Good Medicine Freshman YearChapter 22 Fallout
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May 23, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio
“Good morning, Mike!” my mom said when I arrived at the kitchen table for breakfast.
“Hi, Mom,” I said.
“What do you have planned for today?”
“It’s all on the calendar, just like it has been since I could write,” I replied with a smile. “I work from 8:00am to noon, then I have my Saturday karate class at 1:00pm. Dale and I are playing chess after that, and Vespers are at 6:00pm. I’m taking April to the movies after church.”
“What are you going to see?”
“Excalibur,” I replied.
“Are Dale and Jocelyn going to the movies with you?”
“And Stacey and Carl,” I said. “We’re meeting there.”
“You seemed kind of down last night when you came home. Dale and Jocelyn seemed uneasy when you went to bed. Did something happen?”
I’d always been open and honest with my mom. It had been easy, really, because I really hadn’t done anything I’d want to hide from her. I’d WANTED to, but the night in Grant Park had been typical of my life. I’d never been in trouble at school, never had trouble at work, never had a speeding ticket, and beyond the very rare encounters with April’s sweater-clad breast, I had nothing to even consider hiding. But this was complicated. I wasn’t sure I wanted to say out loud what had happened or what I’d been thinking.
I delayed answering her by putting a forkful of maple-syrup-drenched waffle into my mouth.
I had no idea what to do about it, either. I thought back to the first time Jocelyn and I had met. It had been the first day of kindergarten, and she’d been sitting next to me at my table. She asked me to be her friend and from then on, we did everything together. As friends. I hadn’t even really thought about the fact she was a girl until I saw her on the first day of eighth grade. We’d been apart the last month before school started due to our family trip to Disney World and her family vacation to Seattle and Vancouver.
What I saw when I walked into James A. Garfield Elementary School had stunned me - Jocelyn Mills had breasts! My best friend had turned into a full-fledged girl! It took me a minute before I could even say hello, and our usual hug had suddenly become awkward, at least for me, because she had bumps on her chest! I’d never thought of her in any way other than my best friend, along with Dale Melrose, though I’d known her longer and been friends with her longer. Suddenly, I had other thoughts about her. Thoughts I had no way to express. I’d never had a girlfriend, or even a real kiss.
I chewed my waffle slowly, then took a sip from my water glass, and then one from my glass of grapefruit juice.
“I guess it’s just that things changed yesterday, after graduation.”
True as far as it went, but not the whole truth.
“I know it’s a cliché,” my mom said, “but today is the first day of the rest of your life. One Summer left, and then you’re off to college, medical school, and then you’ll be a doctor! It’s tough to leave your friends, especially ones you’ve known as long as you’ve known Dale and Jocelyn, and as close as the three of you are. But you’ll make new friends. And you have April!”
I only WISH I ‘had’ April, I thought, then reproved myself because I was doing exactly what Jocelyn had said - thinking about sex all the time. And that was, I realized, the source of the problem. I wanted to kiss Jocelyn. No, actually, I wanted more than that, but even a kiss, an acknowledgment of my feelings for her, would be sufficient now. Instead, she’d shot me down harder than any of the girls who had broken up with me after dating for a short time. Or even the girls who had turned down dates.
But, I could go with my mom’s take on the situation, and deflect any inquiry into the true source of my moodiness and my mom’s perception of unease by my friends.
“A new school; a new church; a new dojo; a new job. It’s a lot to contemplate.”
“Think of it as an adventure, Mike! You’ll mostly be on your own, learning new things, meeting new people, and having new experiences. You’re close enough to see April fairly often. And you’ll see Dale and Jocelyn during the Summers.”
I took another bite of my waffle, ate a few bites of sausage, then took another drink.
“That’s just it,” I said. “Dale is talking about taking Summer classes in Madison and Jocelyn has a campus job that will keep her at Purdue over the Summer. There’s a good chance I’ll only see them during Christmas or Spring breaks. And April is a problem, really.”
“A problem?” Mom asked with an arched eyebrow. “Because of Thursday night?”
I shook my head slowly, “No, but she goes to a Methodist church and I don’t think she’d become Orthodox to marry me.”
“You’re thinking about marriage? Well, I suppose if you’re contemplating what you were with April, that does make sense. Have you asked her about that?”
“I’ve asked her to come to church a bunch of times and she always says ‘no’.”
“Mike, then you shouldn’t be thinking about her the way you are.”
I sighed, “Do we have to have this conversation?”
“Talk with Father Herman,” Mom said.
“I KNOW what he’ll say, Mom. Trust me. I’ve paid attention in church, in Sunday School, and at Youth Group.”
She did have a point, though. I couldn’t see Jocelyn leaving her Lutheran church, either, and I was certainly thinking the same way about her, just as I had been for more than five years. But Mom didn’t know that, and didn’t need to know that.
“Yes, you have. You need to think about who you date if you want to be married in the Church. What about Natalya Antonova?”
I laughed out loud, happy that I hadn’t been eating or drinking when she’d made that suggestion.
“Oh sure, only the most beautiful, most sought-after girl in the entire church! She wouldn’t tell me the time if she was the only person left on the planet with a watch!”
Certainly the thoughts I’d had about Tasha, as Natalya was known to most everyone, were just as impure as those I’d had about Jocelyn or April, but Tasha was even further out of reach than Jocelyn! She was blonde, had blue eyes, and a fantastic figure. She was the daughter of Deacon Vasily Antonov, and if there were a more unobtainable girl, I didn’t know who it might be.
“Don’t sell yourself short, Mike. You’ll never know unless you ask her out.”
“April has my class ring,” I said, more out of self-defense than anything.
“I know. But if you aren’t planning on replacing it with an engagement ring, you should tell her. You know she expects that to happen.”
I sighed, “I know. But I’d feel like a jerk breaking up with her just out of the blue.”
“But aren’t you leading her on? Have you even talked to her about the fact that you want to marry someone who is Orthodox or who will convert?”
“No.”
“Then I think you need to do that.”
“Yes, Mom,” I replied with a bit of resignation.
I finished my breakfast and put my dishes in the sink. I poured myself another glass of grapefruit juice and stood by the counter to drink it.
“Morning, Mom,” Liz said when she came into the kitchen. “I want Mikey to give me and Emmy a ride to the pool tomorrow!”
I suppressed a groan and the impulse to throw my glass at my little sister. This was the one sore point between Mom and me. If I was going somewhere, and Liz wanted to go to the same place, I was given no option other than to drive her. I was meeting Dale and Jocelyn at the public pool after church. The last thing I wanted was my little sister tagging along.
“Mike, will you please give your sister and her friend a ride?” Mom asked.
Only it wasn’t REALLY a question. The only acceptable answer to that kind of request was ‘yes’. But I might have an out.
“We’re heading to A&W in Rutherford after we swim,” I said.
“Oooh! Emmy and I would go!”
I should have known she’d try that, but there was no way I was caving into THAT demand. And agreeing to the ride to and from the pool, would foreclose any chance Mom would agree with Liz.
“No,” I said. “I’ll take you to the pool, then bring you home after we swim even though it will be ten miles out of my way. But you have to leave the pool when I say, without any arguments.”
“Mooooom!” Liz whined in protest.
“Liz,” Mom said firmly, “if you want a ride to the pool, you have to work with Mike’s schedule. I won’t make him change his plans for you. And you’ll leave when he wants to, or you won’t get any rides during the Summer.”
Except she WAS making me change my plans. I’d have to drive five miles back home and then retrace my route, wasting a good twenty minutes of MY time. If I needed a reason to leave West Monroe, it was my bratty little sister. I loved her, and would do everything in my power to protect her, but that didn’t make her any less annoying.
“Fine,” she said, glaring at me.
“Elizaveta Petrovna, I could change my mind,” Mom said sternly.
“Sorry, Mom,” Liz replied, quickly dropping her tone.
I finished my juice and went to brush my teeth. I was back in the kitchen a minute later, got my keys from the hook on the wall, kissed my mom goodbye, and headed out of the house. I got into my Mustang, started the car and put it in gear. I always backed into the driveway, as it made it easier to pull out onto the country road we lived on. I saw no traffic, so I made a left turn, and headed for the hardware store.
My talk with Mom had brought to the surface something that had been bothering me since Christmas, and reinforced at the end of April when we’d celebrated Pascha. I’d invited April to Christmas services, and to Pascha, which was celebrated a week later than Easter. She’d declined both invitations, despite the Paschal service being followed by a grand party.
I’d gone to April’s church, once, when her niece was baptized, but I couldn’t even get her to set foot in our church. Dale and Jocelyn had come to church with me on a few occasions, and I’d been to Jocelyn’s church a few times for special events. Dale’s family was one of the few I knew that didn’t go to church at least occasionally. His parents had been raised Baptist, but his father had had a falling out with the pastor of a church as a teenager, and refused to ever, as he put it, ‘darken the door’ of any church.
At the hardware store, I parked in my usual spot, and followed my usual routine of greeting Mr. Orlov, kissing the icon of the Theotokos, and asking for my day’s assignment. Mr. Orlov handed me a clipboard and asked me to restock shelves. I quickly scanned the list of items and realized that I wouldn’t finish by noon. I let Mr. Orlov know, and then got to work. Four hours later, with only a brief break for a cup of coffee, I had completed about three-fourths of the items on the list. I handed the clipboard back to Mr. Orlov, with neat checkmarks next to each item I’d restocked, and a notation of how many of each item remained in inventory in the back room. He scanned the list, thanked me, and sent me on my way.
At home I had just enough time for a quick sandwich and an RC Cola, then donned my karate uniform and drove to the dojo on the other side of West Monroe, arriving about five minutes before the 1:00pm class.
“Mr. Loucks,” Sensei Adam Jackson said, by way of greeting, when I walked in.
“Good afternoon, Sensei,” I said, bowing slightly.
I removed my shoes and socks, put them on the rack, then went into the training room and took my place in the second row, behind the black and brown belts. I double-checked that my purple belt, signifying I was ‘4th kyu’, was properly tied, and stood quietly awaiting the start of class. Three minutes later, Sensei came into the room, faced the fourteen assembled students, and clapped his hands twice. That was our signal to kneel for our two minutes of meditation before class.
After the meditation, we did our usual stretches and warm-up exercises, and then performed, as a class, all of the basic strikes and kicks. Warm-ups and exercises took about fifteen minutes, and once we finished, Sensei directed everyone to the benches that lined the walls. Saturday was usually reserved for practicing kata and sparring, and given the small size of the dojo, that meant mostly sitting and waiting for our turn. During weekday classes, the different ranks were segregated, and I mostly practiced with other purple belts and brown belts. Given there were only five of us, that allowed for more personalized attention.
I did my kata when instructed, and sparred with one of the blue belts. Otherwise I sat quietly watching the other students and thinking about the conversation I needed to have with April. The question was when to do it. And the answer I came up with was after the movie when I took her home. We’d only ever gone parking once, and that was the first time I’d been allowed a brief fondle of her sweater-clad breast. I’d tried to go parking again a week before prom, but April had asked me to take her straight home after the movie, much to my frustration.
When karate class was over, I headed straight home for a shower, then put on shorts and a t-shirt. I went to my room and got my chessboard, and took it down to the basement playroom where Dale and I usually played. My dad had finished the basement over the course of the previous six years, completing it a few days before last Christmas, and just in time before the ‘family gift’ of a pool table was delivered. I’d played a lot at Dale’s house, and was happy to have a pool table, but wished we’d had it years ago.
Dale arrived at 2:30pm; we grabbed bottles of RC Cola from the basement fridge, and sat down at the chessboard.
“You never could convince Jocelyn to learn to play,” Dale said as he moved his king’s pawn two spaces forward to start the game.
“She was too busy with other stuff,” I said. “Being in the band was a huge drain on her time; worse than chess club and karate combined for me. She also never saw the point in playing board games of any kind.”
I matched his move, moving my king’s pawn two spaces ahead.
“True,” Dale said. “We couldn’t even get her to play Clue, Life, or Monopoly.”
“Her mom says that Jocelyn hated Candyland and Chutes and Ladders when she was little, and I remember her never wanting to play them, so I guess she’s consistent!”
“That’s the one sure thing you can say about Jocelyn!” Dale laughed. “She’s even more set in her ways than your church!”
I laughed, “No way. If there was anything on this planet more resistant to change than the Orthodox Church, I don’t know what it is!”
“Want to talk about what happened last night?” Dale asked, moving his bishop.
“What’s to talk about?” I asked, moving my knight.
“Come on, Mike. I saw your face when Jocelyn said what she did about kissing. You’ve loved her secretly for years!”
“If you know about it, it’s not much of a secret,” I said with a wan smile.
“OK; secret from HER.”
“Yeah,” I sighed.
We moved pieces in silence for several minutes, with neither of us gaining an advantage.
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May 31, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio On Sunday morning as I dressed for church, I faced the true reality of what happened the previous night. My make-out sessions with April had, except on that single instance where I’d fondled her sweater-clad breast for more than a second or two, not gone far enough to be included in my confession. What had happened the previous night certainly had. I now faced effectively the same dilemma I would have faced had April and I gone to the motel after Prom. I...
August 21, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio On Friday morning, Mr. Mills called just after 6:00am to let me know that Jocelyn had gone into surgery, and that it would likely be mid-afternoon before he had any news. I thanked him and sat down at the table in the kitchen with a mug of tea I made and read the Rutherford Tribune. Nobody else was up, and I enjoyed the quiet for about an hour before my parents came into the kitchen. “Was that Jocelyn’s dad who called at 6:00am?” my dad asked. “Yes. I...
February 13, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “I visited Ohio State yesterday,” Nancy said when we had a chance to chat on Saturday morning. “And?” “I’m pretty sure I’m going to Taft like we talked about because I can live at home. But the tour was cool and our tour guides were absolutely hysterical.” “Oh?” “Yeah. A guy and his fiancée. He’s a criminal justice major and wants to be a US Marshal. She’s in pre-law and wants to be a criminal defense lawyer. They told some of the funniest stories about...
April 4, 1982, West Monroe, Ohio “Mishka!” Tasha squealed, hugging me tightly, but quickly releasing me because we were in the narthex of the church. “Hi, Tasha!” I said with a smile. She grabbed my hand and led me to the church hall where we got some food and coffee, then sat down by her parents. “Michael, how is school going?” Deacon Vasily asked. “All A’s so far, and I should finish the semester with a 4.0 average.” “Very good. And you’re attending church regularly?” “Yes. Every...
June 6, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio After Vespers on Saturday, I spent a few minutes talking to Tasha. “My dad isn’t sure karate is ‘ladylike’,” she said. “The uniforms cover more than those nice dresses you wear during the Summer!” “You noticed, Mike?” she asked with a soft laugh. “If I may be «некультурный», yes, of course! It’s difficult to miss a pretty girl with a nice body!” “Thank you! But do NOT say that around my dad! He’ll never let you see me again!” “So the answer is ‘no’?” “I...
September 26, 1981, McKinley, Ohio “What?!” I gasped. “How is she?” “I don’t know, and that’s the God’s honest truth. Her dad called from Rutherford Hospital and asked me to call you. All he said was that they were working on her.” “I’m leaving in about three minutes. That’s what I’ll need to get dressed.” “What about Becky?” “I’ll bring her, I guess. I can’t imagine her parents are going to be in Rutherford.” “She’s there with you?” “Yes. Beat me up about that later! I’m on my way to...
October 10, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio I froze and realized my first inclination to go back to McKinley had been the right one. I’d thought my talk with Becky the previous weekend had resolved the issue, but I was very clearly mistaken. I could actually go back. It was early enough, and I hadn’t told Tasha I was going to be home, so she wouldn’t be upset, and a phone call would make her very happy as the two I’d made so far had done. But there was one problem - all I could hear in my head was...
October 11, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio On Sunday morning, Becky and I got out of bed and snuck across the hall to the bathroom, where we got into the shower together. “Thank you,” she said as I lathered shampoo in her hair. “I was afraid you’d say ‘no’ and I’d have missed that.” “You’re OK?” I asked. “Mike, it’s what I wanted from the day I met you. I just knew you’d be perfect. You let me do exactly what I wanted and how I wanted. As I said, patient and gentle.” “You weren’t very gentle...
November 9, 1981, McKinley, Ohio “OK?” I asked, shocked enough that I was rocked back in my seat. “Yes. OK.” “OK to WHAT?” I asked warily. “Getting married.” “You can’t be serious! You’re afraid of French kissing and you want to get married?” Angie smirked, “Gotcha! You should see the look on your face!” “Nice.” I laughed. “You did get me!” “Sorry, I figured at that point I needed to do something to change the mood.” “By making my heart stop?!” “Oh, come on! The first thought that...
January 4, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “And so another semester begins,” I said when I met Angie at the elevators on Monday morning. “I saw your class schedule was basically the same.” “The only real change is I have the creative writing core requirement replacing the scientific writing class. I am so glad I chose to take those in the order I did - it made all the difference in the world for doing the lab reports.” “I’m not complaining! I ended up with an A in biology which I NEVER would have...
January 12, 1982, McKinley, Ohio Influenza was making the rounds of the dorm, and just about everyone had it by Tuesday morning, including me. I dragged myself out of bed, realized there was no way I was going to run, and climbed back into bed. I took some decongestant tablets from the box on the shelf next to my bed and swallowed them with a gulp of water. I hoped to fight the worst symptoms and be able to make it to lab. Angie had already said she wasn’t going to run, so I stayed in bed...
January 25, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “I have a message for Michael Loucks,” a young man announced just as biology class ended. “That’s me,” I said. “Dean Parker would like to see you immediately.” “I’ll go with you, Mike,” Doctor Stanton said. I had no clue what she could possibly want, but I appreciated Doctor Stanton coming with me. We made our way to the administration building. “I’m here to see Dean Parker,” I said. “I’m Mike Loucks.” “One moment,” the young woman at the desk...
January 31, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “You’re STILL struggling with that issue?” Jocelyn asked during our regular Sunday afternoon call. “Does it really surprise you?” “No, I suppose it doesn’t. I think the circumstances of the last year really caused you some serious heartache and anguish, and I’m not just talking about you and me. If you think about it, you and Emmy were ripped apart by her dad; you and Nancy were ripped apart by her difficulty with commitment; you and I were ripped apart by...
September 19, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “Why are you sending me such mixed signals?” “Mixed signals?” Jocelyn and I were sitting on the couch, and she was cuddled next to me, at least as best she could, given her obvious discomfort from the injuries, catheter, and physical therapy. I had thought a lot after my talks with Doctor Hart, as well as my talks with Nancy. One thing I was seriously concerned about was getting more deeply involved with Nancy and messing things up with Jocelyn. I...
October 30, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “Hi,” Jocelyn said when her dad led me into the living room. “Hi! I’m glad to see you at home.” “And we’re glad to have her home,” Mr. Mills said. “If you need anything, let us know.” I went over to sit next to Jocelyn on the couch. She scooted close and I put my arm around her. She sighed, kissed my cheek, and then snuggled. “I was glad to hear from Doctor Henderson that you could leave the hospital.” “And you should be seeing your sister!” “I will....
March 1, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “I have a meeting with the Dean to get permission to put up the flyers this afternoon,” Kurtis said at lunch. “We’ll only be escorting girls from our dorm. I talked to a couple of guys in other dorms who will organize theirs. I figured we couldn’t take care of everyone without some help.” “Cool,” Clark said. “Did anyone hear any more about the investigation?” “The Times said the police didn’t have any suspects, but were following leads,” Jeannette said. “What...
August 7, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio The Summer was rapidly disappearing and there were but two weeks before I moved to McKinley. Once my dad had calmed down, the Summer had returned to normal. It was almost as if everything was in a holding pattern, where each week had followed a simple pattern. I worked at the hardware store, went to the dojo, had dinner with Tasha on Wednesday, a date with Emmy on Friday, and the usual triple date on Saturday. Liz was still grounded, but Emmy was allowed to...
September 1, 1981, McKinley, Ohio Tuesday wasn’t quite as crazy as Monday. My first class after breakfast was the biology seminar. After the first day, this would be run by Laura Peters, a graduate student. I immediately decided the seminar would be valuable, as she would provide study guides, sample lab reports, and a host of other useful information, as well as address any challenges we encountered in our first semester at Taft. The most important thing is that there would be no outside...
November 1, 1981, McKinley, Ohio It was just past midnight when I walked into the Landers’ house. “Hi, Mike,” Mrs. Landers said. “Nancy said you might show up. I’m glad you did!” “Hi, Mrs. Landers,” I replied. “Don’t mind me,” she smiled. “If you two want to go on to bed, that’s OK.” “You better call Ripley’s once more,” I grinned. “I’m going to turn Nancy down on her offer. Again.” Mrs. Landers laughed and shook her head, “I told her you were a keeper! Then I will go to bed so you can...
February 19, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “Angie!” I exclaimed, as I hurried toward the girls, who appeared tired, but otherwise OK. I took Angie in my arms and hugged her tightly. “Are you OK?” I asked. “Yes,” she said. “I’m sorry I’m late, but we were at the party and the police wouldn’t let us leave or make phone calls until they interviewed everyone who was there.” “What happened?” Melody asked. “A girl from the seventh floor was raped,” Jeannette said. “Who was it?” “Some girl named...
April 8, 1982, West Monroe, Ohio “Liz wanted me to talk to you,” I said to my mom on Thursday evening. “I assumed she’d put you up to this.” “I only promised to talk to you, and told Liz not to count on anything changing.” “Good call. We’ve given her as much freedom as your father and I think is reasonable. Has she talked to you about Paul Reynolds?” I nodded, “I know how she feels about him. But he’s in prison. Don’t forget she was raped before that, and anything that happened after the...
May 30, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio It was with more than a little trepidation that I drove home from karate class. I didn’t really want to talk to April, but I knew I had to. The bottom line was church. It didn’t matter to a lot of people, but it mattered to me. I feared that my conversation with April was simply going to go around in circles, and end with her crying again. Unfortunately, I didn’t see how that could be avoided. “You should go see her,” Mom said when I came downstairs after my...
June 10, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “OK, now I am SERIOUSLY worried about coming to church on Saturday!” I laughed as I put the car in gear. “And why is that Mishka Petrovich?” Tasha asked with a small laugh. “Your dad told me it was OK to take you for ice cream after dinner without me asking. I swear, if I come into church on Saturday for Vespers and the table is there with the crowns...” I was laughing and so was Tasha. “And being married to me would be so terrible?” she asked with fake...
June 15, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “Negative,” Liz whispered happily when I came home from work on Monday. “Thank God,” I said. We both had been on pins and needles since the previous Monday, and the news had come as a relief. Jocelyn and Dale had noticed I was on edge on Saturday night, and I’d pulled them aside briefly to tell them what had happened. They were both in agreement that I had no choice but to report the guy. Jocelyn offered to emasculate him with a rusty spoon, which had me...
August 22, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “What do you want to do today?” I asked Becky as we walked to my car. “Anything you want.” “Anything?” I smirked. “Like saying that was really a risk?” “You never know,” I chuckled. “What if it’s all been an act?” “HAS it all been an act?” she asked in a silly tone as I opened the passenger door for her. “Of course not!” I said, closing the door. I walked around the car and got in, started the engine, and backed out. “Not implying anything,” Becky...
November 20, 1981, McKinley, Ohio I got up from the couch and walked over to where Nancy was standing. She took my hand and led me to her bedroom where she shut and locked the door. She stood in front of me, and I held out my arms. She stepped forward and melted against me, sighing deeply as she put her head on my chest. I wrapped my arms tightly around her and held her. “I’ve wanted this for months,” she whispered. I moved one of my hands to lift Nancy’s chin so we could kiss. Our lips...
November 25, 1981, Rutherford, Ohio “Family Court for Harding County is now in session, Judge Martha Lee, presiding. You may be seated.” The small courtroom was packed with doctors, lawyers, and our family. Nobody from the general public was permitted because Liz was a minor. “Ladies and gentlemen,” Judge Lee said, “this is a status hearing on an emergency custody petition which I signed on Sunday evening. The procedure is a bit less formal than in a normal courtroom. That said, please...