Shutter Buggered
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If I hadn’t been sure that Tommy had Dr. Kendall in his back pocket, that was put to rest in study hall the following Tuesday. Carmen, Tommy, and I were walking along the outside of the school building, on our way to the fields as was our habit now, when the principal rounded the far corner and came toward us.
“Uh oh,” Carmen said. “Caught.”
“Principal alert,” I whispered, for Tommy’s benefit.
The three of us laughed quietly, all of us wearing shades as was our other habit these days.
“We are so in trouble...” she sang softly.
“Naw, lass, don’t worry. He’s a good fella.” Tommy gave a big wave as we neared our warden. “Dr. K!”
“Hello!” Dr. Kendall greeted. “Odd, I must have looked at the wrong day on the calendar. I didn’t know we had early dismissal today!”
Tommy laughed. “Aye, it was right there in the schedule. In big letters, so even I could see it!”
Dr. Kendall chuckled, and seemed about to make a joke but then thought better of it.
“Carmen has been teaching me some gymnastics,” Tommy went on. “We’re off to practice some more now, we are.”
Dr. Kendall nodded. “That’s kind of you, Carmen. How’s it going?”
Carmen giggled. “He’s ... improving.”
“Good to hear. Will we get to see some tumbling passes by the end of the year?”
“At the talent show!” Tommy quipped.
“That would be excellent. I was a gymnast once, you know,” the principal confided.
Carmen smiled appreciatively. “I didn’t know that!”
“Yes. Before I hit my growth spurt, anyway.”
“I was going to say, you seem pretty tall for it!”
Dr. Kendall chuckled. “Too tall, and too old now.” He looked around for a moment. “You’re not supposed to be wandering the grounds during class without permission, though.”
“We have study hall and we’re studying gymnastics,” Tommy explained.
“Yes, but...”
“And our room monitor is fine with it,” he added as he looked at us for support. “I’d say she gave us permission, yeah?”
We both nodded, but I could tell Tommy had already pushed our principal off the fence. For my part, I just hoped Dr. Kendall didn’t decide to check with the grumpy monitor. Tommy’s idea of ‘fine with it’ was probably way different than anyone else’s.
“Well, I’ll just have to trust in my staff. I’ll let you enjoy the day!” Dr. Kendall said cheerily, his eyes glinting. He walked on, as did we, and maybe even both parties laughed quietly. We certainly did.
“Nice one, Tommy.”
“Why didn’t you audition for the talent show with some tumbling, lass?”
Carmen shrugged. “Never thought about it.”
“People would love to see that. You could put some good music to go with it, and it would be fantastic!”
“Maybe next year, then.”
We spent a while in the field where I lounged around while Carmen demonstrated some moves. She then helped Tommy to practice handstands. He was doing remarkably well, even if it still was pretty funny-looking.
Eventually we moved on to the woods and made our way to the fallen tree that Carmen had found to practice basic balance beam moves on. Tommy wasted no time in hopping up on the apparatus, while she offered a steadying hand.
“You’re a natural,” I called out, taking a seat against a nearby trunk to watch him walk back and forth with surprising ease.
“Or I have a good teacher,” he quipped.
Carmen gave me a coy look. I just rolled my eyes. I was soon ignored, though, as she worked with him on keeping his balance while he turned in place. Feeling a bit like a chaperone, in time my thoughts wandered as usual. A slight bit of worry about the band battle had been creeping in lately. Jonah had said eleven songs... Is it okay that four of them are rather long? Maybe he wouldn’t really care, though. As Lara had pointed out, fairness seemed like it might be an arbitrary concept in the Castle, subject to the needs of the party. And he said nothing about a time limit.
“Lad, watch this!”
I snapped out of my thoughts and watched Tommy do a back-and-forth pass on his own. Carmen clapped happily at the end, even as he gave a little leap in the air.
I suddenly realized that maybe having Tommy on the beam wasn’t the best idea. If he fell off, it would be hard for him to judge a safe landing on the fly.
This was a wise realization to have, but unfortunately it came to me after Tommy slipped while landing his little jump. With ironic coincidence, my thoughts were instantly translated into reality as he fell off the log. It wasn’t that high off the ground, but the forest covering was uneven; certainly it was no gym mat.
Carmen let out a little cry as she saw his foot twist and roll off of a round stone. Tommy grunted and instantly crumpled into a seated position to take the pressure off his leg.
“Damn, are you okay?” I called, quickly rushing to them.
“Ohhh, I think I twisted it good,” he groaned, his voice tight.
“Shit...”
“I’m sorry, Tommy!” Carmen cried. “I shouldn’t have let go!”
“Lass, that was my fault. I got cocky and tried to be fancy at the end.”
“How bad does it hurt? A lot?”
“Naw, it’s already feeling better,” he said, though he continued to rub it.
“I think we need to get you to the nurse,” I said. “For some ice, maybe, and to check it out. Just in case.”
Surprisingly, Tommy grunted in agreement instead of protesting. This didn’t help my mood. He’d only go to the nurse if he thought it absolutely necessary, I figured. Damn it...
Carmen was certainly distraught, and she helped me get Tommy onto his good foot. He put his arms around both our shoulders, even though Carmen’s petite frame was not particularly suited for the job at hand.
A knot of anxiety swelled up in me as he tried to put a little weight on the twisted ankle, before letting out a huff.
“Muireann is going to kill me,” I muttered.
“Nonsense, lad. This was my doing.”
“You do realize that she doesn’t even know we’ve been sneaking out here into the woods?”
“She’ll survive.”
“Yeah, but will I? Didn’t you say she murdered your juggling friend?”
Tommy guffawed. “Aye, she did, twice, even! Naw, lad, don’t worry about Muireann. If she wants to be upset, it’s her business.”
Well, you might not care too much, but I do...
I left that unsaid though. Carmen and I acted as crutches as we started through the woods. It was a very slow pace. When I looked at my watch, I realized we’d never get back in time for the bell. Muireann was going to be alone in photography class, for a while at least, and wondering where we were. And Dr. Kendall... What will he say when we show up like this? We had no reasonable excuse; he knew where we’d been and what we were doing.
Tommy continued his amused and idle banter. “Funny how I can ski just fine, but I try jumping on a little log and it all goes wrong!”
I kept quiet as did Carmen for the most part, except to occasionally apologize. I focused on the repetitive movements of our awkward march, soon feeling the strain of having his weight relying on me more and more as Carmen tired out. But we pressed on, emerging from the tree line and starting across the long grassy expanse. The end-of-period bell rang faintly in the distance.
“Carmen, you want to go ahead and grab our stuff from the room and then meet us at the nurse’s office?”
“Oh, sure, if you think I should?”
“Yeah, there’s a class in there after us. If you hurry you can get in there before the start bell. I can help Tommy the rest of the way by myself.”
Carmen set off at a run across the field, soon rounding the corner and disappearing after a last glance at us.
“She’s a nice lass,” Tommy remarked. “Don’t hold this against her.”
“I won’t,” I acknowledged.
“It was an accident.”
“Yeah, but I have a bad feeling our study hall outings are over once Muireann finds out about this.”
Tommy waved the idea aside. “I was exaggerating the thing with Cathal, lad. She just gives him a hard time, that’s all.”
“Oh, great...”
The second bell rang as we approached the building. My nerves continued to grow edgier. I heard loud voices up ahead laughing and carrying on. As we rounded the corner to enter the courtyard, we walked right into a group of guys, among which was a familiar and unwelcome face. Fucking Skinner ... What the hell is he doing here?
“Oh, sorry,” I muttered as we shifted course to avoid running right through them. Not that we were anywhere near ‘running’...
Tommy and I, who were basically hugging each other, got stares from the group. Sniggers went around.
“What’s going on, guys?” one of them called to us as we passed by.
“Practicing for the spring dance?” another called.
“Para bailar la bamba!“ Skinner sang out rather loudly.
“No way, man, that looks more like the lambada!”
Tommy was laughing along with the group. His movements started to slow, but I pressed him on, unwilling to find out what he might say to them. Start a fight, or become friends? No thanks.
“He just hurt his ankle,” I called back.
“Sure he did...” came the reply, followed by a quieter word that I still was able to hear. “Gaywads...”
Again I pressed Tommy forward as his laugh petered out. “Ignore them,” I grunted.
A group of girls was hanging out nearby, and I knew they’d watched and certainly heard the exchange. Gwen was among them and she eyed us with a very sour face. Great... I wondered why I hadn’t thought to go around the other side of the school. This little parade sure is awkward as hell.
Thankfully we made it to the nurse’s room without further audience, since last period was in full swing by now. Further relief came when I noted that Dr. Kendall’s office was closed. I ushered Tommy into the medical office as quickly as he could move, hoping desperately that the principal’s door didn’t click open.
Mrs. Quigley was ready for us because Carmen had already arrived and told her what had happened. Tommy took to a chair and the explanations continued. The nurse wasn’t particularly pleased to hear that we’d been out in the woods, but I knew that this disapproval was far from the worst we’d have to face today.
Just when things were clicking on all cylinders ... Damn it.
“Wilbur’s Diner, can I help you?”
I sniggered quietly despite my mood. “Yeah, I’d like to order one Heather?”
A moment of silence. “I’m sorry, could you repeat that?”
I did so, but it was met with another pause.
“We don’t have that on the menu here,” Heather finally replied.
She’s good...
“All right, very funny. How are you doing?”
“I think you might have the wrong number.”
“Okay, Heather,” I sang.
There was a moment of muffled talking, and then a man came on the line, his voice short and to the point.
“Can I help you?”
“Oh, I think, uh ... I’m—Sorry!”
I hung up abruptly, a bit surprised; dialing Heather’s phone number was practically a reflex to me. Admittedly, I was still distracted due to Tommy’s injury earlier in the day, so it was possible I’d swapped some digits. Then again, maybe Heather was just pulling another prank on me. I figured it was fifty-fifty on those two options. I dialed very carefully this time and waited for the line to ring.
If she says ‘Wilbur’s Diner’...
She didn’t. Instead I got a song, a lick from Three Days. I laughed as she broke out into a line of the lyric.
“You’re hilarious,” I said, as she trailed off into a giggle.
“Why, thank you.”
“You’re welcome. What do you know about Wilbur’s Diner?”
“Uh, it’s a place here in town. Why?”
I strained to hear if there was any amusement in her voice. Well, besides the usual level. Always so hard to tell...
“Do you know their phone number?”
“Why the heck would I know that?”
“I don’t know. Never mind.”
“I don’t think they deliver to the Catskills, if that’s what you’re getting at.”
“Very funny. Forget it, though.”
“Okay. How are you doing?” she asked.
“I’m hanging in there ... Feeling a bit down, actually.”
“Oh, what’s wrong?”
“Tommy got hurt today.”
I gave her the rundown on his gymnastics lessons and our unsanctioned outings. “So anyway, today he was on this tree beam again and he fell off and hurt his ankle. Twisted it or sprained it, or something.”
“Does he have to wear a cast or anything?”
“No, just stay off it as much as possible, unless it starts getting worse.”
“So he was just trying to copy me from when I was there!” she joked.
I sniffed. “Yeah, maybe. I’m not going to be massaging his legs all day, though. That part is not going to be copied!”
“Mmm, I really miss those massages. I think when you come visit I’m going to take a bat to my ankle.”
“Stop it,” I chided. “I’ll massage your legs anytime you want.”
“Oh good. So, how is Muireann taking it?” Heather asked.
“Yeah, not well at all. Except to talk about homework, she hasn’t said a word to me or Tommy tonight.”
“Aw ... I’m sure she’ll come around, though. It’s not like you kicked his foot on purpose.”
“I know ... But I guess I was supposed to be in charge of Tommy during study hall, you know.”
“No, I don’t know,” she dismissed. “Let Tommy be himself.”
“Well, tell that to Muireann.”
“I will. Put her on,” she said simply.
“I was kidding.”
“I’m not. Look, if you were on the log today, you could’ve just as easily fallen off and hurt yourself too. And if you did, no one would’ve gotten mad at Tommy, right? It’s not like he’s special that way. Stuff can happen to anyone. Part of life.”
“True ... But I still feel bad.”
“Hmm ... Does this other girl hang out with you guys a lot?”
“Carmen? Not really. I mean, just in study hall, pretty much.”
“Is she in trouble with Muireann too?”
“They don’t know each other, really. Probably Lara is mad at Carmen more than Muireann would be.”
“Why?”
I hesitated, having never told Heather about my past dysfunctional relationship. The thought of laying out that whole tale...
“Just stuff that happened a while ago with her,” I dismissed. “Long story for another day, but I know Lara isn’t super fond of her, and even less now. Anyway, we’ll see. Tommy will be fine soon enough. I’m not worried about him. It’s just that ... I feel bad about breaking Muireann’s trust.”
“I get that. But that’s what trust is, Matt. Sometimes it means things are going to happen. Tommy doesn’t want to live in a bubble, or a cushion. I’d almost guess he didn’t even care about getting hurt.”
“You might be right. Funny enough, he’s the only one who’s not down about it.”
“Not the only one!” she chirped.
“Well, yeah, there’s always you. And I’m glad for that.”
Heather giggled. “Good. So how long did you go around with the waitress at Wilbur’s?”
I jolted. “What?”
“How long until you realized it wasn’t really me?”
“Heather, what the hell?”
“What?” she asked innocently.
“It was you the whole time?”
“No! You dialed the wrong number, silly.”
I was flabbergasted for a long moment. It wasn’t her, but she knew that I—?
“You’re freaking me out a bit!”
Heather laughed freely. “Relax, Matt. I looked up Wilbur’s phone number and it’s one number different than mine. It’s kind of obvious what happened!”
I let out a breath. “Oh ... Okay. For a second there I thought I was going crazy!”
“No, not yet,” she joked.
“You never know, with you. Jeez ... Anyway, how’s your stuff going?”
“Getting another filter finished tonight.”
“Don’t stay up too late.”
“I’ll be in bed by nine.”
“That better be nine at night.”
“Of course.”
I looked at my clock, realizing that it was already after nine-thirty. “You’re going to be up all night, aren’t you?” I huffed.
“No, I’ll snooze here and there. Helps keep things calm. Don’t worry, I’ll be all right. Things have been better lately ... I’m serious.”
“Okay, but still ... Be careful. So what happens next?”
“I need to make the prints and all that. My teacher’s friend has offered to let me use her darkroom, because the one at school is just too inconvenient for this.”
I sniffed. “You think? You know, you could always come up here and make your prints,” I suggested, the hope ripe in my voice.
“Believe me, I’ve thought of that so many times.”
“Please?” I pleaded.
“I wish, Matt, but I just don’t have the time to spare. I need to get these done this weekend.”
“Fine, be that way,” I pouted. “So where are they going to be put up?”
“In the main lobby, along one wall.”
“That’s so awesome, Heather.”
“We’ll see.”
“Come on, it’ll be so cool and you know it ... All right, you better get to it. And hey, I can sleep in my room if you want me to be on the phone with you tonight.”
“Thank you, Matt. But I’ll be okay.”
“Can I at least order you some takeout from Wilbur’s? I think they really like me there!”
Heather giggled happily. I took it, glad that she was in a good space.
“Where’s Muireann at?” I asked, joining Lara and Tommy at the cabin table after having split some wood to replenish the stock in the house.
“Out taking some photos,” Lara replied.
I slumped into my chair, feeling my mood sag at the information. It had been three days since the fall, and Tommy’s injury was recovering well. But more than his ankle had become strained that day, I knew. The timing was terrible. I wanted to be working on the music with her, or even taking pictures, but obviously I was still in the doghouse. Less so than previous days, but the fact she’d gone on the hike without me was telling. She didn’t even stop by the woodpile to say hi.
At least she didn’t ask to use the camera, for a change...
It was a minimal silver lining, though. I stood up and put on my coat.
“Where are you going?” Lara asked.
“Just for a walk to clear my head.”
Lara seemed about to make a suggestion, but decided not to and turned back to her work. I stepped out into the cool early evening, glancing toward the forest. For our long exposure photography project, Muireann had been spending time at the creek to capture the swirls of eddies there. I hesitated, wondering if I dared disturb her. Heather had been urging me to talk to her, but Lara seemed to have implied the opposite with her most recent look.
After another long gaze at the woods, I instead walked around our house and down our driveway. The first signs of winter losing its grip on the mountains were apparent. There was still a good chance we’d get more snow, but there was a general feeling in the air and in the earth that hibernation was about to come to an end.
But that just made my frustration increase even more. Muireann hadn’t quite turned into a merrow after I threw her into the pool, but she’d certainly warmed up to going in intentionally and we’d half-planned to swim on the weekend. ‘Music in the woods’ was also a success so far; we’d come up with a cool backing line for Time Between that we’d both been looking forward to trying at our next band rehearsal. Which is tomorrow ... I’m running out of time to fix this...
That was all before Tommy wiped out. Damn it... Now I just had to hope that we could hold it together for the band battle. Even Tommy and Lara were not quite the same. They were working together to get their Latin homework finished in order to keep the weekend free, but Lara seemed distant. I was somewhat surprised she hadn’t cornered Carmen for another ‘talk’, like she’d done for me last year. Or maybe she did ... Carmen was very quiet in study hall yesterday.
I reached the road and contemplated which direction to head. Friday night ... There’s probably a party at Brian’s house. A most ridiculous thought, of course, but suddenly the simplicity of hanging out with my old friends and getting trashed seemed rather appealing. Even if it would be strange as hell if I showed up there. Then again, it’ll be all people I don’t really know that well ... Brian wouldn’t give a shit, just call out a loud greeting as usual ... But then what... ?
I paced around the entrance to our driveway for a time, feeling as if the entire world was uncertain. The ankle issue wasn’t a big deal, all told. Kids get hurt all the time ... Muireann’s just overreacting because it’s Tommy.
I heard what at first sounded like a bird call. Then I realized it was Lara yelling from the bend in our driveway. In the fading light I could see her waving me back home. I started back up the slope, picking up my pace as I realized she didn’t have a coat on.
“What’s up?” I called out as I neared.
“Come back to the cabin,” she said.
I could tell from her face that something had happened. “What’s wrong?”
“Just come back,” she repeated, hurrying off.
I caught up. “Something with Tommy? Is his ankle getting worse?”
“No, he’s fine. It’s Muireann.”
“What? Lara, come on, tell me!”
“Don’t be too mad at her, all right?”
Mad at her?
“What are you talking about?” I pressed, but she didn’t answer.
We soon reached the cabin, my heart pounding from the jog and the bad feeling in my body. As I entered, Muireann was standing near the table, her face red and streaked. She melted into sobs upon seeing me.
“Muireann, what’s—”
Then my gaze fell on the 35mm lens. It sat on the table as if it was a piece of evidence presented at a trial. As I neared, my heart tightened on seeing the cracked front element and bent filter ring.
“What happened?” I said quietly.
“I was changing lenses, and it slipped out of my hand, and I didn’t have the lens cap on, and I should have put the bag down, and—I’m sorry, Matt! I will buy you another one, I promise, and I feel terrible that I’ve broken it!”
Tommy reached over and squeezed Muireann’s hand.
I swallowed and stared at the lens. Finally I looked up. “Tommy, Lara, do you mind giving us a few minutes?”
“Of course, lad.”
“We’ll be in the house,” Lara murmured.
In another moment, Tommy hooked his arm into my sister’s and they left the cabin.
“I am so sorry,” Muireann continued as I closed the door, her voice rough and raw. She wiped at her face.
I sat at the table and examined the lens. “Did it fall onto a rock?”
She nodded into her hands.
“Bad luck, that it hit just right,” I remarked.
“I should never have touched your camera.”
I closed my eyes. “Don’t say that.”
“It’s true. I should have used my little camera this term ... Or taken Latin. I can’t believe I broke it!”
I set the lens down. “I think you and Tommy need to stop copying Heather so much.”
Muireann let her hands drop a bit and she looked at me in anguish. “Copying Heather?”
“Yeah, you know ... First Tommy goes and hurts his ankle ... Then you go and start trying to make your own weird photography equipment.”
She seemed horrified. “It was an accident! I wasn’t trying to—”
“I think it’s a really cool idea, Muireann. Does the lens still work?”
She stared at me blankly, frozen. I glanced around and found the camera bag on the couch. Retrieving my Nikon, I carefully twisted the broken lens onto the body and clicked it into place. Muireann just looked on in confusion. I moved to the windows and looked though the viewfinder, almost laughing at the distorted image that was more than a little reminiscent of Heather’s MD filter.
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“Welcome to darkroom class,” I announced as Muireann followed me into the darkroom the following evening. She eyed me. “Are you going to lie on the bed again?” I grinned broadly. “I think I might, and let you do the work. Hands-on is the best way to learn, right?” “You’re going to give Tommy a run for the title of laziest boy.” “Am I winning yet?” Muireann just smirked and started blacking out the windows. “I have to admit something,” she said. “What’s that?” “I didn’t realize the...
When Melissa and I returned to the house after dropping off the order for the necklace, nothing much had changed. In the cabin I found Lara and Tommy at the table, intently studying a sheet of paper. They didn’t even glance at me as I closed the door. I could hear Muireann’s muffled fiddle playing from the darkroom, the sound of a slow Irish melody permeating the warmed air inside. “How’s it going?” I announced, taking off my coat. After scribbling something down, Lara turned to me, smiling...
I felt an arm grip my winter coat. “Matt ... I don’t know that we can do this!” “Of course you can. It’s not that hard.” “No, I’m worried about Tommy!” she whispered. “What if he falls? Or runs into someone?” I gave her gloved hand a pat. “He’ll be okay. It’s pretty soft, you know. Watch...” I let myself fall sideways like a cut tree, landing on my hip and shoulder. Muireann gave a little cry of surprise, but I just laughed it off. In another moment I was standing again. “You want to...
“We need to decide what song we’re going to audition with,” I announced, as the five of us settled into the cabin for some rehearsal. Colin looked at me. “Let’s vote then. What are the choices? We have a lot of songs that we know now. Some more than others.” “I’m thinking we should do an original,” I offered. “We have Four Days, Shell Game, Absinthe... And Please Don’t Stop, but since we played that one at the show last year, probably not a good idea.” “Don’t forget Gunkstomp!” Lara...
“What have we here?” Jane asked, coming to a stop in front of our half-dozen pictures. “Twins,” Muireann said. “Aha.” She examined our spread. “Did you do the project together?” “Aye, we tried something different.” I could hear the hope in Muireann’s voice, that this would be okay by our teacher. Jane pursed her lips. “Interesting approach.” “I know there’s only six photos, but we both did take six shots,” I explained. “There’s two exposures on each!” Jane gave me a small smile. “Yes,...
“Damn, I’ve missed you,” I whispered. She giggled. “Wow, I didn’t realize how much!” “Hey now! Hands above the waist!” Heather cuddled up closer to me on the couch as the hubbub carried on in the rest of the great room. After all the greetings and chats following our guests’ arrival, dinner was soon going to be ready. With Frej volunteering to help with what remained of meal preparations, we’d been told to go hang out. Not being one to deny my parents’ wishes, I didn’t think twice to drag...
I tried delaying our hike for a day. I really did. Although Heather’s ankle was sore after she removed the ski boots in the lodge, by the time we got home it was already feeling a little better. She could certainly get around, since it mostly hurt only when putting sideward pressure on it. Skiing was probably out for a few days, at least, but a walk through the woods was not worth postponing. Or so she said. I was of two minds. Twenty-four hours of extra rest would allow more time for her to...
The music store wasn’t too far from the jeweler’s shop, so Heather and I walked there. “I mean, I get it, now,” I said, still caught up in the surprising meaning of the Chinese symbol she now wore around her neck. “Oh, I think you got it a long time ago,” Heather said. “It’s just a word, Matt. It has no meaning on its own.” “I know, I know. It’s just ... most people would find it kind of...” “Weird,” she supplied. “You said it, not me,” I laughed. “It is what it is.” “Yeah ... Anyway,...
Three girls, three cameras... And me, tagging along, superfluous but certainly enjoying myself. I offered to be their model a few times, but they seemed to prefer photographing each other. And there was the teasing, of course. Endless. “Nice, Muireann!” Heather chirped. “You’ve learned a lot about photography, I can tell.” “She has a good eye,” Shannon agreed. “Matt has been teaching me.” “Which makes it all the more surprising!” Funny... But even there, I was given three cute grins,...
Admittedly, I was slightly apprehensive as we pulled into our clearing that evening after our day of skiing. Heather, alone with Tommy all day... The snow was falling heavily again through the headlight beams. Both Frej’s and the Martins’ cars were parked in the same positions they had been that morning, and they remained covered in several inches of snow. Oddly, there were no lights on in the main house. Maybe Muireann was rubbing off on me, because for a few seconds I had a panicked vision...
Mairead and Aongus left after lunch the next day, forced to end their vacation earlier than Frej and Heather due to the demands of the business they owned. I was indeed grateful for the Danishman’s generosity in allowing Heather to remain for another three days. The Martins’ departure left a rather obvious hole in our daily schedule. After dinner was cleared and we sat around the table, it suddenly seemed remarkably silent. The positive feedback loop between Tommy and Aongus had been...
I was grateful for the band. Heather’s departures were never a good thing for me, inevitably the start of a long slide down into wistful distance, but the fact that I could go from our final embrace to playing my guitar within fifteen minutes was at the very least a welcomed distraction. “So we need to start thinking about a set for the battle,” I said, once we’d played a few numbers to warm up and clear the farewell feelings as best we could. “We have six originals, so we’ll need another...
The week passed slowly and somewhat agonizingly, since Gwen couldn’t rehearse again until the following weekend, and the homework was being laid on thick. I was anxious to make as much progress as we could on the set, which we still hadn’t quite settled on. Certainly as the battle approached, I was imagining more and more how it might turn out, even though I knew that daydreaming about the glories of winning was a dangerous game. Things could turn out so many different ways, surely, but in...
Carmen was disappointed but seemed understanding when I called her to let her know that we didn’t have room for her after all. It was a bit strange to talk to her on the phone, something that I didn’t think I’d ever done before. Odd, considering we were together for a while. Then again, this fact was testament to how messed up that time had been for me. Saturday evening arrived, and it was not without some anxiety that we packed the gear into Colin and Shannon’s vehicles. While my moms...
“Hello?” “Oh hi, Mrs. Martin. How are you?” “Matt ... It’s me,” Heather said. I jerked in my chair. “What... ? No way! You said ‘Hello’!” “I guess I did.” This must be part of a joke... “Okay ... Where have you been? We were supposed to talk on Wednesday, remember?” “What day is it today?” Heather asked. I was quiet for a second. “It’s Friday? Seriously, is everything all right? You answered weird ... Well, you answered normally, which is weird for you. And you really don’t know what...
I was surprisingly alert when Tommy and I slipped into Frej’s car at a quarter of six, just as the light was starting to make itself known in the east. I let Tommy have the front so I could squeeze against Heather in the back. “Good morning, my love,” she whispered, and immediately I wondered if I was overdressed for the warmth she caused in me. Maybe forgetting all my clothes at home would be okay after all. Damn kissing ban, though... “Is your man coming with us today?” Tommy asked...
Lara responded so sweetly when I asked if she could entertain the twins, that I took her into a surprisingly hard hug. We were alone in my room, so I made no effort to hold back. “Easy there, bro,” she warned, even as she returned the tight embrace. “I’m so sorry about the underwater thing,” I breathed. “I still feel terrible about it.” “No sweat. I know you didn’t do it on purpose, because you hate doing laundry. And now you’re stuck doing it every day!” I laughed. “True. But it’s the...
It was strange to wake up. I was still on the couch, but Heather was gone, and I was horizontal and covered by a blanket. I could hear my moms and aunt chatting in the living room, since I was occupying their usual morning hangout spot. Then again, the sun was bright and the shadows on the porch floor were well past parallel to the wood beams, suggesting that my first meal of the day would be called ‘late lunch’ and certainly not ‘breakfast’. So, I really took their usual afternoon spot......
I think I’m half-Danish... It took me a moment, I’ll admit. It was perhaps like seeing someone on a distant hill make an odd movement, and only realizing a long second later that it was the head-on motion of an archer having released an arrow to fly forth from her bow. It took me a moment, yes, but then that five-word missile arrived, slamming into my heart with surgical precision. The world seemed to spin. I only knew one Danish person, and I knew him quite well. I struggled to hold her...
“Do you wish this never happened?” she asked quietly. I turned to look at Heather, her face illuminated by the fading twilight. Until now, Heather had not spoken in the half-hour or so since I’d silently confirmed her connection to Frej. I didn’t mind the quiet, because I had much to think about myself. The pier was strangely deserted, and we’d migrated to the gazebo to sit. “Why do you say that?” I asked. “Because it really puts a new light on everything.” “It does, it does,” I agreed....
I was just about to make a call when Lara poked her head into my room. “Back to the telephone life, huh?” she said, giving me a sympathetic look. “Yep. Hard times again.” “You could’ve been born a hundred years ago,” she observed, “and then you wouldn’t even have had the phone.” “If I’d been born a hundred years ago, I would’ve missed out on her completely. And on you too, sis ... But I’m glad for the phone either way.” Lara nodded thoughtfully. “True. Come up to the cabin when you’re...
On Monday, I was very relieved to get summoned to the principal’s office. Despite the amused looks I got from my classmates, I was feeling pretty high. Dr. Kendall had been silent since our meeting the previous week, a bit worrisome since the time before May wasn’t exactly abundant. But I trusted in his promise, and now it seemed we’d be shifting into gear. When I stepped into his office, another man was already sitting in one of the chairs. He looked vaguely familiar. I took the initiative...
“Sorry I stole your bed,” Lara said, giving me a sheepish grin as she wandered out of my room the next morning. I shrugged. “The couch is comfortable enough.” “I didn’t mean to fall asleep. We were working on lyrics, you know, and ... Yeah. Where is everyone?” “Colin’s not here yet, and Gwen came by a while ago but just grabbed Muireann and took off. And you and Tommy have been sleeping like logs.” “Where did Gwen take her?” “Beats me. She said they’d be back in a few...
“Hello?” Uh oh ... That’s not good... “I don’t like the sound of that,” I said. “The last time you answered ‘Hello’ was—” “Good evening, Matt,” Mairead interrupted. “Oh, hi, Mrs. Martin!” “Heather is not here,” she added, her voice quite amused. I would’ve laughed, except that I suddenly realized how close I’d just been to revealing Heather’s secret. Holy shit... ! Way too close. “I’m sorry about that just now,” I explained, my skin prickling. “Sometimes Heather, well ... She’ll...
The scene at Smith Park, when we pulled in around noon, was rather astonishing. The light scaffolds loomed over the stage, and for a long moment I stood by the car door in complete shock. We’re going to be playing on that... ! “Are you coming, lad?” Tommy asked, having already seized his guitar and equipment bag from the trunk. I snapped out of it and went to grab my own things. “Yeah. It’s just that ... it looks pretty damn neat, man.” He grinned. “I’m sure it does. Now let’s go set...
The post-concert went by in a rush. People came and went, to greet us, share their joy and emotions. The twins and Lara in particular were mobbed, which was fine with me. I’ve had just about as much excitement as I can take... After hugging the people closest to me, I slipped back up to the stage again, grateful for the banality of winding cables, collapsing mic stands, and the opportunity to help the sound and lighting crews get their work done just a little faster. They’d been amazing...
Away... From us... To say these words affected me would be a vast understatement. The massive upwelling that I’d seen a moment earlier in Heather’s eyes, that flood which would destroy everything around ... It suddenly burst out of the sea. Nothing prepared me for its impact. My throat constricted and suffocation beckoned, caressing me gently into blackening edges. “Why?” I tried to ask, but the sound was grotesque, a pitiful gurgle at best. “Shh, shhhh,” she consoled through tears,...
On the day that our connection was severed, I was roused by a warm hand caressing my face, the fingers leaving behind energetic currents. “Good morning, my love...” I opened my eyes all at once. The sun was just barely tinting the sky, and I was disoriented, wondering why the couch felt odd. It took me a moment to realize that I was down in the main house. Memories abruptly returned in a panicked rush. The night before, after partying for a while, the three of us had taken to Lara’s old bed...
The long work of pulling the concert together had fully caught up and crashed into me. That wasn’t the source of my problems, though, or I would’ve simply slept hard for a few days and been done with it. If I’d wanted to take a ‘sick’ day or two to stay home from school, no one would have batted an eyelid, for any of us. I wouldn’t have even had to fake a fever, holding the thermometer against a hot light bulb. I could just cash in on good karma. Instead, on Wednesday I’d found myself...
“So, how much of this will you tell Tommy?” It was the first thing Muireann had said in some time, having grown progressively more reticent as I revealed my secrets to her, one by one. There were many, so it had taken a long while. But they were out, now... All of them. “Tommy...” I murmured. “Yeah, I’m not sure.” “He’s very fond of Lara.” I sniffed. “I know that. You think he’ll be weirded out?” “I can’t say for sure. And what about her?” I frowned. “Lara? She knows all of this...
I was waiting for Muireann to emerge from the restroom before we headed to photography class, when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I figured she was playing the other-shoulder trick to get me to look the wrong way, but I was surprised to find Bruno there after all. “Oh, hey man ... What’s up?” I greeted. “We need to talk,” he said quietly, glancing anxiously down the hall. “Hm. Let me guess ... Pete?” “Yeah. Are you heading to class? I can walk with you.” “I am, but ... I need to wait for...
That evening, I was once again drained. Despite the temporary refueling that Muireann had gifted me in the pool after the terror of Pete’s episode, the subsequent rehearsal of Other Side had eventually sapped me. I could also tell that Muireann was almost as wiped as I was. The song was intense. It was a great relief when we both settled down into our beds in the main room of the cabin, her on the cot and me on the couch. “The downside of sleeping out here is that you can’t go to bed until...
Pete didn’t attend school the rest of the week. The two times I called over to his house, I hung up as soon as I heard his dad answer. Even Bruno said that he hadn’t been able to talk to him since the day he canned Skinner. I was feeling unsettled again, but I held on to the hope that whatever was in motion was happening out of sight. It was all I could do, besides barging over there again and trying to force another chat. In the meantime, I made sure that all my other irons were still in...
The talent show was in full swing. Ready or not, the acts were cycling on and off the stage with inevitable tempo. This time around, Green Space had opened the show, and The Nameless would soon close it. “I hope Pete keeps it together,” I said to Lara, as we stood in the wing watching a kid play a rather impressive classical piece on the piano. “He will. Muireann seems to have a calming influence on him.” “Yeah, I noticed. She’s been so helpful in dealing with Pete these last few weeks, I...
It was early evening on Sunday and the final music marathon was coming to an end, our last opportunity for rehearsing as a full band before Jonah’s concert the following weekend. Gwen was particularly intent about everything, calling out any and all problems she heard, and by now we didn’t question her judgment or ear. The only unknown was if we had the skill to do whatever she asked of us. Usually we did, even if it meant practicing it thirty times. Or more, in my case... But now it was...
We arrived at Jonah’s in the early afternoon as arranged. He emerged from the side door of the Castle, grinning broadly. “What’s up, motherfuckers!” “Fella’s in a better mood than usual,” Tommy quipped. “Aye, probably this is his highest form of greeting,” Muireann added. We exchanged fist bumps, handshakes, and shit-eating grins. “This event is going to be the jewel in the Castle’s crown, I’m fucking telling you!” he gushed. “You’ve been busy,” Lara said, looking around at the yard...
Sunday was a complete waste. I spent the morning dead to the world, vaguely aware of being moved from Jonah’s cabin to Shannon’s car, and then to Colin’s recliner. At least the world was happy about something, because whenever I was semi-conscious I could mostly hear laughing around me. In retrospect, I was obviously being hidden from my folks until such time that I was with it again; that turned out to be late afternoon. Well, maybe not ‘with it’, but a few hours before dinner I finally...
I slumped in the front seat as Sarah started the car. She drove slowly, winding through the short-term parking lot, then out into the seemingly hundreds of ramps and exchanges that strangled the airport like a concrete octopus. Eventually the stress of navigating lanes and fighting off aggressive taxis dissipated as she started heading east on the Southern State Parkway. East, yes, because we had a stop to make. In fact, the twins would be sleeping in their own beds again before I did. Then...
The elation and fright of what I’d just done with the necklace still fluttered violently in me when I arrived at my destination a little while later. I could still go back to the pier... ‘It was all a mistake, Darya ... A joke... !’ I swiped the ridiculous idea aside as I stared at the house. There was no need to climb the stairs and knock, on the chance that anyone would be there. The ‘For Sale’ sign out front and lack of decorations on the porch were enough indication that they’d moved...
Truth is out... There was a long moment where nothing happened. Having been pulverized, that brittle shell washed away and left everything wide open. All was paused as I remained on the couch, stunned and unsteady. My thoughts all glanced at each other in confusion, blinking in the sudden light. What happens now? Then Clara said one thing to me: ‘Let me go... ‘ It wasn’t really her speaking, of course. I wondered what message she would’ve had for me if I’d answered her question with a...
Chapter 25: The Dreams of a Girl Alana’s driving was a balm, a relaxed and smooth ride augmented by the loose shocks on the wheels of her old Buick. I reclined in the passenger seat, swigging from the wine. “Want some?” I asked, holding up the bottle. “Come on, I’m driving.” “I know. I was just being polite,” I murmured. Alana patted my arm. “Fine. But be safe first, polite second, dude. Someday someone will take you up on that offer and next thing you know you’ll end up making out with...
Lara held my hand as we stood in the currents of the Roe, watching the flow of life as this playful tendril of the sea wound her way around and through us. Each little splash measured one more instant of being together with my sister, little moments that when placed end to end added up to simple perfection. Because the hours that recently passed had been just that: a complete surrender of any fear of each other. Our deeds and misdeeds were starting to come out now, weighed and reckoned, then...
“Good morning, sis!” I sang. “Nice bedhead!” Lara squinted at me from the doorway to the darkroom. She released a giant yawn into the cabin before speaking. “Morning ... Uh, what the hell are you doing in an apron?” “Making breakfast!” “I thought I smelled something good, but then I remembered who I live with and was like, nah, can’t be. What’s the deal? Wait, are you making boxty?” “Fuck yeah!” She came close and scrutinized my meal preparation. “You do realize the twins aren’t here,...
Summer was fully ripened now, it being the latter part of July. The chorus of insects was thick in the air as I walked along the last stretch of our road. I was alone; Lara was already home, having left the shelter an hour before I’d swung by to gather her. In fifteen minutes I’d be in the creek, washed clean by Roe, and enjoying my time with her. Or, so I thought. As usual, expectations sure were a bitch. Well, not a bitch this time, but a gorgeous girl that I adored! “Hey there...