"Thanks for letting me swap my shifts again," I say as I switch off the
shop's lights and step outside, allowing Dean to lock up the shop.
"Yeah, like I'm gonna let you work on your eighteenth birthday," Dean
says with a snort of laughter. "You have a good one, mate. See you a
week tomorrow, okay?"
"Sure," I say, waving goodbye to my supervisor before climbing onto the
back seat of Rob's car, where my girlfriend- or, to be more accurate,
lover- greets me with a long kiss.
"Hey, sexy!" Chloe giggles, before giving me another kiss.
"Get. A. Room," Lee moans from the front passenger seat of the car.
"Just because your girlfriend's 110 kilos and made of metal," Chloe
retorts. "And if you tried to snog her, she's cut your tongue off
and/or electrocute you!"
"One hundred and SEVEN kilos," Lee retorts. "And sometimes love hurts."
"Wondered why you were walking with a limp the last few days," Neil
says, earning laughs from the rest of us as I slyly slip my hand onto
Chloe's nylon-covered thigh, giving it a gentle squeeze as she slides a
hand into the back pocket of my jeans.
It's only been two days since Chloe and I had sex for the first time,
but in that time, we've become virtually inseparable. Even grandma
seems happy for us to be 'left alone', sometimes for hours at a time.
We're still not allowed to sleep together at my house- and sleeping at
Chloe's house is not an option for obvious reasons- but our connection,
and dare I say it, our love is stronger than ever. It definitely helps
that Chloe likes hanging out with the rest of my friends, even more
than her own college friends, it seems. And, obviously, Chloe doesn't
have a problem with my 'alternative' equipment- as her reaching for and
gently scratching a much more sensitive area of my anatomy proves.
The five of us (plus Neil and Rob's disinterested girlfriends) spend
the rest of the evening at Lee's house tinkering and playing with
Chwilen, before our lifts arrive to take us home just after 7pm- and
much to my chagrin, Chloe's lift is the first to pick her up.
"I'll see you tomorrow, okay?" Chloe giggles, before dramatically
wrapping her arms around my neck and rising onto her tiptoes to give me
a long, deep kiss. Normally, she wouldn't be this 'passionate' in
saying goodbye to me, but today she's being given a lift home by her
older sister- and the look of disgust on her face is almost as great as
the one she gave me when we first met on the Barry beach four months
ago. Somewhat disappointingly, Chloe and Hannah's younger sister, who
is sat on the back seat of the car, has an equally disgusted look on
her face, but I quickly put any negative thoughts out of my mind as I
concentrate on the good Barnard girl, who is obviously very happy to be
around me!
"See you tomorrow," I say, giving Chloe another kiss before waving
goodbye to her as she's driven away.
"Huh, see the 'wicked not-step-sister' is still giving you the evils,"
Lee snorts.
"Fuck her," I shrug. "She wants to stay in the past, let her. Chloe's
the only member of that family I care about, anyway."
"Good man," Lee says, patting me on my shoulder. "We'll be round
tomorrow at about 11am, okay? Give you a chance to sleep in a bit.
Don't want to, you know, break the stereotype and get up early on your
eighteenth birthday, do you?"
"Even though technically, it's also my second?" I retort.
"Good point," Lee says, giving me another shoulder pat as grandma's car
pulls up. "See you tomorrow, birthday boy!"
"Cheers," I reply, before climbing into grandma's car, fastening my
seatbelt and letting out a long sigh as we drive home.
"How was work, Ian?" Grandma asks.
"It was okay," I shrug. "Busy, what with the sale... Probably gonna be
busier tomorrow, heh."
"I hope you thanked your supervisor for allowing you to take tomorrow
off," grandma says.
"Of course," I reply. "Can't believe how excited I am about it, heh!"
"Well it is the most important birthday of them all," grandma says.
"Your last day as a child, from tomorrow you'll be a man, not a boy."
"Two years ago I never thought I'd ever be a boy," I say, making
grandma chuckle happily.
"Well that's very true," grandma says. "And I'm sure some people will
say that you should have become a woman tomorrow, not a man, but their
opinions don't count, do they?"
"Not even slightly," I say with a confident smile as we head home.
I spend the rest of the night relaxing, catching up with some
coursework for my next term at college and playing on my Xbox before
heading to bed just after 10:30pm. Unsurprisingly, I have difficulty
drifting off to sleep, though this isn't solely due to excitement about
tomorrow.
Grandma's words about becoming a man instead of a woman have resonated
with me. If it wasn't for taking a chance two years ago and going to
live with grandma, it would be Kayleigh-Ann celebrating HER eighteenth
birthday tomorrow, rather than me. I involuntarily shudder as I imagine
what 'my' birthday would be like- waking up early, showering thoroughly
and shaving off any and all body hair before pulling on feminine
underwear, dousing myself with perfume and probably followed by a cute
skirt and top- probably similar to the clothes Chloe was wearing today.
I'd head downstairs, eat a disgusting vegan breakfast before opening my
presents- clothes, shoes, make-up, perfume, dancewear, jewellery...
After opening my presents, Abbey-Gayle and her gang would inevitably
show up and I'd be taken to a fancy salon- probably the one Georgie
works at- for an expensive makeover and hair styling, before heading
home and changing into a short, revealing dress and spending the rest
of the night partying, probably at Charlotte Hartley's house, almost
certainly having to fend off boys that my 'friends' would fire at me
from all angles. And then, I'd go home, and spend the rest of my
birthday biting my stuffed giraffe's leg and screaming myself to sleep.
Fortunately, when I wake up, my reality is very different from that
nightmare. After I get out of bed, I shower, but the only part of my
body that I shave is my face. The only scent that apply to my body is
my Lynx deodorant that I spray into my hair-covered armpits. My
underwear consists of a pair of jockey shorts, a pair of thick black
socks and- in my only concession to my old life- a thick vest that
'flattens' my chest. A pair of black jeans and a smart cream-coloured
sweater follow, before I head downstairs to be greeted by the smell of
bacon frying.
"Good morning, birthday boy!" Grandma says with a cheerful grin. "Or
should I say, birthday man?"
"Trust me, either will be fine," I say with a chuckle. "More than fine,
heh!"
"What time will your friends be coming around?" Grandma asks as she
slides a delicious-smelling bacon sandwich under my nose.
"About eleven," I reply. "Dunno if Chloe will be around earlier."
"Are you expecting anyone else today?" Grandma asks.
"Umm, no..." I reply. "Not really, anyway. Not unless mum, well, you
know..."
"Of course," grandma whispers. "Well, eat up, you've got a lot of
presents to unwrap!"
"Now THAT I can do!" I giggle as I wolf down my sandwich.
Once my stomach is full, grandma leads me through to the living room,
where- just like five days ago- my usual sofa is covered by a large
clutch of brightly-coloured gifts, all of which are mine, and many of
which have the number '18' prominently displayed on them. I waste no
time in opening them, revealing similar gifts to five days ago-
clothes, deodorant, videogames and board games, but once I'm done,
grandma surprises me by producing one final present from the side of
her chair.
"This came in the post for you yesterday," grandma explains. "It's from
your mother." I hesitate before even touching the package- the last
time I spoke to my mother, we at least managed to part on civil terms,
but hardly friendly ones. She told me- to my face- that she wasn't sure
whether or not she'd be prepared to accept me as her son, and now here
I am, being expected to accept a present from her? One very, very
important question immediately springs to mind when I see the package,
which obviously contains clothing.
"Who is the present for?" I ask. "Ian, or Kayleigh-Ann?"
"...Do you see anyone in this room called 'Kayleigh-Ann'?" Grandma
retorts. "If the present was for someone by that name, I wouldn't be
giving it to you, because your name isn't Kayleigh-Ann." I smile as I
take the present from my grandmother and unwrap it, revealing a new
designer raincoat- but a black, unisex one.
"That's a very nice coat," grandma says. "You've needed a new one. What
does the card say?"
"...To my child on THEIR eighteenth birthday," I sigh. "Guess she's no
closer to her decision than she was at Christmas..."
"Well- well the presents was addressed to 'Ian'," grandma counters.
"Which she could have justified by telling herself that it's my current
legal name," I say. "Emphasis on the 'current'. She- she hasn't called,
has she?"
"...No," grandma admits. "Also... Also, there's something else you
should know."
"Umm, okay," I say.
"Your parents- well, your father, really, he- he set up a trust fund
for you," grandma explains. "That they would have turned over to you
today."
"'Would have'?" I ask. "Guess there's no point in asking why they
haven't..."
"I'm only saying this as I don't want you to be kept in the dark,"
grandma says. "But it would've been a significant amount. Possibly even
five figures." I exhale slowly as this information slowly sinks in-
that IS a significant amount of money. It'd pay for driving lessons, a
car, maybe even a whole year of uni...
"It could be six figures, and I wouldn't accept it," I say defiantly.
"Not with the conditions he would've put on it."
"If you say so," grandma says. "I'm not suggesting you ask him for it
by any means, but if that money is set aside for you, you might be able
to legally challenge for it."
"...I'll think about it," I say with a sigh. "Notice as well there's no
presents from Stuart or any of the London guys."
"Well- well maybe they're coming in the post," grandma says in a
surprisingly hasty voice. "You might get them today or early next week,
it usually takes the post some time to get back to normal after
Christmas."
"Wonder why they wouldn't have just sent them with my Christmas
presents," I say. "It's only five days, after all. Oh well, I mean,
it's not like I demanded presents from them, heh."
"Well I'm sure they'll want to do something nice for you anyway,"
grandma says, before the doorbell suddenly rings. "This will probably
be the postman now, actually!" I smile as I jump up and open the front
door, receiving a pleasant surprise- the person at the door most
certainly isn't a postal worker, and even if she was, most postal
workers don't greet their customers with long, deep kisses!
"Happy birthday, hunky MAN!" Chloe giggles as she gives me another
kiss.
"Is it the postman, Ian?" Grandma asks.
"Better," I say, returning to the living room hand-in-hand with my
girlfriend.
"Ah, hello Chloe!" Grandma says with a warm smile. "Good of you to come
over so early."
"Thanks," Chloe replies shyly, leading to an awkward silence filling
the room.
"Oh, I just remembered," grandma suddenly announces. "I need to get
more bread for your big birthday lunch. I'm going to go down the shops,
I should be an hour, and no, you don't need to come with me. Will you
two be alright by yourselves?" Somehow, I suppress a giggle as Chloe
and I exchange a knowing glance.
"We'll be fine," I assure my grandmother.
Needless to say, less than thirty seconds after grandma's car pulls
away from the house, Chloe and I are up in my bedroom, hastily
stripping each other before collapsing on my bad in a mass of writhing
limbs...
"Yes, oh yes..." I babble in a barely-coherent voice as I lay back on
my bed, my body covered in sweat after our 'workout'.
"I repeat- happy birthday," my girlfriend says, leaning over me to give
me a long, lazy kiss before pulling back on the clingy skirt and top
she wore to my house. "You seen my tights?"
"Umm, uh," I moan, trying to shake the orgasmic fog out of my head.
"Umm, here." I scoop the discarded legwear off my floor, musing on how
warm and soft it feels even without Chloe's legs inside.
"Hey! Birthday boy!" Chloe says, snapping her fingers in front of my
face and breaking me out of my 'trance'. "You gonna fondle those all
day or can I put them back on?"
"How would that stop me from fondling them?" I ask, giggling as Chloe
blows me a very un-ladylike raspberry! "I was just remembering- ehh,
never mind."
"No, go on," Chloe says.
"I was just- I was just remembering when I was back in my old bedroom,"
I explain. "In London. On Christmas Day. All of my- well, all of
'Kayleigh-Ann's old clothes were still in their drawers."
"...Including a tights drawer, right?" Chloe asks, making me grin
lustfully as she stretches the clingy legwear over her slender legs.
"Yeah," I muse.
"Don't tell me you actually tried a pair on?" Chloe asks. "Because, you
know, if you did, I wouldn't think any the less of you... I mean, it
must've been pretty stressful, being back there..."
"I picked out a pair," I explain, "and all I could think was 'I wish
Chloe's legs were in these'."
"D'aww," Chloe coos, leaning in to give me another kiss. "That's so
sweet. Total bullshit, but still sweet anyway." This time, it's Chloe's
turn to giggle as I blow a raspberry at her.
"Are you allowed to accuse your boyfriend of bullshitting on his
birthday?" I retort.
"Yes," Chloe bluntly replies. "Ugh, think I hear your grandmother's car
pulling up... You'd better get dressed, quick!"
"Okay," I reply, grabbing my underwear, my jeans and my sweatshirt and
pulling them in less time than it takes Chloe to adjust her tights and
pull her hair back into a ponytail- something that makes me smirk and
earns me a playful smack on my arm!
"Show off," Chloe giggles as we head downstairs and park ourselves on
our sofa. "Kinda wish we could, you know, sleep together? As in
actually sleep, not, well, you know..."
"Yeah, I know," I sigh.
"To be able to wake up cuddling each other..." Chloe sighs happily as
she relaxes into my arms.
"That'd be nice," I say. "And it'll happen. Eventually." I try not to
let out another sigh as the front door opens and grandma enters the
house, carrying her groceries. "Though it might be a while..." Chloe
flashes me a quick smile as our 'alone time' ends and I jump off the
sofa to help grandma put away her shopping (despite her protest that I
shouldn't be doing housework on my birthday).
Rob, Neil and Lee (and, of course, their presents- all of which are
'nerdy') arrive a short while later and we spend the whole day immersed
in pure nerdiness. A Star Trek Discovery marathon is followed by a
series of Halo matches and then a Worms W.M.D. free-for-all, which I-
and all of my friends, Chloe included- agree is the perfect way to
spend the day. It's pointed out more than once that this isn't any
different from what we do on any other Saturday, but after my mental
image of 'Kayleigh-Ann's birthday, I'm more than happy with this.
The three guys leave the 'party' just before 5pm, once again leaving me
alone on the sofa with my girlfriend while grandma makes us all a cup
of tea.
"So..." Chloe asks as she once again relaxes into my arms. "Did you
enjoy your quote-unquote party?"
"Yeah," I reply. "Yeah, I did. Sure, it wasn't big and fancy, but all
the important people were there, and that's what matters the most."
"D'aww," Chloe coos. "Even though you're drinking tea and not beer?"
"Plenty of time for that later," I shrug, which for some reason, earns
a smug grin from my girlfriend.
"If it was me, I'd want a HUGE party for my eighteenth," Chloe says.
"Fancy dresses, fancy food, fancy wine, fancy everything."
"GIRL," I tease, giggling as Chloe gives me a gentle elbow in my ribs.
"Hannah's 18th last year was Doctor Who themed," Chloe explains. "Helps
that she actually shares a birthday with the show, November 23rd. She
dressed up as Amy Pond, me and Rosie dressed up as other companions,
her boyfriend at the time dressed up as Matt Smith, even Matt- our
brother, Matt- got into the spirit of things, and he hates science-
fiction."
"...I'm kinda more interested to know if you still have the costume you
wore," I say, giggling as another elbow finds its way into my ribs.
"I was dressed as Clara Oswald," Chloe explains. "Which was just a
tartan skirt and a jumper, so yes, I do still have it, but the only
part that was really a 'costume' was the wig. I'm probably showing more
leg now, actually."
"And for that, I am very grateful," I say, which this time earns me a
kiss instead of an elbow.
"My points, if I can get back to making it," Chloe says, "is that for
my eighteenth, I wouldn't just want, but I'd expect to be treated like
a total princess."
"You'd deserve to be," I say, earning another kiss.
"And I get that it might be different for boys," Chloe says, "but
surely you want to be treated as, well, a prince?"
"I spent most of my life just wanting to be treated as a boy," I reply.
"What I had today is still in the 'better than my wildest dreams'
area."
"Maybe you can afford to start dreaming bigger?" Chloe suggests. "What
you had today is the absolute least you deserve."
"Bit late to do anything about it now," I shrug. "Though it's New
Year's Eve tomorrow, I suppose we could throw a party for that?"
"Well, yeah, we could," Chloe says. "And it'd be nice not to spend it
listening to Matt and Han having a go, but it wouldn't be YOUR party."
"Eh, like I said, bit late to do anything about it now," I shrug,
before frowning in confusion as Chloe sits up from my embrace and
listens as a car pulls up outside. "...Chloe?" Before my girlfriend can
answer me, a knock comes from the front door, and when I answer it, I
actually gasp in shock at the sight that greets me.
"Happy birthday, mate!" Stuart- who I thought was 150 miles away in
London- says, giving me a firm handshake. Behind him is a stretch limo
with a banner on the side that simply reads '18 today', and on the back
seat of the limo are Rob, Neil and Lee, all of whom have wide grins on
their faces.
"What- what are you doing here?" I ask. "What is THIS?"
"What does it look like?" Stuart chuckles. "Didn't you wonder why you
didn't get any presents from anyone in London?"
"I- I thought it was in the post..." I mumble as Chloe suddenly appears
at my side, literally buzzing with energy. "Did- did you know about
this?"
"Maybe!" Chloe excitedly squeaks. "Hold the car, we'll be down once Ian
looks a bit more 'appropriate', hehe!"
"We're not going anywhere!" Stuart laughs as I'm dragged upstairs by my
girlfriend.
"So what- what exactly is going on?" I ask as I'm forced to strip down
to my underwear and handed my most fashionable shirt and trousers.
"What's going on," Chloe says as she also strips to her underwear and
pulls a plastic bag out from underneath my bed, "is that it's your
eighteenth birthday today, and we are going to celebrate it!"
"I thought that was what we were doing?" I ask.
"Well- maybe," Chloe shrugs, withdrawing a slinky black dress and a
pair of high-heeled shoes from the bag and changing into them, before
touching up her make-up and fussing with her long ginger hair. "But
that doesn't mean we can't make even more of a fuss over you, does it?"
"Umm, I guess," I say, slipping my feet into my poshest pair of lace-up
shoes and heading downstairs to where Stuart is waiting with grandma.
"Ah, about time!" My grandmother chuckles. "You two have fun tonight,
and don't come home too early!"
"Bu- what?" I reply.
"And don't worry about church tomorrow," grandma says. "Reverend Stubbs
was eighteen once, I'm sure he- and the other 'he'- will understand.
Now go, and have fun!" I barely have time to nod before Stuart and
Chloe frog march me into the limo, where I'm handed a glass of chilled
champagne.
"Okay," I say with a long sigh. "Can I please get an explanation of
what's happening?"
"Ian Freeman: world champion of missing the bloody obvious!" Lee toasts
with his own glass of champagne.
"We are taking you to your surprise birthday party!" Rob explains with
a grin.
"So this morning and afternoon- what, they didn't count?" I ask.
"Nope!" Neil replies.
"Basically," Stuart finally explains, "when you were in London on
Tuesday, you seemed so down after what happened with your parents that
I thought it was about time you deserved a 'win', a real, proper 'win'.
So, I got in touch with your grandmother and your girlfriend-"
"-Which TOTALLY made me freak out when I realised who was calling,
hehe!" Chloe squeaks.
"...I can confirm that's true," Stuart says with a smirk. "So I got in
touch, made some arrangements, booked a hotel- not an easy thing to do
this close to the New Year- and we're giving you the party you deserve.
Had to pull a few strings, but my little brother doesn't turn eighteen
every day, you know?"
"God, this is- this is too much," I say, my head spinning thanks to the
whole situation. "What did your wife say when you told her that you
were coming to Cardiff?"
"It was her idea!" Stuart laughs. "Partly her idea, anyway. She'd be
here too, but didn't want to leave Olivia overnight."
"...This is STILL too much," I insist.
"No. It. Isn't," Stuart says. "Sit back, relax and enjoy. You'll never
have another eighteenth birthday, so you need to make the most of this
one!"
"And we're gonna make sure you do!" Chloe giggles excitedly.
A short while later, the limo pulls up outside the posh city centre
hotel that Stuart has hired for the evening- though mercifully, it
stops outside the side entrance rather than the front entrance.
"Normally I'd have gone for the whole 'red carpet' thing," Stuart
explains as we get out of the car. "But I get that's kinda not your
thing, so I've gone for 'grey concrete' instead, heh!"
"And I do appreciate it," I say. "I appreciate all of this, actually. I
mean, like, a year ago, you didn't even know who I was, now you've
driven all this way, you're throwing me this party, I- I don't know how
I'm going to repay you for this, heh."
"I earn a lot more money than you, don't worry about it," Stuart says,
making me snort with laughter. "And my birthday's March 2nd, you've got
my wife on Facebook, you'll figure something out!"
"Yeah," I laugh as we walk into the function room of the hotel, where
I'm immediately greeted by several happy faces, many of whom I know
personally, a few of whom I know only through their public profile and
a few I'm seeing for the first time. I don't need to force a smile on
my face as the twenty-odd people all yell 'happy birthday' as they lay
eyes on me, though mere moments later, an unwelcome thought burrows its
way into mind, a thought I can't shake no matter how hard I try- if my
mother were to see this now, she'd be ecstatic.
The crowd contains no fewer than four of the Angels, the modelling
clique I was forced to aspire to while I was growing up. Sure, I knew
one of them- Abbey-Gayle- before she became an Angel, and I know that
the other three who are here (Alice, Hannah and Kelly) are all very
friendly, but the fact remains that they are very much celebrities.
Their presence here would normally attract the attention of the
national press (something Stuart has mercifully taken steps to
prevent), and two years ago, I'd be coerced into 'networking' and
trying to land myself representation with their agency. I know deep
down inside myself that I'm under no such obligation tonight, that the
only reason I'm here is to kick back and have fun, but no matter how
hard I try, there's a little voice at the back of mind urging me to
take advantage of this unique opportunity. Even worse, I know the voice
will angrily chastise me if I don't...
"Oh my god oh my god oh my god!" Chloe- who's almost crushing my hand,
she's so excited- squeaks as she sees the assembled faces approach and
exchange handshakes and hugs with me.
"Happy birthday, Mr. Adult!" Nikki- one of the women with whom I did a
photoshoot for a Sunday newspaper earlier in the year- says as she
gives me a tight hug. "Got a few apologies, I'm afraid- Jamie and the
other Angels with kids obviously couldn't make it, but send their love,
Out of Heaven have been called to a last-minute TV recording today so
wouldn't have got here in time, and Jessica and Paige are on flights
but would've come if they were available."
"Honestly, I'm grateful anyone came at all," I say, desperately trying
to calm myself down. "All this way, in the cold..."
"Bringing presents with us too!" Nikki giggles, gesturing to the pile
of presents on a nearby table, which I'm led to and immediately start
unwrapping, revealing very fancy gifts, but all 'appropriate' ones-
male fashion, aftershave kits, videogames, even a little booze- similar
to what I got earlier in the day, but no less welcome.
"Honestly, thank you all so much," I say with a happy grin after
unwrapping the last present.
"Speech!" Lee says, making me grown and everyone else laugh and cheer
at my expense.
"Because you know I love public speaking," I say to the sarcastic young
man, who grins evilly. "Okay... Thank you all for coming, especially
those of you who have come a long way as I know there are people here
who've come from London who I've hardly even met before. But it really
does mean a lot to me that I can spend today with the people who matter
the most to me. Those of you who know me know that I'm being serious
when I say that I consider a lot of you to be more like family than my
'real' family, so thank you, thank you all for coming. Umm... Cheers!"
"Cheers!" the crowd toasts, mercifully satisfied by my speech.
"Longer speech!" Lee shouts, earning giggles from the crowd.
"How about a short one," I reply. "Piss off, Lee!" This 'speech' earns
even louder laughter from the crowd, especially as Lee responds with a
mock bow.
"Everyone not called Lee: have fun!" Stuart announces, prompting the
music to start and everyone to have fun mingling, dancing and chatting.
"As for you, young man, as your pseudo 'big brother', allow me to be
the first to get you a beer! Got a particular brand you want?"
"I don't mind," I shrug. "What are you having?"
"I'm usually a Fosters man," Stuart replies.
"Sounds goo-" I say, before hesitating as a number of things suddenly
connect in my brain. Fosters is a beer from Australia, and a quick
glance around the room reveals that it isn't the only thing- or person-
from Australia here tonight. "Umm... Actually, I'll- I'll have a
Carlsberg, please."
"Carlsberg it is," Stuart shrugs. "Why, you got something against Auss-
oh."
"Yep," I say.
"Ehh, sorry mate," Stuart shrugs as we head to the bar for our beer.
"Abbey-Gayle must've invited her, it's a bit late to send her home..."
"It's okay," I say. "Plenty of people here, I- I can just try to ignore
her for the night."
"That's the spirit!" Stuart laughs. "So then, tell me about this robot
you're building!"
"What, Chwilen?" I ask, smirking as I await the inevitable interruption
from one of my friends- and I don't have to wait long.
"Are you talking about my beloved behind my back?" Lee asks, earning
smirks from myself and Stuart.
"I believe you've met Lee, captain of Team Chwilen," I say, quietly
backing away as Stuart listens intently to Lee's tales of building the
robot. Before I get the chance to mingle with anyone else, though, my
arm is grabbed by a familiar dark-skinned hand and I'm dragged into a
group that's already deep in conversation.
"Three cheers for the birthday boy!" Abbey-Gayle giggles as she gives
me a playful hug. "Hip hip-"
"Hooray!" The crowd- which consists of Abbey-Gayle, Brooke, George,
Maisie and their boyfriends- but thankfully, NOT Ella- all cheer. After
two more 'hip hip's and 'hooray's, the girls in the group all give me
gentle hugs, while I get firm handshakes from all of the guys.
"Happy birthday, mate!" Reuben- Abbey-Gayle's boyfriend- says with a
grin.
"Thanks," I reply. "I'm still astonished that you came all this way,
just for me..."
"Meh, you came to London for my party, didn't you?" Abbey-Gayle asks in
her thick Caribbean accent.
"Well- yeah," I say. "But I kinda, like, was in London for other
reasons too..."
"Ehh, yeah, I get that," Abbey-Gayle grimaces.
"Mate, there's no reason to get all hung up on her," Andrew- Brooke's
boyfriend- says.
"Yeah," Maisie concurs with a sly grin. "I mean, you've got a new
girlfriend now, ain't you?"
"Well, yeah," I reply. "Bu-" before I can finish my sentence, I'm
surprised by a pair of slender arms encircling my waist from behind-
arms I immediately identify as belonging to the girl I saw a LOT more
of earlier today.
"Thought you'd get away from me, did you?" Chloe asks, the trembling in
her voice (and her hand, which grips onto mine) betraying the fact that
she is obviously nervous being in the presence of this many
celebrities.
"It wasn't by choice," I reply, making Chloe giggle as I wrap my arm
around her waist. "Chloe, this is Abbey-Gayle, Brooke, Georgie, Maisie,
Reuben, Andrew, Marley and Jonas, everyone, this is Chloe. And yes, I
got REALLY lucky when she agreed to go out with me."
"D'aww!" Abbey-Gayle and Chloe coo simultaneously, making both girls
giggle excitedly.
"Hope you're taking good care of him!" Abbey-Gayle giggles.
"Oh my god, totally!" Chloe immediately replies in a breathless-
sounding voice.
"...I think Chloe might want a selfie," I say, earning a playful elbow
from my girlfriend as her nerves start to intensify.
"I- umm, only- only if it's no trouble-" Chloe stammers, before Abbey-
Gayle giggles and pulls out her smartphone and takes the selfie.
"Not bad," the dark-skinned girl shrugs. "Reckon we can do better,
though. Group selfie!" The ten of us all pose for Abbey-Gayle's camera
as she takes the second picture, and while I'd normally feel stressed
by the idea of appearing on an Angel's Instagram page, today, I feel
oddly relaxed about it- especially when Chloe wraps my arm around her
waist again.
"Oh my god, this is SO amazing!" Chloe squeaks, bouncing up and down on
her heels. "I can't believe I'm actually at a party with Angels!"
"And your boyfriend," I remind the ginger-haired girl, who giggles and
starts to blush with embarrassment.
"So, did you two meet at college?" Maisie asks.
"Actually, no," I reply. "We do go to the same college, but only found
that out AFTER we started going out, heh!"
"It's a long story," Chloe says. "Ian here actually asked my sister out
before he asked me." Chloe and I simultaneously roll our eyes at the
mention of Hannah- an action that causes both of us to share a sly
giggle.
"Fortunately, she turned me down," I say. "Unfortunately, it was
because of 'you know what'..." I grimace as my assembled friends all
frown- well, all apart from one of them, who predictably looks at me
with a confused look on her tanned face.
"What's 'you know what'?" Georgie asks.
"Well, it's because I'm- umm," I mumble.
"...Because Ian used to be 'Kayleigh-Ann'," Maisie says, making me
grimace at the use of my dead name- a grimace that only intensifies as
Georgie bursts into a fit of giggles.
"OMG!" The petite, blonde-haired girl squeaks. "Like, I'd totally
forgotten about that!"
"What, seriously?" I ask, before mentally chastising myself- if anyone
is going to be ignorant of the past (or reality in general), Georgie is
top of the list.
"I've forgotten a few times too," Abbey-Gayle shrugs, surprising me.
"What, really?" I ask. "You've known me longer than anyone..."
"Ian, we went to school together!" Maisie reminds me. "Sure, we don't
see each other much anymore, but I knew Kayleigh-Ann for five years and
even I struggle to think of you as the same person."
"Maybe because I'm not," I shrug. "I've come to realise that I was
NEVER a girl. Not really. Umm... No offence."
"None taken!" Abbey-Gayle giggles. "And no offence, but 'Ian' is a LOT
more fun than 'Kayleigh-Ann' ever was, hehe!"
"None taken!" I say with a chuckle.
"So, Chloe," Brooke says. "What d'you do at college? I know Ian's doing
graphic design, right?"
"Fashion design," my girlfriend replies.
"Oh- no way!" Abbey-Gayle says with a grin. "There's someone here I've
GOT to introduce you to! Sarah!" I smile as three familiar figures
approach our 'huddle'- Nikki, the girl who 'greeted' me, Sarah, her
wife, and sporting the widest grin of all, my friend Jacinta- who
immediately wraps me in a tight hug and lifts me off my feet once she's
within arm's reach!
"Happy birthday little brother!" Jacinta giggles, before mercifully
putting me down. "Eee- sorry if I spilled any of your beer, hehe!
Though I hope you haven't got TOO pissed yet, hehe!"
"Not YET," I reply, earning giggles from the girls and hearty chuckles
from the guys.
"And you, young lady," Nikki says to Chloe, whose eyes suddenly widen
in a mixture of shock and terror. "As you're only sixteen, I hope
you're sticking to soft drinks! I'm still on a community order, I don't
need to have to explain to your parents why you've come home on your
hands and knees!"
"It wouldn't be the first time I got drunk," Chloe retorts nervously.
"But I am sticking to soft drinks tonight."
"In fairness, Chloe's parents are actually pretty cool," I say. "Her
older brother and sister, on the other hand..."
"Reminds me a bit of my stepmother," Sarah laughs. "Went to see her
after my nineteenth, and me and Nikki got totally fucked. Like,
'collapsing on the ground in a heap' brand fucked. She was NOT happy
about that!"
"I remember the Instagram pictures," Jacinta giggles. "Well, before you
deleted them, anyway!"
"Didn't need THAT when applying for internships," Sarah snorts.
"Anyway, you bellowed, Abbey-Gayle?"
"I did," the Jamaican girl replies. "Sarah, this is Chloe, Ian's
girlfriend. She's studying fashion design at college!"
"Ooh, really?" Sarah asks, her interested suddenly piqued. "Do you have
any favourite designers?"
"Donna Karan, Michael Kors," Chloe replies. "I'm really more into
costume design, though, like for TV..."
"Really?" Sarah asks, suddenly even more interested in Chloe's college
work. "Ever designed any costumes for, say, any parties? I'd love to
pick your brain..."
"Ooh sounds like we're gonna have a girly chat about clothes!" Brooke
squeaks excitedly.
"Hint taken," Reuben says with a mock sigh as he and the rest of his
'gang' head toward the bar.
"You too!" Georgie says, pointing a long, manicured fingernail at me.
"Like, girls only!"
"Fair enough," I say, chuckling and holding up my hands in mock
surrender as I follow the boys to the bar. Even Georgie, of all people,
has no problem accepting me as just another boy. Why can't it be that
easy for my parents?
Fortunately, I'm only allowed to wallow in self-pity for a few seconds
before I feel another hand grab my arm- the hand of Reuben's older
brother, who I last saw mere days ago when I met Stuart before his
football match.
"Alright mate?" Keith asks. "Enjoying the party so far?"
"Yeah, loving it," I reply. "Still a bit overwhelmed by the effort
everyone's gone to, heh."
"Like I said before the game a few days ago, we consider you family,"
Keith shrugs, "we consider you to be family. You're a hell of a lot
less annoying than my 'real' little brother, that's for damned sure!"
"Heard that!" Reuben yells, making his older brother chuckle.
"You were meant to!" Keith retorts. "Anyways, Ian, me, Stu and a few of
the guys are going to set up in a bit, but there's someone we reckon
you ought to meet. I think you've probably met before but not had the
chance to have a real chat, he's... Ah! There we are. Come on." I have
an unsure look on my face as I follow Keith to a corner of the room,
where a woman with gentle oriental features it talking to a ginger
haired man who is obviously her boyfriend. I recognise the woman
immediately, obviously- she's Kelly Watson, one of the 'new' Angels
added to the group last year- and while I don't immediately recognise
the man, he does look familiar somehow...
"Hey guys!" Keith says.
"Oh, hey Keith," Kelly replies, before flashing a wide grin at me. "And
hello birthday boy!"
"Hi," I reply nervously. "Thanks- umm, thanks for coming tonight, I
know it's a long way to come..."
"It's not THAT far," Kelly says with a wink as she greets me with a
hug.
"She's dropping a hint that we only got back from visiting my parents
on Thursday," the ginger-haired man says, extending a hand for me to
shake. "I'm Kurt, Kurt Vance. And before you ask, Canada, not America."
"Ian Freeman, Wales, not England," I reply. "Well... Kinda half of both
but prefer Wales, heh." I grimace as I suddenly realise that the phrase
'half of both' could refer to something other than my nationality.
"Umm, 'half of both' isn't QUITE how I wanted to put it..."
"It's okay," Kurt says with a smile. "I of all people should know,
heh."
"You of-?" I reply, before a closer examination of Kurt's face reveals
that his bone structure is a lot more 'delicate' than most men's-
almost like mine... "Wait- wait, you- you?"
"Yep," Kurt says. "Me, me. There are more of 'us' than you might think,
heh."
"How long?" I ask.
"Just over three years," Kurt replies. "Started in the summer break
after my second year of university. Though high school was...
Confusing. I have two older sisters, both of whom are REALLY girly, it
was kinda assumed that I'd follow in their footsteps, so I was a singer
in the school choir, I was on the cheerleading team..."
"Yeah, I know that feeling," I sigh. "Did- did your parents-"
"Wouldn't have just got back from visiting them if they'd disowned me,"
Kurt shrugs, before an elbow from his girlfriend causes him to grimace.
"Ahh... Sorry, sorry. Didn't mean to, you know, rub it in..."
"It's okay," I shrug. "Have- have you had any, you know, operations? If
it's a, you know, sensitive topic then don't-"
"Just my mastectomy," Kurt replies, lifting the bottom of his loose,
designer shirt to show me the angry-looking pink scars on his chest.
"That was NOT a pleasant experience."
"But worth it?" I ask, biting my lip as the Canadian man pauses for
thought.
"...Long term, it probably will be," Kurt muses. "Though I will
confess- and I don't care how many 'guy points' I lose here- I HATE
needles, knives, that whole thing."
"Given that I had my SRS at the same time you had your mastectomy,"
Kelly says, crossing her legs in a dramatic fashion, "you ARE losing at
least one 'guy point' for that!"
"And to be fair, eight months on, it really doesn't hurt anymore," Kurt
replies. "Really can't wait to hit the beach at summer, FINALLY going
topless, heh."
"So- so you had it done in April?" I ask.
"Yep," Kurt replies.
"Both of us," Kelly concurs. "That's why we weren't available for that
photoshoot that you, Stuart and the girls did."
"In fact, you kinda stepped in for me," Kurt says. "So, yes, you're
welcome, heh." I try not to let out a sigh as I'm reminded of my brush
with fame from earlier in the year.
"YOU'RE welcome," I retort. "Me and fame... We don't really mix."
"Eh, it's not for everyone," Kelly shrugs. "I did wonder why Stuart
ordered the camera crew to stay home, figured it was so they'd be
available for tomorrow night's party. New Year's Eve's probably the
second biggest of the year after Halloween."
"Remind me to thank Stu for that," I chuckle. "Though I guess it wasn't
too bad, well, when I wasn't trying to fight off a horny fifteen year
old girl, anyway."
"Did you get the tattoo?" Kurt asks. "Another reason I'm glad I missed
out on it, heh."
"Couldn't," I reply. "Wasn't eighteen at the time."
"But you are now," Kelly reminds me- and I have no response to this.
Mercifully, before I can think of an excuse, the lights in the room
suddenly lower and our attention is drawn to the stage, where Stuart,
Keith and four of the other guys have set up a bunch of musical
instruments.
"Hello Cardiff!" The band's singer- a tall, athletic man with blonde
hair and a scratchy beard- says into his microphone. "We're here to
celebrate the eighteenth birthday of a young man who's had a few tough
breaks over the years, but from now on, mate, things are gonna get
better for you. You've got a big, BIG family here who are gonna
guarantee it for you!" I try not to blush as the room cheers in
agreement. "And we're gonna celebrate tonight in the best way possible-
with music!" The room cheers, which only intensifies when Keith plays
the opening bars of 'Dakota' by the Stereophonics on his keyboard.
A series of songs by the Stereophonics, the Manic Street Preachers and
even some by Tom Jones follow, during which Chloe finds her way back to
me and we spend a lot of the time dancing together on the makeshift
dancefloor that's been created in the room. Everyone cuts back and has
fun, myself included, and I forget all about my stresses until the
opening bars of the eighth song start to play- and it's a song I
instantly recognise.
"What's up?" Chloe asks as I suddenly stop dancing.
"I, umm, just need to sit down," I say, scanning the crowd for the one
person I'd hoped to avoid tonight and pointedly walking in the opposite
direction.
"You're not the one dancing in heels!" Chloe protests. "Come onnnn..."
"I don't know if I'm tired and I don't know if I'm ill," the lead
singer sings, instantly making me grimace.
"My cheeks are turning yellow
I think I'll take another pill
Praying for the wave to come now
It must be for the fifteenth time
I've been here for much too long
This is the past that's mine
I want to fly and run till it hurts
Sleep for a while and speak no words in Australia
I want to fly and run till it hurts
Sleep for a while and speak no words in Australia
In Australia..."
"...Oh," Chloe says, biting her lip as she leads me away to one of the
table surrounding the room as I gaze up at Stuart, whose eyes have gone
wider than dinner plates. While still playing his guitar, he dashes
around the stage, obviously issuing instructions to the rest of the
band, and mercifully, the song comes to an end a few bars later.
"We're gonna take a quick break now," Paul- the singer- announces as
the band step away from their instruments. "Be back in twenty!" I take
a deep breath as Chloe and I sit down at our table, where we're joined
after a few seconds by my 'big brother'.
"Mate," Stuart says with a heavy sigh. "I am so sorry about that, I
chose the set list, it's always been one of my favourite Manics songs-"
"Don't worry about it," I shrug as I take a swig of my beer. "No harm
done in the long run." I let out a long sigh as my reassurance is
instantly proven wrong when a familiar tall, blonde and, most
importantly of all, Australian figure approaches our table.
"Ah," Stuart says as Ella nervously hangs about next to our table.
"I'll- I'll, umm, give you some privacy..."
"Well I WON'T," Chloe says, defiantly gripping my hand and placing it
on the table, making sure Ella has a clear view of it. The look in my
girlfriend's eyes is one of pure fury, and actually makes ME wither as
I see her try to drill a hole in Ella's forehead with her eyes.
"O-kay..." Ella mumbles as she sits down opposite the two of us, and
unsurprisingly, an awkward silence falls over the table.
"...I'm kinda surprised you came," I say, breaking the silence.
"So am I," Ella replies. "After the way you chucked me away."
"What?" I retort.
"After the football match?" Ella asks. "In August? You just rack off
back to Cardiff without even saying goodbye!"
"Did- did you not see the fight I'd had with my mum?" I ask. "I was
stressed, I was emotional, I- I just wanted to get as far away from
London as possible."
"And as far away from me as possible," Ella snorts.
"We weren't even exclusive anyway," I retort. "And you didn't waste any
time hooking up with someone else."
"Look who's talking!" Ella says, gesturing toward my girlfriend, whose
facial expression sours even further.
"Hey!" Chloe and I say simultaneously.
"If you must know," Ella sighs, "I came because Abbey-Gayle asked me
to. She wanted to do something nice for you, like Stuart and the guys
did. Even though you walked out on THEM as well."
"I talked to them on Facebook," I retort. "I bought Stuart and some of
the guys Christmas presents. But I've got a life here in Cardiff. And
honestly, I was getting a little fed up of dropping everything and
jumping on a train any time you wanted a booty call!"
"Ah, another thing I don't miss," Ella snorts- and this is enough to
push my girlfriend over the edge.
"Then maybe, if you don't 'miss' it," Chloe growls, "you should stop
obsessing over it and fuck off back to London! Better yet, fuck off
back to Australia and leave us in peace!"
"I think I'll do that," Ella sighs, standing up from the table. "Pity,
you'll never know what you could've had." Oh, you bitch, I think to
myself as I'm suddenly reminded of how my first 'relationship' ended.
Ollie told me to my face that without him, I'd never have any chance of
'becoming Ian'. I proved him wrong, dead wrong, and I'm going to prove
Ella wrong as well. I give my girlfriend's hand- which I haven't let go
the whole time I was talking to Ella- a gentle squeeze, before a wide
grin spreads across my face.
"Anything other than what I have now would be a step down from what I
have now," I say, smiling as Chloe's grip suddenly increases too. My
smile stays on my face as Ella simply snorts derisively and leaves,
though it quickly vanishes once she's gone, despite my girlfriend
leaning against me with a wide grin on her face.
What I just said to Ella was a barefaced lie- while I may be happier at
college than I ever was at school, happier with lee and the guys than I
ever was as part of Abbey-Gayle's gang and MUCH happier with Chloe than
I ever was with Ella, my life is still far from perfect- it's almost
11pm on my eighteenth birthday and I haven't exchanged two words with
my parents all day, half of the people at my party are people I barely
know and the other half have done something for me that I'll never be
able to make up for- at least, not without giving in to the lifestyle
I've tried so desperately to avoid.
"I get why you're so hung up on her," Chloe sighs as I wrap an arm
around her tiny waist.
"She was my first 'real' girlfriend," I sigh. "But-"
"I mean, she IS a six foot tall supermodel-" Chloe says, before
grimacing as she realises she interrupted me. "...Sorry."
"It's okay," I shrug. "First 'real real' girlfriend beats first 'real'
girlfriend any day of the week!"
"D'aww!" Chloe coos, giggling as I give her a kiss on her cheek. "As
long as you had fun tonight, that's the important thing."
"I have," I say, grinning as the band starts up again, this time
playing The Bartender and the Thief by the Stereophonics. And apart
from the confrontation with Ella, I genuinely have. I've become
reacquainted with old friends, made new ones and watched as my Cardiff
friends got on brilliantly my London friends (it was especially funny
watching Lee answering questions about Chwilen all night long!).
The party eventually dissipates at around 1am, with the London-based
contingent heading to pre-booked rooms in the hotel or Airbnb's while
me, Chloe and the guys get into taxis to take us back home.
"Can you turn eighteen every Saturday, please?" Neil asks, making me
giggle as he climbs into the back of his taxi. "Or better yet, get them
to come back to Cardiff for my eighteenth?"
"Or bring us all down to London?" Lee- who's probably drank as much as
me- pleads.
"I'll see what I can do," I say as I exchange handshakes with my three
friends.
"Had SERIOUS fun tonight," Rob says. "Even though 'seventeen and
sober'."
"You should try getting a bit older," Lee says. "Just takes a bit of
time and patience."
"...See you Monday?" Rob asks. "Assuming you don't mind being brought
back down to 'normal'?"
"I'll live," I say with a grin as the taxi drives away and Stuart- who
obviously looks knackered from having organised the party and spent
most of the night playing his guitar- jogs up and walks with me and
Chloe to our taxi.
"Again," I say before the older man has a chance to speak, "thank you
so, so much for tonight. Seriously. I'll probably still be thanking you
on my nineteenth birthday, heh!"
"Don't mention it, honestly," Stuart says with a friendly pat on my
back. "If it helps, think of it as an excuse for me and the guys to
play a gig, heh."
"You're really, really good," Chloe says.
"Ah, thank you!" Stuart chuckles. "Keep trying to persuade Joshua to
let us have a few hours in his recording studio, but it's always fully
booked, either with Out of Heaven or him renting it out."
"What- what time you heading back tomorrow?" I ask.
"Whenever Mikey stops being hung over, and can take us back in his
van," Stuart shrugs. "He didn't drink much and he's 6' 3" and about
fifteen stone so we'll probably be gone by about midday. Don't like
going more than 24 hours without a cuddle from my daughter, heh."
"Aww," Chloe coos happily.
"Well if I don't see you before, thanks again," I say, before leaning
in for an awkward, minimal contact man hug with Stuart. "I WILL find
some way of making up for tonight, I swear."
"Don't worry about it," Stuart says with a grin as we climb into our
taxi. "You just have fun. And take care, okay?"
"Will do!" I chuckle as the taxi pulls away and my girlfriend leans
against my body with a happy sigh.
"That was AWESOME," Chloe says in a dreamy voice. "Even better than my
prom, hehe!"
"It was a hell of a lot better than mine, that's for sure!" I giggle as
the taxi takes me home.
I'm woken up the following morning by a sharp, stabbing pain in my
forehead. It's not my first hangover- thanks to some parties my mother
'encouraged' me to attend when I was still living in London- but this
one feels oddly special, as it's 'Ian's first, my first as an adult- my
first as a MAN. I have a smile on my face as I shower away the
headache, before dressing in a comfortable sweater and pair of jeans
and heading downstairs, where grandma is already awake and making
breakfast- which is a definite surprise, as at by this time on a Sunday
morning, we're both usually at church.
"Good morning, MISTER Freeman!" Grandma says with a happy chuckle. "I
take it you had fun last night?"
"Umm, yeah," I say, still trying to shake the last of the fog from my
mind. "Hope I didn't wake you last night when I got in..."
"Don't worry, I was sound asleep," grandma says. "I take it you have a
hangover?"
"...Maybe a little one," I half-lie.
"This will help with that," grandma says, pushing a delicious-smelling
bacon sandwich and a mug of hot, black coffee under my nose, both of
which I eagerly devour. "Do you have any plans for today?"
"Not really," I say. "Might see if Chloe or the guys are free. We've
not got anything planned for tonight, no New Year's party or anything."
"Pity, now that you're eighteen and can 'properly' enjoy it!" Grandma
teases. "What about your friends who organised the party/ Did they go
home last night?"
"Think they stayed over at the hotel," I reply. "Heading back later
this morning, I think."
"You should see them before they go," grandma says in a firm voice.
"And thank them again for organising the party for you."
"I'm going to be thanking them for the next ten years," I laugh. "And
each thanks will be as genuine as the first, heh."
"I'll give my daughter credit for one thing," grandma says. "At least
she didn't raise you to be spoiled. And no, before you ask, she didn't
call last night."
"She'd probably be over the moon if she found out who was at the
party," I say. "May sound selfish, but I really hope she never finds
out about it."
"Well, that's understandable," grandma says. "Just as long as you don't
go out of your way to avoid your London friends just to spite your
mother."
"Unfortunately, I can't hang out with them without getting her hopes
up," I sigh. "And I DO like them. I actually made friends with another
transgendered man last night, a Canadian guy called Kurt, who's said
he'll keep in touch and give, you know, advice."
"Wonderful!" Grandma says with a grin.
"And he's another person I'll probably end up owing to for the rest of
my life," I say with a tired snort of laughter. "I really wish there
was something, ANYTHING I could do to, well, demonstrate how grateful I
am."
"Huh," grandma muses. "I would've thought that was obvious myself, but
maybe that's just me."
"...What do you mean?" I ask.
"You've always had people expecting things from you your whole life,"
grandma explains. "It's no wonder you feel a need to repay debts, even
imaginary ones. Your mother expected you to be this superstar
celebrity, your other grandmother expected unquestioning obedience from
you, even that awful Ollie boy had his 'expectations'."
"Don't remind me," I say with a shudder. "Just wish I knew what Stuart
and the guys expect of me, what they want."
"Well that IS obvious," grandma says. "What they from you, Ian... is
you."
"...I'm sorry?" I ask.
"That nice Jamie-Lee woman is always saying 'you can never have too
many friends'," grandma clarifies. "Either she's a massive hypocrite,
or she genuinely wants to have Ian Freeman as her friend. Not Ian
Freeman the budding celebrity, or Ian Freeman the student, or Ian
Freeman the transgendered boy- or even Ian the boy. Just Ian."
"So all I need to do to make it up to them," I say, "is be myself?"
"It's as easy as that," grandma says. "Do you have the address of the
hotel where your friends are staying?"
"Umm, yeah," I say.
"Then eat up," grandma orders with a knowing smirk on her face.
Half an hour later, we pull into the cold, quiet car park outside the
hotel where I partied last night, and much to my relief, Stuart's
friend's van- easily identifiable by the 'Celestials' logo on its side-
is still in the same spot it was in last night. I head into the hotel's
fancy restaurant and am immediately greeted by a loud cheer from two
tables. One of the table is playing host to six of the women from last
night's party, but I'm more interested in the one that has six of the
men from the party sat around it- including my 'big brother'.
"Hey mate!" Stuart says, finishing off the full English breakfast that
he'd been eating. "Glad you could make it down before we got on the
road. Hope you weren't too smashed this morning, heh."
"Maybe a little 'cracked'," I reply. "I just wanted-"
"Yes, yes, yes," Stuart laughs. "And you're welcome, honestly. We all
had a lot of fun last night." I grin as the other five men at the
table- and the six women at the adjoining table- all murmur in
agreement.
"Pity I only have one birthday a year," I shrug, making the men laugh.
"Well, any time you want to come to London," Jonathan- the drummer from
last night and who I know to be a big name at Heavenly Talent- says.
"Seriously," Stuart says. "It'd be great to have you at the parties
again. And if you need a place to stay over-"
"Dibs on first Ian sleepover!" Jacinta yells from the adjacent table,
earning giggles from everyone present- myself included. Grandma's words
suddenly resonate with me as I face the acceptance from the women
present. They don't care that I'm not famous, that I like watching Star
Trek, or I'm a gamer- and they certainly don't care that I'm
transgendered. They only care that I'm their friend. A grin creeps
across my face as I remember what I asked grandma on the ride over
here.
"Well..." I say, barely keeping my happiness in check.
A short while later, Mikey's van pulls up outside Chloe's parents'
house and I jump out, trembling nervously as I knock on the front door.
Chloe's parents are okay with me going out with their daughter, but
this might be a step too far- and if either of Chloe's eldest siblings
are home, there's every chance I could have a REAL fight on my hands.
But this is something I know I need to do- Chloe'd never forgive me if
I don't...
"What do you want?" The sneering voice of Rosie- Chloe's 13 year old
sister- asks as she opens the door and sees me standing there.
"Is your sister in?" I ask.
"Chlo!" Rosie yells into the house, pausing briefly to glower at me
before being replaced at the door by my grinning girlfriend, who greets
me as always with a long, deep kiss.
"Hey bae!" Chloe giggles. "Sorry about the brat."
"Meh, I've faced worse," I shrug.
"My other sister, for one," Chloe snorts. "Matt and Han are both out
and Rosie knows when she's not wanted, so we can hang out here, if you
want?"
"That'd be good," I reply. "But..." I grin as I gesture behind me to
Mikey's van, and behind that to a car containing Nikki, Sarah, Jacinta,
Hannah Dexter and an empty seat.
"Wh- oh my god!" Chloe squeaks. "Are- are you going to- to London!?"
"You can never have too many friends?" I ask with a smug grin. "Invited
myself to the Angels' New Year party. And that includes you as well.
If, of course, you-"
"Mum!" Chloe yells excitedly, bouncing up and down on her toes.
"What is it?" Mrs. Barnard asks her trembling daughter. "Oh, hi Ian, do
you want to come in?"
"Actually, I was wondering if Chloe wanted to come out," I say
nervously.
"Where are you thinking of going?" Chloe's mum asks.
"London!" Chloe squeaks. "Ian's got us invited to the-"
"Whoa, wait a minute," Chloe's mother says. "London? By yourself?"
"I wouldn't be by myself," Chloe retorts. "I'd be going with Ian. And
all the Angels would be there, and-"
"Hang on, calm down," Mrs. Barnard says sternly. "Going to a party here
in Cardiff is one thing, but I'm not comfortable with you going all the
way to London!"
"But mum..." Chloe pleads, visibly deflating.
"Chloe, you're sixteen, you're still legally a child, you need to
remember that," Mrs. Barnard says, causing me to have an unpleasant
flashback to what my 'bad' grandmother said to me at Christmas. "You've
only just met these people. Okay, Ian's shown that he's trustworthy,
but it's still too far. Maybe next year."
"I'll still be a child when I'm seventeen," Chloe pouts.
"I've made my decision," Mrs. Barnard says firmly, making me squirm.
"I'm sorry."
"But I can definitely go next year?" Chloe asks.
"...Okay, fine," Mrs. Barnard says. "And if you save up and get any
free time, you and Ian can go to London together during the day in the
New Year if you want. But during the DAY. No overnighters. Okay?"
"Okay," Chloe mumbles, before sighing as her mother goes back indoors.
"I'm sorry, Ian..."
"It's okay," I sigh. "I'll let Stu and the guys know that I won't be
going."
"W- wait, what?" Chloe asks.
"I wouldn't want to go if I can't go without you," I say softly.
"Aww!" Chloe coos. "I don't want to be the reason you miss out on what
will be THE best party of the year! 2017 AND 2018, hehe!"
"I'd still rather stay here with you," I say, even though deep down,
I'm already feeling a pang of guilt at letting Stuart down...
"And make me feel guilty?" Chloe asks. "Go. To. The. Party. I'll still
be here when you get back. Hopefully with a load of Angel and Out of
Heaven selfies!"
"...If you're sure," I say, grinning as Chloe nods and gives me a kiss.
"I'm missing you already..."
"D'aww!" Chloe coos. "I'll see you tomorrow, okay?"
"Sure," I say, sharing another kiss with my girlfriend. "Actually...
Didn't you say that your sister's an Angels fan?"
"Yeah, why?" Chloe asks, before glancing at the blonde-haired figure of
Hannah Dexter and grinning. "Oh Rosie..."
Despite my disappointment, I still have a smile on my face as I head
back to Mikey's van.
"She didn't go for it, then?" Stu asks as I climb onto the seat next to
him. "Guess it was a long shot. Maybe next time."
"Oh- her parents have basically guaranteed next time," I say. "So I'm
not too disappointed. And before you say anything, me coming along
anyway was her idea, she pretty much threatened me if I didn't heh."
"Speaking of threats, had another text from Krys asking when we were
getting home," Mikey says, gesturing to his phone. "Why were you
speaking to the girls just now?"
"Watch," I say, pointing to Chloe's front door- or rather, to the tall,
elegant form of Hannah Dexter, who is walking up the path to the door.
I don't even bother to suppress a giggle as Hannah knocks on the door
and Chloe's sister answers- and my giggle becomes a full-blown roar of
laughter as all the colour drains from Rosie's cheeks and her eyes go
as wide as dinner plates. The two women (who are quickly joined by
Chloe) spend a few seconds chatting and taking a selfie, before Hannah
returns to her car, stopping along the way to give me a high-five-
something I make sure Rosie sees.
"Okay, we can go now," I say with a chuckle, waving at my girlfriend as
we head off.
"Bit cruel, wasn't that?" Stuart asks. "Teasing her like that?"
"Meh, she's been nothing but snotty to me ever since I met her," I
snort. "That was Chloe's younger sister, and I told you about her older
sister, right?"
"Ugh, yeah," Stuart spits. "So she's a transphobe too? That's a damn
shame, seeing as how young she is..."
"Doubt she'll be one for long," Mikey says with a grin. "Or would've
been at all if it had been your wife on the doorstep instead of Han."
"Dunno if I like the idea of that," Stuart says. "Having to 'buy'
someone's acceptance like that."
"She won't give me any shit anymore," I say. "And take it from someone
who's dealt with a lot of shit, I wish it was that easy with everyone."
"Changing perceptions one person at a time," Mikey chuckles. "You know,
it's a pity we still have that spare seat in Sarah's car."
"True," Stuart says, before turning to me. "Don't know anyone who'd
want to fill it, do you?"
"Anyone who wouldn't mind spending three hours in a car with four
gorgeous women?" I ask, a smile creeping across my face. "Let me get my
phone out..."
An hour later, the three of us in our van are heading east along the M4
toward London when Mikey suddenly accelerates to overtake the sky blue
Citroen C3 in front of us. Stuart and I both laugh as we wave at the
five inhabitants of the car- specifically, the six foot tall figure of
Lee Charlton squished up against the rear door window. Seeing as it's
the tall, slender body of Jacinta Hanley doing the 'squishing', though,
Lee definitely doesn't seem to mind too much!
'Don't get TOO excited in there,' I text my friend, who rolls his eyes
at me as he reads the message.
'Too late,' Lee replies. 'Got any spare pants?'
'Dirty bastard,' I reply with a 'sticking out tongue' emoji that makes
Lee laugh as we speed ahead of the car.
"Share the joke," Stuart insists.
"It's a dirty boy joke," I say, handing my phone to Stuart.
"Those are the best kind," Stuart says, before chortling loudly as he
reads the message exchange.
"Go on," Mikey says, before laughing himself as Stuart reads the three
messages to him. "Yeah- I think I'm gonna like him." That simple
sentence, even when said jokingly, is enough to warm my heart as we
head deeper into England. Stuart and his friends liking me is good.
Them liking Chloe as well is great, but if they like Lee and the rest
of the guys? That would be perfect. And just serves to hammer home how
intolerant my mother is, criticising me for preferring the company of
'nerds' to 'celebrities' when the celebrities themselves would much
rather hang out with nerds. And it's not like these trips to London
will be a regular thing- though that makes me more determined to make
the most of them when they do happen.
We arrive back in London just after 3pm, with me, Lee and Stuart being
dropped off at the older man's house, all three of us tired after our
long trip but still excited by tonight's party!
"Hi honey, I'm home!" Stuart laughs as he lets us in to the big, modern
house.
"In the living room," Jamie replies, before grinning as she sees that
her husband isn't alone. "Oh hey, Ian! SHORT time no see, hehe!"
"Hi Jamie!" I reply. "Hi Olivia!"