Good Medicine Freshman YearChapter 22 Fallout
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November 23, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio
On Monday morning, just after breakfast there was a knock at the door. I got up from the couch and went to open it.
“Phil?”
“Hi, Mike. Can we come in?”
“We?”
“This is Mrs. Laramy from Family Services.”
“Hang on a second.”
I went to the kitchen to get my dad, who followed me back to the foyer.
“Hi, Phil,” Dad said. “What’s up?”
“This is Mrs. Laramy from Family Services.”
“Mr. Loucks? I have an order here to take custody of Elizabeth.”
“What?! Why?!”
“She’s being abused by your son.”
“She is not!” he protested.
“I have sworn statements from two licensed psychiatrists that state that Elizabeth is being abused by your son. I have an order to have her removed from your home immediately. Once our investigation is completed, I’m sure the County Prosecutor will be preferring charges.”
“Mrs. Laramy...” I started to say.
“Mike,” Phil cautioned. “Please do NOT say anything. In fact, please go downstairs.”
“But...”
“Mike,” Dad said firmly. “Please do what Phil says.”
I turned and headed toward the stairs to the basement.
“I need to take your daughter immediately, Mr. Loucks,” Mrs. Laramy said. “Here’s the court order.”
I went to the far end of the basement and plopped down into a beanbag chair. I waited for what I knew was coming, and about three minutes later, Liz screeched and then began screaming ‘no’ over and over. I wanted to run upstairs but I knew I could only get into trouble. It was about ten minutes before my dad called me to come upstairs.
Dad and Mom were sitting on the couch looking very upset, and Mom had been crying.
“So?” I asked, sitting on the couch next to them.
“She’ll be placed in emergency foster care,” Dad sighed. “There will be a hearing on Wednesday.”
“Then what?”
“I don’t know. It’s too early to talk to the attorney or your sister’s new counselor.”
“Would it help to talk to Doctor Hart?”
“I don’t know. As soon as we can get Mr. Winston on the phone, we’ll find out what we need to do. Not just about Liz, but about you.”
“They’re going to file charges against me,” I sighed. “We know how their investigation will turn out. All the while Liz is going to be browbeaten and become suicidal.”
Mom took a deep breath and let it out.
“This is all my fault,” she said, sounding very far away.
“How is it your fault?” I asked.
“The court order says I agreed with Doctor Orosco that you had probably abused Liz.”
I sagged back into the couch. We were totally screwed. The entire family. Liz. Me. My parents.
“So now what?” I asked.
“In about thirty minutes, we talk to the attorney your mother works for,” Dad said. “Family Services has nothing except the two psychiatrists’ word for this. There’s no proof. And you and Liz both deny it.”
“Until they force her to say it.”
“I know you’re worried, Mike. I am, too. Let’s see what Mr. Winston says when we speak to him.”
“Dad, they’ll promise she can come home if she accuses me. Or lie about how much trouble I’ll be in. This could prevent me from EVER getting a medical license. Even the accusation is enough!”
“I’ve destroyed our family,” Mom said, getting up from the couch.
“Rachel?” Dad said, sounding worried.
She ignored him, and wordlessly went upstairs.
“Go after her, Dad.”
“Will you be OK?”
“I have no idea. I’m going to go for a walk.”
“Mike, we’ll get through this.”
“I wish I could believe that,” I sighed.
I got my jacket, hat, and gloves and walked out into the chilly morning air. Nancy had asked me about a backup plan a few weeks earlier, and I’d said I didn’t feel I needed one. Well, now I might. But what? Every single thing I’d done to this point had been with an eye towards being a doctor. If I couldn’t do that, I had no idea what I’d want to do. I knew from Jocelyn that lawyers had the same ‘moral turpitude’ restrictions on licenses as doctors did. And while I didn’t know for sure, I suspected just about any state license could be denied if I was branded a child molester. Heck, I’d probably be kicked out of Taft and be completely unable to get a job.
I knew I was letting my mind run away with me, but I didn’t see a way out. Even Liz and I getting on the witness stand and denying it would be countered by the two psychiatrists who had their mind made up. And any prosecutor worth his salt would ask Mom if she had thought, at any time, if it were possible I had done what they said. And the answer to that was clearly ‘yes’, as I knew from my own experience. Heck, school and work didn’t even matter. I was looking at a very long stretch in the state prison for something I hadn’t done.
And if that was the case, did ANYTHING really matter? I couldn’t even be an acolyte at church, let alone a Subdeacon or a Deacon. And what was going to happen when the mere allegations came out? I’d never be allowed to see Tasha again. And I couldn’t imagine any of my new friends sticking by me in that kind of situation. Jocelyn would be there, and that would help, but if I was in prison, there wasn’t much she’d be able to do. I was, as Clark liked to say, well and truly fucked.
I walked, lost in my thoughts until I reached the edge of town. I decided I’d walk around town, then head home. By then, my parents would have spoken to the attorney and perhaps there would be a ray of sunlight in the gloom. Once I heard that, I’d go to Jocelyn’s. Of everyone I knew, she was the one that could help me the most. I passed the Village Hall, then followed the sidewalk around the fire station and headed back towards home.
“Mike?” a female voice called out from behind me.
I turned, and was surprised at who had called my name.
“Hi, April.”
“How are you?”
She was the last person with whom I wanted to discuss my family troubles.
“OK. You?”
“Pretty good. How is college?”
“So far, so good.”
“Straight A’s, right?”
“Yes.”
“Not surprised. I take it you’re home on break?”
“Until Friday. I need to work on Saturday at the store in McKinley where I work part-time.”
“Still going to church?”
I smiled, “What do you think?”
“Uh, yeah. Silly question. I’m really sorry how things ended. I guess I didn’t really understand you.”
“It’s better we discovered the problem before it went too far.”
“Do you ever wonder?”
“Wonder about what?”
“What it would have been like? After Prom?”
Despite my foul mood, I chuckled softly, “Beforehand? About every seven seconds! After we broke up, well it wasn’t possible, so thinking about it wasn’t at the top of my list. Sorry.”
“No, don’t apologize. I thought a lot about it, too. And I was the one who led you on and then caused us to break up.”
“It does take two to tango. I should have been clear about the church issue before I even asked you to go to the motel with me.”
“Are you dating?”
I nodded, “I am.”
“Steady?”
“No. You?”
“Nobody worthwhile is asking.”
That actually surprised me a bit. April had a sweet personality, she was pretty, and she had a very nice body. I certainly had been very interested in exploring every inch of it when we’d been dating, but that was in the past.
“I guess High School boys got dumber in the four months since I left for college.”
“You think so?”
“My opinion of you hasn’t changed in that regard,” I said.
“Would you ask me out?”
“You know the problem. We couldn’t move forward in any way because of that.”
“Not like boyfriend and girlfriend. I always liked spending time with you. Just friends.”
I had always enjoyed spending time with April, despite the frustration it often caused. But that wasn’t an issue, by a long shot. And the chances I’d get to see Emmy tonight, as we’d planned were near zero. I couldn’t ask Mom to call her house now, though if Mr. Nelson was at work, perhaps I could call. But I wasn’t sure I could accomplish anything.
“Sure. Let me call you this afternoon. Will you be home?”
“Yes, after 10:00am.”
“I’ll call. I need to get back home now.”
“It was good seeing you, Mike.”
“You, too.”
I turned and started walking towards home. I was really surprised that April wasn’t dating, and wondered if she was being too picky, or as the thought hit me, pining for me and turning down even nice guys. She’d said ‘just friends’ and I doubted she’d changed her mind about church, so I took her at her word. Even if she WAS pining for me, it didn’t matter because that was an insurmountable gulf between us. I trudged home, dreading what I was going to find, and let myself into the house.
Mr. Winston, the attorney Mom worked for was sitting in the living room talking with Dad. They called me over and after greeting them, I took off my hat, jacket, and gloves and went to sit with them.
“Mike, Mr. Winston has some ideas. First, would you be willing to sign a release so Doctor Hart can give your records to Mr. Winston?”
“Yes, of course. Anything!”
“Good. Mr. Winston, would you explain to Mike what you plan to do? He should know.”
“Certainly. Michael, we’re allowed to have an independent psychiatrist or psychologist examine both you and Elizabeth. I’ve already made a call this morning to someone in Dayton who is an expert in incest and sexual abuse cases. She and another colleague of hers from near Cincinnati will be here tomorrow to interview you, Elizabeth, your parents, and Elizabeth’s friends. Then, we’ll take those reports, which we believe will be favorable, to the hearing on Wednesday and challenge the custody order.”
“Will that work?”
“It’s a 50-50 thing. They’ll have their experts, we’ll have ours. More than likely I’ll call both you and Elizabeth to the stand to deny the accusations as baseless.”
“What about Mom?”
“That’s a bit trickier, but our strategy will be similar to the one I’ll use with your sister - that the professionals put improper pressure on your mom. With Elizabeth testifying to that pressure, which I am sure Family Services continued, we may have some success.”
“So it’s a coin toss about Liz,” I sighed. “What about me?”
“They have a much more difficult case to make. If Elizabeth denies it happened when we’re in court on Wednesday, that will go a long way to convincing the prosecutor not to file charges. It’s not a guarantee because Elizabeth could change her testimony, and the court will take that into account. Without any physical evidence, and the prior rapes, the State would have a tough time blaming her behavior after everything was revealed on alleged incest.
“But, and I have to say this, that doesn’t mean they won’t try. A common tactic would be to charge you with three or four felonies in an attempt to get you to plead to one of them in exchange for a short jail term. They count on you not being willing to take the risk of going to trial.”
I shrugged, “If I’m not acquitted, my life is screwed. I won’t take a plea. Ever! I’ll risk pretty much everything on being found innocent at trial. I can’t get a medical license with a felony conviction, especially one that’s sex-related.”
“That’s actually very good to know. I’ll make sure the prosecutor knows you’ll refuse any deal. That will make them think twice about going with flimsy evidence. That said, I need to warn you that juries can do strange things and you could be convicted on flimsy evidence. We’ll need to take that into account when we see how things end up. Wednesday will tell us quite a bit.”
“Convicted on flimsy evidence or pleading guilty has the same end result. Ruining my life. At that point, spending it in prison or being an outcast are pretty much the same thing in my book.”
“Prison is not a place you want to be.”
“I’ll risk it, Mr. Winston. Anything other than no charges being filed or an acquittal is the end.”
“OK. There is one more strategic thing we’ll do. Assuming that Doctor Paulus and her colleague support what you and Elizabeth are saying, your parents will file a malpractice suit against Doctor Orosco.”
“What will that do?”
“Scare them. Her insurance company and the clinic will be VERY concerned about the fact that it’s about opinion, and if we have two independent psychologists who specialize in this saying it didn’t happen and you and Liz testifying it didn’t happen, they may back down. Then again, they might not. But again, we won’t know. Are you free tomorrow?”
“Are you kidding? Anytime. 3:00am. 11:00pm. I don’t care. I’ll be wherever you want me, whenever you want me.”
“OK. I’ll set things up.”
“Just let me know. Dad, where’s Mom?”
“Upstairs. She’s in bed. Doctor Morton will be here in a few minutes.”
“Is he your family doctor?” Mr. Winston asked.
“Yes,” Dad replied.
“Good. I want to speak to him. He’ll be a good witness for us if he says he detected no signs of abuse.”
“What about her gynecologist?” I asked.
“Your dad already gave me Doctor Tester’s information. We’ll likely put them on the stand as well, but I need to speak to them first.”
“Mike, there is one more thing,” Dad said.
“What’s that?”
“I hate to say this, but our chances of getting Liz home are improved if you aren’t living here until the matter is resolved.”
I shouldn’t have been surprised by that revelation. It made perfect sense, and if that’s what it took to get Liz home, I was sure I could find a place to stay for the rest of the week, and the week I’d be home at Christmas.
I sighed, “OK. Does that mean me not coming here at all?”
“I’m afraid so, Michael,” Mr. Winston said. “We’d need to have you promise to not interact with her in any way and not come to the house. I also want to warn you that while it might help now, it could hurt you in the long run. The state will try to use that as an admission of guilt.”
“Let them. I’ll explain exactly what I did and why. I’m serious. Whatever it takes to get Liz home. I’ll work something out.”
“Please do that by tomorrow evening. That way you aren’t living here on Wednesday. I’d also ask you to run over to the Bureau of Motor Vehicles and change your license and registration to your school address or if you have another option in McKinley. And pay the $2 for each to have new documents issued.”
“I’ll call Nancy. I’m sure her mom will allow me to use their address. That’s more permanent than the dorm. I’ll do that now.”
“Thanks, Mike,” Dad said.
“Anything for Liz. You know that.”
I got up and went to the kitchen and dialed Nancy’s number. She was surprised and excited I was calling, at least until I told her why.
“Do it, Mike. Mom won’t object. I’d hoped that would happen next Fall, but not under these circumstances. If you want to come here for Thanksgiving dinner, you’re welcome.”
“Let me see how things go on Wednesday.”
“Call me and let me know, please. We’ll help you in any way we can.”
“Thanks.”
I went back to the living room and let Dad and Mr. Winston know that I had permission, and I left immediately to drive to the Motor Vehicle office in Rutherford. About an hour later, I left with a new license and registration. There had been a minor issue with me not being able to prove I lived with the Landers’, but after showing my school ID and parking pass, and a brief conversation, the clerk had allowed me to use the McKinley information.
When I arrived home, Doctor Morton had been to see Mom and given her some mild sedatives. Mr. Winston had left and was putting his plan into action. Dad checked on Mom and then the two of us went down to his workshop.
“Your mom is distraught. She blames herself for this.”
“I think there’s plenty of blame to go around,” I said. “As I said when I apologized, Angie explained why Mom would think the way she did. I should never have said what I did, but I don’t know what else I could have done to shock Liz into accepting help. In hindsight, not the smartest thing to do.”
“We each did what we thought was best and still ended up with a terrible result. Life is like that at times. Now, we need to figure out, as a family, how to fix this. I was happy with your response, Mike. Sad with the results, but you showed me your maturity, and the calm, cool, collectedness I’m used to seeing from both you and your mom.”
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March 5, 1982, Circleville, Ohio “What became of that police investigation?” Mrs. Malenkov asked when I arrived at Katy’s house on Friday evening. “Nothing so far. They haven’t caught the rapist. The school added some security and started a service to walk girls to and from class or work after dark.” “Why did they check on you, specifically?” “The suspect has brown hair and is about 5’10” and I came into the dorm maybe an hour after it happened. At first they had reports it was a black...
August 16, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio Liz threw her arms around me on Sunday morning when I walked out of my room. “Thank you! Thank you!” I hugged her tightly to me. “Mom let you out of ‘house arrest’?” “Yes. And I know you’re responsible. If you weren’t my brother, I’d kiss you!” “Just remember, you have to behave, because if you don’t...” “I know,” she sighed. “I’m on parole. Did Mom tell you that Paul agreed to plead guilty to one count of statutory rape and one count of oral sodomy...
May 31, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio On Sunday morning as I dressed for church, I faced the true reality of what happened the previous night. My make-out sessions with April had, except on that single instance where I’d fondled her sweater-clad breast for more than a second or two, not gone far enough to be included in my confession. What had happened the previous night certainly had. I now faced effectively the same dilemma I would have faced had April and I gone to the motel after Prom. I...
August 21, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio On Friday morning, Mr. Mills called just after 6:00am to let me know that Jocelyn had gone into surgery, and that it would likely be mid-afternoon before he had any news. I thanked him and sat down at the table in the kitchen with a mug of tea I made and read the Rutherford Tribune. Nobody else was up, and I enjoyed the quiet for about an hour before my parents came into the kitchen. “Was that Jocelyn’s dad who called at 6:00am?” my dad asked. “Yes. I...
February 13, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “I visited Ohio State yesterday,” Nancy said when we had a chance to chat on Saturday morning. “And?” “I’m pretty sure I’m going to Taft like we talked about because I can live at home. But the tour was cool and our tour guides were absolutely hysterical.” “Oh?” “Yeah. A guy and his fiancée. He’s a criminal justice major and wants to be a US Marshal. She’s in pre-law and wants to be a criminal defense lawyer. They told some of the funniest stories about...
April 4, 1982, West Monroe, Ohio “Mishka!” Tasha squealed, hugging me tightly, but quickly releasing me because we were in the narthex of the church. “Hi, Tasha!” I said with a smile. She grabbed my hand and led me to the church hall where we got some food and coffee, then sat down by her parents. “Michael, how is school going?” Deacon Vasily asked. “All A’s so far, and I should finish the semester with a 4.0 average.” “Very good. And you’re attending church regularly?” “Yes. Every...
June 6, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio After Vespers on Saturday, I spent a few minutes talking to Tasha. “My dad isn’t sure karate is ‘ladylike’,” she said. “The uniforms cover more than those nice dresses you wear during the Summer!” “You noticed, Mike?” she asked with a soft laugh. “If I may be «некультурный», yes, of course! It’s difficult to miss a pretty girl with a nice body!” “Thank you! But do NOT say that around my dad! He’ll never let you see me again!” “So the answer is ‘no’?” “I...
September 26, 1981, McKinley, Ohio “What?!” I gasped. “How is she?” “I don’t know, and that’s the God’s honest truth. Her dad called from Rutherford Hospital and asked me to call you. All he said was that they were working on her.” “I’m leaving in about three minutes. That’s what I’ll need to get dressed.” “What about Becky?” “I’ll bring her, I guess. I can’t imagine her parents are going to be in Rutherford.” “She’s there with you?” “Yes. Beat me up about that later! I’m on my way to...
October 10, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio I froze and realized my first inclination to go back to McKinley had been the right one. I’d thought my talk with Becky the previous weekend had resolved the issue, but I was very clearly mistaken. I could actually go back. It was early enough, and I hadn’t told Tasha I was going to be home, so she wouldn’t be upset, and a phone call would make her very happy as the two I’d made so far had done. But there was one problem - all I could hear in my head was...
October 11, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio On Sunday morning, Becky and I got out of bed and snuck across the hall to the bathroom, where we got into the shower together. “Thank you,” she said as I lathered shampoo in her hair. “I was afraid you’d say ‘no’ and I’d have missed that.” “You’re OK?” I asked. “Mike, it’s what I wanted from the day I met you. I just knew you’d be perfect. You let me do exactly what I wanted and how I wanted. As I said, patient and gentle.” “You weren’t very gentle...
November 9, 1981, McKinley, Ohio “OK?” I asked, shocked enough that I was rocked back in my seat. “Yes. OK.” “OK to WHAT?” I asked warily. “Getting married.” “You can’t be serious! You’re afraid of French kissing and you want to get married?” Angie smirked, “Gotcha! You should see the look on your face!” “Nice.” I laughed. “You did get me!” “Sorry, I figured at that point I needed to do something to change the mood.” “By making my heart stop?!” “Oh, come on! The first thought that...
January 4, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “And so another semester begins,” I said when I met Angie at the elevators on Monday morning. “I saw your class schedule was basically the same.” “The only real change is I have the creative writing core requirement replacing the scientific writing class. I am so glad I chose to take those in the order I did - it made all the difference in the world for doing the lab reports.” “I’m not complaining! I ended up with an A in biology which I NEVER would have...
January 12, 1982, McKinley, Ohio Influenza was making the rounds of the dorm, and just about everyone had it by Tuesday morning, including me. I dragged myself out of bed, realized there was no way I was going to run, and climbed back into bed. I took some decongestant tablets from the box on the shelf next to my bed and swallowed them with a gulp of water. I hoped to fight the worst symptoms and be able to make it to lab. Angie had already said she wasn’t going to run, so I stayed in bed...
January 25, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “I have a message for Michael Loucks,” a young man announced just as biology class ended. “That’s me,” I said. “Dean Parker would like to see you immediately.” “I’ll go with you, Mike,” Doctor Stanton said. I had no clue what she could possibly want, but I appreciated Doctor Stanton coming with me. We made our way to the administration building. “I’m here to see Dean Parker,” I said. “I’m Mike Loucks.” “One moment,” the young woman at the desk...
January 31, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “You’re STILL struggling with that issue?” Jocelyn asked during our regular Sunday afternoon call. “Does it really surprise you?” “No, I suppose it doesn’t. I think the circumstances of the last year really caused you some serious heartache and anguish, and I’m not just talking about you and me. If you think about it, you and Emmy were ripped apart by her dad; you and Nancy were ripped apart by her difficulty with commitment; you and I were ripped apart by...
May 23, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “Good morning, Mike!” my mom said when I arrived at the kitchen table for breakfast. “Hi, Mom,” I said. “What do you have planned for today?” “It’s all on the calendar, just like it has been since I could write,” I replied with a smile. “I work from 8:00am to noon, then I have my Saturday karate class at 1:00pm. Dale and I are playing chess after that, and Vespers are at 6:00pm. I’m taking April to the movies after church.” “What are you going to...
September 19, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “Why are you sending me such mixed signals?” “Mixed signals?” Jocelyn and I were sitting on the couch, and she was cuddled next to me, at least as best she could, given her obvious discomfort from the injuries, catheter, and physical therapy. I had thought a lot after my talks with Doctor Hart, as well as my talks with Nancy. One thing I was seriously concerned about was getting more deeply involved with Nancy and messing things up with Jocelyn. I...
October 30, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “Hi,” Jocelyn said when her dad led me into the living room. “Hi! I’m glad to see you at home.” “And we’re glad to have her home,” Mr. Mills said. “If you need anything, let us know.” I went over to sit next to Jocelyn on the couch. She scooted close and I put my arm around her. She sighed, kissed my cheek, and then snuggled. “I was glad to hear from Doctor Henderson that you could leave the hospital.” “And you should be seeing your sister!” “I will....
March 1, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “I have a meeting with the Dean to get permission to put up the flyers this afternoon,” Kurtis said at lunch. “We’ll only be escorting girls from our dorm. I talked to a couple of guys in other dorms who will organize theirs. I figured we couldn’t take care of everyone without some help.” “Cool,” Clark said. “Did anyone hear any more about the investigation?” “The Times said the police didn’t have any suspects, but were following leads,” Jeannette said. “What...
August 7, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio The Summer was rapidly disappearing and there were but two weeks before I moved to McKinley. Once my dad had calmed down, the Summer had returned to normal. It was almost as if everything was in a holding pattern, where each week had followed a simple pattern. I worked at the hardware store, went to the dojo, had dinner with Tasha on Wednesday, a date with Emmy on Friday, and the usual triple date on Saturday. Liz was still grounded, but Emmy was allowed to...
September 1, 1981, McKinley, Ohio Tuesday wasn’t quite as crazy as Monday. My first class after breakfast was the biology seminar. After the first day, this would be run by Laura Peters, a graduate student. I immediately decided the seminar would be valuable, as she would provide study guides, sample lab reports, and a host of other useful information, as well as address any challenges we encountered in our first semester at Taft. The most important thing is that there would be no outside...
November 1, 1981, McKinley, Ohio It was just past midnight when I walked into the Landers’ house. “Hi, Mike,” Mrs. Landers said. “Nancy said you might show up. I’m glad you did!” “Hi, Mrs. Landers,” I replied. “Don’t mind me,” she smiled. “If you two want to go on to bed, that’s OK.” “You better call Ripley’s once more,” I grinned. “I’m going to turn Nancy down on her offer. Again.” Mrs. Landers laughed and shook her head, “I told her you were a keeper! Then I will go to bed so you can...
February 19, 1982, McKinley, Ohio “Angie!” I exclaimed, as I hurried toward the girls, who appeared tired, but otherwise OK. I took Angie in my arms and hugged her tightly. “Are you OK?” I asked. “Yes,” she said. “I’m sorry I’m late, but we were at the party and the police wouldn’t let us leave or make phone calls until they interviewed everyone who was there.” “What happened?” Melody asked. “A girl from the seventh floor was raped,” Jeannette said. “Who was it?” “Some girl named...
April 8, 1982, West Monroe, Ohio “Liz wanted me to talk to you,” I said to my mom on Thursday evening. “I assumed she’d put you up to this.” “I only promised to talk to you, and told Liz not to count on anything changing.” “Good call. We’ve given her as much freedom as your father and I think is reasonable. Has she talked to you about Paul Reynolds?” I nodded, “I know how she feels about him. But he’s in prison. Don’t forget she was raped before that, and anything that happened after the...
January 5, 1983, Circleville, Ohio I sat in stunned silence, completely unable to speak, and barely able to breathe. Of all the things that could have happened or could have been said, that was the last thing I would have expected. That was doubly so after Katy had asked me to make love with her. I fought the urge to simply get up and walk out of the house. That was what I certainly would have done in the past, but I was resolved not to run away and not to be a coward. It took a few minutes...
May 30, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio It was with more than a little trepidation that I drove home from karate class. I didn’t really want to talk to April, but I knew I had to. The bottom line was church. It didn’t matter to a lot of people, but it mattered to me. I feared that my conversation with April was simply going to go around in circles, and end with her crying again. Unfortunately, I didn’t see how that could be avoided. “You should go see her,” Mom said when I came downstairs after my...
June 10, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “OK, now I am SERIOUSLY worried about coming to church on Saturday!” I laughed as I put the car in gear. “And why is that Mishka Petrovich?” Tasha asked with a small laugh. “Your dad told me it was OK to take you for ice cream after dinner without me asking. I swear, if I come into church on Saturday for Vespers and the table is there with the crowns...” I was laughing and so was Tasha. “And being married to me would be so terrible?” she asked with fake...
June 15, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “Negative,” Liz whispered happily when I came home from work on Monday. “Thank God,” I said. We both had been on pins and needles since the previous Monday, and the news had come as a relief. Jocelyn and Dale had noticed I was on edge on Saturday night, and I’d pulled them aside briefly to tell them what had happened. They were both in agreement that I had no choice but to report the guy. Jocelyn offered to emasculate him with a rusty spoon, which had me...
August 22, 1981, West Monroe, Ohio “What do you want to do today?” I asked Becky as we walked to my car. “Anything you want.” “Anything?” I smirked. “Like saying that was really a risk?” “You never know,” I chuckled. “What if it’s all been an act?” “HAS it all been an act?” she asked in a silly tone as I opened the passenger door for her. “Of course not!” I said, closing the door. I walked around the car and got in, started the engine, and backed out. “Not implying anything,” Becky...
November 20, 1981, McKinley, Ohio I got up from the couch and walked over to where Nancy was standing. She took my hand and led me to her bedroom where she shut and locked the door. She stood in front of me, and I held out my arms. She stepped forward and melted against me, sighing deeply as she put her head on my chest. I wrapped my arms tightly around her and held her. “I’ve wanted this for months,” she whispered. I moved one of my hands to lift Nancy’s chin so we could kiss. Our lips...