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Chapter 5 The sun was shining in my eyes as I woke. I looked around the room hoping it was a dream ... Maybe. I dreamed about Friday ... A cross dresser's fantasy? ....Maybe? I was laying in the spare bedroom ... Alone ... There was silence ... Not a sound in the whole house. I had to use the bathroom. I got out of bed and covered myself with my robe. I sat down on the toilet ... The way a woman would go. The waste basket was next to the toilet. I could see the red packaging from the condoms. They had been opened. The condoms lay on the pile of used tissue ... I picked one up, it was ripped to shreds. The others were in the same condition. I picked up one of the packets. I read the label. "Small." My God ... He had made an attempt but they were too small. Why had Jean given me small condoms? Surly she knew he would be extremely huge. I flushed the toilet and looked in the mirror. I had worn my wig all night. My makeup was smeared but would do until I got my coffee. I hadn't noticed the other bedroom door wide open until that moment. Did I dare look? I couldn't hear anything. It must be safe. I stood in the doorway and froze. Mark was lying on his back ... Tammy was lying beside him with her feet toward the pillows. She was lying across his leg, her long red hair spilled across his thigh. Her tits were pressed against his black skin. She was sucking him ... The head was inside her mouth and she was slowly moving her head down. Tammy's eyes opened ... She stared right at me and froze ... We exchanged glances for a few seconds than she continued without interruption. Tammy's left hand rested in his pubic hair while the right hand massaged his balls. I continued to stare but she never looked my way again. She lovingly sucked Mark's cock. Tammy continued giving pleasure to her man ... It didn't matter that I was watching ... Maybe she wanted me to learn ... Showing me? ... How to suck a man ... God ... What if she invited me to join her? .....Maybe she would teach me her technique ... How to please a man ... No way! ... Mark was her man ... Her lover ... Wouldn't allow me to touch him! . . Not with me or anyone ... It was very clear how she felt about him ... I'm thinking about sharing Mark? ....I don't want to share Mark with my wife! .....I don't want a man! ....Why am I thinking this? I walked away. I didn't want to watch Tammy suck her man. I didn't want to see her swallow his load? I wanted my coffee, yes, and I was more concerned about having my morning coffee than watching my wife having sex. I waited for the coffee to brew, walked back to get my pills and took them with water. I had put little x's on the calender each day that I took them. Two, x's for the days I took a double dose. This was day number seventeen. I went into the living room and sat down on the sofa drinking my coffee. There was the card that was attached to the flowers. I looked behind my back to make sure nobody was walking out of the bedroom. I picked up the little card and opened it. "Dear Tammy, You make me look forward to waking up each day and finding your sweet messages on my phone. I'm so happy to have found you. Sincerely. Yours. Mark." I hurried and placed the card back into the small envelope and put it back on the table. My heart was beating faster again as I tried to remain calm. What could I do? .....Was this just a ploy for Mark to screw Tammy? ....Was he falling in love with her? ....My wife? ....How did she feel about Mark? ......Obviously, she felt something if she were calling him every day and leaving messages on his phone. I looked at the clock. It had been an hour since I left the room. How long were they going to take? I was startled by a voice behind me. It was Mark! ....He was walking this way, Tammy was walking next to him. "Jenny ... I want to thank you for everything and especially such a wonderful dinner last night." "Are you leaving so soon?" "Yes ... I have to fly out of town for a couple days but I'm sure I'll see you too when I return." Mark leaned down and gave me a little kiss on the lips and walked to the front door with Tammy. They embraced and kissed for over a minute, Mark's hands were all over her ass again. She was only wearing a tiny little nightie. God! ....Didn't he get enough last night? ....This morning? The front door shut ... He was gone ... Tammy stood facing the door for a few moments. I watched her turn around than looked my way. She smiled. "Jenny. I'm going to get a cup of coffee in the kitchen. Do you want another cup?" Tammy just called me, Jenny. She'd only done that when we were out and around people. I stood up and followed Tammy out to the kitchen. Tammy poured fresh coffee into my cup while sipping hers. The tiny little nightie barely covered her tits. She smelled of sex and her breasts were covered with bit marks. She had a couple dark hickeys on her neck. I couldn't help but check her over. We stared at each other as we drank our coffee. I don't think she knew what to say. One of us was going to have to make the first move. It was Tammy. She walked over to me and hugged me. Kissed my chin and started to rub my skin where I had began the electrolysis treatment. "Honey. Its still red. Is it sore?" I was shocked! I hadn't said anything about starting the treatments ... It must have been Jean! "It's not so bad now but it was sore for a whole day. Felt like something was burning my skin." Tammy kissed my cheek and started kissing the area where I had the treatments, then put her arms around me and hugged me tight. Tammy took my hand and walked me into the bedroom. She slipped of her nightie and opened my robe and slipped it off letting it fall to the floor. My nightie was next and she helped me slip it off over my head. Tammy hugged me again and we kissed. She pushed me back until I was sitting on the bed and climbed into my lap and pushed me back. She started to kiss me passionately as I hugged her tightly against my chest. Tammy's tits were pushing into my chest and I could feel her hard nipples against me. My hands were holding her ass while she squirmed above me. My wife felt so good in my arms. I didn't care if she spent the night having sex with another man. She was mine right now and I loved her. I was hard. I felt Tammy touching me ... Stroking me ... Kissing my neck. She got off me and had me move to the center of the bed. I could see the dry cum stains where they had sex on the sheet. Tammy saw me looking ... She was staring to see my expression ... Like she was proud of her work and she wanted me to see it. Tammy leaned over and kissed my chest ... Sliding down until she kissed the head of my cock. She spread herself out on the bed ... She was in the exact position I saw her with Mark ... She began sucking me. Her mouth felt so good. I massaged Tammy's legs ... Moving my hand to her thigh feeling the soft skin. She was expertly working on me now. Lovingly ... Carefully ... I was in heaven. I watched Tammy as she fondled my balls and felt her tongue pressing against the tip of my cock. She was so good at this ... Mark must have enjoyed what she had done for him. I was starring at Tammy's pussy mound. It was completely bald! ...She must have done it on Friday, before Mark arrived. She had done it for him ... Her lover ... Her boyfriend. I gently lifted Tammy's leg and slipped my hand under her thigh and carefully touched her bare mound, feeling the soft skin and teasing the area around the lips. She must be sore ... I didn't go any further ... Only wanted to touch her ... To feel it. Tammy was working hard ... I was ready to cum ... I could feel it ... My hips arched ... Yes ... I was there! I watched as Tammy swallowed. She was stroking me as she swallowed. Yes, Wanting to give me as much pleasure as she gave Mark. Tammy moved herself in a circle until she was along the side of me. She kissed me ... I could feel her tongue entering my mouth. I tasted it ... I could actually taste it ... It was a salty taste. Our tongues mingled furiously ... passionately ... I swallowed what she had pushed inside ... I was swallowing my own cum. She finished ... She laid her head on my chest ... Began massaging me ... Playing with my nipples. Tammy looked up into my eyes....Smiled. "Jenny ... Do you know you're going to start growing breasts soon?" Oh my God! ....She knew! .......Jean must have told her I was taking the hormones. "I guess I will soon." Tammy kissed me again. She was massaging my limp cock and my balls. Her hand was so soft and she was gentle. Tammy kept giving me little kisses around my neck and my chin. She straightened up for a second and looked into my eyes. "Jenny ... There are going to other changes coming too ... In time, you may not be able to achieve an erection and you will start to shrink. It depends ... It affects everyone differently." I kept looking into Tammy's eyes. She was being serious but gave me the true facts. I think she wanted me to know and I believe she was telling me that it was my choice and she understood. I smiled at Tammy, "I love you." Tammy smiled when she heard me say it. "I love you too." I felt too embarrassed to respond but I knew that Tammy loved me and she only wanted us both to be happy. Tammy was tickling my tummy and began giggling. She raised her head and looked at me. "Tammy ... What's wrong?" "Oh ... It's nothing really ... I was just thinking that your hips are going to change and your little butt isn't going to be so little much longer" I smiled ... Still too embarrassed to comment but she knew what I was thinking. She was helping me to understand. I looked into her eyes ... I don't really know why I asked her this question but I did. "Tammy ... When you kissed me ... Cum ... You pushed it in my mouth ... What did ... Mark Taste like ... Um ... Compared to mine? ....Is it different?" Tammy knew I really wanted to know and she relaxed on my chest and turned toward me ... She hesitated a few seconds ... I knew she was giving her answer some thought. "Mark's cum was much thicker and tasted sweeter but it still had that salty taste. I think it depends on what a man has eaten lately that affects the taste." I lay their looking very interested in knowing what my wife had to say. "Mark is very huge ... Um ... I think you saw him? ...God ... Jenny ... When he was inside me ... I could feel him touching every spot at once ... I actually felt him cum inside me. I felt its warmth as it filled me." "I saw the broken condoms in the waste basket in the bathroom. Did he try to put them on?" Tammy laughed, "Jenny. Those were so small that they ripped when we tried to pull them over the head. Mark hadn't been with a woman in months and he was so excited and horny that we had a difficult time with them." "Were you the first white woman?" "Yes ... He said I was much tighter than any black women he had ever been with. Jenny ... If you could only feel what it's like, having a strong and powerful man like Mark inside you ... Feeling his warmth and feeling him when he releases his cum inside you ... Someday you'll know." I swallowed hard ... Tammy was watching me ... Watching my reaction when she said it ... I was too afraid to reply ... I couldn't reply if I wanted to ... It was never planned this way. Tammy crawled up next to me and lay her head on the pillow. I put my arm around her head and she cuddled much closer. "Tammy. When are you going to see Mark again?" God ... It wasn't a question of "if?" ....I was asking her when? "Well. Mark returns this Thursday from his trip and he mentioned that he would miss me while he was gone....I was thinking of having him over that night....What do you think?" I swallowed hard but calmly asked, "Thursday is fine ... I bet you miss him already?" "Ah ... Yes I do ... Mark is such a nice man and he likes you a lot! ....I'm so happy that you're not jealous of him ... I mean ... You shouldn't be jealous of him and I'm so happy." I assumed Tammy was thinking that in my condition, I shouldn't have any reason to be jealous. I could sense that Tammy wanted to say something additional. "Jenny ... You don't know how happy you make me feel ... We share everything together ... I can't believe I'm sharing my experience with Mark with you. I'm not afraid to tell you anything!" My fate was sealed ... This was it ... My days as a man and Tammy's husband was numbered! ... Is this what I wanted? .....I have a beautiful wife! .....She had feelings for Mark ... It wasn't just about Friday, this had been going on for weeks! ....The cell phone messages! It was strange. I didn't feel hurt and I wasn't mad. Yet, I never wanted to lose my wife. "Tammy ... I'm afraid ... I never want to lose you." Tammy kissed my cheek several times and held me tight. "You're never going to lose me." I somewhat felt reassured but what did she mean by not losing her? Would we remain together, no matter what? ...Would we begin to live as sisters all the time? ...Would she change her mind and want a divorce? "Jenny ... You're going to become the sister I never had. You will always be near me and I'll always love you." Tammy was right ... She wasn't afraid to tell me anything ... It's just what I feared ... I could still change my mind ... Stop everything before the hormones affected me. We lay in bed and cuddled and fell asleep. It was Saturday and we both needed to get some rest. We showered together that afternoon and Tammy mentioned about letting my own hair grow out. She said it would take a long time but in a few weeks we could fix something that would look really cute on me. We ate a quit meal at home and just relaxed and enjoyed our time together. I checked off another day on the calender. Tammy and I spent the Sunday doing research on the internet about the different effects of the hormones I was taking. She printed out what she felt was important for us to know. She also cleaned out a shelf in the kitchen where I could keep everything, and Tammy made a chart. Tammy took notes of everything I had taken. She had a chart that had a time-line of changes we would see take place over the coming weeks. I never considered this but Tammy had plans to make an appointment with a doctor as soon as he could get me in. Jean had given her the name of someone who practices with transsexuals. As I thought in my case, men, who were just beginning. God ... That word ... I didn't like it ... Transsexual! We were laying in bed that night, just laughing and discussing the office and other normal things a married couple would talk about. Something was bothering me and I had neglected to ask Tammy all weekend about it. "Tammy. What if you were to get pregnant by Mark?" "Honey, Don't worry. I started taking birth control pills two weeks ago." That was a relief ... Two weeks ago? .....This was planned for some time! She was planning to have sex with Mark before I ever knew who Mark was! "Jenny. You come first in my life right now and Mark understands. Mark told me that when he gets married some day, he was to have children ... Gosh ... I would like to have children some day." Tammy was right ... She'd mentioned it in the past ... I couldn't help it ... Low sperm count ... Would she want children with Mark? So much had happened this weekend. So many changes would take place in our lives. We snuggled and fell asleep in each other's arms. Chapter 6 I felt like a kid again when I got up Monday morning. Tammy brewed our coffee and lined up my pills that morning for me to take. I remembered my mother giving me vitamins before I went to school each morning. I left for my electrolysis treatment soon after Tammy left for work. This was only going to be an hour treatment today and I wouldn't be going back for a week. Thom was waiting for me and we got started right away. "Well ... Jenny ... How did the big weekend go? ....Did the little wife have her hot date with her new fellow?" I tried to remember if I'd told him about the date. Must have been Jean again? "Uh ... It went as planned. It's not worth talking about." Thom stopped his work for a second and patted me on the shoulder. "Oh ... I'm so sorry Jenny ... Listen to me ... I got just the thing to get you out of your misery ... Let me finish and I'll show you what I'm talking about." I sat trying to figure out what Thom was talking about. He was humming away while he worked and I just wanted to stuff cotton in my ears. "OK ... Jenny ... We're done for the day ... Remember that we don't have another appointment until next Monday. We have to allow this to heal. Remember how I explained what to do for itching." I was just about ready to walk out the door when Thom shouted out. "Jenny ... I have something I want to show you." Thom took a bunch of pictures off his desk and walked over next to me. "Jenny. See this blonde guy here on the right next to yours truly?" I nodded my head. "His name is Rob ... My dear Jenny ... I told Rob all about you this weekend. He is aware that you are going through a lot right now and could use a friend to talk to. He told me he would be interested in meeting you some time." I nodded my head again. "OK. I'll let you know." I left Thom's office wondering where he got the idea I wanted to meet his friend. I had Tammy to talk to about everything. We could share everything. I wouldn't need a guy around for any reason. Tammy called me on my cell phone that afternoon and told me she was able to get an appointment for me with a special doctor. She said it was tomorrow morning and she would go with me. I felt so much better knowing Tammy would accompany me to the doctor's office. I was nervous, felt like butterflies in my stomach as we drove to see the doctor. She was a woman, Dr. Rice, and she examined me. She checked everything a normal doctor would do on a routine exam. She also took my measurements, hips, waist, and bust size, and said she would keep a record and check me in six weeks again. She asked me if I had any signs of depression. She wanted to know about any mood swings I may have over the next few weeks. When she finished with me, she asked to speak to Tammy alone in her office. I think that made me the most nervous. I sat in the waiting room for thirty minutes. Tammy walked out and smiled. I asked Tammy what the doctor told her. She said the doctor wanted my wife to keep an eye on my vital signs and watch for any mood swings. We were driving home, and Tammy took an alternate route and pulled into a driveway of a house I had never seen before. I looked over at Tammy who was smiling. "Honey. Does this have something to do with real estate?" She was still smiling at me as she got out of the car. "Come on in, I have a surprise for you." We walked up to the door and Tammy knocked. A blonde woman answered the door. "Oh ... Tammy ... I've been waiting for you and to meet Jenny ... This must be Jenny ... It's very nice to meet you ... " We walked inside the door, I wondered what this was all about. The woman took my hand and smiled. "Jenny. My name is Fran and Tammy brought you here to see what we can do with your hair." I was a little surprised when Fran put her hands on my wig and wiggled it off my head. She walked around me, fluffing my hair with her hand. "Yes ... I think we can do something with this ... Tammy. I think I can trim it nicely into a heart shape and cut it around here and here. We'll use the same color dye to match your hair ... You'll look like sisters when we're through!" Fran took us into a room she had for styling hair and began her work on me. She and Tammy sorted through a bunch of hair coloring charts trying to decide on the best match. Fran colored my hair first while Tammy sat and watched. Once she was finished with the coloring, she began styling my hair. Tammy's cell phone rang and I saw her answer it. "Oh ... Hi Mark ... Yeah ... I didn't expect you to call ... I miss you too ... " That's all I heard, Tammy got up and walked out of the room to finish speaking to Mark. Fran leaned down and smiled. "Must be her boyfriend she told me about? You know how it is when you're apart from someone you love ... " I just smiled back at Fran. I was thinking about what she'd just said. I wondered how much she told Fran about Mark. She mentioned love? I decided to do a little fishing "Yes ... It must be her boyfriend ... Has Tammy told you about Mark?" Fran was laughing and stopped cutting my hair. "Yes ... Tammy told me what a hunk he is ... She told me how much she misses being away from him but he's always traveling ... Tammy said something about you being a very close friend and you live together?" "Uh ... yeah ... We do live together." "Well ... Jenny ... If this relationship with your friend is anything I think it is than she's going to want to go and live with him or she is going to want to be alone with him ... Honey ... If you ever need a place to stay, I have this adorable little one bedroom apartment you can rent." It was too much for me to handle at the moment. I could never imagine my wife leaving me to live with another man. Would she? Fran was almost done. Tammy was back in the room waiting and smiling. She was admiring the results of my hair style. I saw Fran's reflection in the mirror, smiling back at Tammy. Tammy's concentration seemed to be split between what Fran was doing to my hair and playing with the buttons on her cell phone. I was assuming that Tammy was leaving a text message on Mark's phone. Several minutes later, Fran was finished with me. "Tammy. What do you think of your sister's new hair?" Tammy reluctantly laid the cell phone on her lap and looked at me. When she finally concentrated on me and my hair for a moment, she seemed very surprised. "Fran. You worked magic on Jenny. I'm so glad she won't have to wear that wig! ... Fran, I have to go outside and make a phone call real fast. Thank you so much ... Jenny, I'll meet you out in the car!" Tammy kissed Fran and touched my chin before walking outside. She was so anxious to leave that message to Mark that she couldn't stay focused on me. "Uh ... Fran ... Has Tammy, mentioned to you the whole story about me or did she tell you I was her sister?" "Oh ... Well ... Tammy did mention to me that you were her brother ... It's none of my business and I do understand ... She said you were, in the process of changing ... Don't worry honey, that's why Tammy brought you here. I specialize in working on ladies who used to be little boys." I smiled at Fran, paid her and gave her a nice tip. Fran gave me a hug. "Good luck Jenny. I'll see you in a few weeks." Tammy was waiting for me in the car. She said she really liked my hair, but something was on her mind. We drove back home without speaking. Something was bothering Tammy but I didn't ask what. It gave me time to think. Tammy had told Fran I was her brother and not her husband. Was she too embarrassed to tell anyone the truth? Now I knew why Fran mentioned the apartment to me. She thought I was once Tammy's brother. I felt relieved ... Should I feel relieved? We got home, Tammy fixed coffee for us and we sat down. Tammy's cell phone rang. "Hi Jean ... Yes ... Jenny's right next to me ... OK ... " Tammy held the phone out and wondered why Jean wanted to talk to me. She got up and walked out of the room. "Hi Jean." "Jenny ... I understand you got your hair styled today ... Listen ... I want to take you somewhere tonight ... Tammy told me you weren't busy. How does seven sound to you?" "Um ... I guess it would be all right ... Maybe I should ask Tammy." "Oh. It's OK ... Tammy said I could pick you up tonight and keep you for a while ... " I hung up the phone and got up to see where Tammy had gone. She was sitting out near the pool drinking her coffee. I gave her the cell phone. "Jean wants me to go somewhere with her tonight. Did she tell you about it?" I saw hesitation on her face and saw her choke up before getting enough courage to reply. "Uh ... Yeah ... Honey ... You go out and have a nice time with Jean tonight. I'm just going to stay home and read. I'll be up when you get home." "Is something the matter?" "Of course not ... You go out with Jean tonight ... I'm going to take a nice hot bath and read a book." Jean picked me up on time. Tammy gave me a kiss on my way out the door. I could tell that something was still bothering her and looked back, and saw the front door shut. Jean was waiting for me in the car and seemed perky tonight as we drove out of the driveway. She loved my new hair style. "Jenny. I'm going to take you to this really nice place for dinner. You're going to love it. It's very nice and I've been eating there myself for five years." It was a nice restaurant and we had a nice dinner. We were sipping wine together and just making small talk. We left and I figured Jean was going to take me straight home but we pulled into her apartment complex. "Jenny ... I thought I'd bring you here so we could have a drink together and celebrate your new life!" Jean poured us drinks and we sat together on her patio, which was on the second floor and overlooked the pool. The sun was getting ready to set and Jean put her arm around me. Jean was an attractive woman. She had long dark hair and was well endowed, with long legs. I found her very attractive myself. I wondered why she wasn't married or had a steady boyfriend. Something happened next that I didn't expect ... Jean kissed me on the lips. It just wasn't one of those small friendly kisses. It was a long passionate kiss. Our lipsticks smeared together and we both laughed but quickly kissed a second time, which lasted even longer than the first kiss. Jean stood up and reached out to take my hand. She walked me to her bedroom. I wasn't sure what she had on her mind until she started to unbutton her blouse. "Jean ... Maybe we shouldn't ... Tammy will get angry." "Nonsense ... Tammy already is aware that we are friends ... Besides ... Don't you think now that she has Mark around that you should be able to enjoy yourself as well?" Jean removed her blouse, exposing a very large set of tits before my eyes. Tammy was well-endowed herself but Jean at least had her matched in breast size. The skirt came next and I watched her unsnap it and allow it to fall on the floor. She kicked off her heels and walked in front of me and gave me another long passionate kiss. She slipped the zipper of my dress down and pulled it off my shoulders. She reached around my waist and unclasped the bra, letting it hit the floor, and pulled down my panties. Jean took my hand and had me lay on the bed. She got up next to me and straddled my legs and leaned down and kissed me again. "Jenny, girls have to have a little fun once in a while ourselves. Lay back and enjoy it." I assumed that Tammy had known what Jean was taking me out tonight to do. That at least explained why she was so upset this afternoon. "Jean ... Tammy was upset today. You must have told her you were bringing me here tonight? Maybe I should leave and you can take me home." "Please ... I told Tammy what I was going to do, just relax and enjoy yourself. Don't worry about Tammy, we'll all get together and talk about this later." Jean didn't say another word. She scooted down my legs .She put her mouth on my cock and started to suck me. I was hard but felt that Jean must have seen much larger men than me in her life. Jean was beautiful. Nice legs, large breasts, a narrow waist. She had wide hips with a nice round butt. Everything just fit together so nicely. She was hot! Jean lifted herself up and slid back up and guided herself onto my cock. She felt hot. I knew I wasn't the kind of stud that she would pick out of a line up but I didn't care, she felt so good at the moment. It was a fact! I still enjoyed having sex with a woman. Why would I want to make the changes to my body that I already started? If I did, would I become a lesbian? Would I be bisexual? I'd been fascinated looking at Mark, his size, the color, his muscles. Would that mean I had gay tendencies? Would I be considered normal for a man trying to impersonate a woman? Would this go any further? Would I change completely? Jean was above me right now and I was trying to stay focused. She felt so soft and curvy, very much like my wife. Jean was rotating her body above me, making her breasts sway with her movements. I could feel as if I were going to cum at any moment. Jean was rubbing herself against my cock as hard as she could and surprised me with an orgasm. Jean's body tightened and I shot my load inside her. I leaned up to kiss her breasts as she panted for air above me. Jean skipped off me and lay down next to me on the bed. She lay there until she caught her breath and then leaned up to kiss me. "I just wanted to show you how much a woman can enjoy sex, even if she was born a man." "I don't understand?" Jean got out of bed and took a photo album out of the dresser and climbed back into bed with me. She opened the first page where she showed me pictures of a little boy. She flipped through the first few pages and I saw this little boy changing into a teenager. The next group was the same little boy, only in his twenties. Jean turned the page again, and there were only pictures of her with friends and relatives. "How was the little boy?" "Jenny ... I was the little boy in the pictures, before the change!" I was shocked! ...In disbelief! .....It couldn't be Jean! .....Jean looked too much like a real woman! ....She was teasing me ... Playing a joke on me ... Yes, that's what it was, just a joke. "Jenny ... I really was a man at one time. It's been eight years since my operation and you can see and feel I'm a real woman now." My mind was all over the place, wondering what this was all about. Why was she telling me this? Why didn't she explain this to me before we had sex? I knew she could see I had many questions in my expression. I didn't know where to begin. I was about to get up out of bed until Jean stopped me. "Please ... Jenny ... I have to explain everything to you. You had to know this way. You wouldn't believe me any other way. I wanted to show you how normal my life is now. The changes, what I can experience now as a woman ... Did you feel it? ......You were experiencing love with a woman." "I don't understand why you brought me here and the purpose of having sex with me." "You can blame me for everything. Tammy knew I was bringing you for this reason and she understood. Don't blame her. Please. Listen to what I have to say before you get angry." I lay back down against the headboard, waiting to hear what she had to say. "It started months ago, when Tammy caught you dressing in her clothes. She told me everything, how she was hurt ... What she was going through. I decided to help her because I went through this. I wanted to get to know you, which I did. I got into your head and I came to a conclusion as to what you really wanted." I listened but I still didn't know where this was going. "Jenny ... Remember what I showed you tonight. I've been through this myself and I know. I know what you're going through inside. I wanted to help you and help Tammy understand. I spent many evenings with Tammy reading from books about the subject. I wanted her to understand how you were feeling inside." Now I understood why Tammy had changed her way of thinking so suddenly. It was all coming together for me now. "Jenny. I got to know both you and Tammy and I love both of you. When Tammy first told me about your problem, she was so hurt she was going to file for divorce. I stopped her ... Yes. I stopped Tammy from filing divorce and started her approaching the situation much differently." Jean was starting to cry as she spoke to me. I had to hear the rest ... See what she had to say ... What she had planned ... "Can you understand? I saved your relationship with your wife so that she would always love you and be there for you, and helped her understand what it was that your heart desired." "What about Mark, did you have something to do with him?" "No ... Mark just happened to come around when Tammy needed someone. He entered her life while I was talking to her and it has been a struggle ever since. Tammy felt she needed a man in her life and he came along toward the beginning, when she first caught you in that dress. Jenny ... she was hurt at the time and she needed someone like him to believe in again." It was very difficult for me to take this all in at once. I felt so mixed up at the moment, and maybe lost. "Jean. I love Tammy very much, it was all my fault this happen. I pushed Tammy away from me and to Mark." "Jenny. Listen to me carefully. It wasn't your fault. It was your fate. If Mark hadn't come around when he did, there may have been a slight chance that none of this would have happened. She may have just divorced you and you would have lost her for good. Maybe you wouldn't have found yourself." "I don't want to lose Tammy. I don't know what I'd do without her." "Jenny. You won't lose Tammy. You have to let her know how you feel about her. Let her know how much you care, and understand how she feels. But I do believe Mark is here to stay and you have to follow your heart. Jenny, if you're going to make these changes then you have to be willing to sacrifice some of the things you love. It's a big choice." Yes. Jean was right. I had so much to think about and many questions to ask myself. Right now, I wanted to go home. (Special Thanks to Vicki Tern for all your help)