Good Medicine Junior YearChapter 65 Developing A Relationship
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December 3, 1983, McKinley, Ohio
“What can I do to help?” Clarissa asked as we walked into the church.
“Check the answering machine, please. It’s in the church office. Just write down any messages on the pad next to the machine. If the phone rings, please answer with the name of the parish. You can answer the two most likely questions — yes, we’re having Vespers tonight, and that Father Deacon Grigory is undergoing bypass surgery at University Hospital. Anything else, other than something like service times or directions to the church, which are on the laminated sheet next to the phone, come get me, please. I’ll be in the nave or altar. I need to fill and light the oil lamps, and prepare the books for tonight.”
“Got it!”
She went to the office and I went into the nave, venerated the icon of my patron, who was also the patron of the parish, said my simple entry prayers, and then began the process of filling the lamps with olive oil, trimming or replacing the wicks and floats, and then lighting them. I had just finished when Clarissa came into the nave.
“There were about a dozen messages, all of them asking for an update on the deacon.”
“For now, just let it be. I need to finish here, then I’ll figure out what to do about the calls. I’m actually hoping one of the ladies who works in the office will show up, because I know next to nothing about how Father wants these things handled.”
I heard the phone ringing and Clarissa scooted to answer, while I began setting out the books that the choir and chanters would use, as well as a loose-leaf-bound copy of the Vespers service, as led by a Reader. Clarissa was back a moment later to tell me that it was an inquiry about the service. When I finished setting out the books, we went to the office and I reviewed the messages. I returned one of them immediately, without even thinking — from Deacon Vasily.
“Subdeacon, how is Father Deacon Grigory?” he asked.
“He should be in surgery by now,” I said. “Multiple bypass. Vladyka was able to anoint him before the surgery.”
“Very good. Do you know how long it will be?”
“Several hours, but I don’t actually know,” I said. “I didn’t speak to the cardiologist; he spoke privately with Matushka Anastasia and John. The basic information I have is from Doctor Evgeni Petrov, who’s a member here.”
“I know Doctor Evgeni,” Deacon Vasily said. “He’s a good man. What precisely did he say?”
I repeated what I had been told, and promised to call with any updates. Before he hung up, he put Tasha on the line and we confirmed she’d be in McKinley on Sunday as planned.
“I’m not sure about any of the rest of these,” I said to Clarissa. “I suppose I’ll return each one and just relay the most basic information that he’s in surgery.”
“That probably makes the most sense,” she agreed.
I began at the top of the list and returned each call, deflecting any detailed questions with the repeated refrain that Father would have something to say at the Divine Liturgy in the morning, and that I would ensure he knew the person had called. When I finished the list, the phone rang immediately and after listening to a complaint about the parishioner hearing a busy signal for fifteen minutes, I repeated the basic information and politely ended the call.
“We need some way of telling the whole parish,” I said. “A ‘phone tree’ or something.”
“What happens while the deacon is recovering?”
“I’ll help as much as a subdeacon is permitted, which means, for example, singing the litanies now that the bishop has given his blessing for me to do that, but honestly, my job is to be the ‘Hand of the Bishop’ during hierarchical services. Otherwise, I’m simply an acolyte. And a similar thing is true for deacons, who can’t do all the things a priest can do, and priests, who can’t do all the things a bishop can do. But you never lose your lower ordination, so there is nothing I can do that a priest, deacon, or bishop couldn’t do.”
“How does it work with monks and nuns?”
“About the same — there are various levels, with the abbot or abbess being in control. They’re under the authority of the bishops, but mostly allowed to determine their own practices. Some monks are deacons or priests as well, and mostly they serve in parishes, though some do stay in monasteries. Vladyka ARKADY was a parish priest until our previous bishop died, which was when I was about two. He was elected by the synod, based on the will of the people. From what I hear, the vote was unanimous.”
“I think I can see why. So he never married, right?”
“Correct. He elected to receive ordination to the diaconate without marrying. There is no chance on this planet, or any other, that I will EVER allow that to happen to me!”
Clarissa laughed, “No kidding! But he chose that voluntarily, right?”
“In as much as any calling is voluntary, but yes. I suspect you don’t have the right reason why I wouldn’t do that.”
“Not sex?”
I shook my head, “No. I’d be afraid some idiot would try to make me a bishop!”
Clarissa laughed even harder.
“Is his job that bad?”
“Are you kidding? Would YOU want to try to play peacemaker to several dozen churches full of old Russian men and women? I sure wouldn’t! I’d be pulling a Santa Claus versus Arius about every five minutes.”
“You lost me. Santa Claus?”
“Santa Claus comes to us through the Dutch ‘Sinterklaas’, who is based on Saint Nicholas of Myra. Legend has it that Saint Nicholas slapped Arius at the First Council of Nicaea in AD325 because Arius was making stuff up and claiming it had always been taught. I once said to my mom that if HER church wasn’t cool enough to have Santa Claus punching heretics, that wouldn’t be MY problem!”
“Legend?”
“Remember what I said about answering those kinds of questions? It depends on the context. There is no contemporaneous record that he was even AT the council. But that doesn’t make it false. So I can say to you, here, in private, that it’s a legend. What I say during Sunday School or in the nave during services, would affirm the truth of the events, as depicted in the icons or reported in the hymns.
“To me, the truth does not lie in the contents of the story, but in the meaning of the story. I always like to say that it doesn’t matter if there actually WAS a ‘Good Samaritan’ because the truth there is not found in the details of the story as if it were news, but in the truths being taught. As Vladyka has said — let the Protestants and their scholars fight over the literal truth of each word, while we worship the undivided Trinity who has saved us.”
“I’m curious, what’s your opinion of research into the origins of the texts?”
“I have no difficulty or any concern with that kind of research, and neither does the bishop. I find it interesting, from an intellectual point of view. Ultimately, though, it doesn’t matter, because the texts which were canonized are the ones we have. Whatever their source, whatever their promulgation, the earliest Christians recognized the books, in the form we’ve received them, as those that ought to be read in the churches. The one exception is the Revelation to Saint John which is included because it was written by Saint John, despite never being read in church. That said, the imagery in Revelation is represented in the church at every service, with smoke rising from the altar, and so on.”
“It’s really strange because you simply dismiss as unimportant questions I hear people argue about all the time. And your answers are so simple.”
“Not mine,” I said gently. “Two thousand years’ worth of worship has provided those answers. To admit one cannot know the mysteries of God is true humility, according to any number of Church Fathers. Disputation does not save anyone; worship and witness do.”
“Somebody tell the preacher on campus. And a host of others I’ve run into.”
“I’ll leave that to the theologians. But guess what a true theologian does? He prays. We have saints called ‘theologians’ and they are men of prayer and devotion, not PhDs working in scholarly institutions.”
I heard voices in the hallway and got up see who it was. I was very happy to see Mrs. Semenov, one of the ladies who worked in the office one day a week. I greeted her and asked if she would please take charge of the office. She agreed, and Clarissa and I went to sit in the nave so I could mentally and spiritually prepare for the service.
When the choir director and head chanter arrived, we conferred on the order of service, the hymns of the day, and the specific parts which would be skipped because there was no priest. We began the service promptly, and by the time we sang O Gladsome Light the nave was full, which was not common for Vespers. When the service ended, I read the prayer for the sick, minus the benediction, and, as everyone filed out, I helped put the books away while the acolytes snuffed the oil lamps.
“Now what?” Clarissa asked.
“Let’s stop and have a quick bite to eat, then head to the hospital.”
We stopped at a small diner where we had a Lenten meal, then headed to the hospital. I put on my cassock and we walked into the lobby where we saw a number of parishioners gathered. As we headed towards the elevators, a candy striper stopped us.
“We’re supposed to limit who goes up,” she said.
“I’m a member of the clergy and my bishop is upstairs,” I said. “I’m supposed to return after leading the services at our church.”
“Go ahead,” she said. “Miss?”
“My wife,” I said, knowing exactly what I’d just walked into.
“OK.”
We got in the elevator and the doors closed.
“So, wedding night tonight, is it?” Clarissa teased.
“No ‘Dance of Isaiah’, no marriage!”
“There are both a priest AND a bishop here!”
“Ah, but an Orthodox marriage has to be performed in the temple!”
“So, then honeymoon first, wedding second!”
“Please don’t say anything to anyone upstairs,” I said. “I’ll get in major trouble.”
“I’d never do that!” she protested.
“Sorry, I just need to be super-careful.”
“You know I’ll never betray you.”
“I know,” I said, quickly squeezing her hand before the elevator doors opened.
We walked over to where the small group was standing, and I asked for the bishop’s blessing.
“Do we have word?” I asked, once he’d made the sign of the cross over my upturned hands and I kissed his hand.
“No,” Father Nicholas said. “Not yet. Was everything OK at the church?”
“Yes. There were perhaps a dozen messages on the machine. I returned the calls, and except for a longer conversation with Father Deacon Vasily, I simply said that Father Deacon Grigory was in surgery. I saw a number of people in the lobby, but I guess they aren’t letting them come up.”
“There were about ten people here besides us, and that filled this waiting room completely, so they asked everyone except for clergy and family to leave. Of course, Doctor Evgeni has privileges here.”
Just then, a disheveled Doctor Washington came out through a double set of doors and took Matushka and John into the consultation room. It was about ten minutes before they came out, and he came over to us.
“Mrs. Minsky gave me permission to share what happened. Her husband had a tough time on the table, but we got him through the surgery. It’s going to be a long, difficult recovery due to damage to his heart, but rehabilitation is possible. We’ll have a better idea in three or four days.”
“Thank you, Doctor,” Vladyka ARKADY said. “When can we see him?”
“Call it six to eight hours, and one person at a time. I’ll write the orders for his wife, his son, and you.”
“Thank you, again Doctor.”
“You’re welcome. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I need a hot shower, some clean clothes, and a nap.”
He walked away, and I turned to my priest and bishop.
“What shall I do in the morning?”
“As we discussed, Subdeacon,” Father said. “Unless Vladyka thinks otherwise, I think you should go back to the school and get some rest. If, for whatever reason, I can’t be at the church tomorrow, please serve the Typika. I’ll try to get in touch with you if that’s the case.”
“I believe that is wise,” Vladyka ARKADY said. “Mischa, if I am at church tomorrow, it will just be a regular liturgy, not a hierarchical one.”
“Yes, Vladyka,” I replied. “Will someone call me if there is any news?”
“Of course,” Father Nicholas said.
I asked for, and received, the bishop’s blessing, said goodbye to everyone, and then Clarissa and I left the hospital and returned to campus. We went to my room, I tossed my bag in the corner, and then collapsed on the bed. Despite not physically exerting myself, I was beat.
“Let me go find Glenda,” Clarissa said.
“Bring her here, if you want,” I said. “And if you see Sophia, Robby, Lee, Rebekah, and José they can join us as well.”
“You look exhausted.”
“I know, but for some reason, I just want my friends around.”
December 4, 1983, McKinley, Ohio
I’d slept soundly and when I woke on Sunday morning, I felt refreshed. My friends had spent about an hour with us before I decided I needed to get to bed. Clarissa had gone with Glenda after making sure I was OK. I’d confirmed I was, and I was asleep almost at the instant my head hit the pillow.
I got out of bed, showered, dressed for church, then went out into the hall where I saw Clarissa waiting in the lounge. She got up, walked over to me, we exchanged a hug, then walked to the elevator.
“Doing OK?” she asked as we got into the elevator.
“Yes. I think adrenaline kicked in without me realizing it and when it wore off, I was just ready to collapse, but I’m glad we had our friends with us for an hour.”
“Tasha will be here, right?”
“Yes. She’ll be at church for Matins. I’m not sure what will happen this afternoon, but most likely we won’t go to Doctor Blahnik’s house.”
“Vladyka,” she said in a silly voice, “I need to be excused for a few hours so I can fuck the OTHER Deacon’s daughter to whom I’m neither married or betrothed; would that be OK?”
“I think that might get me in more than just a bit of trouble,” I replied with a grin.
We left the elevator when it reached the lobby, then headed out to my car for the drive to the church. When we arrived, I put on my cassock, unlocked the church, and began preparations. Clarissa checked the answering machine for me and took down two messages, and just after I’d completed preparations, Tasha arrived.
“How is he?” she asked.
“He had a tough time in the surgery, but they got him through it. I’m not quite sure what that means, though I suspect the doctor said something more detailed to Matushka Anastasia and John. It was going to be at least 3:00am before even his wife could see him. We may end up doing a Typika this morning. I put out the prosphora, but I left it wrapped in case I need to put it away again.”
“Do you think Father Nicholas and the bishop stayed up all night?” Clarissa asked.
“It’s certainly possible, but I won’t know until someone comes from the hospital.”
“My dad would like you to call him, or have someone call him, to let him know when it would be OK to visit.”
“I’ll let Father know and he can make that decision. Only the bishop was allowed to see Deacon Grigory before the surgery.”
“With chrism?”
“Yes.”
“Good.”
“Mike,” Clarissa said, “I’m curious.”
I smiled, “No, the chrism isn’t magic. But it symbolizes the grace of God and the power of the Holy Spirit to heal our spiritual infirmities.”
“Not the physical ones?”
“God gives grace to doctors to do that,” I grinned.
“But that’s not right!” Tasha protested. “The oil may heal our bodies!”
“Magically, Tasha? Or does God work through the doctors and nurses and drug companies? Remember, it’s synergy.”
“Yes, of course, but miracles are real!”
“Yes, they are, but which is more common? That a doctor, who uses the gifts God has provided, heals the sick? Or that chrism brings forth a miracle? Personally, I’d rather have the cardiologist and the chrism, than the chrism alone!”
Tasha gave me a curious look, and I knew I’d have to explain myself, because she, like many Orthodox, tended towards mysticism just a bit too much. There was nothing wrong with her thinking, in and of itself, so long as it didn’t cause her to reject sound scientific practice in favor of mystical belief.
“Do you believe in miracles?” Clarissa asked. “I mean truly believe they happen?”
“Do things which have no scientific or medical explanation happen? Yes, of course. But think about the procedure they just performed on the Deacon. Opening his chest, stopping his heart, replacing blood vessels, and then starting his heart again. To me, that is as powerful a demonstration of God’s grace as any you can name. Just because the surgeon’s hands do the work, doesn’t mean the Holy Spirit isn’t involved.”
“That’s not really an answer,” she protested.
“It’s the best one I have. I suppose the short version is ‘yes’, but I’m not going to forgo using the skills and abilities God provided all of us in favor of waiting on a miracle! Have you heard the story of the man who was at home when a flood was forecast?”
“No.”
“He prayed for God to save him. A military truck came by, and he refused to go with them, because he was relying on God. The floods began, and a boat came by, and they offered to take him from the second-floor window to safety, and he said he was relying on God to save him. The waters continued to rise and he had to climb onto the roof. A helicopter came by and offered to rescue him, but he refused, saying God would save him. The water continued to rise and he drowned. He went to heaven and complained to God that he had prayed and not been saved. God asked ‘I sent a truck, a boat, and a helicopter! What more did you want?’.”
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June 25, 1983, McKinley, Ohio I awoke to someone pounding on my door and calling my name. A quick glance at the clock showed it was 2:50am. I quickly got out of bed, pulled on shorts and a t-shirt and went to the door. I opened it to see a girl in a robe. “What’s up?” “Cecilia said to come get you. One of the girls is really sick!” “Did someone call for an ambulance?” I asked. “I don’t know.” “Call right now. Use my phone. Where are they?” “243!” I hurried down the hall into the...
December 16, 1983, McKinley, Ohio Exams had gone well, and Clarissa, Sandy, and I didn’t have a Friday exam because of our work in the lab only had an evaluation, which we’d each received earlier in the week. We’d all received excellent reviews, which meant an A for the course for each of us. Our stats exam had actually been a breeze, as had the biochemistry exam. The psychology exam was moderately tough, but I was sure I’d achieved at least a B, which meant I would have an A for the course....
June 17, 1984, McKinley, Ohio “I’m going to break things off with Maggie tomorrow,” I said after Clarissa, Jocelyn, and I arrived at Tasha’s apartment for our usual Sunday dinner. “What?!” Jocelyn exclaimed. “I thought you were going to take the Summer.” “I’ve thought a lot about it, talked with Tasha, talked with Clarissa, and had a short talk with Doctor Blahnik. Basically, I let my promise to Maggie cause me to ignore the reality of the situation.” “Lara?” Jocelyn asked. “It’s...
I was working in a company that had a factory in India too. It was in the 70”s that the company asks me to run their company in India for a couple of years as a technician. I was in my early 30”s and was married and had a daughter 7 years and son 6 years that time, my wife was the same age as me. We decided to do that and after all the necessary paperwork we want to India. The Indian company had rented a nice bungalow for us and had employed some servants for us. We had to get used to the...
While they make their way to the manor house, Joe begins to wonder why the fuck has he agreed to let Lord Dammartin spank his wife. Surely such a man will want more from a gorgeous woman like Caroline than to merely slap her arse a few times. Maybe he will want her the Etonian way— you know: perfect and back-door. Isn't that what they prefer— the old-school tie crowd? At the very least he'll want to see Caroline on her knees, his cock between her lips. Surely he will? Joe decides as long as he...
Wife LoversMarch 30, 1984, McKinley, Ohio “Sorry about earlier,” she said. “My roommate was being a bitch.” “Something specific?” I asked. “She’s been on the rag ever since our second week here. Guy trouble. I guess she thought you were trying to use me.” “I can see why she would think that,” I replied. “You and I don’t know each other except basically by sight and name, I sang to you, and you came to my room.” “If I were totally clueless about life, I could see it. But I knew what was going on!...
"Why should I undress for you?" Caroline asks Lady Dammartin."Because that is what I wish," Lady Dammartin says. She turns to Old James and tells him, "Please ensure the girl complies."The servant moves towards Caroline who quickly holds up her arm like a policeman at a junction controlling traffic."I haven't finished talking!" she tells him.Her own commanding tone surprises her, and for a moment Old James hesitates. There is uncertainty in his eyes. He looks at Lady Dammartin for...
Wife LoversMAGIC MEDICINE Christopher Halstead was at the end of his tether. He was only 50 years old but felt deep down in his soul that his useful life had come to an end. To understand why it is necessary to go back some twenty-five years. In 1992 Christopher married his childhood sweetheart Amy. He and Amy had grown up in adjacent houses; attended the same schools; and had had an unspoken 'understanding' from their teens. They only occasion they spent time apart was whilst they were at...
June 1, 1983, McKinley, Ohio Wednesday at the Quick Mart was very much like Tuesday, though there were no deliveries, so I had time to work through a number of items on Mr. Sokolov’s list. That kept me busy, and away from Nancy except for when it was time for her breaks. She apologized again and I replied as I had before, just telling her to take her break. Maybe I was being a jerk, but I was honestly quite upset with her, and really didn’t think there was much to talk about. When my shift...
November 26, 1983, West Monroe, Ohio “So what did you say?” Clarissa asked after I relayed what Hannah had said. “I simply said I appreciated the offer, that I’d keep that in mind, then smiled and left the house.” “After Maggie gave you permission?” “I don’t need ‘permission’ from Maggie to do anything,” I protested. “And be serious, Lissa, do you think it’s a good idea?” Clarissa shrugged, “Is it all that different from Kristin? Or from Mindy and Emmy?” “That kind of thinking is a...
October 16, 1983, McKinley, Ohio “I started dating someone,” I said to Tasha as we relaxed in the whirlpool at Doctor Blahnik’s house. “You’re not cheating on her, are you Mikhail Petrovich?” “No. It’s not THAT serious, and it won’t be anytime soon, if it ever is. But I thought you should know because we promised complete truth and complete honesty. I don’t want any misunderstandings.” “May I ask about her?” “Her name is Kimiko Mei Takahasi. She’s from a small town called Oguni in...
July 23, 1983, McKinley, Ohio Just as I had when Nancy told me that her mom had put her on the Pill, I missed a shift due to being completely surprised by Maggie’s question. I recovered enough to find the correct gear, and willed my heart to stop beating rapidly. The silence was deafening, but I needed to think about how I could answer her question. I wasn’t sure I knew the answer, but saying that seemed lame in the extreme. Almost immediately, I realized that I really shouldn’t have been...
July 28, 1983, McKinley, Ohio On Thursday evening I was sitting in my room, practicing my guitar after having spoken with Tasha and confirmed our date for Sunday. Just after 9:00pm, there was a knock at the door. “It’s unlocked! Come in!” The door opened and Milena walked in, closing the door behind her. “Hey!” I replied. “What’s up?” “Got some time for me?” “Always. What can I do for you?” “Sing me a love song and then make love to me?” “Your wish is my command!” I grinned. “Come sit...
November 19, 1983, West Monroe, Ohio “You know I think you’ve made a terrible mistake and given Sasha bad advice, right?” Clarissa asked after we got into my Mustang for the drive to my parents’ house. “Obviously.” “Her life is going to be very, very difficult.” “And living with her conscience after what she would consider murder would be easy?” “It’s not murder, Mike,” Clarissa said firmly. “I know that’s what you believe, and I know that’s what the law says, but I also know what she’s...
March 15, 1984, Gettysburg and Philadelphia, Pennsylvania “You’re OK?” Clarissa asked when she and I got out of bed on Thursday morning. “Yes. Just kissing was fine, Lissa. Let’s get our showers and meet Jocelyn. We need to get on the road by 6:30am so we can be in Philadelphia by 10:00am.” We both quickly showered and dressed, then we met Jocelyn in the hotel lobby. We went across the street for breakfast, and from there, straight to the car so we could get on the road. We followed US 30,...
July 1, 1983, McKinley, Ohio “Are you OK?” Clarissa asked on Friday morning as we lay in bed together. “Why wouldn’t I be?” “You seemed a bit out of sorts last night. Did that kiss bother you?” I smiled, “Not the way you mean. It was just, well, to be blunt, fighting a reaction. And losing.” Clarissa laughed softly, “I know. I felt it when I spooned. I’m sorry.” “Don’t be. I liked the kiss. The other reaction is kind of involuntary. As I keep saying, testosterone knows NOTHING about...
July 5, 1983, McKinley, Ohio As I showered after karate, I wondered exactly what Angie had meant when she said that she’d changed, and what that meant for the future. Angie had told me that her counselor had advised against starting a relationship, so perhaps this was just Angie’s way of telling me that what Clarissa had suggested might be true — that Angie was playing the ‘long game’ and this was simply the next step. That made more sense than anything, but it also meant I needed to be...
April 8, 1984, McKinley, Ohio “Natalya Vasilyevna Antonova, please meet Larissa Sergeyevna Federova,” I said. I laughed as the two girls instantly switched to Russian and I had to focus to catch everything that was said. Clarissa smirked and rolled her eyes, and I just shrugged. The gist of the conversation was hometowns, parents, churches, majors, and to Tasha’s obvious shock, Lara’s age. “Perhaps we should switch to English so Sveta isn’t left out,” Tasha said in English. “Mike looked...
June 18, 1983, McKinley, Ohio “Becky, this is my friend Milena; Milena, Becky.” “Hi!” Milena said. “I hope I’m not intruding.” “Hi,” Becky replied. “You aren’t. Mike told me you were going to hang out with us tonight.” “Do you drink wine?” Becky laughed, “My pastor would have a cow, but he’s not here!” Milena laughed, “And shacking up with Mike, THAT would be OK?” “Well, no!” Becky laughed, blushing slightly. Milena uncorked the bottle of wine while I got three glasses from the...
August 28, 1983, McKinley, Ohio When I got up on Sunday morning, I showered and dressed, and then Kristin and I left my room and I found a note from Angie on the corkboard next to my door. It said she was getting a ride to church from the same woman who had picked her up the previous night and I shouldn’t wait for her. I shrugged, locked the door, and gave Kristin a quick kiss. She headed down the hall towards her room and I walked over to the elevators and pushed the ‘Down’ button. An...
February 25, 1984, Rutherford, Ohio “Hi!” Emmy gushed when she opened the door for Clarissa and me on Saturday morning. “Thanks for letting Clarissa hang out here while I take care of this for Liz.” “You’re doing the right thing, Mike. I have to go to work in a few minutes, but Clarissa can buzz you in when you come back, and then if you just lock the door when you leave and bring the key to Lou’s everything will be cool.” “You’re a sweetheart, Emmy Nelson!” “I know!” she giggled,...
August 27, 1983, West Monroe, Ohio “Tasha,” I said gently, “you made me promise to keep you pure until we were married, or at least betrothed, no matter what you said! In other words, you made me promise not to do it even if you changed your mind! And I made that promise!” “I can’t change my mind?” “You were very clear that I was responsible for you NOT doing that.” “But isn’t that up to me?” I nodded, “As an adult, in charge of her own decisions, it is. But you extracted that promise...
October 14, 1983, McKinley, Ohio “I’m worried about Angie,” I said as Clarissa, Melody, and I made our way back to the dorm from the Chancellor’s office. “I know you told the detective that you have no idea where she might be, but do you have ANY thoughts?” Melody asked. I shook my head, “If she wasn’t with her friend and she wasn’t at church, and her counselor hadn’t heard from her, then no, honestly, I have no idea. I mean, she could have gone home, but I’m sure someone called there to...
December 21, 1983, West Monroe, Ohio “I’m not sure that’s such a good idea,” I said. “Afraid you’ll lose?” Violet asked. No, I thought, I wasn’t afraid of losing at all. In fact, I was sure that win or lose, I’d win, from a certain perspective. “No, that’s not it...” I started. “Then let’s play!” “Are you sure?” She nodded, “I can’t think of a more fun way to celebrate my birthday!” I could, and I was sure that what I was thinking was exactly what she was thinking, and she was just...
January 8, 1984, McKinley, Ohio “Is it always like that in the morning?” Clarissa asked. “Pretty often, but it doesn’t have the urgency, if you will, and it goes away pretty quickly once I get out of bed.” “Do you have ANY control over it?” “Limited,” I chuckled. “It pretty much has a mind of its own.” “That has to be difficult.” “Think standing in the altar, wearing acolytes’ vestments and seeing Tasha walk into church in a sundress.” Clarissa laughed softly, “She is gorgeous!” “And...
May 6, 1984, Rutherford, Ohio “I’m curious,” Clarissa asked quietly, “but what about a patronymic in this case?” “Sasha hasn’t said,” Tasha replied. “Technically, it would be some form of Timothy, because Timmy Aston is the baby’s father, but I don’t think she’ll do that. She really could pick anything.” “What happened with the baby’s father?” Clarissa asked. “My dad, Timmy’s dad, and two attorneys worked out the deal. Timmy’s going to college and really can’t afford to pay child support,...
June 5, 1983, McKinley, Ohio My alarm rang on Sunday morning and when I reached over to shut it off, Milena groaned softly, stretched, and turned to face me, her glorious breasts rubbing against my chest. “Hi,” she said sheepishly. “What’s wrong?” “Nothing! That’s just it. Nothing is wrong. I slept, naked, with a guy and literally nothing happened except a ‘good night’ kiss and spooning.” “And you think something should have happened?” She kissed my nose, “No, not at all. I mean, we can...
September 3, 1983, West Monroe, Ohio Tasha was very quiet on the drive home from Jackson Lake, and I wasn’t sure what to say to her, so I stayed quiet as well. When we arrived at my house, we exchanged a perfunctory kiss. “Are you OK?” I asked. “Yes,” she replied. “I’ll see you tomorrow at church.” I got out of the Volvo and went into the house. I said ‘hello’ to my parents, then asked Clarissa to sit on the patio and talk with me. We went to the kitchen, got glasses of lemonade, then...
September 5, 1983, West Monroe, Ohio “Now that you’ve had time to sleep on it, have you had any new thoughts?” Clarissa asked as we walked along the road from my house towards ‘downtown’ West Monroe on Monday morning. “Should I have new thoughts?” I asked. “Let me put it this way — if you’re going to change your mind, do it NOW, today. If she shows up in McKinley expecting two passion-filled nights and you back out, it’s going to be VERY ugly.” “Why would I back out? You and Liz made very...
December 17, 1983, Rutherford, Ohio After Vespers, Clarissa, Jocelyn, Tasha, and I went to Lou’s diner in Rutherford for dinner. “Is this Mike’s nightmare?” Jocelyn teased. “Or Mike’s ultimate fantasy?” “The three of you would be a nightmare,” I said flatly. “It’s bad enough to have ONE woman telling me what to do! But three? Kill me now!” The girls all laughed. “He knows women are in charge,” Tasha said primly. “Even the bishops cower in the corner if the women of the church are...
January 5, 1984, Columbus, Ohio “Master, Bless!” I said to Vladyka ARKADY when he greeted me in his office. “The Lord bless you, Subdeacon Michael,” he said as I kissed his hand. “Anthony, would you please bring the tea?” “Right away, Vladyka,” Subdeacon Anthony said. “Sit, Subdeacon. We’ll use the comfortable chairs so we can have a quiet chat.” I sat in one of the very comfortable wingback chairs and the bishop sat in a second chair which was very close. Subdeacon Anthony brought in a...
January 14, 1984, Loveland, Ohio On Saturday morning, after breakfast, I’d said goodbye to Clarissa and gotten in my car for the drive to Loveland. The ninety minutes in the car gave me my first real time alone since returning to campus. Clarissa was doing OK, and I’d managed to spend a few hours over the course of the week with Sophia, and had a chance to be the octopus for Kimiko. It was an interesting dynamic, because Kimiko and I hadn’t been going out as a couple, so to outsiders, it...