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Firstly I must apologize for the delay in adding to this story. Only real life happenings have to take priority such as work and the house etc, leaving less time for other things like indulging in my sissy fantasies and thoughts. When I started writing I didn't realize it was going to intrude as much as it has in my everyday life. But I do want to write more of this story and hope someone out there is reading it and hopefully enjoying it as I am writing it and wishing. = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = Waking up to a New Life. Ch8 by Matthew. ||||||||||||||||||||||||||| I lay smiling happily listening to the serene violin music still playing softly in my ears, suddenly realized I had been hearing the same soft female voice speaking ever so quietly to the music. As I listened closely I knew I'd been hearing the same words over and over as the violin played telling me, "Lobelia you are nothing but a feminine sissy and always been." I know I'm only a sissy so why does this woman keep telling me what I already know. I could only lie there now consciously listening to this woman's calm hypnotic voice telling me how much I love wearing beautiful silks and satins as only a sissy like myself can and must at all times, my wrist were still restrained as I began wetting my diaper yet again. Unfortunately the adorable sissy images had ceased to shine above, but definitely not from my mind when the door opened. "Good morning Lobelia how is our little sissy this morning? You are looking very happy lying there and wide awake already?" nanny said walking towards my bed. "Good morning nanny I'm listening to some violin music Mummy had me listen to over night, it is so soothing and makes me feel so much a pretty sissy." I took delight in telling her. "That is because you are one very pretty sissy Lobelia, now how are we under here?" as she pulled back the duvet to let her hand go under my cream satin nighty to inspect one wet diaper. "I don't seem to be able to go through the night without wetting myself, can I?" "Now you know why you still have to wear diapers, maybe once your restrains are no longer and you can get yourself up in the night, we'll see then if you can learn to stay dry or not. Won't it be strange not wearing diapers to bed after all this time?" she said while releasing my wrists. "Have I always worn diapers?" I asked not remembering anything lately. I just got a lovely smile and sweet kiss to my forehead, while saying what a good sissy Lobelia is. Another thing I hadn't noticed about nanny before was the delicate fragrance of the perfume she wore. Today she is wearing the soft grey silk blouse with a three strand pearl choker necklace, which is something new to her outfit or is this something I also hadn't noticed before. "Will I be wearing my new bra and makeup today?" I had to know. "Why of course you will, you liked wearing your bra and makeup yesterday, didn't you?" a smiling nanny asked. "Oh yes I do want to wear them always now, will you do my makeup for me as well?" "We'll see, but we better get you cleaned up first don't you think?" With the donning my fluffies and offering my hand ready to be escorted to my en-suite. After my morning bathroom duties and breakfast were completed it was back to the bedroom this time to be shown how to fasten my own suspender belt behind me which took a few attempts before mastering it. Now came the thrilling part learning how to roll up and ease these DIVINE sheer stockings gently and graciously up each enthused leg to be attached to the four tassels hanging freely from my waiting suspender. Once I had the suspender and stocking mastered, the exhilarating thrill of fastening one petite satin and lace trimmed training bra around my own breast followed, which took quite a few attempts before mastering its little hooks and eyes. For some reason I found myself caressing over each flat cup as if I had little bosoms that were in need of gentle loving attention, one couldn't help noticing how my nipples seem to be getting more and more sensitive each day. Without saying a word nanny stood watching every little touch I made over my bra, but I can't help it, it feels just so right to be wearing this exquisitely feminine article over my taut vulnerable titties. With my mind still focussed on the bra, another skin was being rolled up the length of my erect peepee; at least it didn't intrude on the stunning bright pink bow which then got tied around its base, in turn helping my cherries and peepee standout prominently. As much as I don't mine wearing a rubber, I was getting concerned this might become a regular occurrence now I'm wearing proper sissy panties so had to ask, "Nanny, will I be wearing a rubber all the time now?" "No Lobelia, maybe for a few days or a week till your Mummy has that little peepee properly under control. We don't want dribbles on our lovely panties do we dear?" she informed me. Leaving me more concerned now, wondering what she meant by 'little peepee under control', I wanted to ask, but somehow a little frightened of what the reply might be, best to wait and see I think. The panties nanny held ready for me to step into this morning were not pantaloons but 'normal' sissy panties as there being plenty of room for my dressed up peepee to sit prettily without being squashed. They were in a fine white sheen with a good couple of inches of fancy white lace cascading from the waist and at least three inches from each leg openings, sitting just as pretty above the lace at the front of the leg openings and waist a two inch wide bright pink satin bow letting there streamers hang to the edge of the lace. I didn't know what to say, yes the panties looked so silky soft and so feminine, only if my skin encased peepee wasn't standing proud with its darling bow showing so shamelessly through. "Don't they look adorable Lobelia with your peepee now on show?" I got asked with a lovely smile. "Yes they do look lovely, at least my pants will hide my erection won't they?" I also thought, at least the lace won't be on show below the legs of my pants this time I hope. While watching nanny take a white satin camisole from its hanger, I had to ask if I really needed to wear one now as I'm wearing a bra. The answer to that was, yes I do or I won't stop touching or looking in the mirror at ones lovely bra. Even trying to explain how Cindy liked looking at it also, was no help as she held the camisole out waiting two arms to be guided lovingly through. Thankfully you could see the lace outline of the bra through the two inches of the delicate laced bodice of the ravishing camisole along with the shoulder straps under the narrow straps of the camisole. Now came the next thrilling moment in my day. Wearing my short red satin robe I sat patiently while nanny went to work beautifying ones sissy face for me. Yes it is only the second time but as with everything else I love watching the beautifying of my face, it makes me feel even more the complete sissy I now admit I am. All this time nanny explained what she was applying to where, saying I'm going to have to learn as I'll be doing my own makeup soon. I watched intently to what went were, the foundation cream, face powder and lipstick seemed basic enough. But as for the eyes and working that little brush or pencil so close to ones eye scared me a little, so told nanny I would really love having her or Mummy doing my face for me, it seems so right having it done for you. No response to my request came. With the beautification of my face complete I again sat looking in awe knowing it is really all me, sissy Lobelia. With the completion of my makeup which again had me sitting admiring the beautiful sissy face before me. Yes a true sissy face, the lighter foundation and powder made my face look so pale, even the lipstick was a very light pink soon to be coated with a sparking gloss which helped the eye shadow, mascara show my eyes out prominently announcing this could only be a SISSIES face along with the darker shade of pink blush brushed over my cheekbones. Nanny suggested a change of nail polish to match the lipstick I'm wearing, who am I to object to any further pampering as I eagerly offered both hands, watching the removal of the old then the applying of an almost matching sparkling nail polish which seemed to shimmer beautifully taking its place. Just cherishing the finished image of face and hands sent delightful shivers through my whole body; if my peepee wasn't already standing proud it sure would be now. I sat watching as my hair got brushed, combed then brushed out again till it looked so femininely sissy sitting to the left of my head with a little perfumed spray holding it in place. One good thing I haven't had a bow put in it this time. As nanny admired her handy work she came out with, "I bet you can't wait for your Mummy to have highlights put through it for you?" How could anyone answer that, so silence prevailed once again. Instead of letting my hands wander downwards as I have many times, now they just seem to be drawn towards ones nipple embraced bra. Oh god they seem to be getting more responsive on each touch or is it just in my mind now I'm wearing this beautiful bra. There again Mummy told me I'll be growing real little bosoms, wonder if this is the start as I had to ask nanny that question? "Yes dear you know how you were told about starting puberty and developing little bosoms, this is why we've been massaging your hormone cream in twice a day, you will notice them getting a little more sensitive every day from now on, it is all part of being this beautiful sissy that you are." I didn't know what to say, but did love the delicate erotic touch. Before going any further I just had to ask nanny if I could please show Cindy how beautiful I look, knowing she would want to touch over my bra also before putting a blouse on. I just loved cuddling Cindy holding those little hands as they caressed sweetly over each bra encased nipple all the time telling her how wonderful it is being a sissy able to wear such gorgeous things, asking if she likes my beautifully made up face and hair style as well. I just held her close to my face this time as I didn't want to mess my lipstick or leave any on her sweet face. "Come now Lobelia we better get you dressed your Mummy is waiting." "Yes but Cindy didn't want to leave my nipples alone?" in the hope of nanny believing me. I watched with much enthusiasm as nanny took a stunning long sleeved delicately fine lemon chiffon blouse from the closet. From the top of each shoulder a two inches wide matching lace ran about three quarters the way down the front, the satin peter pan collar and cuffs were edged in a inch wide matching lace. Once the satin covered buttons were fastened up the back I looked quickly towards the mirror while nanny retrieved my pants, what I saw made me realize how much of a real sissy I have become, just to see my lovely camisole and bra through the fine chiffon of the blouse made me accept that fact. Now seeing nanny standing before me holding out a cute pair of light copper coloured taffeta sissy pants to further proclaim what I am to all, sitting ever so sweetly at the front of each leg opening an inch wide sky blue satin bow which matched the three smaller bows sitting prominently spaced in line down the front announcing the lack of any entrance. Through the narrow loops a sky blue satin belt was threaded to be fastened in front by a diamante clustered buckle in the shape of a two by three inch bow, demonstrating to whoever looked, only a sissy would wear pants like these. One good thing I guess there wasn't any lace or bow showing from my lovely panties which I would have to make sure hung below so to be seen by all. "Sit at your vanity Lobelia while we put your darling socks and shoes on." Again the socks had there lace garter threaded this time with a blue satin ribbon tied in a bow. With that task completed and fortunately wearing only one inch shiny bronze coloured heels which looked more like shoes you would see a child wearing the way they were buckled with a narrow strap in front, I didn?t mind anything in preference to those five inch heels. ?Stand and let me have a good look at you dear.? nanny ordered before going back to the dresser, to return holding a long satin scarf which matched the sky blue bows of my pants, smiling to me as she tied it in a large floppy bow under the collar of the blouse. Then to my surprise both my ear studs were removed to be replaced with charming little crystal teardrops, they felt so nice hanging there that I had to give each a little flicker to make sure it was all real, it was. With my mind still at my ears I got told to sit again, no she hadn?t forgotten a two inch yellow satin bow adorned the crown of my head with its streamers hanging prettily a good four inches below. I looked open mouthed as next she came towards me holding this ivory lace hanky, yes it was a small silk square surrounded by a good three inches of lace. ?This hanky is going to look simply gorgeous sitting sweetly out of your little pocket Lobelia.? she told me while taking it in the centre then guiding it into a small pocket on the right side of these pants. A pocket I never noticed till now, but much smaller than a normal pocket I have wanted before, so this pretty lace hanky sat so prissy like, again adding greatly to the overall sissiness of what stood timidly before her. After one final check and little drawstring purse sitting daintily over my left wrist I was pronounced sissy ready to be lead off to Mummy?s sitting room. ?Would you like to show Cindy what a beautiful sissy you look in this adorable outfit Lobelia?? ?Yes nanny I know she?ll love to see it up close especially my new crystal earrings.? while thinking with this lace hanky sitting there looking so proud along with the blue satin bows down the front of my pants, I feel even more an over the top sissy. On entering the sitting room I gave a full curtsy before moving closer ready to kneel beside Mummy. Instead she stood coming towards me saying how beautiful her Lobelia is looking this morning, remarking about the change of my earrings along with saying how charming the lace hanky sitting ever so proudly in my pocket looked, as she had to give it a little flutter with her fingers. ?Don?t you just love your little lace hanky sitting there darling and your new earrings make you look the prettiest of sissies. Have you got a lovely kiss for me this morning?? she asked while gently holding my hand. ?Yes Mummy and you look beautiful as well.? Ignoring her remark about the hanky as I went to raise her hand towards my glossy coated lips, but no she offered me her right cheek to kiss, wish it was her lips waiting to meet mine. ?Thank you dear for saying how nice I?m looking this morning, that was a beautiful kiss sweetheart, come now and sit beside Mummy as I have a lot more to tell you which I didn?t want to burden you with yesterday on top of everything else.? as she took my hand in hers. I sat nervously my right hand fiddling with my blouse letting my fingers encircle each bra covered enlivened nipple, while all this time since dressing one peepee has stood almost painfully ridged so seduced by these ornate sissy clothes, I really love wearing. Taking my left hand in hers letting it rest lightly over her lap, in turn letting me savour the fineness of her mottled teal silk dress, just wish I could see the elegant lingerie that would most likely be sitting beneath. Giving my hand a soft pat before telling me to listen carefully to what she is about to tell me. ?You know sissies must be completely obedient to their Mummies, you will have no say in anything at all. Yes my dear I own your body and mind, sissies like you find it to hard to think for themselves, all they seem to have on their little minds is the beautiful clothes they love to be dressed in, so it is best their Mummies control everything about them. I think you know what happens when a sissy is disobedient, don?t you Lobelia?? she said looking straight into my eyes. ?Yes they get a spanking.? I said quietly and a little nervously. ?You know a sissy like yourself; its whole purpose is to serve its Mummy giving her pleasure the way she wants at anytime, the way only a sissy can. Do you understand?? she said while stroking gently over my hand. ?I don?t really understand Mummy?? I told her feeling somewhat downhearted on hearing all that. ?You soon will my dear, you soon will.? she said with a stern look on her beautiful face. ?Boys and Girls will also want to enjoy your company at times, so remember a sissy must obey at all times.? her stern look had now turned into a lovely smile on saying that. With all I?ve just heard, my mind was awash in all sorts of thoughts wondering what it all meant, what is really going to happen to me. Bringing me out of my thoughts and back to her next announcement, I looked at her as she said. ?I think it?s time you read the letter which you can?t remember writing, don?t you Lobelia?? with that she got up and went over to the phone, I?m sure it was nanny she asked to fetch the papers from her study. In no time nanny appeared offering Mummy a folder, at the same time saying she?s about to bring her coffee. That?s good I thought I?m dying for a coffee haven?t had anything since that glass of milk this morning, for that matter I haven?t had a coffee for who knows how long it's been, only nasty orange or some other just as nasty juice and lord knows how much milk has been fed to me over how ever long ago. ?Thank you Mummy,? I said while taking two sheets of paper with a heading which is smudged over. I began reading this hand written letter, is it my writing I?m not sure don?t remember writing a letter to anybody, ever. Oh my God! I?ve given myself to this woman to be her complete sissy. It says: I am a sissy that is in great need of a Mummy to take good care of me to treat me as the sissy I really know I am. All I think of is wearing the pretty clothes like I see in Sissy books. I can?t think of anything else I want more than to be treated as the sissy I know I truly am. I want to be wearing lovely dainty girly like clothes all the time, I know there is nothing better for a sissy like me than to be dressed in gorgeous silks and satin clothes. I want to smell of sweet perfume like all sissies do, I hate having to wear boring nasty boys clothes and trying to be a boy, I don?t like or want to do boy things because I?m not, I want to have dolls and other cuddly toys to play with as well as other sissies to play with. I?m not a boy or even a girl, I?m only a SISSY!!! Please Mummy you will make me be that sissy won?t you? As I write this I?m thinking of wearing beautiful satin and lace lingerie smelling of delicate perfumes plus, I shouldn?t say this, but Oh how I would love to be in the arms of a boy as his dazzling feminine sissy. It went on, finishing by saying. I am looking forward to being with my Mummy as your obedient sissy. All this and more was written but couldn't make out through my blurry eyes and I had signed it, Your Sissy!!! Looking up to Mummy not knowing what to say or even think. My mind was now in a state of utter confusion, tears began to run freely down my cheeks as I started crying. ?See my dear you are this sissy and I?m going to make sure you act as a well behaved completely feminised sissy at all times. Yes between your nanny and me we are going to love dressing our little sissy in the prettiest of sissy/girly clothes.? I was told as she patted over my hand. ?Take your hanky and dry your eyes Lobelia.? she continued showing no compassion for my plight at all. Using my hanky I patted over my eyes trying not to smug my eye makeup. Oh would I really care about the eye makeup if I wasn?t this sissy, I don?t think so. I was just putting my hanky back in my purse, when nanny arrived back holding a small tray with Mummy?s coffee on. ?I brought Lobelia a glass of milk; it hasn?t had one since breakfast.? After handing Mummy her coffee, plus a plate containing a yummy piece of chocolate cake, I was given my glass of milk which I also had to be drink through a straw. Asking why I had to use a straw, ?We don?t want to smudge our lipstick do we dear, so till you learn to drink nicely we?ll use a straw.? I was told along with being told to drink it all up. I?m sure it contains more than just milk, as it doesn?t have that same taste to it, like it has come from a cow. ?Another little parcel of clothes has arrived for Lobelia and the Doctor will be here in about half an hour to see Lobelia.? Nanny made known, while I just looked perplex from one to the other. ?Why do I need to see a Doctor?? I enquired. ?You do what Mummy says darling, now finish your milk.? then she thanked nanny saying, ?Take the Doctor to the back bedroom before calling us, I have it all setup for her.? which made me wonder what is going to happen to me. On finishing my milk I asked what is in it as it doesn?t taste like real milk used too. Only to be told, it has lots of vitamins and protein in it, everything a sissy like me is in need of. So I then asked if I can change out of these clothes if I have to see a Doctor. Again my request is denied, ?You look beautiful the way you are, besides nanny went to all that trouble this morning to make you look beautiful knowing the doctor was coming didn?t she?? ?I?m sure the doctor won?t want to see me looking like this.? I tried to explain. ?What did I tell you earlier about having no say in anything my little flower?? I got sternly asked. No answer was given, as I don?t want a spanking then seeing this doctor with redder tearful eyes than I already have. With a knock on the door nanny announced the arrival of the Doctor, in turn sending me into a nervous state. Suddenly I had to do wee wees urgently; I asked Mummy if I could use the bathroom as I needed to go tinkle. ?You can wait till we see the Doctor, I?m sure you?ll have to give a sample,? I was told. ?Yes Mummy.? I just hope I don?t wet myself first, I was thinking. After one final check over by Mummy, yes the bow in my hair and under my collar are sitting straight, the lace hanky hanging prettily from my pocket, a touch up of lipstick, purse hanging sweetly over limp left wrist, Lobelia is ready to be led away to I don?t really know what. I all but fainted on entering the spare bedroom holding Mummy?s hand looking and feeling so much the ultimate of sissiness. Standing to greet us with a beaming smile was none other than Mrs Jamison herself. I could feel my face going scarlet, even my hands became sweaty, my knees became wobbly realizing I had met this woman before, in turn bring some memories flooding back to life about that day however long ago it was now. ?Lobelia this is Doctor Jamison, do you remember meeting her before?? Mummy asked. ?Yes I do Mummy,? I answered softly, while not wanting to look her way. ?Oh you can do better than that can?t you dear. Say hello nicely to your Doctor with a lovely curtsy.? ?Hello Doctor it?s nice to meet you, again,? as I did a quick curtsy and oh how one can lie at times. ?You?re looking so much better now since the last time I saw you as well. Oh don?t you look beautiful all those darling bows on your pants, even a pretty lace hanky hanging so sweetly from your pocket?? she said while touching the hanky at the same time, in a way of saying what a sissy you are. Why do people have to put a cynical smile on their faces at times like this? ?Yes I guess so.? I knew to answer sort of positively with nanny hovering over, or it would be another reason for her to spank me, but what does she mean by the ?last time she saw me? I wonder. ?Will you want Lobelia to give a sample Doctor, as it wants to go badly?? Mummy asked while embarrassing me at the same time. So much for offering me any form of modesty, oh no, as the Doctor asked nanny to undress me right here in front of them all. As always she showed great delight in stripping me almost naked. Yes just leaving me standing in my suspender stockings and pretty lace edged socks. Adding to my humiliation this doctor woman took great delight in pulling apart my pretty bow and rolling off the joey from my now rapidly deflated peepee. ?Now see if you can aim that little thing into the bottle without spilling any.? the doctor held this small bottle just below my peepee waiting for the flow to begin, it also felt so strange standing to do tinkles. Oh how I would love to let some flow over her hand. ?Don?t you have a bigger bottle than this?? I asked knowing how full I felt, then I noticed nanny standing there holding a small bowl, waiting for any overflow I guess. Wouldn?t you know it, a few minutes earlier I felt like I could fill a bucket. Now embarrassingly I can?t ever get started, but when it did trickle out, even this little bottle was well big enough for what I gave up. I felt more like an object for these women to play with than a real person, all the questions about me were addressed either to Mummy or nanny. Oh no sorry once I got told to lie on the bed facing the wall so the Doctor could feel or push something up my anis. That was after having her hands rubbed all over my body. ?I see the lotion has worked wonders, I can?t feel any trace of hair anywhere.? she announced happily to Mummy and nanny, that was also after lowering one of my stockings to check for any hair on them is no more as well. All this so openly made me feel so humiliated, not realizing there is even worse to come. Lying on my side wondering what is she going to do as she puts a pair of latex gloves on, ?Get on all fours facing the bed and raise your bottom and part your legs.? she ordered. Oh my god!! I felt her greased gloved finger sliding easily up my rear passage then playing around in there like she was looking for something of great value. After pulling out empty handed she shoved some little cold instrument thing up there which she worked in and out a few times, I?m sure it was just for their warped sense of humour. As well I had to hear nanny say, ?See why we must keep ourselves clean up there Lobelia?? how could anyone answer such a question about their butt hole at an embarrassing time like this? All the while I noticed Mummy and nanny watching this degrading medical take place with beaming smiles on their faces. I?m sure the Doctor pushed and pulled different parts of my body just for their amusement. Now standing back in front of her, she proceeded to take my peepee in her hand stroking its length between her thumb and forefinger trying to, no getting me nice and stiff. In doing so pulling the foreskin back to have a good look at my knob before covering it again, but worse is to come as she took a tape measure to it measuring its length wrapping it around the centre before disclosing to the audience how this is a nice size for a sissies peepee. Yes it?s four and a quarter inches long and three and a quarter in circumference, I swear it has shrunk some from what I remember it being. I can see now why nanny did my face in a pale makeup and bright pink cheekbones his morning knowing how red it was to become through the day with all this embarrassment I?m suffering. Taking each breast in hand kneading them along with my now sensitive nipples, while telling Mummy how nicely they are coming along. It came as a shock to hear her say, ?You can start using the nipple pumps on them each morning now, after massaging its hormone cream in.? taking these two small transparent plastic cup things, with the help of Mummy placed one over each nipple before pumping the air out. As I tied to look to see why my chest is hurting a little, only to be told to look straight ahead, I?ll see soon enough what lovely nipples I?ve got. As everything is happening I knew better than to make any comment about my well being, as my flesh got sucked into these cups. ?In a couple of weeks those nipples should start to develop nicely and I bet it will love having them played with, I believe boys love sucking on sissies well developed titties.? this doctor told Mummy knowing I couldn?t help but hear and wonder what is going to happen to me once they have had their fun turning me into this consummate Sissy!! I got the impression this is not the first medical I?ve had as the Doctor compared her notes. Even telling Mummy my blood tests were all negative. I just had to ask the Doctor when and why did she take blood from me. My questioning the Doctor didn?t go down well, as nanny took a firm grip of my arm shaking me at the same time. ?How dare you speak to the Doctor like that, now apologize for your improper outburst.? a hard painful slap across my upper leg followed. ?I?m sorry Doctor for what I said.? as my arm was still held in her vice like grip. I?m sure no one took any notice of what I said or even heard my apology. ?Now here is another little pill for it to take over the next couple of days, note it's a lovely red so not to be mixed up with what it is taking already, plus it says on the packet to be taken an hour before bedtime.? in saying that she whispered something else to Mummy who smiled with a nod. ?There shouldn?t be many of the yellow capsules left, would I be right?? she asked, no not me. ?No just one more for tomorrow,? nanny told her also with a beaming smile. ?Have you explained to Lobelia what is about to happen then?? she asked. ?We are going to explain all and let it read the little book before bedtime tonight,? Mummy said. Leaving me wondering but knew better than to ask right now. While holding up a packet. ?Here is the next supply of yellow capsules; I suggest leaving it a day after its cycle, then back to normal from then on. All the agony and trouble a sissy has to go through, but we?ll have the perfect sissy in no time won?t we Lobelia?? the Doctor said while offering me a belittling smile. Oh no she spoke to me also! I didn?t think her question warranted any sort of answer, but Mummy did via a firm slap to the back of my leg. Quickly I replied, ?Yes I want to be a beautiful obedient sissy for Mummy,? hoping that satisfied. There again I know inside of me I am so happy being Mummy?s sissy, but don?t want this doctor woman or nanny for that matter to know just how much a sissy I really feel I?m wanting to be. ?Yes it is well on the way to being a perfect sissy, Lobelia just adores its gorgeous clothes and nanny says it loves playing with dolls just like any little girl or sissy would.? I just hung my head with complete embarrassment on hearing her say that. ?How many dolls does it have?? the Doctor asked. ?Only one,? Mummy let be known. ?Tell the doctor your dolls name Lobelia.? ?Her name is Cindy and I love her, she?s so beautiful.? I don?t know why I had to add all that as well. All this humiliation was getting the better of me. Not only telling the Doctor how I loved Cindy, which I do, but hearing them continually referring to me as ?IT? I went to ask why I had to take all these pills. Only to be cut short and told Mummy will explain all about them later, so for now I?m still none the wiser. I think this doctor woman must like my peepee, as again she took my cherries in the palm of her hand, using the under side of her thumb to teasingly stroke over one deflated peepee. ?When did that little thing last get milked?? the Doctor asked Mummy or nanny, still not realizing I?m a real person who can speak for myself. ?It had a little accident in bed a while ago; think it must have had a wet dream because its hands were restrained and thankfully it?s still wearing a diaper to bed, there has been nothing since then.? Nanny informed her but said nothing about spanking me for letting it happen. How I wish I could still play with my peepee even though it seems to be shrinking some. ?There must be a good supple of sperm sitting in its basket by now. I will ring the sperm bank and see if they can send someone this afternoon to take the first offering from Lobelia.? she told Mummy, again not consulting me about what I want. Looking dumbfounded at hearing her say about my juice being sent to a sperm bank, I made it known, ?I don?t want any of my sperm going anywhere, let alone to a sperm bank.? ?Sissies have no say in what happens with their sissy sperm, what did I tell you earlier about Mummy having complete control over every little part of you. What would you usually do with it anyway? Flash it down the toilet I suppose,? she said harshly. ?No I lick it all up; I like the taste of it,? I said hoping to horrify them, but I don?t think it did. ?Well there won?t be any more of that disgusting behaviour. Stand still why I remove your pumps for you,? I got firmly told. I quite liked what I saw once those things came off, each nipple was a little swollen if this keeps up I?ll have real big nipples in no time and were they sensitive to the touch now, but guess after being sucked into those cups would make anything look puffy and touchy once removed. ?Well that seems about all for now, you can get it dressed in all these beautiful clothes I see it loves to wear.? while offering me a cheesy smile. ?Look what arrived this morning for you Lobelia?? nanny said happily while holding up one new gorgeous training bra. It?s a beautiful deep lavender satin each cup has a good inch and a half of ruffled white lace around the top, below it seems to be just gathered in, a lovely big violet satin bow sits sweetly between the cups letting its streams hang a four inches below. Like everything else I couldn?t stop myself from asking, ?Oh can I please hold it first nanny?? forgetting about this doctor woman standing next to Mummy listening to me declare what I truly seem to be, Yes a girly like Sissy! Trying to take a step or two back from what I had just acknowledged. I again began questioning my being treated like some sissy toy for them to play with, which I?m not! I asked, ?Why are you humiliating me, you won?t talk to me, only about me. Also believe it or not, I?m a real person with a real name ? Lobelia I?m not IT!!!? I tried to make them hear and understand, as well not knowing now what my other name used to be. I notice they didn?t take any notice of me asking not to be called IT!! Guess Sissy isn?t quite so bad. Maybe if or when I meet other people they?ll use my real name. Oh why did I throw my tantrum while still holding my lovely new bra securely at my breast after placing little kisses over it? ?That?s right you?re not a sissy are you? A sissy wouldn?t want to cuddle its bra so closely to its bosom would it, or what is it you like to play with? Oh yes Cindy your doll, only real boys play with dolls don?t they, Lobelia my sissy flower?? Mummy made known while holding my turned up face firmly under the chin, so my now watery eyes were looking straight into hers. I felt completely subdued, I do love my Cindy, I?ve always wanted a doll to play with. Hearing Mummy say about holding my bra, I still couldn?t let it fall from my grasp, it feels so right for me to want it close to where it belongs, feeling the soft satin touching tenderly over my now quite sensitive swollen nipples. Even the knowledge of wearing makeup and nail-polish trills me greatly. I stood in silence watery eyes still looking to Mummy. ?I?m sorry Mummy I don?t know why I keep saying these things, I really do love all my sissy things, I really do.? ?Yes I know you do darling. You?ll have little outbursts like this at times and a little punishment will help get it all out of you.? a soft kiss was then planted to the side of my head. ?What say we get your pretty underwear on now, you look so beautiful dressed in all your sissy clothes don?t you dear? Oh we mustn?t forget your lovely new bra,? Mummy said seeing it still in my hands. ?Yes I do love wearing all these pretties; can I wear the bow on my peepee again also?? I softly asked. Nanny was in her element, standing me in such a way, so the Doctor could watch the donning of my bow around the base of my now semi erect peepee, once a rubber sat safely back in place. ?I see it loves having a pretty dressed up peepee, a real sissy if ever there was one.? the Doctor said with a scornful grin. Then nanny put me into my lovely new fancy lavender satin training bra, while she adjusted the straps I couldn?t stop my fingers from caressing over my puffy sensitive nipples beneath, as well playing with the beautiful inch wide violet satin bow that sat sweetly between the two cups with a dear little pink flower bud sitting sweetly in the centre of the bow with its streams hanging a good four inches below, to finish the bra off a little violet bows sit daintily between the shoulder straps and cups. Next Mummy displayed a matching pair of panties before me, these were sort of ?bloomer or romper? type and would say made specially for sissy like me as the front left room for my dressed up peepee to sit without being squash, an inch wide lace surrounded the waist with a good two inches of white fancy lace surrounded the leg openings adding to the prettiness a two inch wide violet satin bow sat elegantly just above the lace to the side of each leg opening with little streamers hanging just as prettily below, again a little pink flower bud centred each bow. Proudly embroidered in front in a bright pink were the words ?I?M A SISSY?. ?We won?t put these on today Lobelia, your lovely organza panties look so tempting on you, plus we can see your little peepee sitting so sweetly all dressed up through them. We just wanted you to see what is to come for our Lobelia to wear.? Mummy said while holding these luscious new panties tantalizingly close to my face causing a stirring between my legs. ?Can I hold them for a minute please Mummy?? why do I always say this same thing, am I becoming so captivated my all these divinely beautiful clothes, somehow deep inside I really know I am. ?No not today we?ll never get you dressed, look at what is happening to your peepee already and the doctor hasn?t got all day to wait,? while putting the pretty new panties on the bed, out of my reach, but not out of sight. I stood letting nanny put me back into the organza panties, yes to see my peepee sitting so pretty through them makes my heart beat rise. I felt a little sad seeing nanny holding up my camisole waiting my arms to be guided through hence hiding this adorable new bra, fortunately Mummy suggested leaving the camisole off as she?s sure the bra will look so lovely showing through my lemon chiffon blouse. Oh how right she was, sitting so elegantly beneath the blouse with the ruffled lace and the contrast of the lavender my bra was quite noticeable sitting in its rightful place unhindered by the camisole, as well could see lovely violet bows and streams hanging sweetly below. I just had to give Mummy a big smile as a thank you for not having it covered from view by my camisole. My hands automatically went to caress gently over my blouse, well mainly over my noticeable bra area, in turn bringing a remark from this doctor woman, ?See how much of a sissy it is, can?t resist fondling its breast.? feeling my face going red on hearing her, but still my hands wouldn?t move away till they were ready too. In no time nanny had me standing on display dressed once again in all my sissy daintiness ready for this doctor woman to again take delight in remarking how much a sissy I look, ?Oh those sweet little bows on its pants look such tempting things sitting there, don't they.? she said before putting her fingers under the pretty hanky hanging out sweetly from the pocket. Even had the cheek to ask if I put the lovely hanky in my pocket, quickly I let it be known I never nanny put it in there. Why do they have to keep embarrassing me like this? Thankfully nanny took my hand to escort me back into the sitting room while Mummy and the doctor walked and talked behind us. I could hear the Doctor saying, ?Don?t forget one of those little red pills an hour before bed tonight the other tomorrow night. Make sure it has its special food at least once daily from now on with a light salad or soup for other meals till I see it again; as well it should keep having the milk formula at least morning and night for a few more days. A coffee could be a nice treat sometimes times instead of the fruit juice, will make a nice change for it. Oh, before I go best give me the details from its ID card and we?ll make a time for you to visit the clinic in a week or so.? She said before offering Mummy and nanny a cheek to cheek kiss; just a quick smile came my way. Nanny took the ID card from my purse handing it to her, all she said was ?doesn?t Lobelia look so sweet in the photo? like she was handed her a photo of someone else. Oh to be ignored. Just hearing her saying about going to this clinic scared me some, why do I have to go to a clinic what ever for? I dare not ask just yet or I?m sure it would be another hard slap across my legs. = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =