Perfect Nails
By Kelly Blake
Edited and proofread by Andrea Lena DiMaggio, Alison Mary and Belle
Meade
My Reunion...
I stared into the mirror of my vanity and started applying the third
coat of mascara to my lashes. 'I have to be out of my fucking mind', I
thought to myself. Whatever processed me to agree to attend a tenth high
school reunion? Really! Anyone I wanted to see I still saw; all two of
them.
I really didn't want to know who got married and who gave birth and who
came 'out' and who died, and who was making it big time. I was such an
over achiever in high school that I really didn't permit myself the
luxury to become a center of attention and, in truth, I really didn't
want to be one anyway.
The only person I truly did want to see probably wouldn't even be there.
It wasn't his style. And he probably wasn't even in the state. I wasn't
really sure that I even wanted to see him. He was my first love and, to
be brutally honest, my only love.
Oh sure, there have been others. In college, especially after getting
'the cut' at the end my junior year, I spent as much time between the
sheets as in the class room. But it was simply not the same. It is said
that one's first love is forever remembered. Maybe that's true. After
all, he knew me during my transition (I hate that word...transition,
'rebirth' is more like it) and he never flinched or turned his very
broad back to me, even in the midst of my occasional hormonal hissy
fits.
We were the most unlikely couple one could possibly image. He was a
jock. He was not a super jock mind you, but a jock none the less. He
played baseball. He simply loved to play that game. He loved to hit the
ball and that was what he did best. I think playing ball was the only
reason he remained in high school as long as he did.
I was the complete opposite. I lived for school. I excelled at
everything that didn't require perspiration or equipment. This was the
gene pool I happened, by seer fate, to be born into. My father was a
psychiatrist and my mom was a psychologist. They lived for their
journals and books. I was one of the youngest seniors ever in the
school. Jimmy was one of the oldest.
Our first meeting was out of complete necessity; his, of course. He had
several universities interested in his athletic abilities. But...and
make that a very large BUT...he had to graduate and he had to get some
kind of scores on his SATs. I was a volunteer tutor. And so my tale
unfolds.
The first time we met was one for the books to be sure. I was sitting in
the school library waiting for my assigned student. Jimmy walked into
the library and looked around as though he had never seen it before. He
eyed the rows of neatly stacked books with what I could only describe as
a shocked look on his face.
Oh my God! He had such beautiful baby blue eyes. And he was so tall! I
wasn't exactly short at five feet eight inches, but I was very gangly in
build. This was also the work of my gene pool. My dad was only five feet
eight and inches and my mom barely measured five feet and four inches.
Both were also very slim as was my sister.
But James Ryan Hughes was every bit of six feet and four inches. He
weighed about two hundred and thirty pounds and he was sooo completely
bluff! He had straight dark brown, almost black hair that fell across
the front of his face.
One of the student volunteers walked up to Jimmy and asked if he needed
any help. Jimmy's vocabulary was a wee bit less than average and most of
the words contained four letters.
"Do I fuckin' look like I need your fuckin' help!" he roared so loudly
that everybody, including some kid outside the building, heard him.
His stare alone would have frightened most away and this poor student
was no exception. But for some reason, I wasn't afraid of him. I don't
know...there was something rather vulnerable about him that I couldn't
place, but I could feel. Behind his swagger and attitude was a small kid
in a really big kid's body and that kid was scared of something. I rose
from my seat and walked up to him.
"You fuckin' look like you could use my help."
He looked down at me and gave me his famous 'I'll break your fuckin'
skull' stare. I started to giggle and had to contain myself least I
start to laugh. He finally smiled at me. I guess he saw me as no threat
and maybe realized that I indeed was there to help him.
I must say that his smile was...dazzling. I felt something that I rarely
felt in the past. I got that 'tingly' feeling of excitement that I
didn't recognize at the time, but would yearn for in the future.
"You're the tutor? How fuckin' old are you?" he laughed.
"I'm old enough to be a senior." He stopped laughing. He stared at me
for several moments.
"What's your name?"
"I'm Patrick Kelly Maguire, but my family calls me Kelly. I hate the
name Patrick." People would call me Pat, or Pattie, or the old folks up
north would call me Paddy. Kelly was fine with me. It was my mom's
maiden name.
"Quiet please! This is a library!"
Jimmy looked at the librarian and was about to make one of his expletive
laced statements of dissatisfaction. I reached out and touched his arm.
I think I startled him a bit and he looked at me. I shook my head
slightly indicating that it would not be a good idea to voice his
opinion of the librarian and her family. He nodded at me as we stood in
silence for several more moments.
He looked around the room once again. He was deep in thought.
"Listen, let's go somewhere else. I don't like being closed in, you
know? Maybe we could go out to the tables and sit there. Okay with you?"
There was a pleading look in his eyes. I looked around to try and see
what he saw; what was unsettling to him. I couldn't discern what the
problem was, but if he was more comfortable somewhere else, that would
make it easier for me.
"Okay." I went and grabbed my book pack and walked side by side with him
to the tables.
Dear Lord that seems like so long ago. I feel almost like I'm going to
my school prom, only my image of myself, and my gender, would be
'correct' this time. I can't believe I actually bought this stupid gown.
That's Chrissie's doing. He had to go and help me. After all, this
entire event was his idea to begin with.
Anyway, we walked outside and over to the lunch tables. Only one or two
people were there and I let him pick a spot where he could feel
comfortable. A soft breeze was blowing in off the ocean and the sun was
high in the cloudless sky. He chose a spot under a pair of palm trees
that shaded us and he sat down. He put his hands over his face and began
to rub or massage, I wasn't sure which, his features.
"Just how bad is it?"
He peeked out from between his fingers and stared at me for a moment. I
smiled at him gently whilst he decided whether he would tell me the
truth or not. He finally put his hands down on the table and laughed. He
had such a nice open laugh that came from deep within him.
"It's not real good." I was to learn that he was never one for many
words. "I think I'm basically passing everything..." He hunched his
shoulders quickly. "...I think." Then he straightened himself up and
turned, sitting at an angle facing me. "It's those fuckin' S.A.T.'s! All
I usually get are the fuckin' points for signing my fuckin' name, plus a
few lucky guesses!"
Okay...so vocabulary was high on the study list. I mean, I know those
words but really you need at least two or three alternatives with more
than four letters. I assumed that he wasn't much better at math. I had
my work cut out for me. We decided that we would meet twice a week to
start with and thus began our relationship.
We met at school the first few times. We always sat in the same table
and he seemed to actually be doing the small assignments I gave him. It
was at our fifth meeting that he made a discovery that was to cement
our...friendship?
"Your nails!"
Oh shit! I had forgotten about that. My sister, Corie, short for Coreen,
had done my finger and toe nails. Actually, to be more precise, she had
given me a manicure and a pedicure. I had watched her do her own forever
and I was curious. Well...maybe not curious...envious would be a better
word. I asked what it felt like to have the polish on and I told her how
beautiful I thought it looked.
So, being the good and attentive older sister she was... she shaped my
nails, cut back the cuticles, and applied three coats of a clear but
slightly rose tinted polish. I found the entire process to be totally
thrilling. I sat patiently and quietly the whole time. She talked away
at a mile a minute about everything and anything; this was all so very
second nature to her.
Now I must explain that my sister was, is, and always will be, my
Goddess of Femininity. She was simply the most 'girly' girl I have ever
known. She also was the most honest and loving person I'd ever known.
Corie understood my curiosity and, rather than simply feed it, or defeat
it, she would help me explore it.
When I was fourteen I watched her get ready for a date. She was putting
on her 'face'. I was entranced by how much she could change her
appearance with a simple swipe of color here and there. Corie noticed my
rapt attention to what she was doing and, with a smile, turned toward me
and started doing my face as well.
"Let's see what you could look like Kel. Your skin is so perfect!" She
looked carefully at me as she turned my head from side to side. "I think
we can skip the foundation. Gawd!" she squealed in mock anger. "You
don't have a single zit! I hate you!" she laughed.
Corie began to do her thing and in ten minutes or so she had completely
made up my face. When I turned and looked in the mirror, I
was...shocked! I looked wonderful. I looked like a teenaged girl on a
Saturday night. My eyes looked so large and... OMG! I looked...hot!
"Let me clean up your brow line just a bit." I was still somewhat
stunned at my appearance and didn't quite hear what Corie said.
"Now hold still. This'll only take a moment." She turned my head to face
her.
"Ow!" I hadn't noticed the tweezers in her hands and I certainly didn't
realize what she was going to do. "Stop!"
"Listen sweetie, you look so good that we should go all the way." I
looked into her eyes but could see no deception in them.
"How much are you going to do?" I didn't want to be some sort of a freak
with two pencil line thin brows. I would never survive at school!
"Just a few baby. Don't worry! It'll be the Brook Shields look." She
smiled and went back to work.
Good to her word, Corie only did a few stray hairs and blotted the areas
with a mild astringent. It stung a bit but she said it would clean and
close the insulted and assaulted pores. When I turned back to the
mirror, I understood what she meant. She had simply better defined my
brows and rid me of a few hairs.
"There really isn't much we can do with your hair. The length is too
short. But if you let it grow a bit..." As her words trailed off I
looked into her hers as she smiled at me. She was giving me a hint.
Corie applied some mousse and combed it straight back. I turned to see
my image and tried to envision what an extra inch or two, or three, of
hair would do in terms of fulfilling this new image she had endowed me
with.
"You know Kel..." As if she was reading my mind. "Just a few more inches
and we could really do something with it. Then you could merely comb and
gel it back for school. But looking at myself in the mirror, I really
didn't want to comb it back for school, or remove my make up either. I
was looking at me! I was looking at a new, but very comfortable, image
of me.
"Let's go downstairs and show you to mom." She took my hand and began to
pull me behind her. I felt so conflicted about 'revealing' who I was to
mom. But Corie kept up a stream of chatter that centered on the way I
looked. We finally walked into the kitchen where mom and dad were
sitting and having some coffee while they read their journals.
"Look! I have a new sister!" Corie giggled and was so full of joy when
she introduced the 'new' me to them. Mom kind of stared at me for a
moment, as did dad. I expected to hear a barrage of negativity, or
worse.
"You look...quite lovely dear. My God, you do look very lovely. What do
you think Jack?"
My dad was frozen with his cup half way to his mouth. Mom actually
looked amused but there was a note of excitement in her voice.
"I trust that you're not planning to go to school that way. It would be
asking for trouble son." Dad immediately dove back into whatever he was
reading.
The disappointment must have registered on my face. I mean, I already
was the target of derisive comments simply because my GPA was the
highest in the school. I had already heard the other names reserved for
the boys who were less than...boys? But the harassment was never
manifested in a physical manner. After all, it was totally the 'burbs'
and fighting in school was almost unheard of.
Bless my mom because she found a solution that would work. She sensed
that I was somewhat conflicted about what Corie had done and she wanted
me to explore this new persona with some direction perhaps, but not
interference.
"Well Jack, I don't see any problem with Kelly 'playing' dress up at
home if he wishes to."
"Mmmhhhmmm..." Well, it was more than a tacit approval.
If I wished to? If I wished to!!! OH...MY...GOD!!! My dad looked at mom,
and then back at me. He shrugged his shoulders and that was that. So
every chance we got, my sister and I would 'play'. I became her living
Barbi doll. We were so much alike in coloration and size, at least at
that age, although she already had major boobage, that clothing was the
next natural step in my progression toward transitioning (I really hate
that word!!! Okay...so my rebirth).
Perfect Nails
"Your nails!"
Oh my God! Here it comes. The big 'OUT'. I swiftly pulled my hands off
the table and sat on them. I felt myself flushing red and I was on the
verge of tears. The fact that I was also in the midst of a hormonal rush
didn't help. I was crying a few times a day as it was. 'Oh...it's
nothing...just my allergies...'
Jimmy looked around and leaned in closer to me. He suddenly wasn't
smiling. He had a serious look in his eyes. Not angry mind you, simply
serious.
"Let me see those nails."
Without looking at him, I slowly slid my hands out from beneath me and
put them on the table; palms up of course. He again looked around. He
suddenly sat up and looked over my right shoulder. His face grew tense.
"What are you fuckin' looking at!"
His very loud comment was obviously directed at someone behind me. When
he was satisfied that the other person's attention was diverted
elsewhere, he grasped my hands and turned them over. There was no hiding
anything now.
He stared at each nail in silence. There was a look of curiosity on his
face and his brows furrowed. His gentle grasp pulled me out of the deep,
dark, and very scary place I was in.
"Did you do this yourself?" His voice was soft and gentle; almost a
whisper. He was looking at my down cast eyes.
"My sister started with three coats and I've been adding one or two a
day." My voice was a soft whisper.
"But...why?" He didn't seem shocked. He was merely curious.
I shrugged my shoulders and looked off to my left. "It's pretty..." My
voice trailed off as I turned and looked at him. "I like the way it
looks and feels."
I felt strange with Jimmy holding both of my hands. His hands were so
much larger than mine with their long thick fingers and calluses from
holding the bat, or whatever those powerful hands held.
"You must think I'm weird, right?" He had to think that at the least. I
was so frightened of what he must think. All of those words I'd
occasional heard that were tossed my way rang in my ears. Oh God! He was
still holding my hands and looking at my nails. He seemed fascinated by
them.
"Listen. There are fuckin' guys running around this place with black
nails and purple nails. Now that's pretty fuckin' weird. This? What
you've got? It's...well...pretty fuckin' cool looking. They're
like...perfect, you know? Not a single flaw. They feel so cool too. It
sorta looks like a glass covering."
Now he was making circular motions on my nail with the tip of his
finger. To be quite honest, I was becoming a bit excited. My hands in
his; his touching and rubbing my finger nails; his body being so close
to mine; it all was so very titillating. I didn't know what it was about
him but something was...well...distracting and exciting?
Out and About
My nails...hmmm... They look good for tonight. Tonight!!! Oh my God,
what time is it? I've got to get going! I don't know about this gown
though. I think its way fancy for this type of event. An ankle length,
ancient gold sequined, halter necked thing might prove to be way much.
After all, this wasn't a ball or some other gala type of event. But
Chrissie def said formal. For a school gym? Oh well, it's too late now.
I might as well get dressed.
I remember the first time I truly got caught dressed. And it was Jimmy
who caught me. I started my HRT just after turning fifteen (dad's
professional courtesies). I woke up one Saturday morning and, after
throwing on a robe, went down to the kitchen. My parents and my sister
were sitting at the kitchen table having a bite to eat with their
coffees. They immediately stopped talking when I entered the room. I
stared at them in curiosity.
"Don't let me stop you guys." I walked over to get myself a glass of
juice.
"We were talking about your situation Kelly." My mom tended to start
family discussions.
"What situation?" I took my place in the last empty chair at the table.
I sipped my juice as I watched her closely. I was thinking of what I
could have possibly done now.
"Well..." She placed her hand on mine and smiled. "...it's just
that...well...you seem to be very comfortable when you're dressed on
weekends? And your mannerisms, disposition, and tastes are so
utterly...feminine?"
I couldn't deny that I was only truly comfortable when I could dress and
hang out with my sister. I had already taken the big step of going out
shopping with my mom and Corie on the weekends. I hated when Mondays
came and I had to once again put on my 'boy stuff'. I had taken to
wearing panties, camisoles, and thigh highs beneath my shirt and pants.
But I hated the way I had to look during school, especially now that my
hair had grown out a bit and could be styled...somewhat.
"Yeah? So?"
"So we were wondering if you would rather be a girl than a boy."
I stopped drinking in mid gulp and nearly choked on what I had
swallowed. What a concept! Could it be done? Oh my God! I stared at
Corie in disbelief; then at my mom, who was smiling; and my dad, who was
on another planet at the time.
"What???"
I hadn't even really thought about it...the BIG "IT". I only knew that I
lived for after school and weekends. I also knew that I was really
attracted to girls more for their fashion styles and 'looks' than
for...well...physical urges? I stayed away from the boys because I felt
somewhat intimidated by them. There were one or two exceptions but they
were interested in girls for the same reasons I was. This was how I met
Chris in the first place.
"I would like you to meet with a friend of mine and have you take a few
tests."
Well, mom was still smiling although the testing part was a bit
frightening. Hmmm... maybe I could study for them? I did find myself
looking at the bare chest guys in my sister's teen glam mags. I would
catch myself and wonder why they seemed to be getting me...excited? Not
that I got all that excited to begin with.
Anyway, that's when I started taking hormones. I was a bit young by the
standards in this country but there's an old adage. Well...it's not that
old and F. Lee Bailey, a lawyer said it. "If you have a problem and you
have money...then you don't have a problem." By the time I met Jimmy, I
had been on the 'mones for nearly a year.
The physical changes were fairly easy to hide. I did freak a little bit
when I started to get boobage. I had to wear an extra small tee shirt to
flatten them a bit and to keep them from painfully jiggling about.
Motrin def became my dearest friend. And not having to shave was so
totally divine, well, except for my legs and pits. Fortunately I only
had this year to finish and I would start college with a new gender
designation.
Anyway...where was I? Oh...yeah...Jimmy catches me en femme. It was the
end of September and the S.A.T.'s were approaching (in mid October).
Jimmy, in spite of his slow start, proved to be a quick learner. Once he
understood the theory of whatever we were studying, he could find the
correct answer without even having to think about it. The rub was that I
needed to find the proper way to explain things to him and that often
required two or three attempts.
Sooo...where was I? Oh...yeah...Jimmy wanted extra help. So what does
little Ms. Genius do??? After a bit of back and forth as to where to
meet and when, I...that's right folks...I decide that he should come
over to my house ...on Saturday!
Of course the remainder of the week flew by, albeit not fast enough for
me, and Saturday rolled around. I slept in a bit and, upon rising, I
proceeded to go through my Saturday ritual. I had a date with my sister
to go shopping in the early afternoon and so I wanted to look my best.
We were going to the city to shop for some shoes and various other
sundry items.
My folks were not at home and Corie was downstairs when the door bell
rang. I was upstairs and I just finished dressing and doing my face.
Corie answered the door. I thought it was one of her friends; maybe
Naddie (Nadine) or Pam, both of whom were in on my little sacred secret.
I ran down the stairs totally excited about maybe the four of us doing
the city. When I saw that it was Jimmy, and I remembered our study date,
I screamed...well...more like eeeeeekkked...and ran back up the steps to
my room slamming the door shut behind me.
Between Sisters and Friends
Oh my God!!! I feel so exposed in this gown! I had never worn a halter
necked anything and the exposure of so much flesh is a bit frightening.
Well, maybe more like scary hot sexy? This was definitely not my look,
and certainly not my taste, doing the 'speaking'. Hmmm...I could mousse
my hair and comb it straight back in kind of a butch look. I mean, a
wedge with a modified bob just didn't seem extreme enough. I should have
had hair long enough to put up.
Speaking about extreme and exposed! Corie told me that Jimmy scratched
his head and backed out of the house to check the number. Then he walked
back and stared at Corie with a wide eyed look of surprise.
"Was that who I think it was?"
Corie kind of stood there in her wide eyed 'shock and awe' mode at this
tall, handsome, really buff guy who came to see her sister. Her sister?
'He should be coming to see me!' crossed her mind. She was at a loss for
words.
"Uhhhhhhhhhh..."
"Well, maybe I should go and see? I mean I came here for tutoring with
Kelly. Was that Kelly?"
"Uhhhhhhhhhh..."
Jimmy called, well, he actually shouted my name. I was in my room,
sitting on my bed clutching a pillow to my body. Oh my God! This was not
merely tinted nail polish. This was full blow dressed! Complete with
cosmetics and inch and one half heeled pumps. I was in a jean skirt with
a pearl pink silk camisole top trimmed with lace. There was no easy
explanation for this!
"Kelly! If you don't come down, I'm fuckin' coming up!"
"Uhhhhhhhhhh..."
Oh my God! He would do it. But I was frozen in place. I simply couldn't
move a muscle. I felt so embarrassed. I heard foot steps coming up the
stairs. He would be at my door in seconds. I was absolutely terrified
that he would...freak out completely.
I heard a gentle knocking on my door.
"Kel...it's Corie. I'm here with Jimmy and I really think you should
open up the door and come out."
Come out...come out? COME OUT?! Who was she kidding?
"Kelly...just open the door and talk to me." I heard a pleading sound in
Jimmy's voice. "Nobody at school needs to know, I fuckin' swear."
Well...I knew he did that and way too often I might add!
Somehow, in my stunned state of mind, I managed to raise my tear stained
eyes from my pillow. "It's open." I managed to squeak that out between
sniffles.
As he entered the room, I buried my face in the pillow again. Corie must
have followed right behind him because I smelled her scent. I felt her
sit down next to me on the bed. She put her arms around me and tried to
comfort me but I was beyond repair at that point. I felt her get up off
the bed. She told me that she was leaving the room but the door must
stay open.
"You know something? You do look sort of cute. I could get a better look
if you weren't so fuckin' attached to that fuckin' pillow."
I giggled in spite of my tears and my...condition. Now there was a
thought for you; my face permanently attached to a pillow. Jimmy's voice
was very calm. I never noticed before but his voice was also quite deep
and resonant. I found that mildly exciting in spite of my circumstance.
I slowly raised my head from the pillow. My eyes were still downcast. I
couldn't look him in the face.
"You know, you are more than cute. You're quite beautiful. Now what's
this all about?"
Jimmy got off the chair by my desk and came over to sit on the bed with
me. He kept a space between us but he turned his body to face me. I
shrugged my shoulders, still sniffling and fighting back more tears. I
was still tightly clutching the pillow to my breasts.
"Listen, I didn't tell anyone about your nails and I won't tell anyone
about this. I only want to understand what's going on. Are you a guy
masquerading as a girl? Or are you a girl dressing up like a guy at
school? And why are you doing this anyway? Why can't you just be you,
whoever that is?"
I think that was the most he's said up to that point...ever! And he
asked questions that were right on topic, as we say. I finally looked up
at him (I was always looking up at him) and into those gorgeous baby
blues of his.
"This..." I pointed both hands inward toward myself. "...is who I am."
"So...what about school and the guy thing?"
"Well...that's me as well. But I'm not comfortable that way. So I'm kind
of changing, you know?"
Jimmy looked at me for a moment trying to digest what I had told him,
which really wasn't more than I needed to.
"Well, it seems to me that sooner or later you'll have to make a
choice."
"When I enter college next fall, it'll be as a girl. I've been taking
drugs that are changing me."
"Hormones?" He wasn't totally ignorant.
"Yeah...the 'mones. And my mom and sister are helping me."
"Yeah, well I can see that for myself." He smiled. I loved that smile of
his. His entire face would light up. "So...what about us?"
"Huh?" Huh? Us? US!!!
"Yeah...the tutoring and stuff. You still want to help me or not."
I felt both relief and disappointment when he defined us. I didn't
understand my attraction to him at the time. But I did get up to garner
my books and I led him down to the kitchen to begin our session. And our
session did go well. Of course he couldn't take his eyes off of me,
especially after I washed my face and redid my make up. And I couldn't
take my eyes off of him. I couldn't believe he was so accepting of me.
My helping him at school became even more difficult because I had to
concentrate on teaching him and not staring at him like a love sick
kitten. And then there were the inappropriate questions. One afternoon,
just before the S.A.T.'s, we were sitting outside at 'our' table when
from out of no where, he leaned toward me and asked, in a very soft
voice; "What do you do with your..." He looked around again. "...tits
when you come to school."
I explained, in an even softer voice, that I either bound them with a
soft wrap bandage, or I wore a tight tee shirt beneath my clothes. I
would blush and smile and answer whatever he asked. 'Yes, I'm wearing
panties. No, I sit when I go. I don't know, but I think I like guys." It
went on and on.
Then, one day he came out with the big one.
"You want to do something? I mean, we could get lunch or see a movie or
something. Would that be okay?"
He asked me at school! If anyone else had heard our conversation, we
both would have been dead. Hmmm... Let's see...did I want to go out...on
a date...with him? Fuckin' yeah!!! My face must have said it all because
he smiled right back at me.
"It would have to be a Saturday or a Sunday though." I wanted to be who
I really was. "And it would have to be away from here, you know?" I was
so afraid of being spotted and outed before 'my time'; before I was
ready...you know...complete? Now all I needed to do was get permission
from my mom. Dad was still off somewhere on a distant planet.
"Oh my God!!! With that guy? With what's his name...Jimmy Hughes?"
Nothing, and I mean nothing, was ever discussed without having a family
meeting. Corie was more than slightly dismayed; she was miffed (you
REALLY have no idea how much I love that word)! "You've got to be
kidding! I should be going out with him...if he was my type. He's
nineteen for Christ's sake!"
"Language honey, language." Certain things brought my dad back to
reality...for a moment or two.
Corie nodded at dad as an apology. "I think it's a bad idea...a very bad
idea."
What did she know anyway! I mean, it's not like we're boy friend-girl
friend. We're not going steady. And he did say during the daytime. What
was the big deal? Mom sat quietly with one elbow on the table and her
palm holding her chin. She listened to Corie and then looked at me.
"Well... I don't see any problem with..."
Corie's jaw hit the floor! Mom said yes. Oh my God! She said yes! But
there were a ton of conditions. None of this and no that and be sure
you're home by, and so on and so on. I didn't care. I would have agreed
to anything for ten minutes to ourselves and away from home, and the
school. All I really wanted to do is to speak with him. I knew very
little about him other than the fact that everyone at school was afraid
to mess with him.
Saturday, the appointed day, couldn't come quick enough. He was to pick
me up at home and we would go to the city and have lunch and see a
movie. It took me forever to get ready. I needed Corie's help to pick
out what to wear and even then I changed my mind three times. I was so
excited!
I finally chose a mid calf skirt in a sand color with an apple green
camisole. I wore thigh highs (I hated pantyhose) and a pair of apple
green skimmers to match my camisole. My make up was an entirely
different story. Corie had to help me with it, albeit reluctantly. I
wanted to look a bit older, more mature maybe? I simply didn't want to
look like a fifteen year old girl.
Through the entire make up session, Corie was giving me advice and
warnings, especially for when we were in the movie theatre. She had
these dos and don't and what ifs. Then she began to quiz me on what she
told me. I tried to tell her that I felt safe with Jimmy.
"None of them are safe! They're guys" I was somewhat surprised at her
attitude considering she spent so much time going on dates and seemed to
be even more enamored and entranced by boys than I was.
Fortunately she finished my face just as Jimmy pulled up in his car. I
heard him knocking at the door and I stood up ready to rush down to
answer it. Corie grabbed me by my arm as I started to go. She shook her
head and rolled her eyes.
"Wait, let mom answer it. You always keep them waiting a few minutes."
Under her breath she looked at me with a frown. "I can't believe she's
letting you do this."
I frowned back at her. I didn't understand her attitude about this
entire date thing.
"Why are you being this way Corie? You've never acted like this before
and I thought you were all for me being who I wanted to be."
Just then mom called up to me. Corie still held my arm and, looking at
me, she told me why.
"It's because I love you and I worry about you. Mom use to say that to
me but now, for the first time, I understand what she meant." Then she
hugged me and let me go. "Walk down slowly sweetie!"
Jimmy was in the foyer speaking with my mom. Or, rather, she was
interrogating him. At first he seemed really relieved to see me. He
smiled. But then he sort of became mesmerized by me; the way I looked.
He was all wide eyed and I expected him to begin drooling at any moment.
At first I thought something was wrong with me.
"Do I look okay?" It took him a moment but he finally got his words
together.
"You really look...great...beautiful." His smile became even bigger.
I turned to my mom for the final inspection. I think her eyes began to
well up a bit; her 'daughter's' first 'date'.
"Well?"
"You do look lovely." She took me by my shoulders. "Better take a
sweater with you though. It may get chilly later." She went to the
closet and after rummaging a bit, she handed me a white knit pull over
sweater. I turned toward Jimmy.
"Shall we?" He nodded and opened the door. He took my hand and we walked
out. I could hear mom and Corie begin to have an animated discussion
about the entire thing. "I think we'd better run for it."
We walked quickly to his car and, after opening the door for me to get
in, and of course closing it, he ran around and got in. I'm sure the
sound of screeching rubber from his tires gave them a great sense of
security.
I asked him if this was his car. It was then that I found out the
particulars of his life. It was his aunt's car. He lived with her
because both his parents drank and he didn't want to be around them.
Once he turned sixteen, he left them and went to live with her until he
finished high school.
His aunt was his mother's sister and she decidedly loved other women.
Her chosen significant other had been with her for years and the two of
them welcomed him in. He was, of course, from the 'other side of the
tracks'; literally. His father was a janitor and his mother worked at an
industrial laundry. He had no brothers or sisters.
He told me that he really didn't know what to think of me. This 'girl'
thing was kind of a surprise. But he also told me that nobody ever spent
so much time trying to help him with his grades and tests.
"So you have to remember that I'm really fuckin' nervous."
"Listen..." I wasn't sure what I wanted to say, or how to say it, but
this 'fuckin' business had to stop. He was better than that. "...Jimmy?
Could you please not say fuckin' so much? You are such a smart guy and
when you say that, it's all people hear. You know?"
"Yeah...you're right. Okay. If you catch me, then remind me. It's just
something we say in the neighborhood, you know?"
His hand was atop his thigh. The feeling was...simply delicious! I place
my hand over his as I looked at him and smiled.
"Yeah...I know."
We talked all the way into the city. He took me to a diner that
specialized in their grilled hamburgers and hot dogs and various sodas.
They had an old fashioned soda fountain and a long counter with stools
that had rotating seats as well as tables and chairs.
From the moment we sat down to the moment he brought me home, one half
hour early I might add, the day was almost a complete whirling blur. It
seemed to me that we were the only two people on the face of the earth
as we strolled through the weekend crowds of shoppers and day trippers.
The day wasn't about anything other than us.
We talked. Through all we did we talked. He talked. It was as though a
great dam of thoughts and emotions had burst as the words poured out of
him like a wall of water through a narrow valley. I smiled and listened
though the words meant nothing as I heard them. I was entranced by his
smiles, his frowns, his arms flailing, and his raging depth of emotions.
I felt what he said more than anything else.
I had never spoken to anyone, nor had anyone speak to me, exposing such
a vulnerable and naked side of themselves. I felt almost like a voyeur
as he spoke. His was a slice of life I had never known. There were times
when he would touch my hand, and I would hold his. He would bring me to
shed tears though I really didn't know why other than I couldn't image
him speaking like this to anyone before. I thought of how sad and lonely
he must feel.
We never got to the movie. We walked through the crowded streets. He put
his hand on my shoulder putting me in front of him. Then he drew me
closer and put his arm around me. I felt somehow safe, sheltered from
the jostling we occasionally encountered.
We walked into the park along the New River and he removed his car coat
length leather jacket. He spread it on the grass and we sat and talked.
I sat facing him with my legs folded to one side. I suddenly felt the
urge to simply lean into him and he welcomed me with his embrace. As I
rested my head against his chest and closed my eyes, I inhaled his
aroma. I found myself becoming excited being so close to him and
inhaling his aroma.
In spite of the strangeness I felt in my mind, my heart kept telling me
that this was okay...not just okay...but right. This was what I was
meant to do. And this was the person I was meant to do 'it' with
(whatever 'it' was). He held me snugly and kissed the top of my head. I
died. My old soul left me and a new one replaced it. I actually felt
myself wet my panties though I hadn't even become erect (which was
something that hadn't happened in months anyway).
I put my arms around him as it happened and held on for dear life! I
trembled as the moment overtook me and I buried my face into him even
more than it already was. I think he knew what had happened but he had
the good grace not to say anything. He simply held me and let me have
that moment.
I learned two things that day. I was totally entranced by him and I must
always wear a panty shield because whether I was with him or not, I
could have another 'moment' and I really did not enjoy soppy undies or
wet spotted skirts.
The Kiss...
"I don't think your sister likes me."
I didn't care. I had to pee pretty badly and I wasn't ready to say good
night to him under THAT kind of pressure. I opened the car door and
literally sprang out and ran...well...I walked quickly, and nearly
crossed legged, to the house and went inside. I thought that he would
figure it out. He did.
When I returned from doing my business, and freshening up just a bit, he
was sitting in the kitchen being given the third degree by my sister. My
mom was at the table merely listening, and smiling. His back was to me
but when he heard my steps behind him he stood up and turned to me. I
could see the look of relief on his face.
He said he really should be going and I understood that. It had been a
long day, and I'm sure, an emotionally draining one for him. I felt good
about the day, especially when he took my hand in his, in front of my
mom and sister no less, and started for the door.
We walked in silence to the driver's side of the car and he turned
toward me, my hand still in his. I'll never forget what he said.
"Nobody had ever helped me the way you have, or talked with me like you
did, and I don't know how I'm going to look at you in school after
today. I only know that I can't see you any other way then the way you
are right now."
He was looking directly into my eyes as if he could see deep within my
soul. I felt myself blush and I had to look down at my feet as I smiled.
"And how do you see me right now?" I had to hear it. I wasn't very sure
what was coming but I did have to hear it. He looked off into the
distance. Whatever was coming, he seemed to be searching for the right
words or collecting his thoughts. Then he looked directly into my eyes
again.
"You're the most beautiful..." He looked away for a moment. "...the most
perfect girl I've ever met."
I was stunned to say the least! Beautiful? Perfect? Girl? And all of
this in one sentence? Then he took me around the waist and pulled me a
bit closer. Oh my God! It was coming! I knew it and he knew it. I placed
my hands gently upon his chest and looked down as I smiled. Lord I was
so...I don't know...innocent?
He bent his head own coming to within a merely few inches of my face. He
was leaving it up to me. If I wanted him I had to go the rest of the
way. And I wanted him. So I went the rest of the way. I closed my eyes
as our lips touched. I wanted to simply feel the sensation. We both kind
of pursed our lips two or three times. It was nice. I liked it.
Oh my God! The realization hit me like a ton of bricks. I kissed a guy!
I pulled my face back from his for a moment. I looked into his eyes and
broadly smiled. I think I even giggle for a moment. Hmm... 'Let's do
that again', I thought. 'That was really nice.'
This time I put my hands around his neck and pulled him back down to me.
Again I closed my eyes as our lips met. This time I was really into the
spirit of the matter at hand and I kissed him. Our mouths seemed to open
simultaneously and our lips wrestled a bit. Well...it was more like
massaged then wrestled.
I could feel the passion rise up within me. I think he was already there
but he contained himself. I appreciated that. I wanted more and my arms
seemed to have a mind all their own as I felt his shoulders and then his
back beneath his leather jacket.
I broke the kiss and pushed back just a bit. I looked into his eyes.
This time I didn't smile or giggle. I felt the fire burn within me and
it was radiating light through my eyes. He was already there and I now
knew 'that' look. Indeed, I burned everything about his face into my
mind. I never wanted to forget how he looked at that moment. I wished
his face to haunt me in my dreams. Be very careful for what you wish...
I pulled him back down to me and again kissed him. This time I held him
tightly and gave myself over to the sensation, and to him. He put his
hands on my hips and pulled me even closer then I could. It was as if he
wanted to pull me inside of himself and I wasn't about to stop him. I
felt his hands on my ass and I loved it!
That kiss rocked my world; shook and rattled my cage; exploded my little
universe; smashed my atoms; and made me leak into my panties again. I
had been changed in a matter of a few minutes. I would never be the same
again. I felt something so powerful, so intense, so...wonderful, that I
would forever want that feeling to continue and never cease.
Though all we did was kiss, I had been completed as a girl in the sense
that I now knew what it was to be so completely overwhelmed by the
sexuality and sensuality of a guy. A part of my innocence had been taken
and I simply gave it up to him. And it was him. I didn't feel that way
about other guys although I began to see them in a different way. It was
him and only him I wanted.
I don't remember exactly how it happened but I did manage to find my way
back into the house. I must have had the biggest shit eating grin
because I do remember my mom giggling when she saw me. And my sister?
She simply shook her head in dismay.
The B.J. or; Aural Sex RulZ!!!
Oh my God!!! This gown!!! I do not know what possessed me. I look...fat!
And the way my ass shows! Now what am I going to do? I don't know...
Chrissie said I looked...hot in it. I mean...slinky and form fitting
were never to my taste and he's gay. What good is my looking hot to him
going to do? Looking hot to every gay male at this...this...reunion
won't get me a man and it sure as hell won't get me...laid?
Now...where was I? Oh yeah...
The next week in school was...impossible. Every time I saw him, every
time I thought of him, I wanted to do is run up to him, throw my arms
around him, and kiss him. He wasn't having any easier a time then me.
Our tutoring sessions were absolute torture. We found ourselves staring
at one another in longing and desire; silent longing and desire.
He told me, in a very hushed voice, that he wanted to simply touch my
hand but he couldn't. I couldn't. Not in public. Not at school. Not
dressed as I was. Thinking back to that time I can't believe how
deliciously dangerous our situation during the week was.
As my family became accustomed to his particular ways, he began to
become sort of a fixture in our house. During the school week, I would
come home and immediately bathe and change. He would come over around,
or just after, dinner time and we could be together...downstairs and in
'public' view.
We could sit side by side, our bodies touching in an almost innocent
way. We could even hold hands as we watched the tube or went over some
aspect of school work. He would be more attentive then during the
afternoons at school when I was in my 'guy mode'. Of course my sister
would watch us like a hawk. And if she thought we were getting too
comfy, I'd get 'that' look. You know that look; Squinty eyed and
frowning; arms crossed under her boobs and foot tapping away like crazy.
She was pretty good at 'that' look even when sitting.
But even she warmed up toward him after awhile. I guess she recognized
that his gentleness to me and his consideration toward our family was
genuine. Being a self made cast away from his own natural family called
for a rapid adjustment in how a reasonably 'normal' family functioned.
He was not stupid. Indeed quite the opposite was true and he had a
unique kind of street sense that served him quite well. He wanted to be
with me under whatever conditions were predetermined. He not only met
those terms, he exceeded them. If I was doing the dishes after diner,
I'd wash them off and he would load them into the dish washer...that
kind of thing.
Anyway, one Saturday evening we found ourselves alone and at home. We
were doing what all good teens should be doing when alone at home with
their respective steadies; making out like crazy on the family room
couch during whatever was providing the back ground sound on the tube.
OMG!!! Can you imagine? The 'tube'...that is so last century! I can't
even believe it. So, before we get to the good part, I must confess that
up to this point in our relationship, I haven't once mentioned his
dick...or should I say DICK!!! Yeah...he did have one. And yeah...I did
feel it every time we managed to get close enough for our bodies to
touch. And yeah...his dick was a monster.
I use the past tense because who knows? It might have shrunk. Or...it
might have even grown (if that's possible)!!! I mean, they do amazing
things with Botox and collagen. I felt it against my body the first time
we kissed. I couldn't image what it could possibly be because let's face
it, if you didn't look carefully, you might have missed seeing mine
entirely. I mean, it's 'look quick...a small town' versus a megalopolis
or something.
Now let's face it girls, if a man does as he should, that is, to bless
us with the mighty BIG 'O' (ours...not his) with a reasonable
frequency...like whenever WE wish it (just kidding) (NOT!!!), then there
is nothing we wouldn't do for him, or any place we would refuse him
entry.
Okay...but what about us? Well, until we get that BIG 'O', we def are in
control. There is no doubt that the man's power is in his dick and
scrot; or, as in Jimmy's case, his BAT and his BALLS. As long as he has
control over that lovely, hopefully matched set, he has the power.
However, merely rub your hip against it, even when clothed, and his
power begins to slip away. Wrap your hand, or mouth, around it and its
Kryptonite to Stupidman. Grab it and start walking? He'll follow you
anywhere! He'll follow you everywhere! He will promise you, and get you,
anything and everything if you only "oh pleeeze baby...just a little
rub?" Or..."come on sweetie...just lick it once?"
I was so fucking (he did have that influence on me) na?ve and innocent
that I surprise myself. It was my sister who had to educate me. I mean,
I was in transition (I really hate that fucking word...I prefer rebirth)
and I really didn't know anything about guys in general so who could I
ask? Mommy? No way! Could you imagine..."Oh Mom, how far should I go
with him tonight? Should I blow him or what?" It simply doesn't work
that way in our home.
Corie was super resistant at first and I understand that. I mean...she
has to 'come clean' (pardon the expression) with the details of her own
experiences and that's not real easy with a younger sib doing the
asking. It also means that her head and her heart have to be in the same
place and space about my being reborn ). Rebirth is so much more
descriptive, don't you think? I don't think that?( this was totally
true with her at the time. It took a couple of days for her to come
around and that seemed like a lifetime to me.
"He's not forcing you, is he?!" She suddenly turned red and became a bit
angry. I was somewhat stunned at her question. We were in her bedroom on
the bed in our 'bed time' apparel; large tee shirts and our panties.
"No!!! This is something that I want! I mean...I want to do more. I want
to give myself to him." I did. I felt this need to do something
different; something special and new to us. "If anything, he's very...I
don't know...shy?" I could feel her tension release. Corie looked down
and pulled her tee hem over her knees.
"Cause you really don't have to do anything you don't want to...or
anything that doesn't feel...right. It never works and all that happens
is that you feel like shit afterwards. You know...used?"
I thought I could see a tear well up in her eyes. I was again somewhat
shocked.
"Oh my God!"
She looked at me. "Listen...some guys do that. They give you the line
about their needs not being met and how they go home in pain from the
teasing and it's OUR fault that they feel this way and everyone else is
'doing it' and all of that shit."
"Nooo!!!" I was insistent and scowled at the thought. "It's not like
that at all!"
"Okay. Just remember what I told you about it feeling right, okay?"
"Yeah."
"Okay. This is between us, right?"
"Yeah."
"Okay. I guess you need to know this stuff and it's better that it comes
from me than one of your weird friends." I was a bit pissed off at her
remark but, for the sake of important info, I kept my mouth shut. "There
are three things you can do. You can jerk him off with or without his
clothes on. If you're pissed off at him, do it with his clothes on. Then
he has to go home with that mess in his pants."
She giggled at that. I sort of knew what she meant having done that to
myself in bed a few times before the 'mones'. "You can suck him off but
that's def not one of my favs...I hate the taste and the mess but they
really get off on that. You don't have to swallow that crap...remember
that."
I sat in awe of what she was relating. I really couldn't image my
sister, Coreen Kelly Maguire, doing these things at all. It was
like...'as if'...!
"You know Lizzie Cline?" I shook my head 'no' in wide eyed wonder. She
continued in a very muted and conspiratorial fashion, bringing her face
right up to mine. "Well, she keeps this glass in her night table simply
for spitting that mess into whenever her boyfriend is over and nobody
else is home."
I need to explain that we went to different high schools. Neither one of
us wanted to wind up in the same classes or with shared friends. She was
certainly more of a 'normal' student with good grades; and three years
my senior. Being in the same school and grade would have been a problem
for both of us.
"So what's the third thing?"
"You don't need to know that now? But if you think about it, you can
guess it for sure."
I thought of only a moment.
"Oh my God! You've done it?!" Oh my God! My sister's done it? I think
she was becoming more relaxed about talking to me because she giggled
before she answered.
"Yeah. You don't know him? But I can tell you that I shouldn't have
given it up to him. It was kind of a mercy fuck, you know? He kept
asking and asking so I did it. The next day? Like it was all over the
school. He was telling anyone who would listen. It was such a major
drag. Everyone thought I was such a slut and like every guy wanted to
date me."
"Oh my God!" I was beside myself with anger at some guy I didn't even
know. He sounded like such a douche bag! "So what happened?"
She giggled again. "This is like too good! I 'fessed up and said that he
was short and spewed as soon as he got there..." I giggled. I couldn't
believe I was hearing this stuff from her. "...and that he wouldn't lick
me and get me off!"
"Eeeewwwwww! Then what happened?" Eeeewwwwww! I don't eat raw fish
either.
"He couldn't get a date to save his life for the next year and a half!"
We both laughed. I wanted to hear more semi-sordid tales from her but it
was really time to get down to the facts.
"Okay..." She became very conspiratorial again with a wicked smile on
her face. "So, you don't want to get him off right away. The longer you
draw it out, and make it last, the more he's going to want you."
"That's good?"
"You think? Yeah...that's really good! You grab them around the shaft
with one hand and jerk it up a couple of times. They'll usually cough up
some clear stuff...you know, pre-cum? Wait..."
Corie stood up on the bed and then hopped off. She quickly went to her
clothes closet and got down on her knees. She kind of crawled into the
back and pulled out a boot. After pulling out a pair or two of panty
hose (I don't know how she could wear those) from the boot, she reached
into the toe and retrieved a tube of K.Y. jelly and a battery powered
Personal Relaxation Device (a six inch long vibrator).
The 'Dirty Deed"
I don't believe I need to wear heels with this...this...gown! I mean, an
inch and a half really is my limit. But Chrissy insisted I go for the
four and a halfers. Stilettos no less. They were gorgeous shoes in an
apple green silk; the heel included. And the clutch was matching. I
mean, only a man would desire this torturous device on a woman's foot,
you know?
So...where was I? Oh yeah...Corie and the PRD (6" V).
"...let me show you."
"Eeeewwww!!!" Eeeewwww!!! Was she going to show me what she does
with...it??? Corie read my mind and giggled.
"No silly! Not that."
And so she went on...and on...and on about the proper way to do a BJ. I
sat in rapt awe at her sage advice and technique. On the one
hand...hmmm...is that a scratch on my nail? Hmmm...okay...it's merely
the lighting. On the one hand, I was studiously making mental notes and
visualizing myself with Jimmy. On the other, oh...my...God! This is my
sister talking about what she knew and had obviously done! I was sooo
clueless.
So...anyway...there we are on the couch. I had already let him get to
second base and though my plates were on the smallish side, he was still
there and safe. Motrin was still my best friend and he was sooo very
gentle on my nips and breasts. I would cream, well it was actually more
like water by that time, my panties from his simply kissing my nips.
Anyway, I have my blouse and bra off and he's shirtless as well.
BTW...he also would get a stiffy when I would reciprocate by kissing and
nibbling gently on his nips. I really got off on hearing him moan and
groan as I did my thing. What was interesting was that I tended to do to
him as I wanted him to do to me. Isn't that like a 'golden rule' or
something? Hmmm...
So...Jimmy's on his back and I'm straddling his waist doing my ass
wiggling thing on his crotch (and yes, we still have our pants on). I
hopped off of him and knelt on the floor as I kissed and licked and
nibbled my way down toward his belt line. He had his hands on my neck
and shoulders. He was gently massaging my back and neck as I went along.
I suddenly sat up and began to undo his belt, button and zipper. His
pants had been 'tenting' since he arrived! With my Jimmy, if he was
anywhere near me, it was like...tent city?
"What are you doing?!" He got up on his elbows, eyes in wide wonder and
mouth agape and then in one of his ever so dazzling smiles.
"Whatever I truly want. Should I stop?"
He laughed and laid back down. As I slipped his pants down and off of
him, Jimmy's dick sprang up tight against his shorts. Oh my God! His
dick looked monstrous! I softly petted it from the bottom to its very
tip through his shorts. Where the tip hit against his shorts, the
material was sopping wet. It had spread through the material causing the
head of his dick to be pronouncedly outlined in the material.
OH...MY...GOD!!!
Practice Makes Perfect...O's
These stupid heels! I need to walk around a bit in them. Hmmm... I give
it two hours, maybe less, before I kick them off. This is sooo not me! I
don't know. My feet will be killing me and I'll look fat. Reunions suck
and I haven't even gone yet. My reunion he said. My reunion; like I
owned the thing! My reunion my fat butt!
Hmmm...oh yeah! OH...MY...GOD!!! I mean, it's not like I looked at guys
dicks all the time but this was ridiculous! Jimmy's dick was huge! I
mean...not huge but FUCKING HUGE!!! Before the HRT mine must look like a
really small zit or something. Anyway, I had to see it. I thought it was
like the eighth wonder of the world!
I rested my head on his tummy and I reached into his shorts. My God! I
could barely get my hand around it! Jimmy moaned and his body spasmed as
if he got hit by a jolt of electricity. I wondered how any girl could
possibly get this thing inside of her. God I was sooo clueless.
I lifted the waist band of Jimmy's shorts to reveal his glorious wonder
to my eyes. Oh my God! I could see his dick head, what Corie called the
little 'fireman's helmet'. It was drooling and moist with his pre-cum.
It shone in the dim lighting of the room.
I knew what I wanted to do; what I needed to do; what I desired to do. I
quickly slipped his shorts down; never letting go of my grip on his
shaft. Once they were down passed his rock hard ass, he did the rest and
got them completely off. He flinged them up and out somewhere and I made
the mental note that I had to remember to find them should someone
arrive home before...I was finished, or he was finished; or which ever
came (pardon the pun) first.
Anyway, his dick kind of sprang up and out at about forty five degrees
from his body. There was so much force in it that my hand was jerked up
along with it! Oh my God! I could feel the entire organ twitch and
throb. With my finger, I made circles around its head. Jimmy moaned, and
spasmed, and moaned in pleasure again.
I started to giggle. This was sooo amazing and wonderful. Corie was
absolutely right! I felt the power I had I had in my hand, and the power
I could exert over him. But more amazingly, what I was doing felt
absolutely right, correct, and destined to be. In my mind, there was
never any question that I was a girl playing with her guy. So there! See
if I care!
Sooo...I'm looking at the glistening tip of Jimmy's dick and I know that
the inevitable was about to inevitably occur. I leaned over and licked
the drop of pre-cum on the tip. I licked very slowly and with as much
tongue surface as I could. He groaned and quaked. I giggled as I savored
the moment. It was...salty and kind of yummy in a weird way?
"You don't really have to do this."
"Oh yes I do!" I really had to...for myself as much, if not more, than
for him. I smiled as I bent back down and kissed the head again, this
time I kept going and engulf the entire thing (the head that is, not his
whole dick you sillies) in my mouth. I could barely keep my teeth from
scratching it, but I did somehow manage.
"Jesus, Joseph and Mary! That is so fuckin' intense!"
Okay, so I knew it. Like, when you get them to fold in half, that is,
when their knees smack them in the forehead and you're choking at the
fold, you know you hit the good spot. He unfolded as quickly...praise
God. I still had my hands on Jimmy's thick shaft and I began to actually
suck on him. Each time I brought my mouth up and off of him, I made this
popping sound. It was really kind of cool.
I got into this kind of rhythm of stroking, sucking, and popping. It was
all I could do to keep it up because Jimmy jerked and spasmed and quaked
and moaned and groaned all over the place. He kept bleeding his pre-cum
into my mouth. It was sooo...Pavlovian? I mean, if I wanted a little bit
of taste, I had to get the stroke right.
It was so very weird. Firstly, Jimmy was cut (no foreskin). That kind of
saved the weirdness you can sometimes get when hygiene isn't a major
league priority (or even on the list...cheese really sucks).
Eeeeeewwwww!!!! Anyway, I was recalling all of the little things Corie
taught me and tried every one except the deep throat thingy? I mean, as
if anyone could do that with him. But I could get the first few
inches...as past the head and a bit more...before it's like...gag me
with a tree!
Jimmy was popping around like crazy. He was trying very hard not to push
my head down any further than I could handle and I loved him for that.
He was never insistent and always grateful. I mean, some guys really
don't care and they simply want to get off. But with my Jimmy, I could
truly enjoy the moment and I almost always did. I really loved giving
him blow jobs.
Thankfully, Corie told me about them...you know them...guys cumming; how
to tell when they were close and how to stop them, or promote an end to
the event. I must admit it was really hard for me to stay in the moment.
I mean one hand was massaging my back and ass and the other my neck and
shoulders. Then he began playing with my nips and boobies. Between that
and his taste and his smell, I found myself getting too lost and I
wanted to be able to watch him shoot off, you know?
I don't care what anyone else says, watching them squirt is so, I don't
know, completing? I mean, you put in all of this energy and work, if you
do it right and it's like fire works on the fourth, you know? I loved
watching him shoot. Thank God I paid attention to my sister. She told me
that the first three squirts were the strongest. Those are the ones she
avoided at all costs. Corie said that you simply had to jerk them in
time with their squirting and that was enough to do the trick.
Okay... But she didn't warn me about the kind like my Jimmy! He was what
I now refer to as an extremely strong secretor (as in SECRETOR). I was
into the ball massaging thing when I felt his hands press with more
strength on my back. I also felt him begin to stiffen all over, and
quake. Suddenly he roared and I couldn't have timed it any better
because my mouth came off his dick head with a pop just ahead (pardon
the pun) of a stream of sperm. It was unbelievable! He shot this stream
of thick creamy stuff high into the air! I thought I'd be cleaning it
off the ceiling! I swear to God!
I sat there transfixed with a huge smile on my face as it fell back down
with a splat on his tummy and chest. Then a second huge squirt erupted!
Again I watched in awe as it fell back on my hair and face. 'Nice' I
thought. I could envision my mom: "How was your night dear?" "Okay mom.
Oh...BTW...I took a sperm bath." "Oh...that's nice dear."
The third spurt was only high as high as the first; a good sign that
this would one day end! After the third I dove down on him, taking his
dick head into my mouth. I heard him groan between his roars and shouts
of 'Oh God' and 'fuck'.
Four...five...swallow...six...seven...swallow...
I felt like I was on the Olympic Swallowing Team. This was my
qualification round or something.
Eight...nine...ten...eleven...swallow...
That was merely a wee bit of stuff. I must say that my expectations of
what would occur were not simply met, but wildly exceeded! Jimmy was so
very creamy and salty. I continued to giggle even though I still had the
head of his dick in my mouth.
Twelve...thirteen...fourteen...fifteen...swallow.
Jimmy final finished, or should I say his dick finished. His entire body
seemed to suddenly relax as I kept sucking gently on him.
"Jesus fuckin' Christ! That was...amazing!" He began to giggle as well.
"Really?" I had left his dick with a popping sound and was looking at
him.
"Yeah..." He was still catching his breath. When I saw all of the sperm
puddles on his tummy and che