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EXTRACTS OF FEAR.
Hers January 10 th 2003
Dear diary,
He wasn't in the best of moods again today. I didn't catch most of his rantingbut it was as usual about work. I know he hates his job. Why doesn't he dosomething about it? We don't seem to be close anymore. We never talk or maketime for fun. Can three years of marriage really do such damage to a relationship?
I don't think ill try and talk to him about it tonight. He'll probably godown the pub soon anyway, and then I can clean up.
His
I was so mad today, I've been working all day and she's done nothing, absolutelynothing in the house. I have even had to make my own tea. George 'the boss'recons I'm going to get laid off soon. I don't know how I'm going to cope,I wish shed get a job and help. Its not like we have kids, that'd be hard seemsas we never have sex.
January 20 th 2003
Hers Dear diary,
Today he really scared me, he came home three hours early and told me he's "packedthe stupid fucking job in" he put his fist through the wooden door in the frontroom. I ran to the kitchen in fright, he just followed me smashing plates andcups on the floor. Screaming at me it was my fault we never had any money.I don't even do the house expenses I didn't know what he was talking about.
His
I tried to tell her today I really did. What sort of man would I seem liketo her if she ever found I can't manage the finances or hold a job down. Shedoesn't care. She never offers to help or get a job or anything. I even haveto cook and clean myself. I wish id never married her.
Her's January 29 th
He's been drinking all day. He's reluctant to go and look for another job;I think he has been lying to me. I don't believe him when he says he's gotinterviews he comes home drunk. I'm sure I could smell perfume on him today.Diary what am I to do? I feel trapped. I can't talk to him; he refuses to listento me saying I'm going on at him. I just want things back to the way they were.
His
I couldn't go to the interview today. I looked in the wardrobe and I hadnothing to wear. The lazy fucking cow won't even do the washing. She knew Ihad an interview. I told her I had to go see my mum today. Least she couldhave done was to help. I couldn't go in what clothes I had. Rags more likeit not clothes.
I met this women in the bar today, she listened to me, it seemed like sheunderstood. She said she had a suit I could use tomorrow. I was so grateful.Why cant my wife be more like that.
Her February 15 th
Dear diary,
I was right all along, he has been seeing someone else, I followed him todaydown by the supermarket and into the pub. She was sitting there waiting forhim. I'm going to question him about it tonight. Things just seem in such amess how can I put things right?
His
I met Julia again today, she had even bought the suit with her, bless hershe's so thoughtful. If I weren't married to that idol cow id definitely proposeto her. I wish she was more like Julia.
Her February 16 th
I was wrong to question him; he's had such a hard time. The fighting andthe arguing isn't worth the waste of time. I shouldn't have flew at him. Iknow now its all my fault. If only I hadn't flew at him, at the time I justwanted to hit him and hurt him. I never thought he'd hit me back. He didn'tmean to he swore he didn't mean to it was a reflex action. Kind of like thereflex action I had to hit him I guess. I should get some makeup tomorrow.
Him
That stupid cow, she came flying at me today, really lashing out at me.I hit her. God I know its wrong but it felt so good. Talk about stress relief.I might say some horrid things about her, truth is I do love her. I just wishshed make more of an effort.
Her February 27 th
Things were really quiet for a bit I thought things were getting better.I thought he'd stopped seeing that woman, how wrong was I.
Like the silly cow I am he caught me following him. I didn't know he hadseen me till he came home tonight.
Diary I'm in so much pain.
My lip is cut and swollen, my eye is all bruised yet again and the bruisingon my arms is horrific. I feel so scared. I am going to pack my stuff and leavetomorrow.
Him
I saw Julia again today. it was a chance meet though. She was telling meshed found a nice man. I was so happy for her but also a little jealous. Iwent to 3 interviews and by the time I got in to be seen the position had goneeach time. I was so mad when I came home the last thing I needed was more ofher horse shit. I know I shouldn't hit her but it feels so good and so right.She needs to be taught a lesson. She can't make me so miserable all the time.Some days I wish shed leave but I do love her.
Her February 28 th
How he sobbed today when I had my bags packed. He explained that he was angrythat I didn't trust him. He told me he was meeting her to tell her it was over.He was right you know I do read too much into things.
He says he has a job down the scrap yard. Starts on Monday, I hope thingsimprove for us now.
Him
I knew when I woke up I was so wrong for acting that way last night. I beggedher to stay with me told her wed work it out. I lied though I told her I hada job, If I hadn't though she would never have stayed.
Her March 16 th
Two weeks he's supposed to have been working, he never tells me anything.I saw two red bills today I daren't open them though he'd go mad. Maybe he'sjust a little behind not working for a while. I still can't talk to him butthings seemed to have settled down.
Him
Slowly I feel like I'm sinking, loosing all control. I can't keep the liesup any longer. She doesn't know how to make me happy. I'm so depressed allthe time. I sat in the toilets today and even thought about slitting my wrists.I'm getting desperate. I need to talk with her and sort things out.
Her March 19 th
He's drunk again. I'm hiding here in the bedroom in case he takes it outon me. I'm so scared. I don't know what he's breaking.
Him
Had a few drinks, I'm in a horney mood, think ill see if she's in the moodfor once.
Her March 20 th
He's just left for work. I can't get out of bed. I knew he was angry lastnight. I don't know where to go from here last night was so horrible. He kickedthe bedroom door off its hinges and dragged me by my hair into the bathroom.My heads still sore.
He unbuckled his belt and unzipped his trousers. I cant explain how terrifiedI was. It has been a few months since we had sex but he cant expect me to wantsex after all that's happened, sex doesn't fix all your problems. He pinnedmy head over the bath and raped me. Yes he raped me. He thrust himself insideme even though I was screaming out "please, please no please don't this tome". He didn't listen. The bruising on the inside of my thighs hurts me somuch. There's a trickle of blood that's gone all hard on the bedding. Thisis the last straw I'm waiting till I know he's left before I go. I don't knowwhere, I don't have any family and what few friends I have live over 400 milesaway. I just don't want to stay here with him any longer.
Him
Oh my god what have I done, its going to take some swift talking to get outof this one.
Her March 21 st .
He got on his knees today and pleaded with me, I knew I had no where elseto go so I stayed. I guess it was my own fault. I can't deny him sex all thetime. No wonder he went with another woman. It can't really be rape if yourmarried anyway can it?
We are going out for a meal tonight as a symbol of a fresh start. This isthe most excited I've been in months.
I really think we might be getting somewhere.
Her April 23 rd
Dear diary,
It was my birthday today, he forgot. I'm going to leave it till tomorrowbefore I say anything. See how horrid he feels. after such a good month youwould have thought he would have made an effort.
Him
Its her birthday today, I don't want to mention it think ill just wait andsee things are hectic and I haven't any money anyway. She never remembers mineanyway. The doctor said I was depressed he's given me some pills I don't thinkI need them though.
Her April 24 th
Dear diary,
I've just come back from the hospital. I never should have gone on at himlike that. I guess I deserved it. I can't believe how much of a cow I was tohim. I never thought how upset I had made him.
He's knocked my two front teeth out, he didn't mean to though he threw somethingand it hit me. He said he didn't mean to hit me with it.
Him
I wanted to cave her face in today. She wants big elaborate things and I'vegot £2.50 to my name. ranting and raving about fuck all she's lucky sheonly lost two teeth.
Her May1st,
Dear diary,
It's bank holiday today.
I haven't dared to leave my room.
I know I should have cleaned the house up but I didn't know he wanted usto go out.
I feel so horrid.
He came upstairs and grabbed me from behind. For a second I felt so scaredof him I tried to pull away from him. He was only showing me affection.
He squinted his eyes at me. "Scared are you, ill give you something to bescared about, you lazy fucking idol slut" and he dragged me down onto the floor.
He put his hand up the back of my dress and ripped my panties down. I triedto laugh at first, trying to turn it into a joke.
Bad mistake.
"How dare you laugh at me, you are a useless fucking dirty whore, ill showyou what I do with useless fucking dirty whores" and he pushed my face deepinto the floor as he unzipped his trousers.
I tried to clench as tight as possible but it was no use he used his fingersfirst, pushing them deep inside my ass. I've never had anything inserted insidemy ass before it was horrid. I felt so sick. I tried to pull away from himbut he pinned me down even tighter rubbing my face into the carpet.
Then came that moment, I feel so violated, he sodomised me, he raped mybum hole so fast and vigorously I threw up, I was sick on the floor, he didn'tcare at that point he rubbed my faced in the regurgitated slop coarsely soit hit the floor.
I have the most horrid carpet burn on the side of my face. It is nothingthough compared with the feeling of shame and utter humiliation I feel at thehands of the man I once married for love.
My bum is bleeding and I have such horrid lasting cramps, I hope I die.
Him
I know it so wring but I saw red, she hasn't a clue about me or my life.She thinks not giving me even the slightest bit of compassion or love willmake me beg her. How wrong she was. I enjoyed watching her suffer today.
Her May 2 nd ,
Dear diary,
I've been awake a few hours now; I'm still scared to leave my room. He'sdownstairs I know it; I can hear him moving around.
I haven't a clue what he's doing. I don't care as long as he doesn't comeup here again. I should have left when I had the chance.
He changed so much in such a short space of time. I know some things horridlywrong. He never talks to me though, how was I supposed to help if I didn'tknow.
Him
Its about time I taught her a lesson, I'm sick of crying myself to sleepits about time she knew how it all felt. How it feels to be trapped with noway out. Like your sinking slowly and there's no escape.
Her May 3 rd ,
I'm trapped.
Last night he came upstairs and started working on the windows, He's nailedthem all tight shut and painted the outside with black paint. I'm so frightened;I'm still shaking with trepidation. It'
s hard to keep shacking though when your legs are chained to the bed. Nottightly just enough so I cant reach the door.
He's put a sad little bucket in the middle of the room. I'm guessing that'sfor me. I need to get free. I need to reach a phone. He's gone mad.
Him
A day or two like that and shell know, maybe ill have some fun while I'mat it. I know its wrong but it feels so right. How is she going to understandunless she feels what I have felt?
Maybe I should go and speak with her; the thing is I don't know what to sayto her. I'm lost for words. Would she listen to me anyway.
May 5 th ,
Dear lord,
The post man came today; I heard the letter box rattle. I screamed out asloud as I could, I'm pretty sure he heard something he must have done. I hopehe did. If he did, he didn't come and save me from this mad man.
The screaming was a bad idea. I can barley hold this pen in my fingers dueto the whipping I got. He came up and thumped me, right in the face. Then heordered me to lye face down on the bed. Lord I was scared. I was so terriblyfrightened. I watched him unbuckle his belt as slowly as he could. Then hecame over and waved it in my face threateningly. "How could you, you stupidcow. Don't you know what you could have done?"
It was so much more than a threat and I knew it when I felt the cold harshleather lashing across my pale sweat dampened skin, I have never been so terrifiedin my entire life as I am at this moment please, please lord deliver me fromthis insane man. Have you no compassion for your flock, I am a lost sheep,sire please find me and rescue me. The bed sheets are sodden in my blood andmy back aches so much from the lashes. Please lord have mercy on my soul, ifI only get one thing that I ask for in my miserable existence let it be anend to my terrible torture.
Him
The fucking bitch, I could have killed her at that point. Doesn't she knowwhat she's doing to me? I'm trying to teach her a lesson.
I can't even talk to her she refuses to listen. It doesn't matter how niceI am she doesn't care. She doesn't love me, she doesn't care about me. Whata big mistake this whole thing was from the day we met neither of us has everbeen really happy.
Her May 6 th .
Today he came and stood in the doorway watching me for a while. He neithercried nor smiled. I wish I could have known what was going through his mindat that moment in time.
Him
I'm going to have to let her go soon, I have to admit I was turned on though;I've been watching her walk over and pee in her little designated bucket. Ifeel a little dirty thinking like that but wow it really did feel nice.
Her may 7 th
I was so relieved today, he finally untied my tethering. I waited till hehad left the house and here I am under the bridge miles away in the rain. Imight not be that safe but I'm safer here than at his house. I think ill tellthe police tomorrow I wont go to our local station just in case he's waitingfor me.
Him
I'm so scared of what she'll do now, in the cold light of day I was so wrongand I know it. I should never have been so silly. I wish I could find her andexplain to her I'm not well. Show her my prescription. Promise to take my medicineI hope it isn't all too late. How could I have even conceived of doing it letalone carrying it out? I was out of control totally insane. I hope she's ok.
May 8 th
How absolutely stupid can one man actuary be?
How many tears can one man cry?
How many times should one man say sorry before he is forgiven?
I went out this morning as soon as the sun rose. I went out to find her.For hours running round in the rain I hunted. I was soaking wet and tired whenI spotted her faint little figure following the tracks stumbling along on herown.
I ran to her calling out her name, "please darling, I never meant to hurtyou. I'm ill, I'm sick please sweaty, ill confess ill go to prison if that'swhat you want." Still her face was white she was so scared as I got closershe started to run. I was catching up with her, if I could just hold her andexplain.
I heard the distant rumble of a train. Please darling come down it isn'tsafe. Ill leave I swear ill leave, I tried to catch up with her to stop herbut now I look back I think I scared her all the more. She ran in front ofthe train without even checking the tracks.
I'm gathering my things together before I head towards the station to givethem an accurate account of the last few days. I'm just looking for her diary.
Littlered.
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