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Mom's Girl Redux Part 9
by
Elizabeth Joanne
Chapter 27
It took a few weeks but Kathy finally found someone to take my place but
she has to give two weeks at her old job so I continued to stick around.
I did get out to Mom's for my birthday. Seems a bit strange being 52 and
starting over. Sure many have done it before as a whole new person? I
have my cover story and all that but as I sat there I started to realize
my past was in essence gone. They were just memories, charms on my
bracelet, for they belonged to who I had tried to live as, not true me. I
felt a tear well up as I thought about all the adventures Beth had across
the country but alas they were in the past.
As I cleaned up around the apartment I started to understand how women
starting over felt. Here I am now a 52 year old childless divorcee
according to my story. I have no real true friends just a few casual
friends and acquaintances. I had left behind what most would have
considered a dream job, an accepted expert in my field to go work for my
cousin selling souvenirs and knick knacks. Is this what you really want
Beth?
Yes it is! While I may not be bringing in the money I was or jetting
across the country to close a deal but now I had so much more. I have Mom
and the rest of the family who welcomed Beth as though she had been there
all her life. I was free from stress in my life for the first time in a
very long time. About the biggest decisions I now had to make was what
jewelry to wear. Before I did this I had to resigned myself to 6 hours
being a good night's sleep, now I sleep easily a peaceful 8 hours. My
diet before was mostly fast food, now I eat healthy. Sure I still love a
good burger and have them regularly when I am working I cook at least
dinner on my days off. I seem to even relaxed on the golf course and
accepted my now shortcomings and enjoy it more. Not so sure about it from
a financial stand point but I should have done this years ago. I like
Beth as a person much more than the one I left behind.
By now Jenny had started working and she knew more than I would ever. I
worked my last "official" day Wednesday and between that and the trivia
at night everyone wanted to buy me a drink.. I was pretty tipsy by the
time I got home. In my old life I would have said I was hammered but a
lady doesn't get that way, she just gets tipsy.
I sat down that next morning and started to go through the list I had
made of things to do. I called the movers and was disappointed it was
going to be 2 weeks before they could handle my move. You have waited so
long for this be patient no. Thankfully Kathy was understanding and went
as far as to tell me no rent was due for October, her way of saying
thanks for helping out at the bar this summer. At least I had some time
to get things squared away and packed.
I continued putting things in place and getting ready. That Saturday
morning I sat down with a cup of coffee and my to do list. Many were
crossed off but there were still a few to go. As I sat there I started
going over the other to do list in my mind. I started to realize I just
how far I had come in these past 6 months. I had walked away from a life
and a successful career and started over. Not just a job change or a
change of residence but an entire metamorphosis. Gone was the free
wheeling guy flying across the country closing deals, making the big
bucks, and living the high life on an expense account. In his place there
was this middle aged woman who worked for a while part time as a
bartender, trying to put together a life and planning on moving in with
her mother. Quite the dichotomy!
Earth to Beth. Time to get it together and face the day Beth. I went into
the bedroom, stripped off my nightgown, and took a long look in the
mirror. You have definitely come a long way here Beth. Yes I still had
the male plumbing down there but it has definitely shrunk but still
present. In spite of that I could see the additional changes the HRT had
given me. On my chest were two beautiful breasts, Granted far from the D
cups or more generally present on a Blair girl but they were filling out
and really starting to take shape. I knew they grown since my first
fitting with Vivian by the way my bras fit now. Most were B cup as when I
bought them I was hoping for further development and I was filling them
out better. I could even see how they moved and swayed as I turned for a
side view.
Also there were developments down below in addition to the welcome
shrinkage. My butt though maybe a little saggy had expanded and
definitely prominent. My hips had widened and my waist narrowed. I was
far from the hourglass figure and if anything an upside down pear shaped.
Still there was no way these hips and butt belonged on a man. Then again
I was far from a man and in reality always was. My figure was more that
of a middle aged woman, the one who might have had a great figure back in
college but time, nature, and gravity had taken charge of. Sure my
breasts didn't sag but I can picture them doing so someday. A tear of joy
streamed down my cheek.
I went to my panty drawer and there pushed to the side was the Warner's
booty boosting panty I had bought. It was also light control to keep
things in place. After pulling it on I took another look in the mirror.
Not too shabby for an old broad Beth. I then fished out the WonderBra. By
far not the most comfortable bra I owned but I was feeling extra girly
today and it fit the mood. Soon I was dressed in some of my tightest
jeans and v-neck sweater with my knee high boots with the spike heel.
Definitely the soccer mom look, more a cougar but it seemed right. I
grabbed my purse and off I went.
My first stop was to pay my cell phone bill and changed the billing
address to my soon to be new one. I could tell I drew some looks as I
walked in, my heels clacking on the tile floor. I am sure most though
what is she doing at her age dressed like that but hopefully a few
thought WOW! From there I hit the mall to pay a couple of bills. I wasn't
really looking but as I passed the leather shop and something in the
window caught my eye so in I went.
"Can I help you find something ma-am?" the teen ager sales clerk asked.
Ma-am I thought, how insulting! Then again I was old enough to be her
mother. Wonder what she would think if her mother dressed like this? Then
again maybe she does.
"I saw the leather pants in the window, do you have them in a size 10? I
asked.
"Those come in junior sizes so it would be either a 9 or an 11," she
smiled.
Maybe I should try both," I smiled back.
"Certainly, let me get them for you."
Soon I was in the dressing room and peeling out of my jeans. I had worn
some of my Sheer Energy pantyhose to help slide into these tight jeans
and I was glad I had as I wrestled myself into the size 9's. It now
matter how I contorted there was no way I was going to get that waist
buttoned. I took them and pulled on the 11's. these while figure hugging
and clung to my legs they were not tight as the smaller ones. Once they
were on I stood on my tip toes to simulate the effect of heels OH My God
Beth! these were made for you! They were the right length and had a
slight boot cut to accommodate those. They hugged my every curve, well
those I had, and looked perfect. As I took them off I looked at the price
tag, $109. A bit more than you figured but they look so good on me I
couldn't resist.
"Well how did they fit?" the sales girls asked as I came out of the
fitting room.
'Not a chance with the 9 but I will take the 11's," I smiled as I handed
them to her.
"Cash or charge?"
"Visa," I said as I handed her my card.
Got home and hung up my new pants. I still wasn't sure why I bought them.
Just what every 52 year old woman needs, skin tight leather pants! I took
off my sweater and jeans and freshened my make up. it was Saturday and
the support meeting was tonight. This would probably be my last one here
so I wanted to make sure I made it. I put a fresh curl in my hair and
made myself a light dinner.
Soon it was time to get ready again. Yes the WonderBra wasn't the most
comfortable but I was proud of the girls and was planning on wearing the
same red v-neck sweater. I thought about it for a minute and even pulled
a couple of things from the closet. Oh what the hell! I just spent over
$100 so you may as well wear them Beth.
I pulled the leather pants and sweater before pulling my boots back on. A
quick look in the mirror and I thought this as good as it gets Beth. I
grabbed my purse and black leather jacket and off I went.
Chapter 28
"Looking hot Beth," Karen said as I walked into the meeting room.
"These old things?" I smiled.
"Yea, right," she she sneered. "Turn around."
I did a slow pirouette pausing to show my booty before coming back to
face her. "Well?"
"Definitely hot," she smiled. "Love the way you padded out your ass."
"There is no padding in here other than me," I grinned. ""That's why I
got them."
"Nice ass Honey."
I grabbed a cup of coffee and we chatted until the meeting began. Sarah
took a few minutes at the end of it to tell everyone this was going to be
my last regular meeting as I was moving on and starting over. She thanked
me for my contributions but also said although I was moving away she
hoped I remembered everyone and maybe come back to visit occasionally. I
promised I would. After the meeting ended everyone came up to wish me the
best. Funny how I had only been coming a few months yet I felt I had made
friends for life here.
I took off for the bar and the word had already gone around and a glass
of wine was waiting for me when I got there. I have to admit I had found
a bit of a home and family here over the past couple of months. Yes I had
hooked up a couple of times but there was so much more. While some of
them were jealous or put me on a pedestal of sorts most were so sweet nd
supportive. Unlike most of the time I stayed until closing and there were
a few tears and hugs in the parking lot before I headed home.
As I drove home I thought about not only the girls at the bar but also
the support group and wondered if any of them would ever take the steps I
did or would they all just stay part time. I also thought about all the
friends I had made and how I would have to get back to see them sometime.
In the beginning I thought I could just skate out of here and never look
back but this was not to be. Guess I have more roots here than I thought
I did.
After church Sunday morning I met Karen for brunch and she told me how
she envied me she also knew this was not for her. I give her credit for
finding a balance in her life most never did. I had battled with keeping
that for years and although I had it now I remember how confusing it was
before. I mad arrangements to come into her office this week to handle
transferring my accounts to an office near where I was going to be. She
said while she would miss me as a client she would miss me a hell of a
lot more as a friend. Made it feel me good in a way but sad in others. Am
I going to find friendship out there like I have here?
My cell phone rang just as I was pulling into the parking lot. It was
John and wanted to come over to say good bye and give him me something. I
told him I wasn't in the mood and he said that wasn't is so I said OK.
Took him about 20 minutes to get to my place.
"Looking good as always Beth but I preferred the look last night," he
said as he gave me a kiss on the cheek.
"Thanks," I smiled. "Figured I wanted to make a statement last night so
people wouldn't forget me," I smiled.
"Trust me Beth no one is going to forget you, especially me," he said.
"That is sweet," I said and kissed his cheek.
"I know you have a lot to do so I won't stay long," he said as he fished
a gift wrapped bix from his jacket pocket. "Just a little something to
say thanks for all the good times. Hopefully when you wear it you will
smile and remember fondly."
"You didn't have to give me anything John," I said as he handed me the
box. "I will remember you and lot of others."
I unwrapped the box and it was a beautiful white gold diamond watch. I
tried to say no but he insisted I keep it and wear it in good health.
Funny how I had always saw him as a cold person and our relationship as
just a booty call but there was a tear in his eye as he said good bye. I
poured a drink for myself and just stared at the watch. I thought back to
my grandmother and how she always said a person is judged by how she
affects other people. Maybe I have made a difference. Hopefully I have.
Chapter 29
That week I sort of made the rounds, sort of a farewell tour. From Vivian
at Harp's to Kevin at my broker there were a few tears on my behalf. All
these people had been good to me and helped me along my path, not
questioning but rather just accepting. Vivian did give me the name of a
shop similar to hers not far from where I was going and told her to look
her up regularly as I developed. I also had a personal physician lined up
so everything was just about set. I was sad in a way to be leaving but a
new adventure and life awaited me and I was getting eager to get on with
that.
This afternoon though may be the toughest farewell, Dr. Wagner. I
remember almost 11 years ago starting with him and the relationship we
have built both as doctor/patient but also friends as we explored my
thoughts, dreams, and desires. It has not always been easy and he made me
search deep inside to find the answers myself and for that I will be
eternally. Yes I am excited to be starting over but I would never be here
without him. I grabbed my purse and made sure I had everything and off I
went. I got to his office a few minutes early and took a seat in the
waiting room. I could hear a little commotion in his office before the
door opened.
"Thought I heard you, come on in Beth," he smiled.
"I was a little early so I didn't want to disturb you," I smiled.
I was shocked as I walked in as on his desk was a bottle of bourbon and
two glasses. I tuned to him and saw the smile as I took my usual chair.
"Care for a drink?" he asked.
"Love one but this is a first," I said. "New style?"
"Not at all but I figured as this was maybe the last time we see each
other we would do it in a relaxed atmosphere."
"Well as long as we are going relaxed I have something for you," I said
as I handed him the gift bag.
I took a sip as he looked inside the bag. The smile as he pulled it out
told me he liked but the tear as he looked at closely told me he really
loved it. It was a sterling silver Cross desk pen set and the inscription
read:
Dr, Wagner,
I know this may be a surprise but at this time the words to express how I
feel and all upi have done for me escape the old and find the real me.
The best I can come up with is Thank You from the bottom of my heart.
Beth
"You didn't have to do anything like this but thank you, it is truly
touching and it will always be on my desk," he said as he wiped the tear
from his eye.
"No I didn't but yes I did," I said. "You have helped so much in so many
ways I wanted to give you something to show you how much it means to me."
"Seeing you happy is all the thanks I need but thank you again."
"You are welcome."
We talked a little about how far I had come and asked if I had made
arrangements with the therapist out in Holland. I told him yes I had and
I was planning on making an appointment after I get out there as soon as
I figure out when it would work. He seemed happy with that but he knew I
was going to do it. I have come too far to slip now. The hour seemed to
sail by, maybe it was the 2 drinks we both had but soon we were standing
at the door. I gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
"Thank you again for everything," I said. "I have no idea where I would
be without you but I do know it would be nowhere as good a place as I
am," I said as the tears started to flow.
"I didn't do anything but show you the way to find yourself Beth," he
said. "Promise me if you get back this way you will stop in."
"I will I promise."
"Good, now get out of here before we are both bawling like babies."
I smiled and off I went. I did stop for dinner on the way home but once I
got home I changed into my nightgown, poured myself a drink, and sat
down. Lot of sad good byes this week but I knew that was going to happen.
I had made a lot of friends along my journey and each of them had an
effect on me. They were all there to support me and show me the way. No
it has always been good but they good far outweighs the bad. I am going
to miss them and wondered if I would find friends I will ever be this
close to in my life. If I do or if I don't I know I will never forget any
on the ones I have here.
Chapter 30
Saturday night threw me a going away party at the bar. It was great as in
a way this had somewhat become my home away from home between all the
time I spent there working as well as just indulging. In spite of the
girls here being lesbians I felt a special connection to them and sensed
they felt similarly. Lesbians are quite misunderstood as are
transgenders. It is like we need to hire a PR specialist.
It was fun and I wore the leather slacks and v neck sweater to show off.
Kathy as well as several of the other girls told me how I had grown. I
have both physically but more importantly as a person and woman and many
of them here tonight had a hand in that. Probably because of being on an
alternative lifestyle they were able to see beyond that idea of what I
was and to who I was. From the first time I wandered in here Kathy and
everyone treated me no differently than if I were a genetic female. I had
been involved in some quite intimate conversations and probably now knew
more about menstrual cycles and the effects than anyone on earth with an
"outie" as the girls called it. All part of my learning process.
Some of them even had gifts for me and while some were gag gifts, one
literally, most though not expensive truly from the heart. While they
were all special to me the wine bottle charm for my bracelet Kathy and
Pat gave me was the most special. They even had the bar name engraved on
it. I was so overwhelmed with the outpour of love I probably spent more
of the evening with tears in my eyes than not. Yes I was excited about my
new life and being there with my family these girls were my family too.
Lots of hugs and kisses as people came and left as well as a few offers
to "test drive" the new equipment after I have surgery. Not sure that is
what I want and although some were "R" rated I believe all were made with
love.
Sunday Fr. Carmichael wished me luck on this next leg of my life but like
just about everyone else up to this point told me to at least come and
visit. Kathy and Pat had told me the same thing last night but they went
further and told me if it didn't work out there was a home here for me
and I was more than welcome to their guest bedroom while I got settled. I
know this is going to be a change living with Mom as I have been on my
own almost forever. While she may not now there will come a time she may
need me there. What type of daughter would I be if I wasn't there for
her?
When I got home Sunday I changed and looked around at what was left, not
a lot actually. Yes I should have finished packing the few things left
but I have tomorrow for that. I opened a bottle of wine and relaxed. A
couple of other residents in the building stopped by and it became almost
a mini going away party. I ended up ordering a couple of pizzas and well
I guess there are a few less bottles of wine to move now. Wonder if I can
get a discount for that?
As I laid in bed that night I thought back over the past week. From the
way the girls at the support group and bar to my neighbors everyone had
been so sweet. They all knew who and what I was yet to a person they
supported me and treated me like the lady I hope to be one day. I know a
lot of girls have a rough path but mine has been pretty good up until
now. I am not complaining but I do have to wonder what awaits me. I do
know regardless of what it is I will face head on. I have come so far I
am not about to let anything stand between me and my true path in life.
Monday and Tuesday I got everything wrapped as much as I could. I had
everything packed away. I even had the cable and phone gone and made
arrangements to have a final reading on the electric. I had decided to
grab a room at a local motel for tonight as I had everything including
the bed linens packed away. I loaded the suitcase in my car before taking
one last look around. I think I have it all taken care of. The movers are
supposed to be here tomorrow by 9 so I better get going and get some
sleep. Something tells me tomorrow id going to be hectic.
I was up at 5, long before my wake up call and checked out by 6:30. I
even had time to stop for one last breakfast at me favorite dive as I had
come to refer to it. I gave Margaret the owner a big hug as I was leaving
and she like everyone else had told me not to be a stranger. I promised I
would be back for a visit and I expected her not to change the menu. I
got to the apartment a little after 8 and made sure everything was set. I
saw the calendar on the kitchen wall and took a pen from my purse and
crossed today off, October 19, 2005. The last day of this phase of my
life.
The movers got there as they had said, 9:00 and by 10;30 the place was
empty to the walls. I went through everything one more time, checking the
closets, cupboards, and drawers. All that was left was emptiness. In a
way I felt a little of that emptiness as I saw what had been only home
that had been truly Beth's reduced to bare walls and floors. I took one
last walk through and there was nothing left. I paused at the doorway on
my way out and took one last look. I felt a tear come to me as I took
that last look. Lots of memories here Beth. This is where you really got
your start, your first real apartment of your own. Probably be a long
time before you have a place of your own again, at least I hope so. I had
a new phase of my life to start now and I was looking forward to that.
Still I felt a little sad to be leaving this phase behind. I had made
friends, gotten a job, even found myself in a way here. There were a few
tears running down my cheek as I closed the door on this part of my life.
"Hi Beth, all set?" Kathy asked as I came into the bar.
"Yes, as well as set as I am going to be. I thought I better drop all the
keys before I take off," I said as I fished them from my purse.
"I am going to miss you Beth," Kathy smiled as she took the keys from me.
"Not just as an employee and a tenant but as a friend."
"Don't do this to me Kathy," I said as the tears started to swell up
again.
"I am sorry Hun," she said as she came around the bar and hugged me. "I
am not trying to tell you not to go but you have grown on me,"
"That's me, the fungus," I half smiled through my tears.
"Don't you ever talk yourself down like that, even joking," she said as
she hugged me tight. "I have known you what? 4, 5 years? I have watched
you and grow and blossom into a beautiful person. When I leased the
apartment to you I knew it was temporary and what your plans were and yet
you put them on hold to help me. That is what a true friend does and Beth
you are that."
"I am not sure what to say here Kathy," I said as we hugged. "You and
everyone here has been here for me to help and show me the way."
"And we have loved every second of it," she said. "I know what you have
in store for you and all the new adventures awaiting you but every once
in a while think about us back here. We all love you and are going to
miss you. Do promise me one thing."
"For you Kathy anything."
"Come back sometime and show us how much our little girl has grown," she
said. "The guest bedroom at my place will always be there for you."
"That is so sweet." I told her as I hugged her with a tear flowing down
my cheek. "I will be back to visit, I promise."
"You better, that is unless you want all of us to take a road trip," she
giggled.
"Any time," I said. "Not sure how we would handle the whole crowd in
Mom's condo but we will manage."
"Could be fun, massive pajama party," she laughed.
"It would definitely liven the place up."
Kathy walked me to the door and after we hugged again I walked out the
door. The sun was shining and I had to find my sunglasses. I got in my
car and sat there for a minute dabbing at the tears running down my
cheeks. I took a long look around before I started the car. Lot of good
memories here and I am thankful for the experiences and friends but the
time has come beth. I pulled the shifter into drive and pulled out on to
the street. Time for the next phase Beth. Will it be as good, as fun, and
as educational as my time here I had no idea. What I did know is I was
leaving this behind and heading into the unknown as a middle aged,
childless, "divorced" woman/
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