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Mom's Girl Redux Part 4 by Elizabeth Joanne Author's note: When I first starting putting this to paper so to speak I did for myself. Yes some of us, me included, dream of writing that next great American novel but in reality I know it won't be me that does that. Then when I decided to post it for some reason I set in my mind some magic numbers of either number of reads or reviews that would bring me to post the next installment, not sure why. Maybe ego but the reviews I have received have been positive and to be honest changed my mind in many ways. I realized I wasn't doing this for glory or for people to tell me how wonderful I was although I will admit reviews are nice. I did it for two reasons. First like I said for myself. To remind me not only of the good times but also the bad ones, to remind myself where I started for regardless whether we want to admit it that is what we were makes who we are, and finally to remind how good I have it and how far I have come. The other reason I did it was to reach out and even in a small way help someone find their way in life. To show those out there as confused as I once was as one of my dear friends says, "The light at the end of the tunnel is not always the oncoming train." I know the road I took is not for everyone. I am not suggesting anyone follow me down it without thinking it through thoroughly. There are pros and cons on both sides of the question and you have to think all of those through. You will need help, love, support, and even a certain level of stubbornness to navigate your way. It is not all good nor it is all bad, it just is. Accept that and what you encounter. You will get through those obstacles and downtimes if is it meant to be and be a better and stronger person for them. Your journey will be different than mine as we are all individuals, our circumstances different, and things change. I will tell you my decision to start down that road was the best one I ever made in my life and have never regretted it for even a single second. There are decisions I made along the way I could have made better but aren't Monday morning quarterbacks are always right? When or if you make a decision like I did it is your time and don't question why didn't I do this earlier? Just accept it is the right time and go forward. Don't look back and ask what if but rather look forward and ask why not? I do have other installments written and am proofreading them. I really don't know how many more I will post however if in my mind I believe even minutely I am helping just a single soul in some way I will continue to do so. Thanks for reading my story thus far and the sweet reviews. Beth Chapter 11 They had waited until Friday afternoon to fax over the contract for the additional 3 months for the effect. I believe they wanted me to think they had debated long and hard over it. The problem was they didn't understand there was no drama on my side with all of this. Actually I have to admit I was a bit disappointed when it came in because in reality I was ready to go forward with this new phase of my life the second I swallowed those first pills last Friday evening. Still it was nice money as the last year had been rewarding financially for me with several good sized orders. I have waited 51 plus years for this to come so what is another 90 days? I didn't say anything at first but I did let the cat out of the bag at the company Christmas party. Most were happy for me and to be honest I was relieved knowing I would be rid of all of this soon. Some of them were still struggling trying to find a job so the joy I felt for myself was tempered by the sadness I felt for him. I had received several phone calls from the new company laying out what was expected of me after the first of the year. I did let them know in no uncertain terms we did this my way or I would abide with the legal terms of the agreements we had but as for the spirit of the agreement, oh well. I am sure by now they were getting mad but I could have cared less. As I have said before I have been very successful doing this my way up until now and I am not about to change that at this late juncture of my life. Or should I say this phase of my life? Georgia did get the job she hoped for. They did call me for a reference and I gave her the highest praise I could and she deserved it. On her last day I took her out for lunch and she told me she was going to miss me as I was perhaps the best boss she had ever worked for. She told me she never considered me her boss because I treated her as she was as an important a part of the team as I was. I told her that was because she was and should any boss not do that it was time to look for a new job. I meant every word of that and was happy for her. Still I have to tell you it brought a tear to my eye as I hugged her that night and watched her walk out my office door for the last time. I did meet with my lawyer and started the paperwork for my name change. He had put together a list of things and places I had never thought about notifying when I made my list. At least he was earning his money I thought to myself. He did make it obvious he wouldn't have minded a romp in my bed as we talked. I said no when he suggested we move the conversation from his office to my bedroom. Right now I had enough things on my mind to concentrate on and accomplish. Yes he was a terrific lover and perhaps we would get together again but for right now I wanted to stay focused. I know he wasn't totally happy about that but I do believe he understood. Yes we had been lovers on and off over the years but we were also friends. Needless to say I was starting to get things in place. I also met with a realtor about selling my condo. He told me that it was in a desirable location and yes it was worth a handsome sum, well more than I had paid for it including all the improvements I had made over the years. He then quickly added however this was a tough time of the year to sell anything and even after the first of the year it was not much better. The real selling season didn't start until spring. That did not make me happy however I still signed the agreement to put it on the market. You have to start somewhere Beth. At least things are starting to come together I thought as I drove across the state to spend Christmas with Mom. The time with Mom was great as always, maybe even a little better than usual. She could see the wheels were starting to turn albeit slowly. Christmas Day we went to Nancy's and it was fun being there and being me. Kathy was there with her daughter, Nancy's daughters were there as was Aunt Mary as well. None of them seem to have any reservations about me and I was just Beth to all of them. Well to Mom and Aunt Mary I was Elizabeth but you know what I am saying. Everyone even had a present for me. They were not big or expensive but all there to reinforce the fact Beth had arrived and they were all ready to give her a chance. It was yet another milestone in my mind. Nancy even teased me a little as her present to me. It was a name tag that read Beth. She told me she expected all her employees to wear their name tag. During our time together Mom and I talked about a lot of things, I could tell she was starting to get excited about all of this. Like I wasn't! We talked about changes and what was going to happen but we also talked about house rules. No it wasn't curfews or anything like that but we agreed we were both adults and entitled to a personal life. One of the rules we made was if the bedroom door was closed knock and wait until you are asked to come in. Not sure that is going to apply to me at least in the beginning but as it was her who suggested it I have a feeling she is still enjoying the company of at least one gentleman. Not sure even an adult wants to know that about one of their parents but it is a fact of life. Also two women in the same kitchen is almost always a recipe for disaster and I think we have that worked out. We did agree that even though we were mother and daughter we were both adults and most of these rules were not in stone, the bedroom issue was, and it is open to change as we saw how it worked. We also agreed there may be more that could come up and we would cross those bridges as we came to them. I knew I had already crossed one big bridge in my life and looking forward to others. Certainly any little thing that should arise between her and me would be trivial after the one I had just addressed. As always my time with Mom was too short still in the back of my mind I wondered how we would handle being together 24/7. I have been on my own since I went away to college and to be honest I enjoy it. On the other hand I also realized she was not getting any younger and in the back of mind I had known that something like this may happen eventually. Granted the thought of us living together as Mother and daughter hadn't entered my mind until recently other than as a dream. There are changes both of you are going to have to make Beth. Our good byes were a little teary as always, maybe even more so on my part as maybe the hormones were starting to take hold. While we were both sad we knew there was an end in sight. No there was no hard date at this time but we knew it was coming. I have to admit thousands of things went through my mind as I drove home. My New Years Eve celebration was pretty much as it had been for the past couple of years. A bottle of wine, a bowl of popcorn, and my date was Dick Clark. I had pretty much given up the traditional partying and was not the type to frequent the clubs that cater to girls like me. I have enough things on my mind right now to have some tranny chaser pawing at me. No I am not a prude and enjoy a good romp through the sheets, at least I used to, but right now I had other priorities. Besides the last thing I need complicating things was a relationship or worse yet some guy who mistakes some slap and tickle for a deep commitment. The first day back to work after the holidays I was in a pretty good mood but not everyone felt the same. Sure I had my path planned and financially I would be OK but not all had that same outlook. Sure some had found jobs elsewhere and there were a couple who were going to retire but there were still many of them that were still in limbo. Yes I felt for them and wished I could do something for them but I had myself to look out for first. I know some will land eventually and a few might land hard. Granted that was not my problem still I couldn't help but feel the pain some of them were. I set up my schedule for the next few months as I usually did and set up some appointments. Just about every one of my customers were concerned what was going on and I told them I would explain more when I saw them. A few did ask what I was going to do and I told them we would talk about that then as well. Granted my new bosses were not thrilled with the fact I had already laid things out as well as arranged for my travel and accommodations. They told me the one place I always stayed at when I was in Orlando was not on their approved list. I told him it was the only one on mine so suck it up. I wasn't making any new friends for sure but I could have cared less. My first trip was to Seattle and I made the appropriate introductions for my successor. My customers made it clear they had some big shoes to fill and they would have no issues shifting suppliers as their loyalty was to me not the company. They also made it clear if I get back into the business to look them up and we would talk. Needless to say my successor was taken back by those comments but I have to admit I felt pretty good from that. I had a late afternoon flight home and between weather delays and with the time change it was well after 3AM Eastern time when I fell into bed that Friday night. Or should I say Saturday morning? Everything will wait until tomorrow, even unpacking my suitcase I thought as I laid there half dressed. I was sitting having breakfast at a local restaurant Saturday morning when my cell phone rang. It was my realtor and someone wanted to see my condo this afternoon and it was best if I wasn't around. Oh just great I thought to myself. All I really wanted to do was go home, do some laundry, and try to get my body clock back. Needless to say I said fine. Oh well guess I will just go roam the mall this afternoon. Not like I need anything but I do want to get that place sold and this is a start. It was after 6 when I finally got to go home. There was one of my agent's business cards on the counter with a note on the back to call him. That will wait until tomorrow I am exhausted and I am going to bed. Chapter 12 I did call my relator that Sunday and he said they were somewhat interested. He did say they were transferring in and looking for something available as soon as possible and in the school district I was in. It sounded promising but I have always believed that until all the I's are dotted and the T's crossed no deal is final. That next week I was in Chicago and dragging around my replacement there. I had to laugh to myself it was no wonder I was as successful as I was here considering what they had out there against me. If anything I should be ashamed they got anything at all. OK I know I sound a little egotistical here but trust me a 7 year old would have beaten this guy at a deal. At least the following week I was in the office catching up on things. I was a bit surprised when my cell phone rang and it was my realtor. The same people wanted another look tonight so I said sure and stopped at Kathy's place for dinner. As it was slow we talked and she asked what my plans were. I told her eventually move over to the other side of the state but was hoping to spend at least part of the summer here to get things settled. She did ask what I was going to do if the condo sold earlier than that. I told her look for somewhere I could rent month to month. She told me if that happened come and see her as she might be able to help. I thanked her but never really thought about it much. After all even if these people are interested it takes time to get a mortgage and close. Much to my surprise I got an offer on the condo that weekend. It was a bit low and too many contingencies in my opinion so I countered figuring this will take a while. I was in Orlando when my realtor called that Tuesday night, barely 3 days after I had countered. To my surprise they accepted my offer and were even prepared to pay an extra $3000 if they could take occupancy no later than February 15th. Oh my God! That is 3 1/2 weeks away! Now what the hell are you going to do Beth? Kathy's comments went through my mind so I called her and told her I would like to get together with her Saturday and we needed to talk. She said come on in. Kathy was in the bar early and the back the door was open as she had told me it would be when I got there. "Something tells me you want to talk some more about what we talked about the other night," she smiled as I came in. "Yes I do," I replied. "I have an offer on my place and suddenly I am about to be homeless." "Well I think I can help," she smiled. "I don't know if you knew it but I bought that old apartment building the next street over last year. It was in pretty rough shape but I got a good deal on it." "OK, sounds interesting," I smiled. "Go on please." "Well like I said it was pretty rough so I have been having it remodeled and the first two floors are ready finally. I have a couple of them rented but would like to get more of them occupied and improve my cash flow." "I can imagine, so you willing to rent me one on a month to month?" "For how long?" she asked. "Well my plans were to stay around for a bit after I take that first step but I was kind of eyeing being settled at Mom's by my birthday which is in September." "When do you have to be out of your place?" "They want to take possession by February 15th," I said. "So I am looking at 5 maybe 6 months." "Tell you what I can do," she smiled. "How about a 6 month lease with the option to go another 6 month or lease or month to month at that point. I would like to have 30 days notice when you plan on moving out." "OK sound interesting let's talk money." "I am getting $800 a month for year leases and would do the same for you on the 6 month lease as we are friends. If you opt to go month to month after that its an extra $25 a month. I need first and last as well as an $800 security deposit up front. The heat is included, you pay the electricity as well as phone and cable obviously," she said. "Still interested?" "Yes, that seems reasonable as this area is getting hot again," I replied. "Can I see one?" "Sure come on," she smiled. She locked up the back door after we went out it and we walked the maybe hundred yards across the parking lot to the apartment building. I could see there had been some renovation to the facade and Kathy told me of what else she had planned. It sounded like it was going to be very nice when everything was done. Up the stairs and into the apartment in the corner. "Normally I charge $25 more a month for the corner units as they are a shade bigger but I would let you have this one for the $800 I told you," she said as she opened the door. It was obvious the walls were freshly painted and although stark white they were clean and the hardwood floors were refinished. I was impressed that the trim around the doors were all refinished to their natural color, matching the floors. This building dated back to the 1930s and while Kathy had taken pains to retain that charm there were also updates. The kitchen as up to date and although not what I was accustomed to it, very nice for an apartment. She had even thought ahead and expanded the closets as people had a lot more stuff nowadays. "So what do you think?" she smiled as I looked out the window that overlooked the parking lot we had just walked across. "Well I am definitely going to have to downsize some of my furniture and I am going to have to do something for a bit as I maintain two wardrobes for a while but I like it," I smiled. "So?" "I'll take it!" "Good," she smiled. "Let's go back to the bar and get the papers signed." "Works for me." I gave her a check for the $2400 and assured it was good and she said she knew that. Even though the lease was dated February 1st and this was only January 29th she gave me the keys and said I could start moving in whenever I wanted. Maybe the thing that most showed me this was right was the lease was made out for Elizabeth Blair. Kathy laughed and said she could care less if the lease read Mickey Mouse as long as the rent was on time. I can see her point but for me there was a definite significance there. I took the keys and went back over to my new apartment, Beth's apartment. I eyed it up and decided what furniture I was bringing and what was going to have to go. Lots to do Beth, get your butt in gear! That afternoon I started going through in my mind what I was going to take with me and what was going. I even started packing a few things up and by the time it was time for bed I was exhausted. I took a few boxes over Sunday after church. The lighter ones as in a skirt and heels I sure wasn't going to lug a box full of books up that flight of stairs. I did make a second run that afternoon after changing to some jeans and more appropriate shoes for moving boxes. I did have dinner at the bar and Kathy teased me about how the new place was but cautioned me about having too many keys made and handing them out. Like that is going to happen! Still there was a satisfaction of knowing Beth had a direction and her first apartment. Just another middle aged woman starting over. I called the office first thing Monday morning and told them I was taking a few days off. They told me Mike had already called this morning looking for me so I gave him a call. I could tell he wasn't happy I was taking the time off and wanted to know why and I told him it was none of his business. He did say he would be in the office on Thursday and had some things he wanted to go over. I told him I would be there which seemed to at least appease him. I called one of local upscale resale shops and they are coming over Wednesday to see about the furniture I wanted to get rid of. I also called the electric company and the cable company to get things set up in my new apartment. As Beth was new to them, I told them I was recently divorced and starting over, they needed a deposit so I took care of that. I did make a couple of trips to take more things over and called a couple of moving companies to get an idea how much it was going to cost to get everything moved. Tuesday I had to be at the apartment to let the cable guy in so I took a chair. Granted it was a folding lawn chair I had on my back deck but it's a start. I had already moved the small TV from my study there so they could get everything set up as well as a phone. I was lucky he got there about 1 so at least I didn't have to wait all day, I did use my cell phone to set up appointments for my trip to LA next week while I was waiting for him to get there. Business goes on Beth. I am not sure how to describe it but in the old days but I never gave a thought to repairmen, cable guys, and the like. I would let them into the condo and although I kept an eye on them I never felt threatened or whatever. Not that the cable guy was scary or threatening there was a vulnerability I felt as I sat there I had never experienced before. Sure in the past it had been my "brother" and now it was Beth. I know that has at least something to do with my feeling. No nothing happened and I thanked when I let him out but snapped the deadbolt after he left just to be safe. I started putting a few more things away in the cupboards and wondered if all women felt this? Wednesday was pretty much more of moving things and some clothes to my new place. I did have a couple of the movers come in and give me an estimate and yes I felt that same vulnerability I had yesterday. This being full time is going to be a lot different than I had imagined. I also had the owner of the resale shop over and she said yes she was interested in most of what I wanted to get rid of, She said I could do either on a consignment basis and told me approximately how much I could expect but that could take up to a year or longer. She then made me an offer to take it all off my hands now. Sure it was probably only 60% of what I could get on a consignment basis but I took it and they are coming over Saturday to pick it all up. I don't want to drag all of this out any more than necessary. Besides a bird in the hand is better than 2 in the bush! I did go to the office to meet with Mike as I said I would. I think he was a little surprised and perturbed I had on khakis, a sport coat, and no tie. We went over a few things but he also said I was a bit liberal with my expense account. I told him take a look at my past ones and nothing was different. He said that was then and this was now. I reminded him they had agreed to my terms for this period and I told them it was my way so pay it. I know he didn't like it but what was he going to do? Fire me? He wasn't very happy when I told him I was taking the 10th through the 15th off to tend to some personal business. Before he had a chance to reply I told him that only made 8 of the 15 vacation days they had agreed to. Don't you love it when not only do you get the chance to slip the knife in but also give it a twist? Chapter 13 Things were finally starting to come together as I got home that Tuesday from my quick trip to LA. It had gone well all factors considered. I think my replacement got the shock of his life when a couple of my customers offered me a job. I thanked them and told them I would keep it in mind but for the moment I was planning on sitting back, drinking some beer, and working on my golf game. In a way I think some of them were jealous. then again I probably would have been had the circumstances been reversed. There was one customer who was well aware of Beth, he was a crossdresser himself, and we had dinner just him and I. I told him of my plans and to say he was jealous would be kind. He did make me promise to stay in touch and we exchanged contact information. I knew he was originally from Chicago and told him if he ever got back that way we would have to get together. Seeing as I had the next few days off I actually slept in that Wednesday morning. It felt good but by 9 I was dressed and loading things into the car. I made two trips before I stopped for a late lunch at the bar. Kathy asked me how it was going and I told her good. I had the people from the resale shop coming tomorrow and the movers were coming Friday. She said she asked if there was anything she could do and I said not at the time but I was sure something would come up. In spite of sleeping well the night before I was exhausted when I flopped down on the sofa that late afternoon. I actually dozed off for probably half an hour before I got up, changed into my nightgown and went to bed. I kind of chuckled to myself this would be my last night in this king sized bed as there was no way it was going to fit in my new apartment. I was taking the queen size bed and the matching furniture from the guest bedroom. I was up early that Thursday and had things set when the people from the resale shop showed up. She paid me in cash for everything as we had agreed but insisted I sign a receipt. No problem In my mind and signed it "Elizabeth J Blair" effortlessly. I had been signing checks and credit card slips like that for years but this was different. This was no longer playing dress up. This was now your life Beth. I am not sure the true reality of all of that hit me until that instant. Yes I suppose I could stop and go back but why? Yes I had a good life but I wanted more and a life as Beth was that opportunity. Friday was more than a bit hectic as it was moving day. The movers were there promptly at 8AM and started right away. It only took them 3 hours total to pack and to get everything loaded and on their way. They took a break for lunch so I was at the apartment and ready for them as they started moving my things. I know it isn't very physical but it was mentally taxing as I directed them what went where and by 4 they were done and gone. I flopped down on the love seat that originally been in my bedroom that now served as the sofa in my new living room. There were boxes everywhere begging to be unpacked and clothes needing to be hung up. I did make up the bed before I walked over for dinner at the bar. Kathy told me I looked like something the cat dragged in as she put a glass of wine in front of me. I laughed and told her thanks but the truth was I probably looked better than I felt. I had dinner and went back to my new home. I did hang up the clothes that needed it however by 9 I was in my nightgown and nestled into bed. I did flip the TV on but I am not sure I knew what was actually on. I just laid there and took it all in. The sights, the smells, even the feeling of my new bed all filled my senses. This was all new but somehow it felt so right. Sure these were my things but more importantly they were now Beth's things. This was her place. Beth's place! I spent that weekend getting things organized, put away, and getting used to my new place. I ventured out Monday and got a feel for the neighborhood and did some grocery shopping so at least my cupboards weren't bare. I am going to have to make some changes in that as well I thought as I wheeled my cart through the aisles. I now have well less than half the pantry and cupboard space I was used to. Also the fridge and freezer in the apartment while more than adequate for a single woman were certainly a lot smaller than I had grown accustomed to. No more stocking up Beth I chuckled as I looked over the meat counter. Monday evening I did take a drive over to my condo. I double checked to make sure nothing got left behind. Not a thing, even in the garage. First the resale shop people then movers had done a good job. I stood there in the living room and looked around. I had a lot of good times here and although excited to start anew and go forward I felt a little sadness. I made my choices and had no intentions of changing my mind, still selling this place is a bit like saying good bye to an old friend. I can remember many a night coming home from a trying business trip and dumping my suitcases and climbing the stairs for a few hours sleep as I had a flight in the morning. I had even had a few parties here over the years and those were fun. I have to admit there was a tear in my eye as I pulled the door closed. I was closing the door on that part of my life and it had been a good one. I knew that there were adventures and good times ahead for Beth and to have that I had to do this. Still one can't help but feel a bit nostalgic. Chapter 14 As time went on things were finally starting to become clearer and clearer to me. I know I had made the right choice and things were starting to happen. I had filed all the paperwork to legally change my name. I had even decided to go forward with the last name of Blair. It would make things a little cleaner in my mind and with a last name different than my mother now had it would work for my cover story of being divorced and starting over. All the paperwork had been filed with the court, paid for, and all the legal notices published. It was just a waiting game now. By the middle of March my travels were done and I was pretty much office bound. I was a good boy and put in my 8 hours, well most of the time, but to be honest I really didn't do a lot. I had gotten calls from head hunters representing all the competition but I told them I was really not interested. They all told me when I was ready to call them. I told them I would but of course I knew that wasn't going to happen. I had struggled and debated so much over this and had already come so far there was no going back. My mind was made up and the closer the end of the month came there were nerves and anticipation but I did know in the back of my mind I had made the right choice. Work was getting tense as the days counted down. At least most of the others had found work although there were a few who had either to settle or were still looking. Because March 31st came on a Thursday we all left work that night but they were having an official "going away" party Friday night at one of the local bars. I do have to admit I felt a sadness as I carried that last box of my personal things out of the office that Thursday night. Yes I was eager to go forward and start anew but I had almost 30 years invested here and there had been a lot of good times. I could feel the tear run down my cheek as I pulled out of the parking lot that last time. In a way I could have cared less about the going away party but I had promised to go. I suppose I was eager for everything to be done and go forward but I gave my word and if nothing else everyone knew that was good so I pulled on some khakis and a sweater and headed over to the bar. I did make a side trip past my now former employer and chuckled how few cars there were in the lot now. Wonder who is going to stake claim to my old parking spot? I recognized most of the cars in the bar parking lot so it looked like everyone had a head start on me. I got a drink and told the bartender to buy a round for the gang on me. I mingled for a while and although there was some happy people there were some not so much. Everyone asked my plans and I told them just relax and catch my breath. I did tell them I was moving and thinking of getting a mindless job which made them all laugh and say that will last a few months at best. I laughed with them but deep inside I was actually looking forward to it. I will admit I wasn't sure where I was going to be in a year and maybe by then I would need more but for now I was satisfied this was the way to go. I had a couple of drinks and was thinking of leaving when Georgia showed up. I ordered another drink and stuck around a bit longer. It took maybe 20 minutes or so but it was her and I sitting at a table, just the two of us. "So Dave, what really are your plans?" she asked. "Knowing you I am sure you have something already planned out." "I have some things lined up but really don't want to say." I smiled. "More skirts and dresses?" she smiled' "I ah, ah ..." "Relax I am not going to tell anyone." "How? I mean when?, How did you know that about me?" "It was a couple of years I was at Marshall Fields at the mall and I saw you or what I thought was you coming out of the women's dressing rooms wearing a dress. I wasn't sure but I could have sworn it was you then maybe a few months later I was having lunch with a friend and I saw you again all dolled up," she smiled. "This time I knew it was you because I know your car." "I ah, I don't know what to say," I muttered. "What is there to say?" she said. "Some men hunt, some fish, some like to wear skirts and heels. It is really no big deal, its your life to live." "I um, well I appreciate you keeping it to yourself," I said. "Like I said it is your business and to be honest like I also said you were the best boss I ever worked for so why should I screw that up?" she smiled. "And I will tell you if I didn't know I would have never suspected you as anything but a woman." "Well that is what I am and going to do," I said. "Tell me more." I had originally intended on just popping in for a couple of drinks and getting home early that Friday night. Instead I sat there with Georgia telling her my plans and everything else. We both switched to Coke and it was almost midnight when I walked her out to her car. I gave her a hug and she handed me one of her new business cards and on the back she had written her home number. She made me promise to call so she could see the new and improved me which I did. That night as I shucked male clothes for the last time I thought about where I had been and where I was going. Yes where I had been and done afforded me this opportunity but I was glad that part of my life was behind me now. Now once I get the name change through I can go ahead and begin the new part of my life. I wonder what adventures and pitfalls lay ahead of me but whatever they are I know I can handle them.