It was way too early for someone to be calling. Somewhere
in the darkness of my room I could hear my cell phone
ringing. Looking at the clock on my dresser I cursed - it
was 3:30 in the morning. Moving my hand in the direction of
the annoying sound, I found the phone and turned it on.
"Hello," I said in a curt fashion. I wanted the person to
know I wasn't happy about this early morning wake up call.
"Good morning, Linda," Dennis Butz replied crisply. "I'm
sorry to call you at such an ungodly hour."
"That's okay," I answered rudely while snuggling up a
little more in my nice, warm bed. "I had to get up in 3
hours anyway. What do you want, Dennis?"
"I have some bad news, Linda. Jeff Summers was taken to
Peace River last night."
"What?" I responded, suddenly becoming wide-awake. "What
happened?"
"Somehow Judge Jasper figured out who Jeff really was. He
was at a hockey game with some friends. As they were
leaving, Jeff got separated from them and disappeared.
After his friends searched the grounds they called me. I
made a few inquiries and discovered that Officer Merrick
had picked him up.
"What's going to happen to him?"
"I don't know, Linda," he stated sadly. "I imagine Judge
Jasper will put him on trial like he did with Judy Hartford
(read AV 19). I wish there was something I could do, but as
you know my influence in Peace River is limited. I wanted
you to hear the bad news from me first."
"I appreciate that, Dennis." I sat on the edge of my bed
and ran one hand through my long, brown hair. The thought
of Jeff going through a trial was too much to bear. It
would kill him, just like it had killed Judy. I had to do
something. "Dennis, I need you to get me to Peace River as
soon as possible."
"Linda," he warned. "Judge Jasper kicked you out of his
town. He won't be very happy seeing you show up there out
of the blue."
"I'll think he'll get over his anger once he finds out what
I have to offer in exchange for Jeff's freedom."
"And what would that be?"
A bad taste developed in my mouth. "Information."
"Information? What kind of information?"
"That's not important right now."
"Yes it is," Dennis stated firmly. "I don't know what you
have planned, but it sounds risky."
"Look, will you help me or not?" I snapped, and then added
softly, "Please Dennis, I have to try."
There was a moment of silence as the director thought about
it. "I'll have a plane ready for you in one hour, Linda. I
hope you know what you're doing."
"Thanks Dennis." I hung up the phone and rubbed the sleep
out of my eyes. Did I really want to go through with this?
What if Jupiter wasn't interested? No, that was a crazy
thought. Of course he would want what I had to offer. It
was just a matter of presenting it to him in the right
manner without losing control of the situation?
Yawning, I rose from my bed and started getting dressed.
Fade out...
***
Voice of Linda Anderson - They say to judge someone; you
must first walk a mile in their shoes. When I first came
here, I regarded this town as a prison. In many ways that's
still true, but only if you look at it superficially. Years
later, with the benefit of hindsight, I can now see the
town for what it is; a last attempt to bring peace between
the Titans, the Olympians, and us, the human race. If the
town succeeds, the people imprisoned in Peace River will
finally be free and there will be peace. If it fails, the
resulting war could end the world, as we know it. There are
some on all sides of this conflict who have their own
reasons for seeing the project fail.
These are the stories of the men and women who made a
difference during those dark days, and shaped history. It's
also about those who had to face their deepest, darkest
problems and what they gained from conquering them. It's a
place of second chances, hope, and peace. The name of this
town is Andersonville.
***
Andersonville 27 -- What if
Written by Kelly Davidson
Edited by Geoff
This story dedicated to Jezzi Belle, whose pursuit of the
truth keeps me on my toes. May your fire never dim, sister.
Fade in...
It was still dark when the Lear jet landed at the Peace
River airport. As soon as it taxied over to the hanger a
cop car pulled up, and a tall athletic-looking police
officer got out. The door opened, and I stepped off the
plane.
"Good morning, Linda," Officer Merrick smiled warmly.
"Welcome back."
"Thanks to you!" I snarled slightly at his pleasant
greeting. "You have a lot of nerve meeting me here."
"We'll talk in the car," he stated patiently while holding
the passenger door opened for me. I got in and waited until
we were moving before saying anything.
"Where are we going?"
"To the courthouse," he answered. "Do you need me to stop
at the store first?"
"No, I had plenty of coffee on the trip over. What's
happening with Jeff?"
"Brian Hennington," Mercury emphasized his Peace River
name, "is fine. He's being processed for his trial
tomorrow. An announcement about his capture will be made to
our people sometime this morning."
"Geez, Mark," I stated with disgust. "Didn't you guys learn
anything from Judy's death?"
"A few things," he nodded, but didn't expand on what they
were.
"Tell me, Mark. Everything you said about feeling sorry for
Judy Hartford, that was just a lie, wasn't it?"
"No, although I can see why you think that. What I did I
had to do, Linda. My father told me to bring your friend,
our ex-resident, back here. I certainly didn't want to do
it."
"Then why didn't you refuse?"
Mark Merrick looked at me with piercing eyes. "My father is
not someone you can say 'no' too in such matters." Mercury
said it with such firmness and truth that I knew he had no
choice in the matter.
"How did you find him?" I asked.
Mercury frowned. "I can't tell you, Linda. But just so you
know, it wasn't from Judge Herns. She had no idea who Jeff
really was." He stopped talking for a moment then grew even
more serious. "There's something else you need to know. My
father knows that Tom McClain is really Candy Lane. He
hasn't ordered me to pick her up yet, but he will."
"Shit!" I cursed angrily. "Who's the mole, Mark?"
"I told you, I can't tell you who 'she' is," he replied,
emphasizing the word 'she'.
I picked up on the hint, and played around with it in my
head. The snitch was a female, but that didn't narrow the
list down by much. The only thing I knew for certain was
that it wasn't Judge Herns.
"Okay, I'll work on that. Is your father in his office or
will I have to wait?"
"He's there, with Mr. Marshall and Pete Atkins."
"Oh, for crying out loud, Mer...Mer...Mark," I responded in
frustration. "It's just you and me! Why can't we drop this
damn charade and use their real names."
"Sorry, but it's our game," he answered thinly. "Can I give
you some advice, Linda?"
"What is it?"
"Don't go in there like a loose cannon. Be respectful to my
father, and give him his due. Despite what you might think,
he can be reasonable when treated with respect. If you must
be forceful, do it with tact. You'll get farther with him."
"Anything else?"
"Don't expect him to be happy to see you."
"The feeling's mutual," I replied. We parked in front of
the courthouse and went inside. At this time in the morning
there had been very little traffic, as the town was just
waking up for a new day. However, I wasn't totally surprise
to see Ashlee in her office, dressed rather nicely with a
warm smile.
"Linda, how are you?" she greeted me with a hug.
"I'm doing well, Ashlee." Our reunion was cut short by the
buzzing of her intercom.
"Ashlee, we're waiting," Judge Jasper's harsh voice rang
out.
"Yes, Your Honor," she replied politely. Ashlee gave me a
'good luck' smile and led me into his office. Officer
Merrick followed and closed the door.
"Have a seat, Miss Anderson," Judge Jasper ordered in an
unpleasant tone. He was sitting in the corner with Mr.
Marshal, AKA Mars, on his left and Pete Atkins, AKA Apollo
on his right. Mars had a tight smile on his lips, as if he
had scored a major victory by seeing me here. Apollo was a
bit more relaxed, but there was nervousness to his
demeanor. I took a seat across from them while Ashlee got
the judge some tea. Mercury stood behind me, as if to make
sure I didn't try to leave. When Ashlee sat down Judge
Jasper started the conversation.
"You were told to leave my town and not come back here," he
explained sternly.
"Forgive me, Your Honor. I'm here on behalf of Jeff
Summers."
"Who?" he questioned.
"The person you know as Brian Hennington."
"The person who is Brian Hennington," he stated in a gruff
manner. "Dennis Butz's serum doesn't change who I turned
him into." Jupiter was abrupt, as if trying to draw me into
an argument.
"Yes, Your Honor," I swallowed my pride. This wasn't going
to be easy. "I'm here to ask for his release." Mars and
Jupiter chuckled as if I were joking.
"Release him? Why should I do that? He has a purpose in our
town," Jupiter pointed out.
"He has a purpose in Andersonville, Your Honor. He won't be
happy here."
"That's not a problem...we can make him happy. Ms. Marshal
is very good at that." Again the two chuckled as if they
shared an inside joke.
"Jeff Summers has 'feelings'," I stated in a testy manner.
"You can't force him to act against what he really feels."
"His name is BRIAN HENNINGTON!" the judge interjected with
a roar. "Don't walk into my office and try telling me
what's what, young lady. I run this town, and I'll do as I
please!"
My temper reached its breaking point, and I found myself
starting to stand. "Now listen here you SON OF A..."
"Linda, SIT DOWN," Mercury ordered. He forcefully pushed me
back into my seat. I turned and glared at him, to which he
returned my stare with his own angry, warning expression.
Silently I thanked him for stepping in when he did. I took
a few deep breaths and turned back to face Judge Jasper,
who was staring at us both silently.
"Forgive me for my outburst, Your Honor," I said calmly,
but with determination in my tone. "I didn't come here to
argue the politics of your town. As I said, I came here in
the hopes you would allow Mr. Hennington to return to
Andersonville with me."
"You're wasting your breath, Miss Anderson. Although I'm
sorry for the way Judy Chunn chose to end her life, her
trial served a valid purpose. By bringing Mr. Hennington
and Miss Lane back to Peace River, it will re-enforce the
idea that trying to escape from Peace River is futile. It
will crush that hope once and for all."
'Not likely,' I wanted to argue but held my tongue.
Dictatorship ruling never accomplished what it intended.
"What about a trade?" I tossed out on the table.
"I'm listening," Judge Jasper said with a waxy smile.
"You allow Brian Hennington and Candy Lane to go free and
never bother them again. Let me stipulate this - they get
to live normal lives as Jeff Summers and Tom McClain
outside of Andersonville without fear of you picking them
up - ever!"
"And what do I get in exchange?" Jupiter asked.
"The one person you've been searching for...the mailman."
"Two people for one...how is that a bargain for us?" Mars
asked.
"I'm no fool, Mr. Marshal. Brian Hennington and Candy Lane
are no threat to your town, but the mailman is. You have a
problem and I can fix it. I can find the mailman for you."
"How?" Jupiter asked.
"As you know, Stephanie Hall wouldn't let me bond with Judy
Chunn before the trial, so what happened to her during
those three years she was gone will remain a mystery.
However, I did get close enough to discover Judy was the
link to the mailman. He picked her up outside of town.
That's how she was able to escape."
"I knew that you knew who the mailman was," the Roman God
of War stated angrily. "Who is he?"
"I'm afraid I don't have that information. As I said, I
never got to download Judy knew before her death. However,
I did pick up a partial license plate number from her
memory. It's not much, but it should be enough for me to
track down who the car belongs too."
"I want it," Jupiter commanded.
"Sorry, but there are conditions to this information."
"I'll agree to let your friends go and not bother them
again."
"That's not what I'm referring to, Your Honor," I said
while choosing my next words carefully. "I want to be
involved in the search, and see him brought to justice.
Think about it, Your Honor. I've done this type of work
before and can be very useful in tracking him down."
"Unacceptable," Mars roared. "We don't need the help of a
little girl to find..." Jupiter quickly put his hand up,
silencing his son with the command.
"You can't do this alone." Clearly Jupiter was interested
in what I offered him.
"Your right, I can't. I'll need the resources of Officer
Merrick and Pete Atkins." I deliberately left Mars out,
insulting and angering him even more. "With their help, I
will find the mailman and bring him to trial. All I need is
time."
"Time is one luxury you won't have a lot of," he answered.
"I'll give you three months to find him. Now, what do we do
if you fail? For you see Miss Anderson, I have no doubts
that Mr. Hennington and Miss Lane will take root in
Andersonville once they're released, and as you know I
can't touch them if they do."
I swallowed hard; knowing that while I was confident I
could find the mailman, it didn't mean I would. "I offer
myself as collateral, Your Honor. If I fail, I'll turn
myself over to you."
The king of the Roman Gods tugged at his beard, while Mars
stared at me with pure anger. Apollo sat there quietly with
a solemn stare.
"I agree to those terms under a couple of my own
conditions," Jupiter countered. "You will work out of Peace
River until the job is completed. I'm assuming you'll need
Internet and phone accesses; so anything you do must be
approved first by Officer Merrick. You will be monitored,
Miss Anderson, and you will not, as your race says, 'bitch'
about it. Also, your friend's freedom is dependent on you
finding the Mailman. If you fail, I'll go after them again.
Is that clear?"
"Crystal," I replied flatly. "I'll need time to settle
things with Judge Herns."
Judge Jasper nodded. "I'll give you 2 weeks, Miss Anderson.
Your friend will be released tomorrow morning and flown
back to Andersonville...you can stay until then. I'm
putting a great deal of faith in you, Miss Anderson...don't
let me down."
He said the last sentence sternly, letting me know that if
I did fail things wouldn't be pleasant for me here. Mark
opened the door and escorted me out. Judge Jasper asked
Ashlee and Mr. Marshall to stay behind.
"You did well," Mercury said as we exited Ashlee's office.
"Thanks for stepping in when you did," I nodded. Apollo
came up behind me and grabbed my arm, cutting our
conversation short.
"Linda, I was wondering if I could talk to you in private."
The expression on his face indicated this was going to be a
serious conversation.
"I'll meet you at the police station," Mark said and walked
away. I faced Apollo for the first time since he had
slammed me into the wall and almost choked me to death (AV
19 - P.O.W.).
"Let's go in here," he said, leading me to a conference
room big enough for a dozen people. I took a seat while he
closed and locked the door. Then he turned to me with a
painful expression.
"Linda, that day in Mark's store...I'm sorry for losing my
temper with you." He swallowed hard, then continued. "Judy
meant a lot to me...personally. I wanted her to be happy
and well. I never wanted to see her life destroyed the way
it was."
"I know," I replied. "I'm also to blame for that day, Pete.
What I said to you was out of line. I got caught up in the
moment and let my anger get the best of me. What I don't
understand is why you didn't do something about it. There
are legends of you and others standing up to your
father...why not then? Why didn't a group of you stand
together and say to him that what he was doing was wrong?"
Pete's face became twisted in conflict. "Sometimes Linda,
you don't realize how much you screwed up until afterwards.
What's your expression...hindsight is 20/20? I was hoping
things could be fixed after the trial. I never expected
Judy to kill herself. If I had..." His voice trailed off.
I gave him a sympathetic nod. "I can't fault you for making
a mistake, Pete. I made plenty in my own time. I'm also
sorry for the nasty things I said about you. I don't agree
with the philosophy of your town, but I do believe you had
Judy's best interest at heart."
"Thank you, Linda," he said with a smile. "Look, I'm having
a pig roast this afternoon and you're invited. There'll be
stories, laughter and games...you'll get to see another
side of my people that you haven't seen before."
"Will your father be there?"
"Only for a short time," Apollo half-grinned.
"Sounds like fun. What time should I be there?"
***
I spent most of the morning socializing with Ashlee and
getting caught up on what had happened since I left. The
freedom fighters, fueled by their anger over Judy's
suicide, had been busy disrupting services all over town.
Tires on city vehicles had been slashed, power lines had
been mysteriously cut, and more slogans calling for their
freedom appeared on walls everywhere. No one had been
caught yet, and Judge Jasper was getting more frustrated
each day by their actions. I realized just what type of
catch-22 he was in. It would be so easy to bring hardship
to his town, but he needed his people to live normal, happy
lives. Thus, he had all this power to punish them and yet
his hands were tied. To make matters worse, the mailman had
made another delivery, and like before there were no clues
as to who he really was.
I met Deimos later on that afternoon and he drove us to the
lake where the pig roast was being held. Although I still
enjoyed his company, I found my interest in him had waned.
Perhaps this was because I was distancing myself from the
Olympians and all they stood for. There was little doubt
that Deimos was committed to Jupiter's cause. But there was
also another reason, one that I couldn't deny even though I
tried. I had been dating Tom once or twice a week and
slowly but surely found myself becoming attracted to him.
It was crazy, considering he was a carbon copy of my old
self. In a sense, I was dating myself.
There were already 30 Olympians at the roast when we
arrived. The afternoon and early evening was spent eating,
drinking, and enjoying the many stories that each Roman God
told. Neptune in particular had many good tales to tell.
Other Olympians attended the roast over the course of the
day, popping in for an hour or two and then leaving. One
thing I found unusual was that I was the only human there.
Even the Olympians who dated or were married to humans in
Peace River didn't bring them along. Deimos got called into
work, but promised to come back later and pick me up when I
was ready. As night approached the party started to die.
Apollo started a fire, and those remaining with us; Venus,
Mercury, Cupid, and his wife Phoebe, sat around the fire
listening to Apollo play a U-shape harp called a lyre. It
made a sweet sound, and Apollo played it well. I became
enchanted by the music he produced from it. After he
finished each song, we would clap and ask him to play
another - which he did. After finishing one song, Apollo
held up his hand.
"Listen," he whispered. Everyone got quiet, but the only
thing I heard was the cracking and popping of the fire.
Apollo played a high note on the lyre, which was answered
by a similar note from a flute. Apollo smiled.
"Linda, be very still. You're about to see something most
humans have never seen before." Apollo played a few more
notes, and the music from the pipe got a little louder.
Carefully Apollo drew whatever it was in, until the sound
of the pipe was just outside our circle.
"Okay Linda, slowly and carefully look behind you - and
whatever you do, don't make a sound. If you do you'll scare
him off."
I turned and gasped in astonishment. It was goat, at least
from the waist down. It had goat's legs and was covered
with thick, white fur. From the waist up was the body of a
man, with two muscular arms and horns protruding from his
forehead. He had a wrinkled face with a short beard on his
prominent chin. In his hands was a long flute like device,
which I learned later was called a reed pipe. Apollo began
playing another song, and the goat/man joined in. Together
they made a magnificent sound. We joined in by clapping our
hands, and the goat/man started dancing around and playing
his pipe with vigor. Despite his strange appearance, I
found myself fascinated by him. After the song was over,
Mercury picked up an apple and tossed it to the goat/man.
"Here you go, Pan." The goat/man caught it with one hand
and sprinted off into the woods.
"Who was that?"
"That was Mercury's son," Apollo answered.
"Son?" I asked stunned, then looked at Mark.
"It's a long story," Mark answered. "Unfortunately, I don't
have the time to tell you. I have to check up on Sherry and
make sure she's okay. Our son is due soon."
"Are you sure it's a boy?" I asked humorously.
Mark smiled. "I'm willing to put money on it, Linda. Care
to make a small wager?"
"Against you?" I laughed, remembering the legends about
him. Mercury was something of a gambler back in his days.
"Do I have the word 'sucker' written on my forehead?"
Mercury chuckled. "I see you're learning. Goodnight." No
sooner had Mark said 'goodbye' he was gone.
"So where did this umm, person go?" I asked.
"Pan is rather shy, Linda," Apollo explained. "He won't be
back tonight. So, what should we do next?"
"I should be going," Venus replied. "I have an early day
planned."
"We need to go too," Cupid added as he helped his wife up.
The three said their good-byes and walked off into the
darkness, leaving Apollo and me alone by the fire.
"Maybe I should call it a night," I said yawning a little
from my early morning wakeup call.
"Wait a minute, Linda," Apollo said, then got a guilty look
on his face. "I still feel badly about what I did, and want
to make it up to you. So I'm offering you a once in a
lifetime chance. Here." Apollo handed me a three-inch black
cube. It appeared to be solid, but I didn't detect any real
weight to it. I flipped it around a few times and found
every side had the same, dull finish.
"What is it," I asked.
"That's a good question," he said slowly. "It's most
commonly referred to as the oracle of Delphi, but it has
other names...and functions. I can use it sometimes to
predict future events, but its real benefit is allowing you
to see how things would've turned out based on a different
decision or action."
"You're joking!"
"I'm serious, Linda. First the oracle creates another
dimension in this world by constructing a protective bubble
around it. Then it focuses on the decision or event in
question, and builds a universe based on the consequences
of that action. It shows you how your world would be
different today if let's say, you took a job in Chicago
instead of Atlanta. Call it a 'what if' box. What if I had
taken that job after high school instead of going to
college? What if I had married my ex-girl instead of the
one I'm currently married to? How would my life be
different...and how would it have affected others around
me?"
"But it can't possible do that," I argued.
"It does," Pete insisted. "Okay, the clothes you'll be
wearing may not be accurate, but the events are. The job
you're employed at, the person you fell in love with, and
the kids you have. It gives you a complete outlook of your
life based on that one decision."
"You mention the future. Can it tell me what's going to
happen in my life ten years from now?"
"Not really - because the future isn't set in stone. The
oracle can make predictions, and some of them will come
true, but most won't. As I said, its real benefit is
looking at the past and building to the present. It's
almost 99.9% accurate."
"How does it work?"
"You just think of a decision or action that you would like
to see changed. Then hold onto the oracle and ask it to
show you how things would've turned out. Remember when
Vickie talked to you about Ashlee Gang (AV 17), and how if
we hadn't interfered she would've helped murder an African-
American family of four? This is how we knew. I simply
asked the oracle to show me what would have happened if
Ashlee had never been brought to Peace River."
"So you can look into other people's lives."
"I can, but it won't function for you that way. I'm
offering you a chance to look at something in your past and
change it - to see how things would've turned out
differently."
"I can think of hundreds of decisions I would like
changed."
"Sorry Linda, there's only enough power for one trip. So,
ask yourself this. What is the one point in your life where
you wish you knew what would've happened if you had turned
someone down?
A small smile appeared on my face. "You seem to know me
pretty well, Pete. That would be the day I accepted Dennis
Butz's offer to go to Andersonville."
"There you go," Apollo grinned. "All you have to do is ask
the oracle to show you how your life would be different if
you had refused his offer." He stopped for a moment then
got very serious. "I must warn you Linda, you may not like
some of the things you see. It could cause you great
emotional pain once you return."
"What do you mean?" I asked. "If something bad happens over
there, it only justifies that my decision to go to
Andersonville was the right choice."
Apollo nodded slightly. "Maybe, and then maybe not. Rarely
is one decision totally wrong or right...without both pain
and happiness. Do you still want to go through with this?"
I thought about it and nodded. "Okay. Close your eyes and
wished that you hadn't taken Dennis up on that offer. Oh,
one last word of caution, Linda. Try not to confuse your
current life with the one you're about to enter. Things
will be very different, and only you will know what the
differences between the two worlds are. Have you got that?"
"Sounds easy enough," I replied confidently.
"Then close your eyes and concentrate on the point in time
you want to change."
I did as Apollo said, and thought about the day Dennis had
offered me this job. I wished to see how different my life
would have been if I had declined his offer. Nothing
happened. I didn't hear or feel anything change around me.
"It didn't work..." I started to say while opening my eyes.
I stopped in surprise and looked around. I was sitting in
an unfamiliar office. The room was decorated rather
sparsely with an old, wooden desk, a metal file cabinet in
the corner, and a few cheap pictures hanging on the wall.
The first thing I noticed about myself was the way I was
dressed. I was wearing dark pants, a blue shirt, and a
striped tie. I slowly lowered my hand and found my old
friend. I was a man again.
"It did work," I said out loud. I heard a car beeping
outside, and walked over to the window to take a look. I
peered out at a busy street below. I knew I was in Seattle
because I could see the space needle in the distance. It
was raining, a common occurrence in this city.
"What do you think, Tom," I heard Apollo ask.
"It's incredi...Agggggg!" I screamed like a frighten child.
It was Apollo, at least his head, floating in the middle of
the room smiling curiously back at me. He had scared me so
badly that I was surprised I hadn't peed my pants.
"Oh, sorry," he grinned. "I had to wait until this universe
became stable before I could pop in."
"Forget about that...where in the hell is the rest of you?"
"Back by the camp fire," he explained. "Think of this as me
sticking my head in from behind a curtain - the only part
you would see is my head. By the way, no one else can see
or hear me, so don't start babbling off to me unless you
want everyone here to think you're now a few bricks short
of a full load." His head floated over to where I was at,
and looked out the window. "Hummm, the city of Seattle."
"Yes," I answered a little uncomfortably. Seeing him like
this was going to take some getting use to. "So what is
this place?"
"This is where you work," Apollo answered as he looked
around. "Not a very nice office. It could use some paint."
"Perhaps I'm not here that much. Speaking of which, am I
still in Peace River?"
"Well, yes and no. Your body is in a trance, because your
consciousness is here. So physically you're there - well,
in a sense, but mentally you're not."
"What do you mean in a sense?"
"Well, if you use the bathroom in this world, you won't be
peeing your pants back at the campfire. Your mental state
is attached to the physical body in this world, but your
real body, your female body, is still back in Peace River.
"Sounds a little confusing, Pete...Apollo. Hey, I can say
your name without any problems. Is that because you're
allowing it?"
"No Tom. As I said, you're not really in Peace River
anymore, so those rules don't apply to you here."
"Great - I no longer have to play that stupid game of, 'I
know who you are, but I'm going to pretend you're someone
else, even though you and I are the only ones around." I
took a quick look around the room. "If this is my office,
why am I here?"
"You're about to find out," he replied. There was a sharp
knock at my door, and I looked at Apollo a little
uncertain. "Go on Tom, it's for you. Just remember, they
can't see me."
I straightened my tie and opened the door. It was a nicely
dressed woman in her early thirties. "Hello," I said,
suddenly realizing I had no idea who this person was.
Apollo, at least his head, floated out of the way to watch.
"Good evening, Mr. McClain," she said coldly. "You told me
you had some pictures you wanted me to see."
"Umm, yes, that's correct," I answered. I looked over to
Apollo for guidance.
"The file you're looking for is in your top desk drawer,
Tom. This is Mrs. Vandike. You were hired to find out if
her husband was cheating on her.'
"So I'm a detective," I replied.
"That's what you told me," the woman shot back, giving me a
strange look. "You do have them, don't you? I'm paying you
good money, Mr. McClain."
Apollo chuckled as I tried recover. "Yes, of course, Mrs.
Vandike. Have a seat please." I pulled out a chair in front
of my desk, then scrambled to the other side to get the
folder. I lifted it from the drawer and handed over the
pictures. As she stared at the pictures I glanced over my
poorly scribbled notes. "These were taken at a bar called
"No Attitudes," which is located on the south side of..."
"I know where it's at, Mr. McClain," she snapped heatedly.
Tears formed in her eyes as she looked at each picture.
"You told me all this over the phone. I...I just..."
Her anger wasn't directed at me, nor was it really anger.
The poor woman was struggling with the fact that the man
she loved and wanted to spend the rest of her life with was
unfaithful. I handed her a box of tissues, which she
gratefully accepted.
"That damn bastard, I love him," she stated painfully. "I
guess you must think I'm a fool, Mr. McClain. Even though
he's cheating on me, I still love him. Why doesn't he love
me the same way?"
"I don't think you're a fool Mrs. Vandike, nor do I
understand why he's cheating on you. If you still want to
work things out, I suggest that both of you see a marriage
counselor. They can help. I have a few people I can refer
you to."
"Thank you, Mr. McClain," she answered, wiping the last few
tears from her eyes. "You must see a lot of these cases."
"Quite a few," I nodded. I gave her a few names, took her
check for $300, and escorted her to the door. Another
successful case - yet I felt no real satisfaction from it.
"You did well, Tom," Apollo observed. "I'm impressed with
the way you handled this, and offered to help her out at
the end."
"I've had plenty of practice," I answered while taking a
seat. "I guess it's nice to know what I'm doing for a
living, but this isn't really what I was interested in.
What happened to the Anderson's...and Al? When do I get to
see them?"
"Anytime you wish, Tom. In here things work a little
differently. While everything about this world is real,
it's not very big. This universe is only about a mile in
diameter."
"You mean I can't travel more than a mile from here?"
"No, that's not what I mean," he shook his head. "Because
of its size, most of the universe is created in memory
only. When you do want to go someplace, the oracle pulls
out that memory and shifts to it. To go someplace, all you
have to do is state the location out loud."
"Sounds easy enough," I replied. "Okay, I wish to be were
the Anderson's are." Suddenly everything swirled around me
and became a blur. Moments later I was standing at the
front door of the house I had built for them. In the
distance I could see the other house Jennifer and I had
once shared. It appeared in this life I had been able to
keep some of the money I received from the sale of Dr.
Jensen's house.
"Pretty cool, huh?" Apollo said.
"Not bad," I agreed. I rang the doorbell and Mrs. Anderson
answered. Her eyes lit up when she saw me.
"Tom!" She threw her arms around me and gave me a big hug.
"Tom, it's so nice to see you again. How are you?"
"I'm fine, mom. I was in the area and thought I would check
and see how everyone is doing."
There was a painful look on her face as she invited me in.
"We've had better days, Tom. Sox is out drinking with some
friends."
"Drinking?" I questioned. Sox was an alcoholic who I had
gotten back on the wagon with the help of a local AA group.
Now he was drinking again...and when an alcoholic drank it
wasn't a good sign.
"Don't be so surprise, Tom. He's been drinking ever since
that day."
"That day?"
"You know, the day Tracy was taken from us." I realized she
was talking about the trip we made to Area 51 (read AV 1).
That was when Dennis had offered me a chance to work for
him in Andersonville. Of course in this universe I had
turned him down.
"Yes, I...I try to forget about that day."
Mrs. Anderson placed her hand gently on my arm. "I
understand, Tom. I miss her too. She was a lovely little
girl."
I almost corrected her. Tracy had actually been Gerald
Rogers, a Roman God who had been cast out of Peace River,
and there was nothing sweet about him. Thank goodness for
the behavior serum Dr. Jensen had developed. Because of it,
I had been able to order him to behave as a normal little
girl.
"I miss her," she stated sadly. "I always wanted to be a
grandmother."
"I know mom. Maybe one day you will."
"Not with Jennifer," she told me. "She...oh Tom, you must
talk to her. I'm so worried about her."
"What do you mean?" I asked.
Mrs. Anderson never got a chance to answer the question.
The sound of high heel shoes clicking on the hard floor
interrupted our conversation. Jennifer/Al strolled into the
kitchen; only it wasn't the Jennifer I remembered. She was
dressed in a short, leather skirt and a silver halter-top
that barely covered her breasts. Around her legs was a pair
of dark, fishnet stockings that highlighted the stiletto
heels she wore. Her face was made up heavy with makeup, and
even from across the room I could smell the perfume she was
wearing. Jennifer looked like a barroom hooker.
"Mom, have you seen my cigarettes?" she asked, then stopped
when she saw me. There was a look of sadness, or maybe it
was shame, in her eyes. "Hi Tom."
"Hi Al," I said softly.
"It's Jennifer," she frowned. "I told you never to call me
that name again."
"I'm sorry," I apologize humbly. Mrs. Anderson looked at
the young woman painfully. Her daughter, at least the
person she had come to love as her daughter, was self-
destructing before her very eyes.
Jennifer shrugged her shoulders as if she didn't care
anymore and turned back to her mother. "So mom, have you
seem my cigarettes or not?"
"You left them on the table." Then she added in a low, non-
offending tone, "Jennifer, I wish you wouldn't smoke. It's
not good for you."
"Yeah?" She picked up her cigarettes and proceeded to light
one as if what her mother thought didn't matter. She
inhaled, and then blew the smoke in her direction. "There's
lots of things not good for me mom, but I do them anyway.
Some of these things make me feel good."
"And this is one of them, Jennifer?" I questioned. "You
used to hate smoking."
"I used to hate being 'screwed' by guys, but things
change," she chimed. "Maybe I'll die young, but at least
I'll be doing the things I enjoy."
"Jennifer...what's wrong?" I asked with great concern. This
wasn't the person had I rescued from the Jensen house and
later married.
"What are you, my mother?" she snapped. "I'm a woman now!
What else am I suppose to do but spread my legs and please
men!"
"Jennifer!" Mrs. Anderson cried shamefully. "Please don't
talk like that. I'm a woman, and there is more to my life
than...than pleasing my husband."
"You had a family, mom. Me, I had to get my tubes tied so I
wouldn't get pregnant again. What decent man would want me
now? Even my best friend here threw me away."
"That's not true, kiddo," I jumped in. "I still love you
very deeply."
"Really?" she questioned with raised eyebrows. "Enough to
'fuck' me right here and now."
I swallowed hard, trying to find the right words.
"Jennifer, my love for you is deeper than sex."
"Stop avoiding the question," she said seductively, while
moving beside me and running her long, manicured
fingernails through my hair. "How about it, Tom-boy? One
more for old times sake!"
I grabbed her hand and held it away from me. "Damn it,
Jennifer. I love you more than that. Don't you see I want
to help? Are you so blind that you can't see how this is
hurting mom?"
"I wish you had let me die back at the Jensen's house," she
hissed angrily while pulling her hand away. "I told you to
set the place on fire and let me die, but you were too
noble to do such a thing, Tom. My life is not like yours;
so don't try to tell me how to live it. You're still a
man...I can never be one thanks to you. You could have
saved me by taking Mr. Butz up on his offer!"
"It wasn't the right thing to do," I tried to explain.
"Dennis couldn't be trusted."
"Well thanks for discussing it with me first," she yelled
totally pissed. "Now I'm stuck like this - FOREVER! And you
have the nerve to come here and tell me that you care."
"Jennifer," Mrs. Anderson reached out in hope. "Tom is only
trying to help."
"He's done enough!" she spat, while picking up her black,
leather coat. "I won't be home until late, 'mother'. And
just so you know, I'll be bringing someone home with me
tonight. I'm warning you so you don't walk into my room and
embarrass me or yourself." She looked in my direction one
more time, frowned, and left the room. I heard the front
door slammed and moments later the sound of a car
screeching away. I knew the friendship we once had could
never be the same.
"She's just angry," Mrs. Anderson explained. "She doesn't
mean what she said, Tom."
"Yes she does, mom," I whispered. "And she's right; I am
the reason why she can never be a man again. She has every
right to hate me."
"Oh no, Tom...you did the right thing I'm sure. We have no
idea what Mr. Butz was planning to do to us. You even said
yourself he was going to make Sox and I forget our past.
How could we be happy if he did that?"
"Yes, how could you?" I whispered absentmindedly.
Mrs. Anderson gave me a loving hug. "Why don't you stay for
dinner, Tom? I could use the company. We could talk about
your work."
"Sure mom," I replied, although talking about my job was
the last thing I wanted to do. Mrs. Anderson wiped the
tears from her eyes and went downstairs to get something
from the freezer. I walked into the living room and sat
down. Apollo's head followed.
"I don't get it, Apollo. What happened to Jennifer, and my
father?"
"What always happens to those who can't or don't deal with
their problems...they self-destruct," he said sadly. "The
death of your baby, plus losing his granddaughter Tracy,
followed by your divorce was too much for Mr. Anderson to
deal with. As a result, he turned to the bottle to ease his
pain."
"But he knows that's not the way!"
"It's not about knowing Tom; it's about having the strength
to do something about it. Sox is a strong man, but he still
has several weaknesses that he can't deal with. He doesn't
know any other way to ease his pain other than drinking to
the point where he can't remember. Don't you see Tom, your
father doesn't want to work through his pain, he wants to
forget about it."
"What about Jennifer? She's become a...a..."
"Whore?" Apollo finished for me. "Yes, she's reverted to
the life-style Gerald trapped her into. A few weeks after
Tracy was taken away, Jennifer had a nervous breakdown. You
thought that by telling Jennifer about the offer Dennis had
made which you had refused, it would help her deal with her
depression. Instead it had the opposite effect. She felt
betrayed, and ended up hating everything you stood for. She
doesn't care what happens to her now. All she wants to do
is die - and until then she's going to do everything she
can to hurt those around her, including herself. She has a
lot of guilt and pain to deal with - but sadly she won't
get help for it."
"But we dealt with that already," I told him.
"Yes and no, Tom. Yes, you did deal with it, and Al was
able to accept his new life as Jennifer Anderson for a
while - but she never, truly did embrace it like you have
as Linda Anderson. The Al Parker inside that body knows he
would still be a man if he hadn't tried breaking into Dr.
Jensen's home that night. They may have been the ones who
transformed him into Jennifer, but he knows who's really to
blame for him being a sexy young woman."
"Is there nothing I can do for her, Apollo?"
"Like what?" he asked. "This universe is only temporary.
Once you leave, it will cease to exist. Besides, you can't
save a person who doesn't want to be saved, Tom. I hate to
say this, but Jennifer is lost in her own misery...and she
doesn't trust you anymore. You can't help her...no one
can."
"I can't believe how screwed up she's become - or my
father. It's like a bad dream."
"Perhaps, but not all things turned out bad."
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"You have other friends, Tom. Why don't you check them
out?"
"Keith Bennett. I want to see what's happening with him."
Suddenly things began to swirl around me, and I found
myself standing in darkened room in front of a picture
window. Apollo appeared beside me.
"Where am I?" I asked.
"You're in Martin's Furniture store," he answered.
"In Andersonville?"
"Not anymore," Apollo answered. "Because you refused to
come here, Dennis Butz stayed with the original name he had
in mind."
"Which was?"
"Atlantis...the name of the place where the Titans used to
rule from before we arrived. Atlantis, Montana. It has a
nice ring to it, doesn't it?"
"I'm surprise Dennis wasn't planning to call it
'Illusionville', since it's closer to the truth." Apollo
chuckled cheerfully.
"Anyway, this is as close as you can get to him."
"Why can't I meet with Keith in person?"
"Because of the temps," Apollo explained. "How long do you
think you would last out there before they spotted you?
This way they won't see us standing here in the dark. Look,
here comes Keith now."
It was Keith, AKA Larry Smith. He was coming out of the
movie theater with his friend, Bill 'Grizzly' Maxwell.
Holding onto Bill's hand was Peggy Wilson. They were
laughing; most likely about the movie they had seen.
"He looks happy," I observed.
"They all are, Tom. Dennis had Keith brought here like
before, and he accepted his new life. Of course, it was a
little harder without you or Al around, but when Bill
showed up (AV 10) they formed a strong friendship. Peggy of
course warmed up to Bill over time."
"So my decision had nothing to do with their outcome.
Either way they would've come here and been happy."
"Pretty much so Tom, although you shouldn't sell yourself
short. You did help Keith come to terms with his sister's
death, something he's still struggling with in this world.
I can sense a lot of guilt over this issue."
They walked by; totally unaware I was watching them in the
darkness. Apollo sensed something wasn't right with me.
"What's the matter, Tom?"
"I don't know, Apollo...I guess I miss them. Keith and Bill
are good friends of mine, and Peggy was actually starting
to warm up a little. I guess not knowing them in this world
make's me realize how rich my current life is."
"Does that include me too?" Apollo asked.
"I smiled. "Yes, you too."
"I'm glad to hear that Tom, because I feel the same way.
So, do you want to continue watching them?"
"No, I've seen enough. Let's try someone else." I thought
about it and felt a glimmer of hope. "Kevin Brown. I want
to see where he's at."
The world shifted around me, and I found myself standing in
the middle of a graveyard. Slowly my eyes adjusted to the
darkness, and saw that I was standing at his grave. Tears
welded in my eyes as I knelt down and brushed the grass off
his marker. At the top it read, 'Killed in the line of
duty'.
"I know you miss him Tom, but his death had nothing to do
this decision," Apollo stated.
"I know. I was hoping that maybe it did." I put my hand
over my mouth and for the thousandth time I found myself
asking why him. "Apollo, could I have saved him somehow?"
"Yes, if you had made other decision's early in your life
that would have affected his," Apollo confessed. "The
question is would he have been as happy? That's hard to
say."
"He would be alive," I almost exploded at Apollo's
casualness.
"So - does that mean he would be living a fruitful and
happy life?" the Roman God countered. "Tom, a person's life
shouldn't measure by the years they live, but how they
lived them. A life should be measured by how much they were
loved by others. Kevin was a very well loved and respected
man at the time of his death, and that showed what type of
person he was."
"Yes he was respected," I said sorely. "He was also a good
friend."
"Would you like me to give you some time alone with him?"
Apollo offered.
"No, but thanks," I stood and brushed the dirt off my
pants. "I think I've spent enough time here...and in this
world. I'm ready to go back now."
"Are you sure, Tom? Don't you want to see how your life
turned out?"
"I already know," I told him. "I'm a private eye."
"That's what you do for a living. I'm talking about your
personal life."
"My personal life? You mean I actually have one?"
"Sure...want to see?"
I nodded, and slowly the world around me changed again,
this time to someone's living room. Nearby I saw a table
set for two, with candles lit. There was soft music playing
from the radio nearby.
"Where am I?" No sooner had I asked the question a young
woman came out of her bedroom fooling with an earring. She
was wearing a short, red dress that made me drool, and had
her long, black hair hanging just right over her shoulders.
"Babe, I didn't hear you come in," she smiled. The stranger
strolled over and kissed me on the lips. "But I'm glad
you're here, tiger. I've been waiting for you." She growled
softly and gave me a seductive smile.
"What's the occasion?" I asked pointing to the table. She
gave me a mischievous grin.
"No occasion. I just thought you and I would spend some
time together. Let me get dinner." She kissed me one more
time, and went into the kitchen."
"Apollo, who is this person?" I asked softly
"She's your girlfriend, Tom. You met her about a year ago
while investigating some stolen property. Her name is
Monica, and she's madly in love with you."
"Am I in love with her?"
"Do you feel like you are?"
I thought about it and realized that I did. In fact I was
feeling a great deal for this lady. She was soft and sexy,
but also very comfortable to be around. I wanted to immerse
myself in her charm.
"Why do I feel so strongly toward this stranger?" I asked.
"You're feeling the relationship you've formed with her
over these past months," Apollo explained. "I'm allowing
your true feelings for her to come out."
"And she feels the same way?"
"Who are you talking to?" my girlfriend asked holding two
plates of food in her hands.
"No one," I lied. "I was just thinking out loud about a
case."
"I see," she smiled. "Well forget about your cases tonight,
Tom...tonight it's just you and me."
She laid the plate on the table, but I didn't even bother
seeing what it was. All I could do was stare at the lovely
woman who loved me as much as I loved her. To some men she
would've appeared average, but to me she was the prettiest
woman I had ever seen.
We ate the pasta casserole she had fixed and discussed
upcoming birthdays and other social events. The more we
talked, the more I wanted to spend time with her. She was
everything I had ever wanted.
"That was delicious," I told her after dinner.
"Are you ready for desert?" Monica grinned while standing.
She reached behind her back, and I heard the sound of a
zipper. The shoulders of the dress moved forward, and with
a slight tug fell to the floor. She grinned seductively
while standing there in just her black panties and bra. Her
legs were smoothed and tan, her waist was narrow, and her
hips were slightly wider than the rest of her body. I felt
myself getting hard seeing her there.
I grabbed her in my arms and kissed her lips. She answered
with passion, and I moved my hands over the silky panties.
She gasped with pleasure, and then put her finger to my
lips. "Let's move to the bedroom, tiger," she whispered.
"I'll wait out here," Apollo told me with a smile. At least
he was a well-mannered god.
Monica grabbed my hand and led me to the bed where the
sheets were already drawn. We continued to kiss as I
unsnapped her bra. It fell to the ground, and I moved in on
her breasts that were begging to be taken. She removed her
panties, and then helped me out of my clothes. Now naked,
we fell on the bed and let nature take its course. Never
before had I been so in-tune with a woman before. We
twisted and turned, getting as much pleasure from the
moment that we could. When it was over we lay there in each
other's arms satisfied.
"Tom," she asked apprehensively. "Do you love me?"
"Love you? I'm mad about you, Monica."
"What about children?" she pressed. "Do you want to have a
son or daughter some day?"
"Yes, I think I would," I grinned, thinking of what it
would be like to be a father. "I think that would be great.
Why do you ask?"
"I'm pregnant."
"What?" I rose slightly and looked down at her.
"I'm...I'm pregnant with your child," she sputtered. "I'm
about 6 weeks along I think. I'm sorry if..."
I didn't let her finished. I bent down and kissed her
passionately. I was feeling totally blessed by the
announcement. "I love you, Monica. I love you with all my
heart." Then I laughed; feeling happier than I ever had
before in my life. "I'm going to be a father! Oh my god,
I'm going to be a daddy. I don't know how to thank you,
Monica. Wait, yes I do. Marry me!"
"You mean that, Tom?" she whispered cautiously.
"I do Monica," I replied seriously, then laughed with glee.
"Tomorrow we can fly to Las Vegas and become man and wife.
I love you, Monica!"
"Oh Tom," she laughed with tears in her eyes. She gave me a
long kiss, and cuddled up next to me. We talked into the
night about the baby and what it would mean. We would have
to get a bigger place, and start fixing it up. All those
plans - but they were good plans. Finally in the early
morning hour exhaustion took over, and we fell asleep in
each other's arms. I had never felt so secure in all my
life.
"Tom," I heard Apollo calling.
"What?" I mumbled.
"Tom, it's time to go."
"Leave me along, I want to sleep."
"No Tom, it's time to go. It's almost sunrise."
"Where are we going?" I asked. Then I realized what he
meant. I didn't want to go back with him. I was happy here.
I wanted to stay and get married to the woman I loved. I
wanted to be a father, something I couldn't do in my other
life.
"Leave me alone Apollo," I said harshly, suddenly waking
up. I could see the outline of his head floating in the
dark room. Monica stirred, and I reached over and touched
her soft hair. She was all I wanted now.
"It's time, Tom," Apollo insisted.
"Didn't you hear me," I hissed softly. "I'm not leaving,
PERIOD! Do I have to spell it out for you?"
"You can't stay, Tom. The bubble of this universe is very
unstable and won't last more then a few hours. We have to
leave."
"What about Monica?" I cried. "What happens to her?"
"She doesn't exist, Tom. Everything around you is
temporary, not real. Her life is on the other side. I let
you stay as long as I could, but now we must be going.
Please Tom; don't force me to drag you out of here."
I hung my head and looked back at Monica one more time. I
reached over and kissed her on the forehead. A smile
appeared on her lips. "Goodbye Monica," I whispered.
"Close your eyes Tom, and asked to be returned."
Slowly I closed my eyes while at the same time thinking
about the life that I could've had if I had turned down
Dennis' offer. I asked to be returned, and suddenly the
crackling of a fire invaded my ears. I opened my eyes, and
found that I was back in Peace River, in my female body. I
was Linda Anderson once more.
"Welcome back, Tom. How do you feel?" Apollo asked
curiously.
"Like I've just lost my soul mate." Then I got angry. "You
did that on purpose you Son of a Bitch - didn't you?"
"I didn't want to, but yes, I thought it was important you
saw everything."
"Why?" I demanded to know harshly. "Why did you do that? So
you could watch my heart break? What, I wasn't miserable
enough so you wanted to make me regret going to
Andersonville? Why did you do it, Ap...Apo...Apollo?"
"You can speak my name for now," he said. Then he looked at
me sternly and spoke, "Sometimes people do better in life
by knowing the truth...isn't that what you once told Judge
Herns?" (AV 22)
"That was different," I snapped. "Judge Herns wanted to
erase the memories of my mother's past. What happened to me
wasn't my past, it was a possible future - there was no
truth to it."
"The truth is the truth Tom, even if in this universe it
really didn't happen," he explained. "Besides, the question
was how did your decision affect everyone...and doesn't
that include you? The Anderson's were devastated by not
going to Andersonville, but most likely would've recovered
once they found out they were going to be grandparents
again. Unfortunately, it would've had a very negative
affect on Al/Jennifer, who would've sunk even deeper into
the pit she dug for herself. I can't say for sure, but
suicide appears to be her ending.
"As for Keith Bennett and Kevin Brown, things wouldn't have
changed. Keith would be happily living out his life as
Larry Smith in Andersonville, and Officer Brown would still
be dead. So if you hadn't taken Dennis up on his offer,
there would be three people hurt by your decision and two
friends who weren't affected at all."
"And what about me, Apollo?" I stated bitterly. "I not only
lose the woman I love, but my unborn child."
"I'm sorry Tom, but I didn't write your history - you did."
"You still haven't told me why you showed me this part."
"What if I hadn't?" he replied in a rational manner. "Would
that have been the right thing to do...to only show you the
negative outcomes of your decision and none of the
positives? For every decision you make there are both good
and bad events that come out of it. In this case you
would've found a lovely woman to spend the rest of your
life with. Is that better than your current life?"
"YES!" I snapped.
"Perhaps Tom, but then perhaps the happiness you seek in
life is what you make of it. Maybe instead of reaching for
things you can't have, it's better to reach for things you
can."
I shook my head angrily. "No, I won't accept that. I'll
find a way to turn myself back into a man again and go
after her." Suddenly Apollo got a painful look on his face.
"What is it?"
"Tom...I'm sorry. I don't know how to tell you this. You
see, I was also curious about what happened to Monica, and
used the oracle to check up on her while you two were in
bed."
"Where is she?" I asked, dreading the answer. Somehow I
knew it wasn't good. "Did she marry someone? Did she have
someone else's child?"
Apollo swallowed hard, and there was mixed emotions in his
expression. "Tom...because Monica never met you, she took a
job in New York City a month before the 911 attacks. She
was in the South Tower when it col..."
"NO! NOOOOOOOO!" I got angry and started hitting Apollo in
the chest with all my might. It was built like a brick
wall, and each blow stung my fists. Finally when I could
take the pain no more, I broke down crying. Apollo wrapped
his massive arms around my body and hugged me tightly.
"I'm sorry, Tom...I really am," he said honestly. "I
debated long and hard about telling you."
"Do something...save her?" I sobbed. "Use your powers to
bring her back! I'll do anything you ask of me Apollo, if
you grant me this request. Please, I want her to be alive
again."
"I can't do that, Tom...anymore than I can bring your
friend, Officer Brown, back. We have no power over death
once they reach the other side. But death is not the end,
Tom...it's the beginning. She's happy now. Where she's at
there is no pain or hate...only love."
His words, while comforting, did not comfort me at all.
Everything I wanted was lost because I had taken Dennis up
on his offer. I was bitter, and felt I had the right to be.
Even if I could become a man again, I would never have
Monica. She was dead.
"I hate this box," I told him. "I never want to see it
again as long as I live. I was wrong, it's not
amazing...it's horrible!"
Apollo gave me an understand nod. "I know. There are times
I wish I didn't have possession of it. The important thing
here is that you don't blame yourself for what happened."
"Monica is dead because of me."
"No, Bin Laden and his monsters killed her because of their
hate and misguided views of religion. You can't be
responsible for everyone, Tom. If you hadn't taken Dennis
up on his offer, things would've been different...but then
it would've been the Anderson's and Al Parker who paid the
price. Would that make you feel better?"
"I suppose not," I agreed. "Either way I'm responsible for
their deaths."
"No Tom, you're not," Apollo pointed out. "Everyone in the
end makes their own choices. Let's look at your friend, Al
Parker. If he hadn't taken the job Klien Walker had offered
him, you wouldn't be here having this conversation with me.
And if Monica hadn't taken that job in New York, she would
still be alive. Tom, they're responsible for their own
futures. You can't blame yourself for their failures and
how their lives turned out because of what you did or
didn't do. You're part of their life, but you're not
responsible for how they live it. Besides, who's to say
Monica wouldn't have die in a car crash the next day if you
had turned Dennis down. There are no guarantees in life -
except for the fact that one-day you will die. That's why
people should live like there is no tomorrow, because there
just might not be."
His words made sense...and as much as I hated to admit it
Apollo was right. They had made their own decisions.
Still...
"I don't know, Apollo. Your words make sense, but I don't
think I'll ever find another person like Monica to love."
Apollo smiled. "You will, Tom. I guess I need to start
calling you Linda again."
"And I have to start calling you Pete," I replied, wiping
the final tears from my eyes. "Apollo, don't you ever get
tired of this game?"
He thought about it long and hard. "Sometimes, Tom. Then
again, I get tired of the way humans run this
planet...polluting rivers and oceans to make a profit, or
stabbing each other in the back to get ahead. There's a
better way to live...yet as a whole the human race is blind
to that fact. Why is it that so many people want peace and
yet there is none? Yes Tom, sometimes I do get tired of the
game we play, but Peace River is still better than the real
world. It has its faults, but it's closer to the world I
want to live in.
"As for keeping our identity a secret, if the people of
Peace River knew who we were they wouldn't treat us as
regular members of their society. We had that happen once,
and despite what you might thing, it wasn't all that
wonderful to be on a pedestal all the time."
He threw some sand on the dying fire and stood. "The diner
should be opening soon. Come on, I'll buy you some
breakfast before we pick up your friend."
"I really not in the mood to eat," I told him, then spotted
some wild flowers growing nearby. "Could I ask a favor of
you?"
Apollo nodded as if he understood. "Go ahead, Linda. I'll
take you to see Monica."
"Thanks Apollo." I gave him a hug, then turned to pick the
prettiest flowers I could find for her grave.
Fade out...
Next episode - Freedom Fighters