman who would be willing to wear it and know exactly what to do while in the court of the King of Wu. The other problem being that nobody must know about the skin. My mind lingered upon a third problem but I did not manage to frame it properly at the time. It was only when I awakened that I realized that I did not know how the skin influenced the perception of people about the wearer. Did it merely just fool the wearer about his appearances? Apparently, not, because I was fooled while the fox spirit had worn it. How many people could it fool at a time? One? Two? A Dozen? How many? I realized suddenly that I had to put it to a test. The fate of our kingdom depended upon its ability to fool a whole enemy kingdom! I returned to the caves and retrieved some of the female clothing that that the fox spirit had worn, particularly the ones made of finest silk that could last so long in the dampness of the caves. I wore the skin again, and waited for the wound at the back to heal, for my form to shrink and for the true shape of the female skin to emerge completely. It was amazing when I unfolded the female clothing because while they had seemed so small before, now I could wear them very comfortably. The only item of the fox spirit I could not wear were her tiny shoes, as below her ankles were my own large male feet. It was so small that I had to be a lad of about ten to twelve to be able to squeeze my feet into them. So in the end, I wore my finest shoes instead, and hoped the long dress could cover up that part. My idea was to go out into town as a woman, and see how many of the townsfolk I could fool. The moment I appeared at the gates of the town, activity seemed to stop and center on me. Everybody stared at me and there was no way I could tell if they were staring at a woman of great beauty or an insane murderer wearing the skin of his victim. They were all obviously stunned. I was thankful then, when a child called out suddenly from the gathering crowd, asking her mother, "Is she a fairy Princess?" That seemed to start a chain reaction. The mother answered, "No, of course not!" Then the woman beside her remarked, "She's a foreigner." And then a man beside her said, "She's very beautiful. I'm in love!" before being hit on the head by the woman beside him. That seemed to release something within the crowd, as some continued their tasks while continuing to look back at me and others followed behind me, wondering where I was going to. I stopped at a shoe stall and decided that I should get female shoes large enough to fit my own male feet. The proprietor stared at me for a long time, before stooping down to measure the length of my feet, and that seemed to create a stir in the crowd behind me. "Beautiful lass," said the man, "I don't have shoes large enough for your feet!" "What's the biggest that you have?" I asked and the quality of my female voice seemed to stun the man and he remained silent for a long time. "Well? What's the largest that you have?" I asked. "Oh. Uh. I have some male shoes that would fit, but I don't think you'd want to wear them. I guess your shoes would have to be specially made! If you can come back in a day, I will make one beautiful pair for you, I promise!" he replied. "I will," I replied and went on my way. I did not return home immediately though, as I stayed as long as possible out in town to see if anyone could tell that I wasn't who I seemed to be. I ate, and was astounded that meat tasted different to me now that I'm wearing a female skin, and the wine tasted terrible. I had loved the wine served here previously. By evening, I was certain that the skin fooled everybody, so I made my way home only then. Over the next few days, I conducted my field study of the female skin a few times, and was finally convinced. Unfortunately, the appearance of a great beauty in town did not go unnoticed and not only attracted a local bandit king into town, but some important officials from the surrounding districts. I decided to end my tests here and to move on to some other town. I created a personality for the beautiful woman I became when I wear the skin and gave her a name - Xi Shi. Over time, her fame grew; a great beauty with large feet as her only flaw. The fact that they focused on my large feet annoyed me somehow, but only while I wore the skin. When I don't, it amuses me intellectually. What was it about our society that a woman had to have delicate feet? It led me to question myself, because as a man, I preferred women to have petite feet myself. Why is that? I went back to the mountains, and found the pair of feet that once belonged to the fox spirit. The skins were still inside the shoes that were stuck in the trap. I took both and returned home. The next time I wore the female skin, I wore the feet skins as well, and when the wounds at my back healed, the feet skins were reunited with the edges of the female skin at the ankles. Xi Shi was whole again and extremely happy at having such beautiful and petite feet. I felt perfect and easily slipped the petite pair of beautiful feet into the tiny shoes I had taken from the abode of the fox spirit. One evening, I returned home late because I'd travelled to a farther town, and I felt so tired that I slept overnight in the female skin, the first time I'd ever done. And when I awoke the next day a woman, I felt a strange feeling come over me. I looked in the mirror and was pleased to see Xi Shi smiling back at me, her beautiful young face glowing healthily. And that was when I realized what must be done. Could I do it? Could I sacrifice my male self and be this woman who would save a Kingdom? My thoughts went back to what my uncle had foretold many years ago. The strange thing was - it took me being a woman a few times to realize that I could not depend on another woman to pull off what was needed. I could only trust myself not to be seduced by the trappings of extreme riches that the court of King Wu promised any woman lucky enough to be his prized consort. But being a woman and a man in a woman's skin were two very different things. For one, I'm still attracted to women. I'm not attracted to men like some of the eunuchs were. And I'm certainly not frivolous or chatty enough, nor have I spent all my life growing up into womanhood. I do not know enough to be a woman. And yet, Xi Shi's face smiled back at me from the mirror, and she seemed to be confident enough. She should be. I took Xi Shi off and became Fan Li again, an officer of the court. I returned to the palace and informed Wen Zhong of the great beauty I'd discovered and told everyone that I'd sent for her. A short while later, I retired from my position and disappeared completely from the face of the earth, while one of the most beautiful women in the history of China made her grand appearance in the court of King Gou Jian. Yes, I am she. I spent six months in the palace as Xi Shi, and I discovered that I could bleed like a real woman. I remember being very surprised and utterly disgusted with the smelly blood and stuff that came out from within me, being utterly disgusted with being a woman, and desperately wanting to be a man again, even for just one day, anything to get away from the depression of being a woman whenever I had periods. But to do so was highly dangerous, for discovery would lead to almost certain death for me and my extended family for cheating the king and his royal court, so I remained steadfast and remained Xi Shi. I'd come out on the other end of a woman's period feeling greatly refreshed though, and my cheeks would blush and my skin glow healthily. Even though I was not a concubine, the King spent a lot of time with me. And it was during these moments that I felt extremely fearful for my life. I knew he had fallen for me. But if he knew the truth, I would lose my head, and those of my extended family. The King displayed remarkable restraint though, as our meetings did not go beyond talking and laughing. I discovered the potent jealousy of women though. Thankfully, Ye Kan, the eunuch that had shocked me long ago with his naked crotch, discovered poison in my cup, and it was eventually traced to Mu Hua, a beautiful woman of twenty-three years who had been the King's favorite concubine for the past three years. I felt sorry for her when they chopped off her beautiful head as punishment. She had underestimated my importance to Yue, and over-estimated her own importance in court. I'd learn from the best tutors the King employed, improving my diction, my skills at singing, and dancing, and the arts in seducing men, everything a concubine needed to know in those days. For six months, I spent my time learning to be the perfect woman, while deep inside me, the man within me became desperate for sex, and I discovered later that it was because I'd also fallen deeply in love with Xi Shi, the woman I'd created from burying my own male self; deep under the female skin that once belonged to a fox spirit. I'd dream of making love to Xi Shi, and then waking up to find that I'm her instead. It is desperately depressing, and I became unhappy. The King and the ministers believed that I was unhappy because the day drew near when I must be sent to the Kingdom of Wu. They were reluctant to send me to Wu, but I insisted upon it, and the mood in the palace resembled a funeral the day I set my petite feet into the carriage that was to bear me away to the Kingdom of Wu. I remember the courtiers helping me to dress up in a beautiful dress specially made for Xi Shi's beautiful slim body, and I remember slipping my dainty feet into the softest insides of the most delicately embroidered silk shoes. I wore a beautiful crown and my already long hair that surprisingly grew longer over the six months, was arranged neatly and pinned with diamond studded pins. I looked every inch a princess, Xi Shi's already beautiful face made up with special make-up imported from faraway lands. After three days of travelling, my retinue arrived at the capital of Wu, and we were led into the palace immediately. I had to transfer from the carriage to a palanquin, and when I stepped out of the carriage, I realized the people outside had been waiting expectantly to see my face. Xi Shi's fame had spread to the palace of King Fu Chai. However, they were disappointed because I was wearing a headgear that allowed me to veil my face. They probably thought I was not as beautiful as believed, since my own feet now were not as large as Xi Shi's was reputed to be. Still, every pair of eyes followed me as I was led by the palace courtiers into an exquisite palanquin. A hush fell when the palanquin stopped and I knew immediately that something was happening. I heard footsteps quickly departing, and then I saw a hand parting the beads hung at the entrance of the palanquin. It was a large hand, almost as large as my own male hands, but much, much larger now than Xi Shi's dainty ones which I reached out with to hold the offered hand. The hand gripped my female hands firmly, and yet very gently. I was not pulled out, but rather, gently coaxed out by the gentle tug of it. I stepped out one leg at a time, and stood up to my full height, and looked up at the King's eyes looking down at me with great anticipation. In a way, I'd already gotten used to being this tall, a woman's height, during the past six months. I was a tall man, but once I crept into this skin, I became a tall woman, but a woman nevertheless, and that meant I was shorter and smaller than the average man. But what I could not get used to was the feeling of being in a weaker position, and the feeling of needing some kind of protection from some kind of perceived impending harm. In short, I felt insecure being physically so much weaker. This feeling was amplified now. I stood before the King of Wu. Thankfully, I remembered protocol and knelt down immediately, paying my respects to the King. "May the King live for ten thousand years," I heard Xi Shi's beautiful voice escape my lips. The King heard that too and he laughed, and I could sense that he was now very impatient. Still, he played the role of the gentle monarch perfectly. He told me to rise and I arose as demurely as I could, every move now a practical of the lessons I learned from the masters back in the Kingdom of Yue. I curtsied, and replied per the standard protocol, "Thank you, my King." The King bent forward, and I saw his hand move up to my face, lifting up the veil that hid my face. I saw his eyes widen as he beheld my face directly for the first time. It was a strange thing to see such an evil man with tears welling in his eyes, and completely silent for some time. He held my chin with his forefinger and thumb, and lifted my face so that I looked up at him directly. He was a handsome young man but I was not really a woman. But I had to act as if I was also taken in by his greatness so I pretended to swoon, just a little, enough to make him react and hold me firmly to prevent me from falling down. "Take a sit, my Princess," he said and guided me to a throne fit for a queen. "I'm not a Princess, my King. I'm just a commoner from Yue," I replied. The King laughed, and the tears that had been welling up in his eyes streamed down his cheeks. These tears of joy he wiped away quickly and then he sat down beside me and simply stared at me intently for a while. It was unnerving. I hadn't expected this. I did not know what to do. Did he know who I really was underneath this fa?ade? "What are you doing, sire?" I asked finally when I could bear it no longer. "I'm recording this moment in my mind," he replied, "the moment a commoner ascends to become a Princess. Worry not, my love, I have made you a Princess already... my princess." My love? My princess? Already? I thought at the time. I struggled not to scoff out loud. Instead, I had to pretend to be amazed with the offer. I opened my eyes wider to feign surprise. "Don't be surprised, my love," he continued, "I'm a generous king. You may have heard bad things about me from where you come from, but that's only natural. Wu is the enemy of Yue, and will always be. But I'm a good man at heart, as you will soon find out!" My love? How presumptious! I thought. But that's how Kings are. They are never rejected. They just take what they want. And this is exactly what happened next. He bent forward and kissed me on my lips, shocking me greatly. He moved away and waited for me to respond, but instead I stared at his face in shock. What did I expect? I should have known what would happen once I volunteered myself. That I hadn't thought about this moment told me how ill-prepared I was to be a woman. I should have expected the King to kiss me, no, not only to kiss me, but dear heavens, to make love to me! I felt my knees weaken suddenly but thankfully I had a chair beneath me. I closed my eyes to think. I needed to think fast. Most of all, I needed to compose myself quickly! I was not ready! Think, think, think! But I could not think at all. I opened my eyes again and I saw the King smiling down at me, holding a hand out to me. "Come with me, my love. I will show you around my capital," he smiled. What he meant of course, was, that he would show his people his latest conquest. The people in the city did not cheer immediately when they saw me the first time. Instead, there was an unnerving silence. I looked down from the parapet and saw faces looking back up at me in awe. "Go on, my love. Wave to them," said the King beside me, and I did as bade. I waved and saw the fair and slim hand waving in front of me, and immediately, the people below began to cheer. Still, it was not comfortable at all, and I feared the one wandering mage who might discern the man inside the woman's skin being somewhere amongst the crowd below. I was led back inside, shown around the palace grounds, dined, and then I was inside the King's bed chambers. I wished he would leave me alone, but the part of me that was Fan Li, told me that this was precisely what was needed to weaken the Kingdom of Wu. Still, I desperately wanted to be alone. He was coming on to me too strongly, and I sensed that he could no longer control his powerful lust. I was not ready at all to be a woman, let alone a woman who was about to let the king rape her. But I realized I was in an avalanche that I could not stop, and things had moved beyond my control. I would either be swept along or swept under. He kissed me on my lips again, and this time, I kissed him back. The conditioning by the Royal Tutor helped me. I'd told them that I, or rather, Xi Shi, hated the King of Wu and would be revolted by the sight of him, and the Royal Tutor himself put me into a sleeping trance and did something to me. He told me about it afterwards, that I would be able to control my revulsion. This I did and did not vomit all over the King even as I kissed him sensuously. I felt deeply revolted kissing a man and felt deeply embarrassed by it. I'd dishonored my father as a son, even as I'm sacrificing myself for my country. There was more to come. I felt his hands come up to my breasts, only for a short time, but enough to tell me what was to come next. I felt his hands begin to peel away the layers of my female clothing, and it took me a lot of energy to restrain myself from stopping him violently and to continue seducing him sensuously, moving this female body gently, rubbing the female skin of my thigh with his thigh. I had to show him that I wanted him while keeping my natural revulsion at bay. He could not bear it any longer when he could not gently peel so he tore my dress off desperately. Now I stood before him completely naked and he stepped away and admired my naked body. He staggered backwards a couple of steps as his eyes looked at every inch of my body lustily, amazed at how perfectly beautiful Xi Shi's body really was under all that clothing. He tore his own royal robes off and was naked before me now as I was before him. I could see that his penis was already hard and big, though not as big as mine was when I was last a man six months ago. But I had no reason to be happy now with this fact, as I did not have one physically for all intents and purposes, as I genuinely believed that my own penis ceased to exist completely whenever I wore the female skin - I was a woman even inside me and that was why I could bleed as one. He bridged the gap between us quickly and embraced me tightly, and whispered into my ears, "I've been waiting for you all my life." And then he licked my ear, then my neck and kissed me again. Again, it took a lot of energy to stop myself from vomiting from the sheer revulsion. My life was balanced upon a knife's edge here. React badly and I would have ruined Yue's last chance. React well and I would probably ruin myself permanently. This was the moment of sacrifice I had probably known must come. It's just too bad that no one will ever know how much of a sacrifice the man known as Fan Li had to make to save his country, never to be feted as a hero. With deep regret, I chose to react well and I kissed the King back sensuously, per my training over the past six months. He put both arms around my back and lifted me up, and I curled both my long svelte female legs around his waist, not instinctively, but intentionally to continue seducing him. I almost jumped when I felt it, the tip of his penis, touching the sensitive lips that I now possessed at my crotch. I could have vomited again, but I didn't. The choice had already been made. To combat the natural revulsion that I felt, I did something even more revolting. So, instead of vomiting, I began to stroke my sensitive lips down there against his penis. Something happened then, and I felt something ripple all over my body. I felt my nipples stiffen. He dropped me gently onto the bed now and started playing with my breasts, licking each sensitive nipple in turn. It felt very good indeed and I began to feel some of my muscles tightening and others relaxing, and sometimes I had uncontrollable spasms. I realized that something had changed very suddenly, and I stopped feeling revulsion completely. Instead, I began to enjoy every single touch upon my sensitive female skin. I felt a finger at Xi Shi's womanhood, and I knew it was already very wet. I cursed him at that moment and hated him more than ever, for he could do something I physically could not, and that was to make love to my beautiful girl, Xi Shi. Though I cursed him and hated him, I was no longer revolted. Instead, I welcomed him inside me, even as his penis tore my virgin flesh, and I began squeezing tightly his manhood for all its seed. I became a woman completely, and moaned like one as he pumped into me furiously. His naked body slumped over mine, and our sweat co-mingled. We had our orgasms - his was a typical male one, while mine was something that scared me - a female orgasm that took complete control of my body and my mind. I found myself smiling even as I closed my eyes and shed tears involuntarily. He slept while I stared at the ceiling in complete bliss for a long time. I was no longer thinking. The sexual fires that had been building inside me had been quenched, with me on the wrong side of the sexual divide! Sometime later, I started crying as my own male mind recovered from the trauma that I had put it through. I knew immediately that I'd done irreversible damage to my male psyche by making love as a woman, instead of to one. I turned to look at the man lying peacefully beside me, smiling even as he slept. I knew I was the one that had made him happy, and my shame hit me hard and repeatedly like a blunt hammer at a smithy, each hit changing me, reshaping me. I had shamed my ancestors and my father for what I did and I began to cry uncontrollably. It was very confusing and my first real thought was to kill the King while he slept beside me peacefully like a baby. But I knew I shouldn't, even if I couldn't find a good reason then not to. It was only a while later that I realized that killing him there and then would result in all-out war between the Kingdoms and with Yue being so weak, there was only going to be one terrible outcome. Instead, I got out of bed, and covered the King up gently with a blanket. I picked up the dress I had worn here but it was useless now, as some parts had been completely torn apart. I walked over to table and began preparing green tea for his royal highness, whilst being completely naked. I noticed that I was bleeding slightly down at my womanhood, and realized that I haven't noticed all these while that Xi Shi had been a virgin! But even as I looked at it, the tear began to heal by itself and I did not feel the slight pain that I had felt earlier. I was a virgin again! I cursed the King's good fortune again, and hoped that something good would come out at the end of all this, hopefully with the King of Wu losing completely the power he now held over the Kingdom of Yue. It was then that the King awoke from his slumber. He saw what I was making and he hurried over, bent down and kissed me on my forehead. I smiled back at him, and again tears welled up in his eyes. Even he could not believe his own luck - the luck of the victorious king. He saw my torn dress on the floor and smiled at me. He whispered into a hollow tube and a short while later, servants were already at the door waiting for instructions. To my surprise, he allowed them in, even while we were both naked. "These two will be your maids from now on, my beloved Xi Shi. They will lead you into the attached chamber to be cleansed and then they will dress you up properly. They will attend to all your needs, my love," said the King even as he began to wear his own clothes and then his royal robe. He sat down and faced me, and then he trustingly drank the tea that I had made for him. After that he left me alone finally and I looked up at both the young women who were presently staring at me in complete awe. They were both pretty lasses but I found it very hard to look at them, after what I'd just done. I did not understand this feeling then, but now I think it was because I felt completely impotent, totally emasculated and embarrassed. "What are you two doing?" I asked them when I realized that they had not moved an inch and were looking at me in some kind of a trance. "I'm sorry, your highness," said the first one, recovering, "but we've never seen anyone so... so perfect in every way before... your highness has a beautiful body!" Just then something clicked in my mind, and I realized that both women were deeply envious of my body. It showed in their eyes. "I'm sorry," said the other, "we are here to attend to all the needs of your highness. Besides a bath and fresh clothing, is there anything else that your highness wants?" I thought of having sex as a man for a short instance, to do something, anything, a man normally did to prove that he is one, but I felt no attraction to either of the girls. "No," I replied instead, "I'll just have a bath." They led me to the bath, and I did not have to do anything as the girls soaped my body up, and cleansed every inch of my soft smooth skin. It made me think that I was right to trust no other woman to do this job of bringing about the fall of Wu. If some other woman had been in my place, she might actually be seduced to such luxury and betray Yue. After a while, I thought to myself again. Some other woman? I'm a man! After I was dry, they clothed me up in a red silk dress that felt so comfortable to my female skin. I was taken to my chambers and introduced to the other concubines. It was then that I realized with horror that I have actually become a concubine to King Wu. Needless to say, the reactions of the concubines were varied. Some didn't care at all, while some were merely jealous about my looks, but a couple of the concubines, the beautiful twins, obviously hated my presence. I immediately deduced that these two were the current favorites of the King, and it made me wonder what had happened to Zheng Dan as I did not see her amongst the concubines. "I know of my country-woman that came here before me, where is she now?" I asked the maids, who were both as tall as I was in this female form. "Zheng Dan?" asked one. "Yes," I replied. "She has been ill for the past three months," replied the other. "Ill? Where is she?" I asked, concerned. "She is in her chambers most days. Why?" asked the other maid. "Take me there immediately, I have to see her," I said, remembering that once a long time ago, I had considered taking her to be my wife! They showed me Zheng Dan's chamber and I entered alone. It was dark inside. I heard soft moans. "Zheng Dan?" I called out. "Who is it?" she replied from her bed weakly. I was tempted to tell her that I have come to rescue her. "I'm Xi Shi, your country... woman." But I remembered suddenly that she wouldn't recognize me in this new form of mine so I tried to break the ice by making a joke. "I'm the King's newest plaything," I said. It made her laugh though. "That's very frank of you to say that," she replied. "I'm just stating the obvious," I replied. "I'm sorry about the darkness in my room. Could you do me a favor and light the candle? The maids have gone for the day," said Zheng Dan. I lit the candle and I could see Zheng Dan's face again after all this time. She looked terribly pale and her lips were bluish in color. But when she saw me, she smiled and said, "Ah. Am I finally dead?" "Shhhhhhh," I hushed her, "You're not dead. Whatever made you say such a terrible thing?" I admonished her. It was a terrible thing to say at a terrible month, the seventh month. "Well, you can't be a mortal woman, that's for sure. Are you a fairy come to help me escape this mortal coil?" she asked me. I realized that it was my looks that confused her. I felt the same way the first time I saw this face all those years ago. "I told you that I'm the new plaything, Zheng Dan," I replied, "I'm in the same situation as you are." She laughed, but feebly. "No, you're not. It is obvious that you are not. You're too beautiful to be a mere concubine. You will be his queen one day." "Do you hate me for that?" I asked her, surprised at this strange question that had popped up in my head. "No, I don't. I just want to go home before I die," she replied weakly. It was then that tears welled up in my eyes again and streamed down my cheeks. I was normally able to control my emotions as a man, but not while I wore this female skin. I felt utterly sad and sorry for her. "What ails you, Zheng Dan?" I asked her. "It is obvious, isn't it? I've been poisoned by the twins. Everyone knows it, and I think the King knows it too. He likes his women to fight for him, and I think the twins have finally won his favor. So they will not be punished. If I were you, I would be very careful," replied Zheng Dan. "Do you know what kind of poison it is?" I asked her. "Yes, it's slow to act and I will die eventually from it. But really, I don't care. I have no desire to live anymore," replied Zheng Dan before she gradually drifted off to sleep. I felt deep hatred for the twins outside suddenly, that they could do this to a fellow woman. ***** The next morning, I was called to attend to the King again, and he took me outside the city walls to admire the beautiful countryside. I tried to talk to him about Zheng Dan but he ignored me whenever I mentioned her name. Eventually I could not control myself anymore, and I was all the more embarrassed for it, because it was such a feminine outburst and I pouted for real. "Will you do the same to me one day?" "Alright, I will have her cured. Can we enjoy this trip now?" he asked, smiling and drinking his wine. That calmed me down instantly and I sat back and relaxed. I nodded in answer to his question. He reached a hand out to touch my chin, smiling as he said, "A smile please, my beloved?" I smiled back at him sweetly of course. "I brought you out here today to tell you that I have granted your country its wish to enlarge its security forces in order to protect your borders. Are you happy to hear this?" he asked. I was surprised with his candor. "I'm not really interested in politics," I replied. "Do you know what the punishment for lying to the King is?" he asked me, smiling. I was caught by surprise by the King this time. He was on to me somehow! Before I could say anything, he continued, "I have spies in Yue that tell me you spent the last six months in the palace learning all the tricks to be a successful concubine. Surely your king has sent you on a mission of some kind, right?" "I was told that my mission was an important one and that I had to learn diligently to succeed in my mission. My mission was to please you, your highness," I replied, "So that you can grant the King of Yue his wish. That's all I know!" The King laughed out loud and patted me on my head. "No other covert missions then?" he asked me. I shook my head innocently. "You have pleased me indeed, my beloved. More than I ever thought was possible. And thus, I have granted my servant his wish," he replied and then he kissed me on my lips suddenly. "Bear in mind though, the King of Yue is too soft to be a king and will never amount to anything!" he added when our lips parted. "That's beautiful," I said suddenly, spying a large bunch of colorful flowers. It was a strange reaction on my part, but something made me say it. It was weirder for the fact that I was genuinely intrigued by their beauty and scent. "I'll get them for you," replied the King and he stopped the retinue and picked the flowers for me himself. I smelled the flowers and I realized that it was something about having a woman's nose that allowed a woman to appreciate nature more than men ever could. "Thanks, I like these," I replied. We continued some distance into the countryside and stopped by an army camp which he said was the main camp for the army for the Kingdom of Wu. I did not believe him at first, but I did when I was introduced to the famous general Wu Zi Xu. Immediately I knew what must be done, but first I had to strengthen my own position first. We returned to the palace and the emperor returned to his court duties, while I paid Zheng Dan another visit. Who would think that such a beautiful girl who should have been happy with her life would now want to die? In other circumstances, she could have been my wife by now, had I followed my instincts and ran away. I could have been a very happy man indeed. But no, I had to be the hero that nobody will ever know about, and now we are both beautiful concubines to the King of Wu. "There's really no need to be concerned about me, Xi Shi," said Zheng Dan when she saw me, "You should focus all your efforts on yourself and make the most out of what God has given you." "I will get us out of here, I promise," I replied. She laughed and changed the topic suddenly. "I've heard some stories about you before you came here, Xi Shi. Now that I've seen you, I think the stories were real indeed!" she said. "What stories?" I asked. "The one where you stunned some fishes and sunk them," she replied, "Tell me about it?" She held out her petite hand to me, and I was still surprised, after all these while, to find that my own hand was now as small as hers. "It was probably all a trick of the eye. I was in a town, doing a study when my silk kerchief fell onto the muddy road. I took it to a nearby stream to wash it. Now this stream had lots of carps in it and would normally approach a stranger's hand expecting food, and it did so at first. But when I got closer, the carps seemed to forget to swim and sank down into the waters. Some passers-by saw this and thought that my beauty had stunned the fishes, but I think the fishes were merely surprised by me getting closer and blocking the sunlight," I explained. "I prefer the legends, Xi Shi. It hints of a better world," replied Zheng Dan, "Tell me another." I told her a few tales that I knew before she fell asleep again. I returned to my chambers after that and within an hour, the King had sent for me again. We dined together, and it was really fine cooking, but done differently than back home. I enjoyed the food though I could not eat as much as when I was a man, I could only eat small female portions since I wore the female skin, and even if I could, I had a figure to look after. The fate of a whole kingdom depended on me being a great beauty of the era. We talked about history and warfare afterwards, and the King was impressed by how much I knew compared to the average women. I was almost boasting by then that I was tutored by the Grand Tutor of Yue himself, before I restrained myself. And then he read a poem he wrote himself, about me and my great beauty and how it has affected him deeply, all very vulgar but true, and I almost laughed out loud, except that I didn't. I smiled at him and unwillingly gave him a soft peck on his lips instead. He grabbed me firmly and kissed me back. We started kissing again, and this time it was easier to control my natural revulsions. He liked having his tongue inside my mouth and this time I allowed him more freedom. I realized that I hadn't needed all that training to seduce a man after all, as the great supernatural beauty the fox spirit's skin gave me and my body a natural ability to turn a man on as easily as turning a page on a book. We were very quickly naked again, and he was licking the sensitive skin all over my body. The revulsion went completely away aga